#autisticburnout — Public Fediverse posts

I guess I've over-exerted myself again. Just goes to show recovery from autistic burnout is not simple.

Had a pretty decent week or two, managed to do things I wanted, get back to do little peer-support stuff, go to the gym and swimming. Today I woke up with my anxiety meter topped out, and it's hard to even function. A small hiccup with something and now I'm wrecked. And the depression that comes along with it. I'm about ready to go back to bed and just cry.

There's some insights for me here, the main being that the more exhausted I'm getting, the worse my OCD traits, and my magical and catastrophic thinking become, and skill regression is still a real thing too. It feels like I'm hanging in a loose noose again, with my stuff, and that feeling is so terrible that...

So, instead of pushing it, today will be rest. And have to see what I can drop to manage in the longer run. This sucks, but... yeah... :meowcry:

#AutisticBurnout #ActuallyAutistic

Ok, I'm readjusting my goals. No more big plans or nothing like that, now the goal is to make it to next xmas and get myself a fricking big xmas tree and finally a proper set of xmas lights for it. That's it. Everything else is a bonus, if it happens.

#ActuallyAutistic #AutisticBurnout

The Journey of a Glass Child: Embracing Uniqueness

https://dreamspacestudio.net/the-journey-of-a-glass-child-embracing-uniqueness/

The Journey of a Glass Child: Embracing Uniqueness

https://dreamspacestudio.net/the-journey-of-a-glass-child-embracing-uniqueness/

The Journey of a Glass Child: Embracing Uniqueness

https://dreamspacestudio.net/the-journey-of-a-glass-child-embracing-uniqueness/

The Journey of a Glass Child: Embracing Uniqueness

https://dreamspacestudio.net/the-journey-of-a-glass-child-embracing-uniqueness/

The Journey of a Glass Child: Embracing Uniqueness

https://dreamspacestudio.net/the-journey-of-a-glass-child-embracing-uniqueness/

At times in my life when the external requirements on me have conflicted with my internal needs or reality, the dissonance between those two has proved immense, painful, energy draining, and lonely. 1/2

#AutisticBurnout #BurnoutRecovery #Burnout #ActuallyAutistic #AutisticMasking

At times in my life when the external requirements on me have conflicted with my internal needs or reality, the dissonance between those two has proved immense, painful, energy draining, and lonely. 1/2

#AutisticBurnout #BurnoutRecovery #Burnout #ActuallyAutistic #AutisticMasking

At times in my life when the external requirements on me have conflicted with my internal needs or reality, the dissonance between those two has proved immense, painful, energy draining, and lonely. 1/2

#AutisticBurnout #BurnoutRecovery #Burnout #ActuallyAutistic #AutisticMasking

At times in my life when the external requirements on me have conflicted with my internal needs or reality, the dissonance between those two has proved immense, painful, energy draining, and lonely. 1/2

#AutisticBurnout #BurnoutRecovery #Burnout #ActuallyAutistic #AutisticMasking

At times in my life when the external requirements on me have conflicted with my internal needs or reality, the dissonance between those two has proved immense, painful, energy draining, and lonely. 1/2

#AutisticBurnout #BurnoutRecovery #Burnout #ActuallyAutistic #AutisticMasking

Here's a hard truth. Even when things were at their hardest — I was surviving. I was making it.

Not always well. Not in any way I liked. But I was doing it.

Which meant I could do it. Which meant I could keep doing it. 1/2

#AutisticBurnout #BurnoutRecovery #Burnout #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #Neurodiversity

This review of autistic burnout might be useful to people who experience it.

https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0272735825001369?via%3Dihub

#Autism #autistic #neurodiverse @autistics #AutisticBurnout #ActuallyAutistic

This review of autistic burnout might be useful to people who experience it.

https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0272735825001369?via%3Dihub

#Autism #autistic #neurodiverse @autistics #AutisticBurnout #ActuallyAutistic

This review of autistic burnout might be useful to people who experience it.

https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0272735825001369?via%3Dihub

#Autism #autistic #neurodiverse @autistics #AutisticBurnout #ActuallyAutistic

This review of autistic burnout might be useful to people who experience it.

https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0272735825001369?via%3Dihub

#Autism #autistic #neurodiverse @autistics #AutisticBurnout #ActuallyAutistic

Hi, I’m Rook. I’m a 30-something nerdy #trans vixen.

I’ve been doing #WebDevelopment, #programming, and #database stuff since I was a kit, and I'm still loving it.

Currently, I am recovering from #AutisticBurnout and dealing with multiple #ChronicIllnesses.

Previously, I worked with complex #automation and #robotics systems in #HealthCare, doing a mix of #UserSupport, #SystemAdmin, and #DataAnalysis.

At home, I’m constantly tinkering with #SmartHome projects using #HomeAssistant, building my own #electronics, and battling my #3DPrinting hardware.

I also enjoy running around as a big, silly #fox in the #Furry fandom. #Fursuiter

I’m #ActuallyAutistic, #AuDHD, and #ADHD. I’m a proud #transgender member of the #LGBTQIA #queer community,

#introduction #reintroduction

Pushing past your capacity doesn't make you more productive.
It makes you burned out. And then you can't work at all. 1/3

#AutisticBurnout #BurnoutRecovery #Burnout #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD

Is your AuDHD business secretly set up to burn you out?

Take the 12-question quiz to find out.
https://buff.ly/qKZhXW5

#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #SelfEmployed #AutisticBurnout

Ich bin zwar glücklicherweise nicht von Long Covid betroffen, aber die Auswirkungen eines autistischen Burnouts und die von ME/CFS können in der Symptomatik (Erschöpfung/geringe Belastbarkeit) ähnlich sein.

Ich habe daher diesen Fragebogen für eine erste Selbsteinschätzung sehr hilfreich gefunden:

https://sgme.ch/funcap/

#AutistischerBurnout #mecfs #Autismus
#LebenMitAutismus #LebenMitHochbegabung #SpoonieLife #unsichtbareBehinderung #InvisibleDisability #autisticBurnout

edit: #

Autistic burnout isn’t just being "tired."

It is cellular-level energy depletion.

When you force yourself to mask and push through sensory overload, your body pays a steep price. Chronic adrenaline damages your mitochondria. This accumulated physical stress creates your allostatic load.

Stop trying to sleep off hardware damage.

#AutisticBurnout #AllostaticLoad #AuDHD

It's okay to start with the less bad option.

When I was rebuilding after burnout, I wasn't starting from a place of thriving. I was starting from a place of "what can I actually do right now?" 1/3

#AutisticBurnout #BurnoutRecovery #Burnout #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD

Your impulse to cut back on things has been spot on. But it matters what you're cutting back on.

Cutting back on work hours, without changing the actual conditions of your work, doesn't make as much difference as you'd hope. 1/3

#AutisticBurnout #BurnoutRecovery #Burnout #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD

Since I’ve been more active in both coaching and autism advocacy, people have asked me lots of questions. But one of the ones I get most often is, “How do I get out of burnout without changing much in my life?” 1/3

#AutisticBurnout #BurnoutRecovery #Burnout #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD

FYI, tomorrow is the last day for the early bird sign up bonus for my Autistic self-employment course.

Learn to build systems into your business that prevent burnout by design. It's not tips and tricks. Not "just rest more." It's real structure that creates the outcomes you want.

http://www.autismchrysalis.com/alchemy

#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #AutisticBusiness #Neurodivergent #SelfEmployment #AutisticBurnout #SmallBusiness

#AbendGedanken

Ich war heute Nachmittag mit einer lieben Kollegin in der Stadt zum Kaffeetrinken verabredet. Wirklich keine große Sache, nur ein bisschen Klönen, Updaten, Austausch in netter Umgebung.
Nach knapp eineinhalb Stunden haben wir uns verabschiedet, ich habe noch ein paar Sachen eingekauft - und habe es nur noch mit allergrößter Mühe nach Hause geschafft.
Und zuhause ging erstmal gar nichts mehr.

🧵 1/3

#LebenMitAutismus #SpoonieLife #Stimming #Overload #AutisticBurnout #Autismus

I don't usually eat pre-prepared meals, but when it means I won't just end up eating toast or crisps, it seems a better option. I really like this brand, which is all vegan and local to Melbourne.
#WhatVegansEat #VeganFood #Autism #autistic #neurodiverse #AutisticBurnout #ActuallyAutistic

I don't usually eat pre-prepared meals, but when it means I won't just end up eating toast or crisps, it seems a better option. I really like this brand, which is all vegan and local to Melbourne.
#WhatVegansEat #VeganFood #Autism #autistic #neurodiverse #AutisticBurnout #ActuallyAutistic

I don't usually eat pre-prepared meals, but when it means I won't just end up eating toast or crisps, it seems a better option. I really like this brand, which is all vegan and local to Melbourne.
#WhatVegansEat #VeganFood #Autism #autistic #neurodiverse #AutisticBurnout #ActuallyAutistic

I don't usually eat pre-prepared meals, but when it means I won't just end up eating toast or crisps, it seems a better option. I really like this brand, which is all vegan and local to Melbourne.
#WhatVegansEat #VeganFood #Autism #autistic #neurodiverse #AutisticBurnout #ActuallyAutistic

Is it depression or Autistic Burnout?
For years, I lived under the wrong diagnosis. Traditional treatments fail when we mistake a nervous system paralyzed by "masking" for a simple chemical imbalance.
In my latest article, I explore the neurobiology of burnout and the emerging role of psilocybin as a "window of plasticity" for the autistic brain.
Read the full piece here:
https://medium.com/the-unexpected-autistic-life/is-it-depression-or-autistic-burnout-why-the-difference-matters-for-psychedelic-therapy-589f0e108c91
#Neurodiversity #AutisticBurnout #MentalHealth #PsychedelicTherapy #Psilocybin #ActuallyAutistic

Is it depression or Autistic Burnout?
For years, I lived under the wrong diagnosis. Traditional treatments fail when we mistake a nervous system paralyzed by "masking" for a simple chemical imbalance.
In my latest article, I explore the neurobiology of burnout and the emerging role of psilocybin as a "window of plasticity" for the autistic brain.
Read the full piece here:
https://medium.com/the-unexpected-autistic-life/is-it-depression-or-autistic-burnout-why-the-difference-matters-for-psychedelic-therapy-589f0e108c91
#Neurodiversity #AutisticBurnout #MentalHealth #PsychedelicTherapy #Psilocybin #ActuallyAutistic

Is it depression or Autistic Burnout?
For years, I lived under the wrong diagnosis. Traditional treatments fail when we mistake a nervous system paralyzed by "masking" for a simple chemical imbalance.
In my latest article, I explore the neurobiology of burnout and the emerging role of psilocybin as a "window of plasticity" for the autistic brain.
Read the full piece here:
https://medium.com/the-unexpected-autistic-life/is-it-depression-or-autistic-burnout-why-the-difference-matters-for-psychedelic-therapy-589f0e108c91
#Neurodiversity #AutisticBurnout #MentalHealth #PsychedelicTherapy #Psilocybin #ActuallyAutistic

Is it depression or Autistic Burnout?
For years, I lived under the wrong diagnosis. Traditional treatments fail when we mistake a nervous system paralyzed by "masking" for a simple chemical imbalance.
In my latest article, I explore the neurobiology of burnout and the emerging role of psilocybin as a "window of plasticity" for the autistic brain.
Read the full piece here:
https://medium.com/the-unexpected-autistic-life/is-it-depression-or-autistic-burnout-why-the-difference-matters-for-psychedelic-therapy-589f0e108c91
#Neurodiversity #AutisticBurnout #MentalHealth #PsychedelicTherapy #Psilocybin #ActuallyAutistic

Is it depression or Autistic Burnout?
For years, I lived under the wrong diagnosis. Traditional treatments fail when we mistake a nervous system paralyzed by "masking" for a simple chemical imbalance.
In my latest article, I explore the neurobiology of burnout and the emerging role of psilocybin as a "window of plasticity" for the autistic brain.
Read the full piece here:
https://medium.com/the-unexpected-autistic-life/is-it-depression-or-autistic-burnout-why-the-difference-matters-for-psychedelic-therapy-589f0e108c91
#Neurodiversity #AutisticBurnout #MentalHealth #PsychedelicTherapy #Psilocybin #ActuallyAutistic

One of the things I figured out on my own self-discovery journey: not doing things that don't need to be done is one of the best uses of my time.

That sounds obvious. It wasn't obvious to me for a long time.

I spent years doing things out of obligation, habit, or fear of what it meant if I didn't stay busy. Turns out a lot of those things just... didn't need to happen.

#ActuallyAutistic #EnergyManagement #AuDHD #BurnoutRecovery #AutisticBurnout

One of the things I figured out on my own self-discovery journey: not doing things that don't need to be done is one of the best uses of my time.

That sounds obvious. It wasn't obvious to me for a long time.

I spent years doing things out of obligation, habit, or fear of what it meant if I didn't stay busy. Turns out a lot of those things just... didn't need to happen.

#ActuallyAutistic #EnergyManagement #AuDHD #BurnoutRecovery #AutisticBurnout

One of the things I figured out on my own self-discovery journey: not doing things that don't need to be done is one of the best uses of my time.

That sounds obvious. It wasn't obvious to me for a long time.

I spent years doing things out of obligation, habit, or fear of what it meant if I didn't stay busy. Turns out a lot of those things just... didn't need to happen.

#ActuallyAutistic #EnergyManagement #AuDHD #BurnoutRecovery #AutisticBurnout

One of the things I figured out on my own self-discovery journey: not doing things that don't need to be done is one of the best uses of my time.

That sounds obvious. It wasn't obvious to me for a long time.

I spent years doing things out of obligation, habit, or fear of what it meant if I didn't stay busy. Turns out a lot of those things just... didn't need to happen.

#ActuallyAutistic #EnergyManagement #AuDHD #BurnoutRecovery #AutisticBurnout

In burnout, your brain and nervous system are struggling to keep up with unreasonable demands, and have gone into a self-protection mode.

Try to honor that, and give yourself compassion.
1/2

#AutisticBurnout #BurnoutRecovery #Burnout #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD

Getting out of burnout isn’t just getting some energy, getting a little motivation and then doing stuff the same way again. It’s doing things in a different way, so that you don’t go into burnout again.

#AutisticBurnout #BurnoutRecovery #Burnout #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD

#Abendgedanken

Mein Leben lang habe ich das Gefühl, ein #Alien zu sein.
Mit 40 wird bei mir #Hochbegabung festgestellt.
Ein Mosaiksteichen
Mit 55 erhalte ich die Diagnose Autismus.
Das letzte Mosaiksteinchen?!
Endlich Klarheit?!

Doch dann implodiert mein Akku -
und nichts ist mehr, wie es mal war.

Ich suche wieder.
Und unter den Trümmern finde ich mich, Stück für Stück, ohne Maske, ohne Tarnmantel.

Und richte mich wieder auf.
Langsam, müde, aber am Leben.

#autismus #autisticburnout

🦋

Between Belonging

I've been doing a lot of shedding lately. Identities, communities, masks I didn't even know I was wearing. And in the quieter moments I've started to notice what's left when all of that falls away.

The thing that's true across every version of me, every role, every phase, every room I've learned to navigate, is that I care deeply. I always have. And for a long time I hid that, because caring deeply isn't always safe.

I've moved through a lot of spaces over the years. Each one met a real need for a season. Each one also had edges I learned to stay inside. So I got good at managing what I showed and where. It works. And it's exhausting.

What I've been slowly understanding is that I don't miss the spaces so much as I miss what I felt in them. Being listened to. Being known. Having somewhere to bring my feelings, my questions, my grief, my half-formed hopes. And having someone meet me there with genuine curiosity and kindness.

My husband still gives me all of that. Even after all these years. But something in me wants more than one place to feel that way. Not an audience. Not a group organized around a cause or a wound. Just a handful of people I don't have to translate myself for.

I'm in a slow season of integration right now. Learning to be a better steward of myself. Learning that I don't have to explain everything; sometimes I can just feel it.

But I also miss talking. Really talking. And I'm starting to believe I deserve a place to do that again.

If any of this lands for you, if you've ever felt the specific ache of being known in pieces but not as a whole, I'd love to hear that I'm not alone in it.

#audhd #autisticwomen #hsp #autisticburnout #integration

Between Belonging

I've been doing a lot of shedding lately. Identities, communities, masks I didn't even know I was wearing. And in the quieter moments I've started to notice what's left when all of that falls away.

The thing that's true across every version of me, every role, every phase, every room I've learned to navigate, is that I care deeply. I always have. And for a long time I hid that, because caring deeply isn't always safe.

I've moved through a lot of spaces over the years. Each one met a real need for a season. Each one also had edges I learned to stay inside. So I got good at managing what I showed and where. It works. And it's exhausting.

What I've been slowly understanding is that I don't miss the spaces so much as I miss what I felt in them. Being listened to. Being known. Having somewhere to bring my feelings, my questions, my grief, my half-formed hopes. And having someone meet me there with genuine curiosity and kindness.

My husband still gives me all of that. Even after all these years. But something in me wants more than one place to feel that way. Not an audience. Not a group organized around a cause or a wound. Just a handful of people I don't have to translate myself for.

I'm in a slow season of integration right now. Learning to be a better steward of myself. Learning that I don't have to explain everything; sometimes I can just feel it.

But I also miss talking. Really talking. And I'm starting to believe I deserve a place to do that again.

If any of this lands for you, if you've ever felt the specific ache of being known in pieces but not as a whole, I'd love to hear that I'm not alone in it.

#audhd #autisticwomen #hsp #autisticburnout #integration

Between Belonging

I've been doing a lot of shedding lately. Identities, communities, masks I didn't even know I was wearing. And in the quieter moments I've started to notice what's left when all of that falls away.

The thing that's true across every version of me, every role, every phase, every room I've learned to navigate, is that I care deeply. I always have. And for a long time I hid that, because caring deeply isn't always safe.

I've moved through a lot of spaces over the years. Each one met a real need for a season. Each one also had edges I learned to stay inside. So I got good at managing what I showed and where. It works. And it's exhausting.

What I've been slowly understanding is that I don't miss the spaces so much as I miss what I felt in them. Being listened to. Being known. Having somewhere to bring my feelings, my questions, my grief, my half-formed hopes. And having someone meet me there with genuine curiosity and kindness.

My husband still gives me all of that. Even after all these years. But something in me wants more than one place to feel that way. Not an audience. Not a group organized around a cause or a wound. Just a handful of people I don't have to translate myself for.

I'm in a slow season of integration right now. Learning to be a better steward of myself. Learning that I don't have to explain everything; sometimes I can just feel it.

But I also miss talking. Really talking. And I'm starting to believe I deserve a place to do that again.

If any of this lands for you, if you've ever felt the specific ache of being known in pieces but not as a whole, I'd love to hear that I'm not alone in it.

#audhd #autisticwomen #hsp #autisticburnout #integration

Between Belonging

I've been doing a lot of shedding lately. Identities, communities, masks I didn't even know I was wearing. And in the quieter moments I've started to notice what's left when all of that falls away.

The thing that's true across every version of me, every role, every phase, every room I've learned to navigate, is that I care deeply. I always have. And for a long time I hid that, because caring deeply isn't always safe.

I've moved through a lot of spaces over the years. Each one met a real need for a season. Each one also had edges I learned to stay inside. So I got good at managing what I showed and where. It works. And it's exhausting.

What I've been slowly understanding is that I don't miss the spaces so much as I miss what I felt in them. Being listened to. Being known. Having somewhere to bring my feelings, my questions, my grief, my half-formed hopes. And having someone meet me there with genuine curiosity and kindness.

My husband still gives me all of that. Even after all these years. But something in me wants more than one place to feel that way. Not an audience. Not a group organized around a cause or a wound. Just a handful of people I don't have to translate myself for.

I'm in a slow season of integration right now. Learning to be a better steward of myself. Learning that I don't have to explain everything; sometimes I can just feel it.

But I also miss talking. Really talking. And I'm starting to believe I deserve a place to do that again.

If any of this lands for you, if you've ever felt the specific ache of being known in pieces but not as a whole, I'd love to hear that I'm not alone in it.

#audhd #autisticwomen #hsp #autisticburnout #integration

Between Belonging

I've been doing a lot of shedding lately. Identities, communities, masks I didn't even know I was wearing. And in the quieter moments I've started to notice what's left when all of that falls away.

The thing that's true across every version of me, every role, every phase, every room I've learned to navigate, is that I care deeply. I always have. And for a long time I hid that, because caring deeply isn't always safe.

I've moved through a lot of spaces over the years. Each one met a real need for a season. Each one also had edges I learned to stay inside. So I got good at managing what I showed and where. It works. And it's exhausting.

What I've been slowly understanding is that I don't miss the spaces so much as I miss what I felt in them. Being listened to. Being known. Having somewhere to bring my feelings, my questions, my grief, my half-formed hopes. And having someone meet me there with genuine curiosity and kindness.

My husband still gives me all of that. Even after all these years. But something in me wants more than one place to feel that way. Not an audience. Not a group organized around a cause or a wound. Just a handful of people I don't have to translate myself for.

I'm in a slow season of integration right now. Learning to be a better steward of myself. Learning that I don't have to explain everything; sometimes I can just feel it.

But I also miss talking. Really talking. And I'm starting to believe I deserve a place to do that again.

If any of this lands for you, if you've ever felt the specific ache of being known in pieces but not as a whole, I'd love to hear that I'm not alone in it.

#audhd #autisticwomen #hsp #autisticburnout #integration

Autistic Burnout Recovery Is About Reducing Dissonance

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E2jv3iSInkU

#AutisticBurnout #BurnoutRecovery #Burnout #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD

The Impact Of Internal Awareness On Your Energy Levels

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SMpmCe_uv2I

#ActuallyAutistic #EnergyManagement #AuDHD #BurnoutRecovery #AutisticBurnout