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  1. You do not lack discipline. The brain processes time differently.

    Digital clocks fail to translate abstract numbers into intuitive blocks. Build visual supports. Map time with physical shapes and analog timers.

    #TimeBlindness #Neurodivergent #VisualTimer

  2. Time is more than a clock. It is neurology.

    ADHD often causes time blindness. The concept of time simply splits into "now" versus "not now."

    Autistic individuals face autistic inertia. Changing tasks creates intense friction.

    Which do you experience?

    #AuDHD #TimeBlindness #AutisticInertia

  3. Time is more than a clock. It is neurology.

    ADHD often causes time blindness. The concept of time simply splits into "now" versus "not now."

    Autistic individuals face autistic inertia. Changing tasks creates intense friction.

    Which do you experience?

    #AuDHD #TimeBlindness #AutisticInertia

  4. Time is more than a clock. It is neurology.

    ADHD often causes time blindness. The concept of time simply splits into "now" versus "not now."

    Autistic individuals face autistic inertia. Changing tasks creates intense friction.

    Which do you experience?

    #AuDHD #TimeBlindness #AutisticInertia

  5. Time is more than a clock. It is neurology.

    ADHD often causes time blindness. The concept of time simply splits into "now" versus "not now."

    Autistic individuals face autistic inertia. Changing tasks creates intense friction.

    Which do you experience?

    #AuDHD #TimeBlindness #AutisticInertia

  6. Time is more than a clock. It is neurology.

    ADHD often causes time blindness. The concept of time simply splits into "now" versus "not now."

    Autistic individuals face autistic inertia. Changing tasks creates intense friction.

    Which do you experience?

    #AuDHD #TimeBlindness #AutisticInertia

  7. I’m not diagnosed (yet) but I’ve recently started to suspect I have ADHD due to “time blindness” which is most noticeable when I experience hyper-focus and time loss.

    Anyone have experience with this?

    simplypsychology.org/adhd-time

    #TimeBlindness #ADHD

  8. I suffer from a variant of this, events sneak up on me, I need reminders, though I haven't come up with a good system, holidays, birthdays, etc often escape me unless I make a conscientious effort to keep track of them. On the other hand I do fine on small scale, need to be somewhere by 10? Sure, I'll prolly be early as I always pad things to insure I won't be late. Lots of things to do today? Yep, easy-peasy, we got this.

    https://www.huffpost.com/entry/time-blindness-adhd_l_69b981c5e4b09a39145edc75


    #Life #••Life #Time-Blindness #Mental-Health
  9. The automation fires at -60, -30, -15, and -5 minutes before each event.
    Why four offsets instead of one?
    Because ADHD time isn't linear.
    ⏰ 1 hour out = abstract concept
    ⏰ 15 minutes = okay this is happening
    ⏰ 5 minutes = body, we are LEAVING
    It also speaks the event name — not just "something is starting soon."
    Context is the whole point.
    #ADHD #TimeBlindness #HomeAutomation

  10. Audra: “So, there are two words for ‘now’ in Ukrainian: зараз and тепер. And I have never thought of the word зараз as now, I always had it in my head that it meant soon… And now I’m wondering if this explains…”

    Me: “… why you’re always late?”

    Audra: “I guess… I think it’s actually a disconnect. Like, you ask if I’m on the way and you think I mean now, but I don’t. I actually mean soon.”

    😆

    #ukrainian #language #timeblindness #adhd

  11. @actuallyadhd @autistics

    Hmm 🤔. Seriously wondering if I've lost an hour or if BST just started in the middle of my evening in the middle of the week?

    I'm guessing the former but it really feels like a switch was flipped & the day / clocks just jumped forward by an hour in the blink of an eye.

    This makes me sad & mad 😞😣😠.
    I hate it when both my autistic & ADHD selves gang up on me.
    Evening plans wrecked or tomorrow wrecked if stubborn me comes along & plays along with insomnia.

    #AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic
    #TimeBlindness #ExecutiveDysfunction

  12. "If we leave at around 5 we can go get food before the show".

    5:01pm, I'm fully dressed and made-up, tickets downloaded to my phone..... and they're in the shower.

    Quick take-out from the little Bao place instead of the sit-down for ramen that I'd been thinking of, then. Good thing there's lots of options between home and the venue.

    The joys of a partner with severe time-blindness to accompany their ADHD.

    #timeblindness #adhd #datenight

  13. Dear Old Git Time,

    Please rewind, hold your horses, slow down, chill, take a break, hit pause, back it up, go back a bit, and a bit more, give me a chance, calm down dear, for the love of sanity STOP!

    Yours Sincerely,
    Tired of Always Losing Huge Chunks of My Day

    #AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #TimeBlindness #ExecutiveDysfunction #Burnout #Spoons #NoSpoons

  14. @actuallyadhd @autistics

    I seem to have identified a bug in my systems.
    No matter how much time (in hours not minutes) I give myself to wrap my head around prepping & even starting to prep for eventually going to be at or if possible before midnight, I somehow still end up not getting to bed till 02:00 give or take half an hour.

    I can feel completely zonked all day or all evening due to short nights of sleep if I have to get up early. It makes no sense. I think I need to start using a metaphorical hammer & somehow persuade myself that the world won't end if I do that thing tomorrow or those things the day after.

    It does seem to be because there's that one thing, out of many that's been hanging over me for days, weeks, months or longer & today was going to be the day. So it may be late but this maybe the only time I have a set of spoons the right shape or strong enough to deal with this task. It's now or never.

    It can be a small complex task, revamping bullet journal templates in my more app, sorting out all the stages for a future batch cook or a long laborious one involving things I'm not keen on like clearing up cobwebs & bugs 😱 or unidentified spills, dirt & giant dust bunnies 🤢.

    I've tried reminders, alarms. I've planned days where everything has all the time I need & more but inevitably this either leads to stagnation because I'm so out of spoons not helped by the side effects of lack of sleep. Alternatively, the ADHD trait of getting sidetracked comes along & nixes my timings & tasks.
    I've tried getting up earlier which, unless I have an early enough appointment or planned activity with or for other people generally fail to launch on time or if I survived the important thing in the early hours, I'm then a zombie & spend more time just sitting, gathering dice / spoons by not doing anything.

    I keep telling myself I'll figure it out & find a way but I'm not sure I'm wired to ever find a fix for getting myself to bed before midnight.

    #AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #TimeBlindness #ExecutiveDysfunction #LackOfFocus #SelfCare #Life #Sleep #SleepProblems

  15. @actuallyadhd @autistics

    I seem to have identified a bug in my systems.
    No matter how much time (in hours not minutes) I give myself to wrap my head around prepping & even starting to prep for eventually going to be at or if possible before midnight, I somehow still end up not getting to bed till 02:00 give or take half an hour.

    I can feel completely zonked all day or all evening due to short nights of sleep if I have to get up early. It makes no sense. I think I need to start using a metaphorical hammer & somehow persuade myself that the world won't end if I do that thing tomorrow or those things the day after.

    It does seem to be because there's that one thing, out of many that's been hanging over me for days, weeks, months or longer & today was going to be the day. So it may be late but this maybe the only time I have a set of spoons the right shape or strong enough to deal with this task. It's now or never.

    It can be a small complex task, revamping bullet journal templates in my more app, sorting out all the stages for a future batch cook or a long laborious one involving things I'm not keen on like clearing up cobwebs & bugs 😱 or unidentified spills, dirt & giant dust bunnies 🤢.

    I've tried reminders, alarms. I've planned days where everything has all the time I need & more but inevitably this either leads to stagnation because I'm so out of spoons not helped by the side effects of lack of sleep. Alternatively, the ADHD trait of getting sidetracked comes along & nixes my timings & tasks.
    I've tried getting up earlier which, unless I have an early enough appointment or planned activity with or for other people generally fail to launch on time or if I survived the important thing in the early hours, I'm then a zombie & spend more time just sitting, gathering dice / spoons by not doing anything.

    I keep telling myself I'll figure it out & find a way but I'm not sure I'm wired to ever find a fix for getting myself to bed before midnight.

    #AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #TimeBlindness #ExecutiveDysfunction #LackOfFocus #SelfCare #Life #Sleep #SleepProblems

  16. @actuallyadhd @autistics

    I seem to have identified a bug in my systems.
    No matter how much time (in hours not minutes) I give myself to wrap my head around prepping & even starting to prep for eventually going to be at or if possible before midnight, I somehow still end up not getting to bed till 02:00 give or take half an hour.

    I can feel completely zonked all day or all evening due to short nights of sleep if I have to get up early. It makes no sense. I think I need to start using a metaphorical hammer & somehow persuade myself that the world won't end if I do that thing tomorrow or those things the day after.

    It does seem to be because there's that one thing, out of many that's been hanging over me for days, weeks, months or longer & today was going to be the day. So it may be late but this maybe the only time I have a set of spoons the right shape or strong enough to deal with this task. It's now or never.

    It can be a small complex task, revamping bullet journal templates in my more app, sorting out all the stages for a future batch cook or a long laborious one involving things I'm not keen on like clearing up cobwebs & bugs 😱 or unidentified spills, dirt & giant dust bunnies 🤢.

    I've tried reminders, alarms. I've planned days where everything has all the time I need & more but inevitably this either leads to stagnation because I'm so out of spoons not helped by the side effects of lack of sleep. Alternatively, the ADHD trait of getting sidetracked comes along & nixes my timings & tasks.
    I've tried getting up earlier which, unless I have an early enough appointment or planned activity with or for other people generally fail to launch on time or if I survived the important thing in the early hours, I'm then a zombie & spend more time just sitting, gathering dice / spoons by not doing anything.

    I keep telling myself I'll figure it out & find a way but I'm not sure I'm wired to ever find a fix for getting myself to bed before midnight.

    #AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #TimeBlindness #ExecutiveDysfunction #LackOfFocus #SelfCare #Life #Sleep #SleepProblems

  17. @actuallyadhd @autistics

    I seem to have identified a bug in my systems.
    No matter how much time (in hours not minutes) I give myself to wrap my head around prepping & even starting to prep for eventually going to be at or if possible before midnight, I somehow still end up not getting to bed till 02:00 give or take half an hour.

    I can feel completely zonked all day or all evening due to short nights of sleep if I have to get up early. It makes no sense. I think I need to start using a metaphorical hammer & somehow persuade myself that the world won't end if I do that thing tomorrow or those things the day after.

    It does seem to be because there's that one thing, out of many that's been hanging over me for days, weeks, months or longer & today was going to be the day. So it may be late but this maybe the only time I have a set of spoons the right shape or strong enough to deal with this task. It's now or never.

    It can be a small complex task, revamping bullet journal templates in my more app, sorting out all the stages for a future batch cook or a long laborious one involving things I'm not keen on like clearing up cobwebs & bugs 😱 or unidentified spills, dirt & giant dust bunnies 🤢.

    I've tried reminders, alarms. I've planned days where everything has all the time I need & more but inevitably this either leads to stagnation because I'm so out of spoons not helped by the side effects of lack of sleep. Alternatively, the ADHD trait of getting sidetracked comes along & nixes my timings & tasks.
    I've tried getting up earlier which, unless I have an early enough appointment or planned activity with or for other people generally fail to launch on time or if I survived the important thing in the early hours, I'm then a zombie & spend more time just sitting, gathering dice / spoons by not doing anything.

    I keep telling myself I'll figure it out & find a way but I'm not sure I'm wired to ever find a fix for getting myself to bed before midnight.

    #AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #TimeBlindness #ExecutiveDysfunction #LackOfFocus #SelfCare #Life #Sleep #SleepProblems

  18. @actuallyadhd @autistics

    I seem to have identified a bug in my systems.
    No matter how much time (in hours not minutes) I give myself to wrap my head around prepping & even starting to prep for eventually going to be at or if possible before midnight, I somehow still end up not getting to bed till 02:00 give or take half an hour.

    I can feel completely zonked all day or all evening due to short nights of sleep if I have to get up early. It makes no sense. I think I need to start using a metaphorical hammer & somehow persuade myself that the world won't end if I do that thing tomorrow or those things the day after.

    It does seem to be because there's that one thing, out of many that's been hanging over me for days, weeks, months or longer & today was going to be the day. So it may be late but this maybe the only time I have a set of spoons the right shape or strong enough to deal with this task. It's now or never.

    It can be a small complex task, revamping bullet journal templates in my more app, sorting out all the stages for a future batch cook or a long laborious one involving things I'm not keen on like clearing up cobwebs & bugs 😱 or unidentified spills, dirt & giant dust bunnies 🤢.

    I've tried reminders, alarms. I've planned days where everything has all the time I need & more but inevitably this either leads to stagnation because I'm so out of spoons not helped by the side effects of lack of sleep. Alternatively, the ADHD trait of getting sidetracked comes along & nixes my timings & tasks.
    I've tried getting up earlier which, unless I have an early enough appointment or planned activity with or for other people generally fail to launch on time or if I survived the important thing in the early hours, I'm then a zombie & spend more time just sitting, gathering dice / spoons by not doing anything.

    I keep telling myself I'll figure it out & find a way but I'm not sure I'm wired to ever find a fix for getting myself to bed before midnight.

    #AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #TimeBlindness #ExecutiveDysfunction #LackOfFocus #SelfCare #Life #Sleep #SleepProblems

  19. @actuallyadhd @autistics

    My getting up has slipped into the afternoons & I'm not happy about it.
    Especially as in a few days I'll have to be up before 07:00 to be able to spend the day on an outing with friends. 🫣

    Stricter morning routine?
    - Alarm goes, switch on radio or preselected podcast instead of noticing the Mastodon notifications so I don't vanish down a 40+ notification hole?
    🤔 … 🤔 In theory very easy to do, in practice very difficult to stick to, as my AuDHD screams for comfort from not being ready to face the day.

    - Swap chores around with things I enjoy, want to get stuck into?
    My big worry is that once I start the thing I want to do I will ignore all cues for stopping & doing the 'must do' tasks.

    One possible fix for ignoring cues, is have lunch be the cut off point as I, like a lot of critters can be greatly motivated by food.
    Current problem, lunch is around 18:00 give or take an hour & as I'm painfully aware of it being evening my brain & body default to evening mode, time to read or ideally, relax so those 'must do' tasks have pretty much a zero chance of happening.

    I guess, I might be spending some time working this one out this afternoon / evening. I don't mind spending my evenings messing with dilemmas like this, as long as I can shove a movie I enjoy on whilst I'm doing it 🙂.
    … That's if I remember 😅.

    #AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic
    #Hyperfocus #TimeBlindness #ExecutiveDysfunction
    #MindFog #Burnout #Spoons #NoSpoons #LackOfFocus #SelfCare

  20. @actuallyadhd @autistics

    My getting up has slipped into the afternoons & I'm not happy about it.
    Especially as in a few days I'll have to be up before 07:00 to be able to spend the day on an outing with friends. 🫣

    Stricter morning routine?
    - Alarm goes, switch on radio or preselected podcast instead of noticing the Mastodon notifications so I don't vanish down a 40+ notification hole?
    🤔 … 🤔 In theory very easy to do, in practice very difficult to stick to, as my AuDHD screams for comfort from not being ready to face the day.

    - Swap chores around with things I enjoy, want to get stuck into?
    My big worry is that once I start the thing I want to do I will ignore all cues for stopping & doing the 'must do' tasks.

    One possible fix for ignoring cues, is have lunch be the cut off point as I, like a lot of critters can be greatly motivated by food.
    Current problem, lunch is around 18:00 give or take an hour & as I'm painfully aware of it being evening my brain & body default to evening mode, time to read or ideally, relax so those 'must do' tasks have pretty much a zero chance of happening.

    I guess, I might be spending some time working this one out this afternoon / evening. I don't mind spending my evenings messing with dilemmas like this, as long as I can shove a movie I enjoy on whilst I'm doing it 🙂.
    … That's if I remember 😅.

    #AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic
    #Hyperfocus #TimeBlindness #ExecutiveDysfunction
    #MindFog #Burnout #Spoons #NoSpoons #LackOfFocus #SelfCare

  21. @actuallyadhd @autistics

    My getting up has slipped into the afternoons & I'm not happy about it.
    Especially as in a few days I'll have to be up before 07:00 to be able to spend the day on an outing with friends. 🫣

    Stricter morning routine?
    - Alarm goes, switch on radio or preselected podcast instead of noticing the Mastodon notifications so I don't vanish down a 40+ notification hole?
    🤔 … 🤔 In theory very easy to do, in practice very difficult to stick to, as my AuDHD screams for comfort from not being ready to face the day.

    - Swap chores around with things I enjoy, want to get stuck into?
    My big worry is that once I start the thing I want to do I will ignore all cues for stopping & doing the 'must do' tasks.

    One possible fix for ignoring cues, is have lunch be the cut off point as I, like a lot of critters can be greatly motivated by food.
    Current problem, lunch is around 18:00 give or take an hour & as I'm painfully aware of it being evening my brain & body default to evening mode, time to read or ideally, relax so those 'must do' tasks have pretty much a zero chance of happening.

    I guess, I might be spending some time working this one out this afternoon / evening. I don't mind spending my evenings messing with dilemmas like this, as long as I can shove a movie I enjoy on whilst I'm doing it 🙂.
    … That's if I remember 😅.

    #AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic
    #Hyperfocus #TimeBlindness #ExecutiveDysfunction
    #MindFog #Burnout #Spoons #NoSpoons #LackOfFocus #SelfCare

  22. @actuallyadhd @autistics

    My getting up has slipped into the afternoons & I'm not happy about it.
    Especially as in a few days I'll have to be up before 07:00 to be able to spend the day on an outing with friends. 🫣

    Stricter morning routine?
    - Alarm goes, switch on radio or preselected podcast instead of noticing the Mastodon notifications so I don't vanish down a 40+ notification hole?
    🤔 … 🤔 In theory very easy to do, in practice very difficult to stick to, as my AuDHD screams for comfort from not being ready to face the day.

    - Swap chores around with things I enjoy, want to get stuck into?
    My big worry is that once I start the thing I want to do I will ignore all cues for stopping & doing the 'must do' tasks.

    One possible fix for ignoring cues, is have lunch be the cut off point as I, like a lot of critters can be greatly motivated by food.
    Current problem, lunch is around 18:00 give or take an hour & as I'm painfully aware of it being evening my brain & body default to evening mode, time to read or ideally, relax so those 'must do' tasks have pretty much a zero chance of happening.

    I guess, I might be spending some time working this one out this afternoon / evening. I don't mind spending my evenings messing with dilemmas like this, as long as I can shove a movie I enjoy on whilst I'm doing it 🙂.
    … That's if I remember 😅.

    #AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic
    #Hyperfocus #TimeBlindness #ExecutiveDysfunction
    #MindFog #Burnout #Spoons #NoSpoons #LackOfFocus #SelfCare

  23. @actuallyadhd @autistics

    My getting up has slipped into the afternoons & I'm not happy about it.
    Especially as in a few days I'll have to be up before 07:00 to be able to spend the day on an outing with friends. 🫣

    Stricter morning routine?
    - Alarm goes, switch on radio or preselected podcast instead of noticing the Mastodon notifications so I don't vanish down a 40+ notification hole?
    🤔 … 🤔 In theory very easy to do, in practice very difficult to stick to, as my AuDHD screams for comfort from not being ready to face the day.

    - Swap chores around with things I enjoy, want to get stuck into?
    My big worry is that once I start the thing I want to do I will ignore all cues for stopping & doing the 'must do' tasks.

    One possible fix for ignoring cues, is have lunch be the cut off point as I, like a lot of critters can be greatly motivated by food.
    Current problem, lunch is around 18:00 give or take an hour & as I'm painfully aware of it being evening my brain & body default to evening mode, time to read or ideally, relax so those 'must do' tasks have pretty much a zero chance of happening.

    I guess, I might be spending some time working this one out this afternoon / evening. I don't mind spending my evenings messing with dilemmas like this, as long as I can shove a movie I enjoy on whilst I'm doing it 🙂.
    … That's if I remember 😅.

    #AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic
    #Hyperfocus #TimeBlindness #ExecutiveDysfunction
    #MindFog #Burnout #Spoons #NoSpoons #LackOfFocus #SelfCare

  24. @actuallyadhd @autistics
    I keep forgetting that even good being social knocks me so far sideways that all I've managed is a bit of washing up & hanging washing.
    Whilst I loaded & started the washing around midday, it was something after 18:00 before I even got anything else done.

    Just about managed feeding myself, even though I was hungry for tea I had zero idea or enthusiasm for cooking. Plan A failed as I didn't have any mixed veg in the freezer to go with whatever tinned thing I picked.
    Plan B just about made it.

    🎶 Hello AuDHD,
    it's nice to talk with you ag-

    OK! Come back here! …

    My plans for getting a decent start on decorations flunked & has not returned.
    Just finished tea 'bout half an hour ago & it's already pretty much supper time, if I want a chance of waking up early enough & feeling remotely productive tomorrow, that is.

    #AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #Burnout #Spoons #NoSpoons #SelfCare #TimeBlindness #ExecutiveDysfunction

  25. @actuallyadhd @autistics

    Cannot believe how a quick session of messing with the computer, remembering & refamiliarising myself with Obsidian & SyncThing up ended my day.
    A pre breakfast half an hour turned out to have plowed through both breakfast & lunch & into early mid-afternoon territory 😂.

    Plans in ruins, important tasks shunted as my brain was pickled or something.
    Something, something hyperfocus, time blindness & executive dysfunction lead to something & dehydration. Why can't this trifecta happen when I need it?
    I'd plough through all my tasks & then spend the last hours of the day restocking my body's calorie & liquid stores whilst unwinding with some movies or episodes 😎.

    #AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic
    #Hyperfocus #TimeBlindness #ExecutiveDysfunction

  26. Really struggling with time management. My day can really get eaten up by time spent transitioning from one thing to another or trying to make decisions.

    It leaves me with a constant sense of being rushed and pressed for time.

    Trying to take note about where time goes exactly. Certain things eat up a lot more time than I realize and then, alternately, I will put off doing some very quick thing because I think it will take a much longer time.

    Intention seems like a possible way to ward against this, but I am not always able to focus my mind enough to really see clearly what I want or need to do…

    It seems and feels literally crazy not to be able to think and act in the way that I want to.

    :bunhdidle: #audhd #timeblindness

  27. It could just be me, but I have to set alarms and reminders on my watch because I will forget that I have food being made in the air fryer or food left out to defrost. #adhd #timeblindness #whatistime

  28. It could just be me, but I have to set alarms and reminders on my watch because I will forget that I have food being made in the air fryer or food left out to defrost. #adhd #timeblindness #whatistime

  29. It could just be me, but I have to set alarms and reminders on my watch because I will forget that I have food being made in the air fryer or food left out to defrost. #adhd #timeblindness #whatistime

  30. It could just be me, but I have to set alarms and reminders on my watch because I will forget that I have food being made in the air fryer or food left out to defrost.

  31. It could just be me, but I have to set alarms and reminders on my watch because I will forget that I have food being made in the air fryer or food left out to defrost. #adhd #timeblindness #whatistime

  32. #ADHD moment 9,975,271: I looked at my watch, saw I had 5 minutes u til my scheduled lunch, somehow got so distracted I ended up pulling books to withdraw for an hour and 20 minutes, then realized what time it was when my cart was overflowing with books and I could barely push it back to my desk. #HyperFocus #TimeBlindness

  33. “Time flies when you’re having fun.” Or a specific kind of miserable.
    Brought to you by ADHD and that last 20% of a coding task that takes 80% of the time because it should have just worked.
    #ADHD #TimeBlindness #frustration #programming

  34. So I Think I May Be More Aroace Than Originally Estimated??

    I’ve been doing some Thinking about how my brain works, and it would seem that my particular DICK HEAD COMBINATION OF AUDHD gives me the worst traits of both autism AND ADHD. Like, if given enough stimulants and time, I can hyperfocus forever on something I’m fascinated with to the point where I learn an ungodly amount of information about it and retain nearly all of it. Not just that, but I make creations with that knowledge, too. This fucking blog, for example. It’s linked in with the Fediverse via ActivityPub and Alex Kirk’s masterful Friends plugins, etc.. My numerous special interests have been combining, reshuffling and making unholy bastard children in my mental Back 40 on this tiny hell site since May because of the way my cracked brainhole works.

    Conversely, in order to socialize, I have to focus on whatever social thing is going on around me completely and let myself dissolve into it. Switching between whatever the fuck project has taken hold of my mind and going into a social activity of any form is a multistep process that requires me ACTUALLY MANUALLY SHIFTING MY BRAIN AWAY from the project rabbit hole and into the social one. And there is a grouchy hell to pay if I’m interrupted mid project.

    However, I thought about it a step further. I have pretty much always been able to discern the difference between the feelings I get when the various happy chemicals, dopamine, oxytocin, and serotonin, are triggered in my brain, body, etc., and upon further contemplation, I began to wonder if that’s why my particular bastard flavor of AuDHD is such a bastard to begin with. Because what I noticed from years of combing back through my system’s memories both pre and most massive integration is that my happy chemicals seem to be fucking heavily partitioned, and perhaps that’s why I can discern the difference between the feelings they give me in the first place. Hence that’s probably why I have to manually shift between projects (dopamine) and socializing (oxytocin).

    Serotonin is a whole other can of worms for me and I have to manually induce that bitch, too. It often takes days and that’s a whole OTHER post. I might write about that bastard chemical later, lol. She is a cruel mistress 🤣

    Last night, a long time aroace friend dropped me into a Facebook group called [aroace confusion intensifies]. I’ve identified as demi-aromantic/demi-asexual for some time, but as I kept relating to more and more posts, I thought more and more about the happy chemical partition theory I have going and all of my relationships, both current and past, and how my batshit brain might play into ALLLL of that.

    Now, I do experience attraction to SOME people. But with the whole “having to shift my brain manually into a state where it won’t scream when I need to socialize” thing, the frequency in which I fall into random projects, and the fact that I experience a near complete lack of linear time and object permanence, said attraction takes a VERY LONG TIME to form, if it ever forms at all. Deep, genuine, romantic attachment to a person takes EVEN FUCKING LONGER. Because what the ENTIRE fuck is a “romance” as society has established it, anyway? So it takes my crippled ass YEARS sometimes to get a damned clue. And I think my cracked brainhole is why, lmao. Polyamory has been a lifesaver in that regard because in order to have a healthy polyamorous relationship, the people involved HAVE TO ENGAGE IN A HEFTY AMOUNT OF NEGOTIATION FROM THE OUTSET about expectations and things about the relationship, which my clueless ass can DEFINITELY get behind. 🤣

    So unfortunately, when person number ten billion comes up to me is like “LAZARUS. I LOVE YOUR WORK. I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU. PLEASEEEEEE DATE ME, ETC”, more often than not, I have just emerged from my mental Laz Cave, haven’t seen or interacted with a soul in fourteen hours or more, and haven’t shifted into Oxytocin Mode yet, which is necessary for human bonding, so I’m like,

    “uh. What year is it again?”

    Stay tuned for more (brainhole) magic, gremlins.

    -Lazarus

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  35. @miekeroth

    Hilarity ensues as my AuDHD #hyperfocus then directed me to start writing a blog on… you guessed it:

    Hyperfocus - one of the #Neurodiverse superpowers.

    Of course, it has downsides like #TimeBlindness. Case in point it is almost 2AM here. I am exhausted. May the passion return tomorrow.

  36. #adhd friends: One of my adhd female friends asked for effective strategies for scheduling and #TimeBlindness due to being chronically late. If anyone has any great tips or resources, let me know. This has become a much less frequent issue for me now that my schedule and commitments have all drastically reduced.

  37. ADHDers!
    I just discovered an app (FREE. WITH NO ADS) that's amazing for timekeeping your tasks!

    It's called Clockify.
    You also get proper graphs/stats of how you spend your time as you use it more. I really hope this sticks for me because it's been great :artaww:

    #adhd #neurodivergent #clockify #timeblindness

  38. My thinking and habits are so cluttered and inconsistent it’s not funny anymore. I keep losing my sense of what I need to do. My intrinsic priorities keep on shifting.

    I’m just tired of constantly dreaming and not taking major action. I’ve been dreaming about my future for years, yet I often don’t feel present. I impatiently want to make those dreams a reality quickly, while I ignore what I can do right now.

    Being just a dreamer is really sad. (◞‸◟)

    #adhd #actuallyautistic #timeblindness

  39. I have to get back to sharing posts for #MutualAidMonday. I've been really slack lately, mostly because of losing track when Mondays actually are!

    #audhd #autism #adhd #disability #neurodiverse #TimeBlind #TimeBlindness

  40. What are your tools for battling #timeblindness ?

    I use my smartwatch for silent timers constantly throughout the day.

    You know that dread when you know you can't take action right now, but if you don't, you'll lose track of time and be late? I offload that to my watch.

    My most-used timer is 5 minutes. But I use them heavily anywhere between 5 and 90 minutes.

    The only trouble is when it goes off and I can't remember what it's for!

    #adhd #adhdTools #executivedysfunction #coach @adhd