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CW: Nothing bad! 😁 Just a longer journal Toot, so this should save some folks from scrolling endlessly 😇
#Journal of a slightly ouchie Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Tuesday, 14/07/2026).
I had a short night, due to the last puppy class, and me wanting to keep my routine in as much as I could (and needing pain meds when I woke up). So, after about 4 hours of sleep, I got up, and started my “day”. I took my meds, and then I got dressed. I fixed Koa’s meal, and then we got to the couch. I wrote an email to a very sweet friend, and after that, I made myself a bit of brekkie.
After brekkie, I took out Koa for a short walk. Then, back to the laptop, to write my journal toot. When I was done, and it was uploaded to all the usual places, I tried to relax for a while, as I was rather tired after such a short sleep. Koa was tired too, so we both snoozed for a while, before Koa woke up, and needed to go out for a wee again.
Another short walk, followed by some more couch time. We took it easy and relaxed. Bestie called me on her way to work, and we had a nice chat. After that, Koa and I had another little walk. Koa wasn’t too interested in the longer walks, and I let him decide how long we’d go (unless he’d want too much, then I would have limited him, as he’s only 20 weeks young).
When we got back again, I got to my bed with the tablet for a while. I relaxed my back and leg, while watching some Criminal Minds. Koa was sleeping as well, and we had a good hour of just chilling and not having to do anything. After that, I got up again, and I got things ready for when mum would come.
She texted me when she left the house, and Koa and I went out for a shot walk, so we could wait for her, and so that Koa would have done his business. That way, mum could just let him in the garden if he needed to go again, as it was getting too warm for walkies, and this was easier on mum as well.
Mum came, and I gave her a little present I had ordered for her. She had an automatic pencil that had not been working well for her for a while now. While I was browsing for the Roxette vinyl, I also checked out the pencils, and I found out a possible what/why, with the malfunctioning pencil. So, to thank her for all the puppy sitting, I ordered her a new pencil, with extra leads and erasers. Hopefully, this one won’t give her any issues, and she’ll be able to do loads of puzzles without grumbling and all that… It wasn’t too expensive, but I wanted to do something for her help with Koa.
Mum settled on the couch with a hot coffee, and a nice series on the telly. I got my bag, and headed to Skoosh. We got to Cuijk safe and sound, and I parked illegally near the cash machine, so I could quickly deposit my “foreign money” Euros, from yesterday’s exchange. The official parking was full, and my back was not excited to walk too far for another parking spot. So, I hoped that I would be quick enough, and if someone would come to check out Skoosh, that I could explain my bad back. There was an open handicapped parking spot (which was even closer to the machine), so I should have just borrowed mum’s card. But I didn’t want to park there, as it was a spot for people who have even more struggles with walking than I currently have. After I deposited the money, I drove to physio, where I had to wait for my appointment.
I tried to order the cheaper travel crate for Koa that I liked. First, they had an extraordinary shipping costs added to it, which made it more expensive. But then, at the end, they informed me that, even for that amount, they would not ship it to the Netherlands. While, in the app, I have the settings set to “only show things that ship to my location”. So yeah, I ended up ordering the slightly bigger, and more expensive, crate (which seemed cheaper now, as the other one had €21,99 shipping, should it have been shipped to my home, and this one had way faster shipping, for only €6,99). So, the travel crate has been ordered, and it’s currently set to be delivered this Sunday! Which isn’t unheard of, but usually, for about 7 Euros, they don’t deliver on Sundays. But, wait and see… At least soon, Koa has a nice (and easier to handle) travel crate, and I can hand back the one we borrowed from his breeder. I will have to see if I can find a little “thank you” prezzie for her, as the crate was a big help for me and Koa, so I could sleep in my bed properly, while still having him near.
Big Bas did a big number on my back! He is going on holiday for 3 weeks, so I will have to make due without him for the time being. The massage was painful, but he was very positive about what he felt, compared to last week, and the weeks prior to that. So, there is some improvement, yay!
I had wanted to visit the supermarket on the way back. But, my back was sore, I was tired, and it was 29°C according to Skoosh… So, I would get to the supermarket on Wednesday morning, Koa will have to learn to be on his own some more, so it’s good for both him and me. Mum was surprised to see me home a little earlier, but she understood, and was OK with going home a bit earlier. She had a dentist appointment later that afternoon, so it meant she could relax a bit before that. While she was getting her things, I fed Koa, as it was past his mealtime. Then, I thanked mum, Koa and I waved her off, and Koa did his things in the garden. I cleaned up the bits and bops, both outside and inside, and then I got ready to head to bed.
It didn’t take too long for Koa and me to doze off. When I woke up due to Koa whining a little, I saw I had a missed call from the GP. I didn’t know they would call today, so yeah, I will have to try and catch them myself Wednesday morning. I let Koa out, he only drank some, and sniffed around the garden, and we went back to bed. I woke up once more for the loo, and due to a buzzing terrorist 🦟, and then when Koa woke me up again, telling me it was time to “get up and start our day”. So, I listened to the master, and we did just that…
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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CW: Nothing bad! 😁 Just a longer journal Toot, so this should save some folks from scrolling endlessly 😇
#Journal of a slightly ouchie Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Tuesday, 14/07/2026).
I had a short night, due to the last puppy class, and me wanting to keep my routine in as much as I could (and needing pain meds when I woke up). So, after about 4 hours of sleep, I got up, and started my “day”. I took my meds, and then I got dressed. I fixed Koa’s meal, and then we got to the couch. I wrote an email to a very sweet friend, and after that, I made myself a bit of brekkie.
After brekkie, I took out Koa for a short walk. Then, back to the laptop, to write my journal toot. When I was done, and it was uploaded to all the usual places, I tried to relax for a while, as I was rather tired after such a short sleep. Koa was tired too, so we both snoozed for a while, before Koa woke up, and needed to go out for a wee again.
Another short walk, followed by some more couch time. We took it easy and relaxed. Bestie called me on her way to work, and we had a nice chat. After that, Koa and I had another little walk. Koa wasn’t too interested in the longer walks, and I let him decide how long we’d go (unless he’d want too much, then I would have limited him, as he’s only 20 weeks young).
When we got back again, I got to my bed with the tablet for a while. I relaxed my back and leg, while watching some Criminal Minds. Koa was sleeping as well, and we had a good hour of just chilling and not having to do anything. After that, I got up again, and I got things ready for when mum would come.
She texted me when she left the house, and Koa and I went out for a shot walk, so we could wait for her, and so that Koa would have done his business. That way, mum could just let him in the garden if he needed to go again, as it was getting too warm for walkies, and this was easier on mum as well.
Mum came, and I gave her a little present I had ordered for her. She had an automatic pencil that had not been working well for her for a while now. While I was browsing for the Roxette vinyl, I also checked out the pencils, and I found out a possible what/why, with the malfunctioning pencil. So, to thank her for all the puppy sitting, I ordered her a new pencil, with extra leads and erasers. Hopefully, this one won’t give her any issues, and she’ll be able to do loads of puzzles without grumbling and all that… It wasn’t too expensive, but I wanted to do something for her help with Koa.
Mum settled on the couch with a hot coffee, and a nice series on the telly. I got my bag, and headed to Skoosh. We got to Cuijk safe and sound, and I parked illegally near the cash machine, so I could quickly deposit my “foreign money” Euros, from yesterday’s exchange. The official parking was full, and my back was not excited to walk too far for another parking spot. So, I hoped that I would be quick enough, and if someone would come to check out Skoosh, that I could explain my bad back. There was an open handicapped parking spot (which was even closer to the machine), so I should have just borrowed mum’s card. But I didn’t want to park there, as it was a spot for people who have even more struggles with walking than I currently have. After I deposited the money, I drove to physio, where I had to wait for my appointment.
I tried to order the cheaper travel crate for Koa that I liked. First, they had an extraordinary shipping costs added to it, which made it more expensive. But then, at the end, they informed me that, even for that amount, they would not ship it to the Netherlands. While, in the app, I have the settings set to “only show things that ship to my location”. So yeah, I ended up ordering the slightly bigger, and more expensive, crate (which seemed cheaper now, as the other one had €21,99 shipping, should it have been shipped to my home, and this one had way faster shipping, for only €6,99). So, the travel crate has been ordered, and it’s currently set to be delivered this Sunday! Which isn’t unheard of, but usually, for about 7 Euros, they don’t deliver on Sundays. But, wait and see… At least soon, Koa has a nice (and easier to handle) travel crate, and I can hand back the one we borrowed from his breeder. I will have to see if I can find a little “thank you” prezzie for her, as the crate was a big help for me and Koa, so I could sleep in my bed properly, while still having him near.
Big Bas did a big number on my back! He is going on holiday for 3 weeks, so I will have to make due without him for the time being. The massage was painful, but he was very positive about what he felt, compared to last week, and the weeks prior to that. So, there is some improvement, yay!
I had wanted to visit the supermarket on the way back. But, my back was sore, I was tired, and it was 29°C according to Skoosh… So, I would get to the supermarket on Wednesday morning, Koa will have to learn to be on his own some more, so it’s good for both him and me. Mum was surprised to see me home a little earlier, but she understood, and was OK with going home a bit earlier. She had a dentist appointment later that afternoon, so it meant she could relax a bit before that. While she was getting her things, I fed Koa, as it was past his mealtime. Then, I thanked mum, Koa and I waved her off, and Koa did his things in the garden. I cleaned up the bits and bops, both outside and inside, and then I got ready to head to bed.
It didn’t take too long for Koa and me to doze off. When I woke up due to Koa whining a little, I saw I had a missed call from the GP. I didn’t know they would call today, so yeah, I will have to try and catch them myself Wednesday morning. I let Koa out, he only drank some, and sniffed around the garden, and we went back to bed. I woke up once more for the loo, and due to a buzzing terrorist 🦟, and then when Koa woke me up again, telling me it was time to “get up and start our day”. So, I listened to the master, and we did just that…
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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Is it weird that I'm obsessed with automating my home while playing at Mark Watney in Stationeers? And yet I quickly get annoyed with Home Assistant and don't automate much around my house these days?
Strange hypocrisy.
Would anyone be interested in a Stationeers server, I wonder? I adore the game, particularly since adding Lua support to mine. I've been writing more code lately than I have in a while to automate an imaginary Martian station to keep myself alive in the game.
Damn game is an #actuallyaudhd / #actuallyautistic person's dream....
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Is it weird that I'm obsessed with automating my home while playing at Mark Watney in Stationeers? And yet I quickly get annoyed with Home Assistant and don't automate much around my house these days?
Strange hypocrisy.
Would anyone be interested in a Stationeers server, I wonder? I adore the game, particularly since adding Lua support to mine. I've been writing more code lately than I have in a while to automate an imaginary Martian station to keep myself alive in the game.
Damn game is an #actuallyaudhd / #actuallyautistic person's dream....
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#Journal of a busy Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Monday, 13/07/2026).
I had a bit of a broken night again. Not just because of Koa’s potty breaks, but because I was being terrorized by a buzzing asshat 🦟. I did manage to get some sleep through, according to my watch. But because of the interruptions, I still felt rather tired. We got up, and I started our “day” by counting the mosquito bites on my legs and feet. Why am I so delicious to them? I got dressed, and took my meds. Koa got his meal, and then we headed to the couch.
I wrote an email to a sweet friend, and when I was done, I took Koa out for a short walk. When we got back, I enjoyed my brekkie, and I wrote my journal toot. I uploaded it to all the usual places when I was done, and tried to relax a bit with some telly. After some time, Koa wanted out for another short walk, so that’s what we did.
I fixed Koa some more food, and then we relaxed again. When it was light out, we went for a longer walk. Koa extended the walk a wee bit, pushing it more towards the “limits” of what he is allowed to do. But, he did well and we had a good and fun walk. When we got back, I got Koa to his crate, and I rode the bike for 15 minutes.
I was down, relaxing, when bestie called me on the way to her work. During the call, I started the washing machine. When the laundry was done, I hung it out upstairs. Back downstairs, I started the dishwasher, and then Koa and I went for walkies. We had a nice little walk, and when we got back again, we went to the couch for some relaxing.
Just before the coach would come, I took Koa out again, so he would have an empty bladder, when someone new would enter the house. Try to limit the chance of accidents during excited and happy moments. The coach came, she introduced herself, and we had a little chat. Koa was very excited, and after a little while, we decided to walk a bit with Koa. That way, he could release some of his energy, while we could chat a while. Back home, she checked out Koa’s photo albums, while we chatted for things she could help with. We found a thing, which I will try to get some more info on, and then she left. We’d pick it up next week, and see how things would/will go.
I tried to relax for a while, after she left. Koa and I had another walk, we chilled out some more, and then we got ready to head to Nijmegen. Mum was ready when we got there, and we headed on to Kranenburg. Koa got on the scale in the pet store, with some difficulty, and he was at 18,3kg, which is about 40lbs. We found a new harness for him, for when the current one gets too small again. I also wanted a leash, but they didn’t have the big ones in “Koa’s color”, unfortunately. Maybe next time.
We went to another store in Nijmegen, where mum exchanged something she’d gotten the wrong kind of. Then, onward to the train station, as there was a currency exchange shop, so I could “ditch” some “old” foreign money. It took a little while, but I got some money in return, so that was nice. I will have to find a way to get the money into my account, so that I can get Koa his own nice travel crate.
Back at my parent’s place, we had to wait a while, before we could go to the last class. Koa did very well, and I was impressed by him. Class went very well too, and I was so proud of my dude. At the end of class, I started feeling super nauseated. We headed home, and I barely made it to the loo. Well, it was not pretty, but it did feel a lot better when I was done. I got all ready to head to bed after that. It didn’t take too long for both Koa and myself to doze off.
I woke up again about 4 hours later. My body was sore, as it was long time for my meds. So, I got up, and started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolaniPS. Picture attached is an edited one taken on Sunday, as I didn't take any snaps this Monday.
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#Journal of a busy Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Monday, 13/07/2026).
I had a bit of a broken night again. Not just because of Koa’s potty breaks, but because I was being terrorized by a buzzing asshat 🦟. I did manage to get some sleep through, according to my watch. But because of the interruptions, I still felt rather tired. We got up, and I started our “day” by counting the mosquito bites on my legs and feet. Why am I so delicious to them? I got dressed, and took my meds. Koa got his meal, and then we headed to the couch.
I wrote an email to a sweet friend, and when I was done, I took Koa out for a short walk. When we got back, I enjoyed my brekkie, and I wrote my journal toot. I uploaded it to all the usual places when I was done, and tried to relax a bit with some telly. After some time, Koa wanted out for another short walk, so that’s what we did.
I fixed Koa some more food, and then we relaxed again. When it was light out, we went for a longer walk. Koa extended the walk a wee bit, pushing it more towards the “limits” of what he is allowed to do. But, he did well and we had a good and fun walk. When we got back, I got Koa to his crate, and I rode the bike for 15 minutes.
I was down, relaxing, when bestie called me on the way to her work. During the call, I started the washing machine. When the laundry was done, I hung it out upstairs. Back downstairs, I started the dishwasher, and then Koa and I went for walkies. We had a nice little walk, and when we got back again, we went to the couch for some relaxing.
Just before the coach would come, I took Koa out again, so he would have an empty bladder, when someone new would enter the house. Try to limit the chance of accidents during excited and happy moments. The coach came, she introduced herself, and we had a little chat. Koa was very excited, and after a little while, we decided to walk a bit with Koa. That way, he could release some of his energy, while we could chat a while. Back home, she checked out Koa’s photo albums, while we chatted for things she could help with. We found a thing, which I will try to get some more info on, and then she left. We’d pick it up next week, and see how things would/will go.
I tried to relax for a while, after she left. Koa and I had another walk, we chilled out some more, and then we got ready to head to Nijmegen. Mum was ready when we got there, and we headed on to Kranenburg. Koa got on the scale in the pet store, with some difficulty, and he was at 18,3kg, which is about 40lbs. We found a new harness for him, for when the current one gets too small again. I also wanted a leash, but they didn’t have the big ones in “Koa’s color”, unfortunately. Maybe next time.
We went to another store in Nijmegen, where mum exchanged something she’d gotten the wrong kind of. Then, onward to the train station, as there was a currency exchange shop, so I could “ditch” some “old” foreign money. It took a little while, but I got some money in return, so that was nice. I will have to find a way to get the money into my account, so that I can get Koa his own nice travel crate.
Back at my parent’s place, we had to wait a while, before we could go to the last class. Koa did very well, and I was impressed by him. Class went very well too, and I was so proud of my dude. At the end of class, I started feeling super nauseated. We headed home, and I barely made it to the loo. Well, it was not pretty, but it did feel a lot better when I was done. I got all ready to head to bed after that. It didn’t take too long for both Koa and myself to doze off.
I woke up again about 4 hours later. My body was sore, as it was long time for my meds. So, I got up, and started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolaniPS. Picture attached is an edited one taken on Sunday, as I didn't take any snaps this Monday.
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CW: Nothing too bad, just some venting due to receiving "great advice"... But a >6.5k long journal Toot, so this would save some folks from scrolling too long... 😇
#Journal of an excited but exhausted Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Sunday, 12/07/2026).
We had a bit of a broken night, and I got about 7 hours in total sleeping time, according to my watch. Koa told me it was time to get up, so we did. I got dressed, took my meds, and fixed his meal. Then, we got to the couch, where I wrote a long email to my dear friend. I got distracted a bit, and when I was done, I wanted to have some brekkie.
Koa was getting a bit restless when I was done with my meal, so we went out for a little walk. When we got back, I got back to the laptop, and I wrote my journal toot. When I was done, I put away the laptop, and I used my phone to edit two of yesterday’s walkies vids into one. I tried to relax a bit, although it was made challenging by a stupid buzzing terrorist! Ugh, I hate these stupid animals so much… 🦟
After some relaxing, and swatting, and using some deet (carefully, as Koa will lick body parts when he can), it was slowly getting a bit more light outside. Koa and I went for a short walk, and then had some food. After some more relaxing, and it getting lighter out, Koa and I left for a longer walkies. I started both the GPS app from Koa’s tracker, and on my watch. My watch registered a walk of 1,26km, while Koa’s app made it into 1,3km. So not too bad at all.
After the walk, I was a bit tired. As Koa and I had plans to visit the Hatertse Vennen with my mum again, I wanted to try and “save” some energy for that. So, we went to bed. Koa relaxed in his crate, while I watched some Criminal Minds while on my bed. Again, the buzzing terrorist made things harder for me. So, when I finally managed to kill one, I was hoping that he had not brought any family to my place “for dinner” (aka to prick me way too often).
When I felt a bit more relaxed, we slowly got ready to head to Skoosh. We were a bit earlier, but it would allow us to take it easy. When we arrived at the parking, mum was already there, which was a very nice surprise. So, we got ready too, and we headed to the water side.
I put on my old shoes, so I could head into the water a bit with Koa. A nice lady heard me say to mum that I would have to change my shoes. I just wanted to ask mum to take Koa, when the lady offered to hold Koa, as it would be easier on my mum. Well, I warned her on his enthusiasm, but she was all OK with it. So that was a very nice bit of help.
Koa had a bit of fun at the waterside. No real swims yet, but loads of splashes with Bas, and with another chocolate Lab. After some time, I noticed that it was getting a bit too much for Koa, so I switched out my shoes again, with some difficulty, and we decided to walk a different route back to the car. Which...proved to be rather challenging, as there were many walkers on the path. The “Nijmeegse Vierdaagse” is starting soon, where folks from around the world walk 4 days, 30-40-50 km a day. Many are getting in the final bits of practice now. Some were doing it nicely, sharing the path with others. But, many were thinking they were already doing the “real thing”, and they didn’t want to share the path with others…
What made it more challenging was that I need to keep Koa to the right side, due to my hands and strength. Mum needs to keep Bas to the left, due to her issues. So every time I kept Koa to the right, she was pissed with me, because now she had to do the same with Bas… Well, I don’t know how much Koa weighs at the moment, but I think he’s about double what Bas weighs… So you’d think keeping Bas to the other side for a short time when people pass, would be easier for her to do, than for me, with my herniated disc, to keep Koa on the left side… Besides, autistic me knows that in Europe, we should keep to the right, unless otherwise stated. So, keeping left is also very unnatural to me…
We made it to the parking, with me getting angry with Koa once, because he did the “twist and turn” behind my back again, and it hurt me a lot. And when that happens, I get angry. I pulled his leash back, talked to him with an angry and pained voice, and the last bit, Koa did a lot better. When we got to the parking, there were some folks with another brown Lab, which we’d just seen at the waterside. They were talking to an older lady with a walker. I tried to keep Koa short, as my back hurt from the pull, and I want to try and teach him to stay at my side when passing other dogs and people.
The old lady, well, bat more like, told me that “I should just let him have some fun, there were all good people and good dogs here”. This really made me angry, because that kind of unwanted “advice” is really not helpful at all! Autistic me got into the defense mode, and, all while staying absolutely as polite as I could be, I told her how wrong she was to butt in on me raising my pup. “Excuse me, but good people or bad people, I don’t want my pup to learn it’s OK to jump towards others while he’s on his leash. He will become a 30+ kilo weighing dog, and no-one wants to be the target of him being enthusiastic and jumping up against them. He needs to learn now that he can’t jump against people, even if they don’t mind it now. Plus, what will happen when you don’t have your walker with you, and he will jump against you. Will you still think it’s OK when we have to call an ambulance for the broken hip, due to the fall?”.
The people with the other Lab said nothing, but I saw the lady look at me like “well, that sounds about right”. The old bat was getting soooooo annoyed, maybe even infuriated with me, that I had the audacity to talk back to her like that. But… I stayed polite. I explained. And I walked away… But I was fuming, because people like that are all “ow he’s so cute” now, and when he jumps up when he’s an adult, it will be “you need to keep your dog under control”. Ugh…
We got back to the car, said goodbye to mum and Bas, and we headed home. I cleaned up the messy shoes and all, fixed some food for myself, gave Koa a snack, and we relaxed for a while. We had a few short walks, but I was just so exhausted. We went to bed earlier, first to just relax with some Criminal Minds on my tablet. I fed Koa, let him out to do his business, and then we got ready to sleep.
I had an OK sleep, until the buzzing terrorist used me as a pincushion… I had used deet, but it seemed to be oblivious to it. It kept me awake for some time, and that was so annoying. In the end, I did manage to sleep about 8 hours in total, which felt very good for sure. But, I was still tired, and I needed some after-bite lotion, as I had bumps all over… Even two on my foot, ugh… I was glad that Koa had allowed me some more sleep. So when he woke me up, I got up, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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CW: Nothing too bad, just some venting due to receiving "great advice"... But a >6.5k long journal Toot, so this would save some folks from scrolling too long... 😇
#Journal of an excited but exhausted Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Sunday, 12/07/2026).
We had a bit of a broken night, and I got about 7 hours in total sleeping time, according to my watch. Koa told me it was time to get up, so we did. I got dressed, took my meds, and fixed his meal. Then, we got to the couch, where I wrote a long email to my dear friend. I got distracted a bit, and when I was done, I wanted to have some brekkie.
Koa was getting a bit restless when I was done with my meal, so we went out for a little walk. When we got back, I got back to the laptop, and I wrote my journal toot. When I was done, I put away the laptop, and I used my phone to edit two of yesterday’s walkies vids into one. I tried to relax a bit, although it was made challenging by a stupid buzzing terrorist! Ugh, I hate these stupid animals so much… 🦟
After some relaxing, and swatting, and using some deet (carefully, as Koa will lick body parts when he can), it was slowly getting a bit more light outside. Koa and I went for a short walk, and then had some food. After some more relaxing, and it getting lighter out, Koa and I left for a longer walkies. I started both the GPS app from Koa’s tracker, and on my watch. My watch registered a walk of 1,26km, while Koa’s app made it into 1,3km. So not too bad at all.
After the walk, I was a bit tired. As Koa and I had plans to visit the Hatertse Vennen with my mum again, I wanted to try and “save” some energy for that. So, we went to bed. Koa relaxed in his crate, while I watched some Criminal Minds while on my bed. Again, the buzzing terrorist made things harder for me. So, when I finally managed to kill one, I was hoping that he had not brought any family to my place “for dinner” (aka to prick me way too often).
When I felt a bit more relaxed, we slowly got ready to head to Skoosh. We were a bit earlier, but it would allow us to take it easy. When we arrived at the parking, mum was already there, which was a very nice surprise. So, we got ready too, and we headed to the water side.
I put on my old shoes, so I could head into the water a bit with Koa. A nice lady heard me say to mum that I would have to change my shoes. I just wanted to ask mum to take Koa, when the lady offered to hold Koa, as it would be easier on my mum. Well, I warned her on his enthusiasm, but she was all OK with it. So that was a very nice bit of help.
Koa had a bit of fun at the waterside. No real swims yet, but loads of splashes with Bas, and with another chocolate Lab. After some time, I noticed that it was getting a bit too much for Koa, so I switched out my shoes again, with some difficulty, and we decided to walk a different route back to the car. Which...proved to be rather challenging, as there were many walkers on the path. The “Nijmeegse Vierdaagse” is starting soon, where folks from around the world walk 4 days, 30-40-50 km a day. Many are getting in the final bits of practice now. Some were doing it nicely, sharing the path with others. But, many were thinking they were already doing the “real thing”, and they didn’t want to share the path with others…
What made it more challenging was that I need to keep Koa to the right side, due to my hands and strength. Mum needs to keep Bas to the left, due to her issues. So every time I kept Koa to the right, she was pissed with me, because now she had to do the same with Bas… Well, I don’t know how much Koa weighs at the moment, but I think he’s about double what Bas weighs… So you’d think keeping Bas to the other side for a short time when people pass, would be easier for her to do, than for me, with my herniated disc, to keep Koa on the left side… Besides, autistic me knows that in Europe, we should keep to the right, unless otherwise stated. So, keeping left is also very unnatural to me…
We made it to the parking, with me getting angry with Koa once, because he did the “twist and turn” behind my back again, and it hurt me a lot. And when that happens, I get angry. I pulled his leash back, talked to him with an angry and pained voice, and the last bit, Koa did a lot better. When we got to the parking, there were some folks with another brown Lab, which we’d just seen at the waterside. They were talking to an older lady with a walker. I tried to keep Koa short, as my back hurt from the pull, and I want to try and teach him to stay at my side when passing other dogs and people.
The old lady, well, bat more like, told me that “I should just let him have some fun, there were all good people and good dogs here”. This really made me angry, because that kind of unwanted “advice” is really not helpful at all! Autistic me got into the defense mode, and, all while staying absolutely as polite as I could be, I told her how wrong she was to butt in on me raising my pup. “Excuse me, but good people or bad people, I don’t want my pup to learn it’s OK to jump towards others while he’s on his leash. He will become a 30+ kilo weighing dog, and no-one wants to be the target of him being enthusiastic and jumping up against them. He needs to learn now that he can’t jump against people, even if they don’t mind it now. Plus, what will happen when you don’t have your walker with you, and he will jump against you. Will you still think it’s OK when we have to call an ambulance for the broken hip, due to the fall?”.
The people with the other Lab said nothing, but I saw the lady look at me like “well, that sounds about right”. The old bat was getting soooooo annoyed, maybe even infuriated with me, that I had the audacity to talk back to her like that. But… I stayed polite. I explained. And I walked away… But I was fuming, because people like that are all “ow he’s so cute” now, and when he jumps up when he’s an adult, it will be “you need to keep your dog under control”. Ugh…
We got back to the car, said goodbye to mum and Bas, and we headed home. I cleaned up the messy shoes and all, fixed some food for myself, gave Koa a snack, and we relaxed for a while. We had a few short walks, but I was just so exhausted. We went to bed earlier, first to just relax with some Criminal Minds on my tablet. I fed Koa, let him out to do his business, and then we got ready to sleep.
I had an OK sleep, until the buzzing terrorist used me as a pincushion… I had used deet, but it seemed to be oblivious to it. It kept me awake for some time, and that was so annoying. In the end, I did manage to sleep about 8 hours in total, which felt very good for sure. But, I was still tired, and I needed some after-bite lotion, as I had bumps all over… Even two on my foot, ugh… I was glad that Koa had allowed me some more sleep. So when he woke me up, I got up, and we started our “day”.
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#Journal of a Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 11/07/2026).
I had a decent enough night with, according to my watch, about 7½ hours of sleep. It was broken up, of course, as Koa needed to go out several times. Ow, I cant wait for his bladder to hold it up a wee bit longer… We got up, I got dressed, I took my meds, prepped Koa’s meal, and we started our day.
I wrote an email to my sweet friend. There was some good news, so that was very nice indeed. When I had finished the email, I got some brekkie. I struggled to write the journal toot, so when Koa wanted to go out, we went for a short walk. A bit of fresh air, and some movement, it did me good. But, I still struggled to write my journal toot somehow. I managed in the end, but I had a slight headache, and it was annoying me.
I worked a bit on my blog, and then I put away the laptop. Koa and I tried to relax a little with some telly. Then, we went out on another short walkies. I had this bläh feeling, and I just didn’t understand why… I had gotten some decent sleep, the meds were helping me reasonably well, and some good things had been happening. But still, I struggled with my emotions and energy.
I went upstairs to ride my bike for a little while. After that, Koa and I went out for a bit of a longer walk. I thought he’d enjoyed the one yesterday, and it’s good for the both of us, so hey ho! Koa was a bit difficult to handle on the leash, as he kept pulling this way and that, and he struggled with the sounds of the doggy boarding area, as there was a lot of barking to be heard.
When we got back, I really needed to relax for a while. The bike ride, and the longer walk, they had drained me for a bit. So, Koa and I relaxed for a bit, he in his crate, and I on bed. I didn’t sleep, I watched Criminal Minds on my tablet, and scrolled a bit through the FediVerse. After some time, we got up again, and Koa signaled he wanted to head out again. So, we went for another little walk.
We relaxed for a while, with some telly, some online scrolling, some short walkies. I still felt a bit bläh… One of my parcels arrived nice on time. The others were coming with a different carrier, DHL and, as usual, they were making a mess of things again. This, of course, didn’t help me with my headache and feelings of bläh.
Around noon, Koa and I went for another nice walk. The weather was getting warmer, and we walked a wee bit differently, so Koa got some new sniffs in. When we got back home, we went to bed a bit earlier, not to sleep at first, but to relax. I had walked quite a bit, as I managed >8.5k in steps today. The last few days, Koa and I have been trying to get some more walks in, with the meds helping me with that. Last week, my steps average increased a little after starting the meds, and it went to about 5k average. When I now check the last 7 days, the average is at a little over 7k. So not too bad at all. Of course, it’s nothing compared to my “old” averages, but with a puppy, no gym, a bad back and all… It’s quite a challenge to even get to 5k steps…
I had asked my online friendos on Masto, if some would be interested in chatting with me. I got some replies, and when I was relaxing on bed, I chatted for a while with a very kind lady in Australia. After a while, I fed Koa, and I let him out into the garden. When he had done his things, we got ready to head to bed. It took me some time to doze off. And when I finally did, a loud banging on the door woke me up again…
Of course DHL had to mess up again. I had put into the app that they should deliver it with my neighbor (with her permission). So, they wanted to deliver it with me… And now I have to wait until they deliver it at the parcel vault next week… Ugh, it just drives me nuts at times… I dozed off again, until Koa woke me up for a potty break. After that, he allowed me a little over 4 hours of sleep, before waking me up again, letting me know he was done with being in the crate. So, we got up, and we started our “day”.
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#Journal of a Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 11/07/2026).
I had a decent enough night with, according to my watch, about 7½ hours of sleep. It was broken up, of course, as Koa needed to go out several times. Ow, I cant wait for his bladder to hold it up a wee bit longer… We got up, I got dressed, I took my meds, prepped Koa’s meal, and we started our day.
I wrote an email to my sweet friend. There was some good news, so that was very nice indeed. When I had finished the email, I got some brekkie. I struggled to write the journal toot, so when Koa wanted to go out, we went for a short walk. A bit of fresh air, and some movement, it did me good. But, I still struggled to write my journal toot somehow. I managed in the end, but I had a slight headache, and it was annoying me.
I worked a bit on my blog, and then I put away the laptop. Koa and I tried to relax a little with some telly. Then, we went out on another short walkies. I had this bläh feeling, and I just didn’t understand why… I had gotten some decent sleep, the meds were helping me reasonably well, and some good things had been happening. But still, I struggled with my emotions and energy.
I went upstairs to ride my bike for a little while. After that, Koa and I went out for a bit of a longer walk. I thought he’d enjoyed the one yesterday, and it’s good for the both of us, so hey ho! Koa was a bit difficult to handle on the leash, as he kept pulling this way and that, and he struggled with the sounds of the doggy boarding area, as there was a lot of barking to be heard.
When we got back, I really needed to relax for a while. The bike ride, and the longer walk, they had drained me for a bit. So, Koa and I relaxed for a bit, he in his crate, and I on bed. I didn’t sleep, I watched Criminal Minds on my tablet, and scrolled a bit through the FediVerse. After some time, we got up again, and Koa signaled he wanted to head out again. So, we went for another little walk.
We relaxed for a while, with some telly, some online scrolling, some short walkies. I still felt a bit bläh… One of my parcels arrived nice on time. The others were coming with a different carrier, DHL and, as usual, they were making a mess of things again. This, of course, didn’t help me with my headache and feelings of bläh.
Around noon, Koa and I went for another nice walk. The weather was getting warmer, and we walked a wee bit differently, so Koa got some new sniffs in. When we got back home, we went to bed a bit earlier, not to sleep at first, but to relax. I had walked quite a bit, as I managed >8.5k in steps today. The last few days, Koa and I have been trying to get some more walks in, with the meds helping me with that. Last week, my steps average increased a little after starting the meds, and it went to about 5k average. When I now check the last 7 days, the average is at a little over 7k. So not too bad at all. Of course, it’s nothing compared to my “old” averages, but with a puppy, no gym, a bad back and all… It’s quite a challenge to even get to 5k steps…
I had asked my online friendos on Masto, if some would be interested in chatting with me. I got some replies, and when I was relaxing on bed, I chatted for a while with a very kind lady in Australia. After a while, I fed Koa, and I let him out into the garden. When he had done his things, we got ready to head to bed. It took me some time to doze off. And when I finally did, a loud banging on the door woke me up again…
Of course DHL had to mess up again. I had put into the app that they should deliver it with my neighbor (with her permission). So, they wanted to deliver it with me… And now I have to wait until they deliver it at the parcel vault next week… Ugh, it just drives me nuts at times… I dozed off again, until Koa woke me up for a potty break. After that, he allowed me a little over 4 hours of sleep, before waking me up again, letting me know he was done with being in the crate. So, we got up, and we started our “day”.
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#Journal of a slightly relaxed Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 10/07/2026).
I had a bit of a shorter night than I hoped, as Koa needed two potty breaks, and it took a little time to doze off. So, when we got up, I was still a tad tired and also, rather sore. Time to take my meds again! I used the scale, which wasn't too bad, and I got dressed. I took the meds, and prepared Koa’s meal. When he had finished, we got to the couch, where I settled down with my laptop.
I was just writing my sweet friend an email, when he emailed me with some awesome news! I saved the message I was working on, sent him a quick, very excited, email, and I promised I would send a longer email to him in a bit, as I was still working on it. But, I had to quickly reply to the awesomeness!
I finished the email, and made some brekkie. Followed by writing my journal toot. When that had been uploaded to the usual places, I took Koa out for a little walk. He did his things, and we got back home, where we relaxed on the couch for a while. I wrote a little bit for my blog site, while I watched some more of Criminal Minds.
When it was getting light out, while it was still a bit cooler, I took Koa out for another walk. I decided that I wanted to try a new, a bit longer, route with him. As it would be a warmer day, according to the forecast, I wanted Koa to have a nice walk before the weather got too warm for it. It was a bit hard on my back and leg, but I think Koa enjoyed it, even though it was a bit “scary” at times as well, with all the new impressions.
We got back, and I was rather tired. I think Koa was a tad tired too, so we relaxed together for a while. As my back and leg were a bit sore, since we walked 1,2km, according to Koa’s GPS tracker, I got into my shortama, and I went to bed for a while. I wanted to leave Koa loose, as in, not crate him. But, he started messing with my curtains… First, he kept trying to open them, while I closed them, to keep the heat and light out. When he started to chew on the curtains, I knew I had to crate him.
I relaxed for about 45 minutes, and then Koa started to get uneasy. He had drank a bit when we got back from the walk, so I figured he had to go out for a wee. I dressed again, and we headed out for a short walk. Koa’s idea of a short walk was a bit longer than mine, and when we got back, my back and leg weren’t too pleased with me. I got to bed again for a little while.
Mum texted me that she was on her way with the groceries, so I got dressed, and I opened the roller-curtain, so we could enter the house from the backside parking. Koa wanted to go out again, so we went out, and he did his business. I had just cleaned it up, when mum arrived. I got Koa inside, and helped mum with the groceries. When they were cleaned up, I got mum’s laptop, which she brought, and I “got to work”.
I saw that dad had installed two free antivirus programs. I always thought that you should only use one, as they could work against each other in some ways. I had a license to a paid antivirus program, so I deleted the two free ones, and I installed the paid version. I think that one paid version is better than two free ones… Then, I installed the chat-apps for mum. When her old phone died, I asked her why she didn’t use the apps on her laptop, also because it could be easier for her, with typing on a normal keyboard. Mum didn’t even know that this was possible… So, I installed the apps for her, and we connected them with the phone apps. Maybe, in a way, this can make chatting for mum a bit easier…
Koa had to go out for a wee, but I was expecting new filters for the ventilation system, and a parcel with new snacks for Koa was on its way. Mum offered to stay home for a bit, so I could take Koa out for a short walk. When Koa and I got back, mum had gotten a few new sets of filters, so I immediately took them upstairs, and exchanged the dirty old ones for a new set.
Mum headed back home, and Koa and I relaxed for a bit. When the parcel with Koa’s snacks had arrived, he and I went to bed. Not so sleep yet, but to relax, as my back was still bothering me. After about 30 minutes, I took my meds, and I made Koa his meal. I could use the new scale, and this one seemed a lot more accurate. Yay! When Koa was done with his meal, we went outside for a bit, and he could do his thing. Then, I brushed my teeth, and Koa and I did go to bed for some snoozing.
I dozed off a bit, and then Koa woke me up already for a big pee. And, back to bed again… After some more snoozing, Koa woke me up again, and this time, after a few minutes outside, he did a big number 2. And, back to bed… When he woke me up again, I felt like I could have slept a bit longer… But, I also felt like it was time to take my meds, as my back was very unkind to me. I thought I had not slept a lot, but, according to my watch, my “actual sleeping time” was 7:30 hours in total. So, actually, it was not that bad…
We got up, with some effort, and we started our “day”…
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#Journal of a slightly relaxed Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 10/07/2026).
I had a bit of a shorter night than I hoped, as Koa needed two potty breaks, and it took a little time to doze off. So, when we got up, I was still a tad tired and also, rather sore. Time to take my meds again! I used the scale, which wasn't too bad, and I got dressed. I took the meds, and prepared Koa’s meal. When he had finished, we got to the couch, where I settled down with my laptop.
I was just writing my sweet friend an email, when he emailed me with some awesome news! I saved the message I was working on, sent him a quick, very excited, email, and I promised I would send a longer email to him in a bit, as I was still working on it. But, I had to quickly reply to the awesomeness!
I finished the email, and made some brekkie. Followed by writing my journal toot. When that had been uploaded to the usual places, I took Koa out for a little walk. He did his things, and we got back home, where we relaxed on the couch for a while. I wrote a little bit for my blog site, while I watched some more of Criminal Minds.
When it was getting light out, while it was still a bit cooler, I took Koa out for another walk. I decided that I wanted to try a new, a bit longer, route with him. As it would be a warmer day, according to the forecast, I wanted Koa to have a nice walk before the weather got too warm for it. It was a bit hard on my back and leg, but I think Koa enjoyed it, even though it was a bit “scary” at times as well, with all the new impressions.
We got back, and I was rather tired. I think Koa was a tad tired too, so we relaxed together for a while. As my back and leg were a bit sore, since we walked 1,2km, according to Koa’s GPS tracker, I got into my shortama, and I went to bed for a while. I wanted to leave Koa loose, as in, not crate him. But, he started messing with my curtains… First, he kept trying to open them, while I closed them, to keep the heat and light out. When he started to chew on the curtains, I knew I had to crate him.
I relaxed for about 45 minutes, and then Koa started to get uneasy. He had drank a bit when we got back from the walk, so I figured he had to go out for a wee. I dressed again, and we headed out for a short walk. Koa’s idea of a short walk was a bit longer than mine, and when we got back, my back and leg weren’t too pleased with me. I got to bed again for a little while.
Mum texted me that she was on her way with the groceries, so I got dressed, and I opened the roller-curtain, so we could enter the house from the backside parking. Koa wanted to go out again, so we went out, and he did his business. I had just cleaned it up, when mum arrived. I got Koa inside, and helped mum with the groceries. When they were cleaned up, I got mum’s laptop, which she brought, and I “got to work”.
I saw that dad had installed two free antivirus programs. I always thought that you should only use one, as they could work against each other in some ways. I had a license to a paid antivirus program, so I deleted the two free ones, and I installed the paid version. I think that one paid version is better than two free ones… Then, I installed the chat-apps for mum. When her old phone died, I asked her why she didn’t use the apps on her laptop, also because it could be easier for her, with typing on a normal keyboard. Mum didn’t even know that this was possible… So, I installed the apps for her, and we connected them with the phone apps. Maybe, in a way, this can make chatting for mum a bit easier…
Koa had to go out for a wee, but I was expecting new filters for the ventilation system, and a parcel with new snacks for Koa was on its way. Mum offered to stay home for a bit, so I could take Koa out for a short walk. When Koa and I got back, mum had gotten a few new sets of filters, so I immediately took them upstairs, and exchanged the dirty old ones for a new set.
Mum headed back home, and Koa and I relaxed for a bit. When the parcel with Koa’s snacks had arrived, he and I went to bed. Not so sleep yet, but to relax, as my back was still bothering me. After about 30 minutes, I took my meds, and I made Koa his meal. I could use the new scale, and this one seemed a lot more accurate. Yay! When Koa was done with his meal, we went outside for a bit, and he could do his thing. Then, I brushed my teeth, and Koa and I did go to bed for some snoozing.
I dozed off a bit, and then Koa woke me up already for a big pee. And, back to bed again… After some more snoozing, Koa woke me up again, and this time, after a few minutes outside, he did a big number 2. And, back to bed… When he woke me up again, I felt like I could have slept a bit longer… But, I also felt like it was time to take my meds, as my back was very unkind to me. I thought I had not slept a lot, but, according to my watch, my “actual sleeping time” was 7:30 hours in total. So, actually, it was not that bad…
We got up, with some effort, and we started our “day”…
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#Journal of a slightly enthusiastic, and slightly exhausted, Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 09/07/2026).
After an OK enough night, with about 7 hours of sleep in total, Koa told me it was time to get up and to start our “day”. I got to the scale, which surprised me a little, in a nice way. I dressed, took my meds, fed the little nibbler, and then I got to the couch with my laptop. I wrote a long email to my sweet friend, followed by my journal toot. When the toot was uploaded to all the usual places, I put away the laptop, and fixed myself some brekkie.
After brekkie, Koa and I went for a short walkies. When we got back, we crashed on the couch, and relaxed for a while. I worked a bit on a blog post, while I watched some Criminal Minds. After some telly time, it was getting light out, and Koa and I went for another walk. I made some food for Koa, before I headed upstairs for my little bike ride. Koa wasn’t too pleased with me being gone, but fortunately, he wasn't too vocal about it. When I got back downstairs, I fixed myself some food as well.
Bestie called me on her way to physio, and we had a nice chat. I walked a bit with Koa, and then we relaxed again. I wanted to go to the store, to buy some envelopes and stamps. I could go with Skoosh, and be back in a jiffy. But, the weather was nice, my meds were working, and I felt eager to walk a bit, and see how that would go.
I texted the neighbor, asking if she’d be interested in joining me and Koa for a walk to the store. It turned out, she was just getting ready to head to the supermarket, which is about 140m from the store I needed. So, we met up to walk together. After a little bit, she took over Koa’s leash, which helped my back a lot. And, I think she enjoyed it too. It had been two weeks since her furry loved one had passed the rainbow bridge, so it was hard for her. But, I saw her smile a bit from time to time, which made me feel a bit better. I had forgotten to turn on the GPS tracking on Koa’s collar, so we missed a bit of the activity. But… We managed to get to the stores, and then back again. I was dead, and Koa was rather tired too. Time and distance wise, it was the max for him, maybe a bit too much, because of all the new impressions. But, Koa had done a great job! And I think all three of us had enjoyed the little walk and company.
When we got home, I gave Koa something to snack, and he went to the crate in the bedroom. I went to bed, not to sleep, but to relax. We had walked almost 2km, and it was a lot for my poor back and leg. And, while I was exhausted, I also felt good about it. We relaxed for about 90 minutes, and then Koa wanted to go out again. He had drunk a lot after coming home, so he had to wee. I was all for a short nip to the grassy field behind the house, and then back again. Koa wanted a bit more… Which was not appreciated by my leg and back.
We got back, and we relaxed a bit. I got Koa’s old-skool photo album, and I started adding the pictures that had arrived the previous day. Koa started “playing” with my curtains, which I had closed due to both heat and light, and when he used his little teefs in them, I put him back into the crate. I finished adding all the pictures, now I need to add all the dates into an excel sheet, and hope that my dad will want to print them, so that I can cut them out, and add them to the pictures.
When I was done, I gave Koa his meal. We went into the garden for a while, where he could do his things. After that, I took my meds, and we got ready to head to bed. It was a bit earlier, but I was just so tired… Of course, Koa was snoozing in no time, and it took me a bit longer to get comfortable enough to doze off.
I woke up a few times for doggy breaks, I still hope that, sooner rather than later, Koa will be back to needing max 1 potty break a night. He was on one for a while, but then he fell back into needing two… The breeder says the bladder control should be getting better once they’ve finished the teething process. Koa has two wobble little teefs in the front, and he still needs to exchange the fangs and molars… So, I guess I will have to be patient a bit longer… (although, after more than 11 weeks, I do long for a few “good nights”…).
We got up, and I used the scale. It was a bit higher, weight wise, but the fat percentage was a bit lower, so I guess it’s not that bad. I still hope to get my weight below the 80 kilos again, sooner than later would be nice, I want to be able to shed this obesity again… At the end of last year, I finally got close to it, but then, due to weather, family things, and me feeling like crap, it went up again. I really hope that I can start visiting the gym again soon, if both Koa and my body will allow it… I really miss it, in more than one way…
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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#Journal of a slightly enthusiastic, and slightly exhausted, Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 09/07/2026).
After an OK enough night, with about 7 hours of sleep in total, Koa told me it was time to get up and to start our “day”. I got to the scale, which surprised me a little, in a nice way. I dressed, took my meds, fed the little nibbler, and then I got to the couch with my laptop. I wrote a long email to my sweet friend, followed by my journal toot. When the toot was uploaded to all the usual places, I put away the laptop, and fixed myself some brekkie.
After brekkie, Koa and I went for a short walkies. When we got back, we crashed on the couch, and relaxed for a while. I worked a bit on a blog post, while I watched some Criminal Minds. After some telly time, it was getting light out, and Koa and I went for another walk. I made some food for Koa, before I headed upstairs for my little bike ride. Koa wasn’t too pleased with me being gone, but fortunately, he wasn't too vocal about it. When I got back downstairs, I fixed myself some food as well.
Bestie called me on her way to physio, and we had a nice chat. I walked a bit with Koa, and then we relaxed again. I wanted to go to the store, to buy some envelopes and stamps. I could go with Skoosh, and be back in a jiffy. But, the weather was nice, my meds were working, and I felt eager to walk a bit, and see how that would go.
I texted the neighbor, asking if she’d be interested in joining me and Koa for a walk to the store. It turned out, she was just getting ready to head to the supermarket, which is about 140m from the store I needed. So, we met up to walk together. After a little bit, she took over Koa’s leash, which helped my back a lot. And, I think she enjoyed it too. It had been two weeks since her furry loved one had passed the rainbow bridge, so it was hard for her. But, I saw her smile a bit from time to time, which made me feel a bit better. I had forgotten to turn on the GPS tracking on Koa’s collar, so we missed a bit of the activity. But… We managed to get to the stores, and then back again. I was dead, and Koa was rather tired too. Time and distance wise, it was the max for him, maybe a bit too much, because of all the new impressions. But, Koa had done a great job! And I think all three of us had enjoyed the little walk and company.
When we got home, I gave Koa something to snack, and he went to the crate in the bedroom. I went to bed, not to sleep, but to relax. We had walked almost 2km, and it was a lot for my poor back and leg. And, while I was exhausted, I also felt good about it. We relaxed for about 90 minutes, and then Koa wanted to go out again. He had drunk a lot after coming home, so he had to wee. I was all for a short nip to the grassy field behind the house, and then back again. Koa wanted a bit more… Which was not appreciated by my leg and back.
We got back, and we relaxed a bit. I got Koa’s old-skool photo album, and I started adding the pictures that had arrived the previous day. Koa started “playing” with my curtains, which I had closed due to both heat and light, and when he used his little teefs in them, I put him back into the crate. I finished adding all the pictures, now I need to add all the dates into an excel sheet, and hope that my dad will want to print them, so that I can cut them out, and add them to the pictures.
When I was done, I gave Koa his meal. We went into the garden for a while, where he could do his things. After that, I took my meds, and we got ready to head to bed. It was a bit earlier, but I was just so tired… Of course, Koa was snoozing in no time, and it took me a bit longer to get comfortable enough to doze off.
I woke up a few times for doggy breaks, I still hope that, sooner rather than later, Koa will be back to needing max 1 potty break a night. He was on one for a while, but then he fell back into needing two… The breeder says the bladder control should be getting better once they’ve finished the teething process. Koa has two wobble little teefs in the front, and he still needs to exchange the fangs and molars… So, I guess I will have to be patient a bit longer… (although, after more than 11 weeks, I do long for a few “good nights”…).
We got up, and I used the scale. It was a bit higher, weight wise, but the fat percentage was a bit lower, so I guess it’s not that bad. I still hope to get my weight below the 80 kilos again, sooner than later would be nice, I want to be able to shed this obesity again… At the end of last year, I finally got close to it, but then, due to weather, family things, and me feeling like crap, it went up again. I really hope that I can start visiting the gym again soon, if both Koa and my body will allow it… I really miss it, in more than one way…
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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#Journal of a slightly relaxed Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesday, 08/07/2026).
I was rather tired, and thanks to the meds, and thanks to Koa, I was able to get some more sleep tonight. Which had been very welcome, and needed… When Koa woke me up, I could not believe the time on my phone. Until I felt my body, and I realized that my pain meds had been done with… I tried to get to the scale, which was not too bad, and then I got dressed. I took my meds, and made Koa happy with a nice meal. Then, we went to the couch, where we tried to relax some.
I got my laptop, and I wrote an email to a sweet friend, and then I wrote my journal toot. When all the writing had been finished, I fixed myself some brekkie. I took Koa for a short walkies. After that, we got back to the couch, and we tried to relax a bit with some telly.
It was a good night, and we had a relaxing time. When it got light out, Koa and I went for a short walk. I fixed some food for Koa and myself, and I watched some telly. After some more relaxing, I took Koa out for a little longer walk. While we were walking, bestie called me on her way to work. We had a nice chat, and Koa and I managed an 842m walk, according to his GPS tracker.
When bestie had arrived, it was time for me to head upstairs for a bit, to ride my bike. I was a bit distracted, and had an 18-minute ride. A bit longer than I should have, but it had gone well enough. I relaxed for a little while, and then Koa and I went out for another walk, but a shorter one this time.
We relaxed a lot today, with some walkies in between. I received my parcel with the picture prints that I had ordered. I sorted all of them, making sure they would be in the right order. When that was done, I received my parcel with the special 40th anniversary vinyl of Roxette’s “Neverending Love” single.
My back was really sore, and I could not get comfy on the couch, so I got everything ready to head to bed. Not to sleep, but to allow my back to relax properly. After an hour, I got up again, and I fed my boy. He went out for his business, and I took my meds. I went back to bed again, and now I was hoping to get some sleep, but my brain and body would not allow me to relax enough. So it took me quite a little while before I was finally able to doze off…
Koa woke me up twice during the night. When he woke me up again, it was too early, and I told him I needed at least another hour. And… He dozed off again, as did I, and… he woke me up again an hour later. So yeah, it was time to get up then. According to my watch, I got about 7 hours of sleep, so it wasn't too bad. Koa and I got up, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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#Journal of a slightly relaxed Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesday, 08/07/2026).
I was rather tired, and thanks to the meds, and thanks to Koa, I was able to get some more sleep tonight. Which had been very welcome, and needed… When Koa woke me up, I could not believe the time on my phone. Until I felt my body, and I realized that my pain meds had been done with… I tried to get to the scale, which was not too bad, and then I got dressed. I took my meds, and made Koa happy with a nice meal. Then, we went to the couch, where we tried to relax some.
I got my laptop, and I wrote an email to a sweet friend, and then I wrote my journal toot. When all the writing had been finished, I fixed myself some brekkie. I took Koa for a short walkies. After that, we got back to the couch, and we tried to relax a bit with some telly.
It was a good night, and we had a relaxing time. When it got light out, Koa and I went for a short walk. I fixed some food for Koa and myself, and I watched some telly. After some more relaxing, I took Koa out for a little longer walk. While we were walking, bestie called me on her way to work. We had a nice chat, and Koa and I managed an 842m walk, according to his GPS tracker.
When bestie had arrived, it was time for me to head upstairs for a bit, to ride my bike. I was a bit distracted, and had an 18-minute ride. A bit longer than I should have, but it had gone well enough. I relaxed for a little while, and then Koa and I went out for another walk, but a shorter one this time.
We relaxed a lot today, with some walkies in between. I received my parcel with the picture prints that I had ordered. I sorted all of them, making sure they would be in the right order. When that was done, I received my parcel with the special 40th anniversary vinyl of Roxette’s “Neverending Love” single.
My back was really sore, and I could not get comfy on the couch, so I got everything ready to head to bed. Not to sleep, but to allow my back to relax properly. After an hour, I got up again, and I fed my boy. He went out for his business, and I took my meds. I went back to bed again, and now I was hoping to get some sleep, but my brain and body would not allow me to relax enough. So it took me quite a little while before I was finally able to doze off…
Koa woke me up twice during the night. When he woke me up again, it was too early, and I told him I needed at least another hour. And… He dozed off again, as did I, and… he woke me up again an hour later. So yeah, it was time to get up then. According to my watch, I got about 7 hours of sleep, so it wasn't too bad. Koa and I got up, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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CW: Nothing bad! Except my back 😉. But a >5k journal Toot, so a CW to save some folks from scrolling too long... 😇
#Journal of a slightly tired Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Tuesday, 07/07/2026).
We had gone to bed earlier than we planned, due to the puppy class being canceled. When I woke up for the loo, I had gotten less than 4 hours of sleep. But, I was in pain, as it was time to take my meds. I had taken a short working one before bed, because I knew the long one would “run out” during the night. So, I guess when the short one ran out as well, it woke me up and “told” me it was time to get up, start my “day”, and quickly take my meds.
I dressed, took my meds, fed Koa, and then, I headed to the couch with my laptop. Koa was still tired, heck, I was too, and he quickly dozed off next to me. Which was so sweet and all, as he was snoozing again with his cute giraffe plushies. I started working on my email to my sweet friend. My friend had shared a beautiful picture with it, which I “abused” with some AI to make some lovely edits of it. I sent them to my friend with my reply, hoping he would love them.
When I was done with the email, I started writing my journal toot. I uploaded it to all the usual places, and then I put my laptop away. Koa and I went for a short walk. And then we relaxed for a while with some telly, and some scrolling through the Fediverse.
When it was getting light, Koa and I went out for another walk. I fed him when we got back. After which, Koa went into his crate for a while, so I could go upstairs and ride my bike for a bit. I managed to ride for ten minutes. I got back, and relaxed some more. Then, bestie called me on her way to work. We had a nice chat. When she arrived at work, we hung up, and I took Koa for another short walk.
As I was tired, I tried to relax for a while. I did my stretching exercise, and I watched some more telly. The worker came to service my ventilation system. And, as expected, he didn’t have the right filters… While they are so disgusting, that I really need new ones. It’s been such a hassle with that company. They installed the systems here, and somehow, every time they come here to service the installation (well, they never really service anything, they just swap out the filters), they have the wrong filters with them. And, every time they have the excuse that there are so many filters available, that it’s hard to know which ones to bring…
What a load of BS… They installed the systems in our homes of the rental coop project. They have been “servicing” them for over two years now. How come they still “don’t know” which filters are needed for this project??? I mean, they have a contract with the rental coop, they have all the stats of the systems, as the rental coop pays for it… And still, the frak it up every time! I feel they do it on purpose… Because now, someone will have to come again, to switch the filters. So, instead of being able to send one bill for the “work”, they now can send two! But I am getting to tired of it all, because they should have already switched the filters a month ago, and they expect you to be home “between 8-13”, so you can’t do anything for a whole day, not until they have come and gone again. Ugh…
So yeah, I am still dealing with the disgusting filters, and I need to be home again, for someone to come again… But, at least he came early, so I could relax a bit after that. I fixed some food, and then walked with Koa again. Mum texted that she was on her way to us, so that was nice. When she arrived, we chatted a bit, and I got her comfortable to get through the hours while I was gone. Koa had his snuffle mat, and then he relaxed, and I headed to the physio.
I remembered to take the highway, and the long way round, as other roads were closed due to construction. I waited till it was my turn, and then, my physio checked me out. He said I was doing slightly better, and he was pleased with the little progress that was made. We still have a long way to go, but still, there is some more movement, and some less pain (of course I have better meds now as well).
After the PT, I drove back home. I had a pit stop at the supermarket, where I got some food, as I was really running low on it. When I got back home, Koa was very glad to see me again. I chatted a bit with mum, and then she headed back home again. I relaxed for a while, and then I got things ready to head to bed. Not to sleep just yet, as the GP would call me between 14:30-15:30 to discuss the meds. But my back was sore, and I could not properly relax on the couch.
So, we went to bed, where I watched some series on my tablet, and I wrote an email to a sweet friend. The GP called at 14:43, we had a good little talk, and meds were being continued, and we scheduled another phone consultation for next week. After the call, I was so very tired… I put away the tablet, and go my Kobo. I got comfy, as much as I could, and before I knew it, I had joined Koa in the land of snooze.
Koa woke me up twice during the night. But, he did his things properly, and we quickly went back to bed after both times. When he woke me up again, I felt like it was a bit too early still. But, then I checked the time, and it was a lot later than I thought! So, I got up, and Koa and I started our routine to begin our new “day”. According to my watch, I had slept about 8 hours in total, and that was just awesome, as I really needed it. I also had an email to pick up the new meds, so yay for that as well. Hopefully, this was the start of a good day to come…
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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CW: Nothing bad! Except my back 😉. But a >5k journal Toot, so a CW to save some folks from scrolling too long... 😇
#Journal of a slightly tired Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Tuesday, 07/07/2026).
We had gone to bed earlier than we planned, due to the puppy class being canceled. When I woke up for the loo, I had gotten less than 4 hours of sleep. But, I was in pain, as it was time to take my meds. I had taken a short working one before bed, because I knew the long one would “run out” during the night. So, I guess when the short one ran out as well, it woke me up and “told” me it was time to get up, start my “day”, and quickly take my meds.
I dressed, took my meds, fed Koa, and then, I headed to the couch with my laptop. Koa was still tired, heck, I was too, and he quickly dozed off next to me. Which was so sweet and all, as he was snoozing again with his cute giraffe plushies. I started working on my email to my sweet friend. My friend had shared a beautiful picture with it, which I “abused” with some AI to make some lovely edits of it. I sent them to my friend with my reply, hoping he would love them.
When I was done with the email, I started writing my journal toot. I uploaded it to all the usual places, and then I put my laptop away. Koa and I went for a short walk. And then we relaxed for a while with some telly, and some scrolling through the Fediverse.
When it was getting light, Koa and I went out for another walk. I fed him when we got back. After which, Koa went into his crate for a while, so I could go upstairs and ride my bike for a bit. I managed to ride for ten minutes. I got back, and relaxed some more. Then, bestie called me on her way to work. We had a nice chat. When she arrived at work, we hung up, and I took Koa for another short walk.
As I was tired, I tried to relax for a while. I did my stretching exercise, and I watched some more telly. The worker came to service my ventilation system. And, as expected, he didn’t have the right filters… While they are so disgusting, that I really need new ones. It’s been such a hassle with that company. They installed the systems here, and somehow, every time they come here to service the installation (well, they never really service anything, they just swap out the filters), they have the wrong filters with them. And, every time they have the excuse that there are so many filters available, that it’s hard to know which ones to bring…
What a load of BS… They installed the systems in our homes of the rental coop project. They have been “servicing” them for over two years now. How come they still “don’t know” which filters are needed for this project??? I mean, they have a contract with the rental coop, they have all the stats of the systems, as the rental coop pays for it… And still, the frak it up every time! I feel they do it on purpose… Because now, someone will have to come again, to switch the filters. So, instead of being able to send one bill for the “work”, they now can send two! But I am getting to tired of it all, because they should have already switched the filters a month ago, and they expect you to be home “between 8-13”, so you can’t do anything for a whole day, not until they have come and gone again. Ugh…
So yeah, I am still dealing with the disgusting filters, and I need to be home again, for someone to come again… But, at least he came early, so I could relax a bit after that. I fixed some food, and then walked with Koa again. Mum texted that she was on her way to us, so that was nice. When she arrived, we chatted a bit, and I got her comfortable to get through the hours while I was gone. Koa had his snuffle mat, and then he relaxed, and I headed to the physio.
I remembered to take the highway, and the long way round, as other roads were closed due to construction. I waited till it was my turn, and then, my physio checked me out. He said I was doing slightly better, and he was pleased with the little progress that was made. We still have a long way to go, but still, there is some more movement, and some less pain (of course I have better meds now as well).
After the PT, I drove back home. I had a pit stop at the supermarket, where I got some food, as I was really running low on it. When I got back home, Koa was very glad to see me again. I chatted a bit with mum, and then she headed back home again. I relaxed for a while, and then I got things ready to head to bed. Not to sleep just yet, as the GP would call me between 14:30-15:30 to discuss the meds. But my back was sore, and I could not properly relax on the couch.
So, we went to bed, where I watched some series on my tablet, and I wrote an email to a sweet friend. The GP called at 14:43, we had a good little talk, and meds were being continued, and we scheduled another phone consultation for next week. After the call, I was so very tired… I put away the tablet, and go my Kobo. I got comfy, as much as I could, and before I knew it, I had joined Koa in the land of snooze.
Koa woke me up twice during the night. But, he did his things properly, and we quickly went back to bed after both times. When he woke me up again, I felt like it was a bit too early still. But, then I checked the time, and it was a lot later than I thought! So, I got up, and Koa and I started our routine to begin our new “day”. According to my watch, I had slept about 8 hours in total, and that was just awesome, as I really needed it. I also had an email to pick up the new meds, so yay for that as well. Hopefully, this was the start of a good day to come…
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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CW: Nothing too bad, except my disappointment and pain... But a rather long journal Toot, so a CW to save some people from scrolling for ages... 😉
#Journal of a very disappointed Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Monday, 06/07/2026).
I had an OK enough night, although more sleep would have been very welcome. But, it is as it is, and we got up to start our “day”. I got to the scale, dressed, fixed Koa’s meal, and I took my meds. I got to the couch, where I grabbed my laptop, and started my email to my very sweet friend. While I was working on that, I was distracted. I wanted to make sure mum would get a backup service for her pictures, so that she would not have to struggle again with keeping her precious pictures safe. And, I wanted to work on the broken phone, to try and get the pictures off for mum, one way or another.
I managed to get the backup stuff working for mum, with mum doing some things herself through chat. And then I finished the email, and started writing my journal toot. In between, I tried a few things with the broken phone, and, all of a sudden, I found something that could work, even if only for a little while. I tried and tried, and after about 90 minutes, I was so happy! On my drive, I had the DCIM photo folder from mum’s phone… It was copied, and done. I was rather excited, as I had not believed that I would be lucky enough to manage it.
I finished my journal toot, and uploaded it to the usual places. Then, I made a few backups of the pictures I just managed to save from the phone. I was so happy, and I was hoping that my parents would be happy too…
When I was done with the journal toot and phone, I made some brekkie. After that, Koa and I had a short walk. We got back, and relaxed on the couch for a while with some telly. I tried to take it easy, as I was still rather tired, and today would be a long day. After a while, I walked with Koa again, so he could get his sniffs in and all that.
On the way to work, bestie called me again, and we had a nice chat. I walked with Koa after that, as he barked at the door, which is usually an indicator that he needs to go out (although it’s not always a real indication that he needs a pee or poop, but I can’t ignore it, if I don’t want any smelly surprises near the door…).
When we got back, I tried to relax for a while. I had remembered that my couch would be coming this morning, so I could not try to get a nap. But some relaxing happened, which was nice. I walked Koa again, shortly before my coach was said to arrive. And, when she came, we had a long chat about many things. It was hard to talk about some things, as it’s all so personal, and direct. I know it’s important to talk about all these things, as we need to see where I can gain the most from their support. But, when she left, I was very much drained.
I walked Koa again, and then we tried to relax for a bit again. We went to bed for a short while, and I even managed to catch some sleep, which was very welcome. Around 13, I got up again, made Koa some food, and took him out for a little walk. We were watching some telly, when my neighbor came knocking on my door. She brought something back, which she borrowed a while ago, and we chatted for a while. When she left, Koa and I got ready to head to Nijmegen.
We arrived in Nijmegen safe and sound. Mum was out for a bit, so it was just dad and me, and the dogs of course. Instead of getting a nice greeting and a thank you for the work on the pictures, dad was nagging at me that “he didn’t need all these pictures, he only wanted the ones from 2026”. So, instead of thanking me for the work, and being grateful that he was now able to copy the pics he needed to his HD, he nagged at me because I had uploaded all the pictures in the folder… I can never do anything right by him, there is never any gratefulness, and I was getting so angry (and hurt/disappointed).
Unfortunately, it took a while before mum got back, and my mood wasn't improving at all. When mum was back, and we took the dogs out for a walk, Koa was not on his best behavior, which ended up hurting me some more. So, I got more upset, due to the added pain. Mum wasn’t helping much either, as instead of some gratitude from her, I also had to hear on things that she found annoying ad all… I could not seem to win with them today (can I ever?).
Where I had been so excited, after I had been able to recover the pictures, I was now so disappointed as they didn’t seem grateful and appreciative at all. I worked hard on this, and it seemed to be part of my duties or something, not anything to be positive about...
So now, I was in more pain, especially since Koa grabbed my bad hand when he was doing his best not to listen to me, and it hurt like hell. And I was disappointed and angry. I had no motivation to go to the puppy class, as I think it’s just a waste of money… Puppy class is another place where I can be ignored by someone else, which I even paid for… All the pups get chosen again and again for the exercises, except for Koa. And I know he doesn’t see it that way, but it hurts me, because I feel he should be getting some of that attention as well. He is a good boy, even though I call him an asshat at times, especially when he hurts me, and when he’s disrupted my night yet again…
Mum and I got to the class, where I almost hit the door, because it didn’t automatically open. We waited for a while, and I was just so grumpy due to all that had happened… When someone came up to us, informing us the teacher was stuck in bad traffic, and not able to make it… I felt relief… I should have been feeling bummed, but nope… I was struggling with my pain and emotions so much, that I was happy that Koa and I could just head home, and get to bed.
So, we headed home, where I almost hit a female pheasant that decided to cross the street… Fortunately, the person behind me had been paying attention as well, so when I braked to not hit the silly bird, they didn’t hit me… We got home, I took my meds, prepped everything, and Koa and I went to bed. It didn’t take too long for Koa to doze off. And, when my meds kicked in, I was able to doze off too.
After about 4 hours I woke up again for the loo. I needed my new painkillers, and Koa needed food, so we both got up to start our “day”. Hopefully I can relax a bit during the morning, so I can get to physio safe and sound (and hopefully mum is OK with being with Koa a little longer, so I can get some very much needed groceries). Hey ho, let’s do this!
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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CW: Nothing too bad, except my disappointment and pain... But a rather long journal Toot, so a CW to save some people from scrolling for ages... 😉
#Journal of a very disappointed Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Monday, 06/07/2026).
I had an OK enough night, although more sleep would have been very welcome. But, it is as it is, and we got up to start our “day”. I got to the scale, dressed, fixed Koa’s meal, and I took my meds. I got to the couch, where I grabbed my laptop, and started my email to my very sweet friend. While I was working on that, I was distracted. I wanted to make sure mum would get a backup service for her pictures, so that she would not have to struggle again with keeping her precious pictures safe. And, I wanted to work on the broken phone, to try and get the pictures off for mum, one way or another.
I managed to get the backup stuff working for mum, with mum doing some things herself through chat. And then I finished the email, and started writing my journal toot. In between, I tried a few things with the broken phone, and, all of a sudden, I found something that could work, even if only for a little while. I tried and tried, and after about 90 minutes, I was so happy! On my drive, I had the DCIM photo folder from mum’s phone… It was copied, and done. I was rather excited, as I had not believed that I would be lucky enough to manage it.
I finished my journal toot, and uploaded it to the usual places. Then, I made a few backups of the pictures I just managed to save from the phone. I was so happy, and I was hoping that my parents would be happy too…
When I was done with the journal toot and phone, I made some brekkie. After that, Koa and I had a short walk. We got back, and relaxed on the couch for a while with some telly. I tried to take it easy, as I was still rather tired, and today would be a long day. After a while, I walked with Koa again, so he could get his sniffs in and all that.
On the way to work, bestie called me again, and we had a nice chat. I walked with Koa after that, as he barked at the door, which is usually an indicator that he needs to go out (although it’s not always a real indication that he needs a pee or poop, but I can’t ignore it, if I don’t want any smelly surprises near the door…).
When we got back, I tried to relax for a while. I had remembered that my couch would be coming this morning, so I could not try to get a nap. But some relaxing happened, which was nice. I walked Koa again, shortly before my coach was said to arrive. And, when she came, we had a long chat about many things. It was hard to talk about some things, as it’s all so personal, and direct. I know it’s important to talk about all these things, as we need to see where I can gain the most from their support. But, when she left, I was very much drained.
I walked Koa again, and then we tried to relax for a bit again. We went to bed for a short while, and I even managed to catch some sleep, which was very welcome. Around 13, I got up again, made Koa some food, and took him out for a little walk. We were watching some telly, when my neighbor came knocking on my door. She brought something back, which she borrowed a while ago, and we chatted for a while. When she left, Koa and I got ready to head to Nijmegen.
We arrived in Nijmegen safe and sound. Mum was out for a bit, so it was just dad and me, and the dogs of course. Instead of getting a nice greeting and a thank you for the work on the pictures, dad was nagging at me that “he didn’t need all these pictures, he only wanted the ones from 2026”. So, instead of thanking me for the work, and being grateful that he was now able to copy the pics he needed to his HD, he nagged at me because I had uploaded all the pictures in the folder… I can never do anything right by him, there is never any gratefulness, and I was getting so angry (and hurt/disappointed).
Unfortunately, it took a while before mum got back, and my mood wasn't improving at all. When mum was back, and we took the dogs out for a walk, Koa was not on his best behavior, which ended up hurting me some more. So, I got more upset, due to the added pain. Mum wasn’t helping much either, as instead of some gratitude from her, I also had to hear on things that she found annoying ad all… I could not seem to win with them today (can I ever?).
Where I had been so excited, after I had been able to recover the pictures, I was now so disappointed as they didn’t seem grateful and appreciative at all. I worked hard on this, and it seemed to be part of my duties or something, not anything to be positive about...
So now, I was in more pain, especially since Koa grabbed my bad hand when he was doing his best not to listen to me, and it hurt like hell. And I was disappointed and angry. I had no motivation to go to the puppy class, as I think it’s just a waste of money… Puppy class is another place where I can be ignored by someone else, which I even paid for… All the pups get chosen again and again for the exercises, except for Koa. And I know he doesn’t see it that way, but it hurts me, because I feel he should be getting some of that attention as well. He is a good boy, even though I call him an asshat at times, especially when he hurts me, and when he’s disrupted my night yet again…
Mum and I got to the class, where I almost hit the door, because it didn’t automatically open. We waited for a while, and I was just so grumpy due to all that had happened… When someone came up to us, informing us the teacher was stuck in bad traffic, and not able to make it… I felt relief… I should have been feeling bummed, but nope… I was struggling with my pain and emotions so much, that I was happy that Koa and I could just head home, and get to bed.
So, we headed home, where I almost hit a female pheasant that decided to cross the street… Fortunately, the person behind me had been paying attention as well, so when I braked to not hit the silly bird, they didn’t hit me… We got home, I took my meds, prepped everything, and Koa and I went to bed. It didn’t take too long for Koa to doze off. And, when my meds kicked in, I was able to doze off too.
After about 4 hours I woke up again for the loo. I needed my new painkillers, and Koa needed food, so we both got up to start our “day”. Hopefully I can relax a bit during the morning, so I can get to physio safe and sound (and hopefully mum is OK with being with Koa a little longer, so I can get some very much needed groceries). Hey ho, let’s do this!
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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#Journal of a slightly busy Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Sunday, 05/07/2026).
I didn’t have the best night, as it took some time to get comfortable enough to fall asleep, and Koa woke me up several times for potty breaks… So when he woke me up again, I understood he had been in the crate long enough, and we got up to start our “day”. I got dressed, took my meds, and prepared Koa’s meal. After that, we got to the couch, where I grabbed my laptop to start my usual “couch routine”.
I wrote a long email to my sweet friend. Followed by the writing of my journal toot. When it was done, I uploaded it to all the usual places. Koa wanted out for walkies, so we went for a short round. When we got back, I got back to the couch for some relaxing. I watched a bit of telly, and I scrolled on my phone. I wrote a bit for my blog as well. Basically, I tried to relax as much as I could, as the previous two days had worn me out quite a bit.
After a while, Koa and I went out for another short walk. Then, I headed upstairs. First, I rode my bike on the lowest, slowest, setting for 15 minutes. When I was done, I folded the dry laundry, and took it downstairs with me. I wanted to relax a bit on the couch, before putting away the clothes and such. But, before I was ready with my relaxing, Koa already wanted some attention.
I wonder at times, how much he is training and testing me, with his barking to go out. If I ignore it, it could be that he did have to go, and he’ll “reward me” with something to clean up. But, maybe he knows that a bark will get him out, whether he needs a pee/poop or not… So, he barks, and I respond. Even when I feel like he is testing/trying me, I still don’t want to be wrong, and end up needing to clean a smelly mess…
Koa and I got back from walkies. I made him his food, and then I made some for myself as well. We relaxed a bit, and I got my little vacuum cleaner, so I could vacuum the downstairs area a bit easier than with the big one. The small one isn't as good, but still, it was better than not vacuuming at all. When I was done, Koa and I relaxed for a while.
Mum had texted me the previous day, that she’d be with us between 10-10:30. So, a bit before ten, Koa and I went out for a walk again. And then, I watched some telly, while waiting for mum. When it was 10:32, I got a text that mum was coming… Unfortunately, she meant she was just leaving their home, which meant that I had been waiting for half an hour for nothing… And I would have to wait a little longer as well. I walked Koa again, and then I crated him, so I could do my stretching exercise while waiting for mum.
Mum finally came, Koa got all excited, and he managed to “hug” mum a bit too enthusiastically, so I got mum a bandage. I got out my laptop, as I wanted to work on mum’s old phone. But, that one wasn’t interested in working at all. So, we focused on the new phone, to get everything installed and working. We worked on it for about 90 minutes. Then, we took Koa out for a little walk. When we got back, Koa was too excited with mum again, so bandage number 2 was needed. Mum does bleed rather quickly and easily though… When Koa relaxed a bit, I gave him a new plush toy that I had waiting for him: a new Ikea Giraffe (the small one). Koa was all excited about it, and he dragged it along with him, which looked rather silly.
We finished working on mum’s new phone. The old one still was a no-go, so it would stay with me, so I could try it some more. Koa had his meal, and then mum got ready to head back home. We got to their car, so I could connect the phone to the car’s Bluetooth system. Then, I went back to Koa, who was barking in the garden, all abandoned and alone, the poor thing. Mum went home, and Koa and I got ready to head to bed. I was very tired, after all the little walks with Koa, and being busy with mum’s phone for about two hours.
It didn’t take too long for Koa to doze off, and I was hoping that I could join him soon. I needed an extra painkiller, as my body would not let me get comfortable enough to relax. After a while, the meds started to work, and I felt myself get so tired. So, I dozed off for a while. Koa let me sleep for several hours, which felt good. We went out, he did his things, and we got back to sleep for about 2 more hours. I didn’t get as much sleep as I hoped for, according to my watch, it was a little less than 6 hours in total. But, some of the sleep I did get, was rather nice. We got up a bit earlier than I hoped, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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#Journal of a slightly busy Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Sunday, 05/07/2026).
I didn’t have the best night, as it took some time to get comfortable enough to fall asleep, and Koa woke me up several times for potty breaks… So when he woke me up again, I understood he had been in the crate long enough, and we got up to start our “day”. I got dressed, took my meds, and prepared Koa’s meal. After that, we got to the couch, where I grabbed my laptop to start my usual “couch routine”.
I wrote a long email to my sweet friend. Followed by the writing of my journal toot. When it was done, I uploaded it to all the usual places. Koa wanted out for walkies, so we went for a short round. When we got back, I got back to the couch for some relaxing. I watched a bit of telly, and I scrolled on my phone. I wrote a bit for my blog as well. Basically, I tried to relax as much as I could, as the previous two days had worn me out quite a bit.
After a while, Koa and I went out for another short walk. Then, I headed upstairs. First, I rode my bike on the lowest, slowest, setting for 15 minutes. When I was done, I folded the dry laundry, and took it downstairs with me. I wanted to relax a bit on the couch, before putting away the clothes and such. But, before I was ready with my relaxing, Koa already wanted some attention.
I wonder at times, how much he is training and testing me, with his barking to go out. If I ignore it, it could be that he did have to go, and he’ll “reward me” with something to clean up. But, maybe he knows that a bark will get him out, whether he needs a pee/poop or not… So, he barks, and I respond. Even when I feel like he is testing/trying me, I still don’t want to be wrong, and end up needing to clean a smelly mess…
Koa and I got back from walkies. I made him his food, and then I made some for myself as well. We relaxed a bit, and I got my little vacuum cleaner, so I could vacuum the downstairs area a bit easier than with the big one. The small one isn't as good, but still, it was better than not vacuuming at all. When I was done, Koa and I relaxed for a while.
Mum had texted me the previous day, that she’d be with us between 10-10:30. So, a bit before ten, Koa and I went out for a walk again. And then, I watched some telly, while waiting for mum. When it was 10:32, I got a text that mum was coming… Unfortunately, she meant she was just leaving their home, which meant that I had been waiting for half an hour for nothing… And I would have to wait a little longer as well. I walked Koa again, and then I crated him, so I could do my stretching exercise while waiting for mum.
Mum finally came, Koa got all excited, and he managed to “hug” mum a bit too enthusiastically, so I got mum a bandage. I got out my laptop, as I wanted to work on mum’s old phone. But, that one wasn’t interested in working at all. So, we focused on the new phone, to get everything installed and working. We worked on it for about 90 minutes. Then, we took Koa out for a little walk. When we got back, Koa was too excited with mum again, so bandage number 2 was needed. Mum does bleed rather quickly and easily though… When Koa relaxed a bit, I gave him a new plush toy that I had waiting for him: a new Ikea Giraffe (the small one). Koa was all excited about it, and he dragged it along with him, which looked rather silly.
We finished working on mum’s new phone. The old one still was a no-go, so it would stay with me, so I could try it some more. Koa had his meal, and then mum got ready to head back home. We got to their car, so I could connect the phone to the car’s Bluetooth system. Then, I went back to Koa, who was barking in the garden, all abandoned and alone, the poor thing. Mum went home, and Koa and I got ready to head to bed. I was very tired, after all the little walks with Koa, and being busy with mum’s phone for about two hours.
It didn’t take too long for Koa to doze off, and I was hoping that I could join him soon. I needed an extra painkiller, as my body would not let me get comfortable enough to relax. After a while, the meds started to work, and I felt myself get so tired. So, I dozed off for a while. Koa let me sleep for several hours, which felt good. We went out, he did his things, and we got back to sleep for about 2 more hours. I didn’t get as much sleep as I hoped for, according to my watch, it was a little less than 6 hours in total. But, some of the sleep I did get, was rather nice. We got up a bit earlier than I hoped, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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:kirby_prideheart: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle:
#GoodMorning (almost? 🤔) and #TZAG everyone :kirby_star2:
Tried to cuddle with Koa...
He would not properly relax, and kept using his teefs...
I don't mind some nibbling, as it's part of his age and all.
But the constant attacks, they can hurt, and I don't need that all of the time... 😔And I don't know what's happening somewhere... But even with the insulated windows and doors closed, I keep on hearing a droning noise, like the bass of some distant music... It's almost 4 am, and I heard it since I got up around 22:15. I thought it would end, with sound regulations and such for events noise in neighborhoods... But it just keeps on going, and it's driving me nuts!
My AuDHD can't filter it, and even with the TV on, it still is too present for me to ignore...
I wonder if more people hear this annoying noise, or if it's my "special" AuDHD ability, of being way too sensitive for sounds like these... (and not being able to filter/ignore). The only thing that could help, would be me wearing my NC buds or headphones. But I am in my properly insulated home, while it's 4am... I should not be bothered by the noise! This should be my quiet AuDHD time... :blobcatcomfnight:
Ugh... Well, at least I got some good news tonight, about the refund from the electricity company... And being able to use those funds to get some more work done in my back garden... 🍀
Hope you're all having a (relaxing) time... And I hope the stupid droning noise will frak off sooner rather than later... I've had enough of it... 😔
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 🫂 🩵 💜 🩷 🐾 :dogeparrot:
Edit: saw a typo/bad auto correct...
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:kirby_prideheart: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle:
#GoodMorning (almost? 🤔) and #TZAG everyone :kirby_star2:
Tried to cuddle with Koa...
He would not properly relax, and kept using his teefs...
I don't mind some nibbling, as it's part of his age and all.
But the constant attacks, they can hurt, and I don't need that all of the time... 😔And I don't know what's happening somewhere... But even with the insulated windows and doors closed, I keep on hearing a droning noise, like the bass of some distant music... It's almost 4 am, and I heard it since I got up around 22:15. I thought it would end, with sound regulations and such for events noise in neighborhoods... But it just keeps on going, and it's driving me nuts!
My AuDHD can't filter it, and even with the TV on, it still is too present for me to ignore...
I wonder if more people hear this annoying noise, or if it's my "special" AuDHD ability, of being way too sensitive for sounds like these... (and not being able to filter/ignore). The only thing that could help, would be me wearing my NC buds or headphones. But I am in my properly insulated home, while it's 4am... I should not be bothered by the noise! This should be my quiet AuDHD time... :blobcatcomfnight:
Ugh... Well, at least I got some good news tonight, about the refund from the electricity company... And being able to use those funds to get some more work done in my back garden... 🍀
Hope you're all having a (relaxing) time... And I hope the stupid droning noise will frak off sooner rather than later... I've had enough of it... 😔
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 🫂 🩵 💜 🩷 🐾 :dogeparrot:
Edit: saw a typo/bad auto correct...
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#Journal of a very emotional Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 04/07/2026).
I didn’t have the best night. It had taken me quite some time to finally be able to fall asleep. Koa woke me up several times, so I struggled a bit when it was time to gt up again. I used the scale, which wasn’t too bad (OK, things could be a lot better, but those are plans for the future, when my body and situation with Koa have improved), and I got dressed. Koa got his food, and I took my meds. Then, I got to the couch, and grabbed my laptop.
I wrote a long email to my sweet friend. And I shared some of my screengrabs from the visit to the Hatertse Vennen to Pixelfed. Then, I wrote my journal toot, and updated it everywhere it should go. I was feeling rather sad, so when I was done, I put away the laptop. I tried to distract myself by watching one of my favorite series some more, as I am busy on my umpteenth re-watch of Criminal Minds. I scrolled the Fediverse a bit as well. I was crying a bit, as it was a hard night, with sad memories attached to it. And then, all of a sudden, Koa came up to me, snuggled up with me, and… He lay there… No biting. No wiggling. He was just there, showing me he cared… I tried to get a selfie with him, while I was trying to hold back more tears… It didn’t last too long, but it lasted long enough for me to feel loved…
I watched more telly, had brekkie, and scrolled the Fedi some more. After some time, Koa and I went out for a short walk. I had taken an extra painkiller with brekkie, so I was able to walk Koa a bit better, which felt good. When we got back, I chatted with some sweet friends for a while. I rode my bike for a bit, and then I made some food. While I was eating, the washing machine was doing its things… I hung the stuff out to dry, and then I walked Koa again.
We got back home, and I tried to relax a bit with some gaming. But, I struggled with my concentration, so after some time, I switched back to watching Criminal Minds again. Then, I ordered some new photo prints, so I can add them to the old skool books again soon. I still have to finish my document with all the dates, so that dad can hopefully print them, and I can add them to the books.
Koa and I went for another walk, and then we tried to just let the day pass by. My back and leg were slowly acting up a bit again, well, a bit more I should say. I was getting tired, and I felt so drained. So, a bit earlier than usual, we got ready to head to bed. Not just to sleep, but to lay down properly, and be able to relax a bit better than I could on the couch.
After a little while, Koa dozed off, and I tried to… But there were folks on the other side of the grassy area behind the house working on their garden. And… They had music on… Ever since the morning, when they started, I heard the droning of the bass come through the house. And, even with the window closed, it still came into my bedroom. Which drove me nuts, as I wasn’t able to filter it out, even with the sound of my tablet streaming Criminal Minds…
I got my Kobo in the end, and after some time, I was so exhausted, that I finally dozed off. Of course I woke up again shortly, to visit the loo. Koa slept some more, which was nice. He had to go out a few hours later. We slept some more, and then he woke me up again. It was still early, but I understood him being done with the crate, as we’d gone to bed earlier due to me not feeling too good. So… We got up a bit early, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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#Journal of a very emotional Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 04/07/2026).
I didn’t have the best night. It had taken me quite some time to finally be able to fall asleep. Koa woke me up several times, so I struggled a bit when it was time to gt up again. I used the scale, which wasn’t too bad (OK, things could be a lot better, but those are plans for the future, when my body and situation with Koa have improved), and I got dressed. Koa got his food, and I took my meds. Then, I got to the couch, and grabbed my laptop.
I wrote a long email to my sweet friend. And I shared some of my screengrabs from the visit to the Hatertse Vennen to Pixelfed. Then, I wrote my journal toot, and updated it everywhere it should go. I was feeling rather sad, so when I was done, I put away the laptop. I tried to distract myself by watching one of my favorite series some more, as I am busy on my umpteenth re-watch of Criminal Minds. I scrolled the Fediverse a bit as well. I was crying a bit, as it was a hard night, with sad memories attached to it. And then, all of a sudden, Koa came up to me, snuggled up with me, and… He lay there… No biting. No wiggling. He was just there, showing me he cared… I tried to get a selfie with him, while I was trying to hold back more tears… It didn’t last too long, but it lasted long enough for me to feel loved…
I watched more telly, had brekkie, and scrolled the Fedi some more. After some time, Koa and I went out for a short walk. I had taken an extra painkiller with brekkie, so I was able to walk Koa a bit better, which felt good. When we got back, I chatted with some sweet friends for a while. I rode my bike for a bit, and then I made some food. While I was eating, the washing machine was doing its things… I hung the stuff out to dry, and then I walked Koa again.
We got back home, and I tried to relax a bit with some gaming. But, I struggled with my concentration, so after some time, I switched back to watching Criminal Minds again. Then, I ordered some new photo prints, so I can add them to the old skool books again soon. I still have to finish my document with all the dates, so that dad can hopefully print them, and I can add them to the books.
Koa and I went for another walk, and then we tried to just let the day pass by. My back and leg were slowly acting up a bit again, well, a bit more I should say. I was getting tired, and I felt so drained. So, a bit earlier than usual, we got ready to head to bed. Not just to sleep, but to lay down properly, and be able to relax a bit better than I could on the couch.
After a little while, Koa dozed off, and I tried to… But there were folks on the other side of the grassy area behind the house working on their garden. And… They had music on… Ever since the morning, when they started, I heard the droning of the bass come through the house. And, even with the window closed, it still came into my bedroom. Which drove me nuts, as I wasn’t able to filter it out, even with the sound of my tablet streaming Criminal Minds…
I got my Kobo in the end, and after some time, I was so exhausted, that I finally dozed off. Of course I woke up again shortly, to visit the loo. Koa slept some more, which was nice. He had to go out a few hours later. We slept some more, and then he woke me up again. It was still early, but I understood him being done with the crate, as we’d gone to bed earlier due to me not feeling too good. So… We got up a bit early, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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CW: Nothing bad really, just a longer journal Toot 😇
#Journal of a slightly more excited Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 03/07/2026)
I didn’t have the best night, unfortunately. It took a while for me to settle down, and then Koa was a bit restless, so he woke me up several times… But, when we got up, I was allowed to take more meds, so I was hopeful that it would help me to get through the day a bit better… I got dressed, fixed Koa’s meal, and then I took my meds. Fingers crossed that they would do the trick.
I got to the couch, grabbed my laptop, and started my email to my sweet friend. When I was done, I wrote my journal toot. It got uploaded to all the usual bits, and then I could put the laptop away. I had brekkie, and then I took Koa out for a little walk. We ended up walking a bit further, and Koa seemed to enjoy it, which made me quite happy. It was a bit hard for me to walk a longer route, but I took it slowly, and let Koa sniff a bit more when he wanted to, and it went well enough.
When we got back, I did have to rest for a while, which I did with some telly. After some relaxing, I fixed Koa’s meal. Then, I headed upstairs, and I rode the bike for 10 minutes. Koa relaxed in his crate while I was riding, and he didn’t even whine once. He just snoozed while I was upstairs, doing “my thing”. I got back down, and Koa and I went on another walk. We managed a longer walk again, although not as far as Koa would have liked. But, we went halfway, so he got part of the walk in, at least.
We got back again, and I needed to do my stretching exercise for a bit. I watched some telly, worked a bit on my blog posts, and then, it was time to fix my meal. Mum had emailed me that she was ready, so after the meal, we got everything to Skoosh, went to the grassy field, and then drove off to Nijmegen.
I filled up Skoosh on the way to my parents. We arrived safe and sound, and I set up Koa’s crate. When mum was ready, we headed to the stores. The first one was closed, so we’d head to the other one first. A very kind gentleman helped mum and me. And, he said the same things about the old phone and trying to get it repaired... So I am glad that a total stranger voiced the exact same thing (without me prompting it) about that, as it showed mum that it wasn't just me being "difficult" about it. He asked me which phones we may be interested in, so I told him I found two that could suit her needs, but that it could be helpful if mum could check them out with him in the store. The gentleman explained the biggest difference, the cameras, and that this was the difference in price as well. Mum looked at me, and I told her that, if she liked the expensive one better (the gentleman and mum had tested both cameras on the phones, so she could see the differences herself), then that's the one we'd take. If dad was difficult about the costs, then I would try to skip in the difference for the more expensive one, as I was the one who told her to take it... They had a case with it that she preferred, so we made everything in order, and mum got her new phone.
She chose the Samsung Galaxy S25FE. It's the cheapest S25, but it is a good enough phone for mum's needs and wants. She will have to sort out her pictures, as I always gave her phones with bigger storage. But this one "only" has 128GB, which should be enough for mum, but she may need to start sorting out her pictures (and delete old ones). But, at least she has a good phone now, that should last her for several years to come…
We went back to the car, and mum headed to the other shop. I waited for her in the car, and she did her things. Then, we got back home, and I started working on the phone, while mum had a coffee. When the phone had gone through the initial things, mum and I took the dogs to the Hatertse Vennen. Finally, Koa would have the chance for his first “natural water” adventure.
We walked through the woods, which was a bit of a challenge for my back. I had taken an extra painkiller while I was working on the phone, so that it could hopefully help me with this walk with Koa. We got to the waterside, and mum unleashed Bas. He immediately went to the smelliest part of the waterside, and did his thing! I was glad that Koa could not follow all the way. I tried to get some videos of Koa, and when mum had fixed the long leash, we hoped he would dive in for a swim. His GPS and light are both water-resistant, so he was allowed to splash as much as he wanted to. But he seemed more interested in following Bas around, and sniffing other dogs when he saw them.
Still, I think he had a good enough time, and after a while, we went back to the car. I tried to dry off Koa, and mum had smelly Bas to deal with. We headed back to my parent’s home. I tried to help mum some more with her phone. And when she was set to do the rest herself, she helped me to clean Koa’s ears. They really needed a clean, but I wasn’t able to do it by myself, as Koa really hates me putting my finger with a tissue in his ear. Let alone, to let me do it twice… When that was done, I got his crate, and mum got the groceries, and we headed to Skoosh.
Koa and I went back home, where I quickly fed him, as he must have been quite hungry. I cleaned up all the groceries, took my meds, and got ready to head to bed. It took me some time to doze off, and Koa woke me up a few times as well. When I woke up again, it was time to get up, and take my meds. I had only slept for about 6¼ hours in total. But, I needed my meds, Koa needed his food, so it was time to get up, and start our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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CW: Nothing bad really, just a longer journal Toot 😇
#Journal of a slightly more excited Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 03/07/2026)
I didn’t have the best night, unfortunately. It took a while for me to settle down, and then Koa was a bit restless, so he woke me up several times… But, when we got up, I was allowed to take more meds, so I was hopeful that it would help me to get through the day a bit better… I got dressed, fixed Koa’s meal, and then I took my meds. Fingers crossed that they would do the trick.
I got to the couch, grabbed my laptop, and started my email to my sweet friend. When I was done, I wrote my journal toot. It got uploaded to all the usual bits, and then I could put the laptop away. I had brekkie, and then I took Koa out for a little walk. We ended up walking a bit further, and Koa seemed to enjoy it, which made me quite happy. It was a bit hard for me to walk a longer route, but I took it slowly, and let Koa sniff a bit more when he wanted to, and it went well enough.
When we got back, I did have to rest for a while, which I did with some telly. After some relaxing, I fixed Koa’s meal. Then, I headed upstairs, and I rode the bike for 10 minutes. Koa relaxed in his crate while I was riding, and he didn’t even whine once. He just snoozed while I was upstairs, doing “my thing”. I got back down, and Koa and I went on another walk. We managed a longer walk again, although not as far as Koa would have liked. But, we went halfway, so he got part of the walk in, at least.
We got back again, and I needed to do my stretching exercise for a bit. I watched some telly, worked a bit on my blog posts, and then, it was time to fix my meal. Mum had emailed me that she was ready, so after the meal, we got everything to Skoosh, went to the grassy field, and then drove off to Nijmegen.
I filled up Skoosh on the way to my parents. We arrived safe and sound, and I set up Koa’s crate. When mum was ready, we headed to the stores. The first one was closed, so we’d head to the other one first. A very kind gentleman helped mum and me. And, he said the same things about the old phone and trying to get it repaired... So I am glad that a total stranger voiced the exact same thing (without me prompting it) about that, as it showed mum that it wasn't just me being "difficult" about it. He asked me which phones we may be interested in, so I told him I found two that could suit her needs, but that it could be helpful if mum could check them out with him in the store. The gentleman explained the biggest difference, the cameras, and that this was the difference in price as well. Mum looked at me, and I told her that, if she liked the expensive one better (the gentleman and mum had tested both cameras on the phones, so she could see the differences herself), then that's the one we'd take. If dad was difficult about the costs, then I would try to skip in the difference for the more expensive one, as I was the one who told her to take it... They had a case with it that she preferred, so we made everything in order, and mum got her new phone.
She chose the Samsung Galaxy S25FE. It's the cheapest S25, but it is a good enough phone for mum's needs and wants. She will have to sort out her pictures, as I always gave her phones with bigger storage. But this one "only" has 128GB, which should be enough for mum, but she may need to start sorting out her pictures (and delete old ones). But, at least she has a good phone now, that should last her for several years to come…
We went back to the car, and mum headed to the other shop. I waited for her in the car, and she did her things. Then, we got back home, and I started working on the phone, while mum had a coffee. When the phone had gone through the initial things, mum and I took the dogs to the Hatertse Vennen. Finally, Koa would have the chance for his first “natural water” adventure.
We walked through the woods, which was a bit of a challenge for my back. I had taken an extra painkiller while I was working on the phone, so that it could hopefully help me with this walk with Koa. We got to the waterside, and mum unleashed Bas. He immediately went to the smelliest part of the waterside, and did his thing! I was glad that Koa could not follow all the way. I tried to get some videos of Koa, and when mum had fixed the long leash, we hoped he would dive in for a swim. His GPS and light are both water-resistant, so he was allowed to splash as much as he wanted to. But he seemed more interested in following Bas around, and sniffing other dogs when he saw them.
Still, I think he had a good enough time, and after a while, we went back to the car. I tried to dry off Koa, and mum had smelly Bas to deal with. We headed back to my parent’s home. I tried to help mum some more with her phone. And when she was set to do the rest herself, she helped me to clean Koa’s ears. They really needed a clean, but I wasn’t able to do it by myself, as Koa really hates me putting my finger with a tissue in his ear. Let alone, to let me do it twice… When that was done, I got his crate, and mum got the groceries, and we headed to Skoosh.
Koa and I went back home, where I quickly fed him, as he must have been quite hungry. I cleaned up all the groceries, took my meds, and got ready to head to bed. It took me some time to doze off, and Koa woke me up a few times as well. When I woke up again, it was time to get up, and take my meds. I had only slept for about 6¼ hours in total. But, I needed my meds, Koa needed his food, so it was time to get up, and start our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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#Journal of a slightly depressed Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 02/07/2026).
I didn’t have the best night, thanks to my brain and body being silly, and thanks to Koa being a bit more restless. But, I had to make do with it, so when Koa woke me up again, we got up to start our “day”. I cared for Koa, took my meds, and I got dressed. Then, I headed to the couch, grabbed my laptop, and I started an email to my dear friend. I got a bit distracted with trying to find out some things for my mum in between writing the email. When I was done with the thing for mum, and the email was finished as well, I got to writing my journal toot. After uploading it to all the places, I put away the laptop, and I tried to relax a bit with some telly.
I fixed some brekkie, and watched some more Criminal Minds. I tried to ignore my back, and Koa was being a good boy, so that was a plus as well. When it was getting light out, I took Koa to the grassy area behind the house. It was painful, but at least he got to go out for a bit. I fixed some food for myself and for Koa, and after that, we relaxed some more.
I was feeling very tired, and a bit emotional. When Koa and I headed out again, we could pick up a parcel with the neighbor. She told me about her direct neighbor’s dog passing away suddenly a few days ago. It turns out to be such a bad and sad week… The black fluff, now him, and a few days from now, Arwen’s one-year anniversary… 😢
I went online, and I ordered a sympathy card for the neighbors. Then, I tried to relax a bit again, as I was just so tired, and so sad. I had texted with my PT a bit, and he gave me permission for short, low intensity, bike rides. So, when I had relaxed a bit, I went upstairs, and I rode for ten minutes.
After some relaxing, I tried to take Koa out again. He really wanted the longer walk, and I felt so bad about not being able to walk that with him. I wanted to go the route with him, but I knew I would not be able to make it. And I felt so guilty and depressed about that. I tried to offer him a bit more of the path, but I was in too much pain to be able to continue.
We got back, and I felt sad, bad, depressed, broken… And I broke down into a big cry… I was in so much pain, that I went to bed to watch my series on my tablet there. Which made me even more depressed, because it meant locking Koa in the crate some more, and I didn’t want him to be in there too long. But, I had to lay down for a while, and try to relax my body some.
Koa settled down before I did. And after some time, I did doze off for a short while. When I woke up again, I let Koa out, and fixed his meal. I felt so guilty for crating him too much… After he finished his meal, and did some of his business in the garden, we played for a while. I sat on the edge of the bed, and we played some tug-of-war with his toy rope. It hurt me, but I could not care about that. I had to play with my boy. I had to entertain him, give him attention, show him that I love him,
While we played, I cried… Happy tears, from seeing Koa enjoy himself. And sad tears, due to the pain and depression. After a while, I got back to bed, and I watched my series some more. The GP called rather early, which was all good by me. We had a good talk, and I am allowed to take a double dosage of my meds during the daytime, to see if that could help me cope a bit better. She was glad that I was trying to do my exercises and all, and she hopes that the meds can help me to start healing better soon.
After the call, I played a bit with Koa, and I let him out again. It didn’t rain too badly now, so he was able to do both numbers one and two. We went back to bed. After a short time, Koa dozed off. I needed more time to be able to settle down. Koa woke me up soon after, and I let him out again. I was able to sleep a bit more, and then, Koa decided it was time to get up. I was still very tired, but he’d been in the crate for a while now, so I wanted to set him free again. So we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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#Journal of a slightly depressed Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 02/07/2026).
I didn’t have the best night, thanks to my brain and body being silly, and thanks to Koa being a bit more restless. But, I had to make do with it, so when Koa woke me up again, we got up to start our “day”. I cared for Koa, took my meds, and I got dressed. Then, I headed to the couch, grabbed my laptop, and I started an email to my dear friend. I got a bit distracted with trying to find out some things for my mum in between writing the email. When I was done with the thing for mum, and the email was finished as well, I got to writing my journal toot. After uploading it to all the places, I put away the laptop, and I tried to relax a bit with some telly.
I fixed some brekkie, and watched some more Criminal Minds. I tried to ignore my back, and Koa was being a good boy, so that was a plus as well. When it was getting light out, I took Koa to the grassy area behind the house. It was painful, but at least he got to go out for a bit. I fixed some food for myself and for Koa, and after that, we relaxed some more.
I was feeling very tired, and a bit emotional. When Koa and I headed out again, we could pick up a parcel with the neighbor. She told me about her direct neighbor’s dog passing away suddenly a few days ago. It turns out to be such a bad and sad week… The black fluff, now him, and a few days from now, Arwen’s one-year anniversary… 😢
I went online, and I ordered a sympathy card for the neighbors. Then, I tried to relax a bit again, as I was just so tired, and so sad. I had texted with my PT a bit, and he gave me permission for short, low intensity, bike rides. So, when I had relaxed a bit, I went upstairs, and I rode for ten minutes.
After some relaxing, I tried to take Koa out again. He really wanted the longer walk, and I felt so bad about not being able to walk that with him. I wanted to go the route with him, but I knew I would not be able to make it. And I felt so guilty and depressed about that. I tried to offer him a bit more of the path, but I was in too much pain to be able to continue.
We got back, and I felt sad, bad, depressed, broken… And I broke down into a big cry… I was in so much pain, that I went to bed to watch my series on my tablet there. Which made me even more depressed, because it meant locking Koa in the crate some more, and I didn’t want him to be in there too long. But, I had to lay down for a while, and try to relax my body some.
Koa settled down before I did. And after some time, I did doze off for a short while. When I woke up again, I let Koa out, and fixed his meal. I felt so guilty for crating him too much… After he finished his meal, and did some of his business in the garden, we played for a while. I sat on the edge of the bed, and we played some tug-of-war with his toy rope. It hurt me, but I could not care about that. I had to play with my boy. I had to entertain him, give him attention, show him that I love him,
While we played, I cried… Happy tears, from seeing Koa enjoy himself. And sad tears, due to the pain and depression. After a while, I got back to bed, and I watched my series some more. The GP called rather early, which was all good by me. We had a good talk, and I am allowed to take a double dosage of my meds during the daytime, to see if that could help me cope a bit better. She was glad that I was trying to do my exercises and all, and she hopes that the meds can help me to start healing better soon.
After the call, I played a bit with Koa, and I let him out again. It didn’t rain too badly now, so he was able to do both numbers one and two. We went back to bed. After a short time, Koa dozed off. I needed more time to be able to settle down. Koa woke me up soon after, and I let him out again. I was able to sleep a bit more, and then, Koa decided it was time to get up. I was still very tired, but he’d been in the crate for a while now, so I wanted to set him free again. So we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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#Journal of a very grateful Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesday, 01/07/2026).
Koa and my meds allowed me to have a decent enough night, where I got quite some sleep, which was very welcome. When Koa woke me up, and we got up to start our “day”, I managed to use the scale, and it was rather kind to me. Not muscle wise (but I had a bandage on my thumb, so the handrail measurement may have been off due to that), but weight wise, it was a nice number to start the day with.
I dressed, gave Koa his food, and I took my meds. Then, I got to the couch, and I started on an email to my sweet friend. By the time I was done, I think I should have sent it in three separate emails, haha, it had become quite a long one! I started working on my journal toot, and when that was done, I uploaded it to all the usual places. I put away the laptop, and had my brekkie. After that, it was time to try and relax a bit.
When it was getting light out, I took Koa to the grassy area behind the house. It wasn’t easy to do, even with my meds and extra meds. The meds the GP gave me are good for snoozing, but not enough to do activities properly with. The GP will call me Thursday afternoon, so then we can discuss this, and hopefully, she can up the med for during the daytime for me…
A sweet friend came to visit me. And she helped me loads with some chores, which was just awesome. We first walked Koa together, she took Koa, and I just tried to walk. We managed the 600-meter walk, which was quite a challenge for me to finish, but I managed it. When we got back, she was so kind to get the weeds from the two gardens. It wasn't too much, thanks to the roots' fabric, but it was enough to bother me (and Koa started to eat it), and I wasn't able to pull the weeds out myself. So, she allowed me to relax from the walk, while she went to work. I did do my best to keep her hydrated, and all that. When she was done, and we'd chatted for a while, we went to the supermarket. I got a few things, which she carried... I felt so grateful, but also so guilty in a way... She came to visit me, and she ends up doing all these chores for me...
I know she offered, and I know she could have said no when I asked her to... But when I went to bed, I ordered her a little “Thank You” card, which should be delivered this Thursday or Friday. It was the least I could do for the help she'd given me.
When she went home, Koa and I relaxed for a while, as I was waiting on a parcel with some food for the dude. When it had been delivered, we got ready to head to bed early. I was just so tired… I sent that card to my friend, and I asked my neighbor if she’d be OK with accepting another parcel for me, as that company gave me a very late update, and I was just so tired… She was OK with it, so that was so good of her!
It took me quite some time to finally be able to doze off and sleep some. Unfortunately, Koa woke me up several times, not too long after each other. So, I had a shorter night, and not too much deep sleep. When he woke me up again around 22:30, he was done with being in the crate. I could not blame him, so we got up, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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#Journal of a very grateful Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesday, 01/07/2026).
Koa and my meds allowed me to have a decent enough night, where I got quite some sleep, which was very welcome. When Koa woke me up, and we got up to start our “day”, I managed to use the scale, and it was rather kind to me. Not muscle wise (but I had a bandage on my thumb, so the handrail measurement may have been off due to that), but weight wise, it was a nice number to start the day with.
I dressed, gave Koa his food, and I took my meds. Then, I got to the couch, and I started on an email to my sweet friend. By the time I was done, I think I should have sent it in three separate emails, haha, it had become quite a long one! I started working on my journal toot, and when that was done, I uploaded it to all the usual places. I put away the laptop, and had my brekkie. After that, it was time to try and relax a bit.
When it was getting light out, I took Koa to the grassy area behind the house. It wasn’t easy to do, even with my meds and extra meds. The meds the GP gave me are good for snoozing, but not enough to do activities properly with. The GP will call me Thursday afternoon, so then we can discuss this, and hopefully, she can up the med for during the daytime for me…
A sweet friend came to visit me. And she helped me loads with some chores, which was just awesome. We first walked Koa together, she took Koa, and I just tried to walk. We managed the 600-meter walk, which was quite a challenge for me to finish, but I managed it. When we got back, she was so kind to get the weeds from the two gardens. It wasn't too much, thanks to the roots' fabric, but it was enough to bother me (and Koa started to eat it), and I wasn't able to pull the weeds out myself. So, she allowed me to relax from the walk, while she went to work. I did do my best to keep her hydrated, and all that. When she was done, and we'd chatted for a while, we went to the supermarket. I got a few things, which she carried... I felt so grateful, but also so guilty in a way... She came to visit me, and she ends up doing all these chores for me...
I know she offered, and I know she could have said no when I asked her to... But when I went to bed, I ordered her a little “Thank You” card, which should be delivered this Thursday or Friday. It was the least I could do for the help she'd given me.
When she went home, Koa and I relaxed for a while, as I was waiting on a parcel with some food for the dude. When it had been delivered, we got ready to head to bed early. I was just so tired… I sent that card to my friend, and I asked my neighbor if she’d be OK with accepting another parcel for me, as that company gave me a very late update, and I was just so tired… She was OK with it, so that was so good of her!
It took me quite some time to finally be able to doze off and sleep some. Unfortunately, Koa woke me up several times, not too long after each other. So, I had a shorter night, and not too much deep sleep. When he woke me up again around 22:30, he was done with being in the crate. I could not blame him, so we got up, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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#Journal of a slightly saddened Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Tuesday, 30/06/2026).
Thanks to the new meds, I was able to get a bit more sleep, well, as much as Koa allowed me to. When we got up, I took my other meds, and I fixed Koa’s meal. We got to the couch, and I grabbed my laptop, to work on an email for my sweet friend. When that was one, I changed my clothes. For the first time in a while, I was getting a bit chilly on the couch, and I saw that it was “only” 17 degrees outside. As I wanted to cool/air the house some more, I changed clothes, so I could keep the windows and door open.
I wrote my journal toot, uploaded it to all the right places, and then I put the laptop away. I managed to relax a bit on the couch with some telly, which was very pleasant. Then, I could take my new meds when I was having brekkie, which was very welcome as well. The new meds seem good enough for sleeping, but I felt like they didn’t help enough while I was awake and needing to “do things”. But, I only just started, so I would see how the day would go, to observe and all.
When it was light out, I tried to take Koa to the little grassy area behind the house. It was a bit of a challenge, but I think he enjoyed being out again. I feel so guilty for not being able to take him on proper walks just yet. Fingers crossed for the new meds… We relaxed for a while after that, which I really needed. It was a short walk, but with Koa pulling left and right, to get all the bunny droppings, it had caused some pain in my back and leg again. So, relaxing with some telly, after Koa had his meal.
Bestie called me while she was out, running, and we had a nice chat during the last part of her run. I was just making my meal when she called, so she got to hear me enjoy my food, haha. When she was done with the run, I took Koa to the grassy field again. Our neighbor heard us, and she came outside for a little chat. She cuddled Koa, which he loved, and it was nice to catch up, even though the topic was a hard and sad one.
We got back, and relaxed some more, before we went to physio. But this time, things didn’t go too well there, with Koa, that is… And I can’t take him with me anymore. It made me very sad, although I understood it, it also caused me pain. So, on the way back, I had to concentrate more on the road, as I was struggling with tears of sadness and pain. It’s hard to deal with a puppy, and I understand not everyone can deal with it. But yeah, sometimes, it’s the way how things are said, that hurt more than what it actually means, if that makes sense…
We got back, and I fixed Koa’s food. We relaxed for a while, and then I was just so tired and my back was so sore… I took my meds, and we went to bed. I cried some more, because I feel so guilty towards Koa… Not giving him proper walks. Not playing with him a lot. Not practicing the lessons enough. And, having to crate him a bit more/longer, because I need more bed rest. I feel like I am failing him, and it’s hard. I know it’s not really as bad as I feel it is, but that’s just me, and my idea of how I should raise my dog properly.
Koa dozed off, and I watched a series I love, until I dozed off as well. When Koa woke me, I turned off the series and tablet, and I took Koa out. He did his things, he got his snacks, and we went back to bed. He woke me up once more for potty break, and all went well again. When he woke me up again, it was time to get up and start our “day”. I managed to get some sleep, about 8 hours in total, according to my watch, so that was very nice and welcome. I got to the scale, was surprised at the numbers, and then I dressed, and prepped Koa’s meal… Hey ho, a new “day” has begun…
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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#Journal of a slightly saddened Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Tuesday, 30/06/2026).
Thanks to the new meds, I was able to get a bit more sleep, well, as much as Koa allowed me to. When we got up, I took my other meds, and I fixed Koa’s meal. We got to the couch, and I grabbed my laptop, to work on an email for my sweet friend. When that was one, I changed my clothes. For the first time in a while, I was getting a bit chilly on the couch, and I saw that it was “only” 17 degrees outside. As I wanted to cool/air the house some more, I changed clothes, so I could keep the windows and door open.
I wrote my journal toot, uploaded it to all the right places, and then I put the laptop away. I managed to relax a bit on the couch with some telly, which was very pleasant. Then, I could take my new meds when I was having brekkie, which was very welcome as well. The new meds seem good enough for sleeping, but I felt like they didn’t help enough while I was awake and needing to “do things”. But, I only just started, so I would see how the day would go, to observe and all.
When it was light out, I tried to take Koa to the little grassy area behind the house. It was a bit of a challenge, but I think he enjoyed being out again. I feel so guilty for not being able to take him on proper walks just yet. Fingers crossed for the new meds… We relaxed for a while after that, which I really needed. It was a short walk, but with Koa pulling left and right, to get all the bunny droppings, it had caused some pain in my back and leg again. So, relaxing with some telly, after Koa had his meal.
Bestie called me while she was out, running, and we had a nice chat during the last part of her run. I was just making my meal when she called, so she got to hear me enjoy my food, haha. When she was done with the run, I took Koa to the grassy field again. Our neighbor heard us, and she came outside for a little chat. She cuddled Koa, which he loved, and it was nice to catch up, even though the topic was a hard and sad one.
We got back, and relaxed some more, before we went to physio. But this time, things didn’t go too well there, with Koa, that is… And I can’t take him with me anymore. It made me very sad, although I understood it, it also caused me pain. So, on the way back, I had to concentrate more on the road, as I was struggling with tears of sadness and pain. It’s hard to deal with a puppy, and I understand not everyone can deal with it. But yeah, sometimes, it’s the way how things are said, that hurt more than what it actually means, if that makes sense…
We got back, and I fixed Koa’s food. We relaxed for a while, and then I was just so tired and my back was so sore… I took my meds, and we went to bed. I cried some more, because I feel so guilty towards Koa… Not giving him proper walks. Not playing with him a lot. Not practicing the lessons enough. And, having to crate him a bit more/longer, because I need more bed rest. I feel like I am failing him, and it’s hard. I know it’s not really as bad as I feel it is, but that’s just me, and my idea of how I should raise my dog properly.
Koa dozed off, and I watched a series I love, until I dozed off as well. When Koa woke me, I turned off the series and tablet, and I took Koa out. He did his things, he got his snacks, and we went back to bed. He woke me up once more for potty break, and all went well again. When he woke me up again, it was time to get up and start our “day”. I managed to get some sleep, about 8 hours in total, according to my watch, so that was very nice and welcome. I got to the scale, was surprised at the numbers, and then I dressed, and prepped Koa’s meal… Hey ho, a new “day” has begun…
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#Journal of a grateful Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Monday, 29/06/2026).
I had a very bad night. Painkillers didn’t seem to help too much, and I was just so exhausted, but I could not get comfortable. Koa was affected by me as well, it seemed, as he struggled to get calm too. But then, he snoozed and all, and after some time, I was able to sleep some too. Koa woke me up a few times, and around 22:45, it was time to get up. I was still tired and sore, but as we’d gone to bed earlier than usual due to me feeling crap, I didn’t want to crate Koa even more. So, we got up, and we started our “day”.
I made Koa’s meal, took my meds, and then I got to the couch. As usual, I wrote an email to a sweet friend, and I wrote my journal toot, which I shared in the usual places. As my back was not too happy with me, and I was still rather tired, I tried to relax a bit with some telly. Koa joined me on the couch, which was very sweet indeed.
After brekkie, I wanted to play my game a bit more. I was settled in and all, and then Koa came to cuddle with me. He pressed his snout on my buttons, so that wasn’t helpful, haha. And as he lay across my legs, it hurt a bit due to my back. But, when Koa wasn’t using his teefs, the cuddling was actually quite nice, and very welcome. After some time, Koa released me again, and I was able to game some more. But as I was so tired, it was harder to maintain my focus on the game, so I turned it off, and watched some more telly.
Bestie called on her way to work, and we had a nice chat. And then Koa claimed some attention, which required me to head to the kitchen, and rinse my thumb, and put a bandage on, while chatting to bestie… Koa had hit my thumb with one of the sharp teefs, and it bled quite nicely. And people wonder why I call him my little vampire, haha.
After the call, I booted up the game again, and I managed to finish the first chapter. I shared some screengrabs on Masto, and then I turned off the PS5 again. I relaxed with some telly, until my ASS-ADHD coach came.
She asked how it was going, and I immediately burst out all the health issues. Within 5 minutes, she was calling the GP. And, I don’t know how, she got me an appointment within an hour time! She walked with Koa for me, which I think both of them enjoyed. Then, she and I took Skoosh, and we headed to the GP. We were a tad early, and the GP was a tad late, so it was hard to wait in the waiting room without my headphones and music…
The GP was very nice, she really listened, she examined, she discussed, and she diagnosed… I have a herniated disc, which is most likely pinching both nerves and a muscle. I got better meds, and she will call me on Thursday afternoon to discuss the meds. If needed, she will adjust them, so that I can at least be able to care for myself, and for Koa.
We got back, and my coach had to leave, as she was running late, due to the GP running late. I thanked her, and went inside. Koa was glad to see me, which was very sweet of him. I tried to relax on the couch, and then the pharmacy called. I had a good talk, and they would deliver the meds between 15:00 and 17:30.
I could not get comfy on the couch anymore, so after some time, we went to the bedroom to relax, while waiting for the meds to be delivered. I dozed off for a bit, as I was so tired. Then, Koa wanted to go out. So, we did. We got back to bed, and then the doorbell rang. I got my meds, and immediately took the first. Koa was awake and needed to check the house, before he could get settled again. He had heard the doorbell, and he didn’t know what had happened, so better check before snoozing again.
We went back to bed, and after some time, both Koa and I dozed off. He woke me up again for another potty break. And we snoozed again. In the end, he woke me up around 23:25, and according to my watch, I had slept about 6½ hours. But, it didn’t count when I dozed off for about an hour earlier, so I guess I got some decent amount of sleep. Then, we got up, and we started our “day”.
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#Journal of a grateful Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Monday, 29/06/2026).
I had a very bad night. Painkillers didn’t seem to help too much, and I was just so exhausted, but I could not get comfortable. Koa was affected by me as well, it seemed, as he struggled to get calm too. But then, he snoozed and all, and after some time, I was able to sleep some too. Koa woke me up a few times, and around 22:45, it was time to get up. I was still tired and sore, but as we’d gone to bed earlier than usual due to me feeling crap, I didn’t want to crate Koa even more. So, we got up, and we started our “day”.
I made Koa’s meal, took my meds, and then I got to the couch. As usual, I wrote an email to a sweet friend, and I wrote my journal toot, which I shared in the usual places. As my back was not too happy with me, and I was still rather tired, I tried to relax a bit with some telly. Koa joined me on the couch, which was very sweet indeed.
After brekkie, I wanted to play my game a bit more. I was settled in and all, and then Koa came to cuddle with me. He pressed his snout on my buttons, so that wasn’t helpful, haha. And as he lay across my legs, it hurt a bit due to my back. But, when Koa wasn’t using his teefs, the cuddling was actually quite nice, and very welcome. After some time, Koa released me again, and I was able to game some more. But as I was so tired, it was harder to maintain my focus on the game, so I turned it off, and watched some more telly.
Bestie called on her way to work, and we had a nice chat. And then Koa claimed some attention, which required me to head to the kitchen, and rinse my thumb, and put a bandage on, while chatting to bestie… Koa had hit my thumb with one of the sharp teefs, and it bled quite nicely. And people wonder why I call him my little vampire, haha.
After the call, I booted up the game again, and I managed to finish the first chapter. I shared some screengrabs on Masto, and then I turned off the PS5 again. I relaxed with some telly, until my ASS-ADHD coach came.
She asked how it was going, and I immediately burst out all the health issues. Within 5 minutes, she was calling the GP. And, I don’t know how, she got me an appointment within an hour time! She walked with Koa for me, which I think both of them enjoyed. Then, she and I took Skoosh, and we headed to the GP. We were a tad early, and the GP was a tad late, so it was hard to wait in the waiting room without my headphones and music…
The GP was very nice, she really listened, she examined, she discussed, and she diagnosed… I have a herniated disc, which is most likely pinching both nerves and a muscle. I got better meds, and she will call me on Thursday afternoon to discuss the meds. If needed, she will adjust them, so that I can at least be able to care for myself, and for Koa.
We got back, and my coach had to leave, as she was running late, due to the GP running late. I thanked her, and went inside. Koa was glad to see me, which was very sweet of him. I tried to relax on the couch, and then the pharmacy called. I had a good talk, and they would deliver the meds between 15:00 and 17:30.
I could not get comfy on the couch anymore, so after some time, we went to the bedroom to relax, while waiting for the meds to be delivered. I dozed off for a bit, as I was so tired. Then, Koa wanted to go out. So, we did. We got back to bed, and then the doorbell rang. I got my meds, and immediately took the first. Koa was awake and needed to check the house, before he could get settled again. He had heard the doorbell, and he didn’t know what had happened, so better check before snoozing again.
We went back to bed, and after some time, both Koa and I dozed off. He woke me up again for another potty break. And we snoozed again. In the end, he woke me up around 23:25, and according to my watch, I had slept about 6½ hours. But, it didn’t count when I dozed off for about an hour earlier, so I guess I got some decent amount of sleep. Then, we got up, and we started our “day”.
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CW: Nothing too bad, except my pain, and this Toot being >5k. 😊
#Journal of a very desperate Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Sunday, 28/06/2026).
I didn’t have the worst night, but when Koa woke me up, unfortunately, my back wasn’t any better yet. It didn’t feel any worse either, it was still the same annoying, and crippling, pain. I didn’t use the scale, as there was no way for me to stand straight enough, long enough, for it to be able to get a decent measurement. I got dressed, fixed Koa’s meal, took my meds, and stumbled to the couch. I grabbed my laptop, and I started writing my email to my sweet friend.
When it was getting a bit cooler, I opened up the door and the windows. A distant rumbling, some flashes, the bad weather was coming… But at first, it seemed to not come our way. When I had finished the email and journal toot, I took Koa to Skoosh, and we headed to Schaijk. I got my meds from the pharmacy vault there, and we got back safe and sound. I worked on my blog a bit more, and then I heard the rumblings coming closer and faster.
The weather apps all had been warning me that between 3/3:15, the bad weather ⛈️ would get to us. But, around 2:45, the rumbling was loud, and the wind was picking up hard. So, I “quickly” got upstairs to close the windows, and then I closed everything downstairs as well. Within a few minutes, the heavy weather was coming down like crazy! Loads of loud rumblings, that could be felt while on the couch. Many flashes that lighted up everything bright. And, loads and loads of rain, flooding the gardens and the street. Koa was a bit overwhelmed, but I tried to stay calm, even though some of the thunder caught me by surprise as well. We cuddled a bit on the couch, and I tried to get some video of the crazy weather. Around 3:15, the weather got calmer again. Still some rumblings and flashes, but a lot less rain, and the thunderstorm seemed to have passed us now.
I was done with my laptop, and I tried to relax a bit with some telly. My back and leg were quite annoying, and it was hard to properly relax. Koa wanted to go out, so I tried a short walk on the grassy field with him. He was able to do his things, but it was very hard and painful for me. I felt like I was failing him, not providing to his needs. But, he got food, he got his toys, he had some play time, he could go outside for his business. It may not have been the care that I would want to give him, but he wasn’t being neglected either. Still, I could not shake the feeling that I wasn’t doing right by him enough. 😢
After some time, I contacted my mum, and asked if she could come over to help me with a walk with Koa. I was hoping she could come early, before it would get too hot. But mum was in some sort of “mood”, one she’s in more and more these days (and one I cannot seem to deal with properly), and in the end, it took her about 3 hours to get here. It was already 27°C, and the sun was hot and bright.
While I was waiting for mum, I tried to ride the bike for a bit, hoping it would help my muscle to relax a bit. I managed a 20 minute ride, and it didn’t feel too bad, but it was hard to get back down the stairs again. Just before mum arrived, Koa needed to go out. We were near the grassy field, when mum got from the car. She didn’t even see us, and I had to yell for her to notice us at all. I wanted a certain walk, as it had more shade. So, mum wanted another one. She was being grouchy with Koa, who was doing his best, and who had so much energy in him, that he was more enthusiastic. Everything I wanted, mum wanted differently. And, instead of asking if I needed any more help, I was being told that she “had to hurry for me”, and that this was her free day… All in all, I was being told this was an inconvenience, and I felt guilty in the end, for asking her to help me, when I felt like crap.
Mum is changing so much these days, and she is becoming someone that I don’t know how to deal with anymore. Rules I was brought up with, she breaks all the time. If I say or ask anything, she always sees it as something negative… Where she used to be compassionate and helpful, she now complains so much on how it’s all so hard on her… I don’t know how to deal with this, especially when I am in pain so much, that I reach out to her for support. I guess it’s also partially due to dealing with my dad all the time. But why treat me in a way that she hates to be treated in herself? Ah well…
When mum left, I was feeling like crap even more. I cared for Koa, and then, we went to bed early. Not to sleep, really, but to be able to lie down as comfy as possible. I took extra painmeds, as the ones I had taken didn’t seem to do anything, and I was crying out due to the pain and distress. Koa was a very good boy, and it seemed he tied to help me by being the bestest one. I tried to distract myself a bit with some Masto, and I emailed a sweet friend. I had some Downton Abbey on my tablet.
After a while, the meds seemed to kick in, finally, and I was able to get some sleep. Koa woke me up a few times, but he quickly did his things, and got back to snoozing again. When it was time to get up, according to Koa (he’d been in the crate longer than usual, so I fully understood), I got about 5:45 hours of sleep. I was hoping that my ASS-ADHD coach would be able to help me getting some medical help on Monday morning. She should be with us around 9:15, and I really hope that she can make some calls to have my back and leg being seen by a doc. Maybe even get a scan. I am done with this pain, and I can’t keep going on like this. 😖 So, fingers crossed that she can help me to get the help I so desperately need… 🤞🏻🍀
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CW: Nothing too bad, except my pain, and this Toot being >5k. 😊
#Journal of a very desperate Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Sunday, 28/06/2026).
I didn’t have the worst night, but when Koa woke me up, unfortunately, my back wasn’t any better yet. It didn’t feel any worse either, it was still the same annoying, and crippling, pain. I didn’t use the scale, as there was no way for me to stand straight enough, long enough, for it to be able to get a decent measurement. I got dressed, fixed Koa’s meal, took my meds, and stumbled to the couch. I grabbed my laptop, and I started writing my email to my sweet friend.
When it was getting a bit cooler, I opened up the door and the windows. A distant rumbling, some flashes, the bad weather was coming… But at first, it seemed to not come our way. When I had finished the email and journal toot, I took Koa to Skoosh, and we headed to Schaijk. I got my meds from the pharmacy vault there, and we got back safe and sound. I worked on my blog a bit more, and then I heard the rumblings coming closer and faster.
The weather apps all had been warning me that between 3/3:15, the bad weather ⛈️ would get to us. But, around 2:45, the rumbling was loud, and the wind was picking up hard. So, I “quickly” got upstairs to close the windows, and then I closed everything downstairs as well. Within a few minutes, the heavy weather was coming down like crazy! Loads of loud rumblings, that could be felt while on the couch. Many flashes that lighted up everything bright. And, loads and loads of rain, flooding the gardens and the street. Koa was a bit overwhelmed, but I tried to stay calm, even though some of the thunder caught me by surprise as well. We cuddled a bit on the couch, and I tried to get some video of the crazy weather. Around 3:15, the weather got calmer again. Still some rumblings and flashes, but a lot less rain, and the thunderstorm seemed to have passed us now.
I was done with my laptop, and I tried to relax a bit with some telly. My back and leg were quite annoying, and it was hard to properly relax. Koa wanted to go out, so I tried a short walk on the grassy field with him. He was able to do his things, but it was very hard and painful for me. I felt like I was failing him, not providing to his needs. But, he got food, he got his toys, he had some play time, he could go outside for his business. It may not have been the care that I would want to give him, but he wasn’t being neglected either. Still, I could not shake the feeling that I wasn’t doing right by him enough. 😢
After some time, I contacted my mum, and asked if she could come over to help me with a walk with Koa. I was hoping she could come early, before it would get too hot. But mum was in some sort of “mood”, one she’s in more and more these days (and one I cannot seem to deal with properly), and in the end, it took her about 3 hours to get here. It was already 27°C, and the sun was hot and bright.
While I was waiting for mum, I tried to ride the bike for a bit, hoping it would help my muscle to relax a bit. I managed a 20 minute ride, and it didn’t feel too bad, but it was hard to get back down the stairs again. Just before mum arrived, Koa needed to go out. We were near the grassy field, when mum got from the car. She didn’t even see us, and I had to yell for her to notice us at all. I wanted a certain walk, as it had more shade. So, mum wanted another one. She was being grouchy with Koa, who was doing his best, and who had so much energy in him, that he was more enthusiastic. Everything I wanted, mum wanted differently. And, instead of asking if I needed any more help, I was being told that she “had to hurry for me”, and that this was her free day… All in all, I was being told this was an inconvenience, and I felt guilty in the end, for asking her to help me, when I felt like crap.
Mum is changing so much these days, and she is becoming someone that I don’t know how to deal with anymore. Rules I was brought up with, she breaks all the time. If I say or ask anything, she always sees it as something negative… Where she used to be compassionate and helpful, she now complains so much on how it’s all so hard on her… I don’t know how to deal with this, especially when I am in pain so much, that I reach out to her for support. I guess it’s also partially due to dealing with my dad all the time. But why treat me in a way that she hates to be treated in herself? Ah well…
When mum left, I was feeling like crap even more. I cared for Koa, and then, we went to bed early. Not to sleep, really, but to be able to lie down as comfy as possible. I took extra painmeds, as the ones I had taken didn’t seem to do anything, and I was crying out due to the pain and distress. Koa was a very good boy, and it seemed he tied to help me by being the bestest one. I tried to distract myself a bit with some Masto, and I emailed a sweet friend. I had some Downton Abbey on my tablet.
After a while, the meds seemed to kick in, finally, and I was able to get some sleep. Koa woke me up a few times, but he quickly did his things, and got back to snoozing again. When it was time to get up, according to Koa (he’d been in the crate longer than usual, so I fully understood), I got about 5:45 hours of sleep. I was hoping that my ASS-ADHD coach would be able to help me getting some medical help on Monday morning. She should be with us around 9:15, and I really hope that she can make some calls to have my back and leg being seen by a doc. Maybe even get a scan. I am done with this pain, and I can’t keep going on like this. 😖 So, fingers crossed that she can help me to get the help I so desperately need… 🤞🏻🍀
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#Journal of a very sore 😖 Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 27/06/2026).
We had a decent enough sleep, and I felt rather OK when we got up. A mild soreness in my back, but less bad than the previous days. I guess the massage at PT, and a decent sleep, did some magic. It was still quite hot when Koa woke me up. The outdoor sensor told me it was about 28°C, so way too warm to open up the windows. I prepped Koa’s meal, took my meds, and went to the couch with my laptop.
I started my “usual” email to my sweet friend. Koa was rather relaxed, which was nice. While I was writing my journal toot, Koa got a bit more bitey, and I decided to crate him. I did give him a snack that should last him a while, so he could get his biting needs taken care of in a safe way. I finished the journal post, uploaded it to Masto, my journal app, and my journal blog post. I worked a bit on my blog, and finished two Silent Sunday posts, and one quote post. Then, I put away my laptop, and had my brekkie.
A short walkies with Koa after that, and then we tried to relax a bit. For some reason, I checked the PS app, and I saw a game from a series that I enjoyed, Life is Strange, had come to PS+. I downloaded the game to my PS5. First, I gave Koa his meal, and after some telly time, we went out for a bigger walk. All went great… Until we were on our way back, and Koa started pulling on the leash. He made me make a weird twist, and I felt that this was definitely not good… I barely made it back home with Koa, and I immediately needed some extra painkillers, as my back was so bad again…
I tried to stretch on the couch a bit, but it didn’t really help a lot. So, I tried to distract myself, and I booted up the PS5, to try out the “Life is Strange: Double Exposure” game. When I just started the game, my mum came with some groceries she’d taken from Germany for me. We unpacked the car, which was harder for me now, as my back and leg were causing issues again. When all was inside, mum hugged Koa for a bit, and then she headed back home again, before it got too hot.
I managed to play the game for a while, with some interruptions for potty breaks for Koa. I took a few screenshots to share on Masto. After a while, I was getting a slight headache, and my back was acting up even more, so I turned the PS5 off, and I tried to relax with some Downton Abbey on TV. I used ice packs to try and cool the painful muscles, hoping they would relax a bit and all. It helped a wee bit, but not enough to make me feel better. Even the extra painkillers didn’t seem to do too much, and I felt very bläh indeed. Why had I thought it a good idea to try a longer walk before I was properly healed up again? Maybe because we’d been locked up so much due to the heat, and Koa and I needed to get some fresh air and all that… Ah well, nothing can be done about this, except to keep doing what I was doing. Cooling, stretching, and relaxing.
After some relaxing with the telly, it was only getting warmer, and I was getting more annoyed with the pain in my back and leg. So, I decided to head to bed a little earlier, and Koa didn’t too much either. It did take a little while for Koa to settle, and when he did, I fell asleep shortly after as well. I woke up for the loo about two hours later, and Koa kept snoozing. He woke me up later for a potty break, and shortly after that, we were snoozing again. When he woke me up again, it was a bit too early for my liking. But, he didn’t want to relax anymore, and when we went out, he did both numbers one and two. So, we got up a bit earlier, and we started our “day”.
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#Journal of a very sore 😖 Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 27/06/2026).
We had a decent enough sleep, and I felt rather OK when we got up. A mild soreness in my back, but less bad than the previous days. I guess the massage at PT, and a decent sleep, did some magic. It was still quite hot when Koa woke me up. The outdoor sensor told me it was about 28°C, so way too warm to open up the windows. I prepped Koa’s meal, took my meds, and went to the couch with my laptop.
I started my “usual” email to my sweet friend. Koa was rather relaxed, which was nice. While I was writing my journal toot, Koa got a bit more bitey, and I decided to crate him. I did give him a snack that should last him a while, so he could get his biting needs taken care of in a safe way. I finished the journal post, uploaded it to Masto, my journal app, and my journal blog post. I worked a bit on my blog, and finished two Silent Sunday posts, and one quote post. Then, I put away my laptop, and had my brekkie.
A short walkies with Koa after that, and then we tried to relax a bit. For some reason, I checked the PS app, and I saw a game from a series that I enjoyed, Life is Strange, had come to PS+. I downloaded the game to my PS5. First, I gave Koa his meal, and after some telly time, we went out for a bigger walk. All went great… Until we were on our way back, and Koa started pulling on the leash. He made me make a weird twist, and I felt that this was definitely not good… I barely made it back home with Koa, and I immediately needed some extra painkillers, as my back was so bad again…
I tried to stretch on the couch a bit, but it didn’t really help a lot. So, I tried to distract myself, and I booted up the PS5, to try out the “Life is Strange: Double Exposure” game. When I just started the game, my mum came with some groceries she’d taken from Germany for me. We unpacked the car, which was harder for me now, as my back and leg were causing issues again. When all was inside, mum hugged Koa for a bit, and then she headed back home again, before it got too hot.
I managed to play the game for a while, with some interruptions for potty breaks for Koa. I took a few screenshots to share on Masto. After a while, I was getting a slight headache, and my back was acting up even more, so I turned the PS5 off, and I tried to relax with some Downton Abbey on TV. I used ice packs to try and cool the painful muscles, hoping they would relax a bit and all. It helped a wee bit, but not enough to make me feel better. Even the extra painkillers didn’t seem to do too much, and I felt very bläh indeed. Why had I thought it a good idea to try a longer walk before I was properly healed up again? Maybe because we’d been locked up so much due to the heat, and Koa and I needed to get some fresh air and all that… Ah well, nothing can be done about this, except to keep doing what I was doing. Cooling, stretching, and relaxing.
After some relaxing with the telly, it was only getting warmer, and I was getting more annoyed with the pain in my back and leg. So, I decided to head to bed a little earlier, and Koa didn’t too much either. It did take a little while for Koa to settle, and when he did, I fell asleep shortly after as well. I woke up for the loo about two hours later, and Koa kept snoozing. He woke me up later for a potty break, and shortly after that, we were snoozing again. When he woke me up again, it was a bit too early for my liking. But, he didn’t want to relax anymore, and when we went out, he did both numbers one and two. So, we got up a bit earlier, and we started our “day”.
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#Journal of a hot 🥵 Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 26/06/2026).
Koa had a bit of a restless night, where he woke up twice for potty breaks. Which also meant that I had a broken night, and not a lot of quality sleep. At least the heat didn’t bother me too much, and I was able to get some sleep. We got up, and started our routine. I got to the scale, which is still painful to do due to my back and leg. I fixed Koa’s meal, and while he munched away, I took my meds. I got to the couch with my laptop, and started writing an email to a sweet friend.
It was still too hot to open up the windows, so I kept an eye out on the weather station, so I could crack those windows open as soon as it was cool enough. Koa was rather calm this start of the night, so that was nice as well, as that meant I didn’t have to crate him to keep him safe. When I finished the email, and had just started on the journal toot, Koa started to nibble on the couch again. I don’t want him to get any of these splinters in his mouth, or worse, that he’ll swallow them (he already did that once, and when I cleaned up his number two, the splinter scared the bejeezus out of me… Since then, I am keeping him away from the wood under the couch as much as I can). He stopped for a while, and I could finish my journal toot. When it was updated to all the usual places, I took Koa out for a little walk.
We relaxed for a while, and when the temps were lowering enough, I headed upstairs, opened up the windows there, It was nearly 26°C there, so not that bad actually, seeing the weather we’d been having. But still, warm enough to sweat. I got back down, and slowly started to open up the windows and kitchen door here too. We relaxed some more, and when it was getting light out, Koa and I went for a nice, and a bit cooler, walk. There was a slight breeze, which was very welcome as well.
When we got back, I fixed Koa’s meal. After a wee bit of relaxing, I thought it would be nice for Koa to have some water fun. I rinsed off the artificial grass, and then I tried to fill up the blue shell a bit. I could not film this, but Koa had a blast playing with all the water. I got him the water toy that Yolande had given him on her first visit, and he had a nice playtime, before it got too hot. I was able to film some of this, so that was nice for sure. When it was getting warmer again, I dried off the worst of Koa, but not all, and we went inside. I closed up all the bits, as the sun was already working hard on getting the temps up again.
When it was getting closer to 8am, I got to Skoosh, and we headed to the supermarket for a few groceries. I quickly got what I needed, and we headed back home again. Koa was relaxing in his crate, so that was a good thing for sure. I unpacked the groceries, had a little walk with Koa, and then had a small bite to eat. We relaxed for a while, and Koa got a lickimat with some frozen yogurt, which he seemed to enjoy. He relaxed a bit, and then also enjoyed his snuffle mat. After that, I packed the bag, got an extra one with some water and drinks, and I made sure that my umbrella was in Skoosh as well, just in case.
Koa and I got to Skoosh, and we headed to Cuijk. It was warm, but Skoosh worked hard, and she managed to keep the inside cool enough for us to not melt away. I had set it to 22°C, as it was above the 30 degrees already. Koa wanted it even cooler, but I didn’t want it to be too cold. When we were nearly there, I slowly upped the temps a bit, so we would not be hit by the heat as soon as we’d get out. The physio practice had aircon on as well, so Koa and I could wait quite comfortable. Koa wanted to get out a few times, but he never did a wee. There was no grassy area nearby, so I guess that’s what stopped him from not doing a wee…
Physio went well, and the massage was more than welcome. Koa didn’t get into too much mischief, although big Bas did startle every time the little hairball let out a bark… After the massage, Koa and I got back to Skoosh. I “fired up” the aircon, slowly setting it colder as we went along. And all went well. When we got back home, Koa did a mighty big wee on the grassy field behind the house. Then we went inside, where it was nice and cool.
Koa got his meal, I got a snack, and we both relaxed. It was getting so hot outside, and it even warmed up a bit more inside. I was getting very tired, and even Koa was acting a bit more relaxed. So, we went out for a last pee and poop, and then Koa and I headed to bed. It didn’t take Koa too long to doze off, and it took me a little longer. I woke up a little while later, went to the loo, and got back to bed. When Koa woke me up for his potty break, he’d been sleeping for about 6½ hours, which was very good of him! We managed a bit more sleep after that, and when Koa woke me up again, my watch told me I slept for about 7:45, which was very nice indeed. So, we got up, and we started our “day”.
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#Journal of a hot 🥵 Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 26/06/2026).
Koa had a bit of a restless night, where he woke up twice for potty breaks. Which also meant that I had a broken night, and not a lot of quality sleep. At least the heat didn’t bother me too much, and I was able to get some sleep. We got up, and started our routine. I got to the scale, which is still painful to do due to my back and leg. I fixed Koa’s meal, and while he munched away, I took my meds. I got to the couch with my laptop, and started writing an email to a sweet friend.
It was still too hot to open up the windows, so I kept an eye out on the weather station, so I could crack those windows open as soon as it was cool enough. Koa was rather calm this start of the night, so that was nice as well, as that meant I didn’t have to crate him to keep him safe. When I finished the email, and had just started on the journal toot, Koa started to nibble on the couch again. I don’t want him to get any of these splinters in his mouth, or worse, that he’ll swallow them (he already did that once, and when I cleaned up his number two, the splinter scared the bejeezus out of me… Since then, I am keeping him away from the wood under the couch as much as I can). He stopped for a while, and I could finish my journal toot. When it was updated to all the usual places, I took Koa out for a little walk.
We relaxed for a while, and when the temps were lowering enough, I headed upstairs, opened up the windows there, It was nearly 26°C there, so not that bad actually, seeing the weather we’d been having. But still, warm enough to sweat. I got back down, and slowly started to open up the windows and kitchen door here too. We relaxed some more, and when it was getting light out, Koa and I went for a nice, and a bit cooler, walk. There was a slight breeze, which was very welcome as well.
When we got back, I fixed Koa’s meal. After a wee bit of relaxing, I thought it would be nice for Koa to have some water fun. I rinsed off the artificial grass, and then I tried to fill up the blue shell a bit. I could not film this, but Koa had a blast playing with all the water. I got him the water toy that Yolande had given him on her first visit, and he had a nice playtime, before it got too hot. I was able to film some of this, so that was nice for sure. When it was getting warmer again, I dried off the worst of Koa, but not all, and we went inside. I closed up all the bits, as the sun was already working hard on getting the temps up again.
When it was getting closer to 8am, I got to Skoosh, and we headed to the supermarket for a few groceries. I quickly got what I needed, and we headed back home again. Koa was relaxing in his crate, so that was a good thing for sure. I unpacked the groceries, had a little walk with Koa, and then had a small bite to eat. We relaxed for a while, and Koa got a lickimat with some frozen yogurt, which he seemed to enjoy. He relaxed a bit, and then also enjoyed his snuffle mat. After that, I packed the bag, got an extra one with some water and drinks, and I made sure that my umbrella was in Skoosh as well, just in case.
Koa and I got to Skoosh, and we headed to Cuijk. It was warm, but Skoosh worked hard, and she managed to keep the inside cool enough for us to not melt away. I had set it to 22°C, as it was above the 30 degrees already. Koa wanted it even cooler, but I didn’t want it to be too cold. When we were nearly there, I slowly upped the temps a bit, so we would not be hit by the heat as soon as we’d get out. The physio practice had aircon on as well, so Koa and I could wait quite comfortable. Koa wanted to get out a few times, but he never did a wee. There was no grassy area nearby, so I guess that’s what stopped him from not doing a wee…
Physio went well, and the massage was more than welcome. Koa didn’t get into too much mischief, although big Bas did startle every time the little hairball let out a bark… After the massage, Koa and I got back to Skoosh. I “fired up” the aircon, slowly setting it colder as we went along. And all went well. When we got back home, Koa did a mighty big wee on the grassy field behind the house. Then we went inside, where it was nice and cool.
Koa got his meal, I got a snack, and we both relaxed. It was getting so hot outside, and it even warmed up a bit more inside. I was getting very tired, and even Koa was acting a bit more relaxed. So, we went out for a last pee and poop, and then Koa and I headed to bed. It didn’t take Koa too long to doze off, and it took me a little longer. I woke up a little while later, went to the loo, and got back to bed. When Koa woke me up for his potty break, he’d been sleeping for about 6½ hours, which was very good of him! We managed a bit more sleep after that, and when Koa woke me up again, my watch told me I slept for about 7:45, which was very nice indeed. So, we got up, and we started our “day”.
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#Journal of a very sad, and very warm, Dutch AuDHD Pixy (Thursday, 25/06/2026).
Koa allowed me some OK sleep, which was very nice, and very welcome. We got up, and we started our “day”, which was still quite warm, with the weather station showing me 27°C on it. Koa got his meal, I took my meds, and then I headed to the couch. I wanted to write an email to my sweet friend, like I usually do after getting up. Koa found a place to relax, which was nice, as long as it lasted. But before I could finish the email, I had to crate him, as he was nibbling on the wood beneath the couch, and he definitely should not get those splinters in him. I pulled him away several times, but he kept going back. So, the crate was the safe place for him to be. I didn’t have the energy to keep pulling him away, nor did I have the confidence that I would be fast enough to keep him from getting the splinters in his mouth.
Koa protested a bit, and then dozed off, while I finished my email. I wrote my journal toot, and uploaded it to the usual places. I had some ideas for images that I played with, before I put away the laptop, and had brekkie. Koa and I had a short walk after that, and then he had to be crated again, as he kept going back to the couch… I relaxed a bit with some telly, as I was still rather tired, even after a decent enough sleep.
When it was getting light out, Koa and I went for the longer walk, as much as my leg would allow, and Koa wanted to go. When we got back, after Koa had his meal, I went upstairs. Koa barked a few times, but I did manage to ride my bike for 20 minutes. Back downstairs, I closed all the windows and curtains again, and Koa and I went for another walk.
We met up with our neighbor and her black fluff. And she told us that later this afternoon, they had the final vet appointment for her dog. I tried to cuddle him as best as I could, with Koa on the leash with me, and I cried a little. I knew it was better for him, as he started to struggle more. But it’s always sad to lose a furry loved one. When we got home, I cried a bit more. Then I edited a picture of the fluff, to share on Pixelfed in his memory. I will really miss that big doofus, but he will be back with Arwen now, and they’re all carefree again.
While I don’t believe in God and all that, I do believe that all dogs go to heaven… They are just too good and loyal not to have a heaven made for them.
I tried to relax a bit, and I had to crate Koa more than I liked. But I was just too afraid he would get some of that wood from the couch into his mouth or intestines, and that it would cause damage to him if that would happen. So, better be safe than sorry. He didn’t object too much, as I guess he was glad to be free of the distractions, and just allowed to chill and relax.
We went out a few times for pees and poops. And we went to bed a little earlier, as I was just too drained of all the energy, due to sadness and all… It took a little while to doze off. Unfortunately, Koa woke me up several times during the night. And, although he did do something outside every time, getting woken up every 2-3 hours, really breaks the ability to get some proper rest from sleep. He woke me up at least an hour earlier than usual, and he wasn’t about to fall asleep again, like he sometimes does. So, yeah, we got up, and started our “day”. And again, it was still 27°C outside. Way too warm for the nights…
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#Journal of a very sad, and very warm, Dutch AuDHD Pixy (Thursday, 25/06/2026).
Koa allowed me some OK sleep, which was very nice, and very welcome. We got up, and we started our “day”, which was still quite warm, with the weather station showing me 27°C on it. Koa got his meal, I took my meds, and then I headed to the couch. I wanted to write an email to my sweet friend, like I usually do after getting up. Koa found a place to relax, which was nice, as long as it lasted. But before I could finish the email, I had to crate him, as he was nibbling on the wood beneath the couch, and he definitely should not get those splinters in him. I pulled him away several times, but he kept going back. So, the crate was the safe place for him to be. I didn’t have the energy to keep pulling him away, nor did I have the confidence that I would be fast enough to keep him from getting the splinters in his mouth.
Koa protested a bit, and then dozed off, while I finished my email. I wrote my journal toot, and uploaded it to the usual places. I had some ideas for images that I played with, before I put away the laptop, and had brekkie. Koa and I had a short walk after that, and then he had to be crated again, as he kept going back to the couch… I relaxed a bit with some telly, as I was still rather tired, even after a decent enough sleep.
When it was getting light out, Koa and I went for the longer walk, as much as my leg would allow, and Koa wanted to go. When we got back, after Koa had his meal, I went upstairs. Koa barked a few times, but I did manage to ride my bike for 20 minutes. Back downstairs, I closed all the windows and curtains again, and Koa and I went for another walk.
We met up with our neighbor and her black fluff. And she told us that later this afternoon, they had the final vet appointment for her dog. I tried to cuddle him as best as I could, with Koa on the leash with me, and I cried a little. I knew it was better for him, as he started to struggle more. But it’s always sad to lose a furry loved one. When we got home, I cried a bit more. Then I edited a picture of the fluff, to share on Pixelfed in his memory. I will really miss that big doofus, but he will be back with Arwen now, and they’re all carefree again.
While I don’t believe in God and all that, I do believe that all dogs go to heaven… They are just too good and loyal not to have a heaven made for them.
I tried to relax a bit, and I had to crate Koa more than I liked. But I was just too afraid he would get some of that wood from the couch into his mouth or intestines, and that it would cause damage to him if that would happen. So, better be safe than sorry. He didn’t object too much, as I guess he was glad to be free of the distractions, and just allowed to chill and relax.
We went out a few times for pees and poops. And we went to bed a little earlier, as I was just too drained of all the energy, due to sadness and all… It took a little while to doze off. Unfortunately, Koa woke me up several times during the night. And, although he did do something outside every time, getting woken up every 2-3 hours, really breaks the ability to get some proper rest from sleep. He woke me up at least an hour earlier than usual, and he wasn’t about to fall asleep again, like he sometimes does. So, yeah, we got up, and started our “day”. And again, it was still 27°C outside. Way too warm for the nights…
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#Journal of a warm and relaxing Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesday, 24/06/2026).
We had gone to bed a little later, due to the parcel delivery. Koa allowed me to have a decent enough sleep, with almost 8 hours in total. Which was very much needed, and very welcome as well. When Koa woke me up around 1:15, we got up, and we started our “day”. It was a bit cooler already, so I opened up all the windows, and the kitchen door. I fixed Koa’s meal, and I took my meds. I got to the couch, grabbed my laptop, and wrote my email to my sweet friend.
When I was done, I went on to write my journal toot. I uploaded it to all the right places when it was done. Then, I put away the laptop, and I made myself some brekkie. When I had finished, Koa and I went out for a short walk. It wasn’t as cool as the previous night, and there was less of a breeze. After our little walk, Koa got another little mail with some sauerkraut again. Then, we headed to the couch, where we both tried to relax for a while.
When it was getting light out, we went for a longer walk. Koa got his normal meal when we got back, and after that, we tried to relax some more. I closed the upstairs windows, as the sun was peeking through, and it was slowly but surely getting warmer again. Bestie called me on the way to work, and we had a nice chat till she arrived.
Koa and I went out for another walkies, and then, we tried to relax some more. I was still rather tired from the previous busy days, and shorter nights, so I was taking advantage of the warmer weather to try and relax as much as possible.
We had a very relaxing day. We only went out for short potty breaks, and then we got back inside as quickly as we could. Even Koa was more relaxed due to the warm weather, even though we did our best to try and keep it cool inside.
I was rather tired, even with all the relaxing, and my back was not too kind to me. So we went to bed a little earlier. Of course, Koa was protesting for a bit, so it was later than I hoped for, when I finally got to sleep.
Koa woke me up twice during the night for potty breaks. It was still so warm outside, that it felt good whenever we got back inside again. When Koa woke me up a third time, I had managed to sleep about 8 hours in total, according to my watch. Which wasn’t too bad, but it was rather broken, so not the best to recharge the battery with. But, we got up, and we started our “day”.
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#Journal of a warm and relaxing Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesday, 24/06/2026).
We had gone to bed a little later, due to the parcel delivery. Koa allowed me to have a decent enough sleep, with almost 8 hours in total. Which was very much needed, and very welcome as well. When Koa woke me up around 1:15, we got up, and we started our “day”. It was a bit cooler already, so I opened up all the windows, and the kitchen door. I fixed Koa’s meal, and I took my meds. I got to the couch, grabbed my laptop, and wrote my email to my sweet friend.
When I was done, I went on to write my journal toot. I uploaded it to all the right places when it was done. Then, I put away the laptop, and I made myself some brekkie. When I had finished, Koa and I went out for a short walk. It wasn’t as cool as the previous night, and there was less of a breeze. After our little walk, Koa got another little mail with some sauerkraut again. Then, we headed to the couch, where we both tried to relax for a while.
When it was getting light out, we went for a longer walk. Koa got his normal meal when we got back, and after that, we tried to relax some more. I closed the upstairs windows, as the sun was peeking through, and it was slowly but surely getting warmer again. Bestie called me on the way to work, and we had a nice chat till she arrived.
Koa and I went out for another walkies, and then, we tried to relax some more. I was still rather tired from the previous busy days, and shorter nights, so I was taking advantage of the warmer weather to try and relax as much as possible.
We had a very relaxing day. We only went out for short potty breaks, and then we got back inside as quickly as we could. Even Koa was more relaxed due to the warm weather, even though we did our best to try and keep it cool inside.
I was rather tired, even with all the relaxing, and my back was not too kind to me. So we went to bed a little earlier. Of course, Koa was protesting for a bit, so it was later than I hoped for, when I finally got to sleep.
Koa woke me up twice during the night for potty breaks. It was still so warm outside, that it felt good whenever we got back inside again. When Koa woke me up a third time, I had managed to sleep about 8 hours in total, according to my watch. Which wasn’t too bad, but it was rather broken, so not the best to recharge the battery with. But, we got up, and we started our “day”.
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CW: A scare with Koa, but nothing too bad, just a longer journal Toot 😇
#Journal of a worried Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Tuesday, 23/06/2026).
After a shorter night, due to getting to bed late, and me not wanting to sleep too long, due to the routine (and Koa wanting food and all that), we got up to start our “day”. The scale was still it’s usual self, so I got dressed. I fixed Koa’s meal, took my meds, and when Koa was done, I went upstairs to open the windows. It was getting cooler during the night, so that could help to cool off the house a bit, as we have some warm days coming our way.
I wrote an email to my sweet friend, and then I wrote a journal toot. Once I shared the journal, I fixed myself a bit of brekkie. Koa was snoozing peacefully, so I headed upstairs again, to take down the laundry, fold it, and get it back downstairs again, to clean it up. Koa didn’t mind me going up, so that was a good thing.
We went on a short walk, and then we relaxed a bit with some telly and all that. When it was getting light out, and it was nice and cool, Koa and I went for a longer walk. I took some pictures, and all was going well, until we were on the way back home. I wrote two toots about it, and I will share that text in the journal, so I don’t have to type it all out again. Original toots can be found here: https://beige.party/@PixysJourney/116797981616677674
Koa just gave me quite a scare, and I don't know if all is well now… We were out or walkies, and I saw him snatched up something small. I have no idea what it was, and I tried to take it out. I looked in his mouth, and it seemed all empty. We set a few steps, and then Koa started whining very sad...
It scared the bejeezus out of me, and I checked his mouth several times. I went with as far with my fingers as I could and dared, but I felt nothing… I panicked and didn't know what was happening.
I cuddled him, checked his mouth twice more, and still found nothing. Koa stopped whining, wagged his tail, and he went on his way again like nothing had happened.
I have NO idea what he got. I have no idea why he whined. And I have no idea if it will cause him some serious issues. So I'll be watching him like a madwoman, to make sure all goes well...
I already had panned to take Koa with me to the physio (with my PTs approval), so now it's even more important to stay with him as much as I can...Ever since Koa gave me that scare this morning, I've been watching him like an idiot, to see if there are any signs of any form of distress… I wish I knew what it was that he snatched up so quickly.
I wish I had been faster, to take it from his mouth. And I wish I knew what caused him to whine with his "distress" voice, as it made me tear up, and I'm so worried now...
I hope that, whatever it was, won't cause any issues while passing through his system, and that tomorrow or so, he'll give me a smelly prezzie, and it will come out without issues… Damn, I am so worried... Why are pups so fast when it comes to snatching things that aren't good for them? 😢 (and why can't they talk, so he could tell me why he whined in distress, and what it was that he grabbed…). Fingers 🤞🏻 and toes crossed... And I won't leave him out of my sight, as I'm way too scared that I'll miss any signs of things not going right... 😔So yeah, I called my mum, and she advised me to check with the vet when they opened. So, I braved a call, and explained what had happened. They advised me to get some simple sauerkraut, as that could help the thing he may have snatched to pass his bowels more safely. So, I quickly put Koa in his crate, and I took Skoosh to the supermarket. I found the sauerkraut, and got two cartons of yogurt for myself as well, now I was there. And Skoosh and I got back home safe and sound again. Koa was all good in his crate.
I put some of the sauerkraut with some kibble in his bowl, and he devoured it like a madman! It is safe to say that he really liked the smelly stuff. I hope it will help him to pass whatever he snatched safely.
I had already texted my PT about taking Koa with me, as I didn’t have someone to watch over him, and with the scare of this morning, I wanted to make sure to be there for him, should he get in distress. My PT sent me a thumbs up back, so that was all arranged.
When it was time, Koa and I headed to Cuijk. We were a bit early, but Koa was a very good boy, and he did do so well while waiting with me. During my session, my PT kept an eye out for the little rascal. He did try some naughty things, but in the end, he did remarkably well. We headed back home again, where Koa got another meal with sauerkraut. We relaxed for a while, I think Koa was tired from the impressions at the physio. I was very tired, and wanted to head to bed, but… I had to wait for a parcel, as they didn’t give me the option to deliver it with a neighbor.
When the parcel has arrived around 16:45, we finally went to bed. We both dozed off quick enough. Koa woke me up around 23, and he did his things. But, as I was still so tired, we went back to get some more sleep. Koa woke me up again around 1:19, and we got up to start our “day”.
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CW: A scare with Koa, but nothing too bad, just a longer journal Toot 😇
#Journal of a worried Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Tuesday, 23/06/2026).
After a shorter night, due to getting to bed late, and me not wanting to sleep too long, due to the routine (and Koa wanting food and all that), we got up to start our “day”. The scale was still it’s usual self, so I got dressed. I fixed Koa’s meal, took my meds, and when Koa was done, I went upstairs to open the windows. It was getting cooler during the night, so that could help to cool off the house a bit, as we have some warm days coming our way.
I wrote an email to my sweet friend, and then I wrote a journal toot. Once I shared the journal, I fixed myself a bit of brekkie. Koa was snoozing peacefully, so I headed upstairs again, to take down the laundry, fold it, and get it back downstairs again, to clean it up. Koa didn’t mind me going up, so that was a good thing.
We went on a short walk, and then we relaxed a bit with some telly and all that. When it was getting light out, and it was nice and cool, Koa and I went for a longer walk. I took some pictures, and all was going well, until we were on the way back home. I wrote two toots about it, and I will share that text in the journal, so I don’t have to type it all out again. Original toots can be found here: https://beige.party/@PixysJourney/116797981616677674
Koa just gave me quite a scare, and I don't know if all is well now… We were out or walkies, and I saw him snatched up something small. I have no idea what it was, and I tried to take it out. I looked in his mouth, and it seemed all empty. We set a few steps, and then Koa started whining very sad...
It scared the bejeezus out of me, and I checked his mouth several times. I went with as far with my fingers as I could and dared, but I felt nothing… I panicked and didn't know what was happening.
I cuddled him, checked his mouth twice more, and still found nothing. Koa stopped whining, wagged his tail, and he went on his way again like nothing had happened.
I have NO idea what he got. I have no idea why he whined. And I have no idea if it will cause him some serious issues. So I'll be watching him like a madwoman, to make sure all goes well...
I already had panned to take Koa with me to the physio (with my PTs approval), so now it's even more important to stay with him as much as I can...Ever since Koa gave me that scare this morning, I've been watching him like an idiot, to see if there are any signs of any form of distress… I wish I knew what it was that he snatched up so quickly.
I wish I had been faster, to take it from his mouth. And I wish I knew what caused him to whine with his "distress" voice, as it made me tear up, and I'm so worried now...
I hope that, whatever it was, won't cause any issues while passing through his system, and that tomorrow or so, he'll give me a smelly prezzie, and it will come out without issues… Damn, I am so worried... Why are pups so fast when it comes to snatching things that aren't good for them? 😢 (and why can't they talk, so he could tell me why he whined in distress, and what it was that he grabbed…). Fingers 🤞🏻 and toes crossed... And I won't leave him out of my sight, as I'm way too scared that I'll miss any signs of things not going right... 😔So yeah, I called my mum, and she advised me to check with the vet when they opened. So, I braved a call, and explained what had happened. They advised me to get some simple sauerkraut, as that could help the thing he may have snatched to pass his bowels more safely. So, I quickly put Koa in his crate, and I took Skoosh to the supermarket. I found the sauerkraut, and got two cartons of yogurt for myself as well, now I was there. And Skoosh and I got back home safe and sound again. Koa was all good in his crate.
I put some of the sauerkraut with some kibble in his bowl, and he devoured it like a madman! It is safe to say that he really liked the smelly stuff. I hope it will help him to pass whatever he snatched safely.
I had already texted my PT about taking Koa with me, as I didn’t have someone to watch over him, and with the scare of this morning, I wanted to make sure to be there for him, should he get in distress. My PT sent me a thumbs up back, so that was all arranged.
When it was time, Koa and I headed to Cuijk. We were a bit early, but Koa was a very good boy, and he did do so well while waiting with me. During my session, my PT kept an eye out for the little rascal. He did try some naughty things, but in the end, he did remarkably well. We headed back home again, where Koa got another meal with sauerkraut. We relaxed for a while, I think Koa was tired from the impressions at the physio. I was very tired, and wanted to head to bed, but… I had to wait for a parcel, as they didn’t give me the option to deliver it with a neighbor.
When the parcel has arrived around 16:45, we finally went to bed. We both dozed off quick enough. Koa woke me up around 23, and he did his things. But, as I was still so tired, we went back to get some more sleep. Koa woke me up again around 1:19, and we got up to start our “day”.
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CW: Nothing bad at all! 😁 Just a longer (>5k characters) journal Toot, so this may save some folks from scrolling through the timeline too long 😉
#Journal of an exhausted and anxious Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Monday, 22/06/2026)
We had a decent enough night, although I was still tired when Koa decided it was time to get up. I got to the scale, who still isn’t my friend (both the numbers it shows me, and the pain to stand straight on it). Koa got his meal, and I got my meds. As the night was slowly cooling down, and there were no thunderstorms predicted, I managed to open all the windows and the kitchen door, so we could get some fresh air flowing through the home.
I got my laptop and went to the couch. As I had already emailed my friend before I went to sleep, and he had not replied yet, I only had the journal toot to write. I chatted a bit with a friend, while I wrote the journal bit. Then, after I uploaded it to all the right places, I made myself some brekkie. I tried to relax a bit, as this was going to be a long day, with less time to relax.
So, I tried to relax a bit with some telly. Koa and I went out for a short walk. We relaxed some more, and then I decided to clean the guest toilet. Just in case that the lady from the ASS-ADHD support wanted to use it, I would be sure that it would be decent enough. Not that it was that bad, mind you! But yeah, it could have been better, at least my mind seemed to think so. After some more relaxing, it was getting light out, and Koa and I went for a longer walk.
He got his meal, and then he snoozed for a while, as I was relaxing on the couch with some telly. A little while later, we went for another walk. Just as we got back, and I was prepping some food for myself, bestie called me on the way to her work. We had a nice chat, and I had a nice meal as well.
It was getting warmer outside, and the sun was starting to hit the house, so I rushed to close off all I could. Another short walk with Koa, and then I got the vacuum out, and I tried to clean the downstairs area a bit better. Koa tried to help, which of course, only made things more challenging. But at least he’s not afraid of the thing.
Koa and I practiced some of our exercises, and then we relaxed a while. I was getting very anxious about the upcoming intake appointment, and I was stressed out about the puppy class, as I had been struggling with it. I had tooted a bit about it, and I chatted with a sweet friend for a while.
I took Koa out for a short walk, and then we both tried to relax for a while. When it was time to get ready for the lady to visit, I quickly took Koa out, in case he needed to do anything. The sun was already very warm, so I took him to a shaded area. He did get some sniffs in, but didn’t do anything. When we walked back, a lady came towards us, totally in awe of Koa, and asking if I were the one she was supposed to meet. So, we went inside. I crated Koa, as he kept on attacking the lady with his very excited teefs.
We had a good talk, which was very positive, and lasted shorter than she had expected. So, that was a good thing, I hope. When she left, Koa and I tried to relax a bit, and I even set an alarm, in case I could snooze. Of course, this didn’t happen. Around 15:30, Koa and I headed to Skoosh, as we had to drive a longer way, due to road construction. I tried to follow the detour, but somehow, I didn’t see the signs that should have been there. So, I took an even longer way, as I didn’t know the detour route (I would learn it on the way back home).
We arrived at my parent’s place, and after a little while, mum and Bas came back from their walkies as well. Koa was being a bit excited and bitey, and my parents weren’t handling it all too well. I understand their fear of Koa’s sharp teeth, as they both have thinner skin, and they both use blood thinners. So, if Koa gets their skin, they will most likely bleed, and keep bleeding for a while… But still, it is a puppy, and he did nothing that bad. I guess they forgot how much Bas did the bitey thing at that age. But, of course, Bas is smaller, so it was harder for him to get to the arms and hands.
As I didn’t know how long it would take me to get home, as I wasn’t sure that there would be decent detour signs on the way back, mum and I decided to each take our own car. That way, I could head to the highway sooner, and mum could head home on her own. It saved me a bit of time, which was very welcome, as I was rather tired, due to the long day without any real proper rest.I was very anxious about the puppy class, as I struggled with the way things had been going during the first few sessions. This time, the class was given outside, in the shade, on the parking, as it was too hot indoors. And, I liked the outdoor session a lot better. It was easier to understand the teacher this way, and, she even chose Koa for an exercise to show how to do it. This lesson was really a lot better than the previous ones, at least for me, so that was a good thing.
Koa and I headed home, and on the way back, they did have proper signs for the detour. So, now I know it for when I have to head to Nijmegen again. It was a whole new route for me, so it was a bit harder to drive there, as I was getting more tired. But, all went well, and Koa and I arrived home safe and sound. I unpacked the car, and prepared everything for bed. After a little snack, and something to drink, Koa did his pee and poop, and we headed to bed.
It didn’t take us too long to both doze off. After about 5½ hours, Koa woke me up, as he needed to pee, and I guess he was getting a bit hungry as well. It was good I got to sleep that in one go. As I didn’t want to disrupt my routine too much, we got up, and we started our “day”. It was nice and cool outside, with 18°C, so I opened everything up, and then followed the usual routine.
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CW: Nothing bad at all! 😁 Just a longer (>5k characters) journal Toot, so this may save some folks from scrolling through the timeline too long 😉
#Journal of an exhausted and anxious Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Monday, 22/06/2026)
We had a decent enough night, although I was still tired when Koa decided it was time to get up. I got to the scale, who still isn’t my friend (both the numbers it shows me, and the pain to stand straight on it). Koa got his meal, and I got my meds. As the night was slowly cooling down, and there were no thunderstorms predicted, I managed to open all the windows and the kitchen door, so we could get some fresh air flowing through the home.
I got my laptop and went to the couch. As I had already emailed my friend before I went to sleep, and he had not replied yet, I only had the journal toot to write. I chatted a bit with a friend, while I wrote the journal bit. Then, after I uploaded it to all the right places, I made myself some brekkie. I tried to relax a bit, as this was going to be a long day, with less time to relax.
So, I tried to relax a bit with some telly. Koa and I went out for a short walk. We relaxed some more, and then I decided to clean the guest toilet. Just in case that the lady from the ASS-ADHD support wanted to use it, I would be sure that it would be decent enough. Not that it was that bad, mind you! But yeah, it could have been better, at least my mind seemed to think so. After some more relaxing, it was getting light out, and Koa and I went for a longer walk.
He got his meal, and then he snoozed for a while, as I was relaxing on the couch with some telly. A little while later, we went for another walk. Just as we got back, and I was prepping some food for myself, bestie called me on the way to her work. We had a nice chat, and I had a nice meal as well.
It was getting warmer outside, and the sun was starting to hit the house, so I rushed to close off all I could. Another short walk with Koa, and then I got the vacuum out, and I tried to clean the downstairs area a bit better. Koa tried to help, which of course, only made things more challenging. But at least he’s not afraid of the thing.
Koa and I practiced some of our exercises, and then we relaxed a while. I was getting very anxious about the upcoming intake appointment, and I was stressed out about the puppy class, as I had been struggling with it. I had tooted a bit about it, and I chatted with a sweet friend for a while.
I took Koa out for a short walk, and then we both tried to relax for a while. When it was time to get ready for the lady to visit, I quickly took Koa out, in case he needed to do anything. The sun was already very warm, so I took him to a shaded area. He did get some sniffs in, but didn’t do anything. When we walked back, a lady came towards us, totally in awe of Koa, and asking if I were the one she was supposed to meet. So, we went inside. I crated Koa, as he kept on attacking the lady with his very excited teefs.
We had a good talk, which was very positive, and lasted shorter than she had expected. So, that was a good thing, I hope. When she left, Koa and I tried to relax a bit, and I even set an alarm, in case I could snooze. Of course, this didn’t happen. Around 15:30, Koa and I headed to Skoosh, as we had to drive a longer way, due to road construction. I tried to follow the detour, but somehow, I didn’t see the signs that should have been there. So, I took an even longer way, as I didn’t know the detour route (I would learn it on the way back home).
We arrived at my parent’s place, and after a little while, mum and Bas came back from their walkies as well. Koa was being a bit excited and bitey, and my parents weren’t handling it all too well. I understand their fear of Koa’s sharp teeth, as they both have thinner skin, and they both use blood thinners. So, if Koa gets their skin, they will most likely bleed, and keep bleeding for a while… But still, it is a puppy, and he did nothing that bad. I guess they forgot how much Bas did the bitey thing at that age. But, of course, Bas is smaller, so it was harder for him to get to the arms and hands.
As I didn’t know how long it would take me to get home, as I wasn’t sure that there would be decent detour signs on the way back, mum and I decided to each take our own car. That way, I could head to the highway sooner, and mum could head home on her own. It saved me a bit of time, which was very welcome, as I was rather tired, due to the long day without any real proper rest.I was very anxious about the puppy class, as I struggled with the way things had been going during the first few sessions. This time, the class was given outside, in the shade, on the parking, as it was too hot indoors. And, I liked the outdoor session a lot better. It was easier to understand the teacher this way, and, she even chose Koa for an exercise to show how to do it. This lesson was really a lot better than the previous ones, at least for me, so that was a good thing.
Koa and I headed home, and on the way back, they did have proper signs for the detour. So, now I know it for when I have to head to Nijmegen again. It was a whole new route for me, so it was a bit harder to drive there, as I was getting more tired. But, all went well, and Koa and I arrived home safe and sound. I unpacked the car, and prepared everything for bed. After a little snack, and something to drink, Koa did his pee and poop, and we headed to bed.
It didn’t take us too long to both doze off. After about 5½ hours, Koa woke me up, as he needed to pee, and I guess he was getting a bit hungry as well. It was good I got to sleep that in one go. As I didn’t want to disrupt my routine too much, we got up, and we started our “day”. It was nice and cool outside, with 18°C, so I opened everything up, and then followed the usual routine.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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#Journal of a warm and sore Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Sunday, 21/06/2026).
Koa and I had a decent enough night, and according to my watch, I got almost 8 hours of sleep. Of course, it was broken up due to my own bladder, and due to Koa needing a potty break as well. But, when I have an early potty break myself, often, Koa will keep snoozing, so that’s a plus. He now seems to know that I go to the loo, and then get back to sleep. He woke me up once for a potty break, and then later again, when he had decided that I had gotten enough sleep, and it was time to get out of the crate, and get some food.
So, we got up. I used the scale, prepped Koa’s meal, and I took my meds. Then, I got to the couch with my laptop, and I wrote an email to a sweet friend. When I was done, I wrote my journal toot, and shared it in all the right places. I played a little with some AI, as I had a few ideas. The images were decent enough, but not exactly what I had in mind. Ah well… I tried…
I had opened up all windows, so that some cooler air could come in. As I was writing the email, I heard some rumbling coming closer at a fast speed. So, I “rushed” upstairs, and I closed the windows. Then back down, to close the kitchen door. And, when I sat back down again to finish my email, the rain started pouring down! We got a lot of rain, with thunder and lightning to go with it. Koa didn’t like it too much, and he didn’t want to take a pee until the weather got a bit calmer.
I fixed my brekkie, and tried to relax a bit with some telly. I felt like I needed to get a little exercise in, so I went upstairs. I hoped that Koa would remain quiet, as it was still a bit early. But, after one little bark, he settled down, and snoozed while I was riding the bike. I had hoped for a 15-minute ride. And even though it was warm upstairs, with 25°C, and my back and leg weren’t still doing all OK, I did manage to ride for 30 minutes. It felt very good, and I was glad I had done that.
I got back down, and the rain seemed to have toned down a bit, so I got my umbrella, and Koa and I went out for some walkies. He got his sniffs in, and did a wee. We got back home again, and I fixed him some food. After some relaxing with some telly, I made myself some food too. Then, I started the dishwasher, and I prepared the washing machine. When the dishwasher had been running for a while, I started the washing machine.
I tried to relax a bit, and when the laundry was ready to be hung, I went upstairs without putting Koa in his crate, to see how that would go. Well, when I was ready to get down, he was already trying to get up the stairs. Not a good idea, and I am glad he didn’t make it too far. I took Koa out for another walk, and then we played a little in the garden with his ball.
Some of the lower back windows had been splashed with loads of sand/mud, due to the bad weather of the last few days. It annoyed me a bit, so I wanted to give them a quick rinse, so they would look a wee bit better. Koa tried to help, so I had to crate him. Don’t want him near cleaning materials… And it’s easier if you can work without pushing a needy pup aside every 3 seconds… I noticed that I should do the other windows too, but as my back was still sore, and those are higher windows, I decided to just do the 3 lower ones.
It was already getting warmer again, so it was time to close up the windows, doors, and curtains again. I needed to relax for a bit, as my back wasn't too glad about me doing the laundry and cleaning windows. Koa and I relaxed for a while, and then we went out for a short walkies, mostly in the shade (where there is still some available). We used to have a lovely path with loads of shade, but with the reconstruction, that is all gone now. Maybe it will get better at the time they’re finished with the work, but for now, I do miss the old way that it used to be, as it was way better for dogs, especially during these warmer days.
Koa and I relaxed, we tried some exercises, we played a little inside. And then, when it was time to get ready for bed, I prepared everything. I let Koa out a last time, and then we went to bed. Koa was a bit whiney at the start, but once he realized that I wasn’t falling for it (as he was just trying me out, to get out of the crate again), he relaxed, and fell asleep.
It took me a bit longer to get comfy and doze off. After less than an hour, I woke up again, due to my stupid bladder. Fortunately, Koa kept snoozing. He woke me up a few hours later, and he did a number one and two. We got back to bed, and he allowed me a few more hours of sleep. I would have wanted some more, but according to Koa, midnight was the time for nocturnal people and pups to get up… So, we got up, and we started our very long “day” to come…
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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#Journal of a warm and sore Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Sunday, 21/06/2026).
Koa and I had a decent enough night, and according to my watch, I got almost 8 hours of sleep. Of course, it was broken up due to my own bladder, and due to Koa needing a potty break as well. But, when I have an early potty break myself, often, Koa will keep snoozing, so that’s a plus. He now seems to know that I go to the loo, and then get back to sleep. He woke me up once for a potty break, and then later again, when he had decided that I had gotten enough sleep, and it was time to get out of the crate, and get some food.
So, we got up. I used the scale, prepped Koa’s meal, and I took my meds. Then, I got to the couch with my laptop, and I wrote an email to a sweet friend. When I was done, I wrote my journal toot, and shared it in all the right places. I played a little with some AI, as I had a few ideas. The images were decent enough, but not exactly what I had in mind. Ah well… I tried…
I had opened up all windows, so that some cooler air could come in. As I was writing the email, I heard some rumbling coming closer at a fast speed. So, I “rushed” upstairs, and I closed the windows. Then back down, to close the kitchen door. And, when I sat back down again to finish my email, the rain started pouring down! We got a lot of rain, with thunder and lightning to go with it. Koa didn’t like it too much, and he didn’t want to take a pee until the weather got a bit calmer.
I fixed my brekkie, and tried to relax a bit with some telly. I felt like I needed to get a little exercise in, so I went upstairs. I hoped that Koa would remain quiet, as it was still a bit early. But, after one little bark, he settled down, and snoozed while I was riding the bike. I had hoped for a 15-minute ride. And even though it was warm upstairs, with 25°C, and my back and leg weren’t still doing all OK, I did manage to ride for 30 minutes. It felt very good, and I was glad I had done that.
I got back down, and the rain seemed to have toned down a bit, so I got my umbrella, and Koa and I went out for some walkies. He got his sniffs in, and did a wee. We got back home again, and I fixed him some food. After some relaxing with some telly, I made myself some food too. Then, I started the dishwasher, and I prepared the washing machine. When the dishwasher had been running for a while, I started the washing machine.
I tried to relax a bit, and when the laundry was ready to be hung, I went upstairs without putting Koa in his crate, to see how that would go. Well, when I was ready to get down, he was already trying to get up the stairs. Not a good idea, and I am glad he didn’t make it too far. I took Koa out for another walk, and then we played a little in the garden with his ball.
Some of the lower back windows had been splashed with loads of sand/mud, due to the bad weather of the last few days. It annoyed me a bit, so I wanted to give them a quick rinse, so they would look a wee bit better. Koa tried to help, so I had to crate him. Don’t want him near cleaning materials… And it’s easier if you can work without pushing a needy pup aside every 3 seconds… I noticed that I should do the other windows too, but as my back was still sore, and those are higher windows, I decided to just do the 3 lower ones.
It was already getting warmer again, so it was time to close up the windows, doors, and curtains again. I needed to relax for a bit, as my back wasn't too glad about me doing the laundry and cleaning windows. Koa and I relaxed for a while, and then we went out for a short walkies, mostly in the shade (where there is still some available). We used to have a lovely path with loads of shade, but with the reconstruction, that is all gone now. Maybe it will get better at the time they’re finished with the work, but for now, I do miss the old way that it used to be, as it was way better for dogs, especially during these warmer days.
Koa and I relaxed, we tried some exercises, we played a little inside. And then, when it was time to get ready for bed, I prepared everything. I let Koa out a last time, and then we went to bed. Koa was a bit whiney at the start, but once he realized that I wasn’t falling for it (as he was just trying me out, to get out of the crate again), he relaxed, and fell asleep.
It took me a bit longer to get comfy and doze off. After less than an hour, I woke up again, due to my stupid bladder. Fortunately, Koa kept snoozing. He woke me up a few hours later, and he did a number one and two. We got back to bed, and he allowed me a few more hours of sleep. I would have wanted some more, but according to Koa, midnight was the time for nocturnal people and pups to get up… So, we got up, and we started our very long “day” to come…
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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#Journal of a slightly sore and warm Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 20/06/2026).
A bit of a broken night, with only about 6½ hours of sleep in total, but it’s what it is. I managed to use the scale, then I got dressed. I let Koa out, so he could do his things, and I fixed him his meal. I took my meds, and then I went to the couch, and I grabbed my laptop. I started with writing an email to my sweet friend. When I saw the outside temperature lowering, I tried to open up some windows. But, I could not open too much, as there was a thunderstorm coming closer and closer. After a while, it did give us some bursts of rain, and some loud bangs with wild flashes. But it didn’t last too long, which was good, because Koa really didn’t like it
I finished the email, and then I wrote my journal toot. I chatted a bit with a friend, while working on the toot. When it was done, I uploaded all the bits and bops, and then I tried to relax for a while with some telly. I fixed my brekkie, and Koa slept in his crate for a while.
After some relaxing and all, Koa woke up. It was dry, and it seemed that the storm had passed, so we went out for a tiny walk. Then, some more relaxing, until it got light out, and we went for a nice walk. Koa wanted a different walk this time, and we ended up walking a new route, which was a wee bit longer. It wasn't too far, but when we got back, my back had enough. I fixed Koa’s meal, and then we relaxed for a while.
I realized that I still had my mum’s bank card in my wallet, so I texted her, that she should let me know when she was up, and that Koa and I would come quickly then to give her the card, so she could go shopping later that morning. Mum texted, and we went there. All went well, and after some chatting, Koa and I quickly went back again, before it would get too hot.
When we go home, I grabbed a few snacks for the black fluff, and I walked with Koa so he could do his things. Then, we got to the gate of the fluff’s garden, and he spotted us and worked his way to the gate, barking loudly, so we knew he was on his way. I gave my neighbor the snacks I had for him, and we chatted for a little while. After that, Koa got some more sniffs, and then we headed back home.
The sun was doing its thing already, and I quickly closed all the curtains and windows to keep the cool in, and the heat out. Koa wasn’t too impressed with that, but after some goofing around, he finally settled down next to the couch, and he snoozed for a while, while I watched some more TV.
We took it easy today. We did go out for one more walk around 11, as there was still some shade that we could walk in. After that, we stayed inside as much as possible, and only did a short walk after he had his meal. When it was almost time to get ready for bed, I prepared everything. Koa went into the garden for his last pees and poops, and then we headed to bed.
Koa started whining and barking some, but I didn’t give in. I knew he was only testing me, as he had done all he needed to do, and he got all he needed to get. It was just to get out of the crate, and have some more mischief before bedtime. After a little while, he settled down, and snoozed away. It didn’t take me too long to doze off as well.
I woke up about an hour later for the loo. Koa did hear me, but he kept on snoozing. After he slept for about 5½ hours, he woke me up, and we went outside so he could do this things. We went back to bed, and he allowed me to snooze for almost 3 more hours. According to my watch, I got almost 8 hours of sleep. And how welcome they were, as I was so exhausted. But, Koa had to go potty, so we got up, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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#Journal of a slightly sore and warm Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 20/06/2026).
A bit of a broken night, with only about 6½ hours of sleep in total, but it’s what it is. I managed to use the scale, then I got dressed. I let Koa out, so he could do his things, and I fixed him his meal. I took my meds, and then I went to the couch, and I grabbed my laptop. I started with writing an email to my sweet friend. When I saw the outside temperature lowering, I tried to open up some windows. But, I could not open too much, as there was a thunderstorm coming closer and closer. After a while, it did give us some bursts of rain, and some loud bangs with wild flashes. But it didn’t last too long, which was good, because Koa really didn’t like it
I finished the email, and then I wrote my journal toot. I chatted a bit with a friend, while working on the toot. When it was done, I uploaded all the bits and bops, and then I tried to relax for a while with some telly. I fixed my brekkie, and Koa slept in his crate for a while.
After some relaxing and all, Koa woke up. It was dry, and it seemed that the storm had passed, so we went out for a tiny walk. Then, some more relaxing, until it got light out, and we went for a nice walk. Koa wanted a different walk this time, and we ended up walking a new route, which was a wee bit longer. It wasn't too far, but when we got back, my back had enough. I fixed Koa’s meal, and then we relaxed for a while.
I realized that I still had my mum’s bank card in my wallet, so I texted her, that she should let me know when she was up, and that Koa and I would come quickly then to give her the card, so she could go shopping later that morning. Mum texted, and we went there. All went well, and after some chatting, Koa and I quickly went back again, before it would get too hot.
When we go home, I grabbed a few snacks for the black fluff, and I walked with Koa so he could do his things. Then, we got to the gate of the fluff’s garden, and he spotted us and worked his way to the gate, barking loudly, so we knew he was on his way. I gave my neighbor the snacks I had for him, and we chatted for a little while. After that, Koa got some more sniffs, and then we headed back home.
The sun was doing its thing already, and I quickly closed all the curtains and windows to keep the cool in, and the heat out. Koa wasn’t too impressed with that, but after some goofing around, he finally settled down next to the couch, and he snoozed for a while, while I watched some more TV.
We took it easy today. We did go out for one more walk around 11, as there was still some shade that we could walk in. After that, we stayed inside as much as possible, and only did a short walk after he had his meal. When it was almost time to get ready for bed, I prepared everything. Koa went into the garden for his last pees and poops, and then we headed to bed.
Koa started whining and barking some, but I didn’t give in. I knew he was only testing me, as he had done all he needed to do, and he got all he needed to get. It was just to get out of the crate, and have some more mischief before bedtime. After a little while, he settled down, and snoozed away. It didn’t take me too long to doze off as well.
I woke up about an hour later for the loo. Koa did hear me, but he kept on snoozing. After he slept for about 5½ hours, he woke me up, and we went outside so he could do this things. We went back to bed, and he allowed me to snooze for almost 3 more hours. According to my watch, I got almost 8 hours of sleep. And how welcome they were, as I was so exhausted. But, Koa had to go potty, so we got up, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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#Journal of a tired and sore Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 19/06/2026).
Koa allowed me a bit of sleep, about 7 hours in total. I was still sore, due to my stupid back and leg, and I slowly started my day. I didn’t use the scale this time, because standing up straight was very painful, and I could not stand still for a short amount of time. So, I’d use the scale again tomorrow. I got dressed, and cared for Koa. After I’d taken my meds, I went to the couch, grabbed my laptop, and I wrote an email to a very sweet friend of mine. When I was done, I wrote my journal toot. I updated all the bits with it, and then I put the laptop away. I was too tired to work on my blog some more, and I wanted to relax with a bit of telly.
So, I did that, and I crated Koa when it was time for brekkie. As he was snoozing when I was done with my meal, I let the crate closed for a while, so I could relax on the couch with some more telly, without having to be mindful of where the little dude is causing some mischief now. 😂I relaxed with some Person of Interest on the TV, while Koa snoozed in his crate.
When it was getting light out, Koa and I went for the “longer” walk (well, long enough for my boor back and leg at the moment), and Koa got all his sniffs in. When we got back, I fixed him his food, and then we relaxed a bit. I got a favorite snack, and we did a few exercises together. After that, we went for another short walk.
We tried to relax a little more, and enjoy the cooler weather, as long as it would last. I tried to hose off Koa’s little artificial turf, and Koa had some fun playing with the water beam. I tried to dry Koa off a bit, so he could go back inside without causing major flooding. He always likes it when I try to dry him off, and he always tries to help. Of course, he helps by putting his teefs in the towel and pulling on it.
When it was getting warmer, I closed off the windows with all the curtains, to try and keep the heat out as much as possible. The sun was shining straight on the back of the house, so it got hot behind the curtains pretty fast. I gave Koa his snuffle mat, and I had tried out my new airfyer! The fryer worked like a charm, and it was so easy to use and clean. Yay!
I let out Koa for another little walk, before I had to go to physio. I set up the camera, and made sure Koa was cared for, before I left. On my phone, I heard two little barks, and that was it! Koa settled down, and he snoozed for the next 45 minutes. Then, he became a little restless, but I didn’t hear any barks. He calmed down again, and slept some more, until the neighbor came to take him for short walkies. The little dude was so excited!
I got back home, chatted a bit with my neighbor, and then she left. She had told me about the hard decision that she had to make, as her dog was getting too bad to keep going. 😭 She will spoil him for the next week, but at the end of the week, he will cross the rainbow 🌈 bridge… It made me so sad, but I understood it so well. You don’t want to see your loved one suffer… And this is the hardest thing of having a dog, choosing when it’s time to say goodbye.
When she left, I cried for a while, as her dog was Arwen’s big friend. He never made any real friends, until he met Arwen, and they really had some good times together. He was there for me to cuddle after she passed, and now, Koa will be there after he has crossed the bridge… I got my laptop, and I made a condolence card for my neighbor. It should be delivered on Friday or Saturday, so I hope it will be helpful in a way, to know that I am thinking of them, and missing the big black fluff too. I also ordered some snacks for him, so I hope they will be delivered in time, so he can enjoy them during his final days. Damn, this makes me so emotional…
I tried to relax a bit after that, and then I got everything ready for bedtime. I let Koa out and he did a little wee. So, of course, when I was just comfy in bed, Koa started to whine and bark. I wanted to give him some water, but as soon as I was up, he was snoozing… Little rascal. He woke me up a few hours later, as he needed a wee, and a drink. And then, we snoozed a wee bit more, until he woke me up for a wee and a poo. It was a bit earlier than I had hoped for, but yeah… With only about 6½ hours of sleep in total, we got up, and started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolaniPS. As I didn't take any Koa snaps today, I'm sharing an old vacation picture that I shared on Pixelfed today instead. 😊
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#Journal of a tired and sore Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 19/06/2026).
Koa allowed me a bit of sleep, about 7 hours in total. I was still sore, due to my stupid back and leg, and I slowly started my day. I didn’t use the scale this time, because standing up straight was very painful, and I could not stand still for a short amount of time. So, I’d use the scale again tomorrow. I got dressed, and cared for Koa. After I’d taken my meds, I went to the couch, grabbed my laptop, and I wrote an email to a very sweet friend of mine. When I was done, I wrote my journal toot. I updated all the bits with it, and then I put the laptop away. I was too tired to work on my blog some more, and I wanted to relax with a bit of telly.
So, I did that, and I crated Koa when it was time for brekkie. As he was snoozing when I was done with my meal, I let the crate closed for a while, so I could relax on the couch with some more telly, without having to be mindful of where the little dude is causing some mischief now. 😂I relaxed with some Person of Interest on the TV, while Koa snoozed in his crate.
When it was getting light out, Koa and I went for the “longer” walk (well, long enough for my boor back and leg at the moment), and Koa got all his sniffs in. When we got back, I fixed him his food, and then we relaxed a bit. I got a favorite snack, and we did a few exercises together. After that, we went for another short walk.
We tried to relax a little more, and enjoy the cooler weather, as long as it would last. I tried to hose off Koa’s little artificial turf, and Koa had some fun playing with the water beam. I tried to dry Koa off a bit, so he could go back inside without causing major flooding. He always likes it when I try to dry him off, and he always tries to help. Of course, he helps by putting his teefs in the towel and pulling on it.
When it was getting warmer, I closed off the windows with all the curtains, to try and keep the heat out as much as possible. The sun was shining straight on the back of the house, so it got hot behind the curtains pretty fast. I gave Koa his snuffle mat, and I had tried out my new airfyer! The fryer worked like a charm, and it was so easy to use and clean. Yay!
I let out Koa for another little walk, before I had to go to physio. I set up the camera, and made sure Koa was cared for, before I left. On my phone, I heard two little barks, and that was it! Koa settled down, and he snoozed for the next 45 minutes. Then, he became a little restless, but I didn’t hear any barks. He calmed down again, and slept some more, until the neighbor came to take him for short walkies. The little dude was so excited!
I got back home, chatted a bit with my neighbor, and then she left. She had told me about the hard decision that she had to make, as her dog was getting too bad to keep going. 😭 She will spoil him for the next week, but at the end of the week, he will cross the rainbow 🌈 bridge… It made me so sad, but I understood it so well. You don’t want to see your loved one suffer… And this is the hardest thing of having a dog, choosing when it’s time to say goodbye.
When she left, I cried for a while, as her dog was Arwen’s big friend. He never made any real friends, until he met Arwen, and they really had some good times together. He was there for me to cuddle after she passed, and now, Koa will be there after he has crossed the bridge… I got my laptop, and I made a condolence card for my neighbor. It should be delivered on Friday or Saturday, so I hope it will be helpful in a way, to know that I am thinking of them, and missing the big black fluff too. I also ordered some snacks for him, so I hope they will be delivered in time, so he can enjoy them during his final days. Damn, this makes me so emotional…
I tried to relax a bit after that, and then I got everything ready for bedtime. I let Koa out and he did a little wee. So, of course, when I was just comfy in bed, Koa started to whine and bark. I wanted to give him some water, but as soon as I was up, he was snoozing… Little rascal. He woke me up a few hours later, as he needed a wee, and a drink. And then, we snoozed a wee bit more, until he woke me up for a wee and a poo. It was a bit earlier than I had hoped for, but yeah… With only about 6½ hours of sleep in total, we got up, and started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolaniPS. As I didn't take any Koa snaps today, I'm sharing an old vacation picture that I shared on Pixelfed today instead. 😊
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:kirby_prideheart: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle:
#GoodAfternoon and #TZAG everyone :mastohot:
I was wondering if this is an #ActuallyAutistic thing but...
With most TV series and movies, I don't really care if people pass away. Animals, on the other hand... They have me sobbing like crazy 😭.
But!
There are several characters in certain series and movies, and even though I know they'll pass away (in the series, and some also for real), they always have me in tears...
The worst is the passing of Downton Abbey's Dowager, played by Dame Maggie Smith.
Then, I always sob when I watch Person of Interest, when Detective Jocelyn "Joss" Carter, played by Taraji P. Henson, passes away. I really liked her character a lot!
The passing of Lee Thompson Young, who played Detective Barry Frost in Rizolli & Isles is bitter sweet, as he ended his own life at the age of 29. The episode where they say farewell to him, it always has me in tears, knowing they were saying goodbye for the last time for real... 😭But yeah, I wondered if this is something NT people also experience, this deep bonding with a TV character, and crying every time the characters pass when you re-watch the series they were in... Or if it's more an ND thing, as I don't know many people that can burst into tears for a TV character. 🤔
So yeah, I was in tears again, as I'm currently re-watching Person of Interest. 😢
Catch you all later folks!
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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:kirby_prideheart: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle:
#GoodAfternoon and #TZAG everyone :mastohot:
I was wondering if this is an #ActuallyAutistic thing but...
With most TV series and movies, I don't really care if people pass away. Animals, on the other hand... They have me sobbing like crazy 😭.
But!
There are several characters in certain series and movies, and even though I know they'll pass away (in the series, and some also for real), they always have me in tears...
The worst is the passing of Downton Abbey's Dowager, played by Dame Maggie Smith.
Then, I always sob when I watch Person of Interest, when Detective Jocelyn "Joss" Carter, played by Taraji P. Henson, passes away. I really liked her character a lot!
The passing of Lee Thompson Young, who played Detective Barry Frost in Rizolli & Isles is bitter sweet, as he ended his own life at the age of 29. The episode where they say farewell to him, it always has me in tears, knowing they were saying goodbye for the last time for real... 😭But yeah, I wondered if this is something NT people also experience, this deep bonding with a TV character, and crying every time the characters pass when you re-watch the series they were in... Or if it's more an ND thing, as I don't know many people that can burst into tears for a TV character. 🤔
So yeah, I was in tears again, as I'm currently re-watching Person of Interest. 😢
Catch you all later folks!
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾