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#Journal of a slightly tired Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesday, 29/07/2026).

We didn’t have a bad night, until my body decided it was time to get up and start our “day”. We started with the usual routine. I got dressed, took my meds, and fed the dude. We went to the couch, where I got my laptop, and started my email to my sweet friend. When I was done, I made some brekkie, and enjoyed it while I started working on my journal toot. As I still felt a wee bit tired, I took Koa for a short walk, and then we went back to the couch again.

I finished up my journal post and uploaded it to all the usual places. After some relaxing with a bit of telly, I tried to motivate myself to take Koa on a proper walk. I wondered why I struggled to get ready for it, as I used to love the SniffiVerse™ walkies with Arwen… But then I realized the biggest difference: the ease of the walks with my old gall. She could go off-leash, she would stay close and be calm, and I was able to relax (and play with my phone at times, while she was getting her sniffs in)… But with Koa, there’s no calm, there is no real relaxing just yet. He pulls me all the ways, he will not chill and just follow me, just yet… And that made me feel a bit sad. I missed my gall a bit more, while I was annoyed with myself for not being able to enjoy this time with Koa now.

When we got back from walkies, we got to the couch, and we tried to relax a bit with some telly. I was struggling a bit with my brain. Part of it was feeling too exhausted to do things, the other part was annoyed with me not doing things. It was something I could not really “win”, so I tried to distract myself with some online scrolling with the telly on as well.

After a little while, I went upstairs to ride my bike, which I almost managed for half an hour. I got back down, walked Koa and fed him. We tried to relax some more, as this morning, someone from the rental coop was coming to fix several things in the house. Yay for that! I had a big time slot, so I hoped that he (or she) would be starting in our neighborhood. It was going to be a hot day, I was already struggling with light and sound, and I just wanted to “close it all off”, so I would be less overwhelmed by the things of the day today.

I was fortunate, as the man came to our place first. Koa was all excited, and then all bummed, because he was not allowed to “help” the man with his job. At one point, Koa was whining next to the couch. I thought he was upset, because he heard the man in the hallway, and I told him things were OK. He went quiet for a bit, and then he whined again. One of those that pulled your heart-strings… So, I looked at him, and… While I told him that things were OK and there was nothing to be sad about… One of his upper fangs fell out of his mouth! He looked sooooo sad and confused. I picked up the little tooth, and I hugged the little dude as much as he allowed.

When the repair man was done with the walls of the guest-loo, he came into the living room to tackle the window handle issue. It proved to be a bit of a chore, but, he managed to fix it, yay! When he was done with all, I got a text saying that he was on his way to my house… Hmm, I think that the system wasn’t set up right, as I would have preferred that message when he was actually coming to my place, not when he was leaving it, haha.

I walked with Koa, and we relaxed together. I felt to exhausted and unmotivated and I didn’t know why. I tried to read a bit for a while, which was nice, but also hard to focus on. I snacked way too much, but, I also made some food that could be seen as a “wee bit healthy”, well, healthier than what I had been consuming, anyway…

Koa and I went out for another walk, after he had enjoyed his meal, and it was so hot… We quickly went inside again, and got ready to relax in bed. There was noise coming from outside, and it was causing me to get this very annoying headache. I could not filter it out, and it was driving me nuts. So, I hoped that I could just doze off, so that I would not be bothered by it anymore. And, after a while, I did…

I woke up a few times, partially due to Koa, partially due to my body. And, when I woke up again, feeling all sore, and a bit nauseated, I just had to get up, and we started our “day” a little earlier than I had hoped.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾

#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

#Journal of a slightly tired Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesday, 29/07/2026).

We didn’t have a bad night, until my body decided it was time to get up and start our “day”. We started with the usual routine. I got dressed, took my meds, and fed the dude. We went to the couch, where I got my laptop, and started my email to my sweet friend. When I was done, I made some brekkie, and enjoyed it while I started working on my journal toot. As I still felt a wee bit tired, I took Koa for a short walk, and then we went back to the couch again.

I finished up my journal post and uploaded it to all the usual places. After some relaxing with a bit of telly, I tried to motivate myself to take Koa on a proper walk. I wondered why I struggled to get ready for it, as I used to love the SniffiVerse™ walkies with Arwen… But then I realized the biggest difference: the ease of the walks with my old gall. She could go off-leash, she would stay close and be calm, and I was able to relax (and play with my phone at times, while she was getting her sniffs in)… But with Koa, there’s no calm, there is no real relaxing just yet. He pulls me all the ways, he will not chill and just follow me, just yet… And that made me feel a bit sad. I missed my gall a bit more, while I was annoyed with myself for not being able to enjoy this time with Koa now.

When we got back from walkies, we got to the couch, and we tried to relax a bit with some telly. I was struggling a bit with my brain. Part of it was feeling too exhausted to do things, the other part was annoyed with me not doing things. It was something I could not really “win”, so I tried to distract myself with some online scrolling with the telly on as well.

After a little while, I went upstairs to ride my bike, which I almost managed for half an hour. I got back down, walked Koa and fed him. We tried to relax some more, as this morning, someone from the rental coop was coming to fix several things in the house. Yay for that! I had a big time slot, so I hoped that he (or she) would be starting in our neighborhood. It was going to be a hot day, I was already struggling with light and sound, and I just wanted to “close it all off”, so I would be less overwhelmed by the things of the day today.

I was fortunate, as the man came to our place first. Koa was all excited, and then all bummed, because he was not allowed to “help” the man with his job. At one point, Koa was whining next to the couch. I thought he was upset, because he heard the man in the hallway, and I told him things were OK. He went quiet for a bit, and then he whined again. One of those that pulled your heart-strings… So, I looked at him, and… While I told him that things were OK and there was nothing to be sad about… One of his upper fangs fell out of his mouth! He looked sooooo sad and confused. I picked up the little tooth, and I hugged the little dude as much as he allowed.

When the repair man was done with the walls of the guest-loo, he came into the living room to tackle the window handle issue. It proved to be a bit of a chore, but, he managed to fix it, yay! When he was done with all, I got a text saying that he was on his way to my house… Hmm, I think that the system wasn’t set up right, as I would have preferred that message when he was actually coming to my place, not when he was leaving it, haha.

I walked with Koa, and we relaxed together. I felt to exhausted and unmotivated and I didn’t know why. I tried to read a bit for a while, which was nice, but also hard to focus on. I snacked way too much, but, I also made some food that could be seen as a “wee bit healthy”, well, healthier than what I had been consuming, anyway…

Koa and I went out for another walk, after he had enjoyed his meal, and it was so hot… We quickly went inside again, and got ready to relax in bed. There was noise coming from outside, and it was causing me to get this very annoying headache. I could not filter it out, and it was driving me nuts. So, I hoped that I could just doze off, so that I would not be bothered by it anymore. And, after a while, I did…

I woke up a few times, partially due to Koa, partially due to my body. And, when I woke up again, feeling all sore, and a bit nauseated, I just had to get up, and we started our “day” a little earlier than I had hoped.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾

#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

#Journal of a slightly exhausted Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Tuesday, 28/07/2026).

After a very busy Monday, we had a decent sleep. When we woke up again, I felt a bit broken. As in, my back was more sore, my leg was not all there, and my head was in a woozy state, that showed me how much the hard work from the previous day had cost me. But, looking into the garden, seeing all that artificial grass, well, it looks so much better than the root fabric did… So, it was all worth it. But, it did mean that today needed to be a relaxed day, so I could try and help my body to recover from it all.

We got up, I got dressed, took my meds, and then I prepped Koa’s meal. After he was done with it, we went to the couch, where I got my laptop, and I started my email to my sweet friend. When I was finished with the email, I made myself some brekkie. I started my journal toot while enjoying the brekkie. After the food had been enjoyed, I got ready to take Koa for a walk.

As we both were rather tired, Koa and I opted for a shorter SniffiVerse™ walkies this evening/night. When we got back, we were both rather tired. Koa got to snooze on the couch some more, while I finished up the journal toot. I uploaded it in all the right places, and then I put the laptop away.

I worked a bit on my blog site, and edited a few pictures, while watching a new (to me) season of Criminal Minds on TV. After some time, Koa and I went for another walk, a shorter one, and then I fixed some more food for him. We relaxed a bit more, and then I went upstairs to ride my bike for a while. Koa allowed me to ride a full half hour, guess he was still rather tired, as he didn’t even try anything naughty…

When I got back, I was a bit tired, so I relaxed for a while, before taking Koa on another walk. We got back, and I tried to relax my back a bit on bed, with my tablet. I had to go to the store, so when it was nearly opening, I got ready to take Skoosh there. I got my groceries, and quickly headed back home again. I made myself some food, walked with Koa, and then, I tried to relax for a while, as I just felt so exhausted.

I watched a lot of the new, to me at least, season of Criminal Minds. There were some very sad episodes in the bunch, and it had me think about some things, and I even started a blog post based on some of those thoughts.

I was waiting on a parcel to be delivered, and when they had come, and gone, I got ready to head to bed. I was so tired, and my body was so sore… It took a little while to doze off, but when I did, it felt nice. I woke up when Koa was whining a bit, and then I let him out, and it took a while before he did his thing. We went back to bed, and I dozed off quickly enough.

Unfortunately, I woke up again a bit too early for my liking, but… My belly and back needed me to take some actions, as they both hurt me in their own ways. So, I got up, and Koa and I started our new “day”.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾

#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

#Journal of a slightly exhausted Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Tuesday, 28/07/2026).

After a very busy Monday, we had a decent sleep. When we woke up again, I felt a bit broken. As in, my back was more sore, my leg was not all there, and my head was in a woozy state, that showed me how much the hard work from the previous day had cost me. But, looking into the garden, seeing all that artificial grass, well, it looks so much better than the root fabric did… So, it was all worth it. But, it did mean that today needed to be a relaxed day, so I could try and help my body to recover from it all.

We got up, I got dressed, took my meds, and then I prepped Koa’s meal. After he was done with it, we went to the couch, where I got my laptop, and I started my email to my sweet friend. When I was finished with the email, I made myself some brekkie. I started my journal toot while enjoying the brekkie. After the food had been enjoyed, I got ready to take Koa for a walk.

As we both were rather tired, Koa and I opted for a shorter SniffiVerse™ walkies this evening/night. When we got back, we were both rather tired. Koa got to snooze on the couch some more, while I finished up the journal toot. I uploaded it in all the right places, and then I put the laptop away.

I worked a bit on my blog site, and edited a few pictures, while watching a new (to me) season of Criminal Minds on TV. After some time, Koa and I went for another walk, a shorter one, and then I fixed some more food for him. We relaxed a bit more, and then I went upstairs to ride my bike for a while. Koa allowed me to ride a full half hour, guess he was still rather tired, as he didn’t even try anything naughty…

When I got back, I was a bit tired, so I relaxed for a while, before taking Koa on another walk. We got back, and I tried to relax my back a bit on bed, with my tablet. I had to go to the store, so when it was nearly opening, I got ready to take Skoosh there. I got my groceries, and quickly headed back home again. I made myself some food, walked with Koa, and then, I tried to relax for a while, as I just felt so exhausted.

I watched a lot of the new, to me at least, season of Criminal Minds. There were some very sad episodes in the bunch, and it had me think about some things, and I even started a blog post based on some of those thoughts.

I was waiting on a parcel to be delivered, and when they had come, and gone, I got ready to head to bed. I was so tired, and my body was so sore… It took a little while to doze off, but when I did, it felt nice. I woke up when Koa was whining a bit, and then I let him out, and it took a while before he did his thing. We went back to bed, and I dozed off quickly enough.

Unfortunately, I woke up again a bit too early for my liking, but… My belly and back needed me to take some actions, as they both hurt me in their own ways. So, I got up, and Koa and I started our new “day”.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾

#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

This was on Hacker News today and it's about fucking time. I feel this in my bones, I'm living it right now, and it's unlikely to change much if at all.

The only thing separating me from becoming this guy is years worked, money saved along the way, and, so, a comparatively enormous buffer. Privilege.

#actuallyaudhd #actuallyautistic
https://itsmevox.substack.com/p/im-38-and-i-cant-support-myself-anymore

This was on Hacker News today and it's about fucking time. I feel this in my bones, I'm living it right now, and it's unlikely to change much if at all.

The only thing separating me from becoming this guy is years worked, money saved along the way, and, so, a comparatively enormous buffer. Privilege.

#actuallyaudhd #actuallyautistic
https://itsmevox.substack.com/p/im-38-and-i-cant-support-myself-anymore

#Journal of a very sore, but also excited, Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Monday, 27/07/2026).

I didn’t have a very bad night, but I woke up a little earlier than I had hoped, and my back and bowels told me that it was time to get up, so… I did just that. The scale wasn’t as bad as I had thought it would be, and I got dressed. I fixed Koa’s meal, and took my meds. Then, we headed to the couch, where I started on my email to my sweet friend. When I was done, I fixed some brekkie, and I started on my journal toot. After brekkie was finished, I put away the laptop, and got ready for a walk with Koa.

We walked the little longer SniffiVerse™ walkies again, a little over 2km, and Koa did great. When we got back, I hoped that Koa would be tired enough to snooze some, but his teefs were still bothering him, so I gave him a frozen banana lickimat. After that, he settled down for a while, and I was able to finish the journal bit. When it was uploaded to all the usual places, I put away the laptop.

I watched some telly, while I edited a few Koa snaps on my phone, and while I worked a bit on a blog post. Koa and I went out for a short walkies, and then he got his meal. I fixed some food too, as I was feeling rather hungry. After the meal, I went upstairs, and took down, and folded, the dry laundry. I took it downstairs with me, and put it on the bed.

I tried to relax for a while, as today was going to be a long day, with the coach coming first, and then my friend coming to help me with the back garden. So, after the chores were done for a bit, Koa and I went to the bedroom, where we relaxed for a little while. When my brain got too jumpy from “doing nothing”, I got up again, walked Koa, tried to clean a bit, and then I watched TV until the doorbell rang, and the coach arrived.

We started on the papers that needed to be in order, which was quite some work… I had not expected bestie just yet, as I got her text late, so I thought she was running late. When the doorbell went about 10 minutes later, I was very surprised when it was her. I was finishing up with the coach, and bestie took Koa out for a little walk. When they got back, we were rounding up things as well. So, the coach left, and bestie, and I got ready to start the hard work.

There was some rain, but it quickly ended, and we went outside. We started by pulling out all the pins, and then I had to take of the little turf that Koa had been using a lot. I tried to put it in the container, and with some wiggling, it went in. It was a smelly job, even with all the rinsing I had given the turf. The root-fabric came off, and bestie started the hard work of raking the soil. We have a clay soil, and the area was quite bumpy. I found a little slat, that bestie could use to level the soil with, as much as possible. While she was doing that, I fixed up some lunch.

After a break we started with putting the fabric back. We added a few new bits to really close it off as good as possible. Then, we started adding the grass. Cutting it to the right size was a bit challenging, but we managed to get it all in. Around 2pm, we were dead and done. And, Koa was allowed to break in the new grass with a new ball… That didn’t last him too long haha. But, I took a little video, and he seemed to love it, running around like an idiot, haha.

Bestie got ready to head home again, And then Koa and I got ready to head to bed, as we were both rather tired. It didn’t take too long for Koa to start snoozing, and a little while after that, I was able to get comfy, and doze off too. I woke up once, for the loo, and Koa was still snoring peacefully. When I woke up again, it was just after 23, which meant that Koa had gone without a potty break for about 8 hours! He must have been really tired (and getting better at controlling his bladder). I quickly got up to let him out, and together, we started our new “day”.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾

#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

#Journal of a very sore, but also excited, Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Monday, 27/07/2026).

I didn’t have a very bad night, but I woke up a little earlier than I had hoped, and my back and bowels told me that it was time to get up, so… I did just that. The scale wasn’t as bad as I had thought it would be, and I got dressed. I fixed Koa’s meal, and took my meds. Then, we headed to the couch, where I started on my email to my sweet friend. When I was done, I fixed some brekkie, and I started on my journal toot. After brekkie was finished, I put away the laptop, and got ready for a walk with Koa.

We walked the little longer SniffiVerse™ walkies again, a little over 2km, and Koa did great. When we got back, I hoped that Koa would be tired enough to snooze some, but his teefs were still bothering him, so I gave him a frozen banana lickimat. After that, he settled down for a while, and I was able to finish the journal bit. When it was uploaded to all the usual places, I put away the laptop.

I watched some telly, while I edited a few Koa snaps on my phone, and while I worked a bit on a blog post. Koa and I went out for a short walkies, and then he got his meal. I fixed some food too, as I was feeling rather hungry. After the meal, I went upstairs, and took down, and folded, the dry laundry. I took it downstairs with me, and put it on the bed.

I tried to relax for a while, as today was going to be a long day, with the coach coming first, and then my friend coming to help me with the back garden. So, after the chores were done for a bit, Koa and I went to the bedroom, where we relaxed for a little while. When my brain got too jumpy from “doing nothing”, I got up again, walked Koa, tried to clean a bit, and then I watched TV until the doorbell rang, and the coach arrived.

We started on the papers that needed to be in order, which was quite some work… I had not expected bestie just yet, as I got her text late, so I thought she was running late. When the doorbell went about 10 minutes later, I was very surprised when it was her. I was finishing up with the coach, and bestie took Koa out for a little walk. When they got back, we were rounding up things as well. So, the coach left, and bestie, and I got ready to start the hard work.

There was some rain, but it quickly ended, and we went outside. We started by pulling out all the pins, and then I had to take of the little turf that Koa had been using a lot. I tried to put it in the container, and with some wiggling, it went in. It was a smelly job, even with all the rinsing I had given the turf. The root-fabric came off, and bestie started the hard work of raking the soil. We have a clay soil, and the area was quite bumpy. I found a little slat, that bestie could use to level the soil with, as much as possible. While she was doing that, I fixed up some lunch.

After a break we started with putting the fabric back. We added a few new bits to really close it off as good as possible. Then, we started adding the grass. Cutting it to the right size was a bit challenging, but we managed to get it all in. Around 2pm, we were dead and done. And, Koa was allowed to break in the new grass with a new ball… That didn’t last him too long haha. But, I took a little video, and he seemed to love it, running around like an idiot, haha.

Bestie got ready to head home again, And then Koa and I got ready to head to bed, as we were both rather tired. It didn’t take too long for Koa to start snoozing, and a little while after that, I was able to get comfy, and doze off too. I woke up once, for the loo, and Koa was still snoring peacefully. When I woke up again, it was just after 23, which meant that Koa had gone without a potty break for about 8 hours! He must have been really tired (and getting better at controlling his bladder). I quickly got up to let him out, and together, we started our new “day”.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾

#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

#Journal of a hot & cold Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Sunday, 26/07/2026).

I didn’t have a too bad night. Koa seems to be getting better at sleeping longer periods of time, which is a nice thing to happen… But, I did struggle with my body, both my back and my belly, unfortunately. So when I got up, I had to deal with that first, before I could get to the scale, dress, deal with my meds, and fix Koa’s food. When Koa finished his meal, we went to the couch, where I got my laptop, and started my email to my sweet friend.

When I was finished, I got some brekkie, and I started my journal toot. After brekkie was done, Koa wanted to head out for walkies, so we went for the SniffiVerse™ round. We walked a little different this time, adding a wee bit more distance. Koa did excellent, and when we got back, I hoped that he was tired enough, so I could finish my journal toot. It took a little longer than I thought, for Koa to settle down. I popped in the 5th Ice Age Movie, and then I was able to finish the toot. I uploaded it to all the usual places, and then I put the laptop away.

I used my phone to work on a blog post for a bit. When the movie ended, I took them upstairs, and brought a few Muppet movies downstairs with me. I popped one in the player, and watched it while I tried to relax. When the movie had ended, Koa and I went out on another little walk. When we got back, I fixed some food for Koa, and then I went upstairs to ride my bike for a little while. This time, Koa allowed it, so I managed to get half an hour in.

Back downstairs, I had some food, and Koa and I tried to relax for a little bit. I felt a bit like crap, as my temperature fluctuated again and again, and my tummy wasn’t playing too nicely either. I fixed myself some food, but before I could finish it, I got so nauseated… Well, we all know what happens then…

I felt even worse after that, and I decided to go to bed for a while. Not so sleep, but to calm down, and try to get my body relaxed again. I was really not feeling too well, and I was afraid that I’d not be in any state to help my friend with my mess when she’d come. I texted her and told her I was worried that I may not be in any state to help, but that I would try if she’d still be willing to come. And, she came…

She made a start on the cupboard, and told me to sit back, and make sure that Koa would not be in the way too much. Which I tried. We had a little break, and walked with Koa, and then she finished it all for me. It looked so easy, and I wish I could have done it on my own, but yeah… Nope… We chatted for a while, and then she offered to take out some of the weeds that had been bugging me. And, she went so fast, making it look so easy again. And, while I was super grateful for all the help, I also struggled a bit, because I felt so “stupid” for not being able to do these “simple” things myself. So yeah… It was a bit of a double set of emotions.

My friend offered to walk with Koa, and then she headed back home again. I was so tired, that, after Koa had his meal, we went to bed. I wanted to watch some Criminal Minds and try to relax my sore body. But, within a few minutes, I was already snoozing. When I woke up again, I startled myself, as I had not thought I was that bad… But, I got to the loo, put away my tablet, and I went back to sleep.

Koa is doing so much better these days, being able to sleep longer with less potty breaks. When I woke up again, it was still a bit early. Another hour, maybe two even, would have been very welcome. But, my body was sore, my tummy was upset too, and Koa wanted to go out now. So, we got up, and we started our “day” a little earlier than planned.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾

#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

#Journal of a hot & cold Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Sunday, 26/07/2026).

I didn’t have a too bad night. Koa seems to be getting better at sleeping longer periods of time, which is a nice thing to happen… But, I did struggle with my body, both my back and my belly, unfortunately. So when I got up, I had to deal with that first, before I could get to the scale, dress, deal with my meds, and fix Koa’s food. When Koa finished his meal, we went to the couch, where I got my laptop, and started my email to my sweet friend.

When I was finished, I got some brekkie, and I started my journal toot. After brekkie was done, Koa wanted to head out for walkies, so we went for the SniffiVerse™ round. We walked a little different this time, adding a wee bit more distance. Koa did excellent, and when we got back, I hoped that he was tired enough, so I could finish my journal toot. It took a little longer than I thought, for Koa to settle down. I popped in the 5th Ice Age Movie, and then I was able to finish the toot. I uploaded it to all the usual places, and then I put the laptop away.

I used my phone to work on a blog post for a bit. When the movie ended, I took them upstairs, and brought a few Muppet movies downstairs with me. I popped one in the player, and watched it while I tried to relax. When the movie had ended, Koa and I went out on another little walk. When we got back, I fixed some food for Koa, and then I went upstairs to ride my bike for a little while. This time, Koa allowed it, so I managed to get half an hour in.

Back downstairs, I had some food, and Koa and I tried to relax for a little bit. I felt a bit like crap, as my temperature fluctuated again and again, and my tummy wasn’t playing too nicely either. I fixed myself some food, but before I could finish it, I got so nauseated… Well, we all know what happens then…

I felt even worse after that, and I decided to go to bed for a while. Not so sleep, but to calm down, and try to get my body relaxed again. I was really not feeling too well, and I was afraid that I’d not be in any state to help my friend with my mess when she’d come. I texted her and told her I was worried that I may not be in any state to help, but that I would try if she’d still be willing to come. And, she came…

She made a start on the cupboard, and told me to sit back, and make sure that Koa would not be in the way too much. Which I tried. We had a little break, and walked with Koa, and then she finished it all for me. It looked so easy, and I wish I could have done it on my own, but yeah… Nope… We chatted for a while, and then she offered to take out some of the weeds that had been bugging me. And, she went so fast, making it look so easy again. And, while I was super grateful for all the help, I also struggled a bit, because I felt so “stupid” for not being able to do these “simple” things myself. So yeah… It was a bit of a double set of emotions.

My friend offered to walk with Koa, and then she headed back home again. I was so tired, that, after Koa had his meal, we went to bed. I wanted to watch some Criminal Minds and try to relax my sore body. But, within a few minutes, I was already snoozing. When I woke up again, I startled myself, as I had not thought I was that bad… But, I got to the loo, put away my tablet, and I went back to sleep.

Koa is doing so much better these days, being able to sleep longer with less potty breaks. When I woke up again, it was still a bit early. Another hour, maybe two even, would have been very welcome. But, my body was sore, my tummy was upset too, and Koa wanted to go out now. So, we got up, and we started our “day” a little earlier than planned.

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#Journal of a slightly tired but OK Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 25/07/2026).

It wasn’t the worst night, although my back and bowels were making things a bit more challenging. But, I managed to get a wee bit of sleep, so when Koa told me it was time to get up, getting up is what we did. I got dressed, took my meds, and fed Koa. After the dude had been fed, we went to the couch, where I grabbed my laptop, so I could write an email to my sweet friend.

Koa was a bit restless, as I guess his teefs were/are giving him issues. It’s not easy, getting your adult molars and such... I watched Ice Age 2 while I wrote the email. When I had sent the email, I fixed some brekkie, and started on my journal toot. When food had been enjoyed, I took Koa out on a little SniffiVerse™ walkies. It’s nice to be able to get the short nightly walks in with Koa, but it’s also a bit emotional, as it reminds me of my sweet gall...

When we got back, it took a little while for Koa to settle down, and I was able to write the rest of my journal toot. After that, I put away the laptop, and I relaxed with the third Ice Age movie. After that movie had ended, Koa and I went for a short walk, and we fixed something to eat. I tried to ride my bike for a while, but Koa wasn’t too pleased with me. So, after a shorter time than I’d hoped for, I had to get back downstairs again.

I loaded the washing machine, and let it do its work. When it was done, I went upstairs again, to hang it all out. Of course, Koa was quiet about it now... I got back downstairs, and tried to relax a little bit. When it was near 8, I got to Skoosh, and headed to the supermarket. Of course, I got back home, without the bananas I’d promised Koa, again... Ugh, stupid brain. I walked with Koa again, and then I tried to relax for a while.

I tried to hose down Koa’s artificial grass again, and had my camera ready, as Koa went nuts! I tried to get a nice little video of it, and then I went to bed for a while, as I was so exhausted. I didn’t sleep, but I managed to take a bit too many screengrabs from the video of silly jumping Koa...

When my back felt a bit better again, I got the little vacuum and I tried to clean the downstairs area as good as I could. Which was challenging, as Koa was there, trying to “help” me, by trying to attack and grab the tube...

After some time, I fed Koa, and we got ready to head to bed again. First to relax and then to snooze. It took a little while for me to doze off. I woke up twice due to Koa. The second time, my back and bowels told me it was time to get up, so, we got up, and started our “day” a little earlier than I had hoped for...

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#Journal of a slightly tired but OK Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 25/07/2026).

It wasn’t the worst night, although my back and bowels were making things a bit more challenging. But, I managed to get a wee bit of sleep, so when Koa told me it was time to get up, getting up is what we did. I got dressed, took my meds, and fed Koa. After the dude had been fed, we went to the couch, where I grabbed my laptop, so I could write an email to my sweet friend.

Koa was a bit restless, as I guess his teefs were/are giving him issues. It’s not easy, getting your adult molars and such... I watched Ice Age 2 while I wrote the email. When I had sent the email, I fixed some brekkie, and started on my journal toot. When food had been enjoyed, I took Koa out on a little SniffiVerse™ walkies. It’s nice to be able to get the short nightly walks in with Koa, but it’s also a bit emotional, as it reminds me of my sweet gall...

When we got back, it took a little while for Koa to settle down, and I was able to write the rest of my journal toot. After that, I put away the laptop, and I relaxed with the third Ice Age movie. After that movie had ended, Koa and I went for a short walk, and we fixed something to eat. I tried to ride my bike for a while, but Koa wasn’t too pleased with me. So, after a shorter time than I’d hoped for, I had to get back downstairs again.

I loaded the washing machine, and let it do its work. When it was done, I went upstairs again, to hang it all out. Of course, Koa was quiet about it now... I got back downstairs, and tried to relax a little bit. When it was near 8, I got to Skoosh, and headed to the supermarket. Of course, I got back home, without the bananas I’d promised Koa, again... Ugh, stupid brain. I walked with Koa again, and then I tried to relax for a while.

I tried to hose down Koa’s artificial grass again, and had my camera ready, as Koa went nuts! I tried to get a nice little video of it, and then I went to bed for a while, as I was so exhausted. I didn’t sleep, but I managed to take a bit too many screengrabs from the video of silly jumping Koa...

When my back felt a bit better again, I got the little vacuum and I tried to clean the downstairs area as good as I could. Which was challenging, as Koa was there, trying to “help” me, by trying to attack and grab the tube...

After some time, I fed Koa, and we got ready to head to bed again. First to relax and then to snooze. It took a little while for me to doze off. I woke up twice due to Koa. The second time, my back and bowels told me it was time to get up, so, we got up, and started our “day” a little earlier than I had hoped for...

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#Journal of a slightly better Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 24/07/2026).

I didn’t have the best night, somehow, my body wasn’t too keen on letting me sleep in a comfortable way. I slept for a little less than 7 hours in total, according to my watch. But, when it was time to start our “day”, we did just that. I got dressed, took my meds, and fixed Koa’s meal. When Koa was finished, we headed to the couch. I got my laptop, and started writing an email to my sweet friend. Koa was struggling a bit with his teething, still dealing with several molars and his fangs. I hope that they’ll get exchanged soon, as its not only causing Koa issues, it’s troubling me as well, as Koa keep whining and trying to bite me more.

When I had finished the email, I fixed myself some food, and I started writing my journal toot. When brekkie was done, Koa and I went out for a nice walk. It was a longer walk, and the first time we walked it, so it was a bit exciting and scary for Koa. But he did really well, and when we got back, both of us were quite tired. I got back to my laptop, and I finished writing my journal toot. After that was uploaded everywhere, I put away the laptop, and I got my phone. I managed to take several funny screengrabs from the water-hose video of Koa from Thursday. I had AI help me to write some alt texts, and then I shared several of the pictures on Pixelfed.

I watched the Farmageddon movie, a Shaun the Sheep one, and then I popped in the DVD of Ice Age. I tried to relax with it, while scrolling through Masto, and trying to catch up here and there. After a bit, I got upstairs, and I rode the bike for a while. I had wanted to ride for half an hour, but somehow, after 15 minutes, my back just had enough of it all. I really hate being out of shape so much…

I went back downstairs, walked with Koa, and then we tried to relax for a while. My back was annoying me, and I didn’t like it. After some relaxing with some Criminal Minds on my tablet. Koa and I went out for another walk. We played a little, and I watched some more telly. I had promised to take my neighbors' son to the train-station in the next town this morning, so I was waiting till it was time to get ready for that. But, Koa let me know he needed to go out a little earlier, so we went out.

I texted the neighbor that we were at the grassy field, and her son opened the gate, and let us in. Koa went inside and started to explore… He still doesn’t understand why the big black dude isn’t around anymore. When he found the old dog bed, he sniffed it and started looking again. It made me a bit sad, but it also reminded me of the big black fluff, after Arwen had passed away.

When the son was ready, we went to Skoosh, and the neighbor took Koa out for a walk. The son needed something from the store, and while he was inside, I set up the navigation. Then, we were on our way. He got to the station safe and sound, and I headed back home. When I had parked, I checked Koa’s GPS app, and I saw he and the neighbor were close to home as well. We chatted for a bit, and then we went back home.

Koa got his snuffle-mat, and then we relaxed for a while. Some more telly time… I was rather tired, and my back was sore. I really need a better couch, as this one is not good for my back… So, after a while, I fed Koa, and let him out. Then, we headed to bed early. Not to sleep yet, but to be able to relax my back better. But… By bowels started to really act up, and well, I was not a happy Pixy…

After some time, it got better, and I was able to relax. I read my book, and then, I dozed off. I woke up again when the electric swatter had managed to protect me from another buzzing terrorist. Although, it may have been after they had gotten to me… I went to the loo, struggled a bit again, and then took Koa out. He had a drink, and went outside, but… He wasn’t interested into doing anything… So, after a few minutes, we got back to bed again. When the swatter fried another terrorist, it woke me up again, and as my body was sore, I decided it was time to get up, and start our “day”.

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#Journal of a slightly better Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 24/07/2026).

I didn’t have the best night, somehow, my body wasn’t too keen on letting me sleep in a comfortable way. I slept for a little less than 7 hours in total, according to my watch. But, when it was time to start our “day”, we did just that. I got dressed, took my meds, and fixed Koa’s meal. When Koa was finished, we headed to the couch. I got my laptop, and started writing an email to my sweet friend. Koa was struggling a bit with his teething, still dealing with several molars and his fangs. I hope that they’ll get exchanged soon, as its not only causing Koa issues, it’s troubling me as well, as Koa keep whining and trying to bite me more.

When I had finished the email, I fixed myself some food, and I started writing my journal toot. When brekkie was done, Koa and I went out for a nice walk. It was a longer walk, and the first time we walked it, so it was a bit exciting and scary for Koa. But he did really well, and when we got back, both of us were quite tired. I got back to my laptop, and I finished writing my journal toot. After that was uploaded everywhere, I put away the laptop, and I got my phone. I managed to take several funny screengrabs from the water-hose video of Koa from Thursday. I had AI help me to write some alt texts, and then I shared several of the pictures on Pixelfed.

I watched the Farmageddon movie, a Shaun the Sheep one, and then I popped in the DVD of Ice Age. I tried to relax with it, while scrolling through Masto, and trying to catch up here and there. After a bit, I got upstairs, and I rode the bike for a while. I had wanted to ride for half an hour, but somehow, after 15 minutes, my back just had enough of it all. I really hate being out of shape so much…

I went back downstairs, walked with Koa, and then we tried to relax for a while. My back was annoying me, and I didn’t like it. After some relaxing with some Criminal Minds on my tablet. Koa and I went out for another walk. We played a little, and I watched some more telly. I had promised to take my neighbors' son to the train-station in the next town this morning, so I was waiting till it was time to get ready for that. But, Koa let me know he needed to go out a little earlier, so we went out.

I texted the neighbor that we were at the grassy field, and her son opened the gate, and let us in. Koa went inside and started to explore… He still doesn’t understand why the big black dude isn’t around anymore. When he found the old dog bed, he sniffed it and started looking again. It made me a bit sad, but it also reminded me of the big black fluff, after Arwen had passed away.

When the son was ready, we went to Skoosh, and the neighbor took Koa out for a walk. The son needed something from the store, and while he was inside, I set up the navigation. Then, we were on our way. He got to the station safe and sound, and I headed back home. When I had parked, I checked Koa’s GPS app, and I saw he and the neighbor were close to home as well. We chatted for a bit, and then we went back home.

Koa got his snuffle-mat, and then we relaxed for a while. Some more telly time… I was rather tired, and my back was sore. I really need a better couch, as this one is not good for my back… So, after a while, I fed Koa, and let him out. Then, we headed to bed early. Not to sleep yet, but to be able to relax my back better. But… By bowels started to really act up, and well, I was not a happy Pixy…

After some time, it got better, and I was able to relax. I read my book, and then, I dozed off. I woke up again when the electric swatter had managed to protect me from another buzzing terrorist. Although, it may have been after they had gotten to me… I went to the loo, struggled a bit again, and then took Koa out. He had a drink, and went outside, but… He wasn’t interested into doing anything… So, after a few minutes, we got back to bed again. When the swatter fried another terrorist, it woke me up again, and as my body was sore, I decided it was time to get up, and start our “day”.

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#Journal of a very much bläh feeling Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesday, 22/07/2026).

I didn’t have a very bad night, but every time I woke up, my back was not kind to me. And I couldn’t understand why it was more sore now, as I had taken my meds, and I had used the knee pillow, and I had been up every few hours… So, yeah, when we got up, I didn’t feel too good. Unfortunately, this kinda set the tone for the rest of the day… 😢

I got up, dressed, took my meds, and prepped Koa’s meal. When he’d finished, we got to the couch, where I got my laptop, and I started on an email to my sweet friend. Somehow, I got into babbling mode, and my email got to be a bit long… So I hoped that my friend would not mind… When I sent the mail, I fixed some brekkie. Koa wanted out for a short walk, and when we got back, I finished my journal toot. It got uploaded to the usual places, and I put away the laptop.

The new electronic flyswatter, although you don’t really have to swat with it, as that would break it, is doing a good job. Maybe not great, but since I’ve had it, it managed to kill some buzzing terrorists 🦟 on its own with the cradle-UV-function. And, I have been able to “catch” a few of the bloodsuckers, and they fried with a big pop. I still have enough small lumps from all the bites they got, but hopefully, with the help of this nice “swatter”, there will be less of the beasts to pester me.

Koa and I relaxed a bit with some more Criminal Minds, and I gave Koa his frozen banana lickimat. He now knew what to expect, and dove in when he saw it. But, I felt off, like it all didn’t matter. Like it was all too much. I had all these ideas, and there was just no motivation, no energy, to get things done. Even the hugs and cuddles with Koa didn’t seem to make me feel better.

I took Koa on several walkies, got him and myself some food. But even though I felt hungry, I also felt nauseated a bit, which is not a good combination. I tried to relax as much as I could, getting to bed for a bit with my phone and tablet, trying to clear out my head. I wrote some for my blog, which was nice, but also still hard, since the bully’s remark over my posts all being AI-made clickbait slop… 😢 And yeah, I use AI made images. And, sometimes I ask AI to help me with putting texts together that I copied from different websites. But, the words, spelling mistakes, errors, and all… They are mine. The experiences, the journey I write about, it’s all real… And by dismissing it as slop, due to my image… Well, it hurt me a whole lot. I have blocked the asshat, and I know I should “just” move on, but every time I sit down to write for my blog, something in the back of my head goes “why make the effort, it’s slop anyway”. 😭

I didn’t do too much today. I felt bad, I had issues with my temperature, as one moment I was all sweaty, and the next, I felt so cold. I wanted to just confine myself to a dark and quiet place, and wait for it all to “pass by”, and I could feel better again. Which, of course, wasn’t possible, as I had to care for Koa. So, I did my best, and I think Koa thought it was OK enough, as he kept giving me all the nibbles and kisses… Some nibbles did hurt, but yeah… I wanted to be there for Koa, so I tried to do the best I could…

After some time, Koa and I just went to bed, and I think Koa noticed I needed some rest, because he was snoozing before I knew it. It took me a little while to doze off. About 90 minutes later, Koa woke me up with a bark. I let him out, and he had a bit to drink. He went outside, but didn’t seem too interested in doing anything more than cuddling and sniffing. So, after a few minutes, we got back to bed again.

A few hours later, Koa woke me up again, and now, he needed a wee. After a bit, we got back to bed. Unfortunately, I only got about an hour more sleep in, as then a buzzing terrorist decided that buzzing around my head was a good idea… I tried to wave him towards the UV, but no such luck. So, after about 6 hours of sleep, we got up, and we started our “day”.

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#Journal of a very much bläh feeling Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesday, 22/07/2026).

I didn’t have a very bad night, but every time I woke up, my back was not kind to me. And I couldn’t understand why it was more sore now, as I had taken my meds, and I had used the knee pillow, and I had been up every few hours… So, yeah, when we got up, I didn’t feel too good. Unfortunately, this kinda set the tone for the rest of the day… 😢

I got up, dressed, took my meds, and prepped Koa’s meal. When he’d finished, we got to the couch, where I got my laptop, and I started on an email to my sweet friend. Somehow, I got into babbling mode, and my email got to be a bit long… So I hoped that my friend would not mind… When I sent the mail, I fixed some brekkie. Koa wanted out for a short walk, and when we got back, I finished my journal toot. It got uploaded to the usual places, and I put away the laptop.

The new electronic flyswatter, although you don’t really have to swat with it, as that would break it, is doing a good job. Maybe not great, but since I’ve had it, it managed to kill some buzzing terrorists 🦟 on its own with the cradle-UV-function. And, I have been able to “catch” a few of the bloodsuckers, and they fried with a big pop. I still have enough small lumps from all the bites they got, but hopefully, with the help of this nice “swatter”, there will be less of the beasts to pester me.

Koa and I relaxed a bit with some more Criminal Minds, and I gave Koa his frozen banana lickimat. He now knew what to expect, and dove in when he saw it. But, I felt off, like it all didn’t matter. Like it was all too much. I had all these ideas, and there was just no motivation, no energy, to get things done. Even the hugs and cuddles with Koa didn’t seem to make me feel better.

I took Koa on several walkies, got him and myself some food. But even though I felt hungry, I also felt nauseated a bit, which is not a good combination. I tried to relax as much as I could, getting to bed for a bit with my phone and tablet, trying to clear out my head. I wrote some for my blog, which was nice, but also still hard, since the bully’s remark over my posts all being AI-made clickbait slop… 😢 And yeah, I use AI made images. And, sometimes I ask AI to help me with putting texts together that I copied from different websites. But, the words, spelling mistakes, errors, and all… They are mine. The experiences, the journey I write about, it’s all real… And by dismissing it as slop, due to my image… Well, it hurt me a whole lot. I have blocked the asshat, and I know I should “just” move on, but every time I sit down to write for my blog, something in the back of my head goes “why make the effort, it’s slop anyway”. 😭

I didn’t do too much today. I felt bad, I had issues with my temperature, as one moment I was all sweaty, and the next, I felt so cold. I wanted to just confine myself to a dark and quiet place, and wait for it all to “pass by”, and I could feel better again. Which, of course, wasn’t possible, as I had to care for Koa. So, I did my best, and I think Koa thought it was OK enough, as he kept giving me all the nibbles and kisses… Some nibbles did hurt, but yeah… I wanted to be there for Koa, so I tried to do the best I could…

After some time, Koa and I just went to bed, and I think Koa noticed I needed some rest, because he was snoozing before I knew it. It took me a little while to doze off. About 90 minutes later, Koa woke me up with a bark. I let him out, and he had a bit to drink. He went outside, but didn’t seem too interested in doing anything more than cuddling and sniffing. So, after a few minutes, we got back to bed again.

A few hours later, Koa woke me up again, and now, he needed a wee. After a bit, we got back to bed. Unfortunately, I only got about an hour more sleep in, as then a buzzing terrorist decided that buzzing around my head was a good idea… I tried to wave him towards the UV, but no such luck. So, after about 6 hours of sleep, we got up, and we started our “day”.

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#Journal of a slightly positive Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Tuesday, 21/07/2026).

After a not too bad night, we got up and started our day as usual. Well, I haven’t been using the scale a lot lately. It’s hard to stand still on it for a while, and I am afraid of what it will show me when I do use it… But, Koa and I got up, and we started our “day”. Just the usual bits, like getting dressed, taking meds, feeling the wild idiot, hihi. After that, we headed to the couch, where I got my laptop, and I started my email to my very sweet friend.

When I had finished it, I got some brekkie, and I started on my journal toot. Koa wanted to go out, so we went for a short walk, and then we got back, and I finished up with the journal bit. I uploaded it to all the usual places, and then I worked a bit on two new blog entries. It felt good to have some more posts done, as I was “running out” of scheduled posts. And I would hate to break my awesome daily posting streak… So, to have two more posts lined up, yeah, that made me feel a wee bit better. After that, I put away the laptop, and I tried to relax for a bit.

Koa was a bit restless, and he wanted to go out. I went into the garden with him, and while I sat down, I saw something white fall from his mouth. He wanted to grab it, and I asked him to let it go, so I could get it. And, above all my expectations, he moved away and let it be! When I picked it up, it was one of his puppy molars… That would explain the whining and being more restless. He was busy with losing more of his teefs. He already lost one molar, but I didn’t get that one.

We got back inside, and we tried to relax for a bit. Koa struggled a bit with the whole relaxing thing, but, after a little while, he managed to settle down, finally… So, we relaxed for a while, We went out for another short walk, and we relaxed again. Koa was really struggling with his teefs, so, I gave him his first frozen banana lickimat. I had no idea if he would like it but, once he tried it, and realized that he liked it a lot, and he attacked it like a mad puppy! I guess you could call it a big hit. And it helped him to cool his mouth a bit, which was a plus as well. Guess I will need to start getting some more bananas…

I made Koa some food, and then we went out for a little longer walk. When we got back, I got Koa in his crate, and I went upstairs to ride my bike for a while. Koa protested a bit at first, but only a wee bit, and then he settled down for a snooze. I managed to get a half hour ride in. Then, I went back downstairs, and I fixed some food. We went for a short walk after that.

When we got back, I texted my neighbor, and I asked her if she’d be interested in walking to the supermarket with Koa and me. We set up to go together around 9. Just before that, Koa needed a wee, so I got my bag and things, and Koa and I went to the grassy field. When our neighbor came, we set off to the store.

She went in first, and I got my things after that. On the way back, she held Koa, so I could relax a bit with the groceries on my back. When we got back, I cleaned up the groceries, and Koa and I relaxed for a bit. I turned on the doorbell, and checked the estimated delivery time on Koa’s food, and my electronic flyswatter. Ow, and the Blu-rays of Shaun the Sheep… Hihi…

I gave Koa his snufflemat, and we waited for a bit. I managed to clean up a bit of my bedroom, making more space for Koa’s big crate. The delivery came, and after that, Koa and I went out for another walk. When we got back, I prepped things to relax on bed for a while. I wanted to charge the swatter, and I saw a buzzing terrorist in my bedroom. With some effort, I climbed on my bed, and turned on the swatter. And with a big bang, the little terrorist was fried!

Koa had his meal, and we went into the garden for a bit. Then, we got ready to head to bed. I spent some time watching Criminal Minds, and when my meds were kicking in, I got my Kobo and fell asleep while reading.

A big bang woke me up, and I realized that the new swatter had just fried a terrorist on its own, which was wonderful. One less bloodsucker to worry about. I got back to sleep, and woke up when Koa barked. I took him outside, but he seemed more interested in getting a bit to drink than in getting some drinks out… He went back to the crate, and I went back to bed.

When I woke up again, Koa was still snoozing. But my back was killing me, and I had to get up and start moving around. Koa woke up too, and we both started our routine, as we started our “day” a little earlier, due to my back.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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#Journal of a slightly positive Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Tuesday, 21/07/2026).

After a not too bad night, we got up and started our day as usual. Well, I haven’t been using the scale a lot lately. It’s hard to stand still on it for a while, and I am afraid of what it will show me when I do use it… But, Koa and I got up, and we started our “day”. Just the usual bits, like getting dressed, taking meds, feeling the wild idiot, hihi. After that, we headed to the couch, where I got my laptop, and I started my email to my very sweet friend.

When I had finished it, I got some brekkie, and I started on my journal toot. Koa wanted to go out, so we went for a short walk, and then we got back, and I finished up with the journal bit. I uploaded it to all the usual places, and then I worked a bit on two new blog entries. It felt good to have some more posts done, as I was “running out” of scheduled posts. And I would hate to break my awesome daily posting streak… So, to have two more posts lined up, yeah, that made me feel a wee bit better. After that, I put away the laptop, and I tried to relax for a bit.

Koa was a bit restless, and he wanted to go out. I went into the garden with him, and while I sat down, I saw something white fall from his mouth. He wanted to grab it, and I asked him to let it go, so I could get it. And, above all my expectations, he moved away and let it be! When I picked it up, it was one of his puppy molars… That would explain the whining and being more restless. He was busy with losing more of his teefs. He already lost one molar, but I didn’t get that one.

We got back inside, and we tried to relax for a bit. Koa struggled a bit with the whole relaxing thing, but, after a little while, he managed to settle down, finally… So, we relaxed for a while, We went out for another short walk, and we relaxed again. Koa was really struggling with his teefs, so, I gave him his first frozen banana lickimat. I had no idea if he would like it but, once he tried it, and realized that he liked it a lot, and he attacked it like a mad puppy! I guess you could call it a big hit. And it helped him to cool his mouth a bit, which was a plus as well. Guess I will need to start getting some more bananas…

I made Koa some food, and then we went out for a little longer walk. When we got back, I got Koa in his crate, and I went upstairs to ride my bike for a while. Koa protested a bit at first, but only a wee bit, and then he settled down for a snooze. I managed to get a half hour ride in. Then, I went back downstairs, and I fixed some food. We went for a short walk after that.

When we got back, I texted my neighbor, and I asked her if she’d be interested in walking to the supermarket with Koa and me. We set up to go together around 9. Just before that, Koa needed a wee, so I got my bag and things, and Koa and I went to the grassy field. When our neighbor came, we set off to the store.

She went in first, and I got my things after that. On the way back, she held Koa, so I could relax a bit with the groceries on my back. When we got back, I cleaned up the groceries, and Koa and I relaxed for a bit. I turned on the doorbell, and checked the estimated delivery time on Koa’s food, and my electronic flyswatter. Ow, and the Blu-rays of Shaun the Sheep… Hihi…

I gave Koa his snufflemat, and we waited for a bit. I managed to clean up a bit of my bedroom, making more space for Koa’s big crate. The delivery came, and after that, Koa and I went out for another walk. When we got back, I prepped things to relax on bed for a while. I wanted to charge the swatter, and I saw a buzzing terrorist in my bedroom. With some effort, I climbed on my bed, and turned on the swatter. And with a big bang, the little terrorist was fried!

Koa had his meal, and we went into the garden for a bit. Then, we got ready to head to bed. I spent some time watching Criminal Minds, and when my meds were kicking in, I got my Kobo and fell asleep while reading.

A big bang woke me up, and I realized that the new swatter had just fried a terrorist on its own, which was wonderful. One less bloodsucker to worry about. I got back to sleep, and woke up when Koa barked. I took him outside, but he seemed more interested in getting a bit to drink than in getting some drinks out… He went back to the crate, and I went back to bed.

When I woke up again, Koa was still snoozing. But my back was killing me, and I had to get up and start moving around. Koa woke up too, and we both started our routine, as we started our “day” a little earlier, due to my back.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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#Journal of a slightly relaxed Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Monday, 20/07/2026).

Koa and I had gone to bed early, as we were just beat from the visit to the Herperduin. We had a few interruptions for potty breaks, both for Koa and for me, but in the end, my watch tells me that I managed to sleep for about 8 hours. We got up a bit earlier than usual though, as we’d gone to bed earlier too. This threw me off a little with my usual routine swing, but I managed to make it work.

We got up, and I got dressed. I took my meds, fed Koa, and we went to the couch where I grabbed my laptop. I started with an email to my sweet friend. When I was finished, I grabbed some brekkie. I started writing my journal toot, and then Koa wanted out for a little walk. When we got back, I got back to the laptop, and I finished the journal entry. I uploaded it to all the usual places. And I took some screengrabs from yesterday’s video, so that I could use some for my journal blog post.

While I was working on the pictures, I realized something that made me sob… The first time I ever took Arwen to the Herperduin, it was on July 19, 2024… And now, without realizing it, the first time ever I took Koa to the Herperduin… Was exactly two years later, on July 19, 2026. I don’t know why, but it made me cry so much. Heck, even mentioning it here now… Is making me tear up again.

When I finished the bits and bops, I put away the laptop, and I tried to relax for a while with some Criminal Minds. After some time, Koa woke up again, and we went out for another short walk. After that, I wanted to ride my bike for a while. But, Koa wasn’t too keen on that, and I had to stop after 17 minutes, as I didn’t want him to bark too much during the night.

I fixed Koa some food. I tried to relax for a bit again, as I was struggling to take Koa out for the longer walk. I don’t know why it felt so hard to take him out, it was just… Like it was the worst weather every, and I didn’t want to go out in it… But, the weather was wonderful for a little walk, and it was just me being silly for some reason. In the end, I managed to get off the couch, and Koa and I had a lovely walk together.

When we got back, I managed to clean up a bit of mess that had been annoying me for some time. I still have a lot to do, but I am hoping that I can manage to get it done, bit by bit. When I was done, I got the little vacuum cleaner, and I tried to do a quick “run” around the downstairs area. Koa was very helpful, and tried to bite in the shaft of the little vacuum. It was funny, but also a bit annoying, as it made it harder for me (and my back) to get the stuff done. In the end, there was quite a bit of sand and hair in the little bin, so even the “quick run around” had helped to make things a bit more clean.

Then it was time to head to the supermarket. I got a few things, and got back soon again. I walked with Koa, and then we waited for my coach to come over. When she arrived, we chatted a bit, and then we called the rental building coop, to arrange for some repairs to be done in the house soon. We managed to get things sorted, and then we took out Koa for a little walk. We discussed some things for the next week, and then she headed to the next client. Koa and I relaxed for a while, and I fixed some food.

Koa and I went to bed for a little while. Not to sleep, but to relax my back, as it wasn’t too pleased with me. After a little while, we got back up. I fixed some food for my boy, and we went out for a last walk. After that, we did get ready to head to bed. It was a bit early, but my back didn’t stop complaining, and I just had to lay down and be able to relax my back.

I finally managed to finish a book that I had been reading for almost 2 months now. Somehow, it seemed like the pages in the book weren’t correct, as I felt I was never getting to the ending of it. It wasn’t a bad book at all! I struggled with concentration, and I had fallen asleep with my tablet a little more than that I had been reading. After a while, I finally felt relaxed enough, and I was able to doze off.

I woke up once for the loo, and Koa told me he needed to go out. But, he only wanted to drink, and not do anything outside. I waited for a bit, but I got so tired, that we went back to bed again. And… Koa let me sleep for several more hours! When he woke me up again, we got up, and we started our “day”. According to my watch, I had slept for about 7¼ hours in total, so not too bad at all.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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#Journal of a slightly relaxed Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Monday, 20/07/2026).

Koa and I had gone to bed early, as we were just beat from the visit to the Herperduin. We had a few interruptions for potty breaks, both for Koa and for me, but in the end, my watch tells me that I managed to sleep for about 8 hours. We got up a bit earlier than usual though, as we’d gone to bed earlier too. This threw me off a little with my usual routine swing, but I managed to make it work.

We got up, and I got dressed. I took my meds, fed Koa, and we went to the couch where I grabbed my laptop. I started with an email to my sweet friend. When I was finished, I grabbed some brekkie. I started writing my journal toot, and then Koa wanted out for a little walk. When we got back, I got back to the laptop, and I finished the journal entry. I uploaded it to all the usual places. And I took some screengrabs from yesterday’s video, so that I could use some for my journal blog post.

While I was working on the pictures, I realized something that made me sob… The first time I ever took Arwen to the Herperduin, it was on July 19, 2024… And now, without realizing it, the first time ever I took Koa to the Herperduin… Was exactly two years later, on July 19, 2026. I don’t know why, but it made me cry so much. Heck, even mentioning it here now… Is making me tear up again.

When I finished the bits and bops, I put away the laptop, and I tried to relax for a while with some Criminal Minds. After some time, Koa woke up again, and we went out for another short walk. After that, I wanted to ride my bike for a while. But, Koa wasn’t too keen on that, and I had to stop after 17 minutes, as I didn’t want him to bark too much during the night.

I fixed Koa some food. I tried to relax for a bit again, as I was struggling to take Koa out for the longer walk. I don’t know why it felt so hard to take him out, it was just… Like it was the worst weather every, and I didn’t want to go out in it… But, the weather was wonderful for a little walk, and it was just me being silly for some reason. In the end, I managed to get off the couch, and Koa and I had a lovely walk together.

When we got back, I managed to clean up a bit of mess that had been annoying me for some time. I still have a lot to do, but I am hoping that I can manage to get it done, bit by bit. When I was done, I got the little vacuum cleaner, and I tried to do a quick “run” around the downstairs area. Koa was very helpful, and tried to bite in the shaft of the little vacuum. It was funny, but also a bit annoying, as it made it harder for me (and my back) to get the stuff done. In the end, there was quite a bit of sand and hair in the little bin, so even the “quick run around” had helped to make things a bit more clean.

Then it was time to head to the supermarket. I got a few things, and got back soon again. I walked with Koa, and then we waited for my coach to come over. When she arrived, we chatted a bit, and then we called the rental building coop, to arrange for some repairs to be done in the house soon. We managed to get things sorted, and then we took out Koa for a little walk. We discussed some things for the next week, and then she headed to the next client. Koa and I relaxed for a while, and I fixed some food.

Koa and I went to bed for a little while. Not to sleep, but to relax my back, as it wasn’t too pleased with me. After a little while, we got back up. I fixed some food for my boy, and we went out for a last walk. After that, we did get ready to head to bed. It was a bit early, but my back didn’t stop complaining, and I just had to lay down and be able to relax my back.

I finally managed to finish a book that I had been reading for almost 2 months now. Somehow, it seemed like the pages in the book weren’t correct, as I felt I was never getting to the ending of it. It wasn’t a bad book at all! I struggled with concentration, and I had fallen asleep with my tablet a little more than that I had been reading. After a while, I finally felt relaxed enough, and I was able to doze off.

I woke up once for the loo, and Koa told me he needed to go out. But, he only wanted to drink, and not do anything outside. I waited for a bit, but I got so tired, that we went back to bed again. And… Koa let me sleep for several more hours! When he woke me up again, we got up, and we started our “day”. According to my watch, I had slept for about 7¼ hours in total, so not too bad at all.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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It's hard! He's such an easy guy to love! He's the life of the party. But, damn, dude, you make the biggest mess of things sometimes. The biggest. #actuallyaudhd #actuallyautistic #actuallyadhd

It's hard! He's such an easy guy to love! He's the life of the party. But, damn, dude, you make the biggest mess of things sometimes. The biggest. #actuallyaudhd #actuallyautistic #actuallyadhd

TIL about my AuDHD: I'm not allowed to let my ADHD drive. It makes so much difference. I can feel it want to grab the wheel.

It has such a good time driving too—careening all over the road, pumping its fist and cheering. Then it runs the car out of gas, wrecks the clutch (he drives stick), or just crashes the car.

Sorry, pal. You can ride shotgun. You can even choose the music. Keep your damn hands off the wheel, ok?

#actuallyaudhd #actuallyautistic #actuallyadhd lly

TIL about my AuDHD: I'm not allowed to let my ADHD drive. It makes so much difference. I can feel it want to grab the wheel.

It has such a good time driving too—careening all over the road, pumping its fist and cheering. Then it runs the car out of gas, wrecks the clutch (he drives stick), or just crashes the car.

Sorry, pal. You can ride shotgun. You can even choose the music. Keep your damn hands off the wheel, ok?

#actuallyaudhd #actuallyautistic #actuallyadhd lly

#Journal of a slightly enthusiastic Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Sunday, 19/07/2026).

Saturday had left me exhausted, and I think Koa knew this, because we had a long sleep. There were a few interruptions for potty breaks, but in the end, according to my watch, I had slept for 9¾ hours in total. Which is huge, at least to me, and it took me a bit to get up from bed in the end, as I was sore, and my meds had ended, so my back was extra sore. But, my head felt rather well, which was something I needed after yesterday’s meltdown.

I got up, dressed, took my meds, and fed my little dude. We went to the couch, where I got my laptop, and I started writing an email to my sweet friend. After I had finished that, I made myself some brekkie, while I started writing my journal toot. Koa wanted out for a short walk, so we did that, and then I got back to finishing the journal toot. I uploaded it to all the usual places, and then I got a bit stressed, as I saw that I barely have any posts scheduled on my blog left. I have a few I am working on, but I don’t want to rush them. I also don’t want to break my posting streak, as I am super proud of it! I’ve been sharing a post every day for 2.225 days now (which is roughly 6 years and one month). And I am not posting just anything to keep the streak going, I want to post real things, posts that matter to me. So, I hope that soon, my brain will be “in the zone” again, to get some more posts worked on, and scheduled for release.

When I was done with the journal toot, and I had worked a bit on another blog post, I put away the laptop, and tried to relax a bit with some telly. Koa and I relaxed for a while, and I shared some screengrabs from a video I took of Koa, playing with the water hose, yesterday. When I was done, Koa was eager for walkies. The weather was nice, and we walked the longer route. When we got back, I fixed food for both Koa and me. After that, I headed upstairs, and I rode the bike for half an hour. Koa was not in his crate, so I kept an ear out while I was riding. But, when I got back down, he was snoozing peacefully, and then told me he wanted out again.

After a short walk, I got my laptop. I checked how far the water at the Herperduin was from the parking, to see if it would be too far for Koa. I asked my mum, and we made plans to take the boys to the Herperduin later that morning. I relaxed for a while, took Koa for another short walk, and then we relaxed some more. Mum texted earlier than expected that she and Bas were on their way. So, I took an extra painkiller, and Koa and I got ready for walkies. When mum and Bas arrived, we got in Skoosh, and we were on our way.

Koa was very enthusiastic, and he kept pulling the leash, like he knew where to go. When we got to the waterside, Koa tried to rush me to it. I tried to capture it with my phone, while also trying to keep up with the little dude. While he didn’t jump into the water like a mad-man, he did enjoy a few little splashes. After some time, we got to a bench, and we relaxed for a little while, before we made the journey back to Skoosh.

We got back home, mum and the dogs had a bit to drink, and then mum took Bas home again. Koa and I had a meal, and we relaxed for a while. But, I was so tired, that after a bit, we just got ready to head to bed. After some time, Koa already dozed off, and before I knew it, I was struggling to keep reading, and I dozed off too…

I woke up for the loo, and then when Koa woke me up for his loo break. When I woke up again, it was still a bit earlier than usual, but my body was done with being in bed, and I had to go to the loo again, so in the end, I just got up and started my “day”. According to my watch, I got about 8 hours of sleep in, in total, so it wasn’t that bad at all…

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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#Journal of a slightly enthusiastic Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Sunday, 19/07/2026).

Saturday had left me exhausted, and I think Koa knew this, because we had a long sleep. There were a few interruptions for potty breaks, but in the end, according to my watch, I had slept for 9¾ hours in total. Which is huge, at least to me, and it took me a bit to get up from bed in the end, as I was sore, and my meds had ended, so my back was extra sore. But, my head felt rather well, which was something I needed after yesterday’s meltdown.

I got up, dressed, took my meds, and fed my little dude. We went to the couch, where I got my laptop, and I started writing an email to my sweet friend. After I had finished that, I made myself some brekkie, while I started writing my journal toot. Koa wanted out for a short walk, so we did that, and then I got back to finishing the journal toot. I uploaded it to all the usual places, and then I got a bit stressed, as I saw that I barely have any posts scheduled on my blog left. I have a few I am working on, but I don’t want to rush them. I also don’t want to break my posting streak, as I am super proud of it! I’ve been sharing a post every day for 2.225 days now (which is roughly 6 years and one month). And I am not posting just anything to keep the streak going, I want to post real things, posts that matter to me. So, I hope that soon, my brain will be “in the zone” again, to get some more posts worked on, and scheduled for release.

When I was done with the journal toot, and I had worked a bit on another blog post, I put away the laptop, and tried to relax a bit with some telly. Koa and I relaxed for a while, and I shared some screengrabs from a video I took of Koa, playing with the water hose, yesterday. When I was done, Koa was eager for walkies. The weather was nice, and we walked the longer route. When we got back, I fixed food for both Koa and me. After that, I headed upstairs, and I rode the bike for half an hour. Koa was not in his crate, so I kept an ear out while I was riding. But, when I got back down, he was snoozing peacefully, and then told me he wanted out again.

After a short walk, I got my laptop. I checked how far the water at the Herperduin was from the parking, to see if it would be too far for Koa. I asked my mum, and we made plans to take the boys to the Herperduin later that morning. I relaxed for a while, took Koa for another short walk, and then we relaxed some more. Mum texted earlier than expected that she and Bas were on their way. So, I took an extra painkiller, and Koa and I got ready for walkies. When mum and Bas arrived, we got in Skoosh, and we were on our way.

Koa was very enthusiastic, and he kept pulling the leash, like he knew where to go. When we got to the waterside, Koa tried to rush me to it. I tried to capture it with my phone, while also trying to keep up with the little dude. While he didn’t jump into the water like a mad-man, he did enjoy a few little splashes. After some time, we got to a bench, and we relaxed for a little while, before we made the journey back to Skoosh.

We got back home, mum and the dogs had a bit to drink, and then mum took Bas home again. Koa and I had a meal, and we relaxed for a while. But, I was so tired, that after a bit, we just got ready to head to bed. After some time, Koa already dozed off, and before I knew it, I was struggling to keep reading, and I dozed off too…

I woke up for the loo, and then when Koa woke me up for his loo break. When I woke up again, it was still a bit earlier than usual, but my body was done with being in bed, and I had to go to the loo again, so in the end, I just got up and started my “day”. According to my watch, I got about 8 hours of sleep in, in total, so it wasn’t that bad at all…

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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#Journal of a bläh feeling Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 16/07/2026).

I didn’t have the worst night, just the usual potty breaks and buzzing terrorist 🦟 activities. But still, with a few interruptions, I got about 7:40 hours of sleep in total. I didn’t feel too tired, so that was a good thing. I did feel sore, so I got up, took my meds, dressed, fed Koa, and then I got to the couch with my laptop.

I wrote an email to my sweet friend, and then I got some brekkie. Koa and I went out for short walkies. When we returned, I got back to my laptop, and I wrote my journal toot. It got uploaded to all the usual places, and I tried to relax a bit on the couch. Koa was a bit restless, and I found out that one of his molars is wobbly, so that must be giving him some discomforts when he uses his mouth.

We relaxed for a while, and when it got light out, we went out for another walk. Koa didn’t want a longer one, which was fine by me as I was not feeling too well. The pain wasn't too bad, but I just felt exhausted and sad. Not all depressed, but close to it. Aware of it, but not really able to “see” anything that could “snap me out of it”. It sucks when one feels like this, because it feels so helpless and lonely…

After walkies, I went upstairs, and I rode the bike for a bit. It felt good, but somehow, I didn’t get the usual “feels” from it. Like, it was good to do so, but the endorphins, they were lost on me… I did it because it was good for me, and I usually enjoyed it, but it just didn’t feel like it usually would.

Bestie called me on her way to work, and we had a nice little chat while she was on her way. We hung up when she arrived, and I walked a bit with young master Koa. Then, some relaxing, but it just didn’t feel good…

After a while, I texted the neighbor, and asked her if she would want to join me and Koa for a walk, saying I didn’t feel all too well, and I could use some company and distraction. She texted back that she’d be ready around nine. A little before that, Koa hinted he needed to go out. So, we went to the grassy field, with his little Chuck-it! Ball, which he carried for a while, looking so proud.

Lately, he’s been picking up twigs and all to carry around with him. As I don’t want him to have wooden things in his mouth, due to splinters, I am trying to offer the Chuck-it ball instead. And, it seems to work, for short periods of time at least.

When Koa was ready, I texted the neighbor, and we set out for a walk. She took the leash, and enjoyed it a lot. Koa was just happy to get extra attention, and he was all excited about walking with the neighbor… We had a nice walk, with a good chat, and I was very grateful for it. When we got back, I was tired, and Koa and I relaxed for a while in the bedroom. I re-watched some more Criminal Minds, and checked the parcel delivery service.

They said they’d come to deliver the grass today, so I kept checking the info, but in the end, they never left the site. So that was a bummer… I had troubles with my emotions, and I could not stop eating. I didn’t know why, but I just felt so sad, so disconnected, so tired… I tried to keep going, but it was hard…

I walked Koa again, and then relaxed some more, as best as I could. After a while, I felt so bad about the snacking I’d been doing, that I went to the home-trainer again. I rode it a bit longer than I had hoped to do, but it felt good, in a way, so I guess it was something I needed at the time. After that, I got ready to get to bed.

It didn’t take too long to get comfortable. Koa was sleeping already, and I did the same. I woke up for the loo, and Koa kept snoozing. He woke me for his potty break a few hours later. I woke up again when a buzzing terrorist was at it again. When Koa woke me up again, I didn’t believe the clock, and checked it twice. Koa had allowed me quite a long sleep, and in the end, according to my watch, I had slept for about 8¾ hours in total! I was a bit sore and drowsy, but not too bad. So, Koa and I got up, and we started our “day”.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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#ActuallyAuDHD
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#Journal of a bläh feeling Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 16/07/2026).

I didn’t have the worst night, just the usual potty breaks and buzzing terrorist 🦟 activities. But still, with a few interruptions, I got about 7:40 hours of sleep in total. I didn’t feel too tired, so that was a good thing. I did feel sore, so I got up, took my meds, dressed, fed Koa, and then I got to the couch with my laptop.

I wrote an email to my sweet friend, and then I got some brekkie. Koa and I went out for short walkies. When we returned, I got back to my laptop, and I wrote my journal toot. It got uploaded to all the usual places, and I tried to relax a bit on the couch. Koa was a bit restless, and I found out that one of his molars is wobbly, so that must be giving him some discomforts when he uses his mouth.

We relaxed for a while, and when it got light out, we went out for another walk. Koa didn’t want a longer one, which was fine by me as I was not feeling too well. The pain wasn't too bad, but I just felt exhausted and sad. Not all depressed, but close to it. Aware of it, but not really able to “see” anything that could “snap me out of it”. It sucks when one feels like this, because it feels so helpless and lonely…

After walkies, I went upstairs, and I rode the bike for a bit. It felt good, but somehow, I didn’t get the usual “feels” from it. Like, it was good to do so, but the endorphins, they were lost on me… I did it because it was good for me, and I usually enjoyed it, but it just didn’t feel like it usually would.

Bestie called me on her way to work, and we had a nice little chat while she was on her way. We hung up when she arrived, and I walked a bit with young master Koa. Then, some relaxing, but it just didn’t feel good…

After a while, I texted the neighbor, and asked her if she would want to join me and Koa for a walk, saying I didn’t feel all too well, and I could use some company and distraction. She texted back that she’d be ready around nine. A little before that, Koa hinted he needed to go out. So, we went to the grassy field, with his little Chuck-it! Ball, which he carried for a while, looking so proud.

Lately, he’s been picking up twigs and all to carry around with him. As I don’t want him to have wooden things in his mouth, due to splinters, I am trying to offer the Chuck-it ball instead. And, it seems to work, for short periods of time at least.

When Koa was ready, I texted the neighbor, and we set out for a walk. She took the leash, and enjoyed it a lot. Koa was just happy to get extra attention, and he was all excited about walking with the neighbor… We had a nice walk, with a good chat, and I was very grateful for it. When we got back, I was tired, and Koa and I relaxed for a while in the bedroom. I re-watched some more Criminal Minds, and checked the parcel delivery service.

They said they’d come to deliver the grass today, so I kept checking the info, but in the end, they never left the site. So that was a bummer… I had troubles with my emotions, and I could not stop eating. I didn’t know why, but I just felt so sad, so disconnected, so tired… I tried to keep going, but it was hard…

I walked Koa again, and then relaxed some more, as best as I could. After a while, I felt so bad about the snacking I’d been doing, that I went to the home-trainer again. I rode it a bit longer than I had hoped to do, but it felt good, in a way, so I guess it was something I needed at the time. After that, I got ready to get to bed.

It didn’t take too long to get comfortable. Koa was sleeping already, and I did the same. I woke up for the loo, and Koa kept snoozing. He woke me for his potty break a few hours later. I woke up again when a buzzing terrorist was at it again. When Koa woke me up again, I didn’t believe the clock, and checked it twice. Koa had allowed me quite a long sleep, and in the end, according to my watch, I had slept for about 8¾ hours in total! I was a bit sore and drowsy, but not too bad. So, Koa and I got up, and we started our “day”.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

#Journal of a sad Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesday, 15/07/2026).

I had an OK enough night. Some potty breaks, some buzzing terrorist annoying me, but in the end, I did manage to get some sleep. When Koa woke me up, it was time to take my meds, as y back was not too pleased with me. I got up, quickly took them, prepared Koa’s meal, and I got dressed. I got to the couch with my laptop, and started the email to my sweet friend. When I was done, I fixed some brekkie, and Koa and I went out for a little walk.

After we got back, I got back to my laptop, and I wrote my journal toot. For some reason, I found myself getting distracted at times, like it was too hard to focus. While I have been writing journal posts for so long, and they always seemed to be fun to write. But this time, writing down yesterday’s date, made today’s date more “visible”, and it made me sad… As today used to be Arwen’s birthday. This was her second heavenly birthday, and I struggled with it… I still miss that gall so much…

I finished the journal toot, uploaded it to all the usual places, and I put away the laptop. I cried for a little while, and Koa even came to cuddle me a bit. Unfortunately, the cuddles turned into little bites soon enough. I think Koa is “getting ready” to start exchanging his molars, as he was very whiney, and also rather bitey. I tried to give him all the attention, and I remembered there was a frozen yogurt lickimat in the freezer, so I offered him that one.

I watched some telly, tried to distract myself, shared some pictures online. And I went out with Koa for a nice walk when it was getting light outside. We walked the bigger round this time, which was rather nice. When we got back, we relaxed some more, and I made us something to eat.

Bestie called me on her way to work, and I was just out with Koa, as he wanted another walk. During that walk, Koa grabbed something. Without thinking, I got my hand in his mouth, to get it out, and I almost barfed! He had grabbed some sort of very nasty animal shit, and my hand was all full of it, and it smelled so awful, that I was gagging all the way back home. I washed my hands as best as I could, again and again, until the nasty goo and smell was gone. Koa was sitting next to me, with a smug look that was almost hilarious, if I wasn’t still fighting with my gag-reflex due to the smell and all that.

Well, that was quite a bit of an experience, and bestie got to live through it with me haha. I was able to relax for a while, and I had to get myself prepared to head to the supermarket in a bit. I was not really eager to go to the store. I felt so exhausted, sad, and not up to it. But, I needed groceries, so I would have to go…

When time was right, I got to Skoosh and headed to the store. I got the things I needed, although I did forget a few… But I wasn’t going to go back, I was too exhausted for that. As I had missed a call from the GP on Tuesday, I called them this morning, and a GP would call me this afternoon, to talk about my meds.

I got a notification that the refund of the energy bill had been deposited in my account. So, I went to an online store, and I ordered the artificial grass that I need for my garden. One moment, you have some money. The next moment, they’re going to send you several square meters of fake grass. Haha, the way things go sometimes… Now, I just have to hope that my bestie can find a date to come over and help me, once the grass has been delivered.

I walked with Koa, and then we got to bed for a little while. I watched some more Criminal Minds while trying to relax, and Koa snoozed for a while. After some time, Koa and I got up again. We didn’t have any plans today, so we switched between short walkies, and relaxing. It was too warm to go for longer walks. And we both just took it easy.

I was lying on bed with my tablet when the GP called. We had a good talk, I fixed Koa’s food, we went out for a bit, and then we got back to bed. I tried to stay up for a while, as the pharmacy could come to drop off new meds. But, after a while, I did doze off. Of course, within a short time, the doorbell rang, and my meds had arrived. I got back to bed again, and when I was comfortable enough, I managed to doze off again.

I woke up a few times, due to my bladder, and due to Koa. But, when it was time to get up, my watch told me I slept a little over 7½ hours in total. I still felt rather tired though, but hey ho, time to get up and start our “day”.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

#Journal of a sad Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesday, 15/07/2026).

I had an OK enough night. Some potty breaks, some buzzing terrorist annoying me, but in the end, I did manage to get some sleep. When Koa woke me up, it was time to take my meds, as y back was not too pleased with me. I got up, quickly took them, prepared Koa’s meal, and I got dressed. I got to the couch with my laptop, and started the email to my sweet friend. When I was done, I fixed some brekkie, and Koa and I went out for a little walk.

After we got back, I got back to my laptop, and I wrote my journal toot. For some reason, I found myself getting distracted at times, like it was too hard to focus. While I have been writing journal posts for so long, and they always seemed to be fun to write. But this time, writing down yesterday’s date, made today’s date more “visible”, and it made me sad… As today used to be Arwen’s birthday. This was her second heavenly birthday, and I struggled with it… I still miss that gall so much…

I finished the journal toot, uploaded it to all the usual places, and I put away the laptop. I cried for a little while, and Koa even came to cuddle me a bit. Unfortunately, the cuddles turned into little bites soon enough. I think Koa is “getting ready” to start exchanging his molars, as he was very whiney, and also rather bitey. I tried to give him all the attention, and I remembered there was a frozen yogurt lickimat in the freezer, so I offered him that one.

I watched some telly, tried to distract myself, shared some pictures online. And I went out with Koa for a nice walk when it was getting light outside. We walked the bigger round this time, which was rather nice. When we got back, we relaxed some more, and I made us something to eat.

Bestie called me on her way to work, and I was just out with Koa, as he wanted another walk. During that walk, Koa grabbed something. Without thinking, I got my hand in his mouth, to get it out, and I almost barfed! He had grabbed some sort of very nasty animal shit, and my hand was all full of it, and it smelled so awful, that I was gagging all the way back home. I washed my hands as best as I could, again and again, until the nasty goo and smell was gone. Koa was sitting next to me, with a smug look that was almost hilarious, if I wasn’t still fighting with my gag-reflex due to the smell and all that.

Well, that was quite a bit of an experience, and bestie got to live through it with me haha. I was able to relax for a while, and I had to get myself prepared to head to the supermarket in a bit. I was not really eager to go to the store. I felt so exhausted, sad, and not up to it. But, I needed groceries, so I would have to go…

When time was right, I got to Skoosh and headed to the store. I got the things I needed, although I did forget a few… But I wasn’t going to go back, I was too exhausted for that. As I had missed a call from the GP on Tuesday, I called them this morning, and a GP would call me this afternoon, to talk about my meds.

I got a notification that the refund of the energy bill had been deposited in my account. So, I went to an online store, and I ordered the artificial grass that I need for my garden. One moment, you have some money. The next moment, they’re going to send you several square meters of fake grass. Haha, the way things go sometimes… Now, I just have to hope that my bestie can find a date to come over and help me, once the grass has been delivered.

I walked with Koa, and then we got to bed for a little while. I watched some more Criminal Minds while trying to relax, and Koa snoozed for a while. After some time, Koa and I got up again. We didn’t have any plans today, so we switched between short walkies, and relaxing. It was too warm to go for longer walks. And we both just took it easy.

I was lying on bed with my tablet when the GP called. We had a good talk, I fixed Koa’s food, we went out for a bit, and then we got back to bed. I tried to stay up for a while, as the pharmacy could come to drop off new meds. But, after a while, I did doze off. Of course, within a short time, the doorbell rang, and my meds had arrived. I got back to bed again, and when I was comfortable enough, I managed to doze off again.

I woke up a few times, due to my bladder, and due to Koa. But, when it was time to get up, my watch told me I slept a little over 7½ hours in total. I still felt rather tired though, but hey ho, time to get up and start our “day”.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

Is it weird that I'm obsessed with automating my home while playing at Mark Watney in Stationeers? And yet I quickly get annoyed with Home Assistant and don't automate much around my house these days?

Strange hypocrisy.

Would anyone be interested in a Stationeers server, I wonder? I adore the game, particularly since adding Lua support to mine. I've been writing more code lately than I have in a while to automate an imaginary Martian station to keep myself alive in the game.

Damn game is an #actuallyaudhd / #actuallyautistic person's dream....

Is it weird that I'm obsessed with automating my home while playing at Mark Watney in Stationeers? And yet I quickly get annoyed with Home Assistant and don't automate much around my house these days?

Strange hypocrisy.

Would anyone be interested in a Stationeers server, I wonder? I adore the game, particularly since adding Lua support to mine. I've been writing more code lately than I have in a while to automate an imaginary Martian station to keep myself alive in the game.

Damn game is an #actuallyaudhd / #actuallyautistic person's dream....

#Journal of a busy Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Monday, 13/07/2026).

I had a bit of a broken night again. Not just because of Koa’s potty breaks, but because I was being terrorized by a buzzing asshat 🦟. I did manage to get some sleep through, according to my watch. But because of the interruptions, I still felt rather tired. We got up, and I started our “day” by counting the mosquito bites on my legs and feet. Why am I so delicious to them? I got dressed, and took my meds. Koa got his meal, and then we headed to the couch.

I wrote an email to a sweet friend, and when I was done, I took Koa out for a short walk. When we got back, I enjoyed my brekkie, and I wrote my journal toot. I uploaded it to all the usual places when I was done, and tried to relax a bit with some telly. After some time, Koa wanted out for another short walk, so that’s what we did.

I fixed Koa some more food, and then we relaxed again. When it was light out, we went for a longer walk. Koa extended the walk a wee bit, pushing it more towards the “limits” of what he is allowed to do. But, he did well and we had a good and fun walk. When we got back, I got Koa to his crate, and I rode the bike for 15 minutes.

I was down, relaxing, when bestie called me on the way to her work. During the call, I started the washing machine. When the laundry was done, I hung it out upstairs. Back downstairs, I started the dishwasher, and then Koa and I went for walkies. We had a nice little walk, and when we got back again, we went to the couch for some relaxing.

Just before the coach would come, I took Koa out again, so he would have an empty bladder, when someone new would enter the house. Try to limit the chance of accidents during excited and happy moments. The coach came, she introduced herself, and we had a little chat. Koa was very excited, and after a little while, we decided to walk a bit with Koa. That way, he could release some of his energy, while we could chat a while. Back home, she checked out Koa’s photo albums, while we chatted for things she could help with. We found a thing, which I will try to get some more info on, and then she left. We’d pick it up next week, and see how things would/will go.

I tried to relax for a while, after she left. Koa and I had another walk, we chilled out some more, and then we got ready to head to Nijmegen. Mum was ready when we got there, and we headed on to Kranenburg. Koa got on the scale in the pet store, with some difficulty, and he was at 18,3kg, which is about 40lbs. We found a new harness for him, for when the current one gets too small again. I also wanted a leash, but they didn’t have the big ones in “Koa’s color”, unfortunately. Maybe next time.

We went to another store in Nijmegen, where mum exchanged something she’d gotten the wrong kind of. Then, onward to the train station, as there was a currency exchange shop, so I could “ditch” some “old” foreign money. It took a little while, but I got some money in return, so that was nice. I will have to find a way to get the money into my account, so that I can get Koa his own nice travel crate.

Back at my parent’s place, we had to wait a while, before we could go to the last class. Koa did very well, and I was impressed by him. Class went very well too, and I was so proud of my dude. At the end of class, I started feeling super nauseated. We headed home, and I barely made it to the loo. Well, it was not pretty, but it did feel a lot better when I was done. I got all ready to head to bed after that. It didn’t take too long for both Koa and myself to doze off.

I woke up again about 4 hours later. My body was sore, as it was long time for my meds. So, I got up, and started our “day”.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾

#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

PS. Picture attached is an edited one taken on Sunday, as I didn't take any snaps this Monday.

#Journal of a busy Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Monday, 13/07/2026).

I had a bit of a broken night again. Not just because of Koa’s potty breaks, but because I was being terrorized by a buzzing asshat 🦟. I did manage to get some sleep through, according to my watch. But because of the interruptions, I still felt rather tired. We got up, and I started our “day” by counting the mosquito bites on my legs and feet. Why am I so delicious to them? I got dressed, and took my meds. Koa got his meal, and then we headed to the couch.

I wrote an email to a sweet friend, and when I was done, I took Koa out for a short walk. When we got back, I enjoyed my brekkie, and I wrote my journal toot. I uploaded it to all the usual places when I was done, and tried to relax a bit with some telly. After some time, Koa wanted out for another short walk, so that’s what we did.

I fixed Koa some more food, and then we relaxed again. When it was light out, we went for a longer walk. Koa extended the walk a wee bit, pushing it more towards the “limits” of what he is allowed to do. But, he did well and we had a good and fun walk. When we got back, I got Koa to his crate, and I rode the bike for 15 minutes.

I was down, relaxing, when bestie called me on the way to her work. During the call, I started the washing machine. When the laundry was done, I hung it out upstairs. Back downstairs, I started the dishwasher, and then Koa and I went for walkies. We had a nice little walk, and when we got back again, we went to the couch for some relaxing.

Just before the coach would come, I took Koa out again, so he would have an empty bladder, when someone new would enter the house. Try to limit the chance of accidents during excited and happy moments. The coach came, she introduced herself, and we had a little chat. Koa was very excited, and after a little while, we decided to walk a bit with Koa. That way, he could release some of his energy, while we could chat a while. Back home, she checked out Koa’s photo albums, while we chatted for things she could help with. We found a thing, which I will try to get some more info on, and then she left. We’d pick it up next week, and see how things would/will go.

I tried to relax for a while, after she left. Koa and I had another walk, we chilled out some more, and then we got ready to head to Nijmegen. Mum was ready when we got there, and we headed on to Kranenburg. Koa got on the scale in the pet store, with some difficulty, and he was at 18,3kg, which is about 40lbs. We found a new harness for him, for when the current one gets too small again. I also wanted a leash, but they didn’t have the big ones in “Koa’s color”, unfortunately. Maybe next time.

We went to another store in Nijmegen, where mum exchanged something she’d gotten the wrong kind of. Then, onward to the train station, as there was a currency exchange shop, so I could “ditch” some “old” foreign money. It took a little while, but I got some money in return, so that was nice. I will have to find a way to get the money into my account, so that I can get Koa his own nice travel crate.

Back at my parent’s place, we had to wait a while, before we could go to the last class. Koa did very well, and I was impressed by him. Class went very well too, and I was so proud of my dude. At the end of class, I started feeling super nauseated. We headed home, and I barely made it to the loo. Well, it was not pretty, but it did feel a lot better when I was done. I got all ready to head to bed after that. It didn’t take too long for both Koa and myself to doze off.

I woke up again about 4 hours later. My body was sore, as it was long time for my meds. So, I got up, and started our “day”.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾

#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

PS. Picture attached is an edited one taken on Sunday, as I didn't take any snaps this Monday.

#Journal of a Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 11/07/2026).

I had a decent enough night with, according to my watch, about 7½ hours of sleep. It was broken up, of course, as Koa needed to go out several times. Ow, I cant wait for his bladder to hold it up a wee bit longer… We got up, I got dressed, I took my meds, prepped Koa’s meal, and we started our day.

I wrote an email to my sweet friend. There was some good news, so that was very nice indeed. When I had finished the email, I got some brekkie. I struggled to write the journal toot, so when Koa wanted to go out, we went for a short walk. A bit of fresh air, and some movement, it did me good. But, I still struggled to write my journal toot somehow. I managed in the end, but I had a slight headache, and it was annoying me.

I worked a bit on my blog, and then I put away the laptop. Koa and I tried to relax a little with some telly. Then, we went out on another short walkies. I had this bläh feeling, and I just didn’t understand why… I had gotten some decent sleep, the meds were helping me reasonably well, and some good things had been happening. But still, I struggled with my emotions and energy.

I went upstairs to ride my bike for a little while. After that, Koa and I went out for a bit of a longer walk. I thought he’d enjoyed the one yesterday, and it’s good for the both of us, so hey ho! Koa was a bit difficult to handle on the leash, as he kept pulling this way and that, and he struggled with the sounds of the doggy boarding area, as there was a lot of barking to be heard.

When we got back, I really needed to relax for a while. The bike ride, and the longer walk, they had drained me for a bit. So, Koa and I relaxed for a bit, he in his crate, and I on bed. I didn’t sleep, I watched Criminal Minds on my tablet, and scrolled a bit through the FediVerse. After some time, we got up again, and Koa signaled he wanted to head out again. So, we went for another little walk.

We relaxed for a while, with some telly, some online scrolling, some short walkies. I still felt a bit bläh… One of my parcels arrived nice on time. The others were coming with a different carrier, DHL and, as usual, they were making a mess of things again. This, of course, didn’t help me with my headache and feelings of bläh.

Around noon, Koa and I went for another nice walk. The weather was getting warmer, and we walked a wee bit differently, so Koa got some new sniffs in. When we got back home, we went to bed a bit earlier, not to sleep at first, but to relax. I had walked quite a bit, as I managed >8.5k in steps today. The last few days, Koa and I have been trying to get some more walks in, with the meds helping me with that. Last week, my steps average increased a little after starting the meds, and it went to about 5k average. When I now check the last 7 days, the average is at a little over 7k. So not too bad at all. Of course, it’s nothing compared to my “old” averages, but with a puppy, no gym, a bad back and all… It’s quite a challenge to even get to 5k steps…

I had asked my online friendos on Masto, if some would be interested in chatting with me. I got some replies, and when I was relaxing on bed, I chatted for a while with a very kind lady in Australia. After a while, I fed Koa, and I let him out into the garden. When he had done his things, we got ready to head to bed. It took me some time to doze off. And when I finally did, a loud banging on the door woke me up again…

Of course DHL had to mess up again. I had put into the app that they should deliver it with my neighbor (with her permission). So, they wanted to deliver it with me… And now I have to wait until they deliver it at the parcel vault next week… Ugh, it just drives me nuts at times… I dozed off again, until Koa woke me up for a potty break. After that, he allowed me a little over 4 hours of sleep, before waking me up again, letting me know he was done with being in the crate. So, we got up, and we started our “day”.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾

#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

#Journal of a Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 11/07/2026).

I had a decent enough night with, according to my watch, about 7½ hours of sleep. It was broken up, of course, as Koa needed to go out several times. Ow, I cant wait for his bladder to hold it up a wee bit longer… We got up, I got dressed, I took my meds, prepped Koa’s meal, and we started our day.

I wrote an email to my sweet friend. There was some good news, so that was very nice indeed. When I had finished the email, I got some brekkie. I struggled to write the journal toot, so when Koa wanted to go out, we went for a short walk. A bit of fresh air, and some movement, it did me good. But, I still struggled to write my journal toot somehow. I managed in the end, but I had a slight headache, and it was annoying me.

I worked a bit on my blog, and then I put away the laptop. Koa and I tried to relax a little with some telly. Then, we went out on another short walkies. I had this bläh feeling, and I just didn’t understand why… I had gotten some decent sleep, the meds were helping me reasonably well, and some good things had been happening. But still, I struggled with my emotions and energy.

I went upstairs to ride my bike for a little while. After that, Koa and I went out for a bit of a longer walk. I thought he’d enjoyed the one yesterday, and it’s good for the both of us, so hey ho! Koa was a bit difficult to handle on the leash, as he kept pulling this way and that, and he struggled with the sounds of the doggy boarding area, as there was a lot of barking to be heard.

When we got back, I really needed to relax for a while. The bike ride, and the longer walk, they had drained me for a bit. So, Koa and I relaxed for a bit, he in his crate, and I on bed. I didn’t sleep, I watched Criminal Minds on my tablet, and scrolled a bit through the FediVerse. After some time, we got up again, and Koa signaled he wanted to head out again. So, we went for another little walk.

We relaxed for a while, with some telly, some online scrolling, some short walkies. I still felt a bit bläh… One of my parcels arrived nice on time. The others were coming with a different carrier, DHL and, as usual, they were making a mess of things again. This, of course, didn’t help me with my headache and feelings of bläh.

Around noon, Koa and I went for another nice walk. The weather was getting warmer, and we walked a wee bit differently, so Koa got some new sniffs in. When we got back home, we went to bed a bit earlier, not to sleep at first, but to relax. I had walked quite a bit, as I managed >8.5k in steps today. The last few days, Koa and I have been trying to get some more walks in, with the meds helping me with that. Last week, my steps average increased a little after starting the meds, and it went to about 5k average. When I now check the last 7 days, the average is at a little over 7k. So not too bad at all. Of course, it’s nothing compared to my “old” averages, but with a puppy, no gym, a bad back and all… It’s quite a challenge to even get to 5k steps…

I had asked my online friendos on Masto, if some would be interested in chatting with me. I got some replies, and when I was relaxing on bed, I chatted for a while with a very kind lady in Australia. After a while, I fed Koa, and I let him out into the garden. When he had done his things, we got ready to head to bed. It took me some time to doze off. And when I finally did, a loud banging on the door woke me up again…

Of course DHL had to mess up again. I had put into the app that they should deliver it with my neighbor (with her permission). So, they wanted to deliver it with me… And now I have to wait until they deliver it at the parcel vault next week… Ugh, it just drives me nuts at times… I dozed off again, until Koa woke me up for a potty break. After that, he allowed me a little over 4 hours of sleep, before waking me up again, letting me know he was done with being in the crate. So, we got up, and we started our “day”.

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#Journal of a slightly relaxed Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 10/07/2026).

I had a bit of a shorter night than I hoped, as Koa needed two potty breaks, and it took a little time to doze off. So, when we got up, I was still a tad tired and also, rather sore. Time to take my meds again! I used the scale, which wasn't too bad, and I got dressed. I took the meds, and prepared Koa’s meal. When he had finished, we got to the couch, where I settled down with my laptop.

I was just writing my sweet friend an email, when he emailed me with some awesome news! I saved the message I was working on, sent him a quick, very excited, email, and I promised I would send a longer email to him in a bit, as I was still working on it. But, I had to quickly reply to the awesomeness!

I finished the email, and made some brekkie. Followed by writing my journal toot. When that had been uploaded to the usual places, I took Koa out for a little walk. He did his things, and we got back home, where we relaxed on the couch for a while. I wrote a little bit for my blog site, while I watched some more of Criminal Minds.

When it was getting light out, while it was still a bit cooler, I took Koa out for another walk. I decided that I wanted to try a new, a bit longer, route with him. As it would be a warmer day, according to the forecast, I wanted Koa to have a nice walk before the weather got too warm for it. It was a bit hard on my back and leg, but I think Koa enjoyed it, even though it was a bit “scary” at times as well, with all the new impressions.

We got back, and I was rather tired. I think Koa was a tad tired too, so we relaxed together for a while. As my back and leg were a bit sore, since we walked 1,2km, according to Koa’s GPS tracker, I got into my shortama, and I went to bed for a while. I wanted to leave Koa loose, as in, not crate him. But, he started messing with my curtains… First, he kept trying to open them, while I closed them, to keep the heat and light out. When he started to chew on the curtains, I knew I had to crate him.

I relaxed for about 45 minutes, and then Koa started to get uneasy. He had drank a bit when we got back from the walk, so I figured he had to go out for a wee. I dressed again, and we headed out for a short walk. Koa’s idea of a short walk was a bit longer than mine, and when we got back, my back and leg weren’t too pleased with me. I got to bed again for a little while.

Mum texted me that she was on her way with the groceries, so I got dressed, and I opened the roller-curtain, so we could enter the house from the backside parking. Koa wanted to go out again, so we went out, and he did his business. I had just cleaned it up, when mum arrived. I got Koa inside, and helped mum with the groceries. When they were cleaned up, I got mum’s laptop, which she brought, and I “got to work”.

I saw that dad had installed two free antivirus programs. I always thought that you should only use one, as they could work against each other in some ways. I had a license to a paid antivirus program, so I deleted the two free ones, and I installed the paid version. I think that one paid version is better than two free ones… Then, I installed the chat-apps for mum. When her old phone died, I asked her why she didn’t use the apps on her laptop, also because it could be easier for her, with typing on a normal keyboard. Mum didn’t even know that this was possible… So, I installed the apps for her, and we connected them with the phone apps. Maybe, in a way, this can make chatting for mum a bit easier…

Koa had to go out for a wee, but I was expecting new filters for the ventilation system, and a parcel with new snacks for Koa was on its way. Mum offered to stay home for a bit, so I could take Koa out for a short walk. When Koa and I got back, mum had gotten a few new sets of filters, so I immediately took them upstairs, and exchanged the dirty old ones for a new set.

Mum headed back home, and Koa and I relaxed for a bit. When the parcel with Koa’s snacks had arrived, he and I went to bed. Not so sleep yet, but to relax, as my back was still bothering me. After about 30 minutes, I took my meds, and I made Koa his meal. I could use the new scale, and this one seemed a lot more accurate. Yay! When Koa was done with his meal, we went outside for a bit, and he could do his thing. Then, I brushed my teeth, and Koa and I did go to bed for some snoozing.

I dozed off a bit, and then Koa woke me up already for a big pee. And, back to bed again… After some more snoozing, Koa woke me up again, and this time, after a few minutes outside, he did a big number 2. And, back to bed… When he woke me up again, I felt like I could have slept a bit longer… But, I also felt like it was time to take my meds, as my back was very unkind to me. I thought I had not slept a lot, but, according to my watch, my “actual sleeping time” was 7:30 hours in total. So, actually, it was not that bad…

We got up, with some effort, and we started our “day”…

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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PS. Sorry I didn't take any Koa snaps this day 🫣

#Journal of a slightly relaxed Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 10/07/2026).

I had a bit of a shorter night than I hoped, as Koa needed two potty breaks, and it took a little time to doze off. So, when we got up, I was still a tad tired and also, rather sore. Time to take my meds again! I used the scale, which wasn't too bad, and I got dressed. I took the meds, and prepared Koa’s meal. When he had finished, we got to the couch, where I settled down with my laptop.

I was just writing my sweet friend an email, when he emailed me with some awesome news! I saved the message I was working on, sent him a quick, very excited, email, and I promised I would send a longer email to him in a bit, as I was still working on it. But, I had to quickly reply to the awesomeness!

I finished the email, and made some brekkie. Followed by writing my journal toot. When that had been uploaded to the usual places, I took Koa out for a little walk. He did his things, and we got back home, where we relaxed on the couch for a while. I wrote a little bit for my blog site, while I watched some more of Criminal Minds.

When it was getting light out, while it was still a bit cooler, I took Koa out for another walk. I decided that I wanted to try a new, a bit longer, route with him. As it would be a warmer day, according to the forecast, I wanted Koa to have a nice walk before the weather got too warm for it. It was a bit hard on my back and leg, but I think Koa enjoyed it, even though it was a bit “scary” at times as well, with all the new impressions.

We got back, and I was rather tired. I think Koa was a tad tired too, so we relaxed together for a while. As my back and leg were a bit sore, since we walked 1,2km, according to Koa’s GPS tracker, I got into my shortama, and I went to bed for a while. I wanted to leave Koa loose, as in, not crate him. But, he started messing with my curtains… First, he kept trying to open them, while I closed them, to keep the heat and light out. When he started to chew on the curtains, I knew I had to crate him.

I relaxed for about 45 minutes, and then Koa started to get uneasy. He had drank a bit when we got back from the walk, so I figured he had to go out for a wee. I dressed again, and we headed out for a short walk. Koa’s idea of a short walk was a bit longer than mine, and when we got back, my back and leg weren’t too pleased with me. I got to bed again for a little while.

Mum texted me that she was on her way with the groceries, so I got dressed, and I opened the roller-curtain, so we could enter the house from the backside parking. Koa wanted to go out again, so we went out, and he did his business. I had just cleaned it up, when mum arrived. I got Koa inside, and helped mum with the groceries. When they were cleaned up, I got mum’s laptop, which she brought, and I “got to work”.

I saw that dad had installed two free antivirus programs. I always thought that you should only use one, as they could work against each other in some ways. I had a license to a paid antivirus program, so I deleted the two free ones, and I installed the paid version. I think that one paid version is better than two free ones… Then, I installed the chat-apps for mum. When her old phone died, I asked her why she didn’t use the apps on her laptop, also because it could be easier for her, with typing on a normal keyboard. Mum didn’t even know that this was possible… So, I installed the apps for her, and we connected them with the phone apps. Maybe, in a way, this can make chatting for mum a bit easier…

Koa had to go out for a wee, but I was expecting new filters for the ventilation system, and a parcel with new snacks for Koa was on its way. Mum offered to stay home for a bit, so I could take Koa out for a short walk. When Koa and I got back, mum had gotten a few new sets of filters, so I immediately took them upstairs, and exchanged the dirty old ones for a new set.

Mum headed back home, and Koa and I relaxed for a bit. When the parcel with Koa’s snacks had arrived, he and I went to bed. Not so sleep yet, but to relax, as my back was still bothering me. After about 30 minutes, I took my meds, and I made Koa his meal. I could use the new scale, and this one seemed a lot more accurate. Yay! When Koa was done with his meal, we went outside for a bit, and he could do his thing. Then, I brushed my teeth, and Koa and I did go to bed for some snoozing.

I dozed off a bit, and then Koa woke me up already for a big pee. And, back to bed again… After some more snoozing, Koa woke me up again, and this time, after a few minutes outside, he did a big number 2. And, back to bed… When he woke me up again, I felt like I could have slept a bit longer… But, I also felt like it was time to take my meds, as my back was very unkind to me. I thought I had not slept a lot, but, according to my watch, my “actual sleeping time” was 7:30 hours in total. So, actually, it was not that bad…

We got up, with some effort, and we started our “day”…

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

PS. Sorry I didn't take any Koa snaps this day 🫣

#Journal of a slightly enthusiastic, and slightly exhausted, Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 09/07/2026).

After an OK enough night, with about 7 hours of sleep in total, Koa told me it was time to get up and to start our “day”. I got to the scale, which surprised me a little, in a nice way. I dressed, took my meds, fed the little nibbler, and then I got to the couch with my laptop. I wrote a long email to my sweet friend, followed by my journal toot. When the toot was uploaded to all the usual places, I put away the laptop, and fixed myself some brekkie.

After brekkie, Koa and I went for a short walkies. When we got back, we crashed on the couch, and relaxed for a while. I worked a bit on a blog post, while I watched some Criminal Minds. After some telly time, it was getting light out, and Koa and I went for another walk. I made some food for Koa, before I headed upstairs for my little bike ride. Koa wasn’t too pleased with me being gone, but fortunately, he wasn't too vocal about it. When I got back downstairs, I fixed myself some food as well.

Bestie called me on her way to physio, and we had a nice chat. I walked a bit with Koa, and then we relaxed again. I wanted to go to the store, to buy some envelopes and stamps. I could go with Skoosh, and be back in a jiffy. But, the weather was nice, my meds were working, and I felt eager to walk a bit, and see how that would go.

I texted the neighbor, asking if she’d be interested in joining me and Koa for a walk to the store. It turned out, she was just getting ready to head to the supermarket, which is about 140m from the store I needed. So, we met up to walk together. After a little bit, she took over Koa’s leash, which helped my back a lot. And, I think she enjoyed it too. It had been two weeks since her furry loved one had passed the rainbow bridge, so it was hard for her. But, I saw her smile a bit from time to time, which made me feel a bit better. I had forgotten to turn on the GPS tracking on Koa’s collar, so we missed a bit of the activity. But… We managed to get to the stores, and then back again. I was dead, and Koa was rather tired too. Time and distance wise, it was the max for him, maybe a bit too much, because of all the new impressions. But, Koa had done a great job! And I think all three of us had enjoyed the little walk and company.

When we got home, I gave Koa something to snack, and he went to the crate in the bedroom. I went to bed, not to sleep, but to relax. We had walked almost 2km, and it was a lot for my poor back and leg. And, while I was exhausted, I also felt good about it. We relaxed for about 90 minutes, and then Koa wanted to go out again. He had drunk a lot after coming home, so he had to wee. I was all for a short nip to the grassy field behind the house, and then back again. Koa wanted a bit more… Which was not appreciated by my leg and back.

We got back, and we relaxed a bit. I got Koa’s old-skool photo album, and I started adding the pictures that had arrived the previous day. Koa started “playing” with my curtains, which I had closed due to both heat and light, and when he used his little teefs in them, I put him back into the crate. I finished adding all the pictures, now I need to add all the dates into an excel sheet, and hope that my dad will want to print them, so that I can cut them out, and add them to the pictures.

When I was done, I gave Koa his meal. We went into the garden for a while, where he could do his things. After that, I took my meds, and we got ready to head to bed. It was a bit earlier, but I was just so tired… Of course, Koa was snoozing in no time, and it took me a bit longer to get comfortable enough to doze off.

I woke up a few times for doggy breaks, I still hope that, sooner rather than later, Koa will be back to needing max 1 potty break a night. He was on one for a while, but then he fell back into needing two… The breeder says the bladder control should be getting better once they’ve finished the teething process. Koa has two wobble little teefs in the front, and he still needs to exchange the fangs and molars… So, I guess I will have to be patient a bit longer… (although, after more than 11 weeks, I do long for a few “good nights”…).

We got up, and I used the scale. It was a bit higher, weight wise, but the fat percentage was a bit lower, so I guess it’s not that bad. I still hope to get my weight below the 80 kilos again, sooner than later would be nice, I want to be able to shed this obesity again… At the end of last year, I finally got close to it, but then, due to weather, family things, and me feeling like crap, it went up again. I really hope that I can start visiting the gym again soon, if both Koa and my body will allow it… I really miss it, in more than one way…

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

#Journal of a slightly enthusiastic, and slightly exhausted, Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 09/07/2026).

After an OK enough night, with about 7 hours of sleep in total, Koa told me it was time to get up and to start our “day”. I got to the scale, which surprised me a little, in a nice way. I dressed, took my meds, fed the little nibbler, and then I got to the couch with my laptop. I wrote a long email to my sweet friend, followed by my journal toot. When the toot was uploaded to all the usual places, I put away the laptop, and fixed myself some brekkie.

After brekkie, Koa and I went for a short walkies. When we got back, we crashed on the couch, and relaxed for a while. I worked a bit on a blog post, while I watched some Criminal Minds. After some telly time, it was getting light out, and Koa and I went for another walk. I made some food for Koa, before I headed upstairs for my little bike ride. Koa wasn’t too pleased with me being gone, but fortunately, he wasn't too vocal about it. When I got back downstairs, I fixed myself some food as well.

Bestie called me on her way to physio, and we had a nice chat. I walked a bit with Koa, and then we relaxed again. I wanted to go to the store, to buy some envelopes and stamps. I could go with Skoosh, and be back in a jiffy. But, the weather was nice, my meds were working, and I felt eager to walk a bit, and see how that would go.

I texted the neighbor, asking if she’d be interested in joining me and Koa for a walk to the store. It turned out, she was just getting ready to head to the supermarket, which is about 140m from the store I needed. So, we met up to walk together. After a little bit, she took over Koa’s leash, which helped my back a lot. And, I think she enjoyed it too. It had been two weeks since her furry loved one had passed the rainbow bridge, so it was hard for her. But, I saw her smile a bit from time to time, which made me feel a bit better. I had forgotten to turn on the GPS tracking on Koa’s collar, so we missed a bit of the activity. But… We managed to get to the stores, and then back again. I was dead, and Koa was rather tired too. Time and distance wise, it was the max for him, maybe a bit too much, because of all the new impressions. But, Koa had done a great job! And I think all three of us had enjoyed the little walk and company.

When we got home, I gave Koa something to snack, and he went to the crate in the bedroom. I went to bed, not to sleep, but to relax. We had walked almost 2km, and it was a lot for my poor back and leg. And, while I was exhausted, I also felt good about it. We relaxed for about 90 minutes, and then Koa wanted to go out again. He had drunk a lot after coming home, so he had to wee. I was all for a short nip to the grassy field behind the house, and then back again. Koa wanted a bit more… Which was not appreciated by my leg and back.

We got back, and we relaxed a bit. I got Koa’s old-skool photo album, and I started adding the pictures that had arrived the previous day. Koa started “playing” with my curtains, which I had closed due to both heat and light, and when he used his little teefs in them, I put him back into the crate. I finished adding all the pictures, now I need to add all the dates into an excel sheet, and hope that my dad will want to print them, so that I can cut them out, and add them to the pictures.

When I was done, I gave Koa his meal. We went into the garden for a while, where he could do his things. After that, I took my meds, and we got ready to head to bed. It was a bit earlier, but I was just so tired… Of course, Koa was snoozing in no time, and it took me a bit longer to get comfortable enough to doze off.

I woke up a few times for doggy breaks, I still hope that, sooner rather than later, Koa will be back to needing max 1 potty break a night. He was on one for a while, but then he fell back into needing two… The breeder says the bladder control should be getting better once they’ve finished the teething process. Koa has two wobble little teefs in the front, and he still needs to exchange the fangs and molars… So, I guess I will have to be patient a bit longer… (although, after more than 11 weeks, I do long for a few “good nights”…).

We got up, and I used the scale. It was a bit higher, weight wise, but the fat percentage was a bit lower, so I guess it’s not that bad. I still hope to get my weight below the 80 kilos again, sooner than later would be nice, I want to be able to shed this obesity again… At the end of last year, I finally got close to it, but then, due to weather, family things, and me feeling like crap, it went up again. I really hope that I can start visiting the gym again soon, if both Koa and my body will allow it… I really miss it, in more than one way…

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾

#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

#Journal of a slightly relaxed Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesday, 08/07/2026).

I was rather tired, and thanks to the meds, and thanks to Koa, I was able to get some more sleep tonight. Which had been very welcome, and needed… When Koa woke me up, I could not believe the time on my phone. Until I felt my body, and I realized that my pain meds had been done with… I tried to get to the scale, which was not too bad, and then I got dressed. I took my meds, and made Koa happy with a nice meal. Then, we went to the couch, where we tried to relax some.

I got my laptop, and I wrote an email to a sweet friend, and then I wrote my journal toot. When all the writing had been finished, I fixed myself some brekkie. I took Koa for a short walkies. After that, we got back to the couch, and we tried to relax a bit with some telly.

It was a good night, and we had a relaxing time. When it got light out, Koa and I went for a short walk. I fixed some food for Koa and myself, and I watched some telly. After some more relaxing, I took Koa out for a little longer walk. While we were walking, bestie called me on her way to work. We had a nice chat, and Koa and I managed an 842m walk, according to his GPS tracker.

When bestie had arrived, it was time for me to head upstairs for a bit, to ride my bike. I was a bit distracted, and had an 18-minute ride. A bit longer than I should have, but it had gone well enough. I relaxed for a little while, and then Koa and I went out for another walk, but a shorter one this time.

We relaxed a lot today, with some walkies in between. I received my parcel with the picture prints that I had ordered. I sorted all of them, making sure they would be in the right order. When that was done, I received my parcel with the special 40th anniversary vinyl of Roxette’s “Neverending Love” single.

My back was really sore, and I could not get comfy on the couch, so I got everything ready to head to bed. Not to sleep, but to allow my back to relax properly. After an hour, I got up again, and I fed my boy. He went out for his business, and I took my meds. I went back to bed again, and now I was hoping to get some sleep, but my brain and body would not allow me to relax enough. So it took me quite a little while before I was finally able to doze off…

Koa woke me up twice during the night. When he woke me up again, it was too early, and I told him I needed at least another hour. And… He dozed off again, as did I, and… he woke me up again an hour later. So yeah, it was time to get up then. According to my watch, I got about 7 hours of sleep, so it wasn't too bad. Koa and I got up, and we started our “day”.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

#Journal of a slightly relaxed Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesday, 08/07/2026).

I was rather tired, and thanks to the meds, and thanks to Koa, I was able to get some more sleep tonight. Which had been very welcome, and needed… When Koa woke me up, I could not believe the time on my phone. Until I felt my body, and I realized that my pain meds had been done with… I tried to get to the scale, which was not too bad, and then I got dressed. I took my meds, and made Koa happy with a nice meal. Then, we went to the couch, where we tried to relax some.

I got my laptop, and I wrote an email to a sweet friend, and then I wrote my journal toot. When all the writing had been finished, I fixed myself some brekkie. I took Koa for a short walkies. After that, we got back to the couch, and we tried to relax a bit with some telly.

It was a good night, and we had a relaxing time. When it got light out, Koa and I went for a short walk. I fixed some food for Koa and myself, and I watched some telly. After some more relaxing, I took Koa out for a little longer walk. While we were walking, bestie called me on her way to work. We had a nice chat, and Koa and I managed an 842m walk, according to his GPS tracker.

When bestie had arrived, it was time for me to head upstairs for a bit, to ride my bike. I was a bit distracted, and had an 18-minute ride. A bit longer than I should have, but it had gone well enough. I relaxed for a little while, and then Koa and I went out for another walk, but a shorter one this time.

We relaxed a lot today, with some walkies in between. I received my parcel with the picture prints that I had ordered. I sorted all of them, making sure they would be in the right order. When that was done, I received my parcel with the special 40th anniversary vinyl of Roxette’s “Neverending Love” single.

My back was really sore, and I could not get comfy on the couch, so I got everything ready to head to bed. Not to sleep, but to allow my back to relax properly. After an hour, I got up again, and I fed my boy. He went out for his business, and I took my meds. I went back to bed again, and now I was hoping to get some sleep, but my brain and body would not allow me to relax enough. So it took me quite a little while before I was finally able to doze off…

Koa woke me up twice during the night. When he woke me up again, it was too early, and I told him I needed at least another hour. And… He dozed off again, as did I, and… he woke me up again an hour later. So yeah, it was time to get up then. According to my watch, I got about 7 hours of sleep, so it wasn't too bad. Koa and I got up, and we started our “day”.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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#Journal of a slightly busy Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Sunday, 05/07/2026).

I didn’t have the best night, as it took some time to get comfortable enough to fall asleep, and Koa woke me up several times for potty breaks… So when he woke me up again, I understood he had been in the crate long enough, and we got up to start our “day”. I got dressed, took my meds, and prepared Koa’s meal. After that, we got to the couch, where I grabbed my laptop to start my usual “couch routine”.

I wrote a long email to my sweet friend. Followed by the writing of my journal toot. When it was done, I uploaded it to all the usual places. Koa wanted out for walkies, so we went for a short round. When we got back, I got back to the couch for some relaxing. I watched a bit of telly, and I scrolled on my phone. I wrote a bit for my blog as well. Basically, I tried to relax as much as I could, as the previous two days had worn me out quite a bit.

After a while, Koa and I went out for another short walk. Then, I headed upstairs. First, I rode my bike on the lowest, slowest, setting for 15 minutes. When I was done, I folded the dry laundry, and took it downstairs with me. I wanted to relax a bit on the couch, before putting away the clothes and such. But, before I was ready with my relaxing, Koa already wanted some attention.

I wonder at times, how much he is training and testing me, with his barking to go out. If I ignore it, it could be that he did have to go, and he’ll “reward me” with something to clean up. But, maybe he knows that a bark will get him out, whether he needs a pee/poop or not… So, he barks, and I respond. Even when I feel like he is testing/trying me, I still don’t want to be wrong, and end up needing to clean a smelly mess…

Koa and I got back from walkies. I made him his food, and then I made some for myself as well. We relaxed a bit, and I got my little vacuum cleaner, so I could vacuum the downstairs area a bit easier than with the big one. The small one isn't as good, but still, it was better than not vacuuming at all. When I was done, Koa and I relaxed for a while.

Mum had texted me the previous day, that she’d be with us between 10-10:30. So, a bit before ten, Koa and I went out for a walk again. And then, I watched some telly, while waiting for mum. When it was 10:32, I got a text that mum was coming… Unfortunately, she meant she was just leaving their home, which meant that I had been waiting for half an hour for nothing… And I would have to wait a little longer as well. I walked Koa again, and then I crated him, so I could do my stretching exercise while waiting for mum.

Mum finally came, Koa got all excited, and he managed to “hug” mum a bit too enthusiastically, so I got mum a bandage. I got out my laptop, as I wanted to work on mum’s old phone. But, that one wasn’t interested in working at all. So, we focused on the new phone, to get everything installed and working. We worked on it for about 90 minutes. Then, we took Koa out for a little walk. When we got back, Koa was too excited with mum again, so bandage number 2 was needed. Mum does bleed rather quickly and easily though… When Koa relaxed a bit, I gave him a new plush toy that I had waiting for him: a new Ikea Giraffe (the small one). Koa was all excited about it, and he dragged it along with him, which looked rather silly.

We finished working on mum’s new phone. The old one still was a no-go, so it would stay with me, so I could try it some more. Koa had his meal, and then mum got ready to head back home. We got to their car, so I could connect the phone to the car’s Bluetooth system. Then, I went back to Koa, who was barking in the garden, all abandoned and alone, the poor thing. Mum went home, and Koa and I got ready to head to bed. I was very tired, after all the little walks with Koa, and being busy with mum’s phone for about two hours.

It didn’t take too long for Koa to doze off, and I was hoping that I could join him soon. I needed an extra painkiller, as my body would not let me get comfortable enough to relax. After a while, the meds started to work, and I felt myself get so tired. So, I dozed off for a while. Koa let me sleep for several hours, which felt good. We went out, he did his things, and we got back to sleep for about 2 more hours. I didn’t get as much sleep as I hoped for, according to my watch, it was a little less than 6 hours in total. But, some of the sleep I did get, was rather nice. We got up a bit earlier than I hoped, and we started our “day”.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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