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#Journal of a slightly rested, but also anxious, Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 04/08/2026).

It had taken me some time to be comfortable and doze off. Something woke me up again about an hour later. After a bit, I got comfortable again, and the sleeping pill I'd taken before going to bed, it started doing its work, and I dozed off again. I woke up again when my alarm told me it was time to get up, and get to the living room, so mum could go to bed, and hopefully get some sleep.

Koa was glad to see me, and I think mum was too. I fixed Koa's food, while mum was getting ready for bed. We said goodnight, again 😉, and she went upstairs. I let Koa in the garden where he did his things. After I'd taken my meds, I headed to the couch. I got my tablet, and I started writing my email reply to a sweet friend's message. Koa went to his bed, where he snuggled up, and he dozed off. I was able to finish my email, and then I took the dude out for a short walk.

We got back, and I made, and ate, my brekkie. I got my laptop out, and started working on a blog post for today. When I finished it, Koa let me know that he was ready to head out again for another little walk. We got back, and I started to write my journal Toot. But I didn't get very far. Koa got his meal, and then I decided that I wanted to try and get a shower by myself. Mum had brought the shower crutch, so I could safely sit, while trying to wash my hair and body, while keeping my right hand safe from my clumsiness.

It wasn't too easy, and I had to take Koa into the bathroom with me (and he still barked once, but fortunately mum did not hear it), but... I managed to wash my hair, and most of my body, and with some more effort, I managed to dry myself off, and get dressed again. I was still catching my breath a bit, after all the hard work, when Koa let me know that I'd better put on my shoes... Yup, he wanted to go out again. As it was near the time that bestie said she'd call me, I got my headphones on. They also helped to keep my cap in place, as it was rather windy outside. Koa and I were on our way, when bestie called.

We chatted while Koa got his sniffs in, and we were still talking when my mum came downstairs. She wanted to help me shower, and I had to tell her twice that I'd already done that. As mum was a bit oblivious to me being on the phone, bestie hung up so I could focus on mum. Ugh, all the times she was on the phone, and I just had to wait till she was ready. And when I'm on the phone, she just babbles through, not really realizing how annoying it is. Of course, just after we hung up, mum went upstairs to get ready, which took quite a while, so I could have just finished the call. 😔

When mum came back down again, she had some breakfast. I went out with Koa, while mum changed the bedding for me. I tried to walk slowly, so Koa could have all the sniffs, and do his things. When we got back, I started getting everything ready, as it was almost time for mum and me to head to the hospital for my hand rehab appointments. I set up the tablet, so I could use the webcam app to keep an eye on the dude. He got some snacks, we offered him water, and then we headed out.

Koa kept being a bit restless. Nothing too bad but it got me worried some, as he didn't seem able to relax. I had texted the neighbor, but she wasn't able to check on him, to see what was bothering him. I even texted our friend, but she also wouldn't be able to check on Koa. It still went OK enough during my first appointment with the ergo therapist. He was able to make me a new, smaller, splint, and when it was done, we had to wait in the waiting room for 15 minutes till the second appointment. But... That's when things went worse with Koa, and I got so worried that I started crying. All I wanted to do was to go home to hug my dude. But, mum thought it was better if I would stay for the appointment, as my exercises were important for my rehab.

So, I waited for the appointment, while I hoped mum would be careful, driving to Koa, and that she would be in time, before anything would go terribly wrong. Koa started pulling on the metal with his teefs again, and that's when I tried out the "talk" function for the first time. Koa seemed to hear me, as he reacted to it. But it also made me worry some more, cause what would happen when he realizes that I am not there? I got called in for my appointment, and I told the therapist about the situation. She probably wasn't a dog person or at least not familiar with steel wire crates, as she didn't understand my worries over Koa's teefs getting stuck in the wires, and what could happen if that happened and he'd panic...

I tried to focus on the exercises, but I was teary-eyed and a bit too distracted. The therapist was happy about the progress I had made during the last few weeks. And she taught me a new exercise, which hurt quite a bit. I couldn't properly relax, which made the exercise harder. I apologized for being so distracted, and tense, but I do think that she kinda understood. So when she was sure that I understood the exercises for the week to come, she dismissed me a little earlier, so I could focus on Koa first. Just after I walked out of the therapy ward, I saw that mum was opening the crate for a very excited Koa. While I walked to the entrance/exit, I was softly crying from relief.

I sat down in the little waiting/sitting area, and called mum. She would take Koa with her, and they'd pick me up together. I was so glad that nothing bad had happened. I used Koa's GPS tracking app to follow mum and him, while they were on their way. When they were close, I got outside, and happily got in the car.

Mum drove back home, once again, and she walked with Koa on the grassy field, while I tried to put mum's things in their car. I was very grateful for mum's help both with sleeping over, so I could use a sleeping pill to get some rest. And for taking the time to pick up Koa when I was so worried over him. 😢

I fixed Koa his meal, and I got myself a snack. It seemed that I wasn't the only one who was exhausted of all the stress from this morning. I had thought that Koa would be eager for walkies. But he wanted to go to the garden, and then he kept checking out the bedroom crate. So, I got everything ready for bedtime. I first watched a bit of my series, and then I let out Koa again, before trying to get some sleep.

I dozed off, and woke up shortly after, from a very weird and scary nightmare. Then, I started to feel rather warm again, so I struggled with my bedding for a bit. I dozed off and woke up a few times. Koa and I went out once again, and then I got some broken sleep, till it was time to get up, and start our "day". I felt very sore, and still rather tired, but I had to take care of my sweet boy, so...

Hey ho, let's see what today will bring us...

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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