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#Journal of a slightly exhausted Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Monday, 25/05/2026).

Koa and I had a decent enough sleep. I had woken up a few times for the loo, and Koa had done his best to sleep some more, which I really appreciated. I had hoped that he would have woken me a bit later than usual, as today was going to be a long day (for me, at least). But Koa’s internal vampire clock warned me when midnight was coming, and the nocturnal ones should come out to play. So, I got up, and we started our “day”.

I started with the usual routine. I let Koa out, and left the kitchen door open for a while, so some of the cold could come in to cool the house a bit. I used the scale, got dressed, managed not to trip over Koa, who tried to help me to get dressed… And I fixed Koa’s meal, which he attacked like he had not seen food in years, haha! As usual, I grabbed my laptop, and I started on an email to my friend. But then, another friend texted me, and he brought me the saddest news….

A sweet friend of ours, that we “met” through Mastodon, had passed away… I knew she was not doing well, and I knew she was in way too much pain, so I know this is better for her. But, she had gone through so much, and just when some things were getting better, she got hit with the worst. She deserved so much better, and I will miss her a lot! When we just met, we chatted on Masto for hours, and then, we switched to Signal. She was a nocturnal person as well, and many nightly walks with Arwen, I spent chatting with her. I loved her as a dear friend, I even sent her several parcels in the past (as it was quicker than me bringing them by rowboat, as we used to joke). She will be missed by many, and I will not forget about her either… She was loved…

But yeah, to start your “day” with that news… It was hard on me. Heck writing about it makes me sob again, so yeah. I cuddled with Koa, who’d come to me, as I was sobbing on the couch. When Koa got too bitey, and kept pulling my shoelaces again and again, I had to crate him. I wrote my email to my sweet friend, and then I started on the journal toot. When I had finished that, Koa and I went out for a short nightly walk. There were fewer bugs attracted to my head lamp this time, so that was a lot better, haha.

I wrote some more for my blog, and I wrote a diary toot for Koa. After some brekkie, things were getting light out, so Koa and I went for walkies again. He wanted a longer one, and I happily obliged. And then, he saw his first cat! And the cat saw Koa… I tried to take a little video of it. And then, we continued on our way. We got back, and I had some food. Then, I started the dishwasher, as the sun had come out, and was already hitting the solar panels. When they were giving me some more juice, I also started the washing machine, as I still needed to wash the bedding.

I hung up the laundry while Koa was eating, and when I got back down, I think he had not even missed me. He was up to some mischief with his food bowl, so that may have kept him quiet as well, haha. We went for another walk, and then I tried to relax for a bit in the garden with Koa. I managed to read some, and Koa had a few splashes in the pool. He liked it, but I need to be with him when he uses it. It’s still a bit scary to do on his own… Bless his little paws!

When Koa started to bite too many things, and the sun was getting quite warm, we got back inside again. We relaxed for a while, went on another walk, and then I tried to snooze for a bit on the couch, as it was going to be a late day. It took a little while to doze off, but when I heard that Koa (who wasn’t in his crate at the time) was sleeping peacefully, I managed to doze off for about half an hour.

I woke up, and Koa had been such a good boy! I got the small crate folded up, and Koa and I went for walkies Then, I put him in the car, and managed to get the crate in too. Yay for that! We headed to Nijmegen, which all went rather well. Koa was complaining a bit about the heat in the car, but he doesn’t know how spoiled he is, haha, as Skoosh has a decent aircon system in her. When we got to my parent’s place, I set up the crate for Koa.

When mum was ready, she opted to take the dogs in the car, and drive to another small woods, for a cooler walkies. So, we did that, and Koa and Bas had a good time! Koa was smelling so much, that he kept pulling on the leash, and I wasn’t able to take a little video, unfortunately. But he had a good walk with Bas (and us), and when we got back, he was a happy dude. Bas got his food, and Koa got the kibble mat with part of his food. When the dogs had been fed, mum ordered Chinese food for us, and I went to pick it up.

We had a nice meal, and then mum, and I got ready to head to the first puppy class. It was a longer theory class, so Koa would stay with dad. I had let him out for a pee and some water, and told dad that, should Koa whine, that he needs to let him out for the garden and something to drink. With fingers and toes crossed for things to go OK, mum, and I went to the location of the doggy school.

We were the first to arrive, and we chatted a bit with the teacher. When most people had arrived, she started the class. One lady was coming a few minutes late, as she called Rubia (the teacher), to ask where she needed to be. So, when everyone was present, the class began. Everyone introduced themselves, and told a bit about their dogs, and why they signed up. The theory was for two groups, the puppy class, and the puberty class. Rubia told us a lot, asked us a lot, and showed things on a bigger screen. She had some videos from TikTok, and it reminded me that I never want to join there! (well, I did once, but nope…). One of the vids almost had me in tears… Ugh…

Class was good, and lasted about two hours. Then, mum and I headed back to their home. According to dad, Koa had been sleeping since we left, so I quickly let him out, as of course he had to pee now. I got everything back in Skoosh, and we skedaddled back home again. I unloaded Skoosh, set up the crate in the bedroom again, and Koa and I got ready for bed.

When I just dozed off, Koa started making noise. And I didn’t understand why, as he had done the numbers one and two just before bed, he had slobbered at his bowl before bedtime, he had gotten his bedtime kibble… But he kept making noise, and I found myself being very grouchy, as I was just too tired. I took Koa out, and he just sat there. I cuddled him, asked him what he needed… And, after a few minutes, Koa and I went to bed. I still don’t know what made him so anxious, as he had not done anything when he got out of the crate. But, I was able to doze off…

About 4 hours later, I woke up for the loo, and decided to start our “day”, as I knew Koa would be hungry and all that. So, we got up, and started the routine…

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾

#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

#Journal of a slightly exhausted Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Monday, 25/05/2026).

Koa and I had a decent enough sleep. I had woken up a few times for the loo, and Koa had done his best to sleep some more, which I really appreciated. I had hoped that he would have woken me a bit later than usual, as today was going to be a long day (for me, at least). But Koa’s internal vampire clock warned me when midnight was coming, and the nocturnal ones should come out to play. So, I got up, and we started our “day”.

I started with the usual routine. I let Koa out, and left the kitchen door open for a while, so some of the cold could come in to cool the house a bit. I used the scale, got dressed, managed not to trip over Koa, who tried to help me to get dressed… And I fixed Koa’s meal, which he attacked like he had not seen food in years, haha! As usual, I grabbed my laptop, and I started on an email to my friend. But then, another friend texted me, and he brought me the saddest news….

A sweet friend of ours, that we “met” through Mastodon, had passed away… I knew she was not doing well, and I knew she was in way too much pain, so I know this is better for her. But, she had gone through so much, and just when some things were getting better, she got hit with the worst. She deserved so much better, and I will miss her a lot! When we just met, we chatted on Masto for hours, and then, we switched to Signal. She was a nocturnal person as well, and many nightly walks with Arwen, I spent chatting with her. I loved her as a dear friend, I even sent her several parcels in the past (as it was quicker than me bringing them by rowboat, as we used to joke). She will be missed by many, and I will not forget about her either… She was loved…

But yeah, to start your “day” with that news… It was hard on me. Heck writing about it makes me sob again, so yeah. I cuddled with Koa, who’d come to me, as I was sobbing on the couch. When Koa got too bitey, and kept pulling my shoelaces again and again, I had to crate him. I wrote my email to my sweet friend, and then I started on the journal toot. When I had finished that, Koa and I went out for a short nightly walk. There were fewer bugs attracted to my head lamp this time, so that was a lot better, haha.

I wrote some more for my blog, and I wrote a diary toot for Koa. After some brekkie, things were getting light out, so Koa and I went for walkies again. He wanted a longer one, and I happily obliged. And then, he saw his first cat! And the cat saw Koa… I tried to take a little video of it. And then, we continued on our way. We got back, and I had some food. Then, I started the dishwasher, as the sun had come out, and was already hitting the solar panels. When they were giving me some more juice, I also started the washing machine, as I still needed to wash the bedding.

I hung up the laundry while Koa was eating, and when I got back down, I think he had not even missed me. He was up to some mischief with his food bowl, so that may have kept him quiet as well, haha. We went for another walk, and then I tried to relax for a bit in the garden with Koa. I managed to read some, and Koa had a few splashes in the pool. He liked it, but I need to be with him when he uses it. It’s still a bit scary to do on his own… Bless his little paws!

When Koa started to bite too many things, and the sun was getting quite warm, we got back inside again. We relaxed for a while, went on another walk, and then I tried to snooze for a bit on the couch, as it was going to be a late day. It took a little while to doze off, but when I heard that Koa (who wasn’t in his crate at the time) was sleeping peacefully, I managed to doze off for about half an hour.

I woke up, and Koa had been such a good boy! I got the small crate folded up, and Koa and I went for walkies Then, I put him in the car, and managed to get the crate in too. Yay for that! We headed to Nijmegen, which all went rather well. Koa was complaining a bit about the heat in the car, but he doesn’t know how spoiled he is, haha, as Skoosh has a decent aircon system in her. When we got to my parent’s place, I set up the crate for Koa.

When mum was ready, she opted to take the dogs in the car, and drive to another small woods, for a cooler walkies. So, we did that, and Koa and Bas had a good time! Koa was smelling so much, that he kept pulling on the leash, and I wasn’t able to take a little video, unfortunately. But he had a good walk with Bas (and us), and when we got back, he was a happy dude. Bas got his food, and Koa got the kibble mat with part of his food. When the dogs had been fed, mum ordered Chinese food for us, and I went to pick it up.

We had a nice meal, and then mum, and I got ready to head to the first puppy class. It was a longer theory class, so Koa would stay with dad. I had let him out for a pee and some water, and told dad that, should Koa whine, that he needs to let him out for the garden and something to drink. With fingers and toes crossed for things to go OK, mum, and I went to the location of the doggy school.

We were the first to arrive, and we chatted a bit with the teacher. When most people had arrived, she started the class. One lady was coming a few minutes late, as she called Rubia (the teacher), to ask where she needed to be. So, when everyone was present, the class began. Everyone introduced themselves, and told a bit about their dogs, and why they signed up. The theory was for two groups, the puppy class, and the puberty class. Rubia told us a lot, asked us a lot, and showed things on a bigger screen. She had some videos from TikTok, and it reminded me that I never want to join there! (well, I did once, but nope…). One of the vids almost had me in tears… Ugh…

Class was good, and lasted about two hours. Then, mum and I headed back to their home. According to dad, Koa had been sleeping since we left, so I quickly let him out, as of course he had to pee now. I got everything back in Skoosh, and we skedaddled back home again. I unloaded Skoosh, set up the crate in the bedroom again, and Koa and I got ready for bed.

When I just dozed off, Koa started making noise. And I didn’t understand why, as he had done the numbers one and two just before bed, he had slobbered at his bowl before bedtime, he had gotten his bedtime kibble… But he kept making noise, and I found myself being very grouchy, as I was just too tired. I took Koa out, and he just sat there. I cuddled him, asked him what he needed… And, after a few minutes, Koa and I went to bed. I still don’t know what made him so anxious, as he had not done anything when he got out of the crate. But, I was able to doze off…

About 4 hours later, I woke up for the loo, and decided to start our “day”, as I knew Koa would be hungry and all that. So, we got up, and started the routine…

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾

#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

#Journal of a slightly exhausted Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Monday, 25/05/2026).

Koa and I had a decent enough sleep. I had woken up a few times for the loo, and Koa had done his best to sleep some more, which I really appreciated. I had hoped that he would have woken me a bit later than usual, as today was going to be a long day (for me, at least). But Koa’s internal vampire clock warned me when midnight was coming, and the nocturnal ones should come out to play. So, I got up, and we started our “day”.

I started with the usual routine. I let Koa out, and left the kitchen door open for a while, so some of the cold could come in to cool the house a bit. I used the scale, got dressed, managed not to trip over Koa, who tried to help me to get dressed… And I fixed Koa’s meal, which he attacked like he had not seen food in years, haha! As usual, I grabbed my laptop, and I started on an email to my friend. But then, another friend texted me, and he brought me the saddest news….

A sweet friend of ours, that we “met” through Mastodon, had passed away… I knew she was not doing well, and I knew she was in way too much pain, so I know this is better for her. But, she had gone through so much, and just when some things were getting better, she got hit with the worst. She deserved so much better, and I will miss her a lot! When we just met, we chatted on Masto for hours, and then, we switched to Signal. She was a nocturnal person as well, and many nightly walks with Arwen, I spent chatting with her. I loved her as a dear friend, I even sent her several parcels in the past (as it was quicker than me bringing them by rowboat, as we used to joke). She will be missed by many, and I will not forget about her either… She was loved…

But yeah, to start your “day” with that news… It was hard on me. Heck writing about it makes me sob again, so yeah. I cuddled with Koa, who’d come to me, as I was sobbing on the couch. When Koa got too bitey, and kept pulling my shoelaces again and again, I had to crate him. I wrote my email to my sweet friend, and then I started on the journal toot. When I had finished that, Koa and I went out for a short nightly walk. There were fewer bugs attracted to my head lamp this time, so that was a lot better, haha.

I wrote some more for my blog, and I wrote a diary toot for Koa. After some brekkie, things were getting light out, so Koa and I went for walkies again. He wanted a longer one, and I happily obliged. And then, he saw his first cat! And the cat saw Koa… I tried to take a little video of it. And then, we continued on our way. We got back, and I had some food. Then, I started the dishwasher, as the sun had come out, and was already hitting the solar panels. When they were giving me some more juice, I also started the washing machine, as I still needed to wash the bedding.

I hung up the laundry while Koa was eating, and when I got back down, I think he had not even missed me. He was up to some mischief with his food bowl, so that may have kept him quiet as well, haha. We went for another walk, and then I tried to relax for a bit in the garden with Koa. I managed to read some, and Koa had a few splashes in the pool. He liked it, but I need to be with him when he uses it. It’s still a bit scary to do on his own… Bless his little paws!

When Koa started to bite too many things, and the sun was getting quite warm, we got back inside again. We relaxed for a while, went on another walk, and then I tried to snooze for a bit on the couch, as it was going to be a late day. It took a little while to doze off, but when I heard that Koa (who wasn’t in his crate at the time) was sleeping peacefully, I managed to doze off for about half an hour.

I woke up, and Koa had been such a good boy! I got the small crate folded up, and Koa and I went for walkies Then, I put him in the car, and managed to get the crate in too. Yay for that! We headed to Nijmegen, which all went rather well. Koa was complaining a bit about the heat in the car, but he doesn’t know how spoiled he is, haha, as Skoosh has a decent aircon system in her. When we got to my parent’s place, I set up the crate for Koa.

When mum was ready, she opted to take the dogs in the car, and drive to another small woods, for a cooler walkies. So, we did that, and Koa and Bas had a good time! Koa was smelling so much, that he kept pulling on the leash, and I wasn’t able to take a little video, unfortunately. But he had a good walk with Bas (and us), and when we got back, he was a happy dude. Bas got his food, and Koa got the kibble mat with part of his food. When the dogs had been fed, mum ordered Chinese food for us, and I went to pick it up.

We had a nice meal, and then mum, and I got ready to head to the first puppy class. It was a longer theory class, so Koa would stay with dad. I had let him out for a pee and some water, and told dad that, should Koa whine, that he needs to let him out for the garden and something to drink. With fingers and toes crossed for things to go OK, mum, and I went to the location of the doggy school.

We were the first to arrive, and we chatted a bit with the teacher. When most people had arrived, she started the class. One lady was coming a few minutes late, as she called Rubia (the teacher), to ask where she needed to be. So, when everyone was present, the class began. Everyone introduced themselves, and told a bit about their dogs, and why they signed up. The theory was for two groups, the puppy class, and the puberty class. Rubia told us a lot, asked us a lot, and showed things on a bigger screen. She had some videos from TikTok, and it reminded me that I never want to join there! (well, I did once, but nope…). One of the vids almost had me in tears… Ugh…

Class was good, and lasted about two hours. Then, mum and I headed back to their home. According to dad, Koa had been sleeping since we left, so I quickly let him out, as of course he had to pee now. I got everything back in Skoosh, and we skedaddled back home again. I unloaded Skoosh, set up the crate in the bedroom again, and Koa and I got ready for bed.

When I just dozed off, Koa started making noise. And I didn’t understand why, as he had done the numbers one and two just before bed, he had slobbered at his bowl before bedtime, he had gotten his bedtime kibble… But he kept making noise, and I found myself being very grouchy, as I was just too tired. I took Koa out, and he just sat there. I cuddled him, asked him what he needed… And, after a few minutes, Koa and I went to bed. I still don’t know what made him so anxious, as he had not done anything when he got out of the crate. But, I was able to doze off…

About 4 hours later, I woke up for the loo, and decided to start our “day”, as I knew Koa would be hungry and all that. So, we got up, and started the routine…

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾

#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

#Journal of a slightly exhausted Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Monday, 25/05/2026).

Koa and I had a decent enough sleep. I had woken up a few times for the loo, and Koa had done his best to sleep some more, which I really appreciated. I had hoped that he would have woken me a bit later than usual, as today was going to be a long day (for me, at least). But Koa’s internal vampire clock warned me when midnight was coming, and the nocturnal ones should come out to play. So, I got up, and we started our “day”.

I started with the usual routine. I let Koa out, and left the kitchen door open for a while, so some of the cold could come in to cool the house a bit. I used the scale, got dressed, managed not to trip over Koa, who tried to help me to get dressed… And I fixed Koa’s meal, which he attacked like he had not seen food in years, haha! As usual, I grabbed my laptop, and I started on an email to my friend. But then, another friend texted me, and he brought me the saddest news….

A sweet friend of ours, that we “met” through Mastodon, had passed away… I knew she was not doing well, and I knew she was in way too much pain, so I know this is better for her. But, she had gone through so much, and just when some things were getting better, she got hit with the worst. She deserved so much better, and I will miss her a lot! When we just met, we chatted on Masto for hours, and then, we switched to Signal. She was a nocturnal person as well, and many nightly walks with Arwen, I spent chatting with her. I loved her as a dear friend, I even sent her several parcels in the past (as it was quicker than me bringing them by rowboat, as we used to joke). She will be missed by many, and I will not forget about her either… She was loved…

But yeah, to start your “day” with that news… It was hard on me. Heck writing about it makes me sob again, so yeah. I cuddled with Koa, who’d come to me, as I was sobbing on the couch. When Koa got too bitey, and kept pulling my shoelaces again and again, I had to crate him. I wrote my email to my sweet friend, and then I started on the journal toot. When I had finished that, Koa and I went out for a short nightly walk. There were fewer bugs attracted to my head lamp this time, so that was a lot better, haha.

I wrote some more for my blog, and I wrote a diary toot for Koa. After some brekkie, things were getting light out, so Koa and I went for walkies again. He wanted a longer one, and I happily obliged. And then, he saw his first cat! And the cat saw Koa… I tried to take a little video of it. And then, we continued on our way. We got back, and I had some food. Then, I started the dishwasher, as the sun had come out, and was already hitting the solar panels. When they were giving me some more juice, I also started the washing machine, as I still needed to wash the bedding.

I hung up the laundry while Koa was eating, and when I got back down, I think he had not even missed me. He was up to some mischief with his food bowl, so that may have kept him quiet as well, haha. We went for another walk, and then I tried to relax for a bit in the garden with Koa. I managed to read some, and Koa had a few splashes in the pool. He liked it, but I need to be with him when he uses it. It’s still a bit scary to do on his own… Bless his little paws!

When Koa started to bite too many things, and the sun was getting quite warm, we got back inside again. We relaxed for a while, went on another walk, and then I tried to snooze for a bit on the couch, as it was going to be a late day. It took a little while to doze off, but when I heard that Koa (who wasn’t in his crate at the time) was sleeping peacefully, I managed to doze off for about half an hour.

I woke up, and Koa had been such a good boy! I got the small crate folded up, and Koa and I went for walkies Then, I put him in the car, and managed to get the crate in too. Yay for that! We headed to Nijmegen, which all went rather well. Koa was complaining a bit about the heat in the car, but he doesn’t know how spoiled he is, haha, as Skoosh has a decent aircon system in her. When we got to my parent’s place, I set up the crate for Koa.

When mum was ready, she opted to take the dogs in the car, and drive to another small woods, for a cooler walkies. So, we did that, and Koa and Bas had a good time! Koa was smelling so much, that he kept pulling on the leash, and I wasn’t able to take a little video, unfortunately. But he had a good walk with Bas (and us), and when we got back, he was a happy dude. Bas got his food, and Koa got the kibble mat with part of his food. When the dogs had been fed, mum ordered Chinese food for us, and I went to pick it up.

We had a nice meal, and then mum, and I got ready to head to the first puppy class. It was a longer theory class, so Koa would stay with dad. I had let him out for a pee and some water, and told dad that, should Koa whine, that he needs to let him out for the garden and something to drink. With fingers and toes crossed for things to go OK, mum, and I went to the location of the doggy school.

We were the first to arrive, and we chatted a bit with the teacher. When most people had arrived, she started the class. One lady was coming a few minutes late, as she called Rubia (the teacher), to ask where she needed to be. So, when everyone was present, the class began. Everyone introduced themselves, and told a bit about their dogs, and why they signed up. The theory was for two groups, the puppy class, and the puberty class. Rubia told us a lot, asked us a lot, and showed things on a bigger screen. She had some videos from TikTok, and it reminded me that I never want to join there! (well, I did once, but nope…). One of the vids almost had me in tears… Ugh…

Class was good, and lasted about two hours. Then, mum and I headed back to their home. According to dad, Koa had been sleeping since we left, so I quickly let him out, as of course he had to pee now. I got everything back in Skoosh, and we skedaddled back home again. I unloaded Skoosh, set up the crate in the bedroom again, and Koa and I got ready for bed.

When I just dozed off, Koa started making noise. And I didn’t understand why, as he had done the numbers one and two just before bed, he had slobbered at his bowl before bedtime, he had gotten his bedtime kibble… But he kept making noise, and I found myself being very grouchy, as I was just too tired. I took Koa out, and he just sat there. I cuddled him, asked him what he needed… And, after a few minutes, Koa and I went to bed. I still don’t know what made him so anxious, as he had not done anything when he got out of the crate. But, I was able to doze off…

About 4 hours later, I woke up for the loo, and decided to start our “day”, as I knew Koa would be hungry and all that. So, we got up, and started the routine…

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾

#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

#Journal of a slightly exhausted Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Monday, 25/05/2026).

Koa and I had a decent enough sleep. I had woken up a few times for the loo, and Koa had done his best to sleep some more, which I really appreciated. I had hoped that he would have woken me a bit later than usual, as today was going to be a long day (for me, at least). But Koa’s internal vampire clock warned me when midnight was coming, and the nocturnal ones should come out to play. So, I got up, and we started our “day”.

I started with the usual routine. I let Koa out, and left the kitchen door open for a while, so some of the cold could come in to cool the house a bit. I used the scale, got dressed, managed not to trip over Koa, who tried to help me to get dressed… And I fixed Koa’s meal, which he attacked like he had not seen food in years, haha! As usual, I grabbed my laptop, and I started on an email to my friend. But then, another friend texted me, and he brought me the saddest news….

A sweet friend of ours, that we “met” through Mastodon, had passed away… I knew she was not doing well, and I knew she was in way too much pain, so I know this is better for her. But, she had gone through so much, and just when some things were getting better, she got hit with the worst. She deserved so much better, and I will miss her a lot! When we just met, we chatted on Masto for hours, and then, we switched to Signal. She was a nocturnal person as well, and many nightly walks with Arwen, I spent chatting with her. I loved her as a dear friend, I even sent her several parcels in the past (as it was quicker than me bringing them by rowboat, as we used to joke). She will be missed by many, and I will not forget about her either… She was loved…

But yeah, to start your “day” with that news… It was hard on me. Heck writing about it makes me sob again, so yeah. I cuddled with Koa, who’d come to me, as I was sobbing on the couch. When Koa got too bitey, and kept pulling my shoelaces again and again, I had to crate him. I wrote my email to my sweet friend, and then I started on the journal toot. When I had finished that, Koa and I went out for a short nightly walk. There were fewer bugs attracted to my head lamp this time, so that was a lot better, haha.

I wrote some more for my blog, and I wrote a diary toot for Koa. After some brekkie, things were getting light out, so Koa and I went for walkies again. He wanted a longer one, and I happily obliged. And then, he saw his first cat! And the cat saw Koa… I tried to take a little video of it. And then, we continued on our way. We got back, and I had some food. Then, I started the dishwasher, as the sun had come out, and was already hitting the solar panels. When they were giving me some more juice, I also started the washing machine, as I still needed to wash the bedding.

I hung up the laundry while Koa was eating, and when I got back down, I think he had not even missed me. He was up to some mischief with his food bowl, so that may have kept him quiet as well, haha. We went for another walk, and then I tried to relax for a bit in the garden with Koa. I managed to read some, and Koa had a few splashes in the pool. He liked it, but I need to be with him when he uses it. It’s still a bit scary to do on his own… Bless his little paws!

When Koa started to bite too many things, and the sun was getting quite warm, we got back inside again. We relaxed for a while, went on another walk, and then I tried to snooze for a bit on the couch, as it was going to be a late day. It took a little while to doze off, but when I heard that Koa (who wasn’t in his crate at the time) was sleeping peacefully, I managed to doze off for about half an hour.

I woke up, and Koa had been such a good boy! I got the small crate folded up, and Koa and I went for walkies Then, I put him in the car, and managed to get the crate in too. Yay for that! We headed to Nijmegen, which all went rather well. Koa was complaining a bit about the heat in the car, but he doesn’t know how spoiled he is, haha, as Skoosh has a decent aircon system in her. When we got to my parent’s place, I set up the crate for Koa.

When mum was ready, she opted to take the dogs in the car, and drive to another small woods, for a cooler walkies. So, we did that, and Koa and Bas had a good time! Koa was smelling so much, that he kept pulling on the leash, and I wasn’t able to take a little video, unfortunately. But he had a good walk with Bas (and us), and when we got back, he was a happy dude. Bas got his food, and Koa got the kibble mat with part of his food. When the dogs had been fed, mum ordered Chinese food for us, and I went to pick it up.

We had a nice meal, and then mum, and I got ready to head to the first puppy class. It was a longer theory class, so Koa would stay with dad. I had let him out for a pee and some water, and told dad that, should Koa whine, that he needs to let him out for the garden and something to drink. With fingers and toes crossed for things to go OK, mum, and I went to the location of the doggy school.

We were the first to arrive, and we chatted a bit with the teacher. When most people had arrived, she started the class. One lady was coming a few minutes late, as she called Rubia (the teacher), to ask where she needed to be. So, when everyone was present, the class began. Everyone introduced themselves, and told a bit about their dogs, and why they signed up. The theory was for two groups, the puppy class, and the puberty class. Rubia told us a lot, asked us a lot, and showed things on a bigger screen. She had some videos from TikTok, and it reminded me that I never want to join there! (well, I did once, but nope…). One of the vids almost had me in tears… Ugh…

Class was good, and lasted about two hours. Then, mum and I headed back to their home. According to dad, Koa had been sleeping since we left, so I quickly let him out, as of course he had to pee now. I got everything back in Skoosh, and we skedaddled back home again. I unloaded Skoosh, set up the crate in the bedroom again, and Koa and I got ready for bed.

When I just dozed off, Koa started making noise. And I didn’t understand why, as he had done the numbers one and two just before bed, he had slobbered at his bowl before bedtime, he had gotten his bedtime kibble… But he kept making noise, and I found myself being very grouchy, as I was just too tired. I took Koa out, and he just sat there. I cuddled him, asked him what he needed… And, after a few minutes, Koa and I went to bed. I still don’t know what made him so anxious, as he had not done anything when he got out of the crate. But, I was able to doze off…

About 4 hours later, I woke up for the loo, and decided to start our “day”, as I knew Koa would be hungry and all that. So, we got up, and started the routine…

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#Journal of a slightly scared Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 23/05/2026).

Well, after a better night than the previous one, we got up around midnight. I was still tired, but did feel better than after the 3-hour night. I got a little over 7 hours of sleep, so when I woke up, Koa and I started our “day”. He seems to be a good little vampire dog, of course he already loves to bite in your skin, so he has that going for him. I got up, went to the scale, prepped Koa’s meat, got dressed, took my meds, and finished Koa’s kibble. He enjoyed his meal, and then I got to the couch with my laptop, where I started working on replying to some emails.

They were short ones, so it was easy to reply, and then I wrote a longer one to my sweet friend. I followed it up by writing my journal toot, which turned out a bit longer than I had thought. When I was done, Koa woke up again, and we went out for dark walkies. He still finds them a bit scary, I think, but he’s slowly gaining more confidence, which is good to see in him.

After our little walk, we cuddled for a while, and Koa snoozed on the couch for a bit. I worked on my blog for a while. Koa got too bitey, so he went to his crate for a bit, and I worked on writing the Koa Diary toot. I edited it into the Koa Diary blog post as well. I had uploaded the latest pics and vids, so I could share them in the blog posts. And I got permission from my sweet friend, to share some of the AI things I had made.

I finished some blog work, and I wrote a diary toot for Koa. When I was done with that, and I edited it into the blog post about it, I had some brekky. When that was done, Koa was waking up, and we had a nice walk together. It was getting light out, and Koa opted for a longer walk. I really love it when he does that, as I do enjoy walkies. I know that he is still limited to short walks, but when he just rushes for a very short one, I always feel a bit worried that he’s not enjoying the walks… And that’s one of the things that I would love to do more with him when he grows up… Have longer walks with him in the woods and such…

I made a little video, and when we got back, I tried to upload the video. AI helped me with a decent enough description, so I could share it with folks. It wasn’t too exciting I guess, but it did show Koa’s progress, and I was/am really proud of that. I fixed Koa some food, and we relaxed for a while after that.

As the weather was getting better, I wanted to get my relax chair and Koa’s bed from the shed. I got the chair, set it up, and went back for the bed. I heard a loud buzzing, I looked around, and saw this HUGE thing staring at me!!! It took me all I had to quietly head out of the shed… I let the door open, put away the doggy bed, and lured Koa into the kitchen with a snack. I quickly closed the door, and tried to get my heart-rate back to a steady one… I had wanted to scream, I had wanted to run… But I didn’t want to give that huge beast an excuse to attack me.

I looked up the beast, and it confirmed what I thought it was: an European hornet (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/European_hornet). It was huge, and although I didn’t stand around to measure it, the way I’d seen it, I estimate it between 3,5-4cm. Which would be between 1,378 and 1,575 inch. Its eyes just seemed to stare at me, and it appeared to be “getting ready to attack”. Of course, it could have just been relaxing, and this is me, being scared as hell for that thing…

After about 15 minutes, I went to the shed. I looked at it from a distance. Didn’t hear the buzz, could not see the beast. So, I hoped that it had vacated the premises, and it was off somewhere else… I softly closed the door, and I set up the chair and Koa’s bed. I tried to relax with my book for a bit, as it was lovely in the sun. Koa had some fun as well… But I could not properly relax, as my brain kept being in the “fight or flight” mode, where I kept listening, and looking, for that huge beast.
After a while, the sun got too hot, and Koa and I went back inside. I let the chair and bed rest against the house, and I opened the shed for a while again. Koa and I went on a short walk, only using the front door. Koa was hot, and when we got back, he tried to find a cool spot to relax. I saw that the floor cooling system had come on, due to it being around 30°C outside. So, the floor was a cooler one, which seemed to help Koa relax.

When he had snoozed for a bit, I gave him a licki-mat with some skinny yogurt and a bit of kibble. He had a blast! We relaxed some more, with the house being darker to keep out the heat. After some more time, I gave Koa his meal, and then we went out for a short walk. When we got back, I went into the garden. No sign of the big beast, at least not where I could see or hear it, so I put away the chair and bed, and closed the shed again. Koa and I relaxed some more, and when it was time, we went out one last time.

I prepped everything for bed, and it didn’t take us too long to doze off. After about 2 hours, I woke for the loo. Koa was sleeping on his back, and he didn’t wake up from hearing me. So, I was able to fall asleep again, and after about 2½ hours, Koa woke me up for potty. We went out, and it was still so warm… He peed, walked around, got some cuddles, and we went back to bed. And, of course, when I almost dozed off, he gave me the “I think I need to poop” whines. So… Back outside again. And yeah… He had to go…

It took a little while longer for me to doze off again. And when I woke up around midnight, my watch told me I got about 7½ hours of sleep, so not too bad at all. It had finally cooled off a bit, so we got up, did our things, and I opened the window and kitchen door, so we could cool the house a bit while we did our nightly things…

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#Journal of a slightly scared Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 23/05/2026).

Well, after a better night than the previous one, we got up around midnight. I was still tired, but did feel better than after the 3-hour night. I got a little over 7 hours of sleep, so when I woke up, Koa and I started our “day”. He seems to be a good little vampire dog, of course he already loves to bite in your skin, so he has that going for him. I got up, went to the scale, prepped Koa’s meat, got dressed, took my meds, and finished Koa’s kibble. He enjoyed his meal, and then I got to the couch with my laptop, where I started working on replying to some emails.

They were short ones, so it was easy to reply, and then I wrote a longer one to my sweet friend. I followed it up by writing my journal toot, which turned out a bit longer than I had thought. When I was done, Koa woke up again, and we went out for dark walkies. He still finds them a bit scary, I think, but he’s slowly gaining more confidence, which is good to see in him.

After our little walk, we cuddled for a while, and Koa snoozed on the couch for a bit. I worked on my blog for a while. Koa got too bitey, so he went to his crate for a bit, and I worked on writing the Koa Diary toot. I edited it into the Koa Diary blog post as well. I had uploaded the latest pics and vids, so I could share them in the blog posts. And I got permission from my sweet friend, to share some of the AI things I had made.

I finished some blog work, and I wrote a diary toot for Koa. When I was done with that, and I edited it into the blog post about it, I had some brekky. When that was done, Koa was waking up, and we had a nice walk together. It was getting light out, and Koa opted for a longer walk. I really love it when he does that, as I do enjoy walkies. I know that he is still limited to short walks, but when he just rushes for a very short one, I always feel a bit worried that he’s not enjoying the walks… And that’s one of the things that I would love to do more with him when he grows up… Have longer walks with him in the woods and such…

I made a little video, and when we got back, I tried to upload the video. AI helped me with a decent enough description, so I could share it with folks. It wasn’t too exciting I guess, but it did show Koa’s progress, and I was/am really proud of that. I fixed Koa some food, and we relaxed for a while after that.

As the weather was getting better, I wanted to get my relax chair and Koa’s bed from the shed. I got the chair, set it up, and went back for the bed. I heard a loud buzzing, I looked around, and saw this HUGE thing staring at me!!! It took me all I had to quietly head out of the shed… I let the door open, put away the doggy bed, and lured Koa into the kitchen with a snack. I quickly closed the door, and tried to get my heart-rate back to a steady one… I had wanted to scream, I had wanted to run… But I didn’t want to give that huge beast an excuse to attack me.

I looked up the beast, and it confirmed what I thought it was: an European hornet (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/European_hornet). It was huge, and although I didn’t stand around to measure it, the way I’d seen it, I estimate it between 3,5-4cm. Which would be between 1,378 and 1,575 inch. Its eyes just seemed to stare at me, and it appeared to be “getting ready to attack”. Of course, it could have just been relaxing, and this is me, being scared as hell for that thing…

After about 15 minutes, I went to the shed. I looked at it from a distance. Didn’t hear the buzz, could not see the beast. So, I hoped that it had vacated the premises, and it was off somewhere else… I softly closed the door, and I set up the chair and Koa’s bed. I tried to relax with my book for a bit, as it was lovely in the sun. Koa had some fun as well… But I could not properly relax, as my brain kept being in the “fight or flight” mode, where I kept listening, and looking, for that huge beast.
After a while, the sun got too hot, and Koa and I went back inside. I let the chair and bed rest against the house, and I opened the shed for a while again. Koa and I went on a short walk, only using the front door. Koa was hot, and when we got back, he tried to find a cool spot to relax. I saw that the floor cooling system had come on, due to it being around 30°C outside. So, the floor was a cooler one, which seemed to help Koa relax.

When he had snoozed for a bit, I gave him a licki-mat with some skinny yogurt and a bit of kibble. He had a blast! We relaxed some more, with the house being darker to keep out the heat. After some more time, I gave Koa his meal, and then we went out for a short walk. When we got back, I went into the garden. No sign of the big beast, at least not where I could see or hear it, so I put away the chair and bed, and closed the shed again. Koa and I relaxed some more, and when it was time, we went out one last time.

I prepped everything for bed, and it didn’t take us too long to doze off. After about 2 hours, I woke for the loo. Koa was sleeping on his back, and he didn’t wake up from hearing me. So, I was able to fall asleep again, and after about 2½ hours, Koa woke me up for potty. We went out, and it was still so warm… He peed, walked around, got some cuddles, and we went back to bed. And, of course, when I almost dozed off, he gave me the “I think I need to poop” whines. So… Back outside again. And yeah… He had to go…

It took a little while longer for me to doze off again. And when I woke up around midnight, my watch told me I got about 7½ hours of sleep, so not too bad at all. It had finally cooled off a bit, so we got up, did our things, and I opened the window and kitchen door, so we could cool the house a bit while we did our nightly things…

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#Journal of a slightly scared Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 23/05/2026).

Well, after a better night than the previous one, we got up around midnight. I was still tired, but did feel better than after the 3-hour night. I got a little over 7 hours of sleep, so when I woke up, Koa and I started our “day”. He seems to be a good little vampire dog, of course he already loves to bite in your skin, so he has that going for him. I got up, went to the scale, prepped Koa’s meat, got dressed, took my meds, and finished Koa’s kibble. He enjoyed his meal, and then I got to the couch with my laptop, where I started working on replying to some emails.

They were short ones, so it was easy to reply, and then I wrote a longer one to my sweet friend. I followed it up by writing my journal toot, which turned out a bit longer than I had thought. When I was done, Koa woke up again, and we went out for dark walkies. He still finds them a bit scary, I think, but he’s slowly gaining more confidence, which is good to see in him.

After our little walk, we cuddled for a while, and Koa snoozed on the couch for a bit. I worked on my blog for a while. Koa got too bitey, so he went to his crate for a bit, and I worked on writing the Koa Diary toot. I edited it into the Koa Diary blog post as well. I had uploaded the latest pics and vids, so I could share them in the blog posts. And I got permission from my sweet friend, to share some of the AI things I had made.

I finished some blog work, and I wrote a diary toot for Koa. When I was done with that, and I edited it into the blog post about it, I had some brekky. When that was done, Koa was waking up, and we had a nice walk together. It was getting light out, and Koa opted for a longer walk. I really love it when he does that, as I do enjoy walkies. I know that he is still limited to short walks, but when he just rushes for a very short one, I always feel a bit worried that he’s not enjoying the walks… And that’s one of the things that I would love to do more with him when he grows up… Have longer walks with him in the woods and such…

I made a little video, and when we got back, I tried to upload the video. AI helped me with a decent enough description, so I could share it with folks. It wasn’t too exciting I guess, but it did show Koa’s progress, and I was/am really proud of that. I fixed Koa some food, and we relaxed for a while after that.

As the weather was getting better, I wanted to get my relax chair and Koa’s bed from the shed. I got the chair, set it up, and went back for the bed. I heard a loud buzzing, I looked around, and saw this HUGE thing staring at me!!! It took me all I had to quietly head out of the shed… I let the door open, put away the doggy bed, and lured Koa into the kitchen with a snack. I quickly closed the door, and tried to get my heart-rate back to a steady one… I had wanted to scream, I had wanted to run… But I didn’t want to give that huge beast an excuse to attack me.

I looked up the beast, and it confirmed what I thought it was: an European hornet (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/European_hornet). It was huge, and although I didn’t stand around to measure it, the way I’d seen it, I estimate it between 3,5-4cm. Which would be between 1,378 and 1,575 inch. Its eyes just seemed to stare at me, and it appeared to be “getting ready to attack”. Of course, it could have just been relaxing, and this is me, being scared as hell for that thing…

After about 15 minutes, I went to the shed. I looked at it from a distance. Didn’t hear the buzz, could not see the beast. So, I hoped that it had vacated the premises, and it was off somewhere else… I softly closed the door, and I set up the chair and Koa’s bed. I tried to relax with my book for a bit, as it was lovely in the sun. Koa had some fun as well… But I could not properly relax, as my brain kept being in the “fight or flight” mode, where I kept listening, and looking, for that huge beast.
After a while, the sun got too hot, and Koa and I went back inside. I let the chair and bed rest against the house, and I opened the shed for a while again. Koa and I went on a short walk, only using the front door. Koa was hot, and when we got back, he tried to find a cool spot to relax. I saw that the floor cooling system had come on, due to it being around 30°C outside. So, the floor was a cooler one, which seemed to help Koa relax.

When he had snoozed for a bit, I gave him a licki-mat with some skinny yogurt and a bit of kibble. He had a blast! We relaxed some more, with the house being darker to keep out the heat. After some more time, I gave Koa his meal, and then we went out for a short walk. When we got back, I went into the garden. No sign of the big beast, at least not where I could see or hear it, so I put away the chair and bed, and closed the shed again. Koa and I relaxed some more, and when it was time, we went out one last time.

I prepped everything for bed, and it didn’t take us too long to doze off. After about 2 hours, I woke for the loo. Koa was sleeping on his back, and he didn’t wake up from hearing me. So, I was able to fall asleep again, and after about 2½ hours, Koa woke me up for potty. We went out, and it was still so warm… He peed, walked around, got some cuddles, and we went back to bed. And, of course, when I almost dozed off, he gave me the “I think I need to poop” whines. So… Back outside again. And yeah… He had to go…

It took a little while longer for me to doze off again. And when I woke up around midnight, my watch told me I got about 7½ hours of sleep, so not too bad at all. It had finally cooled off a bit, so we got up, did our things, and I opened the window and kitchen door, so we could cool the house a bit while we did our nightly things…

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#Journal of a slightly scared Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 23/05/2026).

Well, after a better night than the previous one, we got up around midnight. I was still tired, but did feel better than after the 3-hour night. I got a little over 7 hours of sleep, so when I woke up, Koa and I started our “day”. He seems to be a good little vampire dog, of course he already loves to bite in your skin, so he has that going for him. I got up, went to the scale, prepped Koa’s meat, got dressed, took my meds, and finished Koa’s kibble. He enjoyed his meal, and then I got to the couch with my laptop, where I started working on replying to some emails.

They were short ones, so it was easy to reply, and then I wrote a longer one to my sweet friend. I followed it up by writing my journal toot, which turned out a bit longer than I had thought. When I was done, Koa woke up again, and we went out for dark walkies. He still finds them a bit scary, I think, but he’s slowly gaining more confidence, which is good to see in him.

After our little walk, we cuddled for a while, and Koa snoozed on the couch for a bit. I worked on my blog for a while. Koa got too bitey, so he went to his crate for a bit, and I worked on writing the Koa Diary toot. I edited it into the Koa Diary blog post as well. I had uploaded the latest pics and vids, so I could share them in the blog posts. And I got permission from my sweet friend, to share some of the AI things I had made.

I finished some blog work, and I wrote a diary toot for Koa. When I was done with that, and I edited it into the blog post about it, I had some brekky. When that was done, Koa was waking up, and we had a nice walk together. It was getting light out, and Koa opted for a longer walk. I really love it when he does that, as I do enjoy walkies. I know that he is still limited to short walks, but when he just rushes for a very short one, I always feel a bit worried that he’s not enjoying the walks… And that’s one of the things that I would love to do more with him when he grows up… Have longer walks with him in the woods and such…

I made a little video, and when we got back, I tried to upload the video. AI helped me with a decent enough description, so I could share it with folks. It wasn’t too exciting I guess, but it did show Koa’s progress, and I was/am really proud of that. I fixed Koa some food, and we relaxed for a while after that.

As the weather was getting better, I wanted to get my relax chair and Koa’s bed from the shed. I got the chair, set it up, and went back for the bed. I heard a loud buzzing, I looked around, and saw this HUGE thing staring at me!!! It took me all I had to quietly head out of the shed… I let the door open, put away the doggy bed, and lured Koa into the kitchen with a snack. I quickly closed the door, and tried to get my heart-rate back to a steady one… I had wanted to scream, I had wanted to run… But I didn’t want to give that huge beast an excuse to attack me.

I looked up the beast, and it confirmed what I thought it was: an European hornet (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/European_hornet). It was huge, and although I didn’t stand around to measure it, the way I’d seen it, I estimate it between 3,5-4cm. Which would be between 1,378 and 1,575 inch. Its eyes just seemed to stare at me, and it appeared to be “getting ready to attack”. Of course, it could have just been relaxing, and this is me, being scared as hell for that thing…

After about 15 minutes, I went to the shed. I looked at it from a distance. Didn’t hear the buzz, could not see the beast. So, I hoped that it had vacated the premises, and it was off somewhere else… I softly closed the door, and I set up the chair and Koa’s bed. I tried to relax with my book for a bit, as it was lovely in the sun. Koa had some fun as well… But I could not properly relax, as my brain kept being in the “fight or flight” mode, where I kept listening, and looking, for that huge beast.
After a while, the sun got too hot, and Koa and I went back inside. I let the chair and bed rest against the house, and I opened the shed for a while again. Koa and I went on a short walk, only using the front door. Koa was hot, and when we got back, he tried to find a cool spot to relax. I saw that the floor cooling system had come on, due to it being around 30°C outside. So, the floor was a cooler one, which seemed to help Koa relax.

When he had snoozed for a bit, I gave him a licki-mat with some skinny yogurt and a bit of kibble. He had a blast! We relaxed some more, with the house being darker to keep out the heat. After some more time, I gave Koa his meal, and then we went out for a short walk. When we got back, I went into the garden. No sign of the big beast, at least not where I could see or hear it, so I put away the chair and bed, and closed the shed again. Koa and I relaxed some more, and when it was time, we went out one last time.

I prepped everything for bed, and it didn’t take us too long to doze off. After about 2 hours, I woke for the loo. Koa was sleeping on his back, and he didn’t wake up from hearing me. So, I was able to fall asleep again, and after about 2½ hours, Koa woke me up for potty. We went out, and it was still so warm… He peed, walked around, got some cuddles, and we went back to bed. And, of course, when I almost dozed off, he gave me the “I think I need to poop” whines. So… Back outside again. And yeah… He had to go…

It took a little while longer for me to doze off again. And when I woke up around midnight, my watch told me I got about 7½ hours of sleep, so not too bad at all. It had finally cooled off a bit, so we got up, did our things, and I opened the window and kitchen door, so we could cool the house a bit while we did our nightly things…

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#Journal of a slightly scared Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 23/05/2026).

Well, after a better night than the previous one, we got up around midnight. I was still tired, but did feel better than after the 3-hour night. I got a little over 7 hours of sleep, so when I woke up, Koa and I started our “day”. He seems to be a good little vampire dog, of course he already loves to bite in your skin, so he has that going for him. I got up, went to the scale, prepped Koa’s meat, got dressed, took my meds, and finished Koa’s kibble. He enjoyed his meal, and then I got to the couch with my laptop, where I started working on replying to some emails.

They were short ones, so it was easy to reply, and then I wrote a longer one to my sweet friend. I followed it up by writing my journal toot, which turned out a bit longer than I had thought. When I was done, Koa woke up again, and we went out for dark walkies. He still finds them a bit scary, I think, but he’s slowly gaining more confidence, which is good to see in him.

After our little walk, we cuddled for a while, and Koa snoozed on the couch for a bit. I worked on my blog for a while. Koa got too bitey, so he went to his crate for a bit, and I worked on writing the Koa Diary toot. I edited it into the Koa Diary blog post as well. I had uploaded the latest pics and vids, so I could share them in the blog posts. And I got permission from my sweet friend, to share some of the AI things I had made.

I finished some blog work, and I wrote a diary toot for Koa. When I was done with that, and I edited it into the blog post about it, I had some brekky. When that was done, Koa was waking up, and we had a nice walk together. It was getting light out, and Koa opted for a longer walk. I really love it when he does that, as I do enjoy walkies. I know that he is still limited to short walks, but when he just rushes for a very short one, I always feel a bit worried that he’s not enjoying the walks… And that’s one of the things that I would love to do more with him when he grows up… Have longer walks with him in the woods and such…

I made a little video, and when we got back, I tried to upload the video. AI helped me with a decent enough description, so I could share it with folks. It wasn’t too exciting I guess, but it did show Koa’s progress, and I was/am really proud of that. I fixed Koa some food, and we relaxed for a while after that.

As the weather was getting better, I wanted to get my relax chair and Koa’s bed from the shed. I got the chair, set it up, and went back for the bed. I heard a loud buzzing, I looked around, and saw this HUGE thing staring at me!!! It took me all I had to quietly head out of the shed… I let the door open, put away the doggy bed, and lured Koa into the kitchen with a snack. I quickly closed the door, and tried to get my heart-rate back to a steady one… I had wanted to scream, I had wanted to run… But I didn’t want to give that huge beast an excuse to attack me.

I looked up the beast, and it confirmed what I thought it was: an European hornet (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/European_hornet). It was huge, and although I didn’t stand around to measure it, the way I’d seen it, I estimate it between 3,5-4cm. Which would be between 1,378 and 1,575 inch. Its eyes just seemed to stare at me, and it appeared to be “getting ready to attack”. Of course, it could have just been relaxing, and this is me, being scared as hell for that thing…

After about 15 minutes, I went to the shed. I looked at it from a distance. Didn’t hear the buzz, could not see the beast. So, I hoped that it had vacated the premises, and it was off somewhere else… I softly closed the door, and I set up the chair and Koa’s bed. I tried to relax with my book for a bit, as it was lovely in the sun. Koa had some fun as well… But I could not properly relax, as my brain kept being in the “fight or flight” mode, where I kept listening, and looking, for that huge beast.
After a while, the sun got too hot, and Koa and I went back inside. I let the chair and bed rest against the house, and I opened the shed for a while again. Koa and I went on a short walk, only using the front door. Koa was hot, and when we got back, he tried to find a cool spot to relax. I saw that the floor cooling system had come on, due to it being around 30°C outside. So, the floor was a cooler one, which seemed to help Koa relax.

When he had snoozed for a bit, I gave him a licki-mat with some skinny yogurt and a bit of kibble. He had a blast! We relaxed some more, with the house being darker to keep out the heat. After some more time, I gave Koa his meal, and then we went out for a short walk. When we got back, I went into the garden. No sign of the big beast, at least not where I could see or hear it, so I put away the chair and bed, and closed the shed again. Koa and I relaxed some more, and when it was time, we went out one last time.

I prepped everything for bed, and it didn’t take us too long to doze off. After about 2 hours, I woke for the loo. Koa was sleeping on his back, and he didn’t wake up from hearing me. So, I was able to fall asleep again, and after about 2½ hours, Koa woke me up for potty. We went out, and it was still so warm… He peed, walked around, got some cuddles, and we went back to bed. And, of course, when I almost dozed off, he gave me the “I think I need to poop” whines. So… Back outside again. And yeah… He had to go…

It took a little while longer for me to doze off again. And when I woke up around midnight, my watch told me I got about 7½ hours of sleep, so not too bad at all. It had finally cooled off a bit, so we got up, did our things, and I opened the window and kitchen door, so we could cool the house a bit while we did our nightly things…

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#Journal of a rather exhausted AuDHD Dutch Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 22/05/2026).

Well, that was one rubbish night, if I can call it a night. By no fault of Koa at all, my body and brain decided that, after one good hour of sleep, they would go into “I don’t need sleep, I wanna do all the other things” ADHD-mode. And my body would get more sore, so I had to get up for a while. And my brain just had to do things before I could calm it down enough. After about 3 hours of being awake and doing things on my phone, I let Koa out, moved his things to the living room crate, and I managed to doze some bits on and off again on the couch. I felt even more broken because of the “comforts” of the couch, but at least I got some sleep. In the end, when I had to get up again due to pain and all, I had less than 4 hours in total in my sleep monitor… Wow… This was not good…

But I “got up”, and we started our “day”. I didn’t feel as tired as I thought I would feel, but my brain was still very wired, even though my body was begging me for some painkillers. I got to the scale, dressed, prepped Koa’s meat, took my meds, and I let Koa out. He got his kibble, and I grabbed my laptop.

I wrote an email to a sweet friend, wondering if he’d been able to see all the things I sent him lately. Usually, he’s quick and good to respond to things, but now, I was missing things in his replies, that could only mean, to me at least, that he had not been able to see the things I had sent in between. I don’t need to have replies to all I write, but I had shared some emotional and personal things, and my friend usually does reply to those bits.

I wrote my journal toot, and then I managed to write one for Koa as well. Which both turned out to be rather long ones! That was a lot of typing, haha. I put on my shoes, and Koa and I went out for a nightly walk again. Koa still struggles with walks. Sometimes, he seems to “get it”, and to enjoy it, and he will pick a longer route. Especially when other dogs and/or people are involved, he’s eager to show off his strut then. But at other times, it seems he really doesn’t like walkies, and he only wants to go to certain spots, preferably the ones that have smelly parts, or ones that have bunny droppings (little brown snacks…). I really have to get used to that, as Arwen was so fond of walkies, even when she was little, she already loved them… But, this is Koa, and he has his own personality and likes.

We got back, and we cuddled for a while. Then, I put Koa in his crate so that I could eat. I am trying to teach him that, when I eat, he needs to be in his crate. I hope that, at some point, he will go into it when I mention I am going to eat, and I won’t need to close the door… But, we’re still learning… He does go into the crate at times when I tell him, especially when he knows I have a treat for him in my hands.

After my food, I relaxed with some telly for a bit. When Koa woke up, we went for another walk. It was getting a bit lighter out already, but not too much yet. He did his things, and we headed back again. We cuddled for a while, until Koa tried to eat me, instead of his toys and the ropes on my clothes. He went to the crate, and I prepped a few things, for when we’d have to leave to head to Nijmegen.

I had a dentist appointment, so mum would watch Koa while I was out. When it was time, we went out for a walk, and then we got to Skoosh. Koa still isn't too enthusiastic to be taken in (or to be carried out), but he did OK enough. Some whining, but also some moments where he just stood against the back of the couch, and he was looking out the back window.

We arrived in Nijmegen safe and sound. Some cuddles with Bas, and some play time, and then I walked to the dentist. I was a bit early, but I also got called in early, which was good. My second appointment needed to be rescheduled, as the young gall wasn’t there. But, this wasn’t a bad thing, as I had to get back in time to pick up Koa again. All went well, and about an hour later, I was walking back to my parent’s place.

I picked up Koa and his things, and we got to Skoosh. We arrived home safe and sound. A short walk, and then we went inside. I made some food, and when I was done, I made some for Koa. I was rather tired, but the time that Koa had with my parents and Bas had made him tired as well. So, I watched telly for a while, while Koa slept.

After a little while, we went to the garden. I gave Koa a big water bowl to play with, while I tried to enjoy the sun, and a bit of my book. I took two little vids of Koa having fun with the water bowl, and after a while, we went back inside again. Koa slept in front of the couch, and I just relaxed with some telly.

When it was time to get ready for bed, I prepped everything. One last walk, and then, hopefully, some snoozing. It didn’t take us too long to fall asleep. After about 5 hours, Koa woke me up for his potty break, and I took one too. He was taking his time, and I was almost keeling over, as I was so tired still. When we finally got back to bed, I dozed off again. Two hours later, Koa started whining again. I told him I needed at least one more hour of sleep, and about 75 minutes later I woke up again. Yay for that. Still tired enough, but at least with some sleep behind me, we got up and started our “day”.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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#Journal of a rather exhausted AuDHD Dutch Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 22/05/2026).

Well, that was one rubbish night, if I can call it a night. By no fault of Koa at all, my body and brain decided that, after one good hour of sleep, they would go into “I don’t need sleep, I wanna do all the other things” ADHD-mode. And my body would get more sore, so I had to get up for a while. And my brain just had to do things before I could calm it down enough. After about 3 hours of being awake and doing things on my phone, I let Koa out, moved his things to the living room crate, and I managed to doze some bits on and off again on the couch. I felt even more broken because of the “comforts” of the couch, but at least I got some sleep. In the end, when I had to get up again due to pain and all, I had less than 4 hours in total in my sleep monitor… Wow… This was not good…

But I “got up”, and we started our “day”. I didn’t feel as tired as I thought I would feel, but my brain was still very wired, even though my body was begging me for some painkillers. I got to the scale, dressed, prepped Koa’s meat, took my meds, and I let Koa out. He got his kibble, and I grabbed my laptop.

I wrote an email to a sweet friend, wondering if he’d been able to see all the things I sent him lately. Usually, he’s quick and good to respond to things, but now, I was missing things in his replies, that could only mean, to me at least, that he had not been able to see the things I had sent in between. I don’t need to have replies to all I write, but I had shared some emotional and personal things, and my friend usually does reply to those bits.

I wrote my journal toot, and then I managed to write one for Koa as well. Which both turned out to be rather long ones! That was a lot of typing, haha. I put on my shoes, and Koa and I went out for a nightly walk again. Koa still struggles with walks. Sometimes, he seems to “get it”, and to enjoy it, and he will pick a longer route. Especially when other dogs and/or people are involved, he’s eager to show off his strut then. But at other times, it seems he really doesn’t like walkies, and he only wants to go to certain spots, preferably the ones that have smelly parts, or ones that have bunny droppings (little brown snacks…). I really have to get used to that, as Arwen was so fond of walkies, even when she was little, she already loved them… But, this is Koa, and he has his own personality and likes.

We got back, and we cuddled for a while. Then, I put Koa in his crate so that I could eat. I am trying to teach him that, when I eat, he needs to be in his crate. I hope that, at some point, he will go into it when I mention I am going to eat, and I won’t need to close the door… But, we’re still learning… He does go into the crate at times when I tell him, especially when he knows I have a treat for him in my hands.

After my food, I relaxed with some telly for a bit. When Koa woke up, we went for another walk. It was getting a bit lighter out already, but not too much yet. He did his things, and we headed back again. We cuddled for a while, until Koa tried to eat me, instead of his toys and the ropes on my clothes. He went to the crate, and I prepped a few things, for when we’d have to leave to head to Nijmegen.

I had a dentist appointment, so mum would watch Koa while I was out. When it was time, we went out for a walk, and then we got to Skoosh. Koa still isn't too enthusiastic to be taken in (or to be carried out), but he did OK enough. Some whining, but also some moments where he just stood against the back of the couch, and he was looking out the back window.

We arrived in Nijmegen safe and sound. Some cuddles with Bas, and some play time, and then I walked to the dentist. I was a bit early, but I also got called in early, which was good. My second appointment needed to be rescheduled, as the young gall wasn’t there. But, this wasn’t a bad thing, as I had to get back in time to pick up Koa again. All went well, and about an hour later, I was walking back to my parent’s place.

I picked up Koa and his things, and we got to Skoosh. We arrived home safe and sound. A short walk, and then we went inside. I made some food, and when I was done, I made some for Koa. I was rather tired, but the time that Koa had with my parents and Bas had made him tired as well. So, I watched telly for a while, while Koa slept.

After a little while, we went to the garden. I gave Koa a big water bowl to play with, while I tried to enjoy the sun, and a bit of my book. I took two little vids of Koa having fun with the water bowl, and after a while, we went back inside again. Koa slept in front of the couch, and I just relaxed with some telly.

When it was time to get ready for bed, I prepped everything. One last walk, and then, hopefully, some snoozing. It didn’t take us too long to fall asleep. After about 5 hours, Koa woke me up for his potty break, and I took one too. He was taking his time, and I was almost keeling over, as I was so tired still. When we finally got back to bed, I dozed off again. Two hours later, Koa started whining again. I told him I needed at least one more hour of sleep, and about 75 minutes later I woke up again. Yay for that. Still tired enough, but at least with some sleep behind me, we got up and started our “day”.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

#Journal of a rather exhausted AuDHD Dutch Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 22/05/2026).

Well, that was one rubbish night, if I can call it a night. By no fault of Koa at all, my body and brain decided that, after one good hour of sleep, they would go into “I don’t need sleep, I wanna do all the other things” ADHD-mode. And my body would get more sore, so I had to get up for a while. And my brain just had to do things before I could calm it down enough. After about 3 hours of being awake and doing things on my phone, I let Koa out, moved his things to the living room crate, and I managed to doze some bits on and off again on the couch. I felt even more broken because of the “comforts” of the couch, but at least I got some sleep. In the end, when I had to get up again due to pain and all, I had less than 4 hours in total in my sleep monitor… Wow… This was not good…

But I “got up”, and we started our “day”. I didn’t feel as tired as I thought I would feel, but my brain was still very wired, even though my body was begging me for some painkillers. I got to the scale, dressed, prepped Koa’s meat, took my meds, and I let Koa out. He got his kibble, and I grabbed my laptop.

I wrote an email to a sweet friend, wondering if he’d been able to see all the things I sent him lately. Usually, he’s quick and good to respond to things, but now, I was missing things in his replies, that could only mean, to me at least, that he had not been able to see the things I had sent in between. I don’t need to have replies to all I write, but I had shared some emotional and personal things, and my friend usually does reply to those bits.

I wrote my journal toot, and then I managed to write one for Koa as well. Which both turned out to be rather long ones! That was a lot of typing, haha. I put on my shoes, and Koa and I went out for a nightly walk again. Koa still struggles with walks. Sometimes, he seems to “get it”, and to enjoy it, and he will pick a longer route. Especially when other dogs and/or people are involved, he’s eager to show off his strut then. But at other times, it seems he really doesn’t like walkies, and he only wants to go to certain spots, preferably the ones that have smelly parts, or ones that have bunny droppings (little brown snacks…). I really have to get used to that, as Arwen was so fond of walkies, even when she was little, she already loved them… But, this is Koa, and he has his own personality and likes.

We got back, and we cuddled for a while. Then, I put Koa in his crate so that I could eat. I am trying to teach him that, when I eat, he needs to be in his crate. I hope that, at some point, he will go into it when I mention I am going to eat, and I won’t need to close the door… But, we’re still learning… He does go into the crate at times when I tell him, especially when he knows I have a treat for him in my hands.

After my food, I relaxed with some telly for a bit. When Koa woke up, we went for another walk. It was getting a bit lighter out already, but not too much yet. He did his things, and we headed back again. We cuddled for a while, until Koa tried to eat me, instead of his toys and the ropes on my clothes. He went to the crate, and I prepped a few things, for when we’d have to leave to head to Nijmegen.

I had a dentist appointment, so mum would watch Koa while I was out. When it was time, we went out for a walk, and then we got to Skoosh. Koa still isn't too enthusiastic to be taken in (or to be carried out), but he did OK enough. Some whining, but also some moments where he just stood against the back of the couch, and he was looking out the back window.

We arrived in Nijmegen safe and sound. Some cuddles with Bas, and some play time, and then I walked to the dentist. I was a bit early, but I also got called in early, which was good. My second appointment needed to be rescheduled, as the young gall wasn’t there. But, this wasn’t a bad thing, as I had to get back in time to pick up Koa again. All went well, and about an hour later, I was walking back to my parent’s place.

I picked up Koa and his things, and we got to Skoosh. We arrived home safe and sound. A short walk, and then we went inside. I made some food, and when I was done, I made some for Koa. I was rather tired, but the time that Koa had with my parents and Bas had made him tired as well. So, I watched telly for a while, while Koa slept.

After a little while, we went to the garden. I gave Koa a big water bowl to play with, while I tried to enjoy the sun, and a bit of my book. I took two little vids of Koa having fun with the water bowl, and after a while, we went back inside again. Koa slept in front of the couch, and I just relaxed with some telly.

When it was time to get ready for bed, I prepped everything. One last walk, and then, hopefully, some snoozing. It didn’t take us too long to fall asleep. After about 5 hours, Koa woke me up for his potty break, and I took one too. He was taking his time, and I was almost keeling over, as I was so tired still. When we finally got back to bed, I dozed off again. Two hours later, Koa started whining again. I told him I needed at least one more hour of sleep, and about 75 minutes later I woke up again. Yay for that. Still tired enough, but at least with some sleep behind me, we got up and started our “day”.

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾

#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

#Journal of a rather exhausted AuDHD Dutch Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 22/05/2026).

Well, that was one rubbish night, if I can call it a night. By no fault of Koa at all, my body and brain decided that, after one good hour of sleep, they would go into “I don’t need sleep, I wanna do all the other things” ADHD-mode. And my body would get more sore, so I had to get up for a while. And my brain just had to do things before I could calm it down enough. After about 3 hours of being awake and doing things on my phone, I let Koa out, moved his things to the living room crate, and I managed to doze some bits on and off again on the couch. I felt even more broken because of the “comforts” of the couch, but at least I got some sleep. In the end, when I had to get up again due to pain and all, I had less than 4 hours in total in my sleep monitor… Wow… This was not good…

But I “got up”, and we started our “day”. I didn’t feel as tired as I thought I would feel, but my brain was still very wired, even though my body was begging me for some painkillers. I got to the scale, dressed, prepped Koa’s meat, took my meds, and I let Koa out. He got his kibble, and I grabbed my laptop.

I wrote an email to a sweet friend, wondering if he’d been able to see all the things I sent him lately. Usually, he’s quick and good to respond to things, but now, I was missing things in his replies, that could only mean, to me at least, that he had not been able to see the things I had sent in between. I don’t need to have replies to all I write, but I had shared some emotional and personal things, and my friend usually does reply to those bits.

I wrote my journal toot, and then I managed to write one for Koa as well. Which both turned out to be rather long ones! That was a lot of typing, haha. I put on my shoes, and Koa and I went out for a nightly walk again. Koa still struggles with walks. Sometimes, he seems to “get it”, and to enjoy it, and he will pick a longer route. Especially when other dogs and/or people are involved, he’s eager to show off his strut then. But at other times, it seems he really doesn’t like walkies, and he only wants to go to certain spots, preferably the ones that have smelly parts, or ones that have bunny droppings (little brown snacks…). I really have to get used to that, as Arwen was so fond of walkies, even when she was little, she already loved them… But, this is Koa, and he has his own personality and likes.

We got back, and we cuddled for a while. Then, I put Koa in his crate so that I could eat. I am trying to teach him that, when I eat, he needs to be in his crate. I hope that, at some point, he will go into it when I mention I am going to eat, and I won’t need to close the door… But, we’re still learning… He does go into the crate at times when I tell him, especially when he knows I have a treat for him in my hands.

After my food, I relaxed with some telly for a bit. When Koa woke up, we went for another walk. It was getting a bit lighter out already, but not too much yet. He did his things, and we headed back again. We cuddled for a while, until Koa tried to eat me, instead of his toys and the ropes on my clothes. He went to the crate, and I prepped a few things, for when we’d have to leave to head to Nijmegen.

I had a dentist appointment, so mum would watch Koa while I was out. When it was time, we went out for a walk, and then we got to Skoosh. Koa still isn't too enthusiastic to be taken in (or to be carried out), but he did OK enough. Some whining, but also some moments where he just stood against the back of the couch, and he was looking out the back window.

We arrived in Nijmegen safe and sound. Some cuddles with Bas, and some play time, and then I walked to the dentist. I was a bit early, but I also got called in early, which was good. My second appointment needed to be rescheduled, as the young gall wasn’t there. But, this wasn’t a bad thing, as I had to get back in time to pick up Koa again. All went well, and about an hour later, I was walking back to my parent’s place.

I picked up Koa and his things, and we got to Skoosh. We arrived home safe and sound. A short walk, and then we went inside. I made some food, and when I was done, I made some for Koa. I was rather tired, but the time that Koa had with my parents and Bas had made him tired as well. So, I watched telly for a while, while Koa slept.

After a little while, we went to the garden. I gave Koa a big water bowl to play with, while I tried to enjoy the sun, and a bit of my book. I took two little vids of Koa having fun with the water bowl, and after a while, we went back inside again. Koa slept in front of the couch, and I just relaxed with some telly.

When it was time to get ready for bed, I prepped everything. One last walk, and then, hopefully, some snoozing. It didn’t take us too long to fall asleep. After about 5 hours, Koa woke me up for his potty break, and I took one too. He was taking his time, and I was almost keeling over, as I was so tired still. When we finally got back to bed, I dozed off again. Two hours later, Koa started whining again. I told him I needed at least one more hour of sleep, and about 75 minutes later I woke up again. Yay for that. Still tired enough, but at least with some sleep behind me, we got up and started our “day”.

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#Journal of a rather exhausted AuDHD Dutch Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 22/05/2026).

Well, that was one rubbish night, if I can call it a night. By no fault of Koa at all, my body and brain decided that, after one good hour of sleep, they would go into “I don’t need sleep, I wanna do all the other things” ADHD-mode. And my body would get more sore, so I had to get up for a while. And my brain just had to do things before I could calm it down enough. After about 3 hours of being awake and doing things on my phone, I let Koa out, moved his things to the living room crate, and I managed to doze some bits on and off again on the couch. I felt even more broken because of the “comforts” of the couch, but at least I got some sleep. In the end, when I had to get up again due to pain and all, I had less than 4 hours in total in my sleep monitor… Wow… This was not good…

But I “got up”, and we started our “day”. I didn’t feel as tired as I thought I would feel, but my brain was still very wired, even though my body was begging me for some painkillers. I got to the scale, dressed, prepped Koa’s meat, took my meds, and I let Koa out. He got his kibble, and I grabbed my laptop.

I wrote an email to a sweet friend, wondering if he’d been able to see all the things I sent him lately. Usually, he’s quick and good to respond to things, but now, I was missing things in his replies, that could only mean, to me at least, that he had not been able to see the things I had sent in between. I don’t need to have replies to all I write, but I had shared some emotional and personal things, and my friend usually does reply to those bits.

I wrote my journal toot, and then I managed to write one for Koa as well. Which both turned out to be rather long ones! That was a lot of typing, haha. I put on my shoes, and Koa and I went out for a nightly walk again. Koa still struggles with walks. Sometimes, he seems to “get it”, and to enjoy it, and he will pick a longer route. Especially when other dogs and/or people are involved, he’s eager to show off his strut then. But at other times, it seems he really doesn’t like walkies, and he only wants to go to certain spots, preferably the ones that have smelly parts, or ones that have bunny droppings (little brown snacks…). I really have to get used to that, as Arwen was so fond of walkies, even when she was little, she already loved them… But, this is Koa, and he has his own personality and likes.

We got back, and we cuddled for a while. Then, I put Koa in his crate so that I could eat. I am trying to teach him that, when I eat, he needs to be in his crate. I hope that, at some point, he will go into it when I mention I am going to eat, and I won’t need to close the door… But, we’re still learning… He does go into the crate at times when I tell him, especially when he knows I have a treat for him in my hands.

After my food, I relaxed with some telly for a bit. When Koa woke up, we went for another walk. It was getting a bit lighter out already, but not too much yet. He did his things, and we headed back again. We cuddled for a while, until Koa tried to eat me, instead of his toys and the ropes on my clothes. He went to the crate, and I prepped a few things, for when we’d have to leave to head to Nijmegen.

I had a dentist appointment, so mum would watch Koa while I was out. When it was time, we went out for a walk, and then we got to Skoosh. Koa still isn't too enthusiastic to be taken in (or to be carried out), but he did OK enough. Some whining, but also some moments where he just stood against the back of the couch, and he was looking out the back window.

We arrived in Nijmegen safe and sound. Some cuddles with Bas, and some play time, and then I walked to the dentist. I was a bit early, but I also got called in early, which was good. My second appointment needed to be rescheduled, as the young gall wasn’t there. But, this wasn’t a bad thing, as I had to get back in time to pick up Koa again. All went well, and about an hour later, I was walking back to my parent’s place.

I picked up Koa and his things, and we got to Skoosh. We arrived home safe and sound. A short walk, and then we went inside. I made some food, and when I was done, I made some for Koa. I was rather tired, but the time that Koa had with my parents and Bas had made him tired as well. So, I watched telly for a while, while Koa slept.

After a little while, we went to the garden. I gave Koa a big water bowl to play with, while I tried to enjoy the sun, and a bit of my book. I took two little vids of Koa having fun with the water bowl, and after a while, we went back inside again. Koa slept in front of the couch, and I just relaxed with some telly.

When it was time to get ready for bed, I prepped everything. One last walk, and then, hopefully, some snoozing. It didn’t take us too long to fall asleep. After about 5 hours, Koa woke me up for his potty break, and I took one too. He was taking his time, and I was almost keeling over, as I was so tired still. When we finally got back to bed, I dozed off again. Two hours later, Koa started whining again. I told him I needed at least one more hour of sleep, and about 75 minutes later I woke up again. Yay for that. Still tired enough, but at least with some sleep behind me, we got up and started our “day”.

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#Journal of a tired Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 21/05/2026).

I had an OK enough night, but still, I felt tired, with a slight headache, when we got up. After Koa had his food, and I got dressed, and I’d taken my meds, I got to my laptop. I started with an email to a sweet friend of mine, with which I sent an edit of a picture that I had for him the previous day. He had mentioned some changes in his email to me, so like a real addict, I had to try them out, and see if I could create an image for him that was better suited. After I had done that, I wrote my journal toot, and I worked a bit on my blog.

I spent some time with some AI editing, and I spent some time writing bits for my blog. I enjoyed some breakfast, and I tried to relax a bit, as I was rather tired still. Koa and I went out for a short nighttime walkies, but I had forgotten to wear the head lamp, so I could not shine a light on the grassy area. I always try to clean Koa’s number two’s, but there are at least two dog owners, one big and one smaller dog, that don’t deem it necessary to clean up their dog’s shit. So yeah, have to be careful when you want to walk on the field… Unfortunately…

When we got back, I cuddled for a while with Koa, and then he went to the crate for some snoozing, as I didn’t want to be nibbled on by my little vampire… 😂 He went to the crate, got a snack, and was OK there, while I tried to relax a bit, as I was tired, and I had a long enough day ahead of me. Around 6, Koa and I went for another walk, and then I got everything in Skoosh, and we headed to Nijmegen.

Mum was a bit grumpy that I was so early, while she was the one that had requested I’d come early (guess her early was less that than mine, 🫣). I “handed” over Koa, and when mum was ready to watch him and Bas, I got to Skoosh, and we skedaddled to Germany. It felt a bit weird driving there again, after not having been there for 4 weeks.

I started with the Penny, where I took 3 full bags of recycling cans and bottles. I passed the €50, and it’s €0,25 per item, so I had brought in plenty, and my arms and hands were done when the bags were finally empty. But, the money would come in handy when Koa has his next vet appointment again next week. He needs another Titer test, and depending on the outcome, he may need his boosters that time. Seeing the bill went past the €200 for the first time… I hope that the second one will be less. I did get some money back from the insurance, but not as much as I paid. I put that money to Koa’s piggy bank as well, so I should have enough to cover his next vet bill. And then, hopefully, he won’t need the vet for some time to come…

After Penny, I went to Shell, and gave Skoosh something to drink. She wanted almost 18 liters, and seeing I had driven 434km with her since the last time I filled her up, my app told me she had done a lovely 24,31km/l (which my app tells me would be 57,18 mi/gal, not to bad for sure). I went to Edeka, got all the things (except one) that mum asked for, and I got some things for myself as well. Then, I headed back to Nijmegen. A quick stop at Appie, where I got the last thing mum needed, and I got a few things for myself. (of course I forgot some things, so I need to see about visiting the supermarket at some point).

I headed to my parent’s place, where I unloaded all for mum (and dad). Koa was just enjoying his snuffle mat, and when he was done, and when Bas got some snacks and cuddles as well, Koa and I headed home again. I cleaned up the few groceries, walked a short walk with Koa, and I had something to snack. After that, I tried to relax a bit, as I was rather tired. But, Koa was tired too, so that was a good thing, we could relax together.

We were in the garden for a while. I read my book, and Koa spent some time on his outdoor bed. I gave him a few snacks on it, and later on, he went on it by himself for a bit as well. So, I tried to take a little video. I had read for a while, and then my back started to annoy me, so I went back inside, to relax on the couch a bit.

I decided to give Koa one of the extra plush toys that I had ordered from IKEA. He got the (small) Blåhaj, which was still big enough when compared to Koa now. And yes, I took a video of this as well. 😉Koa played a bit with the new plush, and then he dozed off again. I watched some telly, and had a snack. Then, when the neighbor texted, we headed out for a bit.

Koa was a bit too enthusiastic, and the black fluff felt the need to correct him. It scared Koa a bit, and the fluff got separated in a rough way by the neighbor. I checked Koa, and he wasn’t damaged in any way, just very startled from the big black one lashing out. Yeah, Koa is a bouncy puppy, and both Bas and the black fluff aren’t too interested in all that…

I got an email from the doggy school. It seems I need to buy a few things for the classes, and a few things I already have. The first class is a theory one, and a long one. Pups can stay at home/with a sitter, so that the ones following the class can make notes and ask questions during the longer lesson. But… I can’t leave Koa that long with my dad and Bas, as I know that will lead to disaster. I asked my neighbor, but she wasn’t sure yet if she could make it. So, either she can, and I can take my mum to the first class. Or, Koa needs to stay with mum and dad, and I will have to relay all the info to mum. I hope that the neighbor is willing and able to doggy sit, but I know it’s for a few hours (the drive there is about 30 minutes, the class takes two hours, and the drive back is also 30 minutes… and the drive is a bit longer if I have to pick up mum…), and I know she has some plans earlier that day. So, it’s a wait and see… I will have to pay for the class in the next few days, so I am hoping that my money will come in this Friday, so I can pay her before the weekend comes. Otherwise, I can always show the transfer, as she will understand that the extra holiday on Monday will slow the payment down.

Koa and I relaxed some more, and then we got ready for bed. We were rather tired, so it didn’t take too long for the both of us to doze off. After an hour, I was startled by what I thought to be a loud bark. But, when I checked on Koa, he was out like a broken light-bulb, so I may have dreamed about the bark? I went to the loo, and went back to bed. Of course, Koa had to wee then. I tried to sleep again after that, and I just could not. My ADHD brain was on fire…

I checked my phone, saw an email from a good friend, and decided to answer him. I made a few more images, based on his new info, and I was hoping that they would be better. I watched some Downton, I scrolled a bit on Masto. My mind was just so active… After 3 hours, I went to the couch… Koa’s things went to the crate in the living room. I got a new little blanket that I bought a little while ago, and I got to watching telly on the couch. I did doze off a few times. And, when my body was cursing the couch, I decided to get up, and start our day. But yeah, I felt broken for sure…

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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#Journal of a tired Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 21/05/2026).

I had an OK enough night, but still, I felt tired, with a slight headache, when we got up. After Koa had his food, and I got dressed, and I’d taken my meds, I got to my laptop. I started with an email to a sweet friend of mine, with which I sent an edit of a picture that I had for him the previous day. He had mentioned some changes in his email to me, so like a real addict, I had to try them out, and see if I could create an image for him that was better suited. After I had done that, I wrote my journal toot, and I worked a bit on my blog.

I spent some time with some AI editing, and I spent some time writing bits for my blog. I enjoyed some breakfast, and I tried to relax a bit, as I was rather tired still. Koa and I went out for a short nighttime walkies, but I had forgotten to wear the head lamp, so I could not shine a light on the grassy area. I always try to clean Koa’s number two’s, but there are at least two dog owners, one big and one smaller dog, that don’t deem it necessary to clean up their dog’s shit. So yeah, have to be careful when you want to walk on the field… Unfortunately…

When we got back, I cuddled for a while with Koa, and then he went to the crate for some snoozing, as I didn’t want to be nibbled on by my little vampire… 😂 He went to the crate, got a snack, and was OK there, while I tried to relax a bit, as I was tired, and I had a long enough day ahead of me. Around 6, Koa and I went for another walk, and then I got everything in Skoosh, and we headed to Nijmegen.

Mum was a bit grumpy that I was so early, while she was the one that had requested I’d come early (guess her early was less that than mine, 🫣). I “handed” over Koa, and when mum was ready to watch him and Bas, I got to Skoosh, and we skedaddled to Germany. It felt a bit weird driving there again, after not having been there for 4 weeks.

I started with the Penny, where I took 3 full bags of recycling cans and bottles. I passed the €50, and it’s €0,25 per item, so I had brought in plenty, and my arms and hands were done when the bags were finally empty. But, the money would come in handy when Koa has his next vet appointment again next week. He needs another Titer test, and depending on the outcome, he may need his boosters that time. Seeing the bill went past the €200 for the first time… I hope that the second one will be less. I did get some money back from the insurance, but not as much as I paid. I put that money to Koa’s piggy bank as well, so I should have enough to cover his next vet bill. And then, hopefully, he won’t need the vet for some time to come…

After Penny, I went to Shell, and gave Skoosh something to drink. She wanted almost 18 liters, and seeing I had driven 434km with her since the last time I filled her up, my app told me she had done a lovely 24,31km/l (which my app tells me would be 57,18 mi/gal, not to bad for sure). I went to Edeka, got all the things (except one) that mum asked for, and I got some things for myself as well. Then, I headed back to Nijmegen. A quick stop at Appie, where I got the last thing mum needed, and I got a few things for myself. (of course I forgot some things, so I need to see about visiting the supermarket at some point).

I headed to my parent’s place, where I unloaded all for mum (and dad). Koa was just enjoying his snuffle mat, and when he was done, and when Bas got some snacks and cuddles as well, Koa and I headed home again. I cleaned up the few groceries, walked a short walk with Koa, and I had something to snack. After that, I tried to relax a bit, as I was rather tired. But, Koa was tired too, so that was a good thing, we could relax together.

We were in the garden for a while. I read my book, and Koa spent some time on his outdoor bed. I gave him a few snacks on it, and later on, he went on it by himself for a bit as well. So, I tried to take a little video. I had read for a while, and then my back started to annoy me, so I went back inside, to relax on the couch a bit.

I decided to give Koa one of the extra plush toys that I had ordered from IKEA. He got the (small) Blåhaj, which was still big enough when compared to Koa now. And yes, I took a video of this as well. 😉Koa played a bit with the new plush, and then he dozed off again. I watched some telly, and had a snack. Then, when the neighbor texted, we headed out for a bit.

Koa was a bit too enthusiastic, and the black fluff felt the need to correct him. It scared Koa a bit, and the fluff got separated in a rough way by the neighbor. I checked Koa, and he wasn’t damaged in any way, just very startled from the big black one lashing out. Yeah, Koa is a bouncy puppy, and both Bas and the black fluff aren’t too interested in all that…

I got an email from the doggy school. It seems I need to buy a few things for the classes, and a few things I already have. The first class is a theory one, and a long one. Pups can stay at home/with a sitter, so that the ones following the class can make notes and ask questions during the longer lesson. But… I can’t leave Koa that long with my dad and Bas, as I know that will lead to disaster. I asked my neighbor, but she wasn’t sure yet if she could make it. So, either she can, and I can take my mum to the first class. Or, Koa needs to stay with mum and dad, and I will have to relay all the info to mum. I hope that the neighbor is willing and able to doggy sit, but I know it’s for a few hours (the drive there is about 30 minutes, the class takes two hours, and the drive back is also 30 minutes… and the drive is a bit longer if I have to pick up mum…), and I know she has some plans earlier that day. So, it’s a wait and see… I will have to pay for the class in the next few days, so I am hoping that my money will come in this Friday, so I can pay her before the weekend comes. Otherwise, I can always show the transfer, as she will understand that the extra holiday on Monday will slow the payment down.

Koa and I relaxed some more, and then we got ready for bed. We were rather tired, so it didn’t take too long for the both of us to doze off. After an hour, I was startled by what I thought to be a loud bark. But, when I checked on Koa, he was out like a broken light-bulb, so I may have dreamed about the bark? I went to the loo, and went back to bed. Of course, Koa had to wee then. I tried to sleep again after that, and I just could not. My ADHD brain was on fire…

I checked my phone, saw an email from a good friend, and decided to answer him. I made a few more images, based on his new info, and I was hoping that they would be better. I watched some Downton, I scrolled a bit on Masto. My mind was just so active… After 3 hours, I went to the couch… Koa’s things went to the crate in the living room. I got a new little blanket that I bought a little while ago, and I got to watching telly on the couch. I did doze off a few times. And, when my body was cursing the couch, I decided to get up, and start our day. But yeah, I felt broken for sure…

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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#WeirdFolks
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#KoaKoolani

#Journal of a tired Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 21/05/2026).

I had an OK enough night, but still, I felt tired, with a slight headache, when we got up. After Koa had his food, and I got dressed, and I’d taken my meds, I got to my laptop. I started with an email to a sweet friend of mine, with which I sent an edit of a picture that I had for him the previous day. He had mentioned some changes in his email to me, so like a real addict, I had to try them out, and see if I could create an image for him that was better suited. After I had done that, I wrote my journal toot, and I worked a bit on my blog.

I spent some time with some AI editing, and I spent some time writing bits for my blog. I enjoyed some breakfast, and I tried to relax a bit, as I was rather tired still. Koa and I went out for a short nighttime walkies, but I had forgotten to wear the head lamp, so I could not shine a light on the grassy area. I always try to clean Koa’s number two’s, but there are at least two dog owners, one big and one smaller dog, that don’t deem it necessary to clean up their dog’s shit. So yeah, have to be careful when you want to walk on the field… Unfortunately…

When we got back, I cuddled for a while with Koa, and then he went to the crate for some snoozing, as I didn’t want to be nibbled on by my little vampire… 😂 He went to the crate, got a snack, and was OK there, while I tried to relax a bit, as I was tired, and I had a long enough day ahead of me. Around 6, Koa and I went for another walk, and then I got everything in Skoosh, and we headed to Nijmegen.

Mum was a bit grumpy that I was so early, while she was the one that had requested I’d come early (guess her early was less that than mine, 🫣). I “handed” over Koa, and when mum was ready to watch him and Bas, I got to Skoosh, and we skedaddled to Germany. It felt a bit weird driving there again, after not having been there for 4 weeks.

I started with the Penny, where I took 3 full bags of recycling cans and bottles. I passed the €50, and it’s €0,25 per item, so I had brought in plenty, and my arms and hands were done when the bags were finally empty. But, the money would come in handy when Koa has his next vet appointment again next week. He needs another Titer test, and depending on the outcome, he may need his boosters that time. Seeing the bill went past the €200 for the first time… I hope that the second one will be less. I did get some money back from the insurance, but not as much as I paid. I put that money to Koa’s piggy bank as well, so I should have enough to cover his next vet bill. And then, hopefully, he won’t need the vet for some time to come…

After Penny, I went to Shell, and gave Skoosh something to drink. She wanted almost 18 liters, and seeing I had driven 434km with her since the last time I filled her up, my app told me she had done a lovely 24,31km/l (which my app tells me would be 57,18 mi/gal, not to bad for sure). I went to Edeka, got all the things (except one) that mum asked for, and I got some things for myself as well. Then, I headed back to Nijmegen. A quick stop at Appie, where I got the last thing mum needed, and I got a few things for myself. (of course I forgot some things, so I need to see about visiting the supermarket at some point).

I headed to my parent’s place, where I unloaded all for mum (and dad). Koa was just enjoying his snuffle mat, and when he was done, and when Bas got some snacks and cuddles as well, Koa and I headed home again. I cleaned up the few groceries, walked a short walk with Koa, and I had something to snack. After that, I tried to relax a bit, as I was rather tired. But, Koa was tired too, so that was a good thing, we could relax together.

We were in the garden for a while. I read my book, and Koa spent some time on his outdoor bed. I gave him a few snacks on it, and later on, he went on it by himself for a bit as well. So, I tried to take a little video. I had read for a while, and then my back started to annoy me, so I went back inside, to relax on the couch a bit.

I decided to give Koa one of the extra plush toys that I had ordered from IKEA. He got the (small) Blåhaj, which was still big enough when compared to Koa now. And yes, I took a video of this as well. 😉Koa played a bit with the new plush, and then he dozed off again. I watched some telly, and had a snack. Then, when the neighbor texted, we headed out for a bit.

Koa was a bit too enthusiastic, and the black fluff felt the need to correct him. It scared Koa a bit, and the fluff got separated in a rough way by the neighbor. I checked Koa, and he wasn’t damaged in any way, just very startled from the big black one lashing out. Yeah, Koa is a bouncy puppy, and both Bas and the black fluff aren’t too interested in all that…

I got an email from the doggy school. It seems I need to buy a few things for the classes, and a few things I already have. The first class is a theory one, and a long one. Pups can stay at home/with a sitter, so that the ones following the class can make notes and ask questions during the longer lesson. But… I can’t leave Koa that long with my dad and Bas, as I know that will lead to disaster. I asked my neighbor, but she wasn’t sure yet if she could make it. So, either she can, and I can take my mum to the first class. Or, Koa needs to stay with mum and dad, and I will have to relay all the info to mum. I hope that the neighbor is willing and able to doggy sit, but I know it’s for a few hours (the drive there is about 30 minutes, the class takes two hours, and the drive back is also 30 minutes… and the drive is a bit longer if I have to pick up mum…), and I know she has some plans earlier that day. So, it’s a wait and see… I will have to pay for the class in the next few days, so I am hoping that my money will come in this Friday, so I can pay her before the weekend comes. Otherwise, I can always show the transfer, as she will understand that the extra holiday on Monday will slow the payment down.

Koa and I relaxed some more, and then we got ready for bed. We were rather tired, so it didn’t take too long for the both of us to doze off. After an hour, I was startled by what I thought to be a loud bark. But, when I checked on Koa, he was out like a broken light-bulb, so I may have dreamed about the bark? I went to the loo, and went back to bed. Of course, Koa had to wee then. I tried to sleep again after that, and I just could not. My ADHD brain was on fire…

I checked my phone, saw an email from a good friend, and decided to answer him. I made a few more images, based on his new info, and I was hoping that they would be better. I watched some Downton, I scrolled a bit on Masto. My mind was just so active… After 3 hours, I went to the couch… Koa’s things went to the crate in the living room. I got a new little blanket that I bought a little while ago, and I got to watching telly on the couch. I did doze off a few times. And, when my body was cursing the couch, I decided to get up, and start our day. But yeah, I felt broken for sure…

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾

#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

#Journal of a tired Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 21/05/2026).

I had an OK enough night, but still, I felt tired, with a slight headache, when we got up. After Koa had his food, and I got dressed, and I’d taken my meds, I got to my laptop. I started with an email to a sweet friend of mine, with which I sent an edit of a picture that I had for him the previous day. He had mentioned some changes in his email to me, so like a real addict, I had to try them out, and see if I could create an image for him that was better suited. After I had done that, I wrote my journal toot, and I worked a bit on my blog.

I spent some time with some AI editing, and I spent some time writing bits for my blog. I enjoyed some breakfast, and I tried to relax a bit, as I was rather tired still. Koa and I went out for a short nighttime walkies, but I had forgotten to wear the head lamp, so I could not shine a light on the grassy area. I always try to clean Koa’s number two’s, but there are at least two dog owners, one big and one smaller dog, that don’t deem it necessary to clean up their dog’s shit. So yeah, have to be careful when you want to walk on the field… Unfortunately…

When we got back, I cuddled for a while with Koa, and then he went to the crate for some snoozing, as I didn’t want to be nibbled on by my little vampire… 😂 He went to the crate, got a snack, and was OK there, while I tried to relax a bit, as I was tired, and I had a long enough day ahead of me. Around 6, Koa and I went for another walk, and then I got everything in Skoosh, and we headed to Nijmegen.

Mum was a bit grumpy that I was so early, while she was the one that had requested I’d come early (guess her early was less that than mine, 🫣). I “handed” over Koa, and when mum was ready to watch him and Bas, I got to Skoosh, and we skedaddled to Germany. It felt a bit weird driving there again, after not having been there for 4 weeks.

I started with the Penny, where I took 3 full bags of recycling cans and bottles. I passed the €50, and it’s €0,25 per item, so I had brought in plenty, and my arms and hands were done when the bags were finally empty. But, the money would come in handy when Koa has his next vet appointment again next week. He needs another Titer test, and depending on the outcome, he may need his boosters that time. Seeing the bill went past the €200 for the first time… I hope that the second one will be less. I did get some money back from the insurance, but not as much as I paid. I put that money to Koa’s piggy bank as well, so I should have enough to cover his next vet bill. And then, hopefully, he won’t need the vet for some time to come…

After Penny, I went to Shell, and gave Skoosh something to drink. She wanted almost 18 liters, and seeing I had driven 434km with her since the last time I filled her up, my app told me she had done a lovely 24,31km/l (which my app tells me would be 57,18 mi/gal, not to bad for sure). I went to Edeka, got all the things (except one) that mum asked for, and I got some things for myself as well. Then, I headed back to Nijmegen. A quick stop at Appie, where I got the last thing mum needed, and I got a few things for myself. (of course I forgot some things, so I need to see about visiting the supermarket at some point).

I headed to my parent’s place, where I unloaded all for mum (and dad). Koa was just enjoying his snuffle mat, and when he was done, and when Bas got some snacks and cuddles as well, Koa and I headed home again. I cleaned up the few groceries, walked a short walk with Koa, and I had something to snack. After that, I tried to relax a bit, as I was rather tired. But, Koa was tired too, so that was a good thing, we could relax together.

We were in the garden for a while. I read my book, and Koa spent some time on his outdoor bed. I gave him a few snacks on it, and later on, he went on it by himself for a bit as well. So, I tried to take a little video. I had read for a while, and then my back started to annoy me, so I went back inside, to relax on the couch a bit.

I decided to give Koa one of the extra plush toys that I had ordered from IKEA. He got the (small) Blåhaj, which was still big enough when compared to Koa now. And yes, I took a video of this as well. 😉Koa played a bit with the new plush, and then he dozed off again. I watched some telly, and had a snack. Then, when the neighbor texted, we headed out for a bit.

Koa was a bit too enthusiastic, and the black fluff felt the need to correct him. It scared Koa a bit, and the fluff got separated in a rough way by the neighbor. I checked Koa, and he wasn’t damaged in any way, just very startled from the big black one lashing out. Yeah, Koa is a bouncy puppy, and both Bas and the black fluff aren’t too interested in all that…

I got an email from the doggy school. It seems I need to buy a few things for the classes, and a few things I already have. The first class is a theory one, and a long one. Pups can stay at home/with a sitter, so that the ones following the class can make notes and ask questions during the longer lesson. But… I can’t leave Koa that long with my dad and Bas, as I know that will lead to disaster. I asked my neighbor, but she wasn’t sure yet if she could make it. So, either she can, and I can take my mum to the first class. Or, Koa needs to stay with mum and dad, and I will have to relay all the info to mum. I hope that the neighbor is willing and able to doggy sit, but I know it’s for a few hours (the drive there is about 30 minutes, the class takes two hours, and the drive back is also 30 minutes… and the drive is a bit longer if I have to pick up mum…), and I know she has some plans earlier that day. So, it’s a wait and see… I will have to pay for the class in the next few days, so I am hoping that my money will come in this Friday, so I can pay her before the weekend comes. Otherwise, I can always show the transfer, as she will understand that the extra holiday on Monday will slow the payment down.

Koa and I relaxed some more, and then we got ready for bed. We were rather tired, so it didn’t take too long for the both of us to doze off. After an hour, I was startled by what I thought to be a loud bark. But, when I checked on Koa, he was out like a broken light-bulb, so I may have dreamed about the bark? I went to the loo, and went back to bed. Of course, Koa had to wee then. I tried to sleep again after that, and I just could not. My ADHD brain was on fire…

I checked my phone, saw an email from a good friend, and decided to answer him. I made a few more images, based on his new info, and I was hoping that they would be better. I watched some Downton, I scrolled a bit on Masto. My mind was just so active… After 3 hours, I went to the couch… Koa’s things went to the crate in the living room. I got a new little blanket that I bought a little while ago, and I got to watching telly on the couch. I did doze off a few times. And, when my body was cursing the couch, I decided to get up, and start our day. But yeah, I felt broken for sure…

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

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#WeirdFolks
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#Journal of a tired Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 21/05/2026).

I had an OK enough night, but still, I felt tired, with a slight headache, when we got up. After Koa had his food, and I got dressed, and I’d taken my meds, I got to my laptop. I started with an email to a sweet friend of mine, with which I sent an edit of a picture that I had for him the previous day. He had mentioned some changes in his email to me, so like a real addict, I had to try them out, and see if I could create an image for him that was better suited. After I had done that, I wrote my journal toot, and I worked a bit on my blog.

I spent some time with some AI editing, and I spent some time writing bits for my blog. I enjoyed some breakfast, and I tried to relax a bit, as I was rather tired still. Koa and I went out for a short nighttime walkies, but I had forgotten to wear the head lamp, so I could not shine a light on the grassy area. I always try to clean Koa’s number two’s, but there are at least two dog owners, one big and one smaller dog, that don’t deem it necessary to clean up their dog’s shit. So yeah, have to be careful when you want to walk on the field… Unfortunately…

When we got back, I cuddled for a while with Koa, and then he went to the crate for some snoozing, as I didn’t want to be nibbled on by my little vampire… 😂 He went to the crate, got a snack, and was OK there, while I tried to relax a bit, as I was tired, and I had a long enough day ahead of me. Around 6, Koa and I went for another walk, and then I got everything in Skoosh, and we headed to Nijmegen.

Mum was a bit grumpy that I was so early, while she was the one that had requested I’d come early (guess her early was less that than mine, 🫣). I “handed” over Koa, and when mum was ready to watch him and Bas, I got to Skoosh, and we skedaddled to Germany. It felt a bit weird driving there again, after not having been there for 4 weeks.

I started with the Penny, where I took 3 full bags of recycling cans and bottles. I passed the €50, and it’s €0,25 per item, so I had brought in plenty, and my arms and hands were done when the bags were finally empty. But, the money would come in handy when Koa has his next vet appointment again next week. He needs another Titer test, and depending on the outcome, he may need his boosters that time. Seeing the bill went past the €200 for the first time… I hope that the second one will be less. I did get some money back from the insurance, but not as much as I paid. I put that money to Koa’s piggy bank as well, so I should have enough to cover his next vet bill. And then, hopefully, he won’t need the vet for some time to come…

After Penny, I went to Shell, and gave Skoosh something to drink. She wanted almost 18 liters, and seeing I had driven 434km with her since the last time I filled her up, my app told me she had done a lovely 24,31km/l (which my app tells me would be 57,18 mi/gal, not to bad for sure). I went to Edeka, got all the things (except one) that mum asked for, and I got some things for myself as well. Then, I headed back to Nijmegen. A quick stop at Appie, where I got the last thing mum needed, and I got a few things for myself. (of course I forgot some things, so I need to see about visiting the supermarket at some point).

I headed to my parent’s place, where I unloaded all for mum (and dad). Koa was just enjoying his snuffle mat, and when he was done, and when Bas got some snacks and cuddles as well, Koa and I headed home again. I cleaned up the few groceries, walked a short walk with Koa, and I had something to snack. After that, I tried to relax a bit, as I was rather tired. But, Koa was tired too, so that was a good thing, we could relax together.

We were in the garden for a while. I read my book, and Koa spent some time on his outdoor bed. I gave him a few snacks on it, and later on, he went on it by himself for a bit as well. So, I tried to take a little video. I had read for a while, and then my back started to annoy me, so I went back inside, to relax on the couch a bit.

I decided to give Koa one of the extra plush toys that I had ordered from IKEA. He got the (small) Blåhaj, which was still big enough when compared to Koa now. And yes, I took a video of this as well. 😉Koa played a bit with the new plush, and then he dozed off again. I watched some telly, and had a snack. Then, when the neighbor texted, we headed out for a bit.

Koa was a bit too enthusiastic, and the black fluff felt the need to correct him. It scared Koa a bit, and the fluff got separated in a rough way by the neighbor. I checked Koa, and he wasn’t damaged in any way, just very startled from the big black one lashing out. Yeah, Koa is a bouncy puppy, and both Bas and the black fluff aren’t too interested in all that…

I got an email from the doggy school. It seems I need to buy a few things for the classes, and a few things I already have. The first class is a theory one, and a long one. Pups can stay at home/with a sitter, so that the ones following the class can make notes and ask questions during the longer lesson. But… I can’t leave Koa that long with my dad and Bas, as I know that will lead to disaster. I asked my neighbor, but she wasn’t sure yet if she could make it. So, either she can, and I can take my mum to the first class. Or, Koa needs to stay with mum and dad, and I will have to relay all the info to mum. I hope that the neighbor is willing and able to doggy sit, but I know it’s for a few hours (the drive there is about 30 minutes, the class takes two hours, and the drive back is also 30 minutes… and the drive is a bit longer if I have to pick up mum…), and I know she has some plans earlier that day. So, it’s a wait and see… I will have to pay for the class in the next few days, so I am hoping that my money will come in this Friday, so I can pay her before the weekend comes. Otherwise, I can always show the transfer, as she will understand that the extra holiday on Monday will slow the payment down.

Koa and I relaxed some more, and then we got ready for bed. We were rather tired, so it didn’t take too long for the both of us to doze off. After an hour, I was startled by what I thought to be a loud bark. But, when I checked on Koa, he was out like a broken light-bulb, so I may have dreamed about the bark? I went to the loo, and went back to bed. Of course, Koa had to wee then. I tried to sleep again after that, and I just could not. My ADHD brain was on fire…

I checked my phone, saw an email from a good friend, and decided to answer him. I made a few more images, based on his new info, and I was hoping that they would be better. I watched some Downton, I scrolled a bit on Masto. My mind was just so active… After 3 hours, I went to the couch… Koa’s things went to the crate in the living room. I got a new little blanket that I bought a little while ago, and I got to watching telly on the couch. I did doze off a few times. And, when my body was cursing the couch, I decided to get up, and start our day. But yeah, I felt broken for sure…

Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it 💜 as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:

:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾

#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolani

#MeCfs #ME_CFS #Burnout #ActuallyAutistic #actuallyAuDHD #ActuallyADHD gals, maybe you know important techniques I don't. I have Audhd. I got burned out trying to study in places that didn't accomodate me for 3 years. Now, I'm going to study somewhere smaller, nearer, and I think I'll be able to handle it. I live with my parents, I am 19, I do not have me/CFS, but the rest is diagnosed. Parents know about it. But they still can't accept how bad I got with the recent burnout. I don't work, I don't do anything really. Still I have days I just cannot get out of bed at all.

How does one survive somewhat happy, even with extremely limited energy ? For me, spoons are the shortage. How do I preserve the spoons I still get ? I've been trying to make my parents understand but it's slow. Even vague answers help, I have no idea what to do.

#MeCfs #ME_CFS #Burnout #ActuallyAutistic #actuallyAuDHD #ActuallyADHD gals, maybe you know important techniques I don't. I have Audhd. I got burned out trying to study in places that didn't accomodate me for 3 years. Now, I'm going to study somewhere smaller, nearer, and I think I'll be able to handle it. I live with my parents, I am 19, I do not have me/CFS, but the rest is diagnosed. Parents know about it. But they still can't accept how bad I got with the recent burnout. I don't work, I don't do anything really. Still I have days I just cannot get out of bed at all.

How does one survive somewhat happy, even with extremely limited energy ? For me, spoons are the shortage. How do I preserve the spoons I still get ? I've been trying to make my parents understand but it's slow. Even vague answers help, I have no idea what to do.

#MeCfs #ME_CFS #Burnout #ActuallyAutistic #actuallyAuDHD #ActuallyADHD gals, maybe you know important techniques I don't. I have Audhd. I got burned out trying to study in places that didn't accomodate me for 3 years. Now, I'm going to study somewhere smaller, nearer, and I think I'll be able to handle it. I live with my parents, I am 19, I do not have me/CFS, but the rest is diagnosed. Parents know about it. But they still can't accept how bad I got with the recent burnout. I don't work, I don't do anything really. Still I have days I just cannot get out of bed at all.

How does one survive somewhat happy, even with extremely limited energy ? For me, spoons are the shortage. How do I preserve the spoons I still get ? I've been trying to make my parents understand but it's slow. Even vague answers help, I have no idea what to do.

#MeCfs #ME_CFS #Burnout #ActuallyAutistic #actuallyAuDHD #ActuallyADHD gals, maybe you know important techniques I don't. I have Audhd. I got burned out trying to study in places that didn't accomodate me for 3 years. Now, I'm going to study somewhere smaller, nearer, and I think I'll be able to handle it. I live with my parents, I am 19, I do not have me/CFS, but the rest is diagnosed. Parents know about it. But they still can't accept how bad I got with the recent burnout. I don't work, I don't do anything really. Still I have days I just cannot get out of bed at all.

How does one survive somewhat happy, even with extremely limited energy ? For me, spoons are the shortage. How do I preserve the spoons I still get ? I've been trying to make my parents understand but it's slow. Even vague answers help, I have no idea what to do.

#MeCfs #ME_CFS #Burnout #ActuallyAutistic #actuallyAuDHD #ActuallyADHD gals, maybe you know important techniques I don't.

How does one survive somewhat happy, even with extremely limited energy ? For me, spoons are the shortage. How do I preserve the spoons I still get ? I've been trying to make my parents understand but it's extremely slow and tedious, I have to redo hour-long explanations over and over because it's like they forget in a week that I am Fucking Exhausted and go back to expecting me to function as if I never burned out.