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CW: I had an autistic meltdown, of which I'm a tad ashamed... 😔 But nothing too bad happened... Still, it's a bit of a longer Toot, and it has the meltdown in it, so I added the CW. 😊
#Journal of an ashamed Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 18/07/2026).
We didn’t have the worst night, but I didn’t feel all rested and good when we got up. Still, Koa told me it was time, so we started our “day”. I got to the scale, which was less bad than I thought it would be, and I dressed. I took my meds, which were very much welcome, and then I fixed Koa’s meal. When Koa had a full belly, we got to the couch, where I grabbed my laptop, and I started an email to my sweet friend.
I finished the email to my friend, and I had some brekkie. I started on my journal toot, and then I took Koa out for a short walk. It was cooler again outside, which was very nice indeed. We got back to the couch, where I finished my journal post, and I shared it to all the usual places. I put the laptop away, and tried to relax for a while.
I felt a bit uneasy, like something was bothering me, and I didn’t know what. Koa started to behave a bit like an asshat, trying to steal all sorts of things, and it was bugging me a lot. When he finally settled down again, I went upstairs to ride the bike for a while. Which went well enough. I got back down, and took Koa for a longer walk.
I noticed I was a bit more annoyed with him when he was not following properly, or trying to put everything in his mouth, you know, puppy behavior. And I just could not understand why it triggered me so much this time. I just thought it was because my back was still troubling me, and I felt tired as well. We got back, and then I fixed some food for Koa.
After that, I needed to relax for a bit. But… Koa was doing all sorts of things, and it triggered me so much, that I snapped. I felt that I was getting too angry, and I managed to pick up Koa and put him in the crate. But there was some yelling, I did smash a door, and I cried so much… I was just so overwhelmed, and I needed to take myself out of the situation, but I couldn’t as there was no one to “take over from me”, so I needed to fix things first… I felt so much anger, so much fear, and I knew I had to find a way to calm down again. I am glad, in a way, that I recognize autistic meltdowns better now, and I kinda know how to deal with them. But… Once I am calmer, I feel such a pain and shame…
I know that Koa wasn’t harmed, but I know I must have scared him, and I hated myself so much for that. I even tear up again while I am writing this. When I was calm again, when I had been able to breathe in and out, and reflect on the meltdown, I took Koa from the crate. He jumped into my arms, and he started to lick away all the tears that were falling… I felt so bad, so guilty, so horrible… And here he was. Just shy of 5 months, comforting me, not blaming me for anything… So I cuddled him as best as I could, while his fur was slowly getting wet and all. I was so grateful as I felt like he was forgiving me, maybe even apologizing for doing the things that made me so overwhelmed to begin with.
I started to feel a bit better again, and I took Koa out for a little walk. We got back, we relaxed, and then we got ready to drive to Oss, where I had to pick up my parcel. We arrived there well enough, but it was such a mess, that I had no idea what to do. I took Koa, and we walked to one of the men loading a van, and I just asked. My heart was going crazy, guess I still had not calmed down all the way from this morning’s bad episode. But, the man pointed me in the right direction with a smile. A little while further, 5 men were having some fun together, and all together, they pointed me into the same direction, all smiling, but also aware of the little bouncy dog that was with me. I managed to get my parcel, and Koa and I headed home again.
I unpacked the package, and took out the inlays. I cut them to the right size for my new shoes, and I saw that my old inlays were as dead as my old shoes. I put in the new ones, and then I fixed some food. A parcel with some snacks for Koa was being delivered, just before my food was done. I enjoyed my meal, unpacked Koa’s snacks, and saw they sent me something I didn’t order. It was something I could use, so yeah, I will just keep it. But I will need to find a place to order the things I do need now… So that’s some extra costs again, while the funds are not that high…
Koa and I relaxed for a while, and we went out for one more walk. Then, we headed to bed. I wanted to relax for a while, but I noticed I was so tired, that I dozed off before I knew it. I didn’t even get to finish my book, a Grisham one, that seems to take me forever to finish. Somehow, I have been trying to finish it for almost 2 months now. I wonder if I am slower with reading, if it’s a bigger book (and the digital pages are misleading, as they sometimes can be), or if I am just less interested in reading the last few weeks… But yeah, I dozed off and slept for a while.
I woke up for the loo, and Koa and I went outside. But, Koa wasn’t interested in doing anything, so after some minutes, we went back to bed. Koa woke me up for a potty break, and then, we got back to bed. He made some noises, but I begged him for some more sleep. And, somehow, he allowed me just that. When I woke up again, I was startled when I saw the clock. I checked my watch, and according to it, I had slept about 9¾ hours in total! Koa was very excited to hear me getting up, and I felt sore from the long lie in, but I also felt a bit more relaxed from the longer sleep. So, Koa and I got up, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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CW: I had an autistic meltdown, of which I'm a tad ashamed... 😔 But nothing too bad happened... Still, it's a bit of a longer Toot, and it has the meltdown in it, so I added the CW. 😊
#Journal of an ashamed Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 18/07/2026).
We didn’t have the worst night, but I didn’t feel all rested and good when we got up. Still, Koa told me it was time, so we started our “day”. I got to the scale, which was less bad than I thought it would be, and I dressed. I took my meds, which were very much welcome, and then I fixed Koa’s meal. When Koa had a full belly, we got to the couch, where I grabbed my laptop, and I started an email to my sweet friend.
I finished the email to my friend, and I had some brekkie. I started on my journal toot, and then I took Koa out for a short walk. It was cooler again outside, which was very nice indeed. We got back to the couch, where I finished my journal post, and I shared it to all the usual places. I put the laptop away, and tried to relax for a while.
I felt a bit uneasy, like something was bothering me, and I didn’t know what. Koa started to behave a bit like an asshat, trying to steal all sorts of things, and it was bugging me a lot. When he finally settled down again, I went upstairs to ride the bike for a while. Which went well enough. I got back down, and took Koa for a longer walk.
I noticed I was a bit more annoyed with him when he was not following properly, or trying to put everything in his mouth, you know, puppy behavior. And I just could not understand why it triggered me so much this time. I just thought it was because my back was still troubling me, and I felt tired as well. We got back, and then I fixed some food for Koa.
After that, I needed to relax for a bit. But… Koa was doing all sorts of things, and it triggered me so much, that I snapped. I felt that I was getting too angry, and I managed to pick up Koa and put him in the crate. But there was some yelling, I did smash a door, and I cried so much… I was just so overwhelmed, and I needed to take myself out of the situation, but I couldn’t as there was no one to “take over from me”, so I needed to fix things first… I felt so much anger, so much fear, and I knew I had to find a way to calm down again. I am glad, in a way, that I recognize autistic meltdowns better now, and I kinda know how to deal with them. But… Once I am calmer, I feel such a pain and shame…
I know that Koa wasn’t harmed, but I know I must have scared him, and I hated myself so much for that. I even tear up again while I am writing this. When I was calm again, when I had been able to breathe in and out, and reflect on the meltdown, I took Koa from the crate. He jumped into my arms, and he started to lick away all the tears that were falling… I felt so bad, so guilty, so horrible… And here he was. Just shy of 5 months, comforting me, not blaming me for anything… So I cuddled him as best as I could, while his fur was slowly getting wet and all. I was so grateful as I felt like he was forgiving me, maybe even apologizing for doing the things that made me so overwhelmed to begin with.
I started to feel a bit better again, and I took Koa out for a little walk. We got back, we relaxed, and then we got ready to drive to Oss, where I had to pick up my parcel. We arrived there well enough, but it was such a mess, that I had no idea what to do. I took Koa, and we walked to one of the men loading a van, and I just asked. My heart was going crazy, guess I still had not calmed down all the way from this morning’s bad episode. But, the man pointed me in the right direction with a smile. A little while further, 5 men were having some fun together, and all together, they pointed me into the same direction, all smiling, but also aware of the little bouncy dog that was with me. I managed to get my parcel, and Koa and I headed home again.
I unpacked the package, and took out the inlays. I cut them to the right size for my new shoes, and I saw that my old inlays were as dead as my old shoes. I put in the new ones, and then I fixed some food. A parcel with some snacks for Koa was being delivered, just before my food was done. I enjoyed my meal, unpacked Koa’s snacks, and saw they sent me something I didn’t order. It was something I could use, so yeah, I will just keep it. But I will need to find a place to order the things I do need now… So that’s some extra costs again, while the funds are not that high…
Koa and I relaxed for a while, and we went out for one more walk. Then, we headed to bed. I wanted to relax for a while, but I noticed I was so tired, that I dozed off before I knew it. I didn’t even get to finish my book, a Grisham one, that seems to take me forever to finish. Somehow, I have been trying to finish it for almost 2 months now. I wonder if I am slower with reading, if it’s a bigger book (and the digital pages are misleading, as they sometimes can be), or if I am just less interested in reading the last few weeks… But yeah, I dozed off and slept for a while.
I woke up for the loo, and Koa and I went outside. But, Koa wasn’t interested in doing anything, so after some minutes, we went back to bed. Koa woke me up for a potty break, and then, we got back to bed. He made some noises, but I begged him for some more sleep. And, somehow, he allowed me just that. When I woke up again, I was startled when I saw the clock. I checked my watch, and according to it, I had slept about 9¾ hours in total! Koa was very excited to hear me getting up, and I felt sore from the long lie in, but I also felt a bit more relaxed from the longer sleep. So, Koa and I got up, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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Cleaning the grass with a helpful friend (18/07/2026)
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Cleaning the grass with a helpful friend (18/07/2026)
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CW: Nothing bad at all! 😁 Just a >7k long journal Toot... So this could save some folks from scrolling too long... 😇
#Journal of a slightly relaxed Dutch AuDHD Picy :pixy_party: (Friday, 17/07/2026).
Even though there were a few interruptions for loo breaks, and buzzing terrorists, Koa allowed me to get quite a bit of sleep. According to my watch, I slept for almost 8¾ hours in total, which is a lot! The downside of it was, that my body was sore from lying in bed longer, and my meds having “gone”, so when I had to get up, it was a bit of a struggle. But, I got up, and quickly let out Koa, and took my meds. I got dressed, fixed Koa’s meal, and then we got to the couch.
I wrote an email to my sweet friend, and then I had some brekkie. I started writing my journal toot, but I took Koa out for a short walk before I finished it. I uploaded it to all the “usual places”, and then I put the laptop away. I tried to relax a bit on the couch, until I started to feel a bit restless. Koa was sleeping on the couch, and I wanted to let him snooze. So, I went upstairs, and I rode the bike for 15 minutes. When I got back, Koa was still on the couch, albeit in a different position. So, it was safe to say that I was very proud of my not-so-little dude!
I took Koa out for a longer walk, as it was getting light out, and the temperature was lovely for it. Koa and I were both rested enough, and we had a lovely walk. When we got back, I fixed Koa some food, while I relaxed on the couch for a while.
Bestie called me on her way to the last day of work, as summer vacation was about to begin. We had a nice chat, as I was enjoying a meal. I was just starting making it when she called, and I was halfway through eating it when she hung up. After the meal, we went for another short walk, and then I tried to relax a little bit.
I had texted the neighbor again, if she’d be interested in a walk with Koa and me, so a little after 9, we set out for a lovely walk. The neighbor took over Koa again, and she really seemed to enjoy it. When we met another dog-walker, he thought Koa was her new pup, so she told him that Koa was/is mine, and this was just therapy for her, after losing her fluff 3 weeks ago.
So I know now that I will need to keep asking her if she wants to join us, as she won’t ask for it. I guess it’s probably too hard for her to ask, as she doesn’t want to “intrude”, but… She and her fluff were there for me when Arwen had passed away. And, knowing that Koa can help her feel better, I will keep asking her along, every time we have time for a nice round with her.
We got back, and I went to bed with my tablet for a while to relax my back. When mum let me know she was on her way, I made sure that I was up when she arrived, to help with the groceries. Mum was willing and able to spend some time with us, so I could head upstairs for a little bike ride. There were some parcels on their way, and I was afraid I would miss the bell (as in not being at the door fast enough) if I were upstairs. Mum had some time, so I tried to make her comfy. She settled in with a TV series, and I went upstairs.
I had hoped to ride for 30 minutes, but after 20, my back was not too pleased with me anymore. So, I went down again, which surprised mum. But, she understood, as she knows I am still recovering from the herniated disc. She spent some more time with us, so I could walk a short round with Koa. I was busy in the kitchen when the first parcel arrived. Mum got it for me, and… It was Koa’s new (travel) crate!!! They had “told” me that it would be delivered on Sunday, so when I saw a delivery scheduled for today, besides the new artificial grass, I wondered what it would be.
We unpacked the big box, and we set up the crate. And… It was/is HUGE! I knew I had chosen the biggest one, as Koa will be a big boy, and I want him to have some space to “chill” should we go somewhere, and he would need to be in the crate. I tried to set it up in my bedroom, and I will need to re-arrange some of my stuff this weekend, so the crate can fit better. It looks very sturdy, and I hope that Koa won’t try to eat it (as it’s with plastic and fabric). Mum got the cardboard box, so she could make Bas happy with it (he loves tearing apart boxes, preferably ones bigger than him). Mum went home, and Koa and I relaxed for a while.
Mum just left when they came to deliver the artificial grass. I got it all in the hallway, and then, I had to get it into the shed. They weren’t too heavy, but they were harder to maneuver (as they were 2m long each). I managed to find a small spot where I could put them in the shed. And, after some effort and cursing, they were stored there, ready to be used whenever bestie has got some time for me. But, my back really hated me for taking the grass into the shed, so that was a bit of a bummer… I walked a short round with Koa, and then I took my meds, so I could get to bed in time.
When I was getting ready for bed, I saw another delivery truck come up. They had said it “should fit in the mailbox”, but as I saw the dude come up, I saved him (and me) the effort of using the mailbox, and I took it from him, for which he seemed grateful (I don’t know how easily that box could have fitted in the mailbox… One day, I would love to get me a “parcel mailbox”, but decent ones are expensive… Still, it’s on my long list of things I would like to get to improve the home.
Koa and I got ready for bed. And, it took me quite some time to get comfy. The buzzing terrorists 🦟 were driving me nuts… I tried to cover my hands and part of my arms, face, and neck, with some Deet, which I hoped would help me some. But the sound, it was driving me nuts! I really would love to get a decent mosquito net for over my bed! But, as I had just spent about €120 on food and snacks for Koa, and I just bought him a new harness (the current one is getting “smaller” every day), and of course the new travel crate… I am done with my money, and my savings are lower than ever… But yeah, if someone has about €40 to “donate”, then I would really order a good net for over my bed. I keep hearing the buzzing, and sometimes I see the damned terrorists flying around my head… I am seriously thinking of begging with my parents for a net! I just paid back the money I borrowed for the new airfryer that I needed… Ugh… Money is nice, when you have plenty to spend…
After over an hour, I was able to finally doze off. It had taken some time to settle down Koa in his new crate. I had the bottom in it, but apparently, this was too warm for my boy. Maybe he will like it more when it gets colder in winter. But, when Koa settled, and the Deet scared the buzzing idiots away for a little while, I finally fell asleep. I woke up about 5 hours later for the loo, and to apply some more Deet. I took Koa outside, and he was like “why am I here?”. So, after a few minutes, we went back inside. He got back into the new crate, and when he’d finished the snack, he barked once. As he had just been out for over 5 minutes, I told him that it was time for some more sleeping. And then, when I woke up again, it was almost 3 hours later.
I took Koa from the crate, and now he did want to go outside. I got to the scale, which was not too good, but a lot “less bad” than I had feared it would be. I got dressed, took my meds, prepped Koa’s meal, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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CW: Nothing bad at all! 😁 Just a >7k long journal Toot... So this could save some folks from scrolling too long... 😇
#Journal of a slightly relaxed Dutch AuDHD Picy :pixy_party: (Friday, 17/07/2026).
Even though there were a few interruptions for loo breaks, and buzzing terrorists, Koa allowed me to get quite a bit of sleep. According to my watch, I slept for almost 8¾ hours in total, which is a lot! The downside of it was, that my body was sore from lying in bed longer, and my meds having “gone”, so when I had to get up, it was a bit of a struggle. But, I got up, and quickly let out Koa, and took my meds. I got dressed, fixed Koa’s meal, and then we got to the couch.
I wrote an email to my sweet friend, and then I had some brekkie. I started writing my journal toot, but I took Koa out for a short walk before I finished it. I uploaded it to all the “usual places”, and then I put the laptop away. I tried to relax a bit on the couch, until I started to feel a bit restless. Koa was sleeping on the couch, and I wanted to let him snooze. So, I went upstairs, and I rode the bike for 15 minutes. When I got back, Koa was still on the couch, albeit in a different position. So, it was safe to say that I was very proud of my not-so-little dude!
I took Koa out for a longer walk, as it was getting light out, and the temperature was lovely for it. Koa and I were both rested enough, and we had a lovely walk. When we got back, I fixed Koa some food, while I relaxed on the couch for a while.
Bestie called me on her way to the last day of work, as summer vacation was about to begin. We had a nice chat, as I was enjoying a meal. I was just starting making it when she called, and I was halfway through eating it when she hung up. After the meal, we went for another short walk, and then I tried to relax a little bit.
I had texted the neighbor again, if she’d be interested in a walk with Koa and me, so a little after 9, we set out for a lovely walk. The neighbor took over Koa again, and she really seemed to enjoy it. When we met another dog-walker, he thought Koa was her new pup, so she told him that Koa was/is mine, and this was just therapy for her, after losing her fluff 3 weeks ago.
So I know now that I will need to keep asking her if she wants to join us, as she won’t ask for it. I guess it’s probably too hard for her to ask, as she doesn’t want to “intrude”, but… She and her fluff were there for me when Arwen had passed away. And, knowing that Koa can help her feel better, I will keep asking her along, every time we have time for a nice round with her.
We got back, and I went to bed with my tablet for a while to relax my back. When mum let me know she was on her way, I made sure that I was up when she arrived, to help with the groceries. Mum was willing and able to spend some time with us, so I could head upstairs for a little bike ride. There were some parcels on their way, and I was afraid I would miss the bell (as in not being at the door fast enough) if I were upstairs. Mum had some time, so I tried to make her comfy. She settled in with a TV series, and I went upstairs.
I had hoped to ride for 30 minutes, but after 20, my back was not too pleased with me anymore. So, I went down again, which surprised mum. But, she understood, as she knows I am still recovering from the herniated disc. She spent some more time with us, so I could walk a short round with Koa. I was busy in the kitchen when the first parcel arrived. Mum got it for me, and… It was Koa’s new (travel) crate!!! They had “told” me that it would be delivered on Sunday, so when I saw a delivery scheduled for today, besides the new artificial grass, I wondered what it would be.
We unpacked the big box, and we set up the crate. And… It was/is HUGE! I knew I had chosen the biggest one, as Koa will be a big boy, and I want him to have some space to “chill” should we go somewhere, and he would need to be in the crate. I tried to set it up in my bedroom, and I will need to re-arrange some of my stuff this weekend, so the crate can fit better. It looks very sturdy, and I hope that Koa won’t try to eat it (as it’s with plastic and fabric). Mum got the cardboard box, so she could make Bas happy with it (he loves tearing apart boxes, preferably ones bigger than him). Mum went home, and Koa and I relaxed for a while.
Mum just left when they came to deliver the artificial grass. I got it all in the hallway, and then, I had to get it into the shed. They weren’t too heavy, but they were harder to maneuver (as they were 2m long each). I managed to find a small spot where I could put them in the shed. And, after some effort and cursing, they were stored there, ready to be used whenever bestie has got some time for me. But, my back really hated me for taking the grass into the shed, so that was a bit of a bummer… I walked a short round with Koa, and then I took my meds, so I could get to bed in time.
When I was getting ready for bed, I saw another delivery truck come up. They had said it “should fit in the mailbox”, but as I saw the dude come up, I saved him (and me) the effort of using the mailbox, and I took it from him, for which he seemed grateful (I don’t know how easily that box could have fitted in the mailbox… One day, I would love to get me a “parcel mailbox”, but decent ones are expensive… Still, it’s on my long list of things I would like to get to improve the home.
Koa and I got ready for bed. And, it took me quite some time to get comfy. The buzzing terrorists 🦟 were driving me nuts… I tried to cover my hands and part of my arms, face, and neck, with some Deet, which I hoped would help me some. But the sound, it was driving me nuts! I really would love to get a decent mosquito net for over my bed! But, as I had just spent about €120 on food and snacks for Koa, and I just bought him a new harness (the current one is getting “smaller” every day), and of course the new travel crate… I am done with my money, and my savings are lower than ever… But yeah, if someone has about €40 to “donate”, then I would really order a good net for over my bed. I keep hearing the buzzing, and sometimes I see the damned terrorists flying around my head… I am seriously thinking of begging with my parents for a net! I just paid back the money I borrowed for the new airfryer that I needed… Ugh… Money is nice, when you have plenty to spend…
After over an hour, I was able to finally doze off. It had taken some time to settle down Koa in his new crate. I had the bottom in it, but apparently, this was too warm for my boy. Maybe he will like it more when it gets colder in winter. But, when Koa settled, and the Deet scared the buzzing idiots away for a little while, I finally fell asleep. I woke up about 5 hours later for the loo, and to apply some more Deet. I took Koa outside, and he was like “why am I here?”. So, after a few minutes, we went back inside. He got back into the new crate, and when he’d finished the snack, he barked once. As he had just been out for over 5 minutes, I told him that it was time for some more sleeping. And then, when I woke up again, it was almost 3 hours later.
I took Koa from the crate, and now he did want to go outside. I got to the scale, which was not too good, but a lot “less bad” than I had feared it would be. I got dressed, took my meds, prepped Koa’s meal, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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Owwww :blobcatlolsob:
Koa was sleeping on the couch when I wanted to go upstairs and ride due bike for 15 minutes...
I decided to let him stay on the couch and I headed upstairs.
I rode my 15 minutes. And when I got back, Koa was still on the couch sleeping...
I'm so proud of him! :blobcatlove:
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Owwww :blobcatlolsob:
Koa was sleeping on the couch when I wanted to go upstairs and ride due bike for 15 minutes...
I decided to let him stay on the couch and I headed upstairs.
I rode my 15 minutes. And when I got back, Koa was still on the couch sleeping...
I'm so proud of him! :blobcatlove:
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#Journal of a bläh feeling Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 16/07/2026).
I didn’t have the worst night, just the usual potty breaks and buzzing terrorist 🦟 activities. But still, with a few interruptions, I got about 7:40 hours of sleep in total. I didn’t feel too tired, so that was a good thing. I did feel sore, so I got up, took my meds, dressed, fed Koa, and then I got to the couch with my laptop.
I wrote an email to my sweet friend, and then I got some brekkie. Koa and I went out for short walkies. When we returned, I got back to my laptop, and I wrote my journal toot. It got uploaded to all the usual places, and I tried to relax a bit on the couch. Koa was a bit restless, and I found out that one of his molars is wobbly, so that must be giving him some discomforts when he uses his mouth.
We relaxed for a while, and when it got light out, we went out for another walk. Koa didn’t want a longer one, which was fine by me as I was not feeling too well. The pain wasn't too bad, but I just felt exhausted and sad. Not all depressed, but close to it. Aware of it, but not really able to “see” anything that could “snap me out of it”. It sucks when one feels like this, because it feels so helpless and lonely…
After walkies, I went upstairs, and I rode the bike for a bit. It felt good, but somehow, I didn’t get the usual “feels” from it. Like, it was good to do so, but the endorphins, they were lost on me… I did it because it was good for me, and I usually enjoyed it, but it just didn’t feel like it usually would.
Bestie called me on her way to work, and we had a nice little chat while she was on her way. We hung up when she arrived, and I walked a bit with young master Koa. Then, some relaxing, but it just didn’t feel good…
After a while, I texted the neighbor, and asked her if she would want to join me and Koa for a walk, saying I didn’t feel all too well, and I could use some company and distraction. She texted back that she’d be ready around nine. A little before that, Koa hinted he needed to go out. So, we went to the grassy field, with his little Chuck-it! Ball, which he carried for a while, looking so proud.
Lately, he’s been picking up twigs and all to carry around with him. As I don’t want him to have wooden things in his mouth, due to splinters, I am trying to offer the Chuck-it ball instead. And, it seems to work, for short periods of time at least.
When Koa was ready, I texted the neighbor, and we set out for a walk. She took the leash, and enjoyed it a lot. Koa was just happy to get extra attention, and he was all excited about walking with the neighbor… We had a nice walk, with a good chat, and I was very grateful for it. When we got back, I was tired, and Koa and I relaxed for a while in the bedroom. I re-watched some more Criminal Minds, and checked the parcel delivery service.
They said they’d come to deliver the grass today, so I kept checking the info, but in the end, they never left the site. So that was a bummer… I had troubles with my emotions, and I could not stop eating. I didn’t know why, but I just felt so sad, so disconnected, so tired… I tried to keep going, but it was hard…
I walked Koa again, and then relaxed some more, as best as I could. After a while, I felt so bad about the snacking I’d been doing, that I went to the home-trainer again. I rode it a bit longer than I had hoped to do, but it felt good, in a way, so I guess it was something I needed at the time. After that, I got ready to get to bed.
It didn’t take too long to get comfortable. Koa was sleeping already, and I did the same. I woke up for the loo, and Koa kept snoozing. He woke me for his potty break a few hours later. I woke up again when a buzzing terrorist was at it again. When Koa woke me up again, I didn’t believe the clock, and checked it twice. Koa had allowed me quite a long sleep, and in the end, according to my watch, I had slept for about 8¾ hours in total! I was a bit sore and drowsy, but not too bad. So, Koa and I got up, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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#Journal of a bläh feeling Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 16/07/2026).
I didn’t have the worst night, just the usual potty breaks and buzzing terrorist 🦟 activities. But still, with a few interruptions, I got about 7:40 hours of sleep in total. I didn’t feel too tired, so that was a good thing. I did feel sore, so I got up, took my meds, dressed, fed Koa, and then I got to the couch with my laptop.
I wrote an email to my sweet friend, and then I got some brekkie. Koa and I went out for short walkies. When we returned, I got back to my laptop, and I wrote my journal toot. It got uploaded to all the usual places, and I tried to relax a bit on the couch. Koa was a bit restless, and I found out that one of his molars is wobbly, so that must be giving him some discomforts when he uses his mouth.
We relaxed for a while, and when it got light out, we went out for another walk. Koa didn’t want a longer one, which was fine by me as I was not feeling too well. The pain wasn't too bad, but I just felt exhausted and sad. Not all depressed, but close to it. Aware of it, but not really able to “see” anything that could “snap me out of it”. It sucks when one feels like this, because it feels so helpless and lonely…
After walkies, I went upstairs, and I rode the bike for a bit. It felt good, but somehow, I didn’t get the usual “feels” from it. Like, it was good to do so, but the endorphins, they were lost on me… I did it because it was good for me, and I usually enjoyed it, but it just didn’t feel like it usually would.
Bestie called me on her way to work, and we had a nice little chat while she was on her way. We hung up when she arrived, and I walked a bit with young master Koa. Then, some relaxing, but it just didn’t feel good…
After a while, I texted the neighbor, and asked her if she would want to join me and Koa for a walk, saying I didn’t feel all too well, and I could use some company and distraction. She texted back that she’d be ready around nine. A little before that, Koa hinted he needed to go out. So, we went to the grassy field, with his little Chuck-it! Ball, which he carried for a while, looking so proud.
Lately, he’s been picking up twigs and all to carry around with him. As I don’t want him to have wooden things in his mouth, due to splinters, I am trying to offer the Chuck-it ball instead. And, it seems to work, for short periods of time at least.
When Koa was ready, I texted the neighbor, and we set out for a walk. She took the leash, and enjoyed it a lot. Koa was just happy to get extra attention, and he was all excited about walking with the neighbor… We had a nice walk, with a good chat, and I was very grateful for it. When we got back, I was tired, and Koa and I relaxed for a while in the bedroom. I re-watched some more Criminal Minds, and checked the parcel delivery service.
They said they’d come to deliver the grass today, so I kept checking the info, but in the end, they never left the site. So that was a bummer… I had troubles with my emotions, and I could not stop eating. I didn’t know why, but I just felt so sad, so disconnected, so tired… I tried to keep going, but it was hard…
I walked Koa again, and then relaxed some more, as best as I could. After a while, I felt so bad about the snacking I’d been doing, that I went to the home-trainer again. I rode it a bit longer than I had hoped to do, but it felt good, in a way, so I guess it was something I needed at the time. After that, I got ready to get to bed.
It didn’t take too long to get comfortable. Koa was sleeping already, and I did the same. I woke up for the loo, and Koa kept snoozing. He woke me for his potty break a few hours later. I woke up again when a buzzing terrorist was at it again. When Koa woke me up again, I didn’t believe the clock, and checked it twice. Koa had allowed me quite a long sleep, and in the end, according to my watch, I had slept for about 8¾ hours in total! I was a bit sore and drowsy, but not too bad. So, Koa and I got up, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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The things we do for love :bear_love:
Koa is sleeping on my right foot...
There used to be feeling in my toes...
And he is passing gas and I can't escape...I guess it's time to "wiggle free"...
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The things we do for love :bear_love:
Koa is sleeping on my right foot...
There used to be feeling in my toes...
And he is passing gas and I can't escape...I guess it's time to "wiggle free"...
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#Journal of a sad Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesday, 15/07/2026).
I had an OK enough night. Some potty breaks, some buzzing terrorist annoying me, but in the end, I did manage to get some sleep. When Koa woke me up, it was time to take my meds, as y back was not too pleased with me. I got up, quickly took them, prepared Koa’s meal, and I got dressed. I got to the couch with my laptop, and started the email to my sweet friend. When I was done, I fixed some brekkie, and Koa and I went out for a little walk.
After we got back, I got back to my laptop, and I wrote my journal toot. For some reason, I found myself getting distracted at times, like it was too hard to focus. While I have been writing journal posts for so long, and they always seemed to be fun to write. But this time, writing down yesterday’s date, made today’s date more “visible”, and it made me sad… As today used to be Arwen’s birthday. This was her second heavenly birthday, and I struggled with it… I still miss that gall so much…
I finished the journal toot, uploaded it to all the usual places, and I put away the laptop. I cried for a little while, and Koa even came to cuddle me a bit. Unfortunately, the cuddles turned into little bites soon enough. I think Koa is “getting ready” to start exchanging his molars, as he was very whiney, and also rather bitey. I tried to give him all the attention, and I remembered there was a frozen yogurt lickimat in the freezer, so I offered him that one.
I watched some telly, tried to distract myself, shared some pictures online. And I went out with Koa for a nice walk when it was getting light outside. We walked the bigger round this time, which was rather nice. When we got back, we relaxed some more, and I made us something to eat.
Bestie called me on her way to work, and I was just out with Koa, as he wanted another walk. During that walk, Koa grabbed something. Without thinking, I got my hand in his mouth, to get it out, and I almost barfed! He had grabbed some sort of very nasty animal shit, and my hand was all full of it, and it smelled so awful, that I was gagging all the way back home. I washed my hands as best as I could, again and again, until the nasty goo and smell was gone. Koa was sitting next to me, with a smug look that was almost hilarious, if I wasn’t still fighting with my gag-reflex due to the smell and all that.
Well, that was quite a bit of an experience, and bestie got to live through it with me haha. I was able to relax for a while, and I had to get myself prepared to head to the supermarket in a bit. I was not really eager to go to the store. I felt so exhausted, sad, and not up to it. But, I needed groceries, so I would have to go…
When time was right, I got to Skoosh and headed to the store. I got the things I needed, although I did forget a few… But I wasn’t going to go back, I was too exhausted for that. As I had missed a call from the GP on Tuesday, I called them this morning, and a GP would call me this afternoon, to talk about my meds.
I got a notification that the refund of the energy bill had been deposited in my account. So, I went to an online store, and I ordered the artificial grass that I need for my garden. One moment, you have some money. The next moment, they’re going to send you several square meters of fake grass. Haha, the way things go sometimes… Now, I just have to hope that my bestie can find a date to come over and help me, once the grass has been delivered.
I walked with Koa, and then we got to bed for a little while. I watched some more Criminal Minds while trying to relax, and Koa snoozed for a while. After some time, Koa and I got up again. We didn’t have any plans today, so we switched between short walkies, and relaxing. It was too warm to go for longer walks. And we both just took it easy.
I was lying on bed with my tablet when the GP called. We had a good talk, I fixed Koa’s food, we went out for a bit, and then we got back to bed. I tried to stay up for a while, as the pharmacy could come to drop off new meds. But, after a while, I did doze off. Of course, within a short time, the doorbell rang, and my meds had arrived. I got back to bed again, and when I was comfortable enough, I managed to doze off again.
I woke up a few times, due to my bladder, and due to Koa. But, when it was time to get up, my watch told me I slept a little over 7½ hours in total. I still felt rather tired though, but hey ho, time to get up and start our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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#Journal of a sad Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesday, 15/07/2026).
I had an OK enough night. Some potty breaks, some buzzing terrorist annoying me, but in the end, I did manage to get some sleep. When Koa woke me up, it was time to take my meds, as y back was not too pleased with me. I got up, quickly took them, prepared Koa’s meal, and I got dressed. I got to the couch with my laptop, and started the email to my sweet friend. When I was done, I fixed some brekkie, and Koa and I went out for a little walk.
After we got back, I got back to my laptop, and I wrote my journal toot. For some reason, I found myself getting distracted at times, like it was too hard to focus. While I have been writing journal posts for so long, and they always seemed to be fun to write. But this time, writing down yesterday’s date, made today’s date more “visible”, and it made me sad… As today used to be Arwen’s birthday. This was her second heavenly birthday, and I struggled with it… I still miss that gall so much…
I finished the journal toot, uploaded it to all the usual places, and I put away the laptop. I cried for a little while, and Koa even came to cuddle me a bit. Unfortunately, the cuddles turned into little bites soon enough. I think Koa is “getting ready” to start exchanging his molars, as he was very whiney, and also rather bitey. I tried to give him all the attention, and I remembered there was a frozen yogurt lickimat in the freezer, so I offered him that one.
I watched some telly, tried to distract myself, shared some pictures online. And I went out with Koa for a nice walk when it was getting light outside. We walked the bigger round this time, which was rather nice. When we got back, we relaxed some more, and I made us something to eat.
Bestie called me on her way to work, and I was just out with Koa, as he wanted another walk. During that walk, Koa grabbed something. Without thinking, I got my hand in his mouth, to get it out, and I almost barfed! He had grabbed some sort of very nasty animal shit, and my hand was all full of it, and it smelled so awful, that I was gagging all the way back home. I washed my hands as best as I could, again and again, until the nasty goo and smell was gone. Koa was sitting next to me, with a smug look that was almost hilarious, if I wasn’t still fighting with my gag-reflex due to the smell and all that.
Well, that was quite a bit of an experience, and bestie got to live through it with me haha. I was able to relax for a while, and I had to get myself prepared to head to the supermarket in a bit. I was not really eager to go to the store. I felt so exhausted, sad, and not up to it. But, I needed groceries, so I would have to go…
When time was right, I got to Skoosh and headed to the store. I got the things I needed, although I did forget a few… But I wasn’t going to go back, I was too exhausted for that. As I had missed a call from the GP on Tuesday, I called them this morning, and a GP would call me this afternoon, to talk about my meds.
I got a notification that the refund of the energy bill had been deposited in my account. So, I went to an online store, and I ordered the artificial grass that I need for my garden. One moment, you have some money. The next moment, they’re going to send you several square meters of fake grass. Haha, the way things go sometimes… Now, I just have to hope that my bestie can find a date to come over and help me, once the grass has been delivered.
I walked with Koa, and then we got to bed for a little while. I watched some more Criminal Minds while trying to relax, and Koa snoozed for a while. After some time, Koa and I got up again. We didn’t have any plans today, so we switched between short walkies, and relaxing. It was too warm to go for longer walks. And we both just took it easy.
I was lying on bed with my tablet when the GP called. We had a good talk, I fixed Koa’s food, we went out for a bit, and then we got back to bed. I tried to stay up for a while, as the pharmacy could come to drop off new meds. But, after a while, I did doze off. Of course, within a short time, the doorbell rang, and my meds had arrived. I got back to bed again, and when I was comfortable enough, I managed to doze off again.
I woke up a few times, due to my bladder, and due to Koa. But, when it was time to get up, my watch told me I slept a little over 7½ hours in total. I still felt rather tired though, but hey ho, time to get up and start our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
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:kirby_prideheart: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle:
#GoodMorning and #TZAG everyone :blobcatblep:
#Today ... Is a very mixed day...
I didn't have the worst sleep, so that's a plus. Although there was a buzzing terrorist 🦟 zooming around again... Ugh... Koa did rather wel during the night as well, which was very nice. 😊
The night itself was decent too. I wrote my sweet friend, I wrote my journal Toot, I checked my bird app (Finch), I re-watched more Criminal Minds...
I had a nice walk with Koa.
Until the morning walk... Which was 🤢!Koa got something in his mouth, and without thinking, my right hand went in to extract it... 🤮 And... It was some sort of fresh animal :parrotpoop: which made me gag so hard! I dragged Koa back home as fast as my bad back and leg could take me, trying not to vomit on the streets...
While I was washing my hands like the skin had to come off all the way, Koa sat next to me, with such a smug :blobcatsmug: look on his face, like he was all proud of his wonderful achievement! Well... Yeah...
I managed to go to the store this morning, and remember almost all that I needed to buy. Almost all... But I'm not going back... It took me my last spoons just to get there the first time...
Today is also the second anniversary of Arwen's heavenly 🪽 birthday. I miss her so much... :blobcatSad: I really love Koa! (except when holding back vomit when my hand is full of shit!)
But I also still love and miss my gall...I know I still have to do my exercise today, so I'll try to do that after some relaxing, and another walk with Koa after that. I really need to keep myself at it, as I will only benefit from it in the (near) future...
Hope you're all having a wonderful day sweeties!
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 🫂 🩵 💜 🩷 🐾 :dogeparrot:
#PixysJourney
#KoaKoolani
#RIPArwenEdit: made a stupid error, had to do better... 😇
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:kirby_prideheart: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle:
#GoodMorning and #TZAG everyone :blobcatblep:
#Today ... Is a very mixed day...
I didn't have the worst sleep, so that's a plus. Although there was a buzzing terrorist 🦟 zooming around again... Ugh... Koa did rather wel during the night as well, which was very nice. 😊
The night itself was decent too. I wrote my sweet friend, I wrote my journal Toot, I checked my bird app (Finch), I re-watched more Criminal Minds...
I had a nice walk with Koa.
Until the morning walk... Which was 🤢!Koa got something in his mouth, and without thinking, my right hand went in to extract it... 🤮 And... It was some sort of fresh animal :parrotpoop: which made me gag so hard! I dragged Koa back home as fast as my bad back and leg could take me, trying not to vomit on the streets...
While I was washing my hands like the skin had to come off all the way, Koa sat next to me, with such a smug :blobcatsmug: look on his face, like he was all proud of his wonderful achievement! Well... Yeah...
I managed to go to the store this morning, and remember almost all that I needed to buy. Almost all... But I'm not going back... It took me my last spoons just to get there the first time...
Today is also the second anniversary of Arwen's heavenly 🪽 birthday. I miss her so much... :blobcatSad: I really love Koa! (except when holding back vomit when my hand is full of shit!)
But I also still love and miss my gall...I know I still have to do my exercise today, so I'll try to do that after some relaxing, and another walk with Koa after that. I really need to keep myself at it, as I will only benefit from it in the (near) future...
Hope you're all having a wonderful day sweeties!
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 🫂 🩵 💜 🩷 🐾 :dogeparrot:
#PixysJourney
#KoaKoolani
#RIPArwenEdit: made a stupid error, had to do better... 😇
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CW: Nothing bad! 😁 Just a longer journal Toot, so this should save some folks from scrolling endlessly 😇
#Journal of a slightly ouchie Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Tuesday, 14/07/2026).
I had a short night, due to the last puppy class, and me wanting to keep my routine in as much as I could (and needing pain meds when I woke up). So, after about 4 hours of sleep, I got up, and started my “day”. I took my meds, and then I got dressed. I fixed Koa’s meal, and then we got to the couch. I wrote an email to a very sweet friend, and after that, I made myself a bit of brekkie.
After brekkie, I took out Koa for a short walk. Then, back to the laptop, to write my journal toot. When I was done, and it was uploaded to all the usual places, I tried to relax for a while, as I was rather tired after such a short sleep. Koa was tired too, so we both snoozed for a while, before Koa woke up, and needed to go out for a wee again.
Another short walk, followed by some more couch time. We took it easy and relaxed. Bestie called me on her way to work, and we had a nice chat. After that, Koa and I had another little walk. Koa wasn’t too interested in the longer walks, and I let him decide how long we’d go (unless he’d want too much, then I would have limited him, as he’s only 20 weeks young).
When we got back again, I got to my bed with the tablet for a while. I relaxed my back and leg, while watching some Criminal Minds. Koa was sleeping as well, and we had a good hour of just chilling and not having to do anything. After that, I got up again, and I got things ready for when mum would come.
She texted me when she left the house, and Koa and I went out for a shot walk, so we could wait for her, and so that Koa would have done his business. That way, mum could just let him in the garden if he needed to go again, as it was getting too warm for walkies, and this was easier on mum as well.
Mum came, and I gave her a little present I had ordered for her. She had an automatic pencil that had not been working well for her for a while now. While I was browsing for the Roxette vinyl, I also checked out the pencils, and I found out a possible what/why, with the malfunctioning pencil. So, to thank her for all the puppy sitting, I ordered her a new pencil, with extra leads and erasers. Hopefully, this one won’t give her any issues, and she’ll be able to do loads of puzzles without grumbling and all that… It wasn’t too expensive, but I wanted to do something for her help with Koa.
Mum settled on the couch with a hot coffee, and a nice series on the telly. I got my bag, and headed to Skoosh. We got to Cuijk safe and sound, and I parked illegally near the cash machine, so I could quickly deposit my “foreign money” Euros, from yesterday’s exchange. The official parking was full, and my back was not excited to walk too far for another parking spot. So, I hoped that I would be quick enough, and if someone would come to check out Skoosh, that I could explain my bad back. There was an open handicapped parking spot (which was even closer to the machine), so I should have just borrowed mum’s card. But I didn’t want to park there, as it was a spot for people who have even more struggles with walking than I currently have. After I deposited the money, I drove to physio, where I had to wait for my appointment.
I tried to order the cheaper travel crate for Koa that I liked. First, they had an extraordinary shipping costs added to it, which made it more expensive. But then, at the end, they informed me that, even for that amount, they would not ship it to the Netherlands. While, in the app, I have the settings set to “only show things that ship to my location”. So yeah, I ended up ordering the slightly bigger, and more expensive, crate (which seemed cheaper now, as the other one had €21,99 shipping, should it have been shipped to my home, and this one had way faster shipping, for only €6,99). So, the travel crate has been ordered, and it’s currently set to be delivered this Sunday! Which isn’t unheard of, but usually, for about 7 Euros, they don’t deliver on Sundays. But, wait and see… At least soon, Koa has a nice (and easier to handle) travel crate, and I can hand back the one we borrowed from his breeder. I will have to see if I can find a little “thank you” prezzie for her, as the crate was a big help for me and Koa, so I could sleep in my bed properly, while still having him near.
Big Bas did a big number on my back! He is going on holiday for 3 weeks, so I will have to make due without him for the time being. The massage was painful, but he was very positive about what he felt, compared to last week, and the weeks prior to that. So, there is some improvement, yay!
I had wanted to visit the supermarket on the way back. But, my back was sore, I was tired, and it was 29°C according to Skoosh… So, I would get to the supermarket on Wednesday morning, Koa will have to learn to be on his own some more, so it’s good for both him and me. Mum was surprised to see me home a little earlier, but she understood, and was OK with going home a bit earlier. She had a dentist appointment later that afternoon, so it meant she could relax a bit before that. While she was getting her things, I fed Koa, as it was past his mealtime. Then, I thanked mum, Koa and I waved her off, and Koa did his things in the garden. I cleaned up the bits and bops, both outside and inside, and then I got ready to head to bed.
It didn’t take too long for Koa and me to doze off. When I woke up due to Koa whining a little, I saw I had a missed call from the GP. I didn’t know they would call today, so yeah, I will have to try and catch them myself Wednesday morning. I let Koa out, he only drank some, and sniffed around the garden, and we went back to bed. I woke up once more for the loo, and due to a buzzing terrorist 🦟, and then when Koa woke me up again, telling me it was time to “get up and start our day”. So, I listened to the master, and we did just that…
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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CW: Nothing bad! 😁 Just a longer journal Toot, so this should save some folks from scrolling endlessly 😇
#Journal of a slightly ouchie Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Tuesday, 14/07/2026).
I had a short night, due to the last puppy class, and me wanting to keep my routine in as much as I could (and needing pain meds when I woke up). So, after about 4 hours of sleep, I got up, and started my “day”. I took my meds, and then I got dressed. I fixed Koa’s meal, and then we got to the couch. I wrote an email to a very sweet friend, and after that, I made myself a bit of brekkie.
After brekkie, I took out Koa for a short walk. Then, back to the laptop, to write my journal toot. When I was done, and it was uploaded to all the usual places, I tried to relax for a while, as I was rather tired after such a short sleep. Koa was tired too, so we both snoozed for a while, before Koa woke up, and needed to go out for a wee again.
Another short walk, followed by some more couch time. We took it easy and relaxed. Bestie called me on her way to work, and we had a nice chat. After that, Koa and I had another little walk. Koa wasn’t too interested in the longer walks, and I let him decide how long we’d go (unless he’d want too much, then I would have limited him, as he’s only 20 weeks young).
When we got back again, I got to my bed with the tablet for a while. I relaxed my back and leg, while watching some Criminal Minds. Koa was sleeping as well, and we had a good hour of just chilling and not having to do anything. After that, I got up again, and I got things ready for when mum would come.
She texted me when she left the house, and Koa and I went out for a shot walk, so we could wait for her, and so that Koa would have done his business. That way, mum could just let him in the garden if he needed to go again, as it was getting too warm for walkies, and this was easier on mum as well.
Mum came, and I gave her a little present I had ordered for her. She had an automatic pencil that had not been working well for her for a while now. While I was browsing for the Roxette vinyl, I also checked out the pencils, and I found out a possible what/why, with the malfunctioning pencil. So, to thank her for all the puppy sitting, I ordered her a new pencil, with extra leads and erasers. Hopefully, this one won’t give her any issues, and she’ll be able to do loads of puzzles without grumbling and all that… It wasn’t too expensive, but I wanted to do something for her help with Koa.
Mum settled on the couch with a hot coffee, and a nice series on the telly. I got my bag, and headed to Skoosh. We got to Cuijk safe and sound, and I parked illegally near the cash machine, so I could quickly deposit my “foreign money” Euros, from yesterday’s exchange. The official parking was full, and my back was not excited to walk too far for another parking spot. So, I hoped that I would be quick enough, and if someone would come to check out Skoosh, that I could explain my bad back. There was an open handicapped parking spot (which was even closer to the machine), so I should have just borrowed mum’s card. But I didn’t want to park there, as it was a spot for people who have even more struggles with walking than I currently have. After I deposited the money, I drove to physio, where I had to wait for my appointment.
I tried to order the cheaper travel crate for Koa that I liked. First, they had an extraordinary shipping costs added to it, which made it more expensive. But then, at the end, they informed me that, even for that amount, they would not ship it to the Netherlands. While, in the app, I have the settings set to “only show things that ship to my location”. So yeah, I ended up ordering the slightly bigger, and more expensive, crate (which seemed cheaper now, as the other one had €21,99 shipping, should it have been shipped to my home, and this one had way faster shipping, for only €6,99). So, the travel crate has been ordered, and it’s currently set to be delivered this Sunday! Which isn’t unheard of, but usually, for about 7 Euros, they don’t deliver on Sundays. But, wait and see… At least soon, Koa has a nice (and easier to handle) travel crate, and I can hand back the one we borrowed from his breeder. I will have to see if I can find a little “thank you” prezzie for her, as the crate was a big help for me and Koa, so I could sleep in my bed properly, while still having him near.
Big Bas did a big number on my back! He is going on holiday for 3 weeks, so I will have to make due without him for the time being. The massage was painful, but he was very positive about what he felt, compared to last week, and the weeks prior to that. So, there is some improvement, yay!
I had wanted to visit the supermarket on the way back. But, my back was sore, I was tired, and it was 29°C according to Skoosh… So, I would get to the supermarket on Wednesday morning, Koa will have to learn to be on his own some more, so it’s good for both him and me. Mum was surprised to see me home a little earlier, but she understood, and was OK with going home a bit earlier. She had a dentist appointment later that afternoon, so it meant she could relax a bit before that. While she was getting her things, I fed Koa, as it was past his mealtime. Then, I thanked mum, Koa and I waved her off, and Koa did his things in the garden. I cleaned up the bits and bops, both outside and inside, and then I got ready to head to bed.
It didn’t take too long for Koa and me to doze off. When I woke up due to Koa whining a little, I saw I had a missed call from the GP. I didn’t know they would call today, so yeah, I will have to try and catch them myself Wednesday morning. I let Koa out, he only drank some, and sniffed around the garden, and we went back to bed. I woke up once more for the loo, and due to a buzzing terrorist 🦟, and then when Koa woke me up again, telling me it was time to “get up and start our day”. So, I listened to the master, and we did just that…
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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:kirby_prideheart: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle:
#GoodMorning and #TZAG everyone :kirby_tired:
Yesterday was a pretty OK day. It was long. It ended with me puking my guts out. But the rest before that was good enough for me to still feel good about the day.
We had a short night, due to my own doing (as to keep the routine going as much as possible). I'm tired now, and I think Koa is tired too, as he wanted shorter walkies this morning.
I've shared (and boosted) some pictures this morning, using the new tags I've gathered with all your help! :bear_love:
I'll try to share some snaps on my pixelfed every day, using the tags collected. The list is pinned 📍 to my profile and can be found here: 🔗 https://beige.party/@PixysJourney/116899542713092504
New tags are always welcome, if they "follow the rules" of this list 📋.I'll watch some more Criminal Minds, and I'll fix Koa's meal in a bit... Wish I wasn't feeling so tired today.
I have physio today, so hopefully that will help me some. Last time before the PT has his vacation break. Mum will come to be with Koa, so he has some company while I'm out. I'll see about leaving the house a bit earlier, so I can try to deposit some money in my account. I can use that to get a new, nice, travel crate for Koa... 😊
Hope you're all having a good time folks! Catch you all later!
:pixy_party: 🫂 🩵 💜 🩷 🐾 :dogeparrot:
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:kirby_prideheart: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle:
#GoodMorning and #TZAG everyone :kirby_tired:
Yesterday was a pretty OK day. It was long. It ended with me puking my guts out. But the rest before that was good enough for me to still feel good about the day.
We had a short night, due to my own doing (as to keep the routine going as much as possible). I'm tired now, and I think Koa is tired too, as he wanted shorter walkies this morning.
I've shared (and boosted) some pictures this morning, using the new tags I've gathered with all your help! :bear_love:
I'll try to share some snaps on my pixelfed every day, using the tags collected. The list is pinned 📍 to my profile and can be found here: 🔗 https://beige.party/@PixysJourney/116899542713092504
New tags are always welcome, if they "follow the rules" of this list 📋.I'll watch some more Criminal Minds, and I'll fix Koa's meal in a bit... Wish I wasn't feeling so tired today.
I have physio today, so hopefully that will help me some. Last time before the PT has his vacation break. Mum will come to be with Koa, so he has some company while I'm out. I'll see about leaving the house a bit earlier, so I can try to deposit some money in my account. I can use that to get a new, nice, travel crate for Koa... 😊
Hope you're all having a good time folks! Catch you all later!
:pixy_party: 🫂 🩵 💜 🩷 🐾 :dogeparrot:
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#Journal of a busy Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Monday, 13/07/2026).
I had a bit of a broken night again. Not just because of Koa’s potty breaks, but because I was being terrorized by a buzzing asshat 🦟. I did manage to get some sleep through, according to my watch. But because of the interruptions, I still felt rather tired. We got up, and I started our “day” by counting the mosquito bites on my legs and feet. Why am I so delicious to them? I got dressed, and took my meds. Koa got his meal, and then we headed to the couch.
I wrote an email to a sweet friend, and when I was done, I took Koa out for a short walk. When we got back, I enjoyed my brekkie, and I wrote my journal toot. I uploaded it to all the usual places when I was done, and tried to relax a bit with some telly. After some time, Koa wanted out for another short walk, so that’s what we did.
I fixed Koa some more food, and then we relaxed again. When it was light out, we went for a longer walk. Koa extended the walk a wee bit, pushing it more towards the “limits” of what he is allowed to do. But, he did well and we had a good and fun walk. When we got back, I got Koa to his crate, and I rode the bike for 15 minutes.
I was down, relaxing, when bestie called me on the way to her work. During the call, I started the washing machine. When the laundry was done, I hung it out upstairs. Back downstairs, I started the dishwasher, and then Koa and I went for walkies. We had a nice little walk, and when we got back again, we went to the couch for some relaxing.
Just before the coach would come, I took Koa out again, so he would have an empty bladder, when someone new would enter the house. Try to limit the chance of accidents during excited and happy moments. The coach came, she introduced herself, and we had a little chat. Koa was very excited, and after a little while, we decided to walk a bit with Koa. That way, he could release some of his energy, while we could chat a while. Back home, she checked out Koa’s photo albums, while we chatted for things she could help with. We found a thing, which I will try to get some more info on, and then she left. We’d pick it up next week, and see how things would/will go.
I tried to relax for a while, after she left. Koa and I had another walk, we chilled out some more, and then we got ready to head to Nijmegen. Mum was ready when we got there, and we headed on to Kranenburg. Koa got on the scale in the pet store, with some difficulty, and he was at 18,3kg, which is about 40lbs. We found a new harness for him, for when the current one gets too small again. I also wanted a leash, but they didn’t have the big ones in “Koa’s color”, unfortunately. Maybe next time.
We went to another store in Nijmegen, where mum exchanged something she’d gotten the wrong kind of. Then, onward to the train station, as there was a currency exchange shop, so I could “ditch” some “old” foreign money. It took a little while, but I got some money in return, so that was nice. I will have to find a way to get the money into my account, so that I can get Koa his own nice travel crate.
Back at my parent’s place, we had to wait a while, before we could go to the last class. Koa did very well, and I was impressed by him. Class went very well too, and I was so proud of my dude. At the end of class, I started feeling super nauseated. We headed home, and I barely made it to the loo. Well, it was not pretty, but it did feel a lot better when I was done. I got all ready to head to bed after that. It didn’t take too long for both Koa and myself to doze off.
I woke up again about 4 hours later. My body was sore, as it was long time for my meds. So, I got up, and started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolaniPS. Picture attached is an edited one taken on Sunday, as I didn't take any snaps this Monday.
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#Journal of a busy Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Monday, 13/07/2026).
I had a bit of a broken night again. Not just because of Koa’s potty breaks, but because I was being terrorized by a buzzing asshat 🦟. I did manage to get some sleep through, according to my watch. But because of the interruptions, I still felt rather tired. We got up, and I started our “day” by counting the mosquito bites on my legs and feet. Why am I so delicious to them? I got dressed, and took my meds. Koa got his meal, and then we headed to the couch.
I wrote an email to a sweet friend, and when I was done, I took Koa out for a short walk. When we got back, I enjoyed my brekkie, and I wrote my journal toot. I uploaded it to all the usual places when I was done, and tried to relax a bit with some telly. After some time, Koa wanted out for another short walk, so that’s what we did.
I fixed Koa some more food, and then we relaxed again. When it was light out, we went for a longer walk. Koa extended the walk a wee bit, pushing it more towards the “limits” of what he is allowed to do. But, he did well and we had a good and fun walk. When we got back, I got Koa to his crate, and I rode the bike for 15 minutes.
I was down, relaxing, when bestie called me on the way to her work. During the call, I started the washing machine. When the laundry was done, I hung it out upstairs. Back downstairs, I started the dishwasher, and then Koa and I went for walkies. We had a nice little walk, and when we got back again, we went to the couch for some relaxing.
Just before the coach would come, I took Koa out again, so he would have an empty bladder, when someone new would enter the house. Try to limit the chance of accidents during excited and happy moments. The coach came, she introduced herself, and we had a little chat. Koa was very excited, and after a little while, we decided to walk a bit with Koa. That way, he could release some of his energy, while we could chat a while. Back home, she checked out Koa’s photo albums, while we chatted for things she could help with. We found a thing, which I will try to get some more info on, and then she left. We’d pick it up next week, and see how things would/will go.
I tried to relax for a while, after she left. Koa and I had another walk, we chilled out some more, and then we got ready to head to Nijmegen. Mum was ready when we got there, and we headed on to Kranenburg. Koa got on the scale in the pet store, with some difficulty, and he was at 18,3kg, which is about 40lbs. We found a new harness for him, for when the current one gets too small again. I also wanted a leash, but they didn’t have the big ones in “Koa’s color”, unfortunately. Maybe next time.
We went to another store in Nijmegen, where mum exchanged something she’d gotten the wrong kind of. Then, onward to the train station, as there was a currency exchange shop, so I could “ditch” some “old” foreign money. It took a little while, but I got some money in return, so that was nice. I will have to find a way to get the money into my account, so that I can get Koa his own nice travel crate.
Back at my parent’s place, we had to wait a while, before we could go to the last class. Koa did very well, and I was impressed by him. Class went very well too, and I was so proud of my dude. At the end of class, I started feeling super nauseated. We headed home, and I barely made it to the loo. Well, it was not pretty, but it did feel a lot better when I was done. I got all ready to head to bed after that. It didn’t take too long for both Koa and myself to doze off.
I woke up again about 4 hours later. My body was sore, as it was long time for my meds. So, I got up, and started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolaniPS. Picture attached is an edited one taken on Sunday, as I didn't take any snaps this Monday.
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:kirby_prideheart: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle:
#GoodMorning and #TZAG everyone :CoolGarfield:
It's going to be a warm and sunny day, according to the weather witches 🧙🏼♀️. It's now a nice and cool 15°C, and in a little bit, I'll take Koa out for a longer walk (ow that reminds me to take my meds now!). Hopefully we can manage another nice 1km walk together, which would be good for the both of us. 😊
I've been sharing a few pictures on my two Pixelfed accounts. I'll boost some of them here in a bit, as I usually do.
Today will be a long day, as we'll have the last puppy class. It should have been last week, but the teacher got stuck in traffic, so it's rescheduled. I'm not too enthusiastic, but since I paid for it... I'll just go and see if there's something interesting in this last class.
I've not been able to practice a lot with Koa, due to the stupid back situation. 😔 I really hope we can pick it up soon again. I may ask my neighbor, if she's feeling up to it, to maybe try and help me practice the "come here" command. I wanna take Koa to the closed off doggy pen, and maybe we can practice together, by each calling him to us (not together, but in turns, of course). But the next two weeks will have some more hot days, so if she would be interested and able, we'd probably have to do it in the mornings. 😊
Another coach is coming to our place this morning, as Steph is on holiday. I hope it will go well, as I still struggle with new people, especially if they have to be in my home...
Well, let's grab my headphones :ablobcatheadphones: and let Koa from the crate (he was trying to eat me, haha, so he got a little time-out before walkies). Hopefully the walk will go well...
Catch you all later lovelies!
:pixy_party: 🫂 🩵 💜 🩷 🐾 :dogeparrot:
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:kirby_prideheart: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle:
#GoodMorning and #TZAG everyone :CoolGarfield:
It's going to be a warm and sunny day, according to the weather witches 🧙🏼♀️. It's now a nice and cool 15°C, and in a little bit, I'll take Koa out for a longer walk (ow that reminds me to take my meds now!). Hopefully we can manage another nice 1km walk together, which would be good for the both of us. 😊
I've been sharing a few pictures on my two Pixelfed accounts. I'll boost some of them here in a bit, as I usually do.
Today will be a long day, as we'll have the last puppy class. It should have been last week, but the teacher got stuck in traffic, so it's rescheduled. I'm not too enthusiastic, but since I paid for it... I'll just go and see if there's something interesting in this last class.
I've not been able to practice a lot with Koa, due to the stupid back situation. 😔 I really hope we can pick it up soon again. I may ask my neighbor, if she's feeling up to it, to maybe try and help me practice the "come here" command. I wanna take Koa to the closed off doggy pen, and maybe we can practice together, by each calling him to us (not together, but in turns, of course). But the next two weeks will have some more hot days, so if she would be interested and able, we'd probably have to do it in the mornings. 😊
Another coach is coming to our place this morning, as Steph is on holiday. I hope it will go well, as I still struggle with new people, especially if they have to be in my home...
Well, let's grab my headphones :ablobcatheadphones: and let Koa from the crate (he was trying to eat me, haha, so he got a little time-out before walkies). Hopefully the walk will go well...
Catch you all later lovelies!
:pixy_party: 🫂 🩵 💜 🩷 🐾 :dogeparrot:
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CW: Nothing too bad, just some venting due to receiving "great advice"... But a >6.5k long journal Toot, so this would save some folks from scrolling too long... 😇
#Journal of an excited but exhausted Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Sunday, 12/07/2026).
We had a bit of a broken night, and I got about 7 hours in total sleeping time, according to my watch. Koa told me it was time to get up, so we did. I got dressed, took my meds, and fixed his meal. Then, we got to the couch, where I wrote a long email to my dear friend. I got distracted a bit, and when I was done, I wanted to have some brekkie.
Koa was getting a bit restless when I was done with my meal, so we went out for a little walk. When we got back, I got back to the laptop, and I wrote my journal toot. When I was done, I put away the laptop, and I used my phone to edit two of yesterday’s walkies vids into one. I tried to relax a bit, although it was made challenging by a stupid buzzing terrorist! Ugh, I hate these stupid animals so much… 🦟
After some relaxing, and swatting, and using some deet (carefully, as Koa will lick body parts when he can), it was slowly getting a bit more light outside. Koa and I went for a short walk, and then had some food. After some more relaxing, and it getting lighter out, Koa and I left for a longer walkies. I started both the GPS app from Koa’s tracker, and on my watch. My watch registered a walk of 1,26km, while Koa’s app made it into 1,3km. So not too bad at all.
After the walk, I was a bit tired. As Koa and I had plans to visit the Hatertse Vennen with my mum again, I wanted to try and “save” some energy for that. So, we went to bed. Koa relaxed in his crate, while I watched some Criminal Minds while on my bed. Again, the buzzing terrorist made things harder for me. So, when I finally managed to kill one, I was hoping that he had not brought any family to my place “for dinner” (aka to prick me way too often).
When I felt a bit more relaxed, we slowly got ready to head to Skoosh. We were a bit earlier, but it would allow us to take it easy. When we arrived at the parking, mum was already there, which was a very nice surprise. So, we got ready too, and we headed to the water side.
I put on my old shoes, so I could head into the water a bit with Koa. A nice lady heard me say to mum that I would have to change my shoes. I just wanted to ask mum to take Koa, when the lady offered to hold Koa, as it would be easier on my mum. Well, I warned her on his enthusiasm, but she was all OK with it. So that was a very nice bit of help.
Koa had a bit of fun at the waterside. No real swims yet, but loads of splashes with Bas, and with another chocolate Lab. After some time, I noticed that it was getting a bit too much for Koa, so I switched out my shoes again, with some difficulty, and we decided to walk a different route back to the car. Which...proved to be rather challenging, as there were many walkers on the path. The “Nijmeegse Vierdaagse” is starting soon, where folks from around the world walk 4 days, 30-40-50 km a day. Many are getting in the final bits of practice now. Some were doing it nicely, sharing the path with others. But, many were thinking they were already doing the “real thing”, and they didn’t want to share the path with others…
What made it more challenging was that I need to keep Koa to the right side, due to my hands and strength. Mum needs to keep Bas to the left, due to her issues. So every time I kept Koa to the right, she was pissed with me, because now she had to do the same with Bas… Well, I don’t know how much Koa weighs at the moment, but I think he’s about double what Bas weighs… So you’d think keeping Bas to the other side for a short time when people pass, would be easier for her to do, than for me, with my herniated disc, to keep Koa on the left side… Besides, autistic me knows that in Europe, we should keep to the right, unless otherwise stated. So, keeping left is also very unnatural to me…
We made it to the parking, with me getting angry with Koa once, because he did the “twist and turn” behind my back again, and it hurt me a lot. And when that happens, I get angry. I pulled his leash back, talked to him with an angry and pained voice, and the last bit, Koa did a lot better. When we got to the parking, there were some folks with another brown Lab, which we’d just seen at the waterside. They were talking to an older lady with a walker. I tried to keep Koa short, as my back hurt from the pull, and I want to try and teach him to stay at my side when passing other dogs and people.
The old lady, well, bat more like, told me that “I should just let him have some fun, there were all good people and good dogs here”. This really made me angry, because that kind of unwanted “advice” is really not helpful at all! Autistic me got into the defense mode, and, all while staying absolutely as polite as I could be, I told her how wrong she was to butt in on me raising my pup. “Excuse me, but good people or bad people, I don’t want my pup to learn it’s OK to jump towards others while he’s on his leash. He will become a 30+ kilo weighing dog, and no-one wants to be the target of him being enthusiastic and jumping up against them. He needs to learn now that he can’t jump against people, even if they don’t mind it now. Plus, what will happen when you don’t have your walker with you, and he will jump against you. Will you still think it’s OK when we have to call an ambulance for the broken hip, due to the fall?”.
The people with the other Lab said nothing, but I saw the lady look at me like “well, that sounds about right”. The old bat was getting soooooo annoyed, maybe even infuriated with me, that I had the audacity to talk back to her like that. But… I stayed polite. I explained. And I walked away… But I was fuming, because people like that are all “ow he’s so cute” now, and when he jumps up when he’s an adult, it will be “you need to keep your dog under control”. Ugh…
We got back to the car, said goodbye to mum and Bas, and we headed home. I cleaned up the messy shoes and all, fixed some food for myself, gave Koa a snack, and we relaxed for a while. We had a few short walks, but I was just so exhausted. We went to bed earlier, first to just relax with some Criminal Minds on my tablet. I fed Koa, let him out to do his business, and then we got ready to sleep.
I had an OK sleep, until the buzzing terrorist used me as a pincushion… I had used deet, but it seemed to be oblivious to it. It kept me awake for some time, and that was so annoying. In the end, I did manage to sleep about 8 hours in total, which felt very good for sure. But, I was still tired, and I needed some after-bite lotion, as I had bumps all over… Even two on my foot, ugh… I was glad that Koa had allowed me some more sleep. So when he woke me up, I got up, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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CW: Nothing too bad, just some venting due to receiving "great advice"... But a >6.5k long journal Toot, so this would save some folks from scrolling too long... 😇
#Journal of an excited but exhausted Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Sunday, 12/07/2026).
We had a bit of a broken night, and I got about 7 hours in total sleeping time, according to my watch. Koa told me it was time to get up, so we did. I got dressed, took my meds, and fixed his meal. Then, we got to the couch, where I wrote a long email to my dear friend. I got distracted a bit, and when I was done, I wanted to have some brekkie.
Koa was getting a bit restless when I was done with my meal, so we went out for a little walk. When we got back, I got back to the laptop, and I wrote my journal toot. When I was done, I put away the laptop, and I used my phone to edit two of yesterday’s walkies vids into one. I tried to relax a bit, although it was made challenging by a stupid buzzing terrorist! Ugh, I hate these stupid animals so much… 🦟
After some relaxing, and swatting, and using some deet (carefully, as Koa will lick body parts when he can), it was slowly getting a bit more light outside. Koa and I went for a short walk, and then had some food. After some more relaxing, and it getting lighter out, Koa and I left for a longer walkies. I started both the GPS app from Koa’s tracker, and on my watch. My watch registered a walk of 1,26km, while Koa’s app made it into 1,3km. So not too bad at all.
After the walk, I was a bit tired. As Koa and I had plans to visit the Hatertse Vennen with my mum again, I wanted to try and “save” some energy for that. So, we went to bed. Koa relaxed in his crate, while I watched some Criminal Minds while on my bed. Again, the buzzing terrorist made things harder for me. So, when I finally managed to kill one, I was hoping that he had not brought any family to my place “for dinner” (aka to prick me way too often).
When I felt a bit more relaxed, we slowly got ready to head to Skoosh. We were a bit earlier, but it would allow us to take it easy. When we arrived at the parking, mum was already there, which was a very nice surprise. So, we got ready too, and we headed to the water side.
I put on my old shoes, so I could head into the water a bit with Koa. A nice lady heard me say to mum that I would have to change my shoes. I just wanted to ask mum to take Koa, when the lady offered to hold Koa, as it would be easier on my mum. Well, I warned her on his enthusiasm, but she was all OK with it. So that was a very nice bit of help.
Koa had a bit of fun at the waterside. No real swims yet, but loads of splashes with Bas, and with another chocolate Lab. After some time, I noticed that it was getting a bit too much for Koa, so I switched out my shoes again, with some difficulty, and we decided to walk a different route back to the car. Which...proved to be rather challenging, as there were many walkers on the path. The “Nijmeegse Vierdaagse” is starting soon, where folks from around the world walk 4 days, 30-40-50 km a day. Many are getting in the final bits of practice now. Some were doing it nicely, sharing the path with others. But, many were thinking they were already doing the “real thing”, and they didn’t want to share the path with others…
What made it more challenging was that I need to keep Koa to the right side, due to my hands and strength. Mum needs to keep Bas to the left, due to her issues. So every time I kept Koa to the right, she was pissed with me, because now she had to do the same with Bas… Well, I don’t know how much Koa weighs at the moment, but I think he’s about double what Bas weighs… So you’d think keeping Bas to the other side for a short time when people pass, would be easier for her to do, than for me, with my herniated disc, to keep Koa on the left side… Besides, autistic me knows that in Europe, we should keep to the right, unless otherwise stated. So, keeping left is also very unnatural to me…
We made it to the parking, with me getting angry with Koa once, because he did the “twist and turn” behind my back again, and it hurt me a lot. And when that happens, I get angry. I pulled his leash back, talked to him with an angry and pained voice, and the last bit, Koa did a lot better. When we got to the parking, there were some folks with another brown Lab, which we’d just seen at the waterside. They were talking to an older lady with a walker. I tried to keep Koa short, as my back hurt from the pull, and I want to try and teach him to stay at my side when passing other dogs and people.
The old lady, well, bat more like, told me that “I should just let him have some fun, there were all good people and good dogs here”. This really made me angry, because that kind of unwanted “advice” is really not helpful at all! Autistic me got into the defense mode, and, all while staying absolutely as polite as I could be, I told her how wrong she was to butt in on me raising my pup. “Excuse me, but good people or bad people, I don’t want my pup to learn it’s OK to jump towards others while he’s on his leash. He will become a 30+ kilo weighing dog, and no-one wants to be the target of him being enthusiastic and jumping up against them. He needs to learn now that he can’t jump against people, even if they don’t mind it now. Plus, what will happen when you don’t have your walker with you, and he will jump against you. Will you still think it’s OK when we have to call an ambulance for the broken hip, due to the fall?”.
The people with the other Lab said nothing, but I saw the lady look at me like “well, that sounds about right”. The old bat was getting soooooo annoyed, maybe even infuriated with me, that I had the audacity to talk back to her like that. But… I stayed polite. I explained. And I walked away… But I was fuming, because people like that are all “ow he’s so cute” now, and when he jumps up when he’s an adult, it will be “you need to keep your dog under control”. Ugh…
We got back to the car, said goodbye to mum and Bas, and we headed home. I cleaned up the messy shoes and all, fixed some food for myself, gave Koa a snack, and we relaxed for a while. We had a few short walks, but I was just so exhausted. We went to bed earlier, first to just relax with some Criminal Minds on my tablet. I fed Koa, let him out to do his business, and then we got ready to sleep.
I had an OK sleep, until the buzzing terrorist used me as a pincushion… I had used deet, but it seemed to be oblivious to it. It kept me awake for some time, and that was so annoying. In the end, I did manage to sleep about 8 hours in total, which felt very good for sure. But, I was still tired, and I needed some after-bite lotion, as I had bumps all over… Even two on my foot, ugh… I was glad that Koa had allowed me some more sleep. So when he woke me up, I got up, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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Hatertse Vennen 💦 - 12/07/2026
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Hatertse Vennen 💦 - 12/07/2026
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:kirby_prideheart: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle:
Seriously, I love Koa to bits!
But...
Sometimes, I feel like the worst person in the world...
He keeps on "attacking" me, his way of playing. And I try to go along.
But...
After some time, my spoons are just too low.
My body can't deal with his teefs and energy.
And I feel like crap because I want to play with him more, but I can't...I feel like he deserves better when I feel like this. But I also know he's getting everything he needs. His needs are being met. Maybe I even do a bit too much for him at times... 🤔
Ugh... Sorry Koa, I don't wanna let you down...
:pixy_party: 🫂 🩵 💜 🩷 🐾 :dogeparrot:
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:kirby_prideheart: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle:
Seriously, I love Koa to bits!
But...
Sometimes, I feel like the worst person in the world...
He keeps on "attacking" me, his way of playing. And I try to go along.
But...
After some time, my spoons are just too low.
My body can't deal with his teefs and energy.
And I feel like crap because I want to play with him more, but I can't...I feel like he deserves better when I feel like this. But I also know he's getting everything he needs. His needs are being met. Maybe I even do a bit too much for him at times... 🤔
Ugh... Sorry Koa, I don't wanna let you down...
:pixy_party: 🫂 🩵 💜 🩷 🐾 :dogeparrot:
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Morning Walkies (YouCut edit) - 11/07/2026
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Morning Walkies (YouCut edit) - 11/07/2026
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#Journal of a Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 11/07/2026).
I had a decent enough night with, according to my watch, about 7½ hours of sleep. It was broken up, of course, as Koa needed to go out several times. Ow, I cant wait for his bladder to hold it up a wee bit longer… We got up, I got dressed, I took my meds, prepped Koa’s meal, and we started our day.
I wrote an email to my sweet friend. There was some good news, so that was very nice indeed. When I had finished the email, I got some brekkie. I struggled to write the journal toot, so when Koa wanted to go out, we went for a short walk. A bit of fresh air, and some movement, it did me good. But, I still struggled to write my journal toot somehow. I managed in the end, but I had a slight headache, and it was annoying me.
I worked a bit on my blog, and then I put away the laptop. Koa and I tried to relax a little with some telly. Then, we went out on another short walkies. I had this bläh feeling, and I just didn’t understand why… I had gotten some decent sleep, the meds were helping me reasonably well, and some good things had been happening. But still, I struggled with my emotions and energy.
I went upstairs to ride my bike for a little while. After that, Koa and I went out for a bit of a longer walk. I thought he’d enjoyed the one yesterday, and it’s good for the both of us, so hey ho! Koa was a bit difficult to handle on the leash, as he kept pulling this way and that, and he struggled with the sounds of the doggy boarding area, as there was a lot of barking to be heard.
When we got back, I really needed to relax for a while. The bike ride, and the longer walk, they had drained me for a bit. So, Koa and I relaxed for a bit, he in his crate, and I on bed. I didn’t sleep, I watched Criminal Minds on my tablet, and scrolled a bit through the FediVerse. After some time, we got up again, and Koa signaled he wanted to head out again. So, we went for another little walk.
We relaxed for a while, with some telly, some online scrolling, some short walkies. I still felt a bit bläh… One of my parcels arrived nice on time. The others were coming with a different carrier, DHL and, as usual, they were making a mess of things again. This, of course, didn’t help me with my headache and feelings of bläh.
Around noon, Koa and I went for another nice walk. The weather was getting warmer, and we walked a wee bit differently, so Koa got some new sniffs in. When we got back home, we went to bed a bit earlier, not to sleep at first, but to relax. I had walked quite a bit, as I managed >8.5k in steps today. The last few days, Koa and I have been trying to get some more walks in, with the meds helping me with that. Last week, my steps average increased a little after starting the meds, and it went to about 5k average. When I now check the last 7 days, the average is at a little over 7k. So not too bad at all. Of course, it’s nothing compared to my “old” averages, but with a puppy, no gym, a bad back and all… It’s quite a challenge to even get to 5k steps…
I had asked my online friendos on Masto, if some would be interested in chatting with me. I got some replies, and when I was relaxing on bed, I chatted for a while with a very kind lady in Australia. After a while, I fed Koa, and I let him out into the garden. When he had done his things, we got ready to head to bed. It took me some time to doze off. And when I finally did, a loud banging on the door woke me up again…
Of course DHL had to mess up again. I had put into the app that they should deliver it with my neighbor (with her permission). So, they wanted to deliver it with me… And now I have to wait until they deliver it at the parcel vault next week… Ugh, it just drives me nuts at times… I dozed off again, until Koa woke me up for a potty break. After that, he allowed me a little over 4 hours of sleep, before waking me up again, letting me know he was done with being in the crate. So, we got up, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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#Journal of a Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 11/07/2026).
I had a decent enough night with, according to my watch, about 7½ hours of sleep. It was broken up, of course, as Koa needed to go out several times. Ow, I cant wait for his bladder to hold it up a wee bit longer… We got up, I got dressed, I took my meds, prepped Koa’s meal, and we started our day.
I wrote an email to my sweet friend. There was some good news, so that was very nice indeed. When I had finished the email, I got some brekkie. I struggled to write the journal toot, so when Koa wanted to go out, we went for a short walk. A bit of fresh air, and some movement, it did me good. But, I still struggled to write my journal toot somehow. I managed in the end, but I had a slight headache, and it was annoying me.
I worked a bit on my blog, and then I put away the laptop. Koa and I tried to relax a little with some telly. Then, we went out on another short walkies. I had this bläh feeling, and I just didn’t understand why… I had gotten some decent sleep, the meds were helping me reasonably well, and some good things had been happening. But still, I struggled with my emotions and energy.
I went upstairs to ride my bike for a little while. After that, Koa and I went out for a bit of a longer walk. I thought he’d enjoyed the one yesterday, and it’s good for the both of us, so hey ho! Koa was a bit difficult to handle on the leash, as he kept pulling this way and that, and he struggled with the sounds of the doggy boarding area, as there was a lot of barking to be heard.
When we got back, I really needed to relax for a while. The bike ride, and the longer walk, they had drained me for a bit. So, Koa and I relaxed for a bit, he in his crate, and I on bed. I didn’t sleep, I watched Criminal Minds on my tablet, and scrolled a bit through the FediVerse. After some time, we got up again, and Koa signaled he wanted to head out again. So, we went for another little walk.
We relaxed for a while, with some telly, some online scrolling, some short walkies. I still felt a bit bläh… One of my parcels arrived nice on time. The others were coming with a different carrier, DHL and, as usual, they were making a mess of things again. This, of course, didn’t help me with my headache and feelings of bläh.
Around noon, Koa and I went for another nice walk. The weather was getting warmer, and we walked a wee bit differently, so Koa got some new sniffs in. When we got back home, we went to bed a bit earlier, not to sleep at first, but to relax. I had walked quite a bit, as I managed >8.5k in steps today. The last few days, Koa and I have been trying to get some more walks in, with the meds helping me with that. Last week, my steps average increased a little after starting the meds, and it went to about 5k average. When I now check the last 7 days, the average is at a little over 7k. So not too bad at all. Of course, it’s nothing compared to my “old” averages, but with a puppy, no gym, a bad back and all… It’s quite a challenge to even get to 5k steps…
I had asked my online friendos on Masto, if some would be interested in chatting with me. I got some replies, and when I was relaxing on bed, I chatted for a while with a very kind lady in Australia. After a while, I fed Koa, and I let him out into the garden. When he had done his things, we got ready to head to bed. It took me some time to doze off. And when I finally did, a loud banging on the door woke me up again…
Of course DHL had to mess up again. I had put into the app that they should deliver it with my neighbor (with her permission). So, they wanted to deliver it with me… And now I have to wait until they deliver it at the parcel vault next week… Ugh, it just drives me nuts at times… I dozed off again, until Koa woke me up for a potty break. After that, he allowed me a little over 4 hours of sleep, before waking me up again, letting me know he was done with being in the crate. So, we got up, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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#GoodMorning and #TZAG everyone :flying_hearts:
It's been a busy night/morning.
I've had some good walks with Koa. I'm exhausted from them, but I think he enjoyed them a lot! 😁
I started a Toot that gained a lot more attention than I am used to getting...and...
Wow!!! :BlahajWearingSunglasses:
Thanks to everyone for replying, adding more hashtags to the 📸 list... It's made me nuts at times, 😂 all those edits! But the list is getting better and better! :blobcatcamera:But... All the busy stuff, the walks, still dealing with my herniated disc, still dealing with broken up sleep (looking at you there, Koa!)... I'm done for now!
Please, keep replying to the photo link Toot if you know more "topic-day" related photography tags! And I'll do my best to add them when I can.
Fankoos to all for making this a great morning! I'm exhausted :kirby_tired: haha!
Catch you all later lovelies!
:pixy_party: 🫂 🩵 💜 🩷 🐾 :dogeparrot:
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#GoodMorning and #TZAG everyone :flying_hearts:
It's been a busy night/morning.
I've had some good walks with Koa. I'm exhausted from them, but I think he enjoyed them a lot! 😁
I started a Toot that gained a lot more attention than I am used to getting...and...
Wow!!! :BlahajWearingSunglasses:
Thanks to everyone for replying, adding more hashtags to the 📸 list... It's made me nuts at times, 😂 all those edits! But the list is getting better and better! :blobcatcamera:But... All the busy stuff, the walks, still dealing with my herniated disc, still dealing with broken up sleep (looking at you there, Koa!)... I'm done for now!
Please, keep replying to the photo link Toot if you know more "topic-day" related photography tags! And I'll do my best to add them when I can.
Fankoos to all for making this a great morning! I'm exhausted :kirby_tired: haha!
Catch you all later lovelies!
:pixy_party: 🫂 🩵 💜 🩷 🐾 :dogeparrot:
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#Journal of a slightly relaxed Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 10/07/2026).
I had a bit of a shorter night than I hoped, as Koa needed two potty breaks, and it took a little time to doze off. So, when we got up, I was still a tad tired and also, rather sore. Time to take my meds again! I used the scale, which wasn't too bad, and I got dressed. I took the meds, and prepared Koa’s meal. When he had finished, we got to the couch, where I settled down with my laptop.
I was just writing my sweet friend an email, when he emailed me with some awesome news! I saved the message I was working on, sent him a quick, very excited, email, and I promised I would send a longer email to him in a bit, as I was still working on it. But, I had to quickly reply to the awesomeness!
I finished the email, and made some brekkie. Followed by writing my journal toot. When that had been uploaded to the usual places, I took Koa out for a little walk. He did his things, and we got back home, where we relaxed on the couch for a while. I wrote a little bit for my blog site, while I watched some more of Criminal Minds.
When it was getting light out, while it was still a bit cooler, I took Koa out for another walk. I decided that I wanted to try a new, a bit longer, route with him. As it would be a warmer day, according to the forecast, I wanted Koa to have a nice walk before the weather got too warm for it. It was a bit hard on my back and leg, but I think Koa enjoyed it, even though it was a bit “scary” at times as well, with all the new impressions.
We got back, and I was rather tired. I think Koa was a tad tired too, so we relaxed together for a while. As my back and leg were a bit sore, since we walked 1,2km, according to Koa’s GPS tracker, I got into my shortama, and I went to bed for a while. I wanted to leave Koa loose, as in, not crate him. But, he started messing with my curtains… First, he kept trying to open them, while I closed them, to keep the heat and light out. When he started to chew on the curtains, I knew I had to crate him.
I relaxed for about 45 minutes, and then Koa started to get uneasy. He had drank a bit when we got back from the walk, so I figured he had to go out for a wee. I dressed again, and we headed out for a short walk. Koa’s idea of a short walk was a bit longer than mine, and when we got back, my back and leg weren’t too pleased with me. I got to bed again for a little while.
Mum texted me that she was on her way with the groceries, so I got dressed, and I opened the roller-curtain, so we could enter the house from the backside parking. Koa wanted to go out again, so we went out, and he did his business. I had just cleaned it up, when mum arrived. I got Koa inside, and helped mum with the groceries. When they were cleaned up, I got mum’s laptop, which she brought, and I “got to work”.
I saw that dad had installed two free antivirus programs. I always thought that you should only use one, as they could work against each other in some ways. I had a license to a paid antivirus program, so I deleted the two free ones, and I installed the paid version. I think that one paid version is better than two free ones… Then, I installed the chat-apps for mum. When her old phone died, I asked her why she didn’t use the apps on her laptop, also because it could be easier for her, with typing on a normal keyboard. Mum didn’t even know that this was possible… So, I installed the apps for her, and we connected them with the phone apps. Maybe, in a way, this can make chatting for mum a bit easier…
Koa had to go out for a wee, but I was expecting new filters for the ventilation system, and a parcel with new snacks for Koa was on its way. Mum offered to stay home for a bit, so I could take Koa out for a short walk. When Koa and I got back, mum had gotten a few new sets of filters, so I immediately took them upstairs, and exchanged the dirty old ones for a new set.
Mum headed back home, and Koa and I relaxed for a bit. When the parcel with Koa’s snacks had arrived, he and I went to bed. Not so sleep yet, but to relax, as my back was still bothering me. After about 30 minutes, I took my meds, and I made Koa his meal. I could use the new scale, and this one seemed a lot more accurate. Yay! When Koa was done with his meal, we went outside for a bit, and he could do his thing. Then, I brushed my teeth, and Koa and I did go to bed for some snoozing.
I dozed off a bit, and then Koa woke me up already for a big pee. And, back to bed again… After some more snoozing, Koa woke me up again, and this time, after a few minutes outside, he did a big number 2. And, back to bed… When he woke me up again, I felt like I could have slept a bit longer… But, I also felt like it was time to take my meds, as my back was very unkind to me. I thought I had not slept a lot, but, according to my watch, my “actual sleeping time” was 7:30 hours in total. So, actually, it was not that bad…
We got up, with some effort, and we started our “day”…
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolaniPS. Sorry I didn't take any Koa snaps this day 🫣
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#Journal of a slightly relaxed Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 10/07/2026).
I had a bit of a shorter night than I hoped, as Koa needed two potty breaks, and it took a little time to doze off. So, when we got up, I was still a tad tired and also, rather sore. Time to take my meds again! I used the scale, which wasn't too bad, and I got dressed. I took the meds, and prepared Koa’s meal. When he had finished, we got to the couch, where I settled down with my laptop.
I was just writing my sweet friend an email, when he emailed me with some awesome news! I saved the message I was working on, sent him a quick, very excited, email, and I promised I would send a longer email to him in a bit, as I was still working on it. But, I had to quickly reply to the awesomeness!
I finished the email, and made some brekkie. Followed by writing my journal toot. When that had been uploaded to the usual places, I took Koa out for a little walk. He did his things, and we got back home, where we relaxed on the couch for a while. I wrote a little bit for my blog site, while I watched some more of Criminal Minds.
When it was getting light out, while it was still a bit cooler, I took Koa out for another walk. I decided that I wanted to try a new, a bit longer, route with him. As it would be a warmer day, according to the forecast, I wanted Koa to have a nice walk before the weather got too warm for it. It was a bit hard on my back and leg, but I think Koa enjoyed it, even though it was a bit “scary” at times as well, with all the new impressions.
We got back, and I was rather tired. I think Koa was a tad tired too, so we relaxed together for a while. As my back and leg were a bit sore, since we walked 1,2km, according to Koa’s GPS tracker, I got into my shortama, and I went to bed for a while. I wanted to leave Koa loose, as in, not crate him. But, he started messing with my curtains… First, he kept trying to open them, while I closed them, to keep the heat and light out. When he started to chew on the curtains, I knew I had to crate him.
I relaxed for about 45 minutes, and then Koa started to get uneasy. He had drank a bit when we got back from the walk, so I figured he had to go out for a wee. I dressed again, and we headed out for a short walk. Koa’s idea of a short walk was a bit longer than mine, and when we got back, my back and leg weren’t too pleased with me. I got to bed again for a little while.
Mum texted me that she was on her way with the groceries, so I got dressed, and I opened the roller-curtain, so we could enter the house from the backside parking. Koa wanted to go out again, so we went out, and he did his business. I had just cleaned it up, when mum arrived. I got Koa inside, and helped mum with the groceries. When they were cleaned up, I got mum’s laptop, which she brought, and I “got to work”.
I saw that dad had installed two free antivirus programs. I always thought that you should only use one, as they could work against each other in some ways. I had a license to a paid antivirus program, so I deleted the two free ones, and I installed the paid version. I think that one paid version is better than two free ones… Then, I installed the chat-apps for mum. When her old phone died, I asked her why she didn’t use the apps on her laptop, also because it could be easier for her, with typing on a normal keyboard. Mum didn’t even know that this was possible… So, I installed the apps for her, and we connected them with the phone apps. Maybe, in a way, this can make chatting for mum a bit easier…
Koa had to go out for a wee, but I was expecting new filters for the ventilation system, and a parcel with new snacks for Koa was on its way. Mum offered to stay home for a bit, so I could take Koa out for a short walk. When Koa and I got back, mum had gotten a few new sets of filters, so I immediately took them upstairs, and exchanged the dirty old ones for a new set.
Mum headed back home, and Koa and I relaxed for a bit. When the parcel with Koa’s snacks had arrived, he and I went to bed. Not so sleep yet, but to relax, as my back was still bothering me. After about 30 minutes, I took my meds, and I made Koa his meal. I could use the new scale, and this one seemed a lot more accurate. Yay! When Koa was done with his meal, we went outside for a bit, and he could do his thing. Then, I brushed my teeth, and Koa and I did go to bed for some snoozing.
I dozed off a bit, and then Koa woke me up already for a big pee. And, back to bed again… After some more snoozing, Koa woke me up again, and this time, after a few minutes outside, he did a big number 2. And, back to bed… When he woke me up again, I felt like I could have slept a bit longer… But, I also felt like it was time to take my meds, as my back was very unkind to me. I thought I had not slept a lot, but, according to my watch, my “actual sleeping time” was 7:30 hours in total. So, actually, it was not that bad…
We got up, with some effort, and we started our “day”…
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
#PixysJourney
#WeirdFolks
#ActuallyAuDHD
#KoaKoolaniPS. Sorry I didn't take any Koa snaps this day 🫣
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#Journal of a slightly enthusiastic, and slightly exhausted, Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 09/07/2026).
After an OK enough night, with about 7 hours of sleep in total, Koa told me it was time to get up and to start our “day”. I got to the scale, which surprised me a little, in a nice way. I dressed, took my meds, fed the little nibbler, and then I got to the couch with my laptop. I wrote a long email to my sweet friend, followed by my journal toot. When the toot was uploaded to all the usual places, I put away the laptop, and fixed myself some brekkie.
After brekkie, Koa and I went for a short walkies. When we got back, we crashed on the couch, and relaxed for a while. I worked a bit on a blog post, while I watched some Criminal Minds. After some telly time, it was getting light out, and Koa and I went for another walk. I made some food for Koa, before I headed upstairs for my little bike ride. Koa wasn’t too pleased with me being gone, but fortunately, he wasn't too vocal about it. When I got back downstairs, I fixed myself some food as well.
Bestie called me on her way to physio, and we had a nice chat. I walked a bit with Koa, and then we relaxed again. I wanted to go to the store, to buy some envelopes and stamps. I could go with Skoosh, and be back in a jiffy. But, the weather was nice, my meds were working, and I felt eager to walk a bit, and see how that would go.
I texted the neighbor, asking if she’d be interested in joining me and Koa for a walk to the store. It turned out, she was just getting ready to head to the supermarket, which is about 140m from the store I needed. So, we met up to walk together. After a little bit, she took over Koa’s leash, which helped my back a lot. And, I think she enjoyed it too. It had been two weeks since her furry loved one had passed the rainbow bridge, so it was hard for her. But, I saw her smile a bit from time to time, which made me feel a bit better. I had forgotten to turn on the GPS tracking on Koa’s collar, so we missed a bit of the activity. But… We managed to get to the stores, and then back again. I was dead, and Koa was rather tired too. Time and distance wise, it was the max for him, maybe a bit too much, because of all the new impressions. But, Koa had done a great job! And I think all three of us had enjoyed the little walk and company.
When we got home, I gave Koa something to snack, and he went to the crate in the bedroom. I went to bed, not to sleep, but to relax. We had walked almost 2km, and it was a lot for my poor back and leg. And, while I was exhausted, I also felt good about it. We relaxed for about 90 minutes, and then Koa wanted to go out again. He had drunk a lot after coming home, so he had to wee. I was all for a short nip to the grassy field behind the house, and then back again. Koa wanted a bit more… Which was not appreciated by my leg and back.
We got back, and we relaxed a bit. I got Koa’s old-skool photo album, and I started adding the pictures that had arrived the previous day. Koa started “playing” with my curtains, which I had closed due to both heat and light, and when he used his little teefs in them, I put him back into the crate. I finished adding all the pictures, now I need to add all the dates into an excel sheet, and hope that my dad will want to print them, so that I can cut them out, and add them to the pictures.
When I was done, I gave Koa his meal. We went into the garden for a while, where he could do his things. After that, I took my meds, and we got ready to head to bed. It was a bit earlier, but I was just so tired… Of course, Koa was snoozing in no time, and it took me a bit longer to get comfortable enough to doze off.
I woke up a few times for doggy breaks, I still hope that, sooner rather than later, Koa will be back to needing max 1 potty break a night. He was on one for a while, but then he fell back into needing two… The breeder says the bladder control should be getting better once they’ve finished the teething process. Koa has two wobble little teefs in the front, and he still needs to exchange the fangs and molars… So, I guess I will have to be patient a bit longer… (although, after more than 11 weeks, I do long for a few “good nights”…).
We got up, and I used the scale. It was a bit higher, weight wise, but the fat percentage was a bit lower, so I guess it’s not that bad. I still hope to get my weight below the 80 kilos again, sooner than later would be nice, I want to be able to shed this obesity again… At the end of last year, I finally got close to it, but then, due to weather, family things, and me feeling like crap, it went up again. I really hope that I can start visiting the gym again soon, if both Koa and my body will allow it… I really miss it, in more than one way…
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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#Journal of a slightly enthusiastic, and slightly exhausted, Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 09/07/2026).
After an OK enough night, with about 7 hours of sleep in total, Koa told me it was time to get up and to start our “day”. I got to the scale, which surprised me a little, in a nice way. I dressed, took my meds, fed the little nibbler, and then I got to the couch with my laptop. I wrote a long email to my sweet friend, followed by my journal toot. When the toot was uploaded to all the usual places, I put away the laptop, and fixed myself some brekkie.
After brekkie, Koa and I went for a short walkies. When we got back, we crashed on the couch, and relaxed for a while. I worked a bit on a blog post, while I watched some Criminal Minds. After some telly time, it was getting light out, and Koa and I went for another walk. I made some food for Koa, before I headed upstairs for my little bike ride. Koa wasn’t too pleased with me being gone, but fortunately, he wasn't too vocal about it. When I got back downstairs, I fixed myself some food as well.
Bestie called me on her way to physio, and we had a nice chat. I walked a bit with Koa, and then we relaxed again. I wanted to go to the store, to buy some envelopes and stamps. I could go with Skoosh, and be back in a jiffy. But, the weather was nice, my meds were working, and I felt eager to walk a bit, and see how that would go.
I texted the neighbor, asking if she’d be interested in joining me and Koa for a walk to the store. It turned out, she was just getting ready to head to the supermarket, which is about 140m from the store I needed. So, we met up to walk together. After a little bit, she took over Koa’s leash, which helped my back a lot. And, I think she enjoyed it too. It had been two weeks since her furry loved one had passed the rainbow bridge, so it was hard for her. But, I saw her smile a bit from time to time, which made me feel a bit better. I had forgotten to turn on the GPS tracking on Koa’s collar, so we missed a bit of the activity. But… We managed to get to the stores, and then back again. I was dead, and Koa was rather tired too. Time and distance wise, it was the max for him, maybe a bit too much, because of all the new impressions. But, Koa had done a great job! And I think all three of us had enjoyed the little walk and company.
When we got home, I gave Koa something to snack, and he went to the crate in the bedroom. I went to bed, not to sleep, but to relax. We had walked almost 2km, and it was a lot for my poor back and leg. And, while I was exhausted, I also felt good about it. We relaxed for about 90 minutes, and then Koa wanted to go out again. He had drunk a lot after coming home, so he had to wee. I was all for a short nip to the grassy field behind the house, and then back again. Koa wanted a bit more… Which was not appreciated by my leg and back.
We got back, and we relaxed a bit. I got Koa’s old-skool photo album, and I started adding the pictures that had arrived the previous day. Koa started “playing” with my curtains, which I had closed due to both heat and light, and when he used his little teefs in them, I put him back into the crate. I finished adding all the pictures, now I need to add all the dates into an excel sheet, and hope that my dad will want to print them, so that I can cut them out, and add them to the pictures.
When I was done, I gave Koa his meal. We went into the garden for a while, where he could do his things. After that, I took my meds, and we got ready to head to bed. It was a bit earlier, but I was just so tired… Of course, Koa was snoozing in no time, and it took me a bit longer to get comfortable enough to doze off.
I woke up a few times for doggy breaks, I still hope that, sooner rather than later, Koa will be back to needing max 1 potty break a night. He was on one for a while, but then he fell back into needing two… The breeder says the bladder control should be getting better once they’ve finished the teething process. Koa has two wobble little teefs in the front, and he still needs to exchange the fangs and molars… So, I guess I will have to be patient a bit longer… (although, after more than 11 weeks, I do long for a few “good nights”…).
We got up, and I used the scale. It was a bit higher, weight wise, but the fat percentage was a bit lower, so I guess it’s not that bad. I still hope to get my weight below the 80 kilos again, sooner than later would be nice, I want to be able to shed this obesity again… At the end of last year, I finally got close to it, but then, due to weather, family things, and me feeling like crap, it went up again. I really hope that I can start visiting the gym again soon, if both Koa and my body will allow it… I really miss it, in more than one way…
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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:kirby_prideheart: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle:
#GoodNight and #TZAG everyone :kirby_tired:
Even though I had about 7 hours of sleep in total, with two interruptions for Koa's potty breaks, I still feel exhausted. I am struggling to enjoy the things that I usually enjoy. It sometimes feels like it's just too hard... 😔
I've been sharing some of my music collection on Pixelfed. I boosted some posts through this account. I just needed some positive distraction... I tried to group all sorts of music posts into a collection on Pixelfed: 🔗
https://pixelfed.social/c/821902671576567911On October 29th last year, I also shared some of my vinyl collection on my blog... I tried to add some more info and background to the post. So, should you want to check it out, here is the link: 🔗
https://wp.me/pbx9Bc-4KXAnd I spent some money I should not have spent... But last time I didn't order it when I saw it, I lost the chance to order it later, as it was sold out (and being re-sold for 4-6x the original price..!).
I hope that I still will have a wee bit of money left... I do want to save for a new sound system, as my current one is old and dead. 😢 But I also want to grab some vinyls to my sweet little collection, so I have some music to enjoy, once I *finally* manage to get the funds for that little sound system that I found. (it's about €1000, which sounds expensive, and it is, but when compared to others, it feels like it's one of the cheaper ones... 🫣).
Ah well... This makes me long sometimes, back to the times where I thought I was happy (and I guess I was though, to some extent) in my poly relationship... When we had shared costs, and three decent incomes... We had all we needed, all we wanted, and didn't need to worry too much... There were cons to a poly relationship, sure... But, the financial situation we had, it was a nice pro for me for sure... 😊
I will do my best to make some good calculations, as I want to get a special vinyl by a dear fiend as well... I still have their store page open on my tablet. And, hopefully, in a few weeks, I may be able to order their album... I really want to support them, and it would be awesome to add to my little collection... 😇
Well... Let's see if I can write a bit for my blog site... I need to get some "stuff" out of my mind, as it's making my brain go nuts... And yes, I did take my ADHD meds... I am "just" struggling with too many things at the moment, and I'm trying to "let it all out" by trying to write about it, here and on my blog.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 🫂 🩵 💜 🩷 🐾 :dogeparrot:
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Emotions and worries
As I start writing this, Koa has been with me for about 3½ weeks. We had some ups and downs, but all in all, I think we're not doing too bad. I knew this would take time, and while my AuDHD is eager for "getting back to normal", I know that Koa and I are still working on settling to what our "normal" should look like. My brain is still used to the way things were when Arwen was still in my life. It sometimes forgets that it took time for Arwen and me to settle as well. And, of course, that Arwen was a whole different dog than Koa is... Somehow, I "want" it all to work out well, and all that, and I know I need to allow it the time it needs, which I am certainly inclined to give. But that nagging feeling of my autistic side, longing for some more relaxed and settled routines... Well, it can be a big pain in the big behind 😔. […]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2026/05/22/emotions-and-worries/
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Emotions and worries
As I start writing this, Koa has been with me for about 3½ weeks. We had some ups and downs, but all in all, I think we're not doing too bad. I knew this would take time, and while my AuDHD is eager for "getting back to normal", I know that Koa and I are still working on settling to what our "normal" should look like. My brain is still used to the way things were when Arwen was still in my life. It sometimes forgets that it took time for Arwen and me to settle as well. And, of course, that Arwen was a whole different dog than Koa is... Somehow, I "want" it all to work out well, and all that, and I know I need to allow it the time it needs, which I am certainly inclined to give. But that nagging feeling of my autistic side, longing for some more relaxed and settled routines... Well, it can be a big pain in the big behind 😔. […]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2026/05/22/emotions-and-worries/
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Emotions and worries
As I start writing this, Koa has been with me for about 3½ weeks. We had some ups and downs, but all in all, I think we're not doing too bad. I knew this would take time, and while my AuDHD is eager for "getting back to normal", I know that Koa and I are still working on settling to what our "normal" should look like. My brain is still used to the way things were when Arwen was still in my life. It sometimes forgets that it took time for Arwen and me to settle as well. And, of course, that Arwen was a whole different dog than Koa is... Somehow, I "want" it all to work out well, and all that, and I know I need to allow it the time it needs, which I am certainly inclined to give. But that nagging feeling of my autistic side, longing for some more relaxed and settled routines... Well, it can be a big pain in the big behind 😔. […]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2026/05/22/emotions-and-worries/
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Emotions and worries
As I start writing this, Koa has been with me for about 3½ weeks. We had some ups and downs, but all in all, I think we're not doing too bad. I knew this would take time, and while my AuDHD is eager for "getting back to normal", I know that Koa and I are still working on settling to what our "normal" should look like. My brain is still used to the way things were when Arwen was still in my life. It sometimes forgets that it took time for Arwen and me to settle as well. And, of course, that Arwen was a whole different dog than Koa is... Somehow, I "want" it all to work out well, and all that, and I know I need to allow it the time it needs, which I am certainly inclined to give. But that nagging feeling of my autistic side, longing for some more relaxed and settled routines... Well, it can be a big pain in the big behind 😔. […]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2026/05/22/emotions-and-worries/
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Emotions and worries
As I start writing this, Koa has been with me for about 3½ weeks. We had some ups and downs, but all in all, I think we're not doing too bad. I knew this would take time, and while my AuDHD is eager for "getting back to normal", I know that Koa and I are still working on settling to what our "normal" should look like. My brain is still used to the way things were when Arwen was still in my life. It sometimes forgets that it took time for Arwen and me to settle as well. And, of course, that Arwen was a whole different dog than Koa is... Somehow, I "want" it all to work out well, and all that, and I know I need to allow it the time it needs, which I am certainly inclined to give. But that nagging feeling of my autistic side, longing for some more relaxed and settled routines... Well, it can be a big pain in the big behind 😔. […]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2026/05/22/emotions-and-worries/
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Creating WhatsApp Koa Stickers
Something I have been playing with for a little while now. It's a bit of work, but it sure looks cool when you're able to share a "Koa based" reaction in chats with friends. I know, I would prefer it if they would make the switch to Signal. And, I have tried making stickers for Signal as well, but it's a lot more work, which I am less good at. There is an app that can help, but the only useful version is a paid one, and I just can't justify those costs for just a few stickers. So, as I still need to use WhatsApp, I try to make stickers for that... I use the Sticker Maker app to finalize the animated images into WhatsApp stickers. But, before I can do that, there is some more work involved. It can be fun to do, especially when the results are nice, and all that... 😇 But it can sometimes seem like a lot of work, just for a few little stickers. I have uploaded the Koa Koolani wastickers to a folder on my Drive. I don't know if this link will work... Maybe I will need to approve it when you use it, as I have never done this before. But, I wanted to try it, so I could maybe share some Koa 🩷 love with you all! […]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2026/05/18/creating-whatsapp-koa-stickers/
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Creating WhatsApp Koa Stickers
Something I have been playing with for a little while now. It's a bit of work, but it sure looks cool when you're able to share a "Koa based" reaction in chats with friends. I know, I would prefer it if they would make the switch to Signal. And, I have tried making stickers for Signal as well, but it's a lot more work, which I am less good at. There is an app that can help, but the only useful version is a paid one, and I just can't justify those costs for just a few stickers. So, as I still need to use WhatsApp, I try to make stickers for that... I use the Sticker Maker app to finalize the animated images into WhatsApp stickers. But, before I can do that, there is some more work involved. It can be fun to do, especially when the results are nice, and all that... 😇 But it can sometimes seem like a lot of work, just for a few little stickers. I have uploaded the Koa Koolani wastickers to a folder on my Drive. I don't know if this link will work... Maybe I will need to approve it when you use it, as I have never done this before. But, I wanted to try it, so I could maybe share some Koa 🩷 love with you all! […]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2026/05/18/creating-whatsapp-koa-stickers/