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CW: My Saturday journal Toot, which ran a bit longer. Nothing too bad, except me getting triggered into a very awful flashback...
#Journal of a grateful but also triggered Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 12/09/2026).
Another broken night, again with less sleep than I’d hoped for. But, Koa and I got up, and we started our routine. Koa had his meal, and did his business in the garden. I got dressed, took my meds, and cleaned up the smelly prezzie in the garden. I took my meds, and then, Koa and I headed to the couch. I opened the laptop, and started writing my reply email to my dear friend.
Normally, I am able to finish the email, before Koa wants to head out. But this night, Koa was very whiny, so I took him out earlier, and I finished my email after that. After that, I fixed and ate brekkie. I started working on today’s blog post, when Koa started his whines again, so we headed out for another walk.
I was able to finish the post, and then I fixed Koa’s meal. I also, finally, managed to finish Thursday’s journal toot. I was even able to start Friday’s journal toot, but then, it was time for walkies again. I tried to write some more, but my hands were getting rather tired and sore, and I was hoping for a bit of relaxing. Today was going to be a busy day, and I didn’t know then, how much I needed to have some spoons available later this day.
After some relaxing, I wanted to try and fix myself some food, before our friend and her son were coming to us. They were going to help us, to take Koa to the vet for his ear checkup. It had been four weeks since they gave him the lotion in his ears, and now we'd find out if it had worked. I had checked his ears several times, and they seemed to be so much cleaner already. But, that would not mean that his ears were done with the infections.
I was just fixing myself an omelet, which was a bit challenging, trying to break the eggs, without getting bits of the shell in the bowl, when our friend texted that they were in the car, on their way to us. I enjoyed my meal, and Koa had his first bits of omelet, which I think he really enjoyed. If he had time to taste it at all, while he was like a little vacuum cleaner, ducking all the bits in.
When they arrived, my friend and I immediately had to teach her son how to deal with puppy Koa. He'd seen him before, but Koa was smaller then. And the boy grew up with Arwen, who was a totally different dog, and she also was older, before he started to get more involved with her. My friend still thanks Arwen for all the amazing work she has done, helping her son, and later with her rescue dog. But Koa is different, younger, wilder, so we had to explain some things, before we were able to head out for a little walk together.
We had a nice walk, and Koa got his sniffs in. I had to do my best to keep up with them, as I'm not back to my old walking speed, since my back went out. After the walk, we got things ready to head to the vet. While we were in the waiting room, our friend was able to get Koa on the pet scale. The numbers fluctuated a bit, but they were around the 25,4kg (about 56lbs). The vet came over to take two swabs from Koa's ears. It went a lot better than 4 weeks ago. When she called us in, the tests were almost done. The vet checked his ears with the special scope, and she was very happy with what she saw. The tests were very positive, as in good news. 😊 So after I paid the bill, we were able to head back again.
I had promised to give some benzine from my little cans to my friend, for all the driving she had been doing for me. When we were sorting that out, we had asked the son to be on the lookout for an important parcel that should be delivered soon. We got the parcel, although the son almost chased off the delivery man! 😂 I was able to get the hose nozzle out, so I could clean the artificial lawn a bit, as my friend offered to dry the doggo afterward. Then, they were getting ready to go, and the son promised to wait for his mum, so she could use the loo before driving off.
And that's when I got a major flashback, feeling scared and angry... 😢 The son did something that freaked me out completely. Nothing totally bad happened, because I was quick enough to prevent it from happening. But damn, I felt like I'd just woken up from the worst nightmare! I tried to stay calm enough, to explain to the son why I freaked out. How his actions, the breaking of the promise to his mum, and doing something he knew he wasn't allowed, brought back my worst memories and fears... 😭
He started with a sorry that wasn't real, just an automatic reply. He came with an excuse, which had nothing to do with what he'd done. And it took all I had to not allow my anger to overtake me. I tried to explain, with his mum next to us, what happened, and why I was cross with him now. It took a while, but his mum complimented me on being so clear to him. And that she saw my fear, my anger, my disappointment, but I still took the time to make sure that her son would, hopefully, understand.
My friend apologized for what had happened. I told her it was not her fault. She had given him clear instructions, and he promised to wait a few minutes, so she could get ready. And then he just did the exact opposite... It's not her fault, she was clear and quick...
When they had left, I felt exhausted! The trigger, the traumatic flashback, the emotions that followed... 😔 I got things ready for bed, hoping to get some rest. But, Koa and I were in for another broken night. Another 6 hours in total. I did wake up later than usual, and I was grateful for the extra hour that Koa had given me. So, we got up a bit later, and we started our "day".
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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CW: My Saturday journal Toot, which ran a bit longer. Nothing too bad, except me getting triggered into a very awful flashback...
#Journal of a grateful but also triggered Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 12/09/2026).
Another broken night, again with less sleep than I’d hoped for. But, Koa and I got up, and we started our routine. Koa had his meal, and did his business in the garden. I got dressed, took my meds, and cleaned up the smelly prezzie in the garden. I took my meds, and then, Koa and I headed to the couch. I opened the laptop, and started writing my reply email to my dear friend.
Normally, I am able to finish the email, before Koa wants to head out. But this night, Koa was very whiny, so I took him out earlier, and I finished my email after that. After that, I fixed and ate brekkie. I started working on today’s blog post, when Koa started his whines again, so we headed out for another walk.
I was able to finish the post, and then I fixed Koa’s meal. I also, finally, managed to finish Thursday’s journal toot. I was even able to start Friday’s journal toot, but then, it was time for walkies again. I tried to write some more, but my hands were getting rather tired and sore, and I was hoping for a bit of relaxing. Today was going to be a busy day, and I didn’t know then, how much I needed to have some spoons available later this day.
After some relaxing, I wanted to try and fix myself some food, before our friend and her son were coming to us. They were going to help us, to take Koa to the vet for his ear checkup. It had been four weeks since they gave him the lotion in his ears, and now we'd find out if it had worked. I had checked his ears several times, and they seemed to be so much cleaner already. But, that would not mean that his ears were done with the infections.
I was just fixing myself an omelet, which was a bit challenging, trying to break the eggs, without getting bits of the shell in the bowl, when our friend texted that they were in the car, on their way to us. I enjoyed my meal, and Koa had his first bits of omelet, which I think he really enjoyed. If he had time to taste it at all, while he was like a little vacuum cleaner, ducking all the bits in.
When they arrived, my friend and I immediately had to teach her son how to deal with puppy Koa. He'd seen him before, but Koa was smaller then. And the boy grew up with Arwen, who was a totally different dog, and she also was older, before he started to get more involved with her. My friend still thanks Arwen for all the amazing work she has done, helping her son, and later with her rescue dog. But Koa is different, younger, wilder, so we had to explain some things, before we were able to head out for a little walk together.
We had a nice walk, and Koa got his sniffs in. I had to do my best to keep up with them, as I'm not back to my old walking speed, since my back went out. After the walk, we got things ready to head to the vet. While we were in the waiting room, our friend was able to get Koa on the pet scale. The numbers fluctuated a bit, but they were around the 25,4kg (about 56lbs). The vet came over to take two swabs from Koa's ears. It went a lot better than 4 weeks ago. When she called us in, the tests were almost done. The vet checked his ears with the special scope, and she was very happy with what she saw. The tests were very positive, as in good news. 😊 So after I paid the bill, we were able to head back again.
I had promised to give some benzine from my little cans to my friend, for all the driving she had been doing for me. When we were sorting that out, we had asked the son to be on the lookout for an important parcel that should be delivered soon. We got the parcel, although the son almost chased off the delivery man! 😂 I was able to get the hose nozzle out, so I could clean the artificial lawn a bit, as my friend offered to dry the doggo afterward. Then, they were getting ready to go, and the son promised to wait for his mum, so she could use the loo before driving off.
And that's when I got a major flashback, feeling scared and angry... 😢 The son did something that freaked me out completely. Nothing totally bad happened, because I was quick enough to prevent it from happening. But damn, I felt like I'd just woken up from the worst nightmare! I tried to stay calm enough, to explain to the son why I freaked out. How his actions, the breaking of the promise to his mum, and doing something he knew he wasn't allowed, brought back my worst memories and fears... 😭
He started with a sorry that wasn't real, just an automatic reply. He came with an excuse, which had nothing to do with what he'd done. And it took all I had to not allow my anger to overtake me. I tried to explain, with his mum next to us, what happened, and why I was cross with him now. It took a while, but his mum complimented me on being so clear to him. And that she saw my fear, my anger, my disappointment, but I still took the time to make sure that her son would, hopefully, understand.
My friend apologized for what had happened. I told her it was not her fault. She had given him clear instructions, and he promised to wait a few minutes, so she could get ready. And then he just did the exact opposite... It's not her fault, she was clear and quick...
When they had left, I felt exhausted! The trigger, the traumatic flashback, the emotions that followed... 😔 I got things ready for bed, hoping to get some rest. But, Koa and I were in for another broken night. Another 6 hours in total. I did wake up later than usual, and I was grateful for the extra hour that Koa had given me. So, we got up a bit later, and we started our "day".
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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CW: My Saturday journal Toot, which ran a bit longer. Nothing too bad, except me getting triggered into a very awful flashback...
#Journal of a grateful but also triggered Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 12/09/2026).
Another broken night, again with less sleep than I’d hoped for. But, Koa and I got up, and we started our routine. Koa had his meal, and did his business in the garden. I got dressed, took my meds, and cleaned up the smelly prezzie in the garden. I took my meds, and then, Koa and I headed to the couch. I opened the laptop, and started writing my reply email to my dear friend.
Normally, I am able to finish the email, before Koa wants to head out. But this night, Koa was very whiny, so I took him out earlier, and I finished my email after that. After that, I fixed and ate brekkie. I started working on today’s blog post, when Koa started his whines again, so we headed out for another walk.
I was able to finish the post, and then I fixed Koa’s meal. I also, finally, managed to finish Thursday’s journal toot. I was even able to start Friday’s journal toot, but then, it was time for walkies again. I tried to write some more, but my hands were getting rather tired and sore, and I was hoping for a bit of relaxing. Today was going to be a busy day, and I didn’t know then, how much I needed to have some spoons available later this day.
After some relaxing, I wanted to try and fix myself some food, before our friend and her son were coming to us. They were going to help us, to take Koa to the vet for his ear checkup. It had been four weeks since they gave him the lotion in his ears, and now we'd find out if it had worked. I had checked his ears several times, and they seemed to be so much cleaner already. But, that would not mean that his ears were done with the infections.
I was just fixing myself an omelet, which was a bit challenging, trying to break the eggs, without getting bits of the shell in the bowl, when our friend texted that they were in the car, on their way to us. I enjoyed my meal, and Koa had his first bits of omelet, which I think he really enjoyed. If he had time to taste it at all, while he was like a little vacuum cleaner, ducking all the bits in.
When they arrived, my friend and I immediately had to teach her son how to deal with puppy Koa. He'd seen him before, but Koa was smaller then. And the boy grew up with Arwen, who was a totally different dog, and she also was older, before he started to get more involved with her. My friend still thanks Arwen for all the amazing work she has done, helping her son, and later with her rescue dog. But Koa is different, younger, wilder, so we had to explain some things, before we were able to head out for a little walk together.
We had a nice walk, and Koa got his sniffs in. I had to do my best to keep up with them, as I'm not back to my old walking speed, since my back went out. After the walk, we got things ready to head to the vet. While we were in the waiting room, our friend was able to get Koa on the pet scale. The numbers fluctuated a bit, but they were around the 25,4kg (about 56lbs). The vet came over to take two swabs from Koa's ears. It went a lot better than 4 weeks ago. When she called us in, the tests were almost done. The vet checked his ears with the special scope, and she was very happy with what she saw. The tests were very positive, as in good news. 😊 So after I paid the bill, we were able to head back again.
I had promised to give some benzine from my little cans to my friend, for all the driving she had been doing for me. When we were sorting that out, we had asked the son to be on the lookout for an important parcel that should be delivered soon. We got the parcel, although the son almost chased off the delivery man! 😂 I was able to get the hose nozzle out, so I could clean the artificial lawn a bit, as my friend offered to dry the doggo afterward. Then, they were getting ready to go, and the son promised to wait for his mum, so she could use the loo before driving off.
And that's when I got a major flashback, feeling scared and angry... 😢 The son did something that freaked me out completely. Nothing totally bad happened, because I was quick enough to prevent it from happening. But damn, I felt like I'd just woken up from the worst nightmare! I tried to stay calm enough, to explain to the son why I freaked out. How his actions, the breaking of the promise to his mum, and doing something he knew he wasn't allowed, brought back my worst memories and fears... 😭
He started with a sorry that wasn't real, just an automatic reply. He came with an excuse, which had nothing to do with what he'd done. And it took all I had to not allow my anger to overtake me. I tried to explain, with his mum next to us, what happened, and why I was cross with him now. It took a while, but his mum complimented me on being so clear to him. And that she saw my fear, my anger, my disappointment, but I still took the time to make sure that her son would, hopefully, understand.
My friend apologized for what had happened. I told her it was not her fault. She had given him clear instructions, and he promised to wait a few minutes, so she could get ready. And then he just did the exact opposite... It's not her fault, she was clear and quick...
When they had left, I felt exhausted! The trigger, the traumatic flashback, the emotions that followed... 😔 I got things ready for bed, hoping to get some rest. But, Koa and I were in for another broken night. Another 6 hours in total. I did wake up later than usual, and I was grateful for the extra hour that Koa had given me. So, we got up a bit later, and we started our "day".
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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CW: My Saturday journal Toot, which ran a bit longer. Nothing too bad, except me getting triggered into a very awful flashback...
#Journal of a grateful but also triggered Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 12/09/2026).
Another broken night, again with less sleep than I’d hoped for. But, Koa and I got up, and we started our routine. Koa had his meal, and did his business in the garden. I got dressed, took my meds, and cleaned up the smelly prezzie in the garden. I took my meds, and then, Koa and I headed to the couch. I opened the laptop, and started writing my reply email to my dear friend.
Normally, I am able to finish the email, before Koa wants to head out. But this night, Koa was very whiny, so I took him out earlier, and I finished my email after that. After that, I fixed and ate brekkie. I started working on today’s blog post, when Koa started his whines again, so we headed out for another walk.
I was able to finish the post, and then I fixed Koa’s meal. I also, finally, managed to finish Thursday’s journal toot. I was even able to start Friday’s journal toot, but then, it was time for walkies again. I tried to write some more, but my hands were getting rather tired and sore, and I was hoping for a bit of relaxing. Today was going to be a busy day, and I didn’t know then, how much I needed to have some spoons available later this day.
After some relaxing, I wanted to try and fix myself some food, before our friend and her son were coming to us. They were going to help us, to take Koa to the vet for his ear checkup. It had been four weeks since they gave him the lotion in his ears, and now we'd find out if it had worked. I had checked his ears several times, and they seemed to be so much cleaner already. But, that would not mean that his ears were done with the infections.
I was just fixing myself an omelet, which was a bit challenging, trying to break the eggs, without getting bits of the shell in the bowl, when our friend texted that they were in the car, on their way to us. I enjoyed my meal, and Koa had his first bits of omelet, which I think he really enjoyed. If he had time to taste it at all, while he was like a little vacuum cleaner, ducking all the bits in.
When they arrived, my friend and I immediately had to teach her son how to deal with puppy Koa. He'd seen him before, but Koa was smaller then. And the boy grew up with Arwen, who was a totally different dog, and she also was older, before he started to get more involved with her. My friend still thanks Arwen for all the amazing work she has done, helping her son, and later with her rescue dog. But Koa is different, younger, wilder, so we had to explain some things, before we were able to head out for a little walk together.
We had a nice walk, and Koa got his sniffs in. I had to do my best to keep up with them, as I'm not back to my old walking speed, since my back went out. After the walk, we got things ready to head to the vet. While we were in the waiting room, our friend was able to get Koa on the pet scale. The numbers fluctuated a bit, but they were around the 25,4kg (about 56lbs). The vet came over to take two swabs from Koa's ears. It went a lot better than 4 weeks ago. When she called us in, the tests were almost done. The vet checked his ears with the special scope, and she was very happy with what she saw. The tests were very positive, as in good news. 😊 So after I paid the bill, we were able to head back again.
I had promised to give some benzine from my little cans to my friend, for all the driving she had been doing for me. When we were sorting that out, we had asked the son to be on the lookout for an important parcel that should be delivered soon. We got the parcel, although the son almost chased off the delivery man! 😂 I was able to get the hose nozzle out, so I could clean the artificial lawn a bit, as my friend offered to dry the doggo afterward. Then, they were getting ready to go, and the son promised to wait for his mum, so she could use the loo before driving off.
And that's when I got a major flashback, feeling scared and angry... 😢 The son did something that freaked me out completely. Nothing totally bad happened, because I was quick enough to prevent it from happening. But damn, I felt like I'd just woken up from the worst nightmare! I tried to stay calm enough, to explain to the son why I freaked out. How his actions, the breaking of the promise to his mum, and doing something he knew he wasn't allowed, brought back my worst memories and fears... 😭
He started with a sorry that wasn't real, just an automatic reply. He came with an excuse, which had nothing to do with what he'd done. And it took all I had to not allow my anger to overtake me. I tried to explain, with his mum next to us, what happened, and why I was cross with him now. It took a while, but his mum complimented me on being so clear to him. And that she saw my fear, my anger, my disappointment, but I still took the time to make sure that her son would, hopefully, understand.
My friend apologized for what had happened. I told her it was not her fault. She had given him clear instructions, and he promised to wait a few minutes, so she could get ready. And then he just did the exact opposite... It's not her fault, she was clear and quick...
When they had left, I felt exhausted! The trigger, the traumatic flashback, the emotions that followed... 😔 I got things ready for bed, hoping to get some rest. But, Koa and I were in for another broken night. Another 6 hours in total. I did wake up later than usual, and I was grateful for the extra hour that Koa had given me. So, we got up a bit later, and we started our "day".
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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CW: My Saturday journal Toot, which ran a bit longer. Nothing too bad, except me getting triggered into a very awful flashback...
#Journal of a grateful but also triggered Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Saturday, 12/09/2026).
Another broken night, again with less sleep than I’d hoped for. But, Koa and I got up, and we started our routine. Koa had his meal, and did his business in the garden. I got dressed, took my meds, and cleaned up the smelly prezzie in the garden. I took my meds, and then, Koa and I headed to the couch. I opened the laptop, and started writing my reply email to my dear friend.
Normally, I am able to finish the email, before Koa wants to head out. But this night, Koa was very whiny, so I took him out earlier, and I finished my email after that. After that, I fixed and ate brekkie. I started working on today’s blog post, when Koa started his whines again, so we headed out for another walk.
I was able to finish the post, and then I fixed Koa’s meal. I also, finally, managed to finish Thursday’s journal toot. I was even able to start Friday’s journal toot, but then, it was time for walkies again. I tried to write some more, but my hands were getting rather tired and sore, and I was hoping for a bit of relaxing. Today was going to be a busy day, and I didn’t know then, how much I needed to have some spoons available later this day.
After some relaxing, I wanted to try and fix myself some food, before our friend and her son were coming to us. They were going to help us, to take Koa to the vet for his ear checkup. It had been four weeks since they gave him the lotion in his ears, and now we'd find out if it had worked. I had checked his ears several times, and they seemed to be so much cleaner already. But, that would not mean that his ears were done with the infections.
I was just fixing myself an omelet, which was a bit challenging, trying to break the eggs, without getting bits of the shell in the bowl, when our friend texted that they were in the car, on their way to us. I enjoyed my meal, and Koa had his first bits of omelet, which I think he really enjoyed. If he had time to taste it at all, while he was like a little vacuum cleaner, ducking all the bits in.
When they arrived, my friend and I immediately had to teach her son how to deal with puppy Koa. He'd seen him before, but Koa was smaller then. And the boy grew up with Arwen, who was a totally different dog, and she also was older, before he started to get more involved with her. My friend still thanks Arwen for all the amazing work she has done, helping her son, and later with her rescue dog. But Koa is different, younger, wilder, so we had to explain some things, before we were able to head out for a little walk together.
We had a nice walk, and Koa got his sniffs in. I had to do my best to keep up with them, as I'm not back to my old walking speed, since my back went out. After the walk, we got things ready to head to the vet. While we were in the waiting room, our friend was able to get Koa on the pet scale. The numbers fluctuated a bit, but they were around the 25,4kg (about 56lbs). The vet came over to take two swabs from Koa's ears. It went a lot better than 4 weeks ago. When she called us in, the tests were almost done. The vet checked his ears with the special scope, and she was very happy with what she saw. The tests were very positive, as in good news. 😊 So after I paid the bill, we were able to head back again.
I had promised to give some benzine from my little cans to my friend, for all the driving she had been doing for me. When we were sorting that out, we had asked the son to be on the lookout for an important parcel that should be delivered soon. We got the parcel, although the son almost chased off the delivery man! 😂 I was able to get the hose nozzle out, so I could clean the artificial lawn a bit, as my friend offered to dry the doggo afterward. Then, they were getting ready to go, and the son promised to wait for his mum, so she could use the loo before driving off.
And that's when I got a major flashback, feeling scared and angry... 😢 The son did something that freaked me out completely. Nothing totally bad happened, because I was quick enough to prevent it from happening. But damn, I felt like I'd just woken up from the worst nightmare! I tried to stay calm enough, to explain to the son why I freaked out. How his actions, the breaking of the promise to his mum, and doing something he knew he wasn't allowed, brought back my worst memories and fears... 😭
He started with a sorry that wasn't real, just an automatic reply. He came with an excuse, which had nothing to do with what he'd done. And it took all I had to not allow my anger to overtake me. I tried to explain, with his mum next to us, what happened, and why I was cross with him now. It took a while, but his mum complimented me on being so clear to him. And that she saw my fear, my anger, my disappointment, but I still took the time to make sure that her son would, hopefully, understand.
My friend apologized for what had happened. I told her it was not her fault. She had given him clear instructions, and he promised to wait a few minutes, so she could get ready. And then he just did the exact opposite... It's not her fault, she was clear and quick...
When they had left, I felt exhausted! The trigger, the traumatic flashback, the emotions that followed... 😔 I got things ready for bed, hoping to get some rest. But, Koa and I were in for another broken night. Another 6 hours in total. I did wake up later than usual, and I was grateful for the extra hour that Koa had given me. So, we got up a bit later, and we started our "day".
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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#Journal of a grateful but tired Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 11/09/2026).
Another broken 6-hour sleep. But, Koa allowed me to sleep a longer part, at the end, in one go, which meant I got some rest out of it. It wasn’t enough to make me feel recharged, but it did help a bit. I got up, let Koa from his crate, and we started our routine. I fixed a meal for the dude, and he went out for potty after that. I got dressed and took my meds. And, when we were both ready, we got to the couch.
I opened up the laptop, and started writing my reply to a sweet friend’s email. I was just able to finish it, before Koa was all eager to go out for walkies again. When we got back, I fixed and ate my brekkie. I struggled a bit with today’s blog post, as I had no good ideas… But, I filled one with a vid and some screengrabs from the sweet dude.
After another walk, I was able to finish Wednesday’s journal toot. I made food for the dude, and then I uploaded the journal to the usual places. I started writing one for Thursday, but I was just too tired, and my hands weren’t too keen. So, I put away the laptop. After some telly time, I had another walk with Koa.
When we got back, I fixed myself some food, as I wanted to be ready in time, for when my friend was coming over to help Koa and me out this morning. She had texted that she was on her way, and Koa was just whining from time to time. He wanted attention, he wanted more walkies. But, I kept telling him to wait for our friend to come, and then we’d take him out. He managed to wait, but he let me know many times, that the wait was taking too long…
So, when I opened the front door, to allow our friend to come in, the not-so-little dude went wild! It took a bit of effort to put his harness on. And when our friend was ready, we took Koa for a little walk. Koa was very happy, and got all his sniffs, and some naughty snacks, in. We got back home, and we chatted for a while, while Koa did all he could to get our friend’s attention.
When it was time to head to Nijmegen, we went to our friend’s car, and with a bit of effort, we got Koa in. For some reason, he had some issues with getting into my parent’s car, and now into our friend’s car… But, when we went to the Herperduin last Sunday with Skoosh, he was eager to get in. So, I guess it’s probably part of his puberty fear-related issues. My car smells like me, and him. But the others smell different, and aren’t his “usual” ride, even though he went into my parent’s car for several times now. We managed to get Koa in, and headed to the hospital.
I got out of the car, and said goodbye to our friend and Koa. Koa didn’t really understand why I was out, and he had to stay in. What he didn’t know, was that our friend was taking him to a nearby area for a nice walk. My mum would meet with them, to transfer the groceries from Germany to my friend’s car. That way, she didn’t have to drive to Herpen for them. After that, Koa had a very nice walk, while I was at the hospital for my hand therapy.
The ergo therapist adjusted my splint, so that, hopefully, my thumb would not get stuck in it anymore. And I got some new exercises at the physio therapist, some of which cost me way more effort than she will ever realize, because, somehow, they never really “get it” when you say that your fine motor skills have never been the best. I’ve always struggled with them, which means that, doing some of those things now, with my hand still slowly recovering, it just wears me out…
I went to the waiting area in the main hall when I was done. I used Koa’s GPS app to see where they were, so I knew when to get out to the pick-up area. I got into the car, and we headed back to Herpen. Koa was glad to see me, but he was tired as well. We had a little pit-stop at the supermarket, so I could get some groceries. When we got back home, and Koa went into the garden, he did a pee that never seemed to come to an end. Apparently, the new walk had been a bit scary as well, and Koa had not done anything, except for some sniffs.
I fixed Koa’s meal, and then I fixed some food for our friend and I. We enjoyed it a lot, as it had been a busy morning for the both of us. After the meal, our friend offered to take Koa on a last walk, so I could prepare getting ready for bed. It was so sweet that she took him out again, especially as she told me that he’d done all the things during the walk, so hopefully he would be OK for some hours of sleep.
I thanked out friend, and she headed home. And we got ready for some snoozing time. Unfortunately, I was struggling again, unable to doze off. When I finally fell asleep, I was woken up by the kids down the street, screaming again like the little spoiled people that they are. It had startled both Koa and me, so I closed the window. I took Koa out, but he didn’t want to do anything, and he got some kibble and a drink. After some short snoozes, I was able to sleep a bit longer in one go. When I woke up again, it was a good time to get up, and start our “day”. So, that’s what we did. I didn’t feel too rested, as the 6 hours of sleep I got were broken again, but I did my best to keep going on…
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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#Journal of a grateful but tired Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 11/09/2026).
Another broken 6-hour sleep. But, Koa allowed me to sleep a longer part, at the end, in one go, which meant I got some rest out of it. It wasn’t enough to make me feel recharged, but it did help a bit. I got up, let Koa from his crate, and we started our routine. I fixed a meal for the dude, and he went out for potty after that. I got dressed and took my meds. And, when we were both ready, we got to the couch.
I opened up the laptop, and started writing my reply to a sweet friend’s email. I was just able to finish it, before Koa was all eager to go out for walkies again. When we got back, I fixed and ate my brekkie. I struggled a bit with today’s blog post, as I had no good ideas… But, I filled one with a vid and some screengrabs from the sweet dude.
After another walk, I was able to finish Wednesday’s journal toot. I made food for the dude, and then I uploaded the journal to the usual places. I started writing one for Thursday, but I was just too tired, and my hands weren’t too keen. So, I put away the laptop. After some telly time, I had another walk with Koa.
When we got back, I fixed myself some food, as I wanted to be ready in time, for when my friend was coming over to help Koa and me out this morning. She had texted that she was on her way, and Koa was just whining from time to time. He wanted attention, he wanted more walkies. But, I kept telling him to wait for our friend to come, and then we’d take him out. He managed to wait, but he let me know many times, that the wait was taking too long…
So, when I opened the front door, to allow our friend to come in, the not-so-little dude went wild! It took a bit of effort to put his harness on. And when our friend was ready, we took Koa for a little walk. Koa was very happy, and got all his sniffs, and some naughty snacks, in. We got back home, and we chatted for a while, while Koa did all he could to get our friend’s attention.
When it was time to head to Nijmegen, we went to our friend’s car, and with a bit of effort, we got Koa in. For some reason, he had some issues with getting into my parent’s car, and now into our friend’s car… But, when we went to the Herperduin last Sunday with Skoosh, he was eager to get in. So, I guess it’s probably part of his puberty fear-related issues. My car smells like me, and him. But the others smell different, and aren’t his “usual” ride, even though he went into my parent’s car for several times now. We managed to get Koa in, and headed to the hospital.
I got out of the car, and said goodbye to our friend and Koa. Koa didn’t really understand why I was out, and he had to stay in. What he didn’t know, was that our friend was taking him to a nearby area for a nice walk. My mum would meet with them, to transfer the groceries from Germany to my friend’s car. That way, she didn’t have to drive to Herpen for them. After that, Koa had a very nice walk, while I was at the hospital for my hand therapy.
The ergo therapist adjusted my splint, so that, hopefully, my thumb would not get stuck in it anymore. And I got some new exercises at the physio therapist, some of which cost me way more effort than she will ever realize, because, somehow, they never really “get it” when you say that your fine motor skills have never been the best. I’ve always struggled with them, which means that, doing some of those things now, with my hand still slowly recovering, it just wears me out…
I went to the waiting area in the main hall when I was done. I used Koa’s GPS app to see where they were, so I knew when to get out to the pick-up area. I got into the car, and we headed back to Herpen. Koa was glad to see me, but he was tired as well. We had a little pit-stop at the supermarket, so I could get some groceries. When we got back home, and Koa went into the garden, he did a pee that never seemed to come to an end. Apparently, the new walk had been a bit scary as well, and Koa had not done anything, except for some sniffs.
I fixed Koa’s meal, and then I fixed some food for our friend and I. We enjoyed it a lot, as it had been a busy morning for the both of us. After the meal, our friend offered to take Koa on a last walk, so I could prepare getting ready for bed. It was so sweet that she took him out again, especially as she told me that he’d done all the things during the walk, so hopefully he would be OK for some hours of sleep.
I thanked out friend, and she headed home. And we got ready for some snoozing time. Unfortunately, I was struggling again, unable to doze off. When I finally fell asleep, I was woken up by the kids down the street, screaming again like the little spoiled people that they are. It had startled both Koa and me, so I closed the window. I took Koa out, but he didn’t want to do anything, and he got some kibble and a drink. After some short snoozes, I was able to sleep a bit longer in one go. When I woke up again, it was a good time to get up, and start our “day”. So, that’s what we did. I didn’t feel too rested, as the 6 hours of sleep I got were broken again, but I did my best to keep going on…
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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#Journal of a grateful but tired Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 11/09/2026).
Another broken 6-hour sleep. But, Koa allowed me to sleep a longer part, at the end, in one go, which meant I got some rest out of it. It wasn’t enough to make me feel recharged, but it did help a bit. I got up, let Koa from his crate, and we started our routine. I fixed a meal for the dude, and he went out for potty after that. I got dressed and took my meds. And, when we were both ready, we got to the couch.
I opened up the laptop, and started writing my reply to a sweet friend’s email. I was just able to finish it, before Koa was all eager to go out for walkies again. When we got back, I fixed and ate my brekkie. I struggled a bit with today’s blog post, as I had no good ideas… But, I filled one with a vid and some screengrabs from the sweet dude.
After another walk, I was able to finish Wednesday’s journal toot. I made food for the dude, and then I uploaded the journal to the usual places. I started writing one for Thursday, but I was just too tired, and my hands weren’t too keen. So, I put away the laptop. After some telly time, I had another walk with Koa.
When we got back, I fixed myself some food, as I wanted to be ready in time, for when my friend was coming over to help Koa and me out this morning. She had texted that she was on her way, and Koa was just whining from time to time. He wanted attention, he wanted more walkies. But, I kept telling him to wait for our friend to come, and then we’d take him out. He managed to wait, but he let me know many times, that the wait was taking too long…
So, when I opened the front door, to allow our friend to come in, the not-so-little dude went wild! It took a bit of effort to put his harness on. And when our friend was ready, we took Koa for a little walk. Koa was very happy, and got all his sniffs, and some naughty snacks, in. We got back home, and we chatted for a while, while Koa did all he could to get our friend’s attention.
When it was time to head to Nijmegen, we went to our friend’s car, and with a bit of effort, we got Koa in. For some reason, he had some issues with getting into my parent’s car, and now into our friend’s car… But, when we went to the Herperduin last Sunday with Skoosh, he was eager to get in. So, I guess it’s probably part of his puberty fear-related issues. My car smells like me, and him. But the others smell different, and aren’t his “usual” ride, even though he went into my parent’s car for several times now. We managed to get Koa in, and headed to the hospital.
I got out of the car, and said goodbye to our friend and Koa. Koa didn’t really understand why I was out, and he had to stay in. What he didn’t know, was that our friend was taking him to a nearby area for a nice walk. My mum would meet with them, to transfer the groceries from Germany to my friend’s car. That way, she didn’t have to drive to Herpen for them. After that, Koa had a very nice walk, while I was at the hospital for my hand therapy.
The ergo therapist adjusted my splint, so that, hopefully, my thumb would not get stuck in it anymore. And I got some new exercises at the physio therapist, some of which cost me way more effort than she will ever realize, because, somehow, they never really “get it” when you say that your fine motor skills have never been the best. I’ve always struggled with them, which means that, doing some of those things now, with my hand still slowly recovering, it just wears me out…
I went to the waiting area in the main hall when I was done. I used Koa’s GPS app to see where they were, so I knew when to get out to the pick-up area. I got into the car, and we headed back to Herpen. Koa was glad to see me, but he was tired as well. We had a little pit-stop at the supermarket, so I could get some groceries. When we got back home, and Koa went into the garden, he did a pee that never seemed to come to an end. Apparently, the new walk had been a bit scary as well, and Koa had not done anything, except for some sniffs.
I fixed Koa’s meal, and then I fixed some food for our friend and I. We enjoyed it a lot, as it had been a busy morning for the both of us. After the meal, our friend offered to take Koa on a last walk, so I could prepare getting ready for bed. It was so sweet that she took him out again, especially as she told me that he’d done all the things during the walk, so hopefully he would be OK for some hours of sleep.
I thanked out friend, and she headed home. And we got ready for some snoozing time. Unfortunately, I was struggling again, unable to doze off. When I finally fell asleep, I was woken up by the kids down the street, screaming again like the little spoiled people that they are. It had startled both Koa and me, so I closed the window. I took Koa out, but he didn’t want to do anything, and he got some kibble and a drink. After some short snoozes, I was able to sleep a bit longer in one go. When I woke up again, it was a good time to get up, and start our “day”. So, that’s what we did. I didn’t feel too rested, as the 6 hours of sleep I got were broken again, but I did my best to keep going on…
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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#Journal of a grateful but tired Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 11/09/2026).
Another broken 6-hour sleep. But, Koa allowed me to sleep a longer part, at the end, in one go, which meant I got some rest out of it. It wasn’t enough to make me feel recharged, but it did help a bit. I got up, let Koa from his crate, and we started our routine. I fixed a meal for the dude, and he went out for potty after that. I got dressed and took my meds. And, when we were both ready, we got to the couch.
I opened up the laptop, and started writing my reply to a sweet friend’s email. I was just able to finish it, before Koa was all eager to go out for walkies again. When we got back, I fixed and ate my brekkie. I struggled a bit with today’s blog post, as I had no good ideas… But, I filled one with a vid and some screengrabs from the sweet dude.
After another walk, I was able to finish Wednesday’s journal toot. I made food for the dude, and then I uploaded the journal to the usual places. I started writing one for Thursday, but I was just too tired, and my hands weren’t too keen. So, I put away the laptop. After some telly time, I had another walk with Koa.
When we got back, I fixed myself some food, as I wanted to be ready in time, for when my friend was coming over to help Koa and me out this morning. She had texted that she was on her way, and Koa was just whining from time to time. He wanted attention, he wanted more walkies. But, I kept telling him to wait for our friend to come, and then we’d take him out. He managed to wait, but he let me know many times, that the wait was taking too long…
So, when I opened the front door, to allow our friend to come in, the not-so-little dude went wild! It took a bit of effort to put his harness on. And when our friend was ready, we took Koa for a little walk. Koa was very happy, and got all his sniffs, and some naughty snacks, in. We got back home, and we chatted for a while, while Koa did all he could to get our friend’s attention.
When it was time to head to Nijmegen, we went to our friend’s car, and with a bit of effort, we got Koa in. For some reason, he had some issues with getting into my parent’s car, and now into our friend’s car… But, when we went to the Herperduin last Sunday with Skoosh, he was eager to get in. So, I guess it’s probably part of his puberty fear-related issues. My car smells like me, and him. But the others smell different, and aren’t his “usual” ride, even though he went into my parent’s car for several times now. We managed to get Koa in, and headed to the hospital.
I got out of the car, and said goodbye to our friend and Koa. Koa didn’t really understand why I was out, and he had to stay in. What he didn’t know, was that our friend was taking him to a nearby area for a nice walk. My mum would meet with them, to transfer the groceries from Germany to my friend’s car. That way, she didn’t have to drive to Herpen for them. After that, Koa had a very nice walk, while I was at the hospital for my hand therapy.
The ergo therapist adjusted my splint, so that, hopefully, my thumb would not get stuck in it anymore. And I got some new exercises at the physio therapist, some of which cost me way more effort than she will ever realize, because, somehow, they never really “get it” when you say that your fine motor skills have never been the best. I’ve always struggled with them, which means that, doing some of those things now, with my hand still slowly recovering, it just wears me out…
I went to the waiting area in the main hall when I was done. I used Koa’s GPS app to see where they were, so I knew when to get out to the pick-up area. I got into the car, and we headed back to Herpen. Koa was glad to see me, but he was tired as well. We had a little pit-stop at the supermarket, so I could get some groceries. When we got back home, and Koa went into the garden, he did a pee that never seemed to come to an end. Apparently, the new walk had been a bit scary as well, and Koa had not done anything, except for some sniffs.
I fixed Koa’s meal, and then I fixed some food for our friend and I. We enjoyed it a lot, as it had been a busy morning for the both of us. After the meal, our friend offered to take Koa on a last walk, so I could prepare getting ready for bed. It was so sweet that she took him out again, especially as she told me that he’d done all the things during the walk, so hopefully he would be OK for some hours of sleep.
I thanked out friend, and she headed home. And we got ready for some snoozing time. Unfortunately, I was struggling again, unable to doze off. When I finally fell asleep, I was woken up by the kids down the street, screaming again like the little spoiled people that they are. It had startled both Koa and me, so I closed the window. I took Koa out, but he didn’t want to do anything, and he got some kibble and a drink. After some short snoozes, I was able to sleep a bit longer in one go. When I woke up again, it was a good time to get up, and start our “day”. So, that’s what we did. I didn’t feel too rested, as the 6 hours of sleep I got were broken again, but I did my best to keep going on…
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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#Journal of a grateful but tired Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Friday, 11/09/2026).
Another broken 6-hour sleep. But, Koa allowed me to sleep a longer part, at the end, in one go, which meant I got some rest out of it. It wasn’t enough to make me feel recharged, but it did help a bit. I got up, let Koa from his crate, and we started our routine. I fixed a meal for the dude, and he went out for potty after that. I got dressed and took my meds. And, when we were both ready, we got to the couch.
I opened up the laptop, and started writing my reply to a sweet friend’s email. I was just able to finish it, before Koa was all eager to go out for walkies again. When we got back, I fixed and ate my brekkie. I struggled a bit with today’s blog post, as I had no good ideas… But, I filled one with a vid and some screengrabs from the sweet dude.
After another walk, I was able to finish Wednesday’s journal toot. I made food for the dude, and then I uploaded the journal to the usual places. I started writing one for Thursday, but I was just too tired, and my hands weren’t too keen. So, I put away the laptop. After some telly time, I had another walk with Koa.
When we got back, I fixed myself some food, as I wanted to be ready in time, for when my friend was coming over to help Koa and me out this morning. She had texted that she was on her way, and Koa was just whining from time to time. He wanted attention, he wanted more walkies. But, I kept telling him to wait for our friend to come, and then we’d take him out. He managed to wait, but he let me know many times, that the wait was taking too long…
So, when I opened the front door, to allow our friend to come in, the not-so-little dude went wild! It took a bit of effort to put his harness on. And when our friend was ready, we took Koa for a little walk. Koa was very happy, and got all his sniffs, and some naughty snacks, in. We got back home, and we chatted for a while, while Koa did all he could to get our friend’s attention.
When it was time to head to Nijmegen, we went to our friend’s car, and with a bit of effort, we got Koa in. For some reason, he had some issues with getting into my parent’s car, and now into our friend’s car… But, when we went to the Herperduin last Sunday with Skoosh, he was eager to get in. So, I guess it’s probably part of his puberty fear-related issues. My car smells like me, and him. But the others smell different, and aren’t his “usual” ride, even though he went into my parent’s car for several times now. We managed to get Koa in, and headed to the hospital.
I got out of the car, and said goodbye to our friend and Koa. Koa didn’t really understand why I was out, and he had to stay in. What he didn’t know, was that our friend was taking him to a nearby area for a nice walk. My mum would meet with them, to transfer the groceries from Germany to my friend’s car. That way, she didn’t have to drive to Herpen for them. After that, Koa had a very nice walk, while I was at the hospital for my hand therapy.
The ergo therapist adjusted my splint, so that, hopefully, my thumb would not get stuck in it anymore. And I got some new exercises at the physio therapist, some of which cost me way more effort than she will ever realize, because, somehow, they never really “get it” when you say that your fine motor skills have never been the best. I’ve always struggled with them, which means that, doing some of those things now, with my hand still slowly recovering, it just wears me out…
I went to the waiting area in the main hall when I was done. I used Koa’s GPS app to see where they were, so I knew when to get out to the pick-up area. I got into the car, and we headed back to Herpen. Koa was glad to see me, but he was tired as well. We had a little pit-stop at the supermarket, so I could get some groceries. When we got back home, and Koa went into the garden, he did a pee that never seemed to come to an end. Apparently, the new walk had been a bit scary as well, and Koa had not done anything, except for some sniffs.
I fixed Koa’s meal, and then I fixed some food for our friend and I. We enjoyed it a lot, as it had been a busy morning for the both of us. After the meal, our friend offered to take Koa on a last walk, so I could prepare getting ready for bed. It was so sweet that she took him out again, especially as she told me that he’d done all the things during the walk, so hopefully he would be OK for some hours of sleep.
I thanked out friend, and she headed home. And we got ready for some snoozing time. Unfortunately, I was struggling again, unable to doze off. When I finally fell asleep, I was woken up by the kids down the street, screaming again like the little spoiled people that they are. It had startled both Koa and me, so I closed the window. I took Koa out, but he didn’t want to do anything, and he got some kibble and a drink. After some short snoozes, I was able to sleep a bit longer in one go. When I woke up again, it was a good time to get up, and start our “day”. So, that’s what we did. I didn’t feel too rested, as the 6 hours of sleep I got were broken again, but I did my best to keep going on…
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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#Journal of a tired Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 10/09/2026).
I managed to get a bit of (broken) sleep. And, even though it was the most sleep I had in several days, I spent most of the night still yawning my jaw off. We got up, and started our little routine together. Koa got his food, and went out for his potty business. I took my meds, and got dressed. When Koa and I were ready, we got to the couch.
Koa was chewing enthusiastically on his rawhide chewy, and I saw it getting smaller. After a bit, I was getting worried that it would get too small, and that Koa would try to inhale the whole bit. So, I took away the smaller chewy, which got me some annoyed looks. Until I got to the “doggy cupboard”, and I pulled out a new, big, chewy. Koa got all excited, and I tried to take a little video of his excitement, and then gave the rawhide to the dude. While he was all busy, I opened my laptop, and started to reply an email to my sweet friend.
Because I'd been a bit distracted, I wasn't finished with the email when Koa let me know that he wanted to go out. He'd been gnawing on his chewy, and drank a bit more because of that. So, he was a bit earlier, while I was a bit late. I went for the walk with the dude, and finished my email after that.
After some brekkie, I used my phone to create today's blog post. When it was done and scheduled, I was able to finally get working on Tuesday journal Toot. I hate that I'm running behind, as I feel this puts too much pressure on something that I usually love to do.
When I had finally managed to finish Tuesday's journal, I started the one for Wednesday. I didn't get too far, because Koa wanted to go out for walkies again. When we got back, I had no more spoons available, so I put away the laptop, and hoped that I could write some more on my phone, later that day. Of course, part of me already suspected that I would not be able to do that... Which saddened me a bit. I just wanted to get back on track.
After walkies, I was tired. I watched some TV, and then made some food for Koa, and then for myself. I wanted to relax a bit on my bed with my tablet, as the couch was not feeling comfortable at all. But, as Koa and I had just had some food, I decided in a short walk first.
But when we got back, I saw the time, and knew I could not get some relaxing on bed just yet, as bestie would probably be calling soon, while on her way to work. When she called, I put it on the speaker, which made Koa feel like he had to protect me. 😂 He jumped on the couch, stood over me, and looked at the phone like it was a major threat to me. Silly pupper!
After the call ended, Koa and I had another short walk. And then, we went to the bedroom, where I watched a series and texted a Dr for a bit. I really wanted to rest, but my brain kept being so active, that it was hard to let my body be at ease. When I finally got a bit better... You guessed it! Koa had enough of the relaxing, and he was eager to get a bit of action. So, I got up again, and tried to walk a bit further with him this time.
We got back, I gave Koa a snack, and I tried to clean up a bit. Koa was still a bit restless, so I took him outside, and we played a wee bit with the ball. I am sure that Koa would have preferred to play with the water hose. But, after all the rain, it seemed like a waste of water. And, to be honest, I did not have the energy to have some water fun with the dude. Which made me feel bad, and I really hoped that he would be grateful for a bit of ball-time instead.
After a few minutes, I had to go to the loo. I thought the dude would be OK with his ball for a few minutes. But yeah, I was wrong… When I came back, Koa was lying on the grass, looking mighty proud of himself, with one of the pins that holds the grass in his mouth! I was afraid that he’d hurt himself, as the endings were rather sharp. So I was glad that, with a bit of effort, I was able to retrieve the pin. The door to the garden was still open, which I didn’t think about too much. Until I realized my mistake… And needed to retrieve another pin from the pup’s teeth. All the effort it took bestie to get the pins in, and Koa keeps pulling them out like it's nothing… Ugh… When I got the second pin from Koa’s mouth, I made sure the door to the garden was closed, and Koa was inside with me.
I managed to watch a bit more telly. Made Koa his food. And, after a while, my body was so sore, that I got things ready to watch some series on my tablet in bed. I actually managed to write a wee bit of my Wednesday’s journal toot, but not enough to finish it. After a bit, I tried to read a bit, and hoped that I would be able to doze off. I successfully managed the reading bit, the falling asleep was a bit harder to do.
I woke up a few times, cared for Koa, and when I woke up again, and saw the time, I knew it was time to get up, and start the routine. I had managed a bit more than 6 hours of sleep in total. Not too much, but at least better than the 4½ hours I had earlier this week. I got up, let Koa from the crate, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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#Journal of a tired Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 10/09/2026).
I managed to get a bit of (broken) sleep. And, even though it was the most sleep I had in several days, I spent most of the night still yawning my jaw off. We got up, and started our little routine together. Koa got his food, and went out for his potty business. I took my meds, and got dressed. When Koa and I were ready, we got to the couch.
Koa was chewing enthusiastically on his rawhide chewy, and I saw it getting smaller. After a bit, I was getting worried that it would get too small, and that Koa would try to inhale the whole bit. So, I took away the smaller chewy, which got me some annoyed looks. Until I got to the “doggy cupboard”, and I pulled out a new, big, chewy. Koa got all excited, and I tried to take a little video of his excitement, and then gave the rawhide to the dude. While he was all busy, I opened my laptop, and started to reply an email to my sweet friend.
Because I'd been a bit distracted, I wasn't finished with the email when Koa let me know that he wanted to go out. He'd been gnawing on his chewy, and drank a bit more because of that. So, he was a bit earlier, while I was a bit late. I went for the walk with the dude, and finished my email after that.
After some brekkie, I used my phone to create today's blog post. When it was done and scheduled, I was able to finally get working on Tuesday journal Toot. I hate that I'm running behind, as I feel this puts too much pressure on something that I usually love to do.
When I had finally managed to finish Tuesday's journal, I started the one for Wednesday. I didn't get too far, because Koa wanted to go out for walkies again. When we got back, I had no more spoons available, so I put away the laptop, and hoped that I could write some more on my phone, later that day. Of course, part of me already suspected that I would not be able to do that... Which saddened me a bit. I just wanted to get back on track.
After walkies, I was tired. I watched some TV, and then made some food for Koa, and then for myself. I wanted to relax a bit on my bed with my tablet, as the couch was not feeling comfortable at all. But, as Koa and I had just had some food, I decided in a short walk first.
But when we got back, I saw the time, and knew I could not get some relaxing on bed just yet, as bestie would probably be calling soon, while on her way to work. When she called, I put it on the speaker, which made Koa feel like he had to protect me. 😂 He jumped on the couch, stood over me, and looked at the phone like it was a major threat to me. Silly pupper!
After the call ended, Koa and I had another short walk. And then, we went to the bedroom, where I watched a series and texted a Dr for a bit. I really wanted to rest, but my brain kept being so active, that it was hard to let my body be at ease. When I finally got a bit better... You guessed it! Koa had enough of the relaxing, and he was eager to get a bit of action. So, I got up again, and tried to walk a bit further with him this time.
We got back, I gave Koa a snack, and I tried to clean up a bit. Koa was still a bit restless, so I took him outside, and we played a wee bit with the ball. I am sure that Koa would have preferred to play with the water hose. But, after all the rain, it seemed like a waste of water. And, to be honest, I did not have the energy to have some water fun with the dude. Which made me feel bad, and I really hoped that he would be grateful for a bit of ball-time instead.
After a few minutes, I had to go to the loo. I thought the dude would be OK with his ball for a few minutes. But yeah, I was wrong… When I came back, Koa was lying on the grass, looking mighty proud of himself, with one of the pins that holds the grass in his mouth! I was afraid that he’d hurt himself, as the endings were rather sharp. So I was glad that, with a bit of effort, I was able to retrieve the pin. The door to the garden was still open, which I didn’t think about too much. Until I realized my mistake… And needed to retrieve another pin from the pup’s teeth. All the effort it took bestie to get the pins in, and Koa keeps pulling them out like it's nothing… Ugh… When I got the second pin from Koa’s mouth, I made sure the door to the garden was closed, and Koa was inside with me.
I managed to watch a bit more telly. Made Koa his food. And, after a while, my body was so sore, that I got things ready to watch some series on my tablet in bed. I actually managed to write a wee bit of my Wednesday’s journal toot, but not enough to finish it. After a bit, I tried to read a bit, and hoped that I would be able to doze off. I successfully managed the reading bit, the falling asleep was a bit harder to do.
I woke up a few times, cared for Koa, and when I woke up again, and saw the time, I knew it was time to get up, and start the routine. I had managed a bit more than 6 hours of sleep in total. Not too much, but at least better than the 4½ hours I had earlier this week. I got up, let Koa from the crate, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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#Journal of a tired Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 10/09/2026).
I managed to get a bit of (broken) sleep. And, even though it was the most sleep I had in several days, I spent most of the night still yawning my jaw off. We got up, and started our little routine together. Koa got his food, and went out for his potty business. I took my meds, and got dressed. When Koa and I were ready, we got to the couch.
Koa was chewing enthusiastically on his rawhide chewy, and I saw it getting smaller. After a bit, I was getting worried that it would get too small, and that Koa would try to inhale the whole bit. So, I took away the smaller chewy, which got me some annoyed looks. Until I got to the “doggy cupboard”, and I pulled out a new, big, chewy. Koa got all excited, and I tried to take a little video of his excitement, and then gave the rawhide to the dude. While he was all busy, I opened my laptop, and started to reply an email to my sweet friend.
Because I'd been a bit distracted, I wasn't finished with the email when Koa let me know that he wanted to go out. He'd been gnawing on his chewy, and drank a bit more because of that. So, he was a bit earlier, while I was a bit late. I went for the walk with the dude, and finished my email after that.
After some brekkie, I used my phone to create today's blog post. When it was done and scheduled, I was able to finally get working on Tuesday journal Toot. I hate that I'm running behind, as I feel this puts too much pressure on something that I usually love to do.
When I had finally managed to finish Tuesday's journal, I started the one for Wednesday. I didn't get too far, because Koa wanted to go out for walkies again. When we got back, I had no more spoons available, so I put away the laptop, and hoped that I could write some more on my phone, later that day. Of course, part of me already suspected that I would not be able to do that... Which saddened me a bit. I just wanted to get back on track.
After walkies, I was tired. I watched some TV, and then made some food for Koa, and then for myself. I wanted to relax a bit on my bed with my tablet, as the couch was not feeling comfortable at all. But, as Koa and I had just had some food, I decided in a short walk first.
But when we got back, I saw the time, and knew I could not get some relaxing on bed just yet, as bestie would probably be calling soon, while on her way to work. When she called, I put it on the speaker, which made Koa feel like he had to protect me. 😂 He jumped on the couch, stood over me, and looked at the phone like it was a major threat to me. Silly pupper!
After the call ended, Koa and I had another short walk. And then, we went to the bedroom, where I watched a series and texted a Dr for a bit. I really wanted to rest, but my brain kept being so active, that it was hard to let my body be at ease. When I finally got a bit better... You guessed it! Koa had enough of the relaxing, and he was eager to get a bit of action. So, I got up again, and tried to walk a bit further with him this time.
We got back, I gave Koa a snack, and I tried to clean up a bit. Koa was still a bit restless, so I took him outside, and we played a wee bit with the ball. I am sure that Koa would have preferred to play with the water hose. But, after all the rain, it seemed like a waste of water. And, to be honest, I did not have the energy to have some water fun with the dude. Which made me feel bad, and I really hoped that he would be grateful for a bit of ball-time instead.
After a few minutes, I had to go to the loo. I thought the dude would be OK with his ball for a few minutes. But yeah, I was wrong… When I came back, Koa was lying on the grass, looking mighty proud of himself, with one of the pins that holds the grass in his mouth! I was afraid that he’d hurt himself, as the endings were rather sharp. So I was glad that, with a bit of effort, I was able to retrieve the pin. The door to the garden was still open, which I didn’t think about too much. Until I realized my mistake… And needed to retrieve another pin from the pup’s teeth. All the effort it took bestie to get the pins in, and Koa keeps pulling them out like it's nothing… Ugh… When I got the second pin from Koa’s mouth, I made sure the door to the garden was closed, and Koa was inside with me.
I managed to watch a bit more telly. Made Koa his food. And, after a while, my body was so sore, that I got things ready to watch some series on my tablet in bed. I actually managed to write a wee bit of my Wednesday’s journal toot, but not enough to finish it. After a bit, I tried to read a bit, and hoped that I would be able to doze off. I successfully managed the reading bit, the falling asleep was a bit harder to do.
I woke up a few times, cared for Koa, and when I woke up again, and saw the time, I knew it was time to get up, and start the routine. I had managed a bit more than 6 hours of sleep in total. Not too much, but at least better than the 4½ hours I had earlier this week. I got up, let Koa from the crate, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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#Journal of a tired Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 10/09/2026).
I managed to get a bit of (broken) sleep. And, even though it was the most sleep I had in several days, I spent most of the night still yawning my jaw off. We got up, and started our little routine together. Koa got his food, and went out for his potty business. I took my meds, and got dressed. When Koa and I were ready, we got to the couch.
Koa was chewing enthusiastically on his rawhide chewy, and I saw it getting smaller. After a bit, I was getting worried that it would get too small, and that Koa would try to inhale the whole bit. So, I took away the smaller chewy, which got me some annoyed looks. Until I got to the “doggy cupboard”, and I pulled out a new, big, chewy. Koa got all excited, and I tried to take a little video of his excitement, and then gave the rawhide to the dude. While he was all busy, I opened my laptop, and started to reply an email to my sweet friend.
Because I'd been a bit distracted, I wasn't finished with the email when Koa let me know that he wanted to go out. He'd been gnawing on his chewy, and drank a bit more because of that. So, he was a bit earlier, while I was a bit late. I went for the walk with the dude, and finished my email after that.
After some brekkie, I used my phone to create today's blog post. When it was done and scheduled, I was able to finally get working on Tuesday journal Toot. I hate that I'm running behind, as I feel this puts too much pressure on something that I usually love to do.
When I had finally managed to finish Tuesday's journal, I started the one for Wednesday. I didn't get too far, because Koa wanted to go out for walkies again. When we got back, I had no more spoons available, so I put away the laptop, and hoped that I could write some more on my phone, later that day. Of course, part of me already suspected that I would not be able to do that... Which saddened me a bit. I just wanted to get back on track.
After walkies, I was tired. I watched some TV, and then made some food for Koa, and then for myself. I wanted to relax a bit on my bed with my tablet, as the couch was not feeling comfortable at all. But, as Koa and I had just had some food, I decided in a short walk first.
But when we got back, I saw the time, and knew I could not get some relaxing on bed just yet, as bestie would probably be calling soon, while on her way to work. When she called, I put it on the speaker, which made Koa feel like he had to protect me. 😂 He jumped on the couch, stood over me, and looked at the phone like it was a major threat to me. Silly pupper!
After the call ended, Koa and I had another short walk. And then, we went to the bedroom, where I watched a series and texted a Dr for a bit. I really wanted to rest, but my brain kept being so active, that it was hard to let my body be at ease. When I finally got a bit better... You guessed it! Koa had enough of the relaxing, and he was eager to get a bit of action. So, I got up again, and tried to walk a bit further with him this time.
We got back, I gave Koa a snack, and I tried to clean up a bit. Koa was still a bit restless, so I took him outside, and we played a wee bit with the ball. I am sure that Koa would have preferred to play with the water hose. But, after all the rain, it seemed like a waste of water. And, to be honest, I did not have the energy to have some water fun with the dude. Which made me feel bad, and I really hoped that he would be grateful for a bit of ball-time instead.
After a few minutes, I had to go to the loo. I thought the dude would be OK with his ball for a few minutes. But yeah, I was wrong… When I came back, Koa was lying on the grass, looking mighty proud of himself, with one of the pins that holds the grass in his mouth! I was afraid that he’d hurt himself, as the endings were rather sharp. So I was glad that, with a bit of effort, I was able to retrieve the pin. The door to the garden was still open, which I didn’t think about too much. Until I realized my mistake… And needed to retrieve another pin from the pup’s teeth. All the effort it took bestie to get the pins in, and Koa keeps pulling them out like it's nothing… Ugh… When I got the second pin from Koa’s mouth, I made sure the door to the garden was closed, and Koa was inside with me.
I managed to watch a bit more telly. Made Koa his food. And, after a while, my body was so sore, that I got things ready to watch some series on my tablet in bed. I actually managed to write a wee bit of my Wednesday’s journal toot, but not enough to finish it. After a bit, I tried to read a bit, and hoped that I would be able to doze off. I successfully managed the reading bit, the falling asleep was a bit harder to do.
I woke up a few times, cared for Koa, and when I woke up again, and saw the time, I knew it was time to get up, and start the routine. I had managed a bit more than 6 hours of sleep in total. Not too much, but at least better than the 4½ hours I had earlier this week. I got up, let Koa from the crate, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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#Journal of a tired Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Thursday, 10/09/2026).
I managed to get a bit of (broken) sleep. And, even though it was the most sleep I had in several days, I spent most of the night still yawning my jaw off. We got up, and started our little routine together. Koa got his food, and went out for his potty business. I took my meds, and got dressed. When Koa and I were ready, we got to the couch.
Koa was chewing enthusiastically on his rawhide chewy, and I saw it getting smaller. After a bit, I was getting worried that it would get too small, and that Koa would try to inhale the whole bit. So, I took away the smaller chewy, which got me some annoyed looks. Until I got to the “doggy cupboard”, and I pulled out a new, big, chewy. Koa got all excited, and I tried to take a little video of his excitement, and then gave the rawhide to the dude. While he was all busy, I opened my laptop, and started to reply an email to my sweet friend.
Because I'd been a bit distracted, I wasn't finished with the email when Koa let me know that he wanted to go out. He'd been gnawing on his chewy, and drank a bit more because of that. So, he was a bit earlier, while I was a bit late. I went for the walk with the dude, and finished my email after that.
After some brekkie, I used my phone to create today's blog post. When it was done and scheduled, I was able to finally get working on Tuesday journal Toot. I hate that I'm running behind, as I feel this puts too much pressure on something that I usually love to do.
When I had finally managed to finish Tuesday's journal, I started the one for Wednesday. I didn't get too far, because Koa wanted to go out for walkies again. When we got back, I had no more spoons available, so I put away the laptop, and hoped that I could write some more on my phone, later that day. Of course, part of me already suspected that I would not be able to do that... Which saddened me a bit. I just wanted to get back on track.
After walkies, I was tired. I watched some TV, and then made some food for Koa, and then for myself. I wanted to relax a bit on my bed with my tablet, as the couch was not feeling comfortable at all. But, as Koa and I had just had some food, I decided in a short walk first.
But when we got back, I saw the time, and knew I could not get some relaxing on bed just yet, as bestie would probably be calling soon, while on her way to work. When she called, I put it on the speaker, which made Koa feel like he had to protect me. 😂 He jumped on the couch, stood over me, and looked at the phone like it was a major threat to me. Silly pupper!
After the call ended, Koa and I had another short walk. And then, we went to the bedroom, where I watched a series and texted a Dr for a bit. I really wanted to rest, but my brain kept being so active, that it was hard to let my body be at ease. When I finally got a bit better... You guessed it! Koa had enough of the relaxing, and he was eager to get a bit of action. So, I got up again, and tried to walk a bit further with him this time.
We got back, I gave Koa a snack, and I tried to clean up a bit. Koa was still a bit restless, so I took him outside, and we played a wee bit with the ball. I am sure that Koa would have preferred to play with the water hose. But, after all the rain, it seemed like a waste of water. And, to be honest, I did not have the energy to have some water fun with the dude. Which made me feel bad, and I really hoped that he would be grateful for a bit of ball-time instead.
After a few minutes, I had to go to the loo. I thought the dude would be OK with his ball for a few minutes. But yeah, I was wrong… When I came back, Koa was lying on the grass, looking mighty proud of himself, with one of the pins that holds the grass in his mouth! I was afraid that he’d hurt himself, as the endings were rather sharp. So I was glad that, with a bit of effort, I was able to retrieve the pin. The door to the garden was still open, which I didn’t think about too much. Until I realized my mistake… And needed to retrieve another pin from the pup’s teeth. All the effort it took bestie to get the pins in, and Koa keeps pulling them out like it's nothing… Ugh… When I got the second pin from Koa’s mouth, I made sure the door to the garden was closed, and Koa was inside with me.
I managed to watch a bit more telly. Made Koa his food. And, after a while, my body was so sore, that I got things ready to watch some series on my tablet in bed. I actually managed to write a wee bit of my Wednesday’s journal toot, but not enough to finish it. After a bit, I tried to read a bit, and hoped that I would be able to doze off. I successfully managed the reading bit, the falling asleep was a bit harder to do.
I woke up a few times, cared for Koa, and when I woke up again, and saw the time, I knew it was time to get up, and start the routine. I had managed a bit more than 6 hours of sleep in total. Not too much, but at least better than the 4½ hours I had earlier this week. I got up, let Koa from the crate, and we started our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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Some more silly Koa 🐾
I'm still trying hard to keep up with all of my writing. I'm still struggling to keep up to date with my journal toots, as I seem to keep running behind, without being able to catch up again. I have all these ideas like "I will write a bit later", or "I can finish it when I try to relax before bedtime". And, sometimes I do manage to get some more writing done, but never enough to catch up all the way. And, it feels the same with my blog... I am trying to write a new post every night, so it can be shared that same morning... I am trying not to break the daily posting streak, as I know that I would be very upset by it, and I also know that it would haunt me for some time to come. To break something that I have been working on for over 6 years. An accomplishment that I never thought I could make. And, one that I am rather proud of, even though it's not a really awesome thing for most folks. To me, it means I started something, and I believed in myself, in my abilities, enough to get to a 2.278 posting streak, even to 2.279 when this one comes online. But, it's not always that easy to write meaningful things, and I don't want to turn to posting just for the sake of it. So today, I am sharing a little bit of Koa's silliness, because he's sweet, cute, silly, and adorable. 🐾🩷💜🩵🐾 […]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2026/09/11/some-more-silly-koa-%f0%9f%90%be/
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Some more silly Koa 🐾
I'm still trying hard to keep up with all of my writing. I'm still struggling to keep up to date with my journal toots, as I seem to keep running behind, without being able to catch up again. I have all these ideas like "I will write a bit later", or "I can finish it when I try to relax before bedtime". And, sometimes I do manage to get some more writing done, but never enough to catch up all the way. And, it feels the same with my blog... I am trying to write a new post every night, so it can be shared that same morning... I am trying not to break the daily posting streak, as I know that I would be very upset by it, and I also know that it would haunt me for some time to come. To break something that I have been working on for over 6 years. An accomplishment that I never thought I could make. And, one that I am rather proud of, even though it's not a really awesome thing for most folks. To me, it means I started something, and I believed in myself, in my abilities, enough to get to a 2.278 posting streak, even to 2.279 when this one comes online. But, it's not always that easy to write meaningful things, and I don't want to turn to posting just for the sake of it. So today, I am sharing a little bit of Koa's silliness, because he's sweet, cute, silly, and adorable. 🐾🩷💜🩵🐾 […]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2026/09/11/some-more-silly-koa-%f0%9f%90%be/
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#Journal of a slightly rested Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesday, 09/09/2026).
Another shorter night, with a little over 6 hours of sleep in total, according to my watch. But, I did one thing right, as I tried to anticipate Koa’s needs and wants. I had dozed off for a little bit, and when I woke up again, I went to the loo. After that, I offered Koa some kibble. And when he was done, some water. I took some time to get back to bed, should Koa start to whine, in case he needed to go out. But, he settled down, and we both got a bit of sleep in. I woke up again, and this time, I offered Koa to go out. It was raining, and as he went through the open door, he felt the rain, turned around, gave me a “what the hell” look, before quickly going back inside again. He went to the crate, waited for some kibble, and had a bit to drink. We slept some more, until I woke up again, and saw that it was time to start our “day”.
We started our usual routine, and I felt a bit better, as the bit of sleep had been very welcome. I still didn’t feel fully charged, but, I got a wee bit of sleep at least, which had been much needed. Koa did his things, had his meal, and got to the couch, where his chewy was waiting for him. I had taken my meds, dressed, and got to the couch as well.
My laptop was still on the table, so I opened it, and I started writing a reply email to my sweet friend. I was almost ready with it, when Koa wanted my attention. Somehow, it's like he can see when I'm trying to finish my emails, and then he decides to put some pressure on me to hurry up. I managed to finish, and I put my shoes on. Then, Koa and I went out for a short walk.
When we got back home, I made some food and enjoyed it. After that, I got back to working on my laptop. I managed to write, and finish, my blog post for later that morning. It was about my little dude, as it was 20 weeks ago today, that I took a much tinier version of him to his new home. I had just started working on Monday's journal Toot, as I had not been able to finish it yet.
But, there came a sound, a very familiar one... And, I heard it a few times, and I knew that the dude meant business. Or, to be more precise, the dude wanted to do some of his business. So, I had to obey my young, and demanding 😉, master. So, I put on my jacket, and leashed the dude, and we went out for another short walk.
We got back again, and I wrote some more for my journal Toot. Then, I mixed some meat with kibble, to make sure my dude wouldn't starve to death. After a while, I managed to finish the Toot. Finally... I still needed to write Tuesday's Toot, and I was hoping I would be able to get it done. But first, I needed some food. And I needed to allow my hands to rest a bit.
After a bite, I had just laid down on the couch, when that all to familiar sound could be heard again... 😔 I was a bit annoyed, because it had not even been two hours since our previous walkies. I just wanted, needed, a bit of relaxing. But, it became apparent that I had to take Koa for a short walk first, and then, if I got lucky, I could hopefully get some couch and telly time.
While I finally got my telly time, bestie called me on the way to work. As I answered it on speaker, Koa went a "tiny bit" nuts. He heard someone, but could not see anyone! So, he jumped on the couch, and then over me, like he was trying to protect me from the unseen threat. The doofus is going through his puberty "being more scared" phase, and I figured that this was just a part of that behavior.
When bestie had arrived at work, I wanted to lie down on my bed for a while. I decided to take Koa for another short walk, so he'd hopefully be able to properly relax as well, while I tried to give my body some proper rest. We got back home, and I was able to watch a bit of my series on my tablet, while allowing my body to relax a bit on my bed.
After about 90 minutes, Koa was done with resting, so I had to get up, and take him out for yet another little walk. We got back, and I got a snack for both Koa and myself. After that, I had to put Koa in his crate for a little while, so I could do my best with the little vacuum cleaner. It’s not the best, and it’s quite annoying to clean up afterward, but I am able to wield it with my left hand. And, the dirt that it sucks up, is not on the ground anymore. So it does make a slight positive change. Koa was a bit upset at first, but after some barks, he seemed to settle down until I was done.
I took some time to relax with some telly. The rest of the day was rather “boring”, with just one more walk, some relaxing, and some food. We went to bed, and relaxed a bit first. Then, one more pit-stop in the garden, before we went to bed. It took some time to fall asleep, and I woke up several times. But, in the end, I managed about 7 hours of sleep in total. Which I really needed, even though I was still very groggy when I woke up, and it was time to get up and start our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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#Journal of a slightly rested Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesday, 09/09/2026).
Another shorter night, with a little over 6 hours of sleep in total, according to my watch. But, I did one thing right, as I tried to anticipate Koa’s needs and wants. I had dozed off for a little bit, and when I woke up again, I went to the loo. After that, I offered Koa some kibble. And when he was done, some water. I took some time to get back to bed, should Koa start to whine, in case he needed to go out. But, he settled down, and we both got a bit of sleep in. I woke up again, and this time, I offered Koa to go out. It was raining, and as he went through the open door, he felt the rain, turned around, gave me a “what the hell” look, before quickly going back inside again. He went to the crate, waited for some kibble, and had a bit to drink. We slept some more, until I woke up again, and saw that it was time to start our “day”.
We started our usual routine, and I felt a bit better, as the bit of sleep had been very welcome. I still didn’t feel fully charged, but, I got a wee bit of sleep at least, which had been much needed. Koa did his things, had his meal, and got to the couch, where his chewy was waiting for him. I had taken my meds, dressed, and got to the couch as well.
My laptop was still on the table, so I opened it, and I started writing a reply email to my sweet friend. I was almost ready with it, when Koa wanted my attention. Somehow, it's like he can see when I'm trying to finish my emails, and then he decides to put some pressure on me to hurry up. I managed to finish, and I put my shoes on. Then, Koa and I went out for a short walk.
When we got back home, I made some food and enjoyed it. After that, I got back to working on my laptop. I managed to write, and finish, my blog post for later that morning. It was about my little dude, as it was 20 weeks ago today, that I took a much tinier version of him to his new home. I had just started working on Monday's journal Toot, as I had not been able to finish it yet.
But, there came a sound, a very familiar one... And, I heard it a few times, and I knew that the dude meant business. Or, to be more precise, the dude wanted to do some of his business. So, I had to obey my young, and demanding 😉, master. So, I put on my jacket, and leashed the dude, and we went out for another short walk.
We got back again, and I wrote some more for my journal Toot. Then, I mixed some meat with kibble, to make sure my dude wouldn't starve to death. After a while, I managed to finish the Toot. Finally... I still needed to write Tuesday's Toot, and I was hoping I would be able to get it done. But first, I needed some food. And I needed to allow my hands to rest a bit.
After a bite, I had just laid down on the couch, when that all to familiar sound could be heard again... 😔 I was a bit annoyed, because it had not even been two hours since our previous walkies. I just wanted, needed, a bit of relaxing. But, it became apparent that I had to take Koa for a short walk first, and then, if I got lucky, I could hopefully get some couch and telly time.
While I finally got my telly time, bestie called me on the way to work. As I answered it on speaker, Koa went a "tiny bit" nuts. He heard someone, but could not see anyone! So, he jumped on the couch, and then over me, like he was trying to protect me from the unseen threat. The doofus is going through his puberty "being more scared" phase, and I figured that this was just a part of that behavior.
When bestie had arrived at work, I wanted to lie down on my bed for a while. I decided to take Koa for another short walk, so he'd hopefully be able to properly relax as well, while I tried to give my body some proper rest. We got back home, and I was able to watch a bit of my series on my tablet, while allowing my body to relax a bit on my bed.
After about 90 minutes, Koa was done with resting, so I had to get up, and take him out for yet another little walk. We got back, and I got a snack for both Koa and myself. After that, I had to put Koa in his crate for a little while, so I could do my best with the little vacuum cleaner. It’s not the best, and it’s quite annoying to clean up afterward, but I am able to wield it with my left hand. And, the dirt that it sucks up, is not on the ground anymore. So it does make a slight positive change. Koa was a bit upset at first, but after some barks, he seemed to settle down until I was done.
I took some time to relax with some telly. The rest of the day was rather “boring”, with just one more walk, some relaxing, and some food. We went to bed, and relaxed a bit first. Then, one more pit-stop in the garden, before we went to bed. It took some time to fall asleep, and I woke up several times. But, in the end, I managed about 7 hours of sleep in total. Which I really needed, even though I was still very groggy when I woke up, and it was time to get up and start our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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#Journal of a slightly rested Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesday, 09/09/2026).
Another shorter night, with a little over 6 hours of sleep in total, according to my watch. But, I did one thing right, as I tried to anticipate Koa’s needs and wants. I had dozed off for a little bit, and when I woke up again, I went to the loo. After that, I offered Koa some kibble. And when he was done, some water. I took some time to get back to bed, should Koa start to whine, in case he needed to go out. But, he settled down, and we both got a bit of sleep in. I woke up again, and this time, I offered Koa to go out. It was raining, and as he went through the open door, he felt the rain, turned around, gave me a “what the hell” look, before quickly going back inside again. He went to the crate, waited for some kibble, and had a bit to drink. We slept some more, until I woke up again, and saw that it was time to start our “day”.
We started our usual routine, and I felt a bit better, as the bit of sleep had been very welcome. I still didn’t feel fully charged, but, I got a wee bit of sleep at least, which had been much needed. Koa did his things, had his meal, and got to the couch, where his chewy was waiting for him. I had taken my meds, dressed, and got to the couch as well.
My laptop was still on the table, so I opened it, and I started writing a reply email to my sweet friend. I was almost ready with it, when Koa wanted my attention. Somehow, it's like he can see when I'm trying to finish my emails, and then he decides to put some pressure on me to hurry up. I managed to finish, and I put my shoes on. Then, Koa and I went out for a short walk.
When we got back home, I made some food and enjoyed it. After that, I got back to working on my laptop. I managed to write, and finish, my blog post for later that morning. It was about my little dude, as it was 20 weeks ago today, that I took a much tinier version of him to his new home. I had just started working on Monday's journal Toot, as I had not been able to finish it yet.
But, there came a sound, a very familiar one... And, I heard it a few times, and I knew that the dude meant business. Or, to be more precise, the dude wanted to do some of his business. So, I had to obey my young, and demanding 😉, master. So, I put on my jacket, and leashed the dude, and we went out for another short walk.
We got back again, and I wrote some more for my journal Toot. Then, I mixed some meat with kibble, to make sure my dude wouldn't starve to death. After a while, I managed to finish the Toot. Finally... I still needed to write Tuesday's Toot, and I was hoping I would be able to get it done. But first, I needed some food. And I needed to allow my hands to rest a bit.
After a bite, I had just laid down on the couch, when that all to familiar sound could be heard again... 😔 I was a bit annoyed, because it had not even been two hours since our previous walkies. I just wanted, needed, a bit of relaxing. But, it became apparent that I had to take Koa for a short walk first, and then, if I got lucky, I could hopefully get some couch and telly time.
While I finally got my telly time, bestie called me on the way to work. As I answered it on speaker, Koa went a "tiny bit" nuts. He heard someone, but could not see anyone! So, he jumped on the couch, and then over me, like he was trying to protect me from the unseen threat. The doofus is going through his puberty "being more scared" phase, and I figured that this was just a part of that behavior.
When bestie had arrived at work, I wanted to lie down on my bed for a while. I decided to take Koa for another short walk, so he'd hopefully be able to properly relax as well, while I tried to give my body some proper rest. We got back home, and I was able to watch a bit of my series on my tablet, while allowing my body to relax a bit on my bed.
After about 90 minutes, Koa was done with resting, so I had to get up, and take him out for yet another little walk. We got back, and I got a snack for both Koa and myself. After that, I had to put Koa in his crate for a little while, so I could do my best with the little vacuum cleaner. It’s not the best, and it’s quite annoying to clean up afterward, but I am able to wield it with my left hand. And, the dirt that it sucks up, is not on the ground anymore. So it does make a slight positive change. Koa was a bit upset at first, but after some barks, he seemed to settle down until I was done.
I took some time to relax with some telly. The rest of the day was rather “boring”, with just one more walk, some relaxing, and some food. We went to bed, and relaxed a bit first. Then, one more pit-stop in the garden, before we went to bed. It took some time to fall asleep, and I woke up several times. But, in the end, I managed about 7 hours of sleep in total. Which I really needed, even though I was still very groggy when I woke up, and it was time to get up and start our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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#Journal of a slightly rested Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesday, 09/09/2026).
Another shorter night, with a little over 6 hours of sleep in total, according to my watch. But, I did one thing right, as I tried to anticipate Koa’s needs and wants. I had dozed off for a little bit, and when I woke up again, I went to the loo. After that, I offered Koa some kibble. And when he was done, some water. I took some time to get back to bed, should Koa start to whine, in case he needed to go out. But, he settled down, and we both got a bit of sleep in. I woke up again, and this time, I offered Koa to go out. It was raining, and as he went through the open door, he felt the rain, turned around, gave me a “what the hell” look, before quickly going back inside again. He went to the crate, waited for some kibble, and had a bit to drink. We slept some more, until I woke up again, and saw that it was time to start our “day”.
We started our usual routine, and I felt a bit better, as the bit of sleep had been very welcome. I still didn’t feel fully charged, but, I got a wee bit of sleep at least, which had been much needed. Koa did his things, had his meal, and got to the couch, where his chewy was waiting for him. I had taken my meds, dressed, and got to the couch as well.
My laptop was still on the table, so I opened it, and I started writing a reply email to my sweet friend. I was almost ready with it, when Koa wanted my attention. Somehow, it's like he can see when I'm trying to finish my emails, and then he decides to put some pressure on me to hurry up. I managed to finish, and I put my shoes on. Then, Koa and I went out for a short walk.
When we got back home, I made some food and enjoyed it. After that, I got back to working on my laptop. I managed to write, and finish, my blog post for later that morning. It was about my little dude, as it was 20 weeks ago today, that I took a much tinier version of him to his new home. I had just started working on Monday's journal Toot, as I had not been able to finish it yet.
But, there came a sound, a very familiar one... And, I heard it a few times, and I knew that the dude meant business. Or, to be more precise, the dude wanted to do some of his business. So, I had to obey my young, and demanding 😉, master. So, I put on my jacket, and leashed the dude, and we went out for another short walk.
We got back again, and I wrote some more for my journal Toot. Then, I mixed some meat with kibble, to make sure my dude wouldn't starve to death. After a while, I managed to finish the Toot. Finally... I still needed to write Tuesday's Toot, and I was hoping I would be able to get it done. But first, I needed some food. And I needed to allow my hands to rest a bit.
After a bite, I had just laid down on the couch, when that all to familiar sound could be heard again... 😔 I was a bit annoyed, because it had not even been two hours since our previous walkies. I just wanted, needed, a bit of relaxing. But, it became apparent that I had to take Koa for a short walk first, and then, if I got lucky, I could hopefully get some couch and telly time.
While I finally got my telly time, bestie called me on the way to work. As I answered it on speaker, Koa went a "tiny bit" nuts. He heard someone, but could not see anyone! So, he jumped on the couch, and then over me, like he was trying to protect me from the unseen threat. The doofus is going through his puberty "being more scared" phase, and I figured that this was just a part of that behavior.
When bestie had arrived at work, I wanted to lie down on my bed for a while. I decided to take Koa for another short walk, so he'd hopefully be able to properly relax as well, while I tried to give my body some proper rest. We got back home, and I was able to watch a bit of my series on my tablet, while allowing my body to relax a bit on my bed.
After about 90 minutes, Koa was done with resting, so I had to get up, and take him out for yet another little walk. We got back, and I got a snack for both Koa and myself. After that, I had to put Koa in his crate for a little while, so I could do my best with the little vacuum cleaner. It’s not the best, and it’s quite annoying to clean up afterward, but I am able to wield it with my left hand. And, the dirt that it sucks up, is not on the ground anymore. So it does make a slight positive change. Koa was a bit upset at first, but after some barks, he seemed to settle down until I was done.
I took some time to relax with some telly. The rest of the day was rather “boring”, with just one more walk, some relaxing, and some food. We went to bed, and relaxed a bit first. Then, one more pit-stop in the garden, before we went to bed. It took some time to fall asleep, and I woke up several times. But, in the end, I managed about 7 hours of sleep in total. Which I really needed, even though I was still very groggy when I woke up, and it was time to get up and start our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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#Journal of a slightly rested Dutch AuDHD Pixy :pixy_party: (Wednesday, 09/09/2026).
Another shorter night, with a little over 6 hours of sleep in total, according to my watch. But, I did one thing right, as I tried to anticipate Koa’s needs and wants. I had dozed off for a little bit, and when I woke up again, I went to the loo. After that, I offered Koa some kibble. And when he was done, some water. I took some time to get back to bed, should Koa start to whine, in case he needed to go out. But, he settled down, and we both got a bit of sleep in. I woke up again, and this time, I offered Koa to go out. It was raining, and as he went through the open door, he felt the rain, turned around, gave me a “what the hell” look, before quickly going back inside again. He went to the crate, waited for some kibble, and had a bit to drink. We slept some more, until I woke up again, and saw that it was time to start our “day”.
We started our usual routine, and I felt a bit better, as the bit of sleep had been very welcome. I still didn’t feel fully charged, but, I got a wee bit of sleep at least, which had been much needed. Koa did his things, had his meal, and got to the couch, where his chewy was waiting for him. I had taken my meds, dressed, and got to the couch as well.
My laptop was still on the table, so I opened it, and I started writing a reply email to my sweet friend. I was almost ready with it, when Koa wanted my attention. Somehow, it's like he can see when I'm trying to finish my emails, and then he decides to put some pressure on me to hurry up. I managed to finish, and I put my shoes on. Then, Koa and I went out for a short walk.
When we got back home, I made some food and enjoyed it. After that, I got back to working on my laptop. I managed to write, and finish, my blog post for later that morning. It was about my little dude, as it was 20 weeks ago today, that I took a much tinier version of him to his new home. I had just started working on Monday's journal Toot, as I had not been able to finish it yet.
But, there came a sound, a very familiar one... And, I heard it a few times, and I knew that the dude meant business. Or, to be more precise, the dude wanted to do some of his business. So, I had to obey my young, and demanding 😉, master. So, I put on my jacket, and leashed the dude, and we went out for another short walk.
We got back again, and I wrote some more for my journal Toot. Then, I mixed some meat with kibble, to make sure my dude wouldn't starve to death. After a while, I managed to finish the Toot. Finally... I still needed to write Tuesday's Toot, and I was hoping I would be able to get it done. But first, I needed some food. And I needed to allow my hands to rest a bit.
After a bite, I had just laid down on the couch, when that all to familiar sound could be heard again... 😔 I was a bit annoyed, because it had not even been two hours since our previous walkies. I just wanted, needed, a bit of relaxing. But, it became apparent that I had to take Koa for a short walk first, and then, if I got lucky, I could hopefully get some couch and telly time.
While I finally got my telly time, bestie called me on the way to work. As I answered it on speaker, Koa went a "tiny bit" nuts. He heard someone, but could not see anyone! So, he jumped on the couch, and then over me, like he was trying to protect me from the unseen threat. The doofus is going through his puberty "being more scared" phase, and I figured that this was just a part of that behavior.
When bestie had arrived at work, I wanted to lie down on my bed for a while. I decided to take Koa for another short walk, so he'd hopefully be able to properly relax as well, while I tried to give my body some proper rest. We got back home, and I was able to watch a bit of my series on my tablet, while allowing my body to relax a bit on my bed.
After about 90 minutes, Koa was done with resting, so I had to get up, and take him out for yet another little walk. We got back, and I got a snack for both Koa and myself. After that, I had to put Koa in his crate for a little while, so I could do my best with the little vacuum cleaner. It’s not the best, and it’s quite annoying to clean up afterward, but I am able to wield it with my left hand. And, the dirt that it sucks up, is not on the ground anymore. So it does make a slight positive change. Koa was a bit upset at first, but after some barks, he seemed to settle down until I was done.
I took some time to relax with some telly. The rest of the day was rather “boring”, with just one more walk, some relaxing, and some food. We went to bed, and relaxed a bit first. Then, one more pit-stop in the garden, before we went to bed. It took some time to fall asleep, and I woke up several times. But, in the end, I managed about 7 hours of sleep in total. Which I really needed, even though I was still very groggy when I woke up, and it was time to get up and start our “day”.
Thanks to all for your kindness and support during my "journey through daily life" :bear_love: I really appreciate it :bear_hugs: as it helps me to keep going on bad/harder days! :bear_nuzzle:
:pixy_party: 💜 🍀 🐾
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It’s getting harder…
...to keep going on... When I made the decision to give the male pup a home, after the second female didn't make it, I knew that it could be a bit more challenging. But, I had raised two galls, albeit with help, so I figured that I had enough experience to be able to raise a dude as well. I guess I didn't realise though, how hard it could be to do it on my own. Of course, I could never have known that the little dude would give be a herniated disc, a few weeks in. And while I was still recovering from that, they offered me an earlier date for my scheduled hand surgery. I weighed the pros and cons, and decided it would be better to get it over with now. But, I didn't know that it would take such a long time, before Koa would be able to sleep through the night... As it's almost September now, and he still wakes me up a few times every night. They're not all about getting a wee done, but still, he keeps waking me up, disturbing the sleep that I so desperately need. And, Koa is dealing with an ear infection in both his ears. Ever since he was a pup, he'd been whining occasionally. Maybe it was because of his ears. But he's still doing it now, as I shared in a previously shared post (Getting a bit desperate…), and I really struggle to deal with it. I worry why he keeps doing it. And, to be honest, at times, it just annoys me greatly... I know I am doing all I can to care for him, and still he keeps whining. So, after the annoyance, I feel some anxiety again, because what if he is doing it out of discomfort or pain? And I am not doing anything to help him with that... […]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2026/08/29/its-getting-harder/
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Insecurities and anxiety…
...enhanced by trauma, grief & shame... The last few months of Arwen's life, she dealt with several health issues. I was so happy for her, when her very nasty ear infections finally were gone. It had taken several months, the poor thing. And I don't know how long she'd been dealing with them before that, as she barely showed any signs. So, as I shared here a little while ago, when Koa got diagnosed with having an ear infection as well, I started getting several traumatic flashbacks. (post can be found here: Painful flashbacks 😢). But all the mistakes I made with Arwen, missing out on such important things concerning her health... Partially due to Arwen doing her very best to hide her pains and discomforts from me, because she wanted to support me, and not have me worrying too much over her 😢 . And partially because I was being too self-centered, too busy with my own health issues that were going on. I still have nightmares, very bad flashbacks, and moments when I just burst out in tears over what happened in early July 2025. And now, while I have started a new part of my journey, together with Koa, these things are haunting me... 😭 […]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2026/08/24/insecurities-and-anxiety/
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Too many worries 😢
I've been pushing myself too hard for too long. Things just seem to go wrong and badly, again and again. Every now and then, something good happens, which offers me some hope. But it never lasts too long, and it's always overshadowed with the next thing going bad... An long as I've had Koa in my life, I've been trying to keep his ears clean. He came to me with quite a bit of earwax, so I figured he was just one of those dogs that would need a cleaning every week. It always was a challenge, he never liked it at all. And, sometimes, he would yelp a bit when I was trying to clean his left ear. As he usually wiggled a lot when I did my best, I figured that his whining was caused by discomfort due to my finger being in his ear as he squirmed too much. […]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2026/08/19/too-many-worries-%f0%9f%98%a2/
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Emotions and worries
As I start writing this, Koa has been with me for about 3½ weeks. We had some ups and downs, but all in all, I think we're not doing too bad. I knew this would take time, and while my AuDHD is eager for "getting back to normal", I know that Koa and I are still working on settling to what our "normal" should look like. My brain is still used to the way things were when Arwen was still in my life. It sometimes forgets that it took time for Arwen and me to settle as well. And, of course, that Arwen was a whole different dog than Koa is... Somehow, I "want" it all to work out well, and all that, and I know I need to allow it the time it needs, which I am certainly inclined to give. But that nagging feeling of my autistic side, longing for some more relaxed and settled routines... Well, it can be a big pain in the big behind 😔. […]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2026/05/22/emotions-and-worries/