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It’s getting harder…

...to keep going on... When I made the decision to give the male pup a home, after the second female didn't make it, I knew that it could be a bit more challenging. But, I had raised two galls, albeit with help, so I figured that I had enough experience to be able to raise a dude as well. I guess I didn't realise though, how hard it could be to do it on my own. Of course, I could never have known that the little dude would give be a herniated disc, a few weeks in. And while I was still recovering from that, they offered me an earlier date for my scheduled hand surgery. I weighed the pros and cons, and decided it would be better to get it over with now. But, I didn't know that it would take such a long time, before Koa would be able to sleep through the night... As it's almost September now, and he still wakes me up a few times every night. They're not all about getting a wee done, but still, he keeps waking me up, disturbing the sleep that I so desperately need. And, Koa is dealing with an ear infection in both his ears. Ever since he was a pup, he'd been whining occasionally. Maybe it was because of his ears. But he's still doing it now, as I shared in a previously shared post (Getting a bit desperate…), and I really struggle to deal with it. I worry why he keeps doing it. And, to be honest, at times, it just annoys me greatly... I know I am doing all I can to care for him, and still he keeps whining. So, after the annoyance, I feel some anxiety again, because what if he is doing it out of discomfort or pain? And I am not doing anything to help him with that... […]

https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2026/08/29/its-getting-harder/