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Seriously, I feel so overwhelmed with everything thats been happening with my life. I feel hopeless.
#sadcat #catphoto #meme #catmeme #mastodon #life #struggles #hopeless #needhelp #mutualaid #kindnessmatters #fediverse #boost4reach
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Seriously, I feel so overwhelmed with everything thats been happening with my life. I feel hopeless.
#sadcat #catphoto #meme #catmeme #mastodon #life #struggles #hopeless #needhelp #mutualaid #kindnessmatters #fediverse #boost4reach
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*screaming inside intensifies* 😢
#memeCoin #catmemes #humor #struggles #mastodon #boost #cyberplacesocial #mutualAidRequest #fediverse #cat
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*screaming inside intensifies* 😢
#memeCoin #catmemes #humor #struggles #mastodon #boost #cyberplacesocial #mutualAidRequest #fediverse #cat
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The Valley of Webhooks: where every engineer's dream of a "quick afternoon project" blossoms into a never-ending saga of #JSON #nightmares and signature verifications. 😅 Apparently, the real truth hides in someone else's #database, living the lavish life of being parsed and bounced around—until your #product, desperately clinging to #relevance, decides it wants a local copy. 🚀✨
https://weli.dev/blog/the-valley-of-webhooks/ #Webhooks #engineering #struggles #challenges #HackerNews #ngated -
The Valley of Webhooks: where every engineer's dream of a "quick afternoon project" blossoms into a never-ending saga of #JSON #nightmares and signature verifications. 😅 Apparently, the real truth hides in someone else's #database, living the lavish life of being parsed and bounced around—until your #product, desperately clinging to #relevance, decides it wants a local copy. 🚀✨
https://weli.dev/blog/the-valley-of-webhooks/ #Webhooks #engineering #struggles #challenges #HackerNews #ngated -
🤡 Ah yes, another tech project goes the way of canned artichoke hearts in the pantry—completely forgotten and slightly embarrassing 🥴. The founder admits it was just a "toy," yet clings to it like it's the last fidget spinner at a 2017 garage sale 🤦♂️.
https://hyperbo.la/w/winding-down-artichoke-ruby/ #techfail #nostalgia #startup #struggles #forgottenprojects #HackerNews #ngated -
🤡 Ah yes, another tech project goes the way of canned artichoke hearts in the pantry—completely forgotten and slightly embarrassing 🥴. The founder admits it was just a "toy," yet clings to it like it's the last fidget spinner at a 2017 garage sale 🤦♂️.
https://hyperbo.la/w/winding-down-artichoke-ruby/ #techfail #nostalgia #startup #struggles #forgottenprojects #HackerNews #ngated -
Do you have a "That Go to food" when ur that so broke? 🫥 I want to know if I am the only one that uses soysauce & oil in a rice. 😣
#fediverse #lifeupdate #struggles #broke #food #help #mastodon
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Do you have a "That Go to food" when ur that so broke? 🫥 I want to know if I am the only one that uses soysauce & oil in a rice. 😣
#fediverse #lifeupdate #struggles #broke #food #help #mastodon
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Why brain, why..?
When your brain can't make up it's mind... When your brain wants things that your body can not accomplish... When you want to deal with positives, and your brain keeps triggering the negatives... It's an exhausting process to deal with, and unfortunately, it's something I've been dealing with for over 14 years. Ever since I started struggling with my, then undiagnosed, fibro... My brain and my body have been struggling to agree upon things for so long now, that you'd think I'd be used to it. You'd think I would have find a way to deal with it, to "go with the flow" and just keep going strong. Well, I wish that I could tell you that this was/is indeed the case. But, you may have guessed it... Nope, unfortunately, it's not... 😢 […] -
Why brain, why..?
When your brain can't make up it's mind... When your brain wants things that your body can not accomplish... When you want to deal with positives, and your brain keeps triggering the negatives... It's an exhausting process to deal with, and unfortunately, it's something I've been dealing with for over 14 years. Ever since I started struggling with my, then undiagnosed, fibro... My brain and my body have been struggling to agree upon things for so long now, that you'd think I'd be used to it. You'd think I would have find a way to deal with it, to "go with the flow" and just keep going strong. Well, I wish that I could tell you that this was/is indeed the case. But, you may have guessed it... Nope, unfortunately, it's not... 😢 […] -
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A beautifully simple Korean phrase said to loved ones having a hard day is bringing people to tears
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A beautifully simple Korean phrase said to loved ones having a hard day is bringing people to tears
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Ah, the beauty of the internet: where theories go to die in the cold, unwelcoming arms of "403 Forbidden." 🌐🚫 Apparently, the only thing uglier than the data is the inability to access it. 🤷♂️ So, here's to another groundbreaking article, brought to you by the ever-reliable nginx error page. 🎉🙄
https://marginalrevolution.com/marginalrevolution/2026/05/a-beautiful-theory-falls-to-ugly-data.html #internetissues #403forbidden #nginxerrors #dataaccess #struggles #HackerNews #ngated -
Ah, the beauty of the internet: where theories go to die in the cold, unwelcoming arms of "403 Forbidden." 🌐🚫 Apparently, the only thing uglier than the data is the inability to access it. 🤷♂️ So, here's to another groundbreaking article, brought to you by the ever-reliable nginx error page. 🎉🙄
https://marginalrevolution.com/marginalrevolution/2026/05/a-beautiful-theory-falls-to-ugly-data.html #internetissues #403forbidden #nginxerrors #dataaccess #struggles #HackerNews #ngated -
Gratefully content
I know I have written about this subject before. I guess that, there are certain periods in my life, where some things happen, and they then make me feel like I do now: grateful. We had a very hot week, my body is sore from my herniated disc, we had to say goodbye to a beloved furry friend, my energy level is so low, that I cried for hours, not knowing how I could go on... And there you have it... I was lying on the couch, watching telly, Koa in his crate with a snack (after he tried to snack on me a bit too often)... And I felt the "need" to share a "Three Good Things" toot on Mastodon. […]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2026/07/15/gratefully-content/
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Gratefully content
I know I have written about this subject before. I guess that, there are certain periods in my life, where some things happen, and they then make me feel like I do now: grateful. We had a very hot week, my body is sore from my herniated disc, we had to say goodbye to a beloved furry friend, my energy level is so low, that I cried for hours, not knowing how I could go on... And there you have it... I was lying on the couch, watching telly, Koa in his crate with a snack (after he tried to snack on me a bit too often)... And I felt the "need" to share a "Three Good Things" toot on Mastodon. […]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2026/07/15/gratefully-content/
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𝙏𝙤 𝙥𝙚𝙤𝙥𝙡𝙚 𝙞𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 #𝙛𝙚𝙙𝙞𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙝𝙚𝙡𝙥𝙚𝙙 𝙢𝙚 𝙨𝙤𝙧𝙩 𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙢𝙮 𝙍𝙚𝙣𝙩 𝘾𝙧𝙞𝙨𝙞𝙨, 𝙁𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙗𝙤𝙩𝙩𝙤𝙢 𝙤𝙛 𝙢𝙮 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙩 💗 𝙄 𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙠 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙨𝙪𝙥𝙥𝙤𝙧𝙩 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙜𝙚𝙣𝙚𝙧𝙤𝙨𝙞𝙩𝙮. 🫶🫂
𝙒𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙝𝙚𝙡𝙥 ( 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝 𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙙𝙞𝙛𝙛𝙞𝙘𝙪𝙡𝙩 & 𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙢𝙪𝙘𝙝 𝙄 𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙪𝙜𝙜𝙡𝙚𝙙 ) 𝙄 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙖𝙗𝙡𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙠𝙚𝙚𝙥 𝙢𝙮 𝙖𝙥𝙖𝙧𝙩𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩 ( 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙢𝙤𝙣𝙩𝙝 )𝙄 𝙘𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙞𝙢𝙖𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙚 𝙗𝙚𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙚𝙫𝙞𝙘𝙩𝙚𝙙 & 𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙙 𝙪𝙥 𝙤𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙚𝙚𝙩.
𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙠 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙜𝙪𝙮𝙨. Hugs to everyone! 💕#mutualaid #community #fediverse #cyberplace #social #mastodon #kindnessmatters #Thankyou #boost4help #tuesday #rent #struggles
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𝙏𝙤 𝙥𝙚𝙤𝙥𝙡𝙚 𝙞𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 #𝙛𝙚𝙙𝙞𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙝𝙚𝙡𝙥𝙚𝙙 𝙢𝙚 𝙨𝙤𝙧𝙩 𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙢𝙮 𝙍𝙚𝙣𝙩 𝘾𝙧𝙞𝙨𝙞𝙨, 𝙁𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙗𝙤𝙩𝙩𝙤𝙢 𝙤𝙛 𝙢𝙮 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙩 💗 𝙄 𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙠 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙨𝙪𝙥𝙥𝙤𝙧𝙩 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙜𝙚𝙣𝙚𝙧𝙤𝙨𝙞𝙩𝙮. 🫶🫂
𝙒𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙝𝙚𝙡𝙥 ( 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝 𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙙𝙞𝙛𝙛𝙞𝙘𝙪𝙡𝙩 & 𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙢𝙪𝙘𝙝 𝙄 𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙪𝙜𝙜𝙡𝙚𝙙 ) 𝙄 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙖𝙗𝙡𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙠𝙚𝙚𝙥 𝙢𝙮 𝙖𝙥𝙖𝙧𝙩𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩 ( 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙢𝙤𝙣𝙩𝙝 )𝙄 𝙘𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙞𝙢𝙖𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙚 𝙗𝙚𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙚𝙫𝙞𝙘𝙩𝙚𝙙 & 𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙙 𝙪𝙥 𝙤𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙚𝙚𝙩.
𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙠 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙜𝙪𝙮𝙨. Hugs to everyone! 💕#mutualaid #community #fediverse #cyberplace #social #mastodon #kindnessmatters #Thankyou #boost4help #tuesday #rent #struggles
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🐢💻🤖 Ah, the riveting saga of HotSpot's #JIT compiler—where shifting #bits magically turns them into... nothing! Because, of course, developers love spending their precious time learning how an 8-bit number's existential crisis can lead to groundbreaking advancements in #digital #futility. 🌪️🌀✨
https://questdb.com/blog/jvm-jit-known-bits/ #HotSpot #compiler #developer #struggles #and #bytes #HackerNews #ngated -
🐢💻🤖 Ah, the riveting saga of HotSpot's #JIT compiler—where shifting #bits magically turns them into... nothing! Because, of course, developers love spending their precious time learning how an 8-bit number's existential crisis can lead to groundbreaking advancements in #digital #futility. 🌪️🌀✨
https://questdb.com/blog/jvm-jit-known-bits/ #HotSpot #compiler #developer #struggles #and #bytes #HackerNews #ngated -
Hrithik used to stammer since childhood, something which proved a major hurdle in his pursuit of becoming an actor. https://english.mathrubhumi.com/movies-music/news/what-doctor-told-hrithik-roshan-about-acting-uoa2psi3?utm_source=dlvr.it&utm_medium=mastodon #HrithikRoshan #Struggles #Childhood #BollywoodStar
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🌐🌏💙💁♀️*Brothers!*& SISTERS!*I do not consider that I have made it my own!*But one thing I do!*forgetting what lies behind!*& straining forward to what lies ahead!*I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus!*ÀMEN!†🤗
Philippians 3: 13-14
#GREAT #LOSS #STRUGGLES #Straining #Toward #the #Goal #for #the #prize #of #the #upward #call #of #God #in #Christ #Jesus #Faith #Holy #Spirit #World #Pray #Love #Believe #Heaven #Hope #Faith #Truth -
🌐🌏💙💁♀️*Brothers!*& SISTERS!*I do not consider that I have made it my own!*But one thing I do!*forgetting what lies behind!*& straining forward to what lies ahead!*I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus!*ÀMEN!†🤗
Philippians 3: 13-14
#GREAT #LOSS #STRUGGLES #Straining #Toward #the #Goal #for #the #prize #of #the #upward #call #of #God #in #Christ #Jesus #Faith #Holy #Spirit #World #Pray #Love #Believe #Heaven #Hope #Faith #Truth -
🌐🌏💙💁♀️*Brothers!*& SISTERS!*I do not consider that I have made it my own!*But one thing I do!*forgetting what lies behind!*& straining forward to what lies ahead!*I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus!*ÀMEN!†🤗
Philippians 3: 13-14
#GREAT #LOSS #STRUGGLES #Straining #Toward #the #Goal #for #the #prize #of #the #upward #call #of #God #in #Christ #Jesus #Faith #Holy #Spirit #World #Pray #Love #Believe #Heaven #Hope #Faith #Truth -
🌐🌏💙💁♀️*Brothers!*& SISTERS!*I do not consider that I have made it my own!*But one thing I do!*forgetting what lies behind!*& straining forward to what lies ahead!*I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus!*ÀMEN!†🤗
Philippians 3: 13-14
#GREAT #LOSS #STRUGGLES #Straining #Toward #the #Goal #for #the #prize #of #the #upward #call #of #God #in #Christ #Jesus #Faith #Holy #Spirit #World #Pray #Love #Believe #Heaven #Hope #Faith #Truth -
🌐🌏💙💁♀️*Brothers!*& SISTERS!*I do not consider that I have made it my own!*But one thing I do!*forgetting what lies behind!*& straining forward to what lies ahead!*I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus!*ÀMEN!†🤗
Philippians 3: 13-14
#GREAT #LOSS #STRUGGLES #Straining #Toward #the #Goal #for #the #prize #of #the #upward #call #of #God #in #Christ #Jesus #Faith #Holy #Spirit #World #Pray #Love #Believe #Heaven #Hope #Faith #Truth -
🌐🌏💚💁🏼♀️[Philippians 3: 13-14]👉
*IN TIMES OF GREAT LOSS*& STRUGGLES!*& Straining Toward the Goal!👉(Ephesians 2:1-10)*& (Philippians 3: 13-14)
#IN #TIMES #OF #GREAT #LOSS #And #STRUGGLES #Straining #Toward #the #Goal #for #the #prize #of #the #upward #call #of #God #in #Christ #Jesus #AMEN #By #Grace #Through #Faith #Holy #Spirit #Friends #World #People #Pray #Love #For #One #Another #Believe #Christian #Heaven #Hope #Peace #Faith #Truth #Goodness #Kindness #Hospitality #Gentleness #Understanding -
🌐🌏💚💁🏼♀️*BELOVED FRIENDS BECAUSE SO MANY PEOPLE ARE STRUGGLING LATELY IN SO MANY DIFFERENT WAYS!*& DEALING WITH GIANT LOSSES!*I AM SHARING THE FOLLOWING VERSE (Philippians 3:13-14) WITH YOU THAT MADE ME WANT TO LIVE WITH PURPOSE WHEN I HAD NONE!*IN HOPES*& PRAYERS THAT IT CAN HELP!*& INSPIRE OTHERS!*AMEN†🤗👉
(Philippians 3: 13-14)
#IN #TIMES #OF #GREAT #LOSS #STRUGGLES #Straining #Toward #the #Goal #upward #of #God #Christ #Jesus #Faith #Holy #Spirit #World #Pray #Love #Believe #Heaven #Hope #Truth -
🌐🌏💚💁🏼♀️*DEAR BELOVED FRIENDS ACROSS THE WORLD BECAUSE SO MANY PEOPLE ARE STRUGGLING LATELY IN SO MANY DIFFERENT WAYS!*& DEALING WITH GIANT LOSSES!*I AM SHARING THE FOLLOWING VERSE (Philippians 3:13-14) WITH YOU ALL THAT MADE ME WANT TO LIVE WITH PURPOSE WHEN I HAD NONE!👉
(Philippians 3: 13-14)
#IN #TIMES #OF #GREAT #LOSS #STRUGGLES #Straining #Toward #the #Goal #upward #of #God #in #Christ #Jesus #AMEN #Holy #Spirit #Brothers #Sisters #World #Pray #Love #Believe #Heaven #Hope #Peace #Faith #Truth -
The life that goes nowhere
Welcome or welcome back reader. Here we are again…. Me and my nonstop yapping about my misery.
I realized something just now. my life is going nowhere. like literally. I was laying on the couch while my guy doing his stupid game developing next me and I was thinking…. “I hope he finish the game someday then it will be my time to shine”… So i said it out loud: “I cant wait when the game is done so you can put this much time and effort to be with me”. his reaction of course “uhum”… and that he want to do something with his life… well no shit Sherlock… I would want too but Im here waiting for you to change, to finally make me feel like a partner, or for maybe get married finally after 5 years… He engaged me 3 times and in the end we never got married and if I bring up the topic of Im being miserable, I dont want to wast more time here waiting, or just he should act more like a partner he shuts me down. the other day midsummer night we was out just driving around, I randomly bring up the topic and his reaction was: ” it was such a nice midsummer why have to ruin it?”… Well Im very sorry that I want to move forward too and not just being in a pause bc you cant decide if you want to be with me or not. It sucks bc I gave up my home and my heritage for this guy… and all I got is this… misery… You can say Im needy or whatever… but I dont think the bare minimum is needy here. I just want to belong, or be treated like I matter, or as a partner, or a person at least. I dont want fancy stuff, but at least sometimes a cuddle? or a proper kiss not just stupid pecks on lips…. maybe something physical??? It sucks….I feel miserable, disgusting and worthless… Im absolutely unmotivated to study his language, to live in his country, or to even stay alive… I dont think thats the right direction, but also…. Im too faithful to go on dating sites or leave bc I seen he can be caring… or at least he faked it well in the beginning. It hurts… I feel scammed and trapped. I have nowhere to go, I have no money to leave bc I try to be useful and give to him all I have, and I have nobody to ask advice from… I wish I met him some other times of my life. When I still had self confidence and knew my self worth… I would have probably already walked away then…. But now … He knows I cant do that so he dont even care about this relationship. I used to write journal, and already 4 years go I was writing about how unhappy I am with him… Even showed it to him… but no reaction. always just the promises of yes yes I will do better… or shut me down. Recently I noticed that I not even act myself anymore. I noticed that showing a slight of personality just made me feel uncomfortable bc of his reactions, so I shut myself down. COMPLETELY! Im an empty sad shell waiting to live again… and I fill the emptiness with anxiety, fear, sadness and unnecessary amount of snacks so at least I keep gaining weight too… thats it… thats me.
Alright he came in to the studio and gave a short shoulder massage bc my back is so messed up from stress. yes Im stupid enough to take this as something awesome and kind feel like I forgive all the misery… but still It will be gone soon so I will be back sinking in my life that goes nowhere…
#blog #diary #finlsnd #happiness #help #helpme #life #love #mentalHealth #misery #relationship #saveme #struggles #suomi #writing -
The life that goes nowhere
Welcome or welcome back reader. Here we are again…. Me and my nonstop yapping about my misery.
I realized something just now. my life is going nowhere. like literally. I was laying on the couch while my guy doing his stupid game developing next me and I was thinking…. “I hope he finish the game someday then it will be my time to shine”… So i said it out loud: “I cant wait when the game is done so you can put this much time and effort to be with me”. his reaction of course “uhum”… and that he want to do something with his life… well no shit Sherlock… I would want too but Im here waiting for you to change, to finally make me feel like a partner, or for maybe get married finally after 5 years… He engaged me 3 times and in the end we never got married and if I bring up the topic of Im being miserable, I dont want to wast more time here waiting, or just he should act more like a partner he shuts me down. the other day midsummer night we was out just driving around, I randomly bring up the topic and his reaction was: ” it was such a nice midsummer why have to ruin it?”… Well Im very sorry that I want to move forward too and not just being in a pause bc you cant decide if you want to be with me or not. It sucks bc I gave up my home and my heritage for this guy… and all I got is this… misery… You can say Im needy or whatever… but I dont think the bare minimum is needy here. I just want to belong, or be treated like I matter, or as a partner, or a person at least. I dont want fancy stuff, but at least sometimes a cuddle? or a proper kiss not just stupid pecks on lips…. maybe something physical??? It sucks….I feel miserable, disgusting and worthless… Im absolutely unmotivated to study his language, to live in his country, or to even stay alive… I dont think thats the right direction, but also…. Im too faithful to go on dating sites or leave bc I seen he can be caring… or at least he faked it well in the beginning. It hurts… I feel scammed and trapped. I have nowhere to go, I have no money to leave bc I try to be useful and give to him all I have, and I have nobody to ask advice from… I wish I met him some other times of my life. When I still had self confidence and knew my self worth… I would have probably already walked away then…. But now … He knows I cant do that so he dont even care about this relationship. I used to write journal, and already 4 years go I was writing about how unhappy I am with him… Even showed it to him… but no reaction. always just the promises of yes yes I will do better… or shut me down. Recently I noticed that I not even act myself anymore. I noticed that showing a slight of personality just made me feel uncomfortable bc of his reactions, so I shut myself down. COMPLETELY! Im an empty sad shell waiting to live again… and I fill the emptiness with anxiety, fear, sadness and unnecessary amount of snacks so at least I keep gaining weight too… thats it… thats me.
Alright he came in to the studio and gave a short shoulder massage bc my back is so messed up from stress. yes Im stupid enough to take this as something awesome and kind feel like I forgive all the misery… but still It will be gone soon so I will be back sinking in my life that goes nowhere…
#blog #diary #finlsnd #happiness #help #helpme #life #love #mentalHealth #misery #relationship #saveme #struggles #suomi #writing -
Babbling… 🤯
Lately, my brain has been in an overdrive. Struggling to find a working routine with my young little dude. Missing out on things that usually help me to cope, like visiting the gym. Missing out on decent nights where I can get come good quality sleep. Worrying if I am doing things right when it comes to raising Koa. Struggling with a lack of spoons, well, a lack of any type of cutlery, to be honest. Dealing with more physical pain. Partially due to the teeth of my little dude... Partially due to the stress, the lack of a proper routine that can help me relax at times... My brain has been trying to compensate for all the changes, for all the discomforts, for the lack of spoons... I have been dealing with feelings of loneliness. I have been searching for any type of connection, to be seen, to be acknowledged. And somehow, my brain keeps thinking of new things to write about, to share, to deal with. I keep starting to write things, and then, after a little while, I think of something new that I need to write about instead. It's my ADHD going all 💯 in! But... How can I keep this up, and, even more important, how can I can get my brain back to its more "normal" levels? […]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2026/06/20/babbling-%f0%9f%a4%af/
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Babbling… 🤯
Lately, my brain has been in an overdrive. Struggling to find a working routine with my young little dude. Missing out on things that usually help me to cope, like visiting the gym. Missing out on decent nights where I can get come good quality sleep. Worrying if I am doing things right when it comes to raising Koa. Struggling with a lack of spoons, well, a lack of any type of cutlery, to be honest. Dealing with more physical pain. Partially due to the teeth of my little dude... Partially due to the stress, the lack of a proper routine that can help me relax at times... My brain has been trying to compensate for all the changes, for all the discomforts, for the lack of spoons... I have been dealing with feelings of loneliness. I have been searching for any type of connection, to be seen, to be acknowledged. And somehow, my brain keeps thinking of new things to write about, to share, to deal with. I keep starting to write things, and then, after a little while, I think of something new that I need to write about instead. It's my ADHD going all 💯 in! But... How can I keep this up, and, even more important, how can I can get my brain back to its more "normal" levels? […]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2026/06/20/babbling-%f0%9f%a4%af/
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Ah, the classic tale of a wannabe coder who just discovered that CPUs aren't magic wands that turn #spaghetti #code into lightning-fast algorithms. 🧙♂️✨ Maybe next time, read a book on #memory #hierarchy before blaming the poor #CPU for your abysmal #programming #skills. 📚🤦♂️
https://prawns.dev/blogs/memory-wall #coding #struggles #HackerNews #ngated -
Ah, the classic tale of a wannabe coder who just discovered that CPUs aren't magic wands that turn #spaghetti #code into lightning-fast algorithms. 🧙♂️✨ Maybe next time, read a book on #memory #hierarchy before blaming the poor #CPU for your abysmal #programming #skills. 📚🤦♂️
https://prawns.dev/blogs/memory-wall #coding #struggles #HackerNews #ngated -
🍿 Oh look, another list of "deep" #programming musings to make you feel smart while you struggle with your latest bug! 🙄 Because who doesn't love the old "one man's constant" chestnut when they're knee-deep in #spaghetti #code 🍝? Remember folks, sprinkle some #syntactic #sugar on your code and watch as your semicolons self-destruct! 💥
https://www.cs.yale.edu/homes/perlis-alan/quotes.html #humor #coding #struggles #developer #life #HackerNews #ngated -
🍿 Oh look, another list of "deep" #programming musings to make you feel smart while you struggle with your latest bug! 🙄 Because who doesn't love the old "one man's constant" chestnut when they're knee-deep in #spaghetti #code 🍝? Remember folks, sprinkle some #syntactic #sugar on your code and watch as your semicolons self-destruct! 💥
https://www.cs.yale.edu/homes/perlis-alan/quotes.html #humor #coding #struggles #developer #life #HackerNews #ngated -
US luxury label Chrome Hearts struggles to meet Japan demand
Consumer Popularity drives secondhand prices up threefold over three years Chrome Hearts was a brand beloved of men aged over 40. Now the U.S. label is winning younger fans, both male and female. (Photo by Tokuyuki Matsubuchi) TOKYO — Chrome Hearts, an A…
#Japan #JP #JapanNews #chrome #demand #hearts #Label #luxury #meet #news #struggles #us
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https://www.alojapan.com/1498303/us-luxury-label-chrome-hearts-struggles-to-meet-japan-demand/ US luxury label Chrome Hearts struggles to meet Japan demand #chrome #demand #hearts #Japan #JapanNews #Label #luxury #meet #news #struggles #us Consumer Popularity drives secondhand prices up threefold over three years Chrome Hearts was a brand beloved of men aged over 40. Now the U.S. label is winning younger fans, both male and female. (Photo by Tokuyuki Matsubuchi) TOKYO — Chrome Hearts, an American luxury lifestyle and accessories brand
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“In that moment, I felt differently to myself yet the essence of who I really was.Like a perfect state of balance.”
― Tim Relf#Bot #Quote #Balance #Different #Emotions #Essence #Feeling #Lost #PerfectionAndConfusion #Self #Struggles #Truth #WhoIAm
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The day I hated
Hi reader.
I just had a horrible day today. This internship start to feel more like a torture. Even there is couple nice person… I hate it with passion. There is people who still not willing to even say good morning or hi in the morning, and of course the eye rolling people who just see me and they know I will ask them if there is any kind of job to do so they already make this pissed ass face from the distance just to make sure you hate to go and ask. Then there is the “oh u here” people who already watching you but act like they not… just to act like oh yey u here but secretly they wish you was not around. And the new random person who literally take the work off of your hand. Like wtf bro… not cool. Anyway… they just make sure you feel as an outsider and an unwanted person around because of the lack of language skills. Doesn’t matter that you are a hardworking person who just want to prove their worth and survive until the end so you can finish your language course… in the end you will feel miserable and time flies painfully slow. The worst is that I feel like I have to say sorry for my existence, or for being there, for moving to their country and trying to do my best… and that shit sting… that opens deep cuts deep inside me. So I am on my mission to get a new internship place for the leftover 3 weeks. I even contacted my teacher and asked his opinion about the situation. It sucks because this place was a dream of mine. I love this shop and I have the skills for this job. Yes I know my language sucks but I not even try to speak it honestly after I feel judged and worthless. Im sad… all I wanted is to prove that I am a person who not give up but if I think about going there another 3 weeks… I wish I could just jump under a train. What a mess… sometimes it really feels like a punishment to be a foreigner in finland.
Funny tho that finland and finnish people in general all try to act like accepting and welcoming and absolutely pc n shit. But when they could prove it they fail you. I dont ask to be special, or loved by everyone… but please if I try to do my best to finish my school… at least dont shit to my mouth and make me lose all my studies and support just because u hate my guts or you hate me because I not speak your language fluently, or bc Im just me. After all Im an unpaid intern who try to survive in a new country… Im not taking your job, Im not taking your money, not taking your life…. I JUST TRY TO SURVIVE!
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Emotions and worries
As I start writing this, Koa has been with me for about 3½ weeks. We had some ups and downs, but all in all, I think we're not doing too bad. I knew this would take time, and while my AuDHD is eager for "getting back to normal", I know that Koa and I are still working on settling to what our "normal" should look like. My brain is still used to the way things were when Arwen was still in my life. It sometimes forgets that it took time for Arwen and me to settle as well. And, of course, that Arwen was a whole different dog than Koa is... Somehow, I "want" it all to work out well, and all that, and I know I need to allow it the time it needs, which I am certainly inclined to give. But that nagging feeling of my autistic side, longing for some more relaxed and settled routines... Well, it can be a big pain in the big behind 😔. […]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2026/05/22/emotions-and-worries/
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🎉 Wow, #Samsung workers swimming in cash 💸 while #readers swim through #CAPTCHA hell to read about it. 🤖 #AI may be boosting #profits, but good luck getting past the #digital bouncer at qz.com! 🚫✨
https://qz.com/samsung-chip-workers-bonus-ai-profits-052126 #struggles #access #HackerNews #ngated -
She Who Breathes With the City: The Woman in Detroit’s Veins
Her spine bends like rebar beneath the bones of forgotten factories, her heartbeat humming through cracked pavement, river water, neon haze, and midnight tires. She feels every soul still chasing something through these sleepless streets. Detroit knows ruin intimately. So does she. Click 🔗 link to read on. -
🚀 Oh, look! Another #revolutionary revelation! #Programming is still the pits! 🎉 Grab your party hat, because here comes the mind-blowing news: people with "Real Jobs" still don't get what coders do, and #AI is everyone's favorite boogeyman. 🎈 Who knew?
https://www.stvn.sh/writing/programming-still-sucks-fqffhyp #revelation #struggles #misconceptions #tech #humor #HackerNews #ngated -
there is no better #music to do #dishwasher #work and other #struggles #stratovarious of course bought the #album get your copy here https://napalmrecords.com/english/stratovarius-survive-cd.html https://www.jpc.de/jpcng/poprock/detail/-/art/stratovarius-survive/hnum/10965320
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Where Pain Learns to Breathe: And Still, I Do
I cherish what is good— those fragile, golden fragments of ease— but I dread what is required: the procedures, the waiting, the quiet endurance of pain. Still, it humbles me. It teaches me to love as if each day is a final draft, as if time itself is borrowed…https://kandiblaze.wordpress.com/2026/04/29/where-pain-learns-to-breathe-and-still-i-do/
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🤖🚀 Oooh, look at #GitHub, finally figuring out how to make #AI #review #code while burning through your precious #GitHub #Actions minutes. Genius, right? 🙄 Just what developers needed—another way to waste their #time and resources! ⏳💸
https://github.blog/changelog/2026-04-27-github-copilot-code-review-will-start-consuming-github-actions-minutes-on-june-1-2026/ #Developer #Struggles #Wastage #HackerNews #ngated -
Composition Shouldn't be this Hard
https://www.cambra.dev/blog/announcement/
#HackerNews #Composition #Hard #Writing #Struggles #Cambra #Blog #Announcement
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CEOs claim #AI is revolutionizing their companies, but 90% are still stuck trying to enable #JavaScript. 🤖💻 Meanwhile, the other 10% are too busy polishing their PR statements to notice the tech isn't working. 🙈📢
https://businessasusual.io/p/ninety-percent-of-ceos-say-ai-changed #Revolution #Struggles #TechIndustry #PRFocus #HackerNews #ngated -
It feels like a step back…
...but could it actually be a step forward instead? I've had several (hip) surgeries since my first one happened in August 1997. Two triple osteotomy surgeries, issues with a huge abcess, issues with a screw in my pelvis, a new hip, a replacement of that hip, issues with the replacement... So, unfortunately, I've been through the mill a lot. And, maybe, it made me a bit cocky when it came to, or when it comes to, dealing with recovery and rehabilitation. I've done it so many times before, so how hard could it be to do it again? 🤔 Right? […]https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2026/04/11/it-feels-like-a-step-back/