#selfhate — Public Fediverse posts

Beautiful? Adorable? This flesh prison that I’ve come to hate, that’s attractive to you? My body can’t even work right; it sabotages me with pain and horrible feelings in my brain. Crooked spine, struggling organs, I want to get a new one please! I wasn’t built right. The numbers don’t make sense, I can’t focus even on the important things. Trouble understanding social queues, embarrassing myself in public. Is that a joke or are you serious? If you don’t explain things in detail to me I’ll struggle to perform. Why are you mad at me? I’m not intending to be rude, I’m asking you for clarification. Too sensitive; criticism feels like a punch to the gut. What’s the point? I take more pills to stay alive. Watching people my own age thrive while I cower in my room. My body makes me feel like a monster that is trying to replicate being a human. It’s not very good at it.

I feel ugly

and unworthy.

#sadposting #genderdysphoria #dysphoria #internalizedfatphobia #mentalillness #selfhate #selfhatred #selfloathing

I feel like an ogre a troll a creature who belongs under a bridge in a cave in a swamp in the dark a big lumbering THING with a giant gut dragging its hairy knuckles across the ground that shakes with every step.

#sadposting #genderdysphoria #dysphoria #internalizedfatphobia #mentalillness #selfhate #selfhatred #selfloathing

I've never been small and I never will be small and I hate it I hate it so much I never wanted this I never wanted to be this I'll never have a body I don't hate even if I ever look feminine in other ways it'll always be undermined and overshadowed by how fucking huge I am.

#sadposting #genderdysphoria #dysphoria #internalizedfatphobia #mentalillness #selfhate #selfhatred #selfloathing

I'm seriously like if two Tolkien elves gave birth to a Tolkien dwarf and it's worse than it sounds because I'd much rather be an elf! Being so stocky and big and broad and thick and hairy all over makes me feel so overwhelmingly dysphoric.

#sadposting #genderdysphoria #dysphoria #internalizedfatphobia #mentalillness #selfhate #selfhatred #selfloathing

Apparently my father once went to a Halloween party in drag and thanks in part to his slender build and long legs he passed and even got hit on but no of course he didn't give me any of those traits just his bad eyesight yayyy. 😑

#sadposting #genderdysphoria #dysphoria #internalizedfatphobia #mentalillness #selfhate #selfhatred #selfloathing

Mom was a leggy blonde with big tits who looked like Meryl Streep but did she give me any of those genes? Nope! Just the ADHD and BPD. 😒 Instead I inherited her dad's Mr. Potatohead body and Charlie Brown head. My father's contribution was equally worthless.

#sadposting #genderdysphoria #dysphoria #internalizedfatphobia #mentalillness #selfhate #selfhatred #selfloathing

Excuse me, #nonbinary, not #bisexual:

If the #ColoradoSprings shooter is actually #nonbinary, that does not make them #liberal. It makes them a victim of #selfhate. #Liberalism does not make one self-hating, #Conservative bullying does that.

If the #ColoradoSprings shooter is actually #bisexual, that does not make them #liberal. It makes them a victim of #selfhate. #Liberalism does not make one self-hating, #Conservative bullying does that.