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I am currently reading Controlling People by Patricia Evans and it is AMAZING.

A bit annoying in the way it is structured, because it starts by just teasing what will be in the book, and talks about things that influence people without explaining what those things are and giving them mysterious names - until near the end of the book, when the questions are answered and terminology gets explained. I'm not quite through, though at 80% and it does seem like she follows through and does give the answers and does explain the terminology.

Anyway, apart from that slight annoyance, the book is just... amazing. It offers a perspective that actually explains why people control others and how they do it and what to do about it. How to escape the spirals of ever-increasing disconnectedness and upset and anxiety and feeling dislodged from yourself and/or reality and retaliating against such attacks only to have the attackers feel like they were attacked and need to retaliate... without resorting to both-side-ism and equating those who at least try to live in the real world with those who make a lifestyle out of "being besides themselves" and trying to live through other people instead by controlling them.

#BookRecommendation #NonFiction #Psychology #Abuse #AbuseSurvivor #AbuseCulture #Cults #cultRecovery #Trauma #TraumaRecovery #DomesticViolence #DomesticAbuse

I am currently reading Controlling People by Patricia Evans and it is AMAZING.

A bit annoying in the way it is structured, because it starts by just teasing what will be in the book, and talks about things that influence people without explaining what those things are and giving them mysterious names - until near the end of the book, when the questions are answered and terminology gets explained. I'm not quite through, though at 80% and it does seem like she follows through and does give the answers and does explain the terminology.

Anyway, apart from that slight annoyance, the book is just... amazing. It offers a perspective that actually explains why people control others and how they do it and what to do about it. How to escape the spirals of ever-increasing disconnectedness and upset and anxiety and feeling dislodged from yourself and/or reality and retaliating against such attacks only to have the attackers feel like they were attacked and need to retaliate... without resorting to both-side-ism and equating those who at least try to live in the real world with those who make a lifestyle out of "being besides themselves" and trying to live through other people instead by controlling them.

#BookRecommendation #NonFiction #Psychology #Abuse #AbuseSurvivor #AbuseCulture #Cults #cultRecovery #Trauma #TraumaRecovery #DomesticViolence #DomesticAbuse

RE: https://cultofshiv.wtf/@EmandEmz/117167942343304167

Please give this as much of a boost as you possibly can as I am heavily relying on making some money through this. Emily and I are currently living off my sick pay as the money I get for her has been paused because her dad is causing problems and lying saying that she lives with him when that is not the case so the money I get for her is now paused while it’s investigated and I may or may not get it back paid back once they are satisfied that she lives with me. He can’t physically abuse me anymore so he is hurting me however he possibly can. https://www.paypal.me/EmmaWilliams166
#mutualaid #transmutualaid #transmutualaidrequest #abusesurvivor

RE: https://cultofshiv.wtf/@EmandEmz/117167942343304167

Please give this as much of a boost as you possibly can as I am heavily relying on making some money through this. Emily and I are currently living off my sick pay as the money I get for her has been paused because her dad is causing problems and lying saying that she lives with him when that is not the case so the money I get for her is now paused while it’s investigated and I may or may not get it back paid back once they are satisfied that she lives with me. He can’t physically abuse me anymore so he is hurting me however he possibly can. https://www.paypal.me/EmmaWilliams166
#mutualaid #transmutualaid #transmutualaidrequest #abusesurvivor

RE: https://cultofshiv.wtf/@EmandEmz/117167942343304167

Please give this as much of a boost as you possibly can as I am heavily relying on making some money through this. Emily and I are currently living off my sick pay as the money I get for her has been paused because her dad is causing problems and lying saying that she lives with him when that is not the case so the money I get for her is now paused while it’s investigated and I may or may not get it back paid back once they are satisfied that she lives with me. He can’t physically abuse me anymore so he is hurting me however he possibly can. https://www.paypal.me/EmmaWilliams166
#mutualaid #transmutualaid #transmutualaidrequest #abusesurvivor

Since nobody will donate to me can someone please join Cash app with my link so I can get $30 for gas? I'm trying to get a job, get a new social security card, birth certificate, and ID. Also need it for going to the food banks. I'm trying to rebuild my life after years of abuse if you can please help at least boost.

My cash app is $neonxdaze
#mutualaid #homeless #abusesurvivor

Get $5 when you send $5+ with Cashapp my code: GBNJGZD. Terms apply.
https://cash.app/refer/GBNJGZD

Since nobody will donate to me can someone please join Cash app with my link so I can get $30 for gas? I'm trying to get a job, get a new social security card, birth certificate, and ID. Also need it for going to the food banks. I'm trying to rebuild my life after years of abuse if you can please help at least boost.

My cash app is $neonxdaze
#mutualaid #homeless #abusesurvivor

Get $5 when you send $5+ with Cashapp my code: GBNJGZD. Terms apply.
https://cash.app/refer/GBNJGZD

Since nobody will donate to me can someone please join Cash app with my link so I can get $30 for gas? I'm trying to get a job, get a new social security card, birth certificate, and ID. Also need it for going to the food banks. I'm trying to rebuild my life after years of abuse if you can please help at least boost.

My cash app is $neonxdaze
#mutualaid #homeless #abusesurvivor

Get $5 when you send $5+ with Cashapp my code: GBNJGZD. Terms apply.
https://cash.app/refer/GBNJGZD

Growing list of those born or died on August 26 in any year

Keke Palmer
https://mastodon.social/@audubonballroon/117153756865075111

#blackwomen black women #blackhistory #whitehistory #abusesurvivor #lgbtq #pmos #lgbtq #blackmastodon

Growing list of those born or died on August 26 in any year

Keke Palmer
https://mastodon.social/@audubonballroon/117153756865075111

#blackwomen black women #blackhistory #whitehistory #abusesurvivor #lgbtq #pmos #lgbtq #blackmastodon

Growing list of those born or died on August 26 in any year

Keke Palmer
https://mastodon.social/@audubonballroon/117153756865075111

#blackwomen black women #blackhistory #whitehistory #abusesurvivor #lgbtq #pmos #lgbtq #blackmastodon

Growing list of those born or died on August 26 in any year

Keke Palmer
https://mastodon.social/@audubonballroon/117153756865075111

#blackwomen black women #blackhistory #whitehistory #abusesurvivor #lgbtq #pmos #lgbtq #blackmastodon

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Actress Joanne Froggatt has said she is "proud" of Downton Abbey for tackling its controversial rape storyline which has prompted complaints to ITV and regulator Ofcom.

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#tv #abusesurvivor

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Actress Joanne Froggatt has said she is "proud" of Downton Abbey for tackling its controversial rape storyline which has prompted complaints to ITV and regulator Ofcom.

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#tv #abusesurvivor

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Actress Joanne Froggatt has said she is "proud" of Downton Abbey for tackling its controversial rape storyline which has prompted complaints to ITV and regulator Ofcom.

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#tv #abusesurvivor

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Actress Joanne Froggatt has said she is "proud" of Downton Abbey for tackling its controversial rape storyline which has prompted complaints to ITV and regulator Ofcom.

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#tv #abusesurvivor

The other thing is... something something Kindergarten

An older blog post I forgot to post about here.

"I didn't feel like a child sneaking around adults' rules to have fun. I felt almost nothing and what I did feel was that I had to do this to make my twin happy."

TW for CoCSA (child-on-child sexual abuse), incest, neglect

https://aurin.mataroa.blog/blog/the-other-thing-is-something-something-kindergarten/

#AurinBlogs #AbuseSurvivor #CoCSA

The other thing is... something something Kindergarten

An older blog post I forgot to post about here.

"I didn't feel like a child sneaking around adults' rules to have fun. I felt almost nothing and what I did feel was that I had to do this to make my twin happy."

TW for CoCSA (child-on-child sexual abuse), incest, neglect

https://aurin.mataroa.blog/blog/the-other-thing-is-something-something-kindergarten/

#AurinBlogs #AbuseSurvivor #CoCSA

Like Stepping Onto A New Land For The First Time

I feel so small, being faced with something so big. Vulnerable, hesitant, questioning.

Today, I stopped loving my abuser.

Now, I have to start a new life. Everything is different; the hidden point that my life revolved around since it started is dethroned.

I have shifted something inside me, brought something in my emotional core into alignment with my belief that exploitation and abuse are not love. That love is a verb and it means reciprocity and mutual respect and creating something together that is bigger than its parts...

https://aurin.mataroa.blog/blog/like-stepping-onto-a-new-land-for-the-first-time/

#AurinBlogs #SelfLove #love #abuse #AbuseSurvivor #healing #recovery #MentalHealth #SelfCare

Like Stepping Onto A New Land For The First Time

I feel so small, being faced with something so big. Vulnerable, hesitant, questioning.

Today, I stopped loving my abuser.

Now, I have to start a new life. Everything is different; the hidden point that my life revolved around since it started is dethroned.

I have shifted something inside me, brought something in my emotional core into alignment with my belief that exploitation and abuse are not love. That love is a verb and it means reciprocity and mutual respect and creating something together that is bigger than its parts...

https://aurin.mataroa.blog/blog/like-stepping-onto-a-new-land-for-the-first-time/

#AurinBlogs #SelfLove #love #abuse #AbuseSurvivor #healing #recovery #MentalHealth #SelfCare

Like Stepping Onto A New Land For The First Time

I feel so small, being faced with something so big. Vulnerable, hesitant, questioning.

Today, I stopped loving my abuser.

Now, I have to start a new life. Everything is different; the hidden point that my life revolved around since it started is dethroned.

I have shifted something inside me, brought something in my emotional core into alignment with my belief that exploitation and abuse are not love. That love is a verb and it means reciprocity and mutual respect and creating something together that is bigger than its parts...

https://aurin.mataroa.blog/blog/like-stepping-onto-a-new-land-for-the-first-time/

#AurinBlogs #SelfLove #love #abuse #AbuseSurvivor #healing #recovery #MentalHealth #SelfCare

Like Stepping Onto A New Land For The First Time

I feel so small, being faced with something so big. Vulnerable, hesitant, questioning.

Today, I stopped loving my abuser.

Now, I have to start a new life. Everything is different; the hidden point that my life revolved around since it started is dethroned.

I have shifted something inside me, brought something in my emotional core into alignment with my belief that exploitation and abuse are not love. That love is a verb and it means reciprocity and mutual respect and creating something together that is bigger than its parts...

https://aurin.mataroa.blog/blog/like-stepping-onto-a-new-land-for-the-first-time/

#AurinBlogs #SelfLove #love #abuse #AbuseSurvivor #healing #recovery #MentalHealth #SelfCare

Nude released in 2017

In 2018, [David] Bellemere was accused by several models of sexual misconduct in an investigation by the Boston Globe. In 2020, ex-model Loulou Robert accused him of rape in her book Zone Grise.

So I rated this documentary at 1

#film #harassment #sexualabuse #abusesurvivor

Nude released in 2017

In 2018, [David] Bellemere was accused by several models of sexual misconduct in an investigation by the Boston Globe. In 2020, ex-model Loulou Robert accused him of rape in her book Zone Grise.

So I rated this documentary at 1

#film #harassment #sexualabuse #abusesurvivor

Nude released in 2017

In 2018, [David] Bellemere was accused by several models of sexual misconduct in an investigation by the Boston Globe. In 2020, ex-model Loulou Robert accused him of rape in her book Zone Grise.

So I rated this documentary at 1

#film #harassment #sexualabuse #abusesurvivor

Nude released in 2017

In 2018, [David] Bellemere was accused by several models of sexual misconduct in an investigation by the Boston Globe. In 2020, ex-model Loulou Robert accused him of rape in her book Zone Grise.

So I rated this documentary at 1

#film #harassment #sexualabuse #abusesurvivor

Making Mistakes

This weeks blog post deals with trauma that came up when I wanted to learn Finnish and realised I couldn't. The abuse-induced fear of making mistakes was holding me back. There's some pretty ugly stuff under this rock, but I turned it over anyway.

TW for child abuse, CSA, incest, sibling abuse.

https://aurin.mataroa.blog/blog/making-mistakes/

#AurinBlogs #ChildhoodTrauma #AbuseSurvivor

Making Mistakes

This weeks blog post deals with trauma that came up when I wanted to learn Finnish and realised I couldn't. The abuse-induced fear of making mistakes was holding me back. There's some pretty ugly stuff under this rock, but I turned it over anyway.

TW for child abuse, CSA, incest, sibling abuse.

https://aurin.mataroa.blog/blog/making-mistakes/

#AurinBlogs #ChildhoodTrauma #AbuseSurvivor

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I have AuDHD - autism and ADHD - and I was raped at the age of 11 (by white men), which breaks my heart. I was looking forward to this weekend,

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#neurodivergent #abusesurvivor #culturalappropriation

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I have AuDHD - autism and ADHD - and I was raped at the age of 11 (by white men), which breaks my heart. I was looking forward to this weekend,

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#neurodivergent #abusesurvivor #culturalappropriation

***TRIGGER WARNING: Sexual assault***

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I have AuDHD - autism and ADHD - and I was raped at the age of 11 (by white men), which breaks my heart. I was looking forward to this weekend,

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#neurodivergent #abusesurvivor #culturalappropriation

***TRIGGER WARNING: Sexual assault***

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I have AuDHD - autism and ADHD - and I was raped at the age of 11 (by white men), which breaks my heart. I was looking forward to this weekend,

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#neurodivergent #abusesurvivor #culturalappropriation

Today I wore a few tees at the gym.

Y commented on my not smiling in class on Saturday. Today I wore my hidden disability lanyard and explained to her that I have PTSD and so I stopped smiling naturally at a young age. She understood but

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#blackwomen #abusesurvivor #blackmastodon

Today I wore a few tees at the gym.

Y commented on my not smiling in class on Saturday. Today I wore my hidden disability lanyard and explained to her that I have PTSD and so I stopped smiling naturally at a young age. She understood but

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#blackwomen #abusesurvivor #blackmastodon

Today I wore a few tees at the gym.

Y commented on my not smiling in class on Saturday. Today I wore my hidden disability lanyard and explained to her that I have PTSD and so I stopped smiling naturally at a young age. She understood but

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#blackwomen #abusesurvivor #blackmastodon

Today I wore a few tees at the gym.

Y commented on my not smiling in class on Saturday. Today I wore my hidden disability lanyard and explained to her that I have PTSD and so I stopped smiling naturally at a young age. She understood but

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#blackwomen #abusesurvivor #blackmastodon

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I think I finished my 7th and latest bout of therapy in April/May of 2026.

This was trauma therapy for being raped at the age of 11 by

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#abusesurvivor #blackneurodiverse #blackadhd #blackautistic #blackmastodon

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I think I finished my 7th and latest bout of therapy in April/May of 2026.

This was trauma therapy for being raped at the age of 11 by

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#abusesurvivor #blackneurodiverse #blackadhd #blackautistic #blackmastodon

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I think I finished my 7th and latest bout of therapy in April/May of 2026.

This was trauma therapy for being raped at the age of 11 by

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#abusesurvivor #blackneurodiverse #blackadhd #blackautistic #blackmastodon

***TRIGGER WARNING: Sexual assault***

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I think I finished my 7th and latest bout of therapy in April/May of 2026.

This was trauma therapy for being raped at the age of 11 by

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#abusesurvivor #blackneurodiverse #blackadhd #blackautistic #blackmastodon

This week's blog post is a conversation with an abuser introject of my twin. It starts with:

🐀 I just... I just want this pain to stop... *sobs*

🐑 Do you know where this pain is coming from?

🐀 FROM YOU!!!!!

🐑 *holds up hands* I am not hurting you.

🐀 BUT I'M IN PAIN!!! IT MUST BE YOU!!!! >:///
IT IS ALWAYS YOU.
You are the weakest link. If you just measured UP, we'd ALL be ok!!!

later:

🐑 You didn't disintegrate from pain, despite the fact that I kept my boundary. Me having boundaries is not an attack on you or constitutes abuse.

🐀 it does

🐑 No, it does not.

We did get somewhere in the end. Felt very enlightening about how our abusers think, how abuse works in our corrupt family system. Granted, this is only coming from an introject, but still.

⚠️ TW for incest, rape, CSA

https://aurin.mataroa.blog/blog/inner-helper-talks-to-the-abuser-introject/

#rapeSurvivor #AbuseSurvivor #Introject #parts #DID #persecutor #ShadowWork #RapeCulture #incest #cocsa #AurinBlogs

This week's blog post is a conversation with an abuser introject of my twin. It starts with:

🐀 I just... I just want this pain to stop... *sobs*

🐑 Do you know where this pain is coming from?

🐀 FROM YOU!!!!!

🐑 *holds up hands* I am not hurting you.

🐀 BUT I'M IN PAIN!!! IT MUST BE YOU!!!! >:///
IT IS ALWAYS YOU.
You are the weakest link. If you just measured UP, we'd ALL be ok!!!

later:

🐑 You didn't disintegrate from pain, despite the fact that I kept my boundary. Me having boundaries is not an attack on you or constitutes abuse.

🐀 it does

🐑 No, it does not.

We did get somewhere in the end. Felt very enlightening about how our abusers think, how abuse works in our corrupt family system. Granted, this is only coming from an introject, but still.

⚠️ TW for incest, rape, CSA

https://aurin.mataroa.blog/blog/inner-helper-talks-to-the-abuser-introject/

#rapeSurvivor #AbuseSurvivor #Introject #parts #DID #persecutor #ShadowWork #RapeCulture #incest #cocsa #AurinBlogs

This week's blog post is the continuation of a conversation with my Inner Helper about intrusive thoughts/introjects. Excerpts:

"Getting that memory out... it was buried so deep. Dion is right, it was like digging out a splinter from a wound, it hurt a lot but it was necessary."

"I am staying me. And I am holding on to that idea... how did Dion put it? "Your true self is not "being a martyr"" :')"

"And I am looking at the abuser introject or whatever it is, and holding steady.

I can do this."

"I don't know what this means but it feels right. It feels like a triumph of sorts - we didn't just heal a wound, we allowed something to grow stronger than ever before."

You can tell how invaluable having a trusted, supportive, loving friend – Dion – is! I couldn't do this alone! ❤️

https://aurin.mataroa.blog/blog/intrusive-thoughts-2/

#AurinBlogs #MentalHealth #neuroSpicy #NeuroDivergent #trauma #PTSD #CPTSD #DID #multiple #AbuseSurvivor #rape #RapeSurvivor #incest #CSA #CoCSA #IntrusiveThoughts #introject #AbuserIntroject #Persecutor

This week's blog post is the continuation of a conversation with my Inner Helper about intrusive thoughts/introjects. Excerpts:

"Getting that memory out... it was buried so deep. Dion is right, it was like digging out a splinter from a wound, it hurt a lot but it was necessary."

"I am staying me. And I am holding on to that idea... how did Dion put it? "Your true self is not "being a martyr"" :')"

"And I am looking at the abuser introject or whatever it is, and holding steady.

I can do this."

"I don't know what this means but it feels right. It feels like a triumph of sorts - we didn't just heal a wound, we allowed something to grow stronger than ever before."

You can tell how invaluable having a trusted, supportive, loving friend – Dion – is! I couldn't do this alone! ❤️

https://aurin.mataroa.blog/blog/intrusive-thoughts-2/

#AurinBlogs #MentalHealth #neuroSpicy #NeuroDivergent #trauma #PTSD #CPTSD #DID #multiple #AbuseSurvivor #rape #RapeSurvivor #incest #CSA #CoCSA #IntrusiveThoughts #introject #AbuserIntroject #Persecutor

This week's blog post is about intrusive thoughts and it starts with: "I am a horrible, disgusting person, idek, what the fuck is WRONG with me" and ends with: "Hey now. What if it wasn't stupid. What if that was how I dealt with it?"

Join me on a journey where we discover what's behind the negative self talk and despair, where it comes from and how self-compassion resolves it:

https://aurin.mataroa.blog/blog/intrusive-thoughts/

#MentalHealth #IntrusiveThoughts #NegativeSelfTalk #SelfHate #SelfCare #SelfLove #Abuse #AbuseSurvivor #incest #cocsa #CSA #suicidalIdeation

This week's blog post is about intrusive thoughts and it starts with: "I am a horrible, disgusting person, idek, what the fuck is WRONG with me" and ends with: "Hey now. What if it wasn't stupid. What if that was how I dealt with it?"

Join me on a journey where we discover what's behind the negative self talk and despair, where it comes from and how self-compassion resolves it:

https://aurin.mataroa.blog/blog/intrusive-thoughts/

#MentalHealth #IntrusiveThoughts #NegativeSelfTalk #SelfHate #SelfCare #SelfLove #Abuse #AbuseSurvivor #incest #cocsa #CSA #suicidalIdeation

This week's blog post is about intrusive thoughts and it starts with: "I am a horrible, disgusting person, idek, what the fuck is WRONG with me" and ends with: "Hey now. What if it wasn't stupid. What if that was how I dealt with it?"

Join me on a journey where we discover what's behind the negative self talk and despair, where it comes from and how self-compassion resolves it:

https://aurin.mataroa.blog/blog/intrusive-thoughts/

#MentalHealth #IntrusiveThoughts #NegativeSelfTalk #SelfHate #SelfCare #SelfLove #Abuse #AbuseSurvivor #incest #cocsa #CSA #suicidalIdeation

***TRIGGER WARNING: Sexual assault***

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The sexual abuse (SA) made me not trust people for decades so I have hardly asked people for help and made many mistakes and still have

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#blackadhd #blackautism #blackneurodivergent #abusesurvivor #blackmastodon

***TRIGGER WARNING: Sexual assault***

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The sexual abuse (SA) made me not trust people for decades so I have hardly asked people for help and made many mistakes and still have

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#blackadhd #blackautism #blackneurodivergent #abusesurvivor #blackmastodon

***TRIGGER WARNING: Sexual assault***

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The sexual abuse (SA) made me not trust people for decades so I have hardly asked people for help and made many mistakes and still have

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#blackadhd #blackautism #blackneurodivergent #abusesurvivor #blackmastodon

***TRIGGER WARNING: Sexual assault***

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The sexual abuse (SA) made me not trust people for decades so I have hardly asked people for help and made many mistakes and still have

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#blackadhd #blackautism #blackneurodivergent #abusesurvivor #blackmastodon

Sira released in 2023 set in Burkina Faso in the languages More, French, and Fulah

Black Muslim Women dancing and singing in colorful attire at night easily brings a smile to my face :)

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt26440747

#movie #blackmovie #africanmovie #blackwomen #rape #sexualabuse #abusesurvivor #blackmastodon

Sira released in 2023 set in Burkina Faso in the languages More, French, and Fulah

Black Muslim Women dancing and singing in colorful attire at night easily brings a smile to my face :)

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt26440747

#movie #blackmovie #africanmovie #blackwomen #rape #sexualabuse #abusesurvivor #blackmastodon

Sira released in 2023 set in Burkina Faso in the languages More, French, and Fulah

Black Muslim Women dancing and singing in colorful attire at night easily brings a smile to my face :)

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt26440747

#movie #blackmovie #africanmovie #blackwomen #rape #sexualabuse #abusesurvivor #blackmastodon

Sira released in 2023 set in Burkina Faso in the languages More, French, and Fulah

Black Muslim Women dancing and singing in colorful attire at night easily brings a smile to my face :)

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt26440747

#movie #blackmovie #africanmovie #blackwomen #rape #sexualabuse #abusesurvivor #blackmastodon

Some of the reasons why trauma recovery is so confusing:

- sometimes you feel WORSE because your circumstances are safer! Because now your body and mind can release old trauma material that they had to hold onto for so long

- Feeling worse/triggered can be due to actual real-time trauma or abuse too, though

- staying/going back into traumatising circumstances (like relationships with old or new abusers) can feel "good" or like a relief because now you know what the rules of the game are and it helps keep old trauma material down - at least for a while

- Feeling better/relieved/like you know the rules of the game can also be caused by actually being in better circumstances and surrounded by people who are genuine and honest

#trauma #recovery #AbuseSurvivor #MentalHealth #anxiety #depression

Some of the reasons why trauma recovery is so confusing (🧵):

- sometimes you feel WORSE because your circumstances are safer! Because now your body and mind can release old trauma material that they had to hold onto for so long

- Feeling worse/triggered can be due to actual real-time trauma or abuse too, though

- staying/going back into traumatising circumstances (like relationships with old or new abusers) can feel "good" or like a relief because now you know what the rules of the game are and it helps keep old trauma material down - at least for a while

- Feeling better/relieved/like you know the rules of the game can also be caused by actually being in better circumstances and surrounded by people who are genuine and honest

#trauma #recovery #AbuseSurvivor #MentalHealth #anxiety #depression

Some of the reasons why trauma recovery is so confusing (🧵):

- sometimes you feel WORSE because your circumstances are safer! Because now your body and mind can release old trauma material that they had to hold onto for so long

- Feeling worse/triggered can be due to actual real-time trauma or abuse too, though

- staying/going back into traumatising circumstances (like relationships with old or new abusers) can feel "good" or like a relief because now you know what the rules of the game are and it helps keep old trauma material down - at least for a while

- Feeling better/relieved/like you know the rules of the game can also be caused by actually being in better circumstances and surrounded by people who are genuine and honest

#trauma #recovery #AbuseSurvivor #MentalHealth #anxiety #depression

Some of the reasons why trauma recovery is so confusing:

- sometimes you feel WORSE because your circumstances are safer! Because now your body and mind can release old trauma material that they had to hold onto for so long

- Feeling worse/triggered can be due to actual real-time trauma or abuse too, though

- staying/going back into traumatising circumstances (like relationships with old or new abusers) can feel "good" or like a relief because now you know what the rules of the game are and it helps keep old trauma material down - at least for a while

- Feeling better/relieved/like you know the rules of the game can also be caused by actually being in better circumstances and surrounded by people who are genuine and honest

#trauma #recovery #AbuseSurvivor #MentalHealth #anxiety #depression