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  1. when I was a kid I remember there was this "Etiquette for Ladies" TV show that would come on after The Price is Right when I was at my nanny's (my mom's stepmom) house

    my weird little autistic trans girl brain treated that like gospel

    I tried so hard to be a perfect little lady

    and I couldn't figure out why it didn't make my mom happy

    she's always very lady-like, I thought she'd like it

    so I assumed I was just doing it wrong, or not good enough

    I tried even harder, and eventually that "be lady-like" became one of the self-critical voices in my head

    I still feel gross when I do something "unladylike" and it's weird

    #trans #enby #nonbinary #transfem #memories #storytime #ladylike #etiquette #audhd #autism #actuallyautistic

  2. CW: lots of bs, traumadumping

    Goddess help me, today was horrible

    I got to work and the girl before me did almost nothing before she left

    the customers were all being mean and angry

    the truck came in, a full day early, while I was the only one working

    I kept making dumb mistakes because I was overwhelmed

    a guy came in to work on the registers, and his voice sounded exactly like Krish, one of the men that assaulted me

    I was hiding in the back room crying every chance I got

    I was panicking and triggered for basically my entire shift

    everything hurts

    I'm exhausted but too adrenaline to rest

    my brain is on fire

    and I think my coworker who came in to relieve me was annoyed that I hadn't gotten more done

    but I'm listening to music from Chrono Trigger and Final Fantasy VI and it's helping me calm down

    I have an appointment with my therapist on Tuesday

    "I'm alive, but I'm not well"

    #storytime #work #ptsd #survivor #therapy #autism #autistic #overwhelmed #todaysucked #fml #chronotrigger #finalfantasy #ff6 #audhd #toomuch

  3. CW: mention of a stalker

    well, made it through another graveyard shift

    that stalker guy showed up

    I just scowled at him and told him he needed to leave

    he turned around and left

    I doubt he's given up entirely, but it felt powerful to just be like "go away"

    also my boss seems to actually value me

    her and the assistant manager were talking about how I'm the most reliable employee they have

    that also heartened me quite a bit

    all over a surprisingly good morning

    #work #personal #storytime #stalker #goodmorning #trans #transfem #enby #nonbinary #indigenous #mixed #bipolar #adhd #autism #audhd #random

  4. CW: stalking

    I'm off for a couple days, thankfully

    that man is terrorizing me, I'm scared to leave my house

    he mentioned seeing me at the grocery store

    and the other gas station

    and the pharmacy

    and said he knows where I live

    wtf do I do

    #stalker #help #danger

  5. hanging by a thread, trapped in my head
    I'm spiraling out until all the poison fills my chest
    helps me forget, 'cause I'll never learn 'til I see red
    no, I'll never learn 'til I see red

    #lyrics #mothica #red

  6. hanging by a thread, trapped in my head
    I'm spiraling out until all the poison fills my chest
    helps me forget, 'cause I'll never learn 'til I see red

    #lyrics #mothica #currentmood #meirl

  7. Now that I've slept on it and looked back at the slides, I see the problem. MassDOT considered fewer lanes (1st pic, items 7, 12) but they list an unbreakable constraint "Equal or better intersection Level of Service" (2nd pic).

    The overpass is overbuilt today. If you require it to fit as many cars, of course you'll get a highway off ramp again!

    #MassDOT forgets that #MassDCR is trying to shrink #MemorialDrive : mass.streetsblog.org/2024/12/1

    Livetoot thread: better.boston/@sky/11585078084

    #CambridgeMA

  8. 🆘 MUTUAL AID POST 20/200 🆘

    y'all, I really need $200 asap

    I'm still behind on rent, and I'm going to be missing work for a bit because I have an ulcer in my stomach that's making it almost impossible to leave the bathroom

    please, if you can help I'd really appreciate it ❤️

    boost for visibility :boostRequest:

    venmo.com/u/tsbarnes
    paypal.com/paypalme/tsbarnes
    ko-fi.com/skybarnes

    #mutualaid #mutualaidrequest #transmutualaid #enbymutualaid #disabledmutualaid #nativemutualaid #help #rent #illness #ulcer #medical #trans #nonbinary #enby #indigenous #audhd #ptsd

  9. @flwwhtrbt yeah, I already use #HeroicGamesLauncher on it, and I'd been favoring #EmuDeck so far but I need to give #RetroDECK a try

    I also use #Lutris to manage my itch.io and non-store games

  10. Moinchen #SkyCrew ☺️ Kommt gut ins WE :peace:

  11. Ist bald Wochenende ?

    OB BALD WOCHENENDE IST HABE ICH GEFRAGT!

    #MWR

  12. Multiple cars crashed on Memorial Drive in #CambridgeMA, in the same spot where John Corcoran was killed two months ago. Cambridge is currently doing construction there to try to make the area safer. Today's crash was serious, involving a rollover and multiple injuries.
    cambridgeday.com/2024/11/21/mu
    #Boston #VisionZero #MemorialDrive #MassDCR

  13. I want to get into #kde app development, but I'm not sure where to start

    there's a few ideas I've got for apps, but I know nothing about #qt or #kiragami

    is #kdevelop still the best option for IDE?

    can #qtdesigner do Kiragami?

  14. Thanks @universalhub for this great context:

    > In 2019, ... BTD proposed a series of steps to make the road safer for pedestrians, ... but pulled the plan after some vociferous residents [opposed]

    And now, thanks to them, the road design has injured a kindergartner.

    universalhub.com/2022/driver-h

    #Boston #WestRoxbury #CentreStreet #RoadDiet #SafeRoads