#suicidal-ideations — Public Fediverse posts

I want love, and I'll do what I have to do. #Suicide #suicidalideations #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrant #iwanttodie

Very bad night. I really want to die. #majordepressivedisorder #bpd #Suicide #suicidalideations #fuckingtired

One drawback of having #OCPD and #BPD is that I tend to disengage quite abruptly. It takes VERY little for me tae be convinced that I am irrelevant... Because the monsters what own me scream intae my ears that I am. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrant #Dysthymia #suicidalideations

Depression makes you do complex maths. Like train speed based on distance between level crossings judged by the train horn. From this you can calculate approximate speed. Velocity of a 192 lb body traveling for 142' onto dead calm water on a moonless night on an outgoing tide. Aye, my brain is a real party. I'm just having a wee rant, I really donnae ken the solution other than a promise I made. #suicidalideations #majordepressivedisorderrecurrent #bpd #mybrainisverybroken

So under normal circumstances this wud be a #Sicide night. I cannae dae that because of a promise I made, so in spite I destroyed something good that cud possibly happen tae me. I f**king hate this but it improves the odds of me being right. I donnae ken whae I am posting this, none of ye fucking ken me. I really dae hate bein meh. #MajorDepressiveDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #SuicidalIdeations

The Girl Who Mistook Me For A Pile Of Bricks

I wanted to give her everything, but she backstabbed me.

I’ve mentioned it before. The queer world is rather small. You should be nice to the people you run into, even when breaking up with them. If you do not, you may get a cold reception the next time you run into them. I wanted to give everything to the girl I’m going to talk about, but she bit the hand that fed her. If she ran into me now, she’d get a frigid reception.

#AutisticWriters #Dating #love #MentalHealth #pansexuality #polyamory #queer #relationships #sex #SubstanceAbuse #SuicidalIdeations #YourAutisticLife

https://www.yourautisticlife.com/2024/01/31/the-girl-who-mistook-me-for-a-pile-of-bricks/

Funny thing aboot #drowning is the last thing ye think afore unconsciousness is "shit, ahm drowning!" Ahm speaking frae experience btw. #death #Suicidal #SuicidalIdeations #Depression #DeathEnvy

Aye. Art by Shawn Coss #MentalHealth #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dysthymia #OCPD #SuicidalIdeations #SelfLoathing #SelfPunishment

Taedae was a "bridge day". Some o' ye ken what that means.. #SuicidalIdeations #SelfLoathing #Dysthymia #RejectionSensitiveDysphoria

Well I've discontinued my mental health care. Sacked both my therapist (#7) and my psychiatrist (#2). Let the fun begin! #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dysthymia #PTSD #OCPD #SuicidalIdeations #SelfLoathing

Ah will suffer alongside ye but ye must NEVER count on meh. Ah nae really know how much longer mah monsters will let meh live. Art by Shawn Coss #MentalHealthAwareness #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Suicidalideations #Dysthymia #OCPD #SelfLoathing

I just go awa quietly. Trust meh when I say that ye'll get o'er it quicker than ye think...minutes later. #ImVeryBroken #Dysthymia #SuicidalIdeations

I am friendly fur the most part but please keep yer distance. I wilnae hurt ye, but ah fair certain ye wilnae like wut I dae tae mahsel. #SelfLoathing #MDD #DeathEnvy #SuicidalIdeations

@louche_librarian I suffer frae several mental illnesses. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent and #SuicidalIdeations for over 40 year. Add #Dysthemia #OCPD #PTSD and severe #SelfLoathing (Everything is well diagnosed). There are many times that I get this way...I hae nae control over it. My Psychotherapist and Psychiatrist hae me on both a treatment plan and safety plan. 3 attempts, one VERY close tae success (damnit), and ahv lost count of the times ahv been detained fur it lol.

I've never known #joy or lasting #happiness. What passes for that in my brain is distraction, amusement, and at best a lack of impact...neutral. Before you call me #emo or dramatic, I hae a very broke brain and suffer several mental illnesses. Anyone else oot there like me? I fucking hope nae. #MentalHealth #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dysthymia, #PTSD, #OCPD #SuicidalIdeations, #SevereSelfLoathig. #IAmVeryBroken #YouCanNotHelp

I think I finally got it thru mah #Psychiatrist heid that my #SuicidalIDeations and extreme #SelfHatred innae gaen anywhere, hence untreatable. I want tae attempt tae enjoy life whatever that means, but I will always want suicide as an option. I think she finally gets it. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent, #Dysthymia #OCPD #PTSD #Neurodivergent #IAmVeryBroken #YouShouldReallyRun

FUCK...Ah miss Layne Staley so much. Ah miss Mike Starr, Chris Cornell, and Kurt Cobain. When the tide, hour, and moon is right, ahl come a'lookin fur ye. All artwork by Shawn Coss #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dyshymia #OCPD #SuicidalIdeations #IAmVeryBroken #LetMeGo

Ach, 988 might be a thing taenite. #IAmVeryBroken #SuicidalIdeations #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Dysthymia

#MentalHealth #MentalHealthMatters #MajorDepressiveDisorder #SuicidalIdeations #OCPD #Dysthymia #SevereSelfLoathing #IAmVeryBroken

Artwork by Shawn Coss. Diagnosis are mine all mine. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #SuicidalIdeations #Dysthymia #PTSD #OCD #SelfHatred #IAmVeryBroken

I suffer frae Catastrophisation and this is what it looks and feels like. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #SuicidalIdeations #Dysthymia Art by Shawn Coss

Absolutely neutral mood tae moderate suicidal thoughts. in approximately 2 minutes. NAE TRIGGER, it just happens that way sometime. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #SuicidalIdeations #IAmVeryBroken #988