#majordepressivedisorderrecurrent — Public Fediverse posts

Depression makes you do complex maths. Like train speed based on distance between level crossings judged by the train horn. From this you can calculate approximate speed. Velocity of a 192 lb body traveling for 142' onto dead calm water on a moonless night on an outgoing tide. Aye, my brain is a real party. I'm just having a wee rant, I really donnae ken the solution other than a promise I made. #suicidalideations #majordepressivedisorderrecurrent #bpd #mybrainisverybroken

Aye. Art by Shawn Coss #MentalHealth #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dysthymia #OCPD #SuicidalIdeations #SelfLoathing #SelfPunishment

So often I will talk tae someone fully forgetting that nobody gies a wee shite wut I havtae sae. #RejectionSensitivityDysphoria is just fucking lovely. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dysthymia #SelfLoathing

Well I've discontinued my mental health care. Sacked both my therapist (#7) and my psychiatrist (#2). Let the fun begin! #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dysthymia #PTSD #OCPD #SuicidalIdeations #SelfLoathing

Ah will suffer alongside ye but ye must NEVER count on meh. Ah nae really know how much longer mah monsters will let meh live. Art by Shawn Coss #MentalHealthAwareness #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Suicidalideations #Dysthymia #OCPD #SelfLoathing

The problem with becoming romantically attracted tae someone is that my monsters demand it's immediate destruction. So I take the emotion like I do so many others, and shove it back intae vile wee place frae which it came. #RejectionSensitiveDysphoria #SelfLoathing #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent

I want desperately tae fall in #love, but no sabotage it when it is returnit. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #SelfLoathing #MyBrainIsVeryBroken

I look at my 57 year auld face and body and then look at the photos of beautiful women and men and realise that I wasnae ever in the running, and ahm fair certain ahmno now. I swear I curse mah deceased mum for giesing me birth. #PissPoorGenes #Ugly #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #SelfLoathing #TheTruthHurts.

@louche_librarian I suffer frae several mental illnesses. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent and #SuicidalIdeations for over 40 year. Add #Dysthemia #OCPD #PTSD and severe #SelfLoathing (Everything is well diagnosed). There are many times that I get this way...I hae nae control over it. My Psychotherapist and Psychiatrist hae me on both a treatment plan and safety plan. 3 attempts, one VERY close tae success (damnit), and ahv lost count of the times ahv been detained fur it lol.

@louche_librarian I suffer frae several mental illnesses. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent and #SuicidalIdeations for over 40 year. Add #Dysthemia #OCPD #PTSD and severe #SelfLoathing (Everything is well diagnosed). There are many times that I get this way...I hae nae control over it. My Psychotherapist and Psychiatrist hae me on both a treatment plan and safety plan. 3 attempts, one VERY close tae success (damnit), and ahv lost count of the times ahv been detained fur it lol.

@louche_librarian I suffer frae several mental illnesses. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent and #SuicidalIdeations for over 40 year. Add #Dysthemia #OCPD #PTSD and severe #SelfLoathing (Everything is well diagnosed). There are many times that I get this way...I hae nae control over it. My Psychotherapist and Psychiatrist hae me on both a treatment plan and safety plan. 3 attempts, one VERY close tae success (damnit), and ahv lost count of the times ahv been detained fur it lol.

@louche_librarian I suffer frae several mental illnesses. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent and #SuicidalIdeations for over 40 year. Add #Dysthemia #OCPD #PTSD and severe #SelfLoathing (Everything is well diagnosed). There are many times that I get this way...I hae nae control over it. My Psychotherapist and Psychiatrist hae me on both a treatment plan and safety plan. 3 attempts, one VERY close tae success (damnit), and ahv lost count of the times ahv been detained fur it lol.

@louche_librarian I suffer frae several mental illnesses. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent and #SuicidalIdeations for over 40 year. Add #Dysthemia #OCPD #PTSD and severe #SelfLoathing (Everything is well diagnosed). There are many times that I get this way...I hae nae control over it. My Psychotherapist and Psychiatrist hae me on both a treatment plan and safety plan. 3 attempts, one VERY close tae success (damnit), and ahv lost count of the times ahv been detained fur it lol.

I've never known #joy or lasting #happiness. What passes for that in my brain is distraction, amusement, and at best a lack of impact...neutral. Before you call me #emo or dramatic, I hae a very broke brain and suffer several mental illnesses. Anyone else oot there like me? I fucking hope nae. #MentalHealth #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dysthymia, #PTSD, #OCPD #SuicidalIdeations, #SevereSelfLoathig. #IAmVeryBroken #YouCanNotHelp

I think I finally got it thru mah #Psychiatrist heid that my #SuicidalIDeations and extreme #SelfHatred innae gaen anywhere, hence untreatable. I want tae attempt tae enjoy life whatever that means, but I will always want suicide as an option. I think she finally gets it. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent, #Dysthymia #OCPD #PTSD #Neurodivergent #IAmVeryBroken #YouShouldReallyRun

FUCK...Ah miss Layne Staley so much. Ah miss Mike Starr, Chris Cornell, and Kurt Cobain. When the tide, hour, and moon is right, ahl come a'lookin fur ye. All artwork by Shawn Coss #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dyshymia #OCPD #SuicidalIdeations #IAmVeryBroken #LetMeGo

FUCK...Ah miss Layne Staley so much. Ah miss Mike Starr, Chris Cornell, and Kurt Cobain. When the tide, hour, and moon is right, ahl come a'lookin fur ye. All artwork by Shawn Coss #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dyshymia #OCPD #SuicidalIdeations #IAmVeryBroken #LetMeGo

FUCK...Ah miss Layne Staley so much. Ah miss Mike Starr, Chris Cornell, and Kurt Cobain. When the tide, hour, and moon is right, ahl come a'lookin fur ye. All artwork by Shawn Coss #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dyshymia #OCPD #SuicidalIdeations #IAmVeryBroken #LetMeGo

FUCK...Ah miss Layne Staley so much. Ah miss Mike Starr, Chris Cornell, and Kurt Cobain. When the tide, hour, and moon is right, ahl come a'lookin fur ye. All artwork by Shawn Coss #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dyshymia #OCPD #SuicidalIdeations #IAmVeryBroken #LetMeGo

FUCK...Ah miss Layne Staley so much. Ah miss Mike Starr, Chris Cornell, and Kurt Cobain. When the tide, hour, and moon is right, ahl come a'lookin fur ye. All artwork by Shawn Coss #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dyshymia #OCPD #SuicidalIdeations #IAmVeryBroken #LetMeGo

Artwork by Shawn Coss. Diagnosis are mine all mine. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #SuicidalIdeations #Dysthymia #PTSD #OCD #SelfHatred #IAmVeryBroken

This is me, keep yer distance. Art by Shawn Coss #MentalHealthAwareness #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dysthymia #OCD #SuicidalThoughts #IAmVeryBroken

OK people. My brains is broken as fuck and everything I say I hae, hae been diagnosed. I don't like it, I didnae ask fur it, and yer well meaning platitudes wilnae change a whit. If that is wut ye got fur meh, then please get tae fuck wi all haste. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #dysthymia #SuicidalThoughts #OCD #PTSD #CrabbitWeeScottishCunt

I suffer frae Catastrophisation and this is what it looks and feels like. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #SuicidalIdeations #Dysthymia Art by Shawn Coss

#MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent with extreme #selfhatred is: "Hi, I hae a friend that would love tae meet ye."
"I wudnae recommend that love, I am a poor life decision."
An the solitude continues.

Absolutely neutral mood tae moderate suicidal thoughts. in approximately 2 minutes. NAE TRIGGER, it just happens that way sometime. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #SuicidalIdeations #IAmVeryBroken #988