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  1. CW: mh-

    I really envy people who have a comfort zone.

    I just left, because group dynamics were too stressful, only to be more stressed by leaving, lonelyness, feeling of being excluded or rather excluding myself and ultimately self-hatred and doubting any progress that I ever made, because the biggest question still seems unsolvable.
    The question of how to leave a comfort zone that doesn't exist looks easy in comparison to this: "If I have to love myself before anyone else can love me, and the reason I hate myself is because nobody ever loved me, does that mean I should just give up?"

    #mh #GroupDynamics #FeelingLeftOut #SocialAnxiety #SocialPhobia #NotJustShy #NotJustLonely #SelfHatred

  2. @luna Tbh them ignoring me is the thing I fear though.
    If they answer "Leave me alone, I hate you." than that's fine. If they ignore me I forever keep wondering why they don't answer, whether I should try again, whether I already tried too often and that was intrusive, whether I'm a bad person, why I hate myself, why nobody likes me and whether I should just stop bothering people alltogether because I'm unbareable and inadequate.

    #SocialAnxiety #SocialPhobia