#bupropion — Public Fediverse posts

1. There was no problem getting a new pack of #Bupropion first thing in the morning, before job. So I skipped just one dose, on Sunday.
2. Even though "the Project" at work is "strongly encouraging" taking overtime this week before Thursday - I had already booked most of it as "vacation" to spend time with my visiting family. So no stress pouring out of my "bucket" this week.
3. I bought more salmon to put it in my spice mix. Perhaps I can use one of those for my mom and sister during visit.
#ThreeGoodThings

I give up. I plan to talk to my GP about getting back to #bupropion. 7 out of 8 days since I stopped taking it in the mornings I felt bad (2 on a scale from 1 to 5, where I assume 3 to be "meh"/"neutral"/"passing"). Or if I struggle to get up early (because of course it's almost 2AM again...) - I'll just start taking it since I have around 2/3 of a last bought package.
The brain fuzz, mouth scrambling, and general jumpiness is just a lot together. But the increase in impulsive giving up to the "guilty pleasures" (for getting short shots of dopamine or smth, I don't know), like e.g. binge eating and impulsive spending, is too much. I feel like I cannot control my behaviours as much as the last few months since I started taking it...

I guess I convinced myself through the talk with my therapist moments ago that if it persists few more day - I just accept that I need #bupropion to "perform" in this ×%£*£<_@ capitalism without breaking down back to the state I was in last March...
I just need to push it down my silly brain that this is not "giving up" or smth like that...
#depression #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD

Argh... I am now pretty sure that my brain goes brrrr... now, as I stopped #bupropion... I might discuss going back to it, because it's simply too difficult to keep my attention without "painfully redirecting it on tracks" whenever I move it away from something that "should" be my focus.
Also - I don't like how it affects my impulsitivity. In the last week I feel so weak against my sudden eat/purchase "needs"...
It's "fun" trying to handle #depression while keeping medication to minimum, while being #ActuallyAutistic and perhaps #AuDHD...

I don't like how unsure I am about which of the changes in my behaviour and thinking are because of stopping #bupropion and which are just because of other things that are happening...
I >assume< that much more "running" thoughts and more fidgeting might be connected, but I don't know how can I be sure... :blobfoxdrakedislike:

I guess we'll try to get off of #bupropion since I'm not sure if it affected me at all. But JIC I'll wait with this change to AFTER the work week when I have shift duty in our team. I already noticed my mood swinging down since Sunday, so it's probably a good idea to wait until it's over.

7 weeks on #escitalopram
3 weeks on #bupropion
And for some reason my mood swings down now. And now, that I think about it, it was similar during week 3 of escitalopram, so perhaps I just need to last this week. 🤞
#ActuallyAutistic