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  1. MY BLOG! IT LIVES!!

    Have this performance of “Hurricane Lazarus” from Poet’s Monday this week to celebrate:

    -Allēna

    #ourPoetry #poetsMonday
  2. prompt: royal purple reflections

    they say tyrian purple is the noblest burial shroud
    but I am not noble, nor is anything I have done
    so cover me in cornflower blue and fuchsia
    after casting me into the flame –
    do not sanitize me by simply

    calling me a queen
    or a conquering hero, save your pedestals
    for a less complicated man with fewer ways
    to him, bestow your blossoms upon a son
    more fortunate than I

    instead of rendering my life a clean, monolithic stroke of heather gray, give me what I’ve always
    wanted – know me for all my flaws
    for all my ugly sides that never caught the
    light quite well enough to photograph

    know who I was beyond what I offered you
    what I made, know me when I bent,
    when I broke at half-right angles,
    know the loves that haunted endless 2 AMs
    know what made me explode, twisted glass pane

    was I, on days when I woke up and wrote about the juicy plum afterlife that was always
    close enough to almost taste, know what blessings I ate, not just the sins, know the kings
    I broke, not just the kings I made

    and know that I bled crimson into the dirt
    and into the lake in the process of building
    my own once and future lavender throne
    not blue – no amount of my father’s blessèd
    lunatic foresight and stubbornness could make me

    anything more or less than human
    anything more or less than flawed
    anything more or less than myself
    no matter what I did
    no matter who I would move into position

    -Allēna 7/19/2026

    #elegiesForTheLiving #ourPoetry #shadesOfPurple
  3. I had my feature at Showcase Onstage today!

    It was fucking insaaaaane. I did “guernica I and II” from memory and “A Weapon” and “To Dance With A Cyclone” (also from memory), and then closed out with “hurricane lazarus”, which seems to be my signature piece.

    I only posted “to dance with a cyclone” so far, because I started to get a really bad headache and I think I almost passed out during the performance because I went so damn hard.

    It is time to crash and do similar things tomorrow.

    -Allēna

    #feature #migraine #ourPoetry #performing #showcaseOnstage #theAmaniPlace
  4. It is storming outside and Emerson taught me how to play dominos today.

    It was pretty fun although he kicked my ass.

    I also saw this prompt about small spells to do on your birthday, and half of an enormous poem formed in my head while I was taking my 30 minutes of boredom based on the suggestion to write a letter to yourself a year ago even though it isn’t my birthday. So I’m going to post it here for posterity’s sake.

    “annus epilepticus”

    you don't know this yet
    but the premonitions you've been having of
    your own death are true
    and a mere few weeks past your 28th birthday
    you will die - just enough - to touch the
    robe of any god you know
    when the subtle fire you've always been
    strikes you back
    and strikes you back again

    you will hang on for just long enough
    for your kind partner to burst into the room
    cradle you in his arms
    and guide you, screaming in mortal terror, back into the light

    you have never been good at dying
    but this will take you a hair’s breadth from death
    and you will bear the scars on your temporal lobe
    (and speech pattern) long afterwards to prove it

    and whether it is by fate or some wild magic
    this will save your life in more ways than you will
    know

    for most of July, you will not be able to speak
    coherently. you will eventually choke out
    your suspicion that the seizures induced
    Wernicke's aphasia, and everyone who knows
    you will agree with you, a cruel fate for
    you, but more importantly, you will come back…
    changed.

    you will start writing better poetry. something
    about the way your brain burned and cracked
    will allow you to see things from a different angle,
    to look askance at language in a way you
    never did before.
    the partner that saved your life will convince you
    to start attending a poetry workshop held in a coffeeshop that july. the rhythm of writing and
    performing regularly amongst very talented
    wordsmiths will help break you out of your
    agoraphobia.
    one of them will take notice of the way you
    perform, noting its similarity
    to Shakespearean acting and encourage you to attend the open mic he runs.
    so you start performing at Linneman's Riverwest Inn again for the first time since 2023 at his
    personal request.

    you will somehow muddle through your divorce
    proceedings on july 23, five years and 13 days
    since leaving your ex husband, and it's a miracle
    you will be able to do that since even getting
    out of bed to use the bathroom still feels like running a marathon, but you're so hell-bound
    and determined to get rid of this man that
    when the judge asks if the marriage fell apart
    due to incompatibility of temperament, you will
    shout ABSOLUTELY loud and clear as day into
    the microphone. (you will also show up hours
    early to the hearing. you don't want to miss this
    for the world.) when your ex husband replies, it's the most defeated you will ever hear him.
    spite has always been your strong suit.
    the judge will finalize your divorce, and
    then the question arises of who you will
    marry next.

    you will leave the answer up to the two people
    you consider yourself married to
    already, a man who cannot lie
    and a boy who cannot tell the truth.
    in a rare show of generosity, the liar boy
    will concede to the honest man.
    he will live to regret that decision. you, however,
    will not.

    as the months progress, it will become increasingly clear that despite your love
    for him, your relationship with the liar is built
    on sand. surviving your seizures will leave
    you with a new perspective on life and
    precious little patience for wasted time or
    undue stress, and the liar will waste your time
    and mess with your head.
    you will tell him he is killing you. he displays no
    remorse. you will scream, beg, plead, and stop
    short of borrowing and stealing to get him to
    listen.
    despite his damn near single-minded obsession
    with you that will make you feel like you're
    emotionally his hostage, he will not care about
    the affect he's having on your other relationships
    or your well being.

    one very early fall morning, after you've spent the
    entire night in the emergency room with him and
    your fiancé, “heat above” by greta van fleet will
    come on. your fiancé will remark that it feels as though you are driving into a different
    timeline as dawn breaks. you, spiritual and full of subtle fire as ever, will respond that you feel it, too. your liar will
    say nothing.

    finally, in november, after
    months of suspicion that he's cheating on you (despite being polyamorous!)
    he will get sloppy and you'll catch him when he
    forgets to turn his location off.
    this is your red line and you will dump him over it.
    to add insult to injury, he will tell you you're
    overreacting.
    you will know better than that by now.

    despite your heartbreak, you will feel more
    free after leaving him than you have in months.
    you will compile a dossier of evidence against him
    and publish it to the world.
    this is when the mask and gloves come off and it
    will spark
    a months long battle of he-said-she said online.
    he will slander both you and your future husband.
    you will have even fewer regrets about leaving
    him.

    one of the final acts you will do before moving
    out from the apartment you and your fiancé share with your liar
    is a manifestation ritual that will make you feel
    powerful beyond imagining - you will gaze into
    a mirror with your future husband while “heat above” plays in the background. you will picture yourself in red sunglasses driving down water street with more money and fame
    than sense, husband
    next to you. you pass your former lying flame on
    the street, roll down your window, wave to him like a queen, and ride on
    as if he had never meant a thing to you in the
    first place.

    you will choose “heat above” as the song for your
    intentions for the year to come after how that ritual made you
    feel.

    on January 5th, you will feature at Linneman's, your poetic home.
    you will write a brilliant bespoke set for the
    occasion, combining music, poetry, and
    references to shakespeare at the
    host’s request. the audience is small, but they are
    so engaged that they offer you a standing ovation at the end.
    you have nothing prepared for an encore, so you
    will offer them a story about your eccentric
    great uncle.
    it will go over the time limit, but not a soul will
    care.

    you will marry your husband on January 23rd in the
    same coffeeshop that helped you work through
    your agoraphobia. the wedding will be incredibly
    small, but it will be the finest wedding either of
    you have ever attended. the poet who runs
    the workshop that got you writing again will
    write a special poem for the ceremony.
    your friend and frequent collaborator will travel
    all the way from Madison to attend. your
    husband's best man will travel all the way from
    iowa. your “gentleman of debauchery”, as they are called, is your dear friend who you will
    date a few months later.

    you will wake up the next day in the fabulous
    hotel that your best man and
    a friend of yours who you met
    by chance arranged for you and your husband
    to find that one of the videos you posted from
    the wedding is going viral on instagram.
    it is your first look video, and no one, friend or foe,
    will quite know what to make of it.
    within days, it will amass millions of views.
    you will keep posting.

    you will start to get inundated with direct messages from people who are fascinated with
    your body after you get an idea to post videos of
    yourself in lingerie that your husband found
    for you at a clothing swap, and because you are
    struggling financially, you will decide to start talking
    about your Patreon more.
    to no one’s surprise but your foes, you will get
    subscribers, enough to make hundreds of dollars
    in the first two months you talk about it.
    in the meantime, you will keep going viral.

    a few weeks before your next birthday, on
    your regularly scheduled Internet travels,
    you will come across a creator who found out
    that she copes with mast cell activation syndrome
    and that she has been taking H1 and H2 inhibitors
    for it. you will tell your husband what you saw, and seeing as you've already been taking H1
    inhibitors for some time, he will find you H2 inhibitors.
    you will take them as an experiment, and the
    difference is like night and day. you will feel as
    though you are emerging from a decade in a
    long, dark cave.

    the change will frighten you.
    you will keep going anyway.

    you don't know it yet, but despite everything -
    you will do more than your best this year.

    Allēna 6/5/2026

    #betterTogetherMKE #birthdayThoughts #Cadmium #cheatingIncident #Emerson #Fang #freeVerse #GretaVanFleet #InternetFame #LinnemanSRiverwestInn #manifestation #marriage #ourPoetry #poetry #queerPoet #reflection #spokenWord #Zelda
  5. “digital immortality”

    25 people with more money than sense
    are trying to ascend to godhood again
    and we, the other 99%, dare them to do it –

    in the same week that a
    man in ontario, california sets fire
    to his workplace screaming “you could have
    paid us a living wage”

    (careful,
    he’s a hero)

    we will all have bread & roses when you
    upload yourselves to your digital heavens
    to preside over an eternity of ozymandian
    digital sand

    we will feast on the grapes of wrath you
    kept from us when you hang yourself
    by a noose of your own hubris

    may your wait-list be short
    and your eternity be long
    and ultimately fruitless

    -Allēna

    4/11/2026

    #brainPreservation #breadAndRoses #ChamelAbdulkharim #Headlines #KimberlyClarkFire #LuigiMangione #nectome #ourPoetry #reactionPoem #SamAltman
  6. “a beginner’s guide to splitting your brain”

    when I said you’d be the death of me,
    I was being literal. the left side of me is
    a ghost, wrath kept it in the divorce
    twenty eight years ago
    when I was too young and stupid
    to know what a prenup was
    and I’ve been giving away pieces of me
    since
    when I promised you my hand, I was being
    literal
    keep it, preserve it in any way you want
    after I am gone
    whether you wear my bones as a talisman
    to remember me, half dead haunted pipe organ courtesan assassin
    or calcify it
    like percy bysshe’s heart
    to remember me by
    when my time bomb mind decides to explode
    and you outpace me on this race to the edge

    when I said you’d be the death of me, I was
    being literal. the two halves of my body
    run on syncopated time
    an unexpected eighth note in my limp
    when my left foot drags behind my right
    an odd time in my step
    my right hand moving my left in time when
    it balls up and refuses to obey any longer
    even my brain has changed shape from
    the stress of it all that I once called the thrill
    but gods’ honest truth is that I think it’s
    slowly killing me although I breathe for it
    and I don’t remember how I got the will
    to stay alive
    I am no more god than ozymandias but I am
    by no means fragile
    I can and would walk  through a hurricane and dance barefoot on sea glass to have you
    believe I love you and know I mean it
    and even though the spring sun may singe
    the skin of this transmasculine tragedian
    troubadour
    it will take far more than heat and pressure to break me

    and when I am gone, remember me as
    a mountain of madness
    remember me as a three legged hare who
    decided to roar
    remember me as one who fought for you
    fought with you, fought death, did not go gentle
    became the whirlwind, became the lightning,
    and was the one that the lightning struck back.
    remember me as the human unchained
    the one who walks free
    remember me as the one who shot the moon
    and took the stars and brought them down for you
    remember me as a hurricane, the madwoman
    in the attic, the singer of morning
    molten golden light,
    the one in the ring who feared not the brave pain
    and stood tall and bellowed at two generations of fire anyway,
    the conjurer of shape and smoke
    and color, the one who dared to split my mind
    to walk in tragedy
    to write my own eulogy
    and take up fucking space anyway
    remember me while I am here
    remember me now
    remember the life of me
    while I still breathe

    #medicalDiary #MRIResults #ourPoetry
  7. I’ve been going pretty much nonstop today, but..

    I got reunited with the short sword from Emerson’s and my wedding and obtained a tiara!!!

    This photo was taken of me at Linneman’s tonight:

    I would describe this aesthetic as “Galadriel if she had decided to marry Sauron, but had eventually gotten tired of his conniving ass, gutted him in the divorce proceedings, and taken the One Ring and the prettiest parts of Middle Earth in the aftermath of waxing his ass in court” lol.

    -Allēna

    #darkGaladriel #Emerson #LinnemanSRiverwestInn #LOTR #ourPoetry #ourWedding #shortSword #theBody #theFace
  8. Eight wrote this in 2022.

    it’s images like this i’d live and die for 
    kept securely within my chest,
    a less piercing form of homesickness
    more beautiful -
    you aren’t here and yet i feel - and i want you -
    as if you were in the next room

    it’s been years and i am just now telling you
    things that i, before, kept lodged in my throat
    it scares me still but i want you to know
    the same way i did that way in july when i first
    overcame my fear
    so let me find words for the finest kind
    of golden hour within my mind -

    you call me a hurricane, a sea
    but what if, for a moment, i was still,
    held, wrists in your hands
    above my head?
    i am all angles and curves in all the wrong places
    hard-edged everywhere i should be soft
    eyes too dark to be this light
    but what if i was beautiful, something close to gentle,
    then, there, to you?
    i’ve spent my life as soon as i could
    running, but what if, for once,
    i didn’t want to flee,
    held fast in that early morning light?
    then at last, desperation could go unspoken,
    but be known and seen and felt…



    #2022 #eight #implicationsGoBrr #Juneau #ourPoetry
  9. I woke up and I had to type this out before I lost it.

    I look at the fireworks show that has become 
    of my life and call each spark and sparkle
    something different, divorced from me
    as if I were watching the show on a field
    on the 4th of July
    and it isn't my own life that keeps exploding -

    ~this came to me in a dream 

    -Allēna 3/19/2026 #dreams #inMyBrain #myBrainDoesThis #ourPoetry #thisCameToMeInADream #weirdDream
  10. Mk and I are going to be doing another joint reading!

    This time it will be in my Discord server, the opensorceryy club.

    It’s on March 31 at 8PM and I hope I see y’all there 💛 mk will be reading selections from its recently published chapbook, Different With Him, and I will be reading some very queer pieces from my most recent zine, Fear Not The Brave Pain, and beyond.

    I’m stoked.

    -Allēna

    #jointReading #mkzariel #ourPoetry #poetryPerformance #queerPoets #WisconsinPoets
  11. “still life (2019)”

    “untitled still life (2019)” 

    I don't want to give names
    to your fistfuls of hollow
    coffee cup still half full, overturned
    baroque broken words, reaching for something
    that forever seems older
    than you or I in every language
    well run dry, and yet
    despite yourself
    each moment in atemporal space
    teeming with life

    when we met, I
    wanted to drink myself into the ground,
    an inelegant death like hemingway perhaps
    after bleeding worlds onto ten thousand pages
    inspired by black coffee and gin
    I'm sober now and you're still empty glasses,
    the smell of pages, wine
    and cigarettes after two years of silence
    I can still vanish into the liquor darkness of you
    without ever tasting a drop
    I don't want to die anymore
    (most days)
    and perhaps I am a fool
    for wandering through your still life fortress of
    melancholy

    but you keep coming back to me,
    three hundred year old moment
    or perhaps you are a memory
    I've never been good at untangling how I feel
    and some days I feel like I am made of iron
    but today I feel like nothing more than glass -


    Allēna 3/1/2026
    #2019 #bettertogethermke #foolInTheFortressOfMelancholy #Juneau #ourPoetry #owOofMySoul
  12. I have no idea what to call this, but here you go.

    january ejected me into this new life
    feet first, cords that I tried to cut wrapped thrice round
    my throat
    choking me
    I work myself to the bone to make the best of
    this breech rebirth but there’s still all this wrath
    that I cannot shake
    you tell me to let it go but it’s seared into my
    bones, it’s what keeps me going
    I have nothing else left to give
    january, you are a cruel mother
    and I am exhausted from pushing myself
    through your days
    once more unto the breach

    -Allēna 1/20/2026

    #ourpoetry
  13. “supplication”

    you have taken the world that I was
    and left me empty
    craving
    longing
    is there anything that I can use to fill the chasm
    on the side of the bed where you once slept

    I stumble home
    if I can even still call it that
    for in the taking, you
    took more than just yourself
    you took everything that meant something to me
    from this space and left it ruined
    just like me

    now even the flies are starving

    sobs wrack my threadbare chest
    everyone that I once knew is turning
    away from me and into their own personal
    darkness, tired
    can you come back and give me anything
    even undo me again
    please

    -Allēna 1/11/2026

    #bettertogethermke #cheatingincident #hungryGhost #ourpoetry #Zelda
  14. I performed at Linneman’s last night and it went phenomenally!

    I was so scared before and after that my chest felt like it had been hit with a frying pan, though..

    -Allēna

    #ourpoetry #SliceOfLife
  15. A more radio friendly version of my piece “Peak Milwaukee Queer Culture” played on Riverwest Radio today!

    You can listen to the episode here.

    -Allēna

    #Goodbye2025 #NewYearsEve #ourpoetry #radio
  16. We wrote object poems in workshop today.

    faceless blessings in disguise 
    looking askance at gift horses
    with bejeweled eyes
    are they empty or full to the brim
    do I hoard them
    or do I give them away
    is it finally my time to come out of hiding
    after all the time that was stolen from me
    this little thing is winking at me offscreen
    I think it's telling me everything is gonna be alright
    but that's what they said before
    and if I stuck them in a lineup their dead eyes would all glint the same
    people told me when I
    got up from the piano bench that fame
    would be inevitable
    I was always going to be someone
    I was always going to do something
    (as if I wasn't already a gift)
    time after time I tried to run
    time after time I tried to just be
    dissolve into winter nights and simply be
    unremarkable with the man I swore I had chosen
    but what I know of myself is in the doing
    all I know of myself is in what I choose to give
    away
    I let the rest of myself die
    collapsed into dead star self hatred
    lost somewhere deep in kaleidoscopic shadow
    The object I based the poem on.

    -Allēna 12/21/2025

    #bettertogethermke #objectPoem #ourpoetry
  17. Well, I TRIED to perform at a domestic violence spoken word event my friend organized today.

    But I got so fuckin triggered that I couldn’t do it, which honestly says a lot about how effective the writers and organizer were, and ended up eating my favorite Milwaukee comfort food, Mad Chicken, instead. Emerson was also a phenomenal comfort.

    -Allēna

    #Emerson #ourpoetry #SliceOfLife
  18. This is called “Fibonacci’s Spiral”.

    Allēna wrote it today.

    -Ashley (they/he)

    #goldenratio #math #ourpoetry

  19. “18”

    about our experiences at St. John’s College in Annapolis, MD

    I was only 18 when you lost me 
    it was more than just a flesh wound
    I had just lost my father, it was second semester
    and everyone there was different, more liberal or
    left leaning than me
    alcoholics alone in their dorms, trying to wash
    away their sins and praying for whiskey and the pulsing of drums to absolve them.

    they talked about God as though he were just
    another thing to dismantle, unfathomable to
    my sheltered, rubbed raw mind
    and you dashed me open like I was an egg,
    forgotten and left over after breakfast,
    carelessly tossed over the railing
    you mishandled all of me
    when my friends told you that the same boy
    who'd used me up with empty promises
    and then discarded me like I was nothing
    had done it to at least 4 other women,
    you did nothing, only sat there on your pedestal
    on your impenetrable hill, and allowed him to
    continue.
    I learned about it all and I never forgave you
    and I wanted to kill him.
    I was only 18.

    I was only 18 when I became a corporeal ghost
    barely breathing
    barely eating, barely getting out of bed
    haunted by the boy who'd raped me
    haunted by my father's death
    haunted by the fact that you'd still allow him
    to share these halls with my friends.
    haunted by the gaping void my life had become
    see, my friends talked about God and saints
    like they were dead. Little did they know that
    I was becoming one of the bodies. all because you refused
    to listen.
    I was only 18.

    I was only 18 when you saw me slipping away
    and still you demanded more, more blood from
    an already fragile stone. all the help you gave
    only made it worse.
    I'm still finding pieces of myself in the dark 10
    years later. I still grieve for all the time I lost.
    how foolish of me to think that this was home.
    how could I have known any better?
    I was, after all, only 18...

    -Allēna 12/7/2025

    #coercion #cptsd #dvsurvivor #MarylandCollege #ourpoetry #stjohnscollegeannapolis

  20. I wrote this today. It’s called “why I love you”.

    you asked me once 
    suspended over a chasm of grief
    why I loved you
    I couldn't string the words around you to tell you then
    so I shall attempt to tell you now

    you are a lavender field
    earth still wet from spring rain
    and loving you is learning to dance again
    hair still wet through the rows of flowers on
    these crippled legs
    no matter how long it takes to get the steps right
    no matter how long it takes to move without falling
    you are a game of chance
    and loving you is taking the tenderest risk I've
    ever known
    loving you is lilac, pale blue, and gold like the
    subtle ring around your irises when you look at
    me

    loving you is slow mornings and evenings that
    always seem to go too fast
    loving you is enough memories to fill a Martian
    year and enough emotion to fill an entire planet
    loving you is savoring 1001 days and nights
    for all they're worth and never, ever taking each
    other for granted
    loving you is allowing myself to be broken open
    and reborn, again and again
    loving you is allowing you to do the same
    and loving you is meeting the people you love
    (because it's never just been us against
    this crazy world)
    and finding that I trust you even more after doing
    so because they're some of the finest people
    I've ever known

    you are multiverses
    you are adventure
    you are passion and fire
    you are the ripple of time dancing
    you are everything and nothing at once
    loving you is learning to hold all of that
    in a single touch (and God does it feel so good)
    I bet everything I had and then some on you
    because the moment I saw you, I knew I was
    yours
    and I would fucking do it again in a heartbeat
    that is why I love you.
    -Allēna 12/1/2025

    #emerson #lovePoem #ourpoetry

  21. Allēna performed a very vulnerable piece tonight at Poet’s Monday.

    This is called “body politics.” Here is the performance.

    https://www.instagram.com/reel/DRdp_4VCQts/?igsh=MWdkYnRmM2prZHMxMg==

    -Australis, he/him, hello, I’m new.

    #ourpoetry #queerpoet #transpoet #transpoetry

  22. OUR LINNEMAN’S FEATURE HAS BEEN ANNOUNCED ON THEIR WEBSITE!

    We’re going to be featured at Poet’s Monday on January 5th. We’re going to be the first feature of the year! See more details here. -Peri

    #feature #ourpoetry

  23. This is a new poem called “your god is a boning knife” about my time in the Mormon Church.

    the god of your dreaming world is a boning knife
    made to pry black from white
    good from evil, the same from the other
    the wheat from the chaff
    you’ve made the sacred into a weapon, a tool
    and reality into delusion

    the god of your dreaming world is a crowbar
    made to pry denial from the self
    love from fear (to you, they are one and the
    same)
    blood from stones, beauty from ashes
    until the souls you’ve carved in the name of
    perfection, divine judgment, are not souls anymore
    they are vessels for your unholy scripture
    and their too perfect smiles don’t look
    joyful to me anymore
    they look like silent screams

    the god of your dreaming world is a club
    you use words to bludgeon when you can
    no longer pry
    slow violence and promises of an unsafe world
    outside of these walls to
    keep followers in line
    you’ve made faith into such a violent thing
    I never want to touch it again for fear of holding
    the same weapons you used against me

    the god of your dreaming world is a noose
    and I am still suspended upside down by my
    left ankle when I sleep sometimes all these years
    later
    as the blood rushes to my head I wonder what I
    did to deserve this, how I fell for this
    as I scream for someone to cut me down

    I got out from under the shadow of your god
    just barely
    I am not perfect, I don’t want your vision
    you will not pry anything else from me

    -Peri 11/18/2025

    #exMormon2 #ourpoetry

  24. untitled 11/16/2025

    the wind in the trees outside my window
    sounds like waves
    and occasionally I get a scent that takes me back
    before four unhappy new years wore me down
    I am less agoraphobic now
    but this smell is fall’s last breath as it
    collapses into winter
    and I collapsed then, too
    I thought I’d seen the last of me
    I tried to warn you in songs that were everything short of a scream
    when nothing else seemed to make sense to you
    sparse like the first weekend of a midwestern
    december
    (just as cold as you became)
    (black ice dead eyes and all)
    and failing that, I vanished
    into the empty western sky

    but once it looked like I could be happy
    once it looked like I could have it all
    you chased me through the autumns, the winters
    and the years as if none of what you’d done
    to me before mattered
    over and over and over again
    I never understood it
    why was I so important
    and ultimately
    why do you pursue a vision of me
    that was never real at all

    -Allēna

    #ourpoetry

  25. I pitched an idea for a spring themed multimedia show to a shop and studio here in town in March or April. They say they’ll get back to me next week.

    If this goes well, I want to do it again. I think I’m going to put it together regardless, though.

    -Allēna

    #ourart #ourmusic #ourpoetry

  26. This was the result of a very special workshop on ekphrastic poetry today.

    I am a sorceress, twice in exile –
    they claim my magic is merely madness, but
    those with the eyes to see know better
    I am the voiceless breaker of curses, until now
    bearer of grief no one knows about
    I am no one’s prisoner anymore

    to know myself is to know my power
    to know myself is the key to my freedom
    I have all that I need
    there is an embarrassment of riches in my heart
    and though you may not like what you see
    you might be shocked by it
    terrified by it
    I have looked within so I can look without
    I see you for all that you are now
    and you hold no charm for me
    I am made of night and waves and song
    water and air, wrath and lightning
    while you are made of nothingness
    I do not need you, you need me
    you will no longer have my pain

    so here I go, I’ve broken my chains
    and the ties that bind me
    and I take my first steps into the dawn and
    the red world

    ~”the sorceress”, after breaking the vicious circle by remedios varo, written by Allēna 11/9/2025

    #ekphrasticpoetry #ourpoetry #poetryWorkshop

  27. I rustle through the carpet of leaves as patterns of thought overwrite family history. Unrevealed volitions rise from chthonic depths of spirit as the ungrateful son I never was becomes the daughter of Gaya I am.

    -
    #WritingCommunity
    #PennedReveries #OurPoetry #vss365 #FoxProse #BlueSkyRelay

    @writingcommunity @vss365 @poetry

  28. I found this gem from 9/20/2022 in our Google Drive.

    I am longing for longing’s sake
    I’ve struggled to let my heart want
    what it wants for so long that I’m going to
    let whatever haunts it haunt me.
    And fuck, I want so much. 

    there’s a man back east
    mysterious and strange
    fascinated by everything
    I think he may have been thirteen the
    first time I met Death
    I want nothing less than his mind
    but I want nothing more
    and I think I’m fine with that.

    There’s a woman in a hypothetical west
    with slender hands and tapering fingers
    come here? I ask her
    and she walks through rooms older
    than both of us combined
    she walks home, despite the fear
    through the years
    she walks home
    to me

    I want afternoons and gold dust evenings
    I want to let the world enchant me again
    one song at a time
    I want to be enthralled with what I have
    and what I will have
    and what I will lose
    The world is not a dead place.
    It is not made up of stark black and white.
    I may be tired but Death has yet to find me
    again
    Until then, I make my way home
    I will do what the man in the east did
    what the woman in the west will do
    And become fascinated with everything
    again.

    -Castor

    #ourpoetry

  29. We did blackout poetry in workshop today. This is what I came up with:

    I got this from an essay on Shakespeare’s King Lear.

    -Allēna

    #blackoutPoetry #KingLear #ourPoetry #shakespeare

  30. Ooops, I had more spoons than previously thought.. And made a zine.

    If you want your own copy of it, it’s over here 💛

    If you relate, you have my condolences. This is a sad one.

    -Lazarus

    #actuallyAuDHD #ActuallyAutistic #contemplation #isolation #Loneliness #OurArt #ourpoetry #sadness #spilledink #thoughts #trauma #zine

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