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Here we go, first real post-dilation meal. I had some teff porridge this morning, but that's soft and I ate very slowly.
It's not much, because, honestly, I'm just scared to eat and that's why I've been procrastinating. (It's 9 PM here.)
I'm anxious around food in general, because it's been making me feel so uncomfortable for the past 2,5 years. Scared that it might hurt if it passes through the esophageal sphincter. And most of all, scared that maybe the procedure didn't work.
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CW: Needles and hospitals
It took three attempts to get the needle in but I'm ready and waiting. Wish me luck!
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This was day two without solid foods, and I'm feeling perfectly fine, not hungry at all. I'm just really sad that I can't have pizza, fries, crisps or candy. For a whole week. I want pizza. 😭
(If anyone's wondering, no I can't really eat pizza. Occasionally I did it anyway and then... Well, let's put it this way, I got to taste every slice twice hehe. 😂)
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Btw you don't have to feel sorry for me that I can't eat solid foods for a few days. I haven't been able to eat normally in years and I don't experience hunger anymore. I'll have some nutrition drinks and I'll be fine. I'm only annoyed that I can't eat crisps. 😂
I'm not going to work, just staying in bed reading and sleeping this week, and I'm kind of looking forward to that. A little nervous, but mostly I'm just happy and relieved that this whole nightmare is going to be over soon. #achalasia
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I wasn't grumpy, just exhausted. I had trouble eating since spring 2020. But since April I wasn't able to eat enough calories to continue existing. I lost 10 kg. This while trying to avoid any form of exercise to reduce my caloric expenditure to ca. 1500 (my pre-covid average was 2700).
I felt my body using up its reserves. I lost a lot of muscle. I don't have other words to describe it, but by September it felt like my body and mind were both shutting down. It was frightening.
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I stopped eating solid foods today, because I have my first balloon dilation next Monday. Then two more days of fluids only, another dilation on Thursday, and I'll be allowed to eat solid food again on Friday. And hopefully, I'll then be able to eat more or less normally.
Someone told me today she admired me for always coming to work, even though some people thought I was grumpy. I didn't know people said that about me, but they don't know how I feel so I don't really care.
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Posting this so people with similar interests can find me:
#literature #books #vegan #achalasia #scleroderma #SystemicSclerosis #France #french #SGA #Stargate #scifi #ComputerHistory #History of #ComputerScience, #Aviation & #Medicine #NaturalHistory
#NaturalDisaster #FrenchHistory #Lapérouse #colonialism #Hispaniola #slavery #enlightenment #WWII #Holocaust #Todoist #bujo #bulletjournal #journaling #arthistory #surrealism #cubism #ForgottenVegetables #drawing #Chumbawamba -
CW: Just a bunch of tags
Posting this so people with similar interests can find me:
#literature #books #vegan #achalasia #scleroderma #SystemicSclerosis #France #french #SGA #Stargate #scifi #ComputerHistory #History of #ComputerScience, #Aviation & #Medicine #NaturalHistory
#NaturalDisaster #FrenchHistory #Lapérouse #colonialism #Hispaniola #slavery #enlightenment #WWII #Holocaust #Todoist #bujo #bulletjournal #journaling #arthistory #surrealism #cubism #ForgottenVegetables #drawing #Chumbawamba