#eatingdisorderrecovery — Public Fediverse posts

I've been getting to know this guy as a potential FWB, and last night, I told him all about my eating disorder.

He was lovely about it, but then offered to be someone I could be "accountable" to for my behaviour, and, ewww no.

I'm sure he had the best intentions, but there is no way I'm going to be accountable to anyone but me. Imagine if he started interrogating my protein intake while his dick's still wet, ewww.

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*BIG SIGH* I've had a relapse.

I haven't done a great deal of writing this week because I've been more focused on bingeing, and I'm talking *every single day*, which is significant in terms of relapses and generally very shitty.

And when I do go to write, my eating disorder and this week's trigger is the only subject on my mind. But would it be really annoying and boring if I published yet more words on this?

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I've been on a little writing hiatus, because of life getting in the way, but I realised it's a pretty important anniversary and I felt compelled to write to myself about it.

CW for descriptions of binge eating disorder and body dysmorphia

One Year: https://robyneatseverything.com/one-year/

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The reason I'm focused on gym-going right now, is that I'm trying to break the cycle of eating disorder recovery - being triggered by my changing body - eating disorder relapse.

I figure, if I can take more control over my changing body (change it in ways I want to, become stronger, enjoy the journey a bit more), I can then have better control over the trigger.

Watch this space...

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I made it to bedtime without binging.

Sometimes in recovery you have to take it hour by hour, even 5 minutes by 5 minutes, rather than day by day. What helped today was talking about it, having a screaming hot shower while listening to riot grrl, having a proper dinner, a walk, fruit, and breathing.

And thank you to those who popped into my DMs to offer support 🧡

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Just completed the Hunger & Fullness Masterclass by Ryann Nicole, and the transformation I’ve seen as a result of better understanding emotional vs physical hunger and fullness thanks to this course has been unbelievable. My hunger has always felt complicated and out of control, but I finally got excellent help with this self-paced course. I haven’t had a frantic, painful meal in two weeks even though I was definitely experiencing a lot of stressors during that time. :shiba_excited: This gives me so much hope for all the other inner healing I have planned. It’s never too late or too hopeless to get help. :blob_heart: #EmotionalEating #BingeEating #BingeEatingDisorder #EatingDisorderRecovery

So yes, I'm a cute weirdo who has a dumpling tattoo. A cute weirdo who right now has a purpose and a will and a little bit of help to live how I truly want to live.

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That's obviously a big job for one little dumpling, but even now, I'm looking at its happy, trouble-free face and feeling positive about what and how I'm going to eat tomorrow.

There is a danger I might grow to resent it, as I often resent food and eating and my recovery. However, I often resent all of them for trapping me, for preventing me from living, and this dumpling just screams life to me right now.

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I often need to be reminded that food can be joyful. That eating can be positive, jubilant, pleasurable, social, and *fun*.

And that's because, having an eating disorder, it is often none of those things. It's often isolating, desperate, numbing, anxious, and wretched. I wrote about what it can be like here: https://robyneatseverything.wordpress.com/2023/05/22/whats-in-a-name-pt-2/

This little dumpling is going to help remind me what eating *can* be like.

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TW eating disorder ED talk

Being autistic and falling into disordered eating is so easy. I used to take advantage of my poor interroception to go without food for most of the day. It's easy to starve if you can't feel your body signals. I already had dissociated from my body to survive sensory overwhelm from daily life. So it was a very small, easy step to develop an ED.

It offered me all the control that I didn't have in my daily life. And of course at the time I thought I was just making a healthy change. I didn't realise what I'd done until years later.

Having poor interroception also makes it hard to recover. Intuitive eating isn't really that intuitive for me. There are other ways to recover, I know. It's just an obstacle I've observed.

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