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  1. For decades, I chased in-person belonging through choirs, church groups, and community events. I performed the expected roles while drowning in sensory overload, masking, and accessibility barriers. I have finally stopped forcing it. I am accepting that my true home has always been online.

    In the mid-90s, it was the early web and BBS systems where I first found disabled peers. Then came IRC, where hours of text chat kept depression and burnout at bay. Facebook followed in 2006, though I only kept it for family. Twitter became a lifeline later on. A group of us who are blind shared our days in real time. When accessibility was dismantled and third-party apps died, I moved here to Mastodon. Finding this autistic and neurodivergent community has been a revelation.

    Online spaces give me information, rhythm, and connection without the unbearable cost of physical navigation and social performance. Realising this brings grief for the years I spent striving to fit a mould that was never built for me. It also brings immense relief. This is not a retreat. It is a return to where I fit.

    I am curious if anyone else has reached this same acceptance. I would love to hear how you manage the physical realities of a predominantly online life. I am figuring out how to handle exercise alongside managing meals and daily health routines. I am also very interested to hear if anyone uses body doubling to get these physical tasks done.

    Please share your experiences and strategies in the replies.

    #AuDHD #ActuallyAutistic #Blind #Disability #Neurodivergent #Monotropism #BodyDoubling #Accessibility #LateDiagnosed

  2. For decades, I chased in-person belonging through choirs, church groups, and community events. I performed the expected roles while drowning in sensory overload, masking, and accessibility barriers. I have finally stopped forcing it. I am accepting that my true home has always been online.

    In the mid-90s, it was the early web and BBS systems where I first found disabled peers. Then came IRC, where hours of text chat kept depression and burnout at bay. Facebook followed in 2006, though I only kept it for family. Twitter became a lifeline later on. A group of us who are blind shared our days in real time. When accessibility was dismantled and third-party apps died, I moved here to Mastodon. Finding this autistic and neurodivergent community has been a revelation.

    Online spaces give me information, rhythm, and connection without the unbearable cost of physical navigation and social performance. Realising this brings grief for the years I spent striving to fit a mould that was never built for me. It also brings immense relief. This is not a retreat. It is a return to where I fit.

    I am curious if anyone else has reached this same acceptance. I would love to hear how you manage the physical realities of a predominantly online life. I am figuring out how to handle exercise alongside managing meals and daily health routines. I am also very interested to hear if anyone uses body doubling to get these physical tasks done.

    Please share your experiences and strategies in the replies.

    #AuDHD #ActuallyAutistic #Blind #Disability #Neurodivergent #Monotropism #BodyDoubling #Accessibility #LateDiagnosed

  3. I have been reflecting deeply on my neurodivergence and how my monotropic brain operates. I am curious to know if others in the neurodivergent community share this experience. Music is my only constant interest. Beyond that, my passions change constantly, sometimes week to week. I cycle rapidly through ancient history, writing, culture, and sociology.

    I also dive deeply into aspects of my counselling studies. I spend intense periods completely absorbed in Internal Family Systems coaching, neuroaffirming practices, or positive psychology applications. My brain works like a massive burst of energy. It fires on all cylinders, diving intensely into whatever captures my attention at that moment. As long as the interest is sustained, my focus is absolute.

    The moment boredom hits or the interest wanes, my brain stops dead and completely switches off. This intense processing style explains why I struggle in standard groups. Interestingly, I find many Autistic spaces often feel too slow for my processing speed, causing my brain to switch off from understimulation. I need spaces that accommodate my rapid, shifting focus. I prefer online communities as my ideal environment, perhaps with occasional in person events once I build trust.

    I am also highly selective about news and politics because chronic exposure hyperactivates the amygdala. This triggers a sustained sympathetic nervous system response, flooding the brain with cortisol and causing cognitive fatigue. Engaging in popular topics is therefore difficult. I am very interested to hear if anyone else relates to this rapid cycling of intense interests or the immediate brain shut down when understimulated. Please share your experiences in the replies.

    #Neurodivergent #AuDHD #ActuallyAutistic #Monotropism #MentalHealth #Psychology #Neurodiversity

  4. I have been reflecting deeply on my neurodivergence and how my monotropic brain operates. I am curious to know if others in the neurodivergent community share this experience. Music is my only constant interest. Beyond that, my passions change constantly, sometimes week to week. I cycle rapidly through ancient history, writing, culture, and sociology.

    I also dive deeply into aspects of my counselling studies. I spend intense periods completely absorbed in Internal Family Systems coaching, neuroaffirming practices, or positive psychology applications. My brain works like a massive burst of energy. It fires on all cylinders, diving intensely into whatever captures my attention at that moment. As long as the interest is sustained, my focus is absolute.

    The moment boredom hits or the interest wanes, my brain stops dead and completely switches off. This intense processing style explains why I struggle in standard groups. Interestingly, I find many Autistic spaces often feel too slow for my processing speed, causing my brain to switch off from understimulation. I need spaces that accommodate my rapid, shifting focus. I prefer online communities as my ideal environment, perhaps with occasional in person events once I build trust.

    I am also highly selective about news and politics because chronic exposure hyperactivates the amygdala. This triggers a sustained sympathetic nervous system response, flooding the brain with cortisol and causing cognitive fatigue. Engaging in popular topics is therefore difficult. I am very interested to hear if anyone else relates to this rapid cycling of intense interests or the immediate brain shut down when understimulated. Please share your experiences in the replies.

    #Neurodivergent #AuDHD #ActuallyAutistic #Monotropism #MentalHealth #Psychology #Neurodiversity

  5. Twenty-seven years of church attendance has brought me to a point of profound realisation regarding belonging. Sitting in services, bible studies, and fellowship groups gradually revealed how these spaces were not structured for my participation. Access was rarely offered proactively. Printed song lyrics or service sheets were frequently unavailable, and requesting them positioned me as a burden. Accommodations for sensory overload were never suggested by leadership. My presence was simply taken as evidence of coping, which meant actual needs remained unaddressed.

    Participating in traditional fellowship presents insurmountable barriers when you cannot see or hear the room. Missing the subtle visual cues or auditory tone of an approaching person means conversations start without you. By the time processing catches up to the exchange, the moment has usually passed. Combining these sensory realities with an AuDHD brain running fast and making unexpected connections creates a profound disconnect. Every post-service gathering turned into an exercise in standing alone alongside others forming groups effortlessly. Paid support was always required to physically arrange interactions for me, meaning nobody was actively choosing to seek me out independently.

    Theology has shifted significantly over this period. Hell is framed now as separation and distance from the Source, instead of a place of punishment. Heaven represents being drawn into unity with creation. God moves through wind, trees, water, and breath, flowing through what exists whenever I stop blocking it. Viewing the Trinity as a manifestation of the divine across different modes offers clarity. This framework survived the dismantling of earlier beliefs and provides a much more robust foundation for faith.

    Christian contemplation is where my spirituality actually lives today. Writers like Richard Rohr, Thomas Merton, and Julian of Norwich have given me the language for a faith rooted in presence over performance. Rohr’s teachings on the True Self resonate deeply, stripping away the ego-driven compliance I maintained for decades. Lectio divina, centring prayer, and sitting in silence ask nothing of me except to be there. Mindfulness and slow living naturally accompany this path, offering a way to exist without the constant pressure of social demands or displaying correct reactions.

    Operating monotropically means attention goes deeply into whatever subject is currently active instead of spreading across many fixed categories. Books, classical music, or self-inquiry capture my entire focus when they are open. Choosing to limit the information I consume aligns with this cognitive style. News, politics, and history are engaged with only upon necessity, not as ongoing commitments. Slow living becomes a practical requirement for staying intact, not merely an aesthetic preference.

    Deciding to go to an online church has been a logical response to these compounding exclusions. An internet-based community structured around contemplative practice removes the need to stand in a noisy hall hoping someone walks over. Participation is built into the format itself, circumventing the barriers of sight, hearing, and reading a room. Structured liturgy provides stability, the welcome is genuine, and the gathering focuses on practice over inaccessible socialising.

    Isolation remains a stark reality in my daily routine. Most of my in-person interaction is limited to a support worker and a therapist. Spaces designed around disability rarely align with my other interests, and general groups do not suit my pacing. Acknowledging this loneliness takes effort. Yet, putting down unsuitable expectations has brought an unexpected freedom. Accepting the actual shape of my life is allowing me, very slowly, to finally become myself.

    #FaithDeconstruction #ChristianMysticism #ContemplativePrayer #ChurchAccess #DisabilityAndFaith #Accessibility #LectioDivina #CentringPrayer #Monotropism #Burnout #AuDHD #OnlineChurch #NewSeason #RichardRohr

  6. Twenty-seven years of church attendance has brought me to a point of profound realisation regarding belonging. Sitting in services, bible studies, and fellowship groups gradually revealed how these spaces were not structured for my participation. Access was rarely offered proactively. Printed song lyrics or service sheets were frequently unavailable, and requesting them positioned me as a burden. Accommodations for sensory overload were never suggested by leadership. My presence was simply taken as evidence of coping, which meant actual needs remained unaddressed.

    Participating in traditional fellowship presents insurmountable barriers when you cannot see or hear the room. Missing the subtle visual cues or auditory tone of an approaching person means conversations start without you. By the time processing catches up to the exchange, the moment has usually passed. Combining these sensory realities with an AuDHD brain running fast and making unexpected connections creates a profound disconnect. Every post-service gathering turned into an exercise in standing alone alongside others forming groups effortlessly. Paid support was always required to physically arrange interactions for me, meaning nobody was actively choosing to seek me out independently.

    Theology has shifted significantly over this period. Hell is framed now as separation and distance from the Source, instead of a place of punishment. Heaven represents being drawn into unity with creation. God moves through wind, trees, water, and breath, flowing through what exists whenever I stop blocking it. Viewing the Trinity as a manifestation of the divine across different modes offers clarity. This framework survived the dismantling of earlier beliefs and provides a much more robust foundation for faith.

    Christian contemplation is where my spirituality actually lives today. Writers like Richard Rohr, Thomas Merton, and Julian of Norwich have given me the language for a faith rooted in presence over performance. Rohr’s teachings on the True Self resonate deeply, stripping away the ego-driven compliance I maintained for decades. Lectio divina, centring prayer, and sitting in silence ask nothing of me except to be there. Mindfulness and slow living naturally accompany this path, offering a way to exist without the constant pressure of social demands or displaying correct reactions.

    Operating monotropically means attention goes deeply into whatever subject is currently active instead of spreading across many fixed categories. Books, classical music, or self-inquiry capture my entire focus when they are open. Choosing to limit the information I consume aligns with this cognitive style. News, politics, and history are engaged with only upon necessity, not as ongoing commitments. Slow living becomes a practical requirement for staying intact, not merely an aesthetic preference.

    Deciding to go to an online church has been a logical response to these compounding exclusions. An internet-based community structured around contemplative practice removes the need to stand in a noisy hall hoping someone walks over. Participation is built into the format itself, circumventing the barriers of sight, hearing, and reading a room. Structured liturgy provides stability, the welcome is genuine, and the gathering focuses on practice over inaccessible socialising.

    Isolation remains a stark reality in my daily routine. Most of my in-person interaction is limited to a support worker and a therapist. Spaces designed around disability rarely align with my other interests, and general groups do not suit my pacing. Acknowledging this loneliness takes effort. Yet, putting down unsuitable expectations has brought an unexpected freedom. Accepting the actual shape of my life is allowing me, very slowly, to finally become myself.

    #FaithDeconstruction #ChristianMysticism #ContemplativePrayer #ChurchAccess #DisabilityAndFaith #Accessibility #LectioDivina #CentringPrayer #Monotropism #Burnout #AuDHD #OnlineChurch #NewSeason #RichardRohr

  7. Twenty-seven years of church attendance has brought me to a point of profound realisation regarding belonging. Sitting in services, bible studies, and fellowship groups gradually revealed how these spaces were not structured for my participation. Access was rarely offered proactively. Printed song lyrics or service sheets were frequently unavailable, and requesting them positioned me as a burden. Accommodations for sensory overload were never suggested by leadership. My presence was simply taken as evidence of coping, which meant actual needs remained unaddressed.

    Participating in traditional fellowship presents insurmountable barriers when you cannot see or hear the room. Missing the subtle visual cues or auditory tone of an approaching person means conversations start without you. By the time processing catches up to the exchange, the moment has usually passed. Combining these sensory realities with an AuDHD brain running fast and making unexpected connections creates a profound disconnect. Every post-service gathering turned into an exercise in standing alone alongside others forming groups effortlessly. Paid support was always required to physically arrange interactions for me, meaning nobody was actively choosing to seek me out independently.

    Theology has shifted significantly over this period. Hell is framed now as separation and distance from the Source, instead of a place of punishment. Heaven represents being drawn into unity with creation. God moves through wind, trees, water, and breath, flowing through what exists whenever I stop blocking it. Viewing the Trinity as a manifestation of the divine across different modes offers clarity. This framework survived the dismantling of earlier beliefs and provides a much more robust foundation for faith.

    Christian contemplation is where my spirituality actually lives today. Writers like Richard Rohr, Thomas Merton, and Julian of Norwich have given me the language for a faith rooted in presence over performance. Rohr’s teachings on the True Self resonate deeply, stripping away the ego-driven compliance I maintained for decades. Lectio divina, centring prayer, and sitting in silence ask nothing of me except to be there. Mindfulness and slow living naturally accompany this path, offering a way to exist without the constant pressure of social demands or displaying correct reactions.

    Operating monotropically means attention goes deeply into whatever subject is currently active instead of spreading across many fixed categories. Books, classical music, or self-inquiry capture my entire focus when they are open. Choosing to limit the information I consume aligns with this cognitive style. News, politics, and history are engaged with only upon necessity, not as ongoing commitments. Slow living becomes a practical requirement for staying intact, not merely an aesthetic preference.

    Deciding to go to an online church has been a logical response to these compounding exclusions. An internet-based community structured around contemplative practice removes the need to stand in a noisy hall hoping someone walks over. Participation is built into the format itself, circumventing the barriers of sight, hearing, and reading a room. Structured liturgy provides stability, the welcome is genuine, and the gathering focuses on practice over inaccessible socialising.

    Isolation remains a stark reality in my daily routine. Most of my in-person interaction is limited to a support worker and a therapist. Spaces designed around disability rarely align with my other interests, and general groups do not suit my pacing. Acknowledging this loneliness takes effort. Yet, putting down unsuitable expectations has brought an unexpected freedom. Accepting the actual shape of my life is allowing me, very slowly, to become myself finally.

    #FaithDeconstruction #ChristianMysticism #ContemplativePrayer #ChurchAccess #DisabilityAndFaith #Accessibility #LectioDivina #CentringPrayer #Monotropism #Burnout #AuDHD #OnlineChurch #NewSeason #RichardRohr

  8. Twenty-seven years of church attendance has brought me to a point of profound realisation regarding belonging. Sitting in services, bible studies, and fellowship groups gradually revealed how these spaces were not structured for my participation. Access was rarely offered proactively. Printed song lyrics or service sheets were frequently unavailable, and requesting them positioned me as a burden. Accommodations for sensory overload were never suggested by leadership. My presence was simply taken as evidence of coping, which meant actual needs remained unaddressed.

    Participating in traditional fellowship presents insurmountable barriers when you cannot see or hear the room. Missing the subtle visual cues or auditory tone of an approaching person means conversations start without you. By the time processing catches up to the exchange, the moment has usually passed. Combining these sensory realities with an AuDHD brain running fast and making unexpected connections creates a profound disconnect. Every post-service gathering turned into an exercise in standing alone alongside others forming groups effortlessly. Paid support was always required to physically arrange interactions for me, meaning nobody was actively choosing to seek me out independently.

    Theology has shifted significantly over this period. Hell is framed now as separation and distance from the Source, instead of a place of punishment. Heaven represents being drawn into unity with creation. God moves through wind, trees, water, and breath, flowing through what exists whenever I stop blocking it. Viewing the Trinity as a manifestation of the divine across different modes offers clarity. This framework survived the dismantling of earlier beliefs and provides a much more robust foundation for faith.

    Christian contemplation is where my spirituality actually lives today. Writers like Richard Rohr, Thomas Merton, and Julian of Norwich have given me the language for a faith rooted in presence over performance. Rohr’s teachings on the True Self resonate deeply, stripping away the ego-driven compliance I maintained for decades. Lectio divina, centring prayer, and sitting in silence ask nothing of me except to be there. Mindfulness and slow living naturally accompany this path, offering a way to exist without the constant pressure of social demands or displaying correct reactions.

    Operating monotropically means attention goes deeply into whatever subject is currently active instead of spreading across many fixed categories. Books, classical music, or self-inquiry capture my entire focus when they are open. Choosing to limit the information I consume aligns with this cognitive style. News, politics, and history are engaged with only upon necessity, not as ongoing commitments. Slow living becomes a practical requirement for staying intact, not merely an aesthetic preference.

    Deciding to go to an online church has been a logical response to these compounding exclusions. An internet-based community structured around contemplative practice removes the need to stand in a noisy hall hoping someone walks over. Participation is built into the format itself, circumventing the barriers of sight, hearing, and reading a room. Structured liturgy provides stability, the welcome is genuine, and the gathering focuses on practice over inaccessible socialising.

    Isolation remains a stark reality in my daily routine. Most of my in-person interaction is limited to a support worker and a therapist. Spaces designed around disability rarely align with my other interests, and general groups do not suit my pacing. Acknowledging this loneliness takes effort. Yet, putting down unsuitable expectations has brought an unexpected freedom. Accepting the actual shape of my life is allowing me, very slowly, to become myself finally.

    #FaithDeconstruction #ChristianMysticism #ContemplativePrayer #ChurchAccess #DisabilityAndFaith #Accessibility #LectioDivina #CentringPrayer #Monotropism #Burnout #AuDHD #OnlineChurch #NewSeason #RichardRohr

  9. Still struggling a LOT with #monotropism in terms of tasks/obligations.

    It's very very very difficult to do anything else if something on my future to do list is very daunting for me.

    It may take days or weeks (or months) to finally tackle said daunting task and meanwhile I'm wildly unlikely to be able to get much done apart from small, well spaced out chores.

    It's somewhat helpful to reframe by rescheduling the task to some later date and then assuring myself it's ok to breathe between now and then—that can open up some space *sometimes*....

    But even so. Daunting tasks aside, I have such a hard time with reorganizing what I need to do if I've already 'set' a task and then that task is being avoided or gets delayed... If I don't set a task then I just feel bombarded by a slew of obligations and I freeze up.

    Trying to work my mind around this feels very much like trying to push my body through a solid wall. And yet the idea of setting the task down for awhile or reorganizing priorities *sounds* so simple. I'm then left with my face pressed up against that wall wondering why the fuck I can't just take a step back.

    #ActuallyAutistic

  10. I also talked about monotropism; the distinctive depth and narrowness of autistic attention.

    The tendency to go very deep, to struggle with switching, to get overwhelmed by competing demands - and to experience the world with such a particular intensity.

    Again: not just ‘life is hard’, but a very specific way of processing and experiencing.

    #Monotropism #Autism #AutismResearch

  11. I also talked about monotropism; the distinctive depth and narrowness of autistic attention.

    The tendency to go very deep, to struggle with switching, to get overwhelmed by competing demands - and to experience the world with such a particular intensity.

    Again: not just ‘life is hard’, but a very specific way of processing and experiencing.

    #Monotropism #Autism #AutismResearch

  12. #TIL about #monotropism

    "One of the positive aspects of being monotropic is the capacity to enter a ‘flow state’ – a term used to describe deep immersion in an activity, heightened focus, creativity and satisfaction.

    For Autistic individuals, engaging in activities aligned with their special interests and passions can lead to such flow states, contributing to wellbeing and a sense of fulfilment."

    autism.org.uk/learn/knowledge-

    (1/3)

    @autistics

  13. #TIL about #monotropism

    "One of the positive aspects of being monotropic is the capacity to enter a ‘flow state’ – a term used to describe deep immersion in an activity, heightened focus, creativity and satisfaction.

    For Autistic individuals, engaging in activities aligned with their special interests and passions can lead to such flow states, contributing to wellbeing and a sense of fulfilment."

    autism.org.uk/learn/knowledge-

    (1/3)

    @autistics

  14. klebriger Fokus

    Und wieder sitze ich meiner Therapeutin gegenüber und esse. Es ist 12 Uhr, wir wollen arbeiten, mein Treibstofftank ist leer.
    Ich habs gewusst, ich hatte einen Timer und ein safe food dabei und hab’s trotzdem nicht gemacht. Mein Fokus hat noch an einer Aufgabe geklebt, die ich unterbrechen musste, um zu ihrer Praxis zu laufen. Der Timer ist an mir vorbeigeflogen.

    einblogvonvielen.org/klebriger

    #Blog #Autismus #kPTBS #Monotropism #Behinderung

  15. klebriger Fokus

    Und wieder sitze ich meiner Therapeutin gegenüber und esse. Es ist 12 Uhr, wir wollen arbeiten, mein Treibstofftank ist leer.
    Ich habs gewusst, ich hatte einen Timer und ein safe food dabei und hab’s trotzdem nicht gemacht. Mein Fokus hat noch an einer Aufgabe geklebt, die ich unterbrechen musste, um zu ihrer Praxis zu laufen. Der Timer ist an mir vorbeigeflogen.

    einblogvonvielen.org/klebriger

    #Blog #Autismus #kPTBS #Monotropism #Behinderung

  16. In my latest article, I explore how monotropism creates a vertical temporality. This concept bridges quantum physics and Jung's Spirit of the Depths. It represents a form of existence that functions elsewhere, far from the logic of the clock.
    Read the full piece here: medium.com/@christian.gajewski

    #AuDHD #Neurodiversity #Monotropism #Autism #actuallyautistic #Psychology #psychoanalysis

  17. In my latest article, I explore how monotropism creates a vertical temporality. This concept bridges quantum physics and Jung's Spirit of the Depths. It represents a form of existence that functions elsewhere, far from the logic of the clock.
    Read the full piece here: medium.com/@christian.gajewski

    #AuDHD #Neurodiversity #Monotropism #Autism #actuallyautistic #Psychology #psychoanalysis

  18. Ah, #ADHD and Monotropism—a riveting tale of endless explanations and updates, delivered in every language imaginable except the one that explains why this article even exists. 🥱🔍 Spoiler alert: If you were hoping for practical advice, you'll find more #clarity in a bowl of alphabet soup. 🍜📚
    monotropism.org/adhd/ #Monotropism #AlphabetSoup #PracticalAdvice #HackerNews #ngated

  19. Ah, #ADHD and Monotropism—a riveting tale of endless explanations and updates, delivered in every language imaginable except the one that explains why this article even exists. 🥱🔍 Spoiler alert: If you were hoping for practical advice, you'll find more #clarity in a bowl of alphabet soup. 🍜📚
    monotropism.org/adhd/ #Monotropism #AlphabetSoup #PracticalAdvice #HackerNews #ngated

  20. ✨ What Are Glimmers? ✨
    Glimmers are small, powerful moments of Autistic joy that emerge when we’re deeply immersed in what matters to us. 🌱 Discover how monotropism & flow create space for joy in an overwhelming world. 💫 #AutisticJoy #monotropism #Glimmers #ADHD #AuDHD

    autisticrealms.com/glimmers-au

  21. ✨ What Are Glimmers? ✨
    Glimmers are small, powerful moments of Autistic joy that emerge when we’re deeply immersed in what matters to us. 🌱 Discover how monotropism & flow create space for joy in an overwhelming world. 💫 #AutisticJoy #monotropism #Glimmers #ADHD #AuDHD

    autisticrealms.com/glimmers-au

  22. Pulled my first screenprint last night

    Woke up at 7 am THINKING ABOUT PAINT

    #Monotropism

  23. Starre unterscheiden

    Es gibt an meinem autistischen und komplex traumatisiertem Er.Leben etwas, das im Konfliktfall oft falsch verstanden oder eingeordnet wird: Meine autistische Trägheit. Und meine traumabedingte (Angst)Starre.

    Was beide gemeinsam haben, ist die relative Starre.

    einblogvonvielen.org/starre-un

    #Blog #Autismus #Trauma #kPTBS #Monotropism