Many expect me to be able to take care of the vessel easier then im able to because this vessel hurts to be in
The sheer dysphoria and homesickness and burn out I get
and what many dont understand is even though ive gotten better at english doesnt mean i can always get it out in this human languge
it just means i can use it a bit more often
the assumtions by those who have the privlege to speak it without having to worry about incompatabilities of thinking in another language to speaking
And me only being in this vessel for 4 years