#elirambles — Public Fediverse posts

Not to be horny on main but give me ten seconds in a bedroom with this man and one of us will come out pregnant and it won’t be me.

“Why don’t you make a separate blog for-” My blog is a bioactive terrarium and it needs as much biodiversity as possible, hope that helps 👍

Gonna dump a bunch of notes about my Black Butler AU I wrote back in 2023, just to have a backup:

-Like a lot of canon-divergent Kuro ideas I have, this is set in an alternate reality where all kinds of supernatural creatures coexist with humans.

-One of them is demons, there are different subspecies and not all of them eat souls. There was a time where all demons were feared and any human who was suspected of being in good terms with one became the target of a witch hunt. By the late 18th century, however, things have changed a lot.

-There has been an agreement or “code of honor” between soul-eating demons (commonly called Voids) and humans for centuries. Voids need human souls to survive, they cannot sustain themselves with anything else (it’s very rare for a demon to starve to death but they do become weak and vulnerable). Some of them are opportunists who roam in search of dying humans whose souls they can snatch before a reaper arrives. While others are more patient and prefer to cultivate a soul by forming a contract with someone who wishes to. Having your soul eaten is not the horrifying fate you may think it is: there’s no eternal torment, no hell, nothing. Just going to sleep never to wake up and becoming one with the demon. People accept this as another aspect of life. However, there’s one thing that’s unacceptable and it’s demons (unjustifiably) killing humans just for their souls, any demon who does this is considered a feral beast and will be hunted down (there are some methods to kill a demon for good). Even other demons look down on these individuals.

-The longer a human lives the more “nutritious” their soul is. Some Voids will form a contract with a human and serve them through all their life, and when it’s their time to go the person will willingly feed themself to the demon. Other demons even become familiars and stay in the same family for generations, swearing loyalty to the next person in line after they have absorbed their relative’s soul. People consider this an honor.

-Sebastian is a very refined demon who only consumes the highest quality souls after fulfilling a contract. The day RCiel is sacrificed is the first time someone actively summons him, as all this time he met all his contractees by chance. He eats the human sacrifice’s soul because why not, there’s a first time for everything. However, when he takes a look at all the cultists gathered excitedly looking at him he feels nothing but contempt and disgust, and slaughters them without second thought and without bothering to take their souls. They have the distinctive stench of someone who has done unspeakable things to an individual of their own species, especially to a youngling, and not even demons find these souls appetizing. So nobody would dare to judge him for disposing of them. After the fun bloodbath he senses a tiny presence nearby, and locates it in a cage in the center of the room. A small, frail human lays there, apparently dead, though he still feels their soul flickering inside. Upon closer inspection he notices it’s a young child that looks exactly like the owner of the soul he just devoured. “Ah, twins. How sad”. It doesn’t seem like this child will make it, but waiting until he finally dies goes against his aesthetic, and for some reason he can’t bring himself to either end his misery or leave him there. So he takes the unconscious child out of there, craddling him in his very demon essence, and just keeps him, like a person who has found a wet, dirty, barely alive tiny animal on the side of the road. Besides, if he manages to save the child and he goes on to live, they might make a contract and then he can claim his soul in the end. It could be a fun experiment right?

-From OCiel’s POV, the story starts off very similar to in canon: he still gets horribly tortured and abused. But since in this AU it all happens when he’s younger, his small body can’t take much and eventually he gets so sick and weak that he can’t even stand, and the cultists just leave him to die in the cage while they focus on the stronger RCiel. The day of the sacrifice he keeps slipping in and out of consciousness and can’t fully register or process what’s going on. Unable to tell dreams from reality, he suddenly feels a warm, almost velvety cloak that surrounds him. It’s very comforting and he clings to it with the little strength he has left.

Suddenly remembered how when Buddy Daddies first came out a lot of ppl hated Misaki's guts and thought she was just as bad as Miri's bio dad, I think things have calmed down but back then it really rubbed me the wrong way.

I’ll be honest, I really liked her. Like yes, sending such a young child away on her own with absolutely no supervision was horribly irresponsible. But I just loved how flawed and realistically human she was and I honestly want to see more of this type of character in media. Especially in anime, maybe I just haven’t seen a lot but I feel like we often see either parents who are super loving and caring or awfully abusive, we don’t see a lot of parents that are just trapped in a life they don’t want and tired of holding a facade (it looks like Misaki never abused Miri or even showed her unhappiness around her even though she was on the verge of snapping any minute).

Idk maybe I just sympathised with her because I neither want nor like children and I know I’d hate my life and resent the kid if I was ever forced or coerced into the role of a caretaker, but apparently it was too much asking to have some nuance. It blows my mind that so many ppl thought a trapped, unhappy, desperate abuse victim was on the same level as a human trafficker. I’ve seen some ppl bring up abortion or adoption and I know they had good intentions but afaik the situation isn't as simple in Japan.

I’ve also seen a lot of ppl comment that they wanted Misaki to “work on her issues so that she and Miri could be together again” and all I ask is: why? Why is that necessary? Why is there such a pervasive idea that children are always better off with their mothers? I sincerely think a happy ending would've been for her to get help and get better but NOT get the kid back and I was rlly hoping the writers would go that route, it would've been very refreshing. I wanted the message to be “Not everyone is fit to be a parent and especially not every woman is fit to be a caretaker and there’s more than one type of family”.

And I'm sad that she was killed off but I see why they made the choices they made and they make a lot of sense given the context of the story. I personally don’t have any complaints about the writing but I think Misaki deserved better. I’m sad she died but I understand why it happened, I suppose with her arc going that route it wouldn’t have made sense for her to survive in a show where nobody’s safe from violent criminals who are willing to murder women and children to get them out of their way. Still, I don’t think she needed a big change of heart, I think she was already a great character as she was (it also rubbed me the wrong way that some people started viewing her as a good person only once she started making an effort to do things right but I digress).

I’ll be honest, I’m not a huge fan of the “unwilling parent learns to love their kid and learns to be a good parent so that they can finally be a happy family” narrative. It just doesn’t sit right with me, maybe I’m reading too much into it but the message I get from these kind of stories is that anyone can be a good parent/caretaker with enough help and resources and in the right place mentally and emotionally (ESPECIALLY because that’s an argument people use in real life for why they think everyone should have kids, or hell, even as an anti abortion argument; like that’s not an exaggeration, I’ve seen them saying pretty much the exact same thing), when the sad reality is that sometimes kids are just unwanted. I sincerely wish the show had acknowledged that some people just don’t want to be parents even when they already are, I know it’s not pretty but these things need to be talked about in fiction.

I also think it would’ve fit the story perfectly: we would’ve had an example of horrible abusive parents (Rei’s father), amazing loving parents (Rei and Kazuki themselves) and parents who do their best but would still rather be doing anything else (Misaki herself). Maybe I’m biased, I don’t know, but I’m really starved for this kind of content. As a friend of mine as well as a few other people have said, we need more situations like in Matilda, where the bio parents admit they aren’t fit for the role and happily sign away their parental rights.

(Granted that if Misaki hadn’t popped back into Miri’s life she wouldn’t have died like that, as she got targeted precisely because she was with Miri, that’s why I say I understand why the writers made the choices they made).

I also wish they hadn’t given her cancer if they were going to kill her off anyway, give the poor woman a break lol.

By Talos this can’t be happening.

Gonna purchase that Material Thing™️ I always wanted I’m sure that’ll fill the void in my soul.