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The bitter clouds  

In my heart

There were some dreams

Kept in there as a secret

Hidden from the world

And safe

But I made mistake sharing those dreams

Because there were bitter clouds in the sky

That I did not see

Before it was too late

And they were pouring down rain on my dreams

To drown out my dreams

Before I had even chance to go after the dreams

Those dreams were left to drown

Into bitter rain

Left to die

Into bitterness of their jealousy

Surrounded by cruel words

Telling me how my dreams will never be real

And I’m not gonna lie

There were years that I let the bitter rain win

Leaving those dreams be drown and die  

Yes I abandoned my own dreams

Because of the bitter clouds

I regret it now

But I was younger and naïve

Back then

And with everything else going on in my life at the time

I no longer had the strength

For fight for my dreams

So left them behind

But in my heart

Something did remain

That never fully let go and stopped

So one day I did go back

And picked up my ruined dreams

Looked what was left of them

That was the day I rebuild my dreams 

From the ones bitter clouds had destroyed

They weren’t precisely the same dreams

But I wasn’t anymore same either

So I choose to rebuild new dreams

From my old ones

And this time when the bitter clouds will come

I will be ready

And the bitter rain won’t stop me

I let it wash over me

But it won’t leave my dreams drowning

Because I won’t let it destroy anything ever again

I have learned my lesson

Only I need to believe in my dreams

No one else

Here I am chasing my dreams

Giving my all making these dream come true

And leaving the bitter clouds behind me

C.F. Grönroos ©

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She knows you all too well

She knows you all too well

To know when you lie

Yet here she is 

Not saying word about it

Just pretending 

Buying your lies

Again

Just like so many times before

She knows why you lie

And what those lies are covering up

Well were meant to be covering

Because she knows the truth

That she known almost moment it had started

She knew when she wasn’t your one and only

How there were someone else now

Getting the best version of you

The easygoing and charming

Always so thoughtful

Great gift giver

She knew that version of you all too well  

After all it was the same one who made her falling in love with you

But all these years later

She had learned to know the true version of you

Unfortunately all too well

She knew now what lies underneath your charming smile

 And the mask you wear

Also had learned which words would always be lies

That you mouth never stops saying

But as you leave

Go another work trip

She isn’t gonna sit around home waiting your you

Not this time

She is packing her bags

Leaving to start new life

Without you and your endless lies

When you come back home she is long gone

Because she knows you all too well

Knowing you will never chance

She forgave you the first time

But this time she won’t

She is done wasting her life with liar

She is leaving this all behind 

Oh and she took the new job you said she shouldn’t

Because she couldn’t handle traveling like that not like you did

The job where she would be making more money than you

Curious how next evening after she told you about the job

You did came home smelling strange perfume

A scent she never used because it gave her headache

But your new coworker had worn last year company Christmas party

She had said yes to the job next day

Knowing that you would come home telling her

You had another business trip

She knew it meant actually just hotel by airport

 Just like last time

But this time she chooses herself

Because she knows you all too well

Knowing you’re not worth even the tears

Instead she starts packing everything that means something to her

Taking with her as she has actual airplane to get on that airport

C.F. Grönroos ©

Original poem and all the rights reserved to C.F. Grönroos

Lost in translation

I guess the truth got lost in translation

 But your lies still remain

They never seem to go away

Or end

I can’t tell when they had started

But I remember the day

I noticed them the first time

And I should have ended it all that day

But it had been just one little lie

Or so I had thought

At the time

Not knowing it was just tip of the iceberg

Or was it flood gates opening

Not sure which

All I know is after that day

It didn’t stop

It just got worse

And worse

With more lies

Sometimes even with so fucking meaningless things

That shouldn’t be worthy of lying about even

Yet there were you

Lying about everything

All of the time

While I was the one always telling the truth

And you were the liar lying all day long

Along the way love I had felt for you started to fade away

Now it is gone

C.F. Grönroos ©

Original poem and all the rights reserved to C.F. Grönroos