#transfemmeenby — Public Fediverse posts

I had an orchidectomy about 2 months ago.

Prior to that, my HRT wasn't working properly because even on double the spiro, my T levels weren't dropping. God only knows what my T levels were like pre-blockers. So after an entire year of going to the bathroom every 90 minutes and actively restricting my fluid intake while also eating eyewatering amounts of salt, I booked the procedure and paid the $4000 and spent several days on the couch while my partner looked after me.

I haven't had my T levels checked since, but I can tell that the hormonal changes are taking hold much more strongly. My skin's softer, my hair's changed texture, and there's stuff going on in the swimsuit areas as well.

The thing is though, that while I sort of got the baby version of a period as of like February, I've been getting the full experience (minus the bleeding because I'm not a uterus owner) this month. Don't get me wrong, it's great to feel like your body's actually doing what it's supposed to for the first time in your life, but I was not expecting to sit down on the couch this morning to watch some old episodes of Masterchef and to start crying because the judges were being mean. Also, big shout-out to my body for deciding that we're on a 21 day cycle.

The other really interesting thing that happened this month was that I was like "hmm I'd actually really like to be a surrogate for queer people who can't have kids of their own". Fortunately that might be a reality for me in the future because the RWH in Sydney has formally declared that they'll be looking to do uterus transplants within the next 5 years, which gives me plenty of time to get GCS. It's wild actually, I don't want kids of my own but I can think of a shitload of queer folks who'd make amazing parents. I'm a big advocate of adoption as well, but I don't think queer people should be told "if you want kids you have to adopt". It's rude to the parents and rude to the kids.

When the egg cracked in 2021, I was like "no I think I'm just going to transition in terms of presentation, I don't think I'm considering surgery". I wasn't getting huge amounts of dysphoria from my body, but that all changed when I realised my eating disorder was fueled by dysphoria. Fast-forward by 2.5 years though, and everything's changed, but I don't think this was as simple as "Kita changes her mind", and I can't help but think that this is also one of the things that conservatives are a bit scared of with the Trans Agenda; there's an amount of radical honesty that's required when you're examining the world and your own place within it, and when you start going "oh being forced into this role because of the body I got assigned at birth kind of sucks actually" you start looking at all the other areas that people are being hurt by being forced into roles, but that's a whole other area and I have a brunch with my besties to get to.

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