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Writing essays about the pain I've experienced in my life doesn't sound like a good time. But it seems like that's the path I'm going down.

You know that I'm not a fan of diving into pain without having a purpose behind it. If you're not going there intentionally with the ability to go get what you need and get back out again, there is no point. It's just an exercise in self-torture.

I've tried to write about all the pain in my past many times before and it always just sounded like I was re-victimizing myself. I couldn't do it without it being a giant pity party for one. I didn't have the power to write it the way I needed to be able to in order for it to be useful and not just a torture device for me.

What it appears this new thing will be is a collection of essays about different pain points in my life, what I learned from them, and where I ended up because of them. It will be my firehose of crazy divine feminine who knows what in a whole new way. She's in charge and I have no idea what kind of crazy she wants to bring into the world.

The masculine is being asked to take a backseat this time. His job is just to give me the power to get through the writing process. That's it.

If I'm honest with myself, this book was the goal the day I picked up writing again. I didn't know how to do it though. I'm still not sure I know how to do it. I just have a bit more power now, a lot more clarity, and a few books under my belt.

I'm still going to argue with myself, but we're going to go with it anyway because that's just what I do these days. Honestly, I wouldn't have it any other way. Having the power to be able to go with it is a blessing all by itself.

This one is gonna suck in the best way possible.

Let the adventure begin.

Love to all.

Della

#gowithit #adventure #painchronicles #essays #torturewriting #healing #journey #author #writer #thisisgonnasuck #doitanyway #divinefeminine #divinemasculine

Writing essays about the pain I've experienced in my life doesn't sound like a good time. But it seems like that's the path I'm going down.

You know that I'm not a fan of diving into pain without having a purpose behind it. If you're not going there intentionally with the ability to go get what you need and get back out again, there is no point. It's just an exercise in self-torture.

I've tried to write about all the pain in my past many times before and it always just sounded like I was re-victimizing myself. I couldn't do it without it being a giant pity party for one. I didn't have the power to write it the way I needed to be able to in order for it to be useful and not just a torture device for me.

What it appears this new thing will be is a collection of essays about different pain points in my life, what I learned from them, and where I ended up because of them. It will be my firehose of crazy divine feminine who knows what in a whole new way. She's in charge and I have no idea what kind of crazy she wants to bring into the world.

The masculine is being asked to take a backseat this time. His job is just to give me the power to get through the writing process. That's it.

If I'm honest with myself, this book was the goal the day I picked up writing again. I didn't know how to do it though. I'm still not sure I know how to do it. I just have a bit more power now, a lot more clarity, and a few books under my belt.

I'm still going to argue with myself, but we're going to go with it anyway because that's just what I do these days. Honestly, I wouldn't have it any other way. Having the power to be able to go with it is a blessing all by itself.

This one is gonna suck in the best way possible.

Let the adventure begin.

Love to all.

Della

#gowithit #adventure #painchronicles #essays #torturewriting #healing #journey #author #writer #thisisgonnasuck #doitanyway #divinefeminine #divinemasculine

Writing essays about the pain I've experienced in my life doesn't sound like a good time. But it seems like that's the path I'm going down.

You know that I'm not a fan of diving into pain without having a purpose behind it. If you're not going there intentionally with the ability to go get what you need and get back out again, there is no point. It's just an exercise in self-torture.

I've tried to write about all the pain in my past many times before and it always just sounded like I was re-victimizing myself. I couldn't do it without it being a giant pity party for one. I didn't have the power to write it the way I needed to be able to in order for it to be useful and not just a torture device for me.

What it appears this new thing will be is a collection of essays about different pain points in my life, what I learned from them, and where I ended up because of them. It will be my firehose of crazy divine feminine who knows what in a whole new way. She's in charge and I have no idea what kind of crazy she wants to bring into the world.

The masculine is being asked to take a backseat this time. His job is just to give me the power to get through the writing process. That's it.

If I'm honest with myself, this book was the goal the day I picked up writing again. I didn't know how to do it though. I'm still not sure I know how to do it. I just have a bit more power now, a lot more clarity, and a few books under my belt.

I'm still going to argue with myself, but we're going to go with it anyway because that's just what I do these days. Honestly, I wouldn't have it any other way. Having the power to be able to go with it is a blessing all by itself.

This one is gonna suck in the best way possible.

Let the adventure begin.

Love to all.

Della

#gowithit #adventure #painchronicles #essays #torturewriting #healing #journey #author #writer #thisisgonnasuck #doitanyway #divinefeminine #divinemasculine