#socialmurder — Public Fediverse posts

Basically mourning my partner's brain, immune system and maybe death. Because they are in the hospital with a resistant bacterial infection, which I am not actually worried about because it seems like they are on the mend, but there is absolutely no fucking ventilation in that hospital. The staff wear baggy blues and lied that I was "mistreating" them when I asked if there was somewhere safe that my partner could eat their hospital food, somewhere the window could open, or something.

The eugenicist policy of the only hospital in town is that if you don't like their policy of exposing everyone to COVID then you just don't get care there. They told us we could leave if we "felt unsafe" and I was like no, it's a fact that you are not safe, here in your workplace. That apparently translated to me being abusive or something to the head nurse, who indignantly told me that "there is nothing on your partner's chart to indicate that they need a private room" and it's like whoa, that's your fucking protocol for immunocompromised people? No actual protection, no increased ventilation, just a private room, as if COVID wasn't airborne??? They assumed that I wanted a private room, and that I wanted it to be a special snowflake or a bougie elitist or something. Hell no. I don't need a private room. I want everyone in every fucking room to be safe! And you nurses too! That's why I say the policies amount to eugenics! It's not a fucking personal slight against you, it's a factual statement about the consequences of your workplace rules! But if I say anything suddenly I'm the crazy guy who is demanding unreasonable things, because I want everyone to be #davossafe. They dehumanized me in a way that I have experienced before, a way that is extremely triggering. Basically I was labeled a threat because I was saying inconvenient truths and once that label is applied there is nothing I can say or do, no reason I can appeal to. It's fascist bullshit. & my partner went along with the gaslighting and I couldn't convince them to go to a different hospital after they got to sleep and I had been up all night looking after them unable to sleep. I don't really know what to do other than get infected by them when they return, because we don't have any space to isolate. Our place is just one little room. I am so fundamentally defeated, like the eugenicists who want me to get COVID again and again until I die have won. There is no way that I can avoid this and still care for the person that I love more than life itself. I might end up actually sacrificing my life for that love, with the way things are going, all because the capitalists who own the hospital decided that it was cheaper to do #socialmurder than to #upgradeventilation or even put in adequate #airfilters or even measure #airquality at all. The nurse who accused me of mistreating her to her boss when I was politely asking questions in an even tone of voice huffily said that they do PCR tests when I said that the rapid antigen tests didn't work any more, and I was going to call her out and ask if she knew that everyone around had been PCR tested negative, but I was shut down by my partner who was on the side of the eugenicists. The nurse said she "was doing everything she can" and I acknowledged that she was, and that this was the problem. But nobody fucking listened to me. Nobody wants to hear anything about how #healthcareworkers are the victims of #eugenics COVID policies as well. Because that would make them feel bad, and apparently count as "mistreatment". I can't fucking stand being lied about and gaslighted, it makes me want to actually do everything they accuse me of. But I won't, because I'm actually a sane and self-controlled individual despite how they want to depict me for talking about #COVIDsafety. My partner said I was "being autistic" and while I have never been labeled as being on the spectrum by a doctor, and that was intended as an insult, I don't find it to be a bad thing, because the autistic people I know are cool and have a strong sense of justice. I for one will keep "being autistic" every day, thank you very much.