#jiraiblog — Public Fediverse posts

#literallyme #jirai #jiraidon #jiraiblog #jiraiposting #jiraikei #landminedon #landmineblog

Other things about me that i didn't add in my intro :

🔏 - My timezone is UTC+08:00
🔏 - My favourite Pokemon Generation is Generation VII! my favorite region is Alola!
🔏 - Me and My husband's last name is Penguin
🔏 - From the intro, but when i say i have no dni i genuinely mean that, i love being open to new identities and beliefs
🔏 - My favorite Songs from Teminite, MDK, Chime and Skybreak is Accelerate and Arcade Dwellers but that's a given lol
🔏 - My favorite songs (currently, it keeps changing) from them that isn't that is Thundering Typhoons, Astral Badass, Surface and Sea of Glass
🔏 - I recently brought Geometry dash!! officially making me a puppy for anything with a shiny Morgan David King Button, i can't beat dry out though :/
🔏 - My worst autistic stim is the Bowser Fart Gif, Not elaborating
🔏 - I chuuni on my byou until i astral project
🔏 - ^ i am really into weird beliefs about life and consciousness lmfao
🔏 - I am also an SS-class platonic yandere
🔏 - I am Aromantic, Asexual and Afamilial, Meaning i can't feel romantic or sexual attraction nor do i consider anybody my family (i see my biological family as best friends or acquaintances depending on my opinion of them)

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🌠 ➹ The 'Arcade' taught me: your heart will always find a way : #AcceleratingArcadeDwellers #jiraidon #jirai #jiraiblr #jiraiblogging #jiraiblog #jiraitakeover #landmineblogging #landminedon #landminelifestyle

are 99% of yall jirais dead yall usually wake up at this time wtf happened😭 /nsrs /neu

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🌠 ➹ The 'Arcade' taught me: your heart will always find a way : #AcceleratingArcadeDwellers #jiraidon #jirai #jiraiblr #jiraiblogging #jiraiblog #jiraitakeover #landmineblogging #landminedon #landminelifestyle

💽🗝💌 / #BowedMonachopsis

About : The Machine

And I used to be so young.
Metals of the indescribable on my tongue.
A flower better frozen than withered out.
Still writhing seeing angels come around.

Irony, it plays in the underbelly of the city.
Irreversible decisions, a showroom of pity.
Moving so hastily, yet stagnant is today.
Black, cosmic poison leaks from my veins.

Nostalgia begs for you in catatonic rays.
Unaware, I wave my hands in the same way.
The train station left an uncertainty.
Memoirs on unreciprocating eternity.

I'm an author writing elegies for what humanity's love is embodying.
If this immortality and all knowingness is suffering.
At the edge of the sky, your happiness and my pain.
grasping at your palms begging for this moment to stay.

Is it all worth it? Acrylic is thou.

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🌠 ➹ The 'Arcade' taught me: your heart will always find a way : #AcceleratingArcadeDwellers #jiraidon #jirai #jiraiblr #jiraiblogging #jiraiblog #jiraitakeover #landmineblogging #landminedon #landminelifestyle

How do i get started somebody help me

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RE: https://hol.ogra.ph/notes/ajz8gg1r7e0k004q

Wait people still make shit for the gameboy??? as a person who is currently hyperfixated in arcades and retro games damn i definitely need to pick up coding and making games again wtf!! /pos

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🌠 ➹ The 'Arcade' taught me: your heart will always find a way : #AcceleratingArcadeDwellers #jiraidon #jirai #jiraiblr #jiraiblogging #jiraiblog #jiraitakeover #landmineblogging #landminedon #landminelifestyle

RE: https://retro.social/users/ajroach42/statuses/116248365664928707

Is the world all sunshine and rainbows? no, far from it actually, but i will keep hoping, being kind and being optimistic, because every single corrupted person in the world wants you to stay hopeless and think everything is inevitably doomed so you won't fight back for a better future, so you'll forget that the reason why good life was was because we actively fought for survival, but what they don't want us to know or remember is that you still have a chance for as long as you have sentience, prove them wrong, live.

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🌠 ➹ The 'Arcade' taught me: your heart will always find a way : #AcceleratingArcadeDwellers #jiraidon #jirai #jiraiblr #jiraiblogging #jiraiblog #jiraitakeover #landmineblogging #landminedon #landminelifestyle

I don't deserve love at all, that's why I never got any till now but what changed? Nothing changed but circumstances this is just a matter of circumstance it's not real not real not real not real not real

#jirai #jiraidon #jiraiblr #jiraitakeover #jiraiblogging #jiraiblog #landmine #landminedon #landmineblogging #landmineLifestyle #landminecommunity #jiraigir

I spoke once in class today and 2 guys instantly told me to shut up and be quiet ૮ ◞ ﻌ ◟ ა...
#killme #jiraidon #jirai #jiraiblog #jiraiblogging

Want to converse with a vaguely human acting abomination? begging to annoy thee? have a desire to inquire about the state of your burning hell to a universal paradox beyond love and life itself? ohoho, then you've come to the right arcade cabinet!

https://sammorganharveyskye.straw.page/

interview me in any waking, conscious moment of your pleasing! 4.5 of your other lives will disagree or ask me something else anyways, you will never know until you click the box and scan the outcome, no highscore chasing around this place anyways. o(〃＾▽＾〃)o

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🪼 ➹ And the Arcade shouts out.. an interview announcement! : #AcceleratingArcadeDwellers #jiraidon #jirai #jiraiblr #jiraiblogging #jiraiblog #jiraitakeover #landmineblogging #landminedon #landminelifestyle

Just remembered my old friend group and how much i had to sacrifice and cut parts of myself to be palatable to them, and i realized that as soon as i left them, i felt, more free, yeah, traumatized because i realize half the shit i went through was either toxic or abuse.

now that i surrounded myself by a community and a loving partner i wouldn't trade, i realized another thing, true love shouldn't sacrifice or infringe on your expression or freedom, but rather, encourage it.

back then, i thought i had to choose between love and freedom, i had to suck it up and cut off parts of my personality, interests or as a neurodivergent person, my symptoms or get called a manipulative weird edgelord for being free, i thought that being hurt or having others hurt me is an expression of love, that they truly care, and that every relationship i needed to sacrifice an arm and a leg so they can love me.

and now i realize, that's bullshit, all of it, when i left them, i started expressing myself both personality and looks, i started realizing parts of my identity, in terms of gender, in terms of plurality, my neurodivergence, etc, i made myself unpalatable to the people who hate me behind the scenes anyways and tell me "i love you" from obligation yet not proving shit

and i couldn't be more grateful

back then my relationships felt draining, like putting on a persona, i felt like i couldn't communicate or trust anybody properly, i felt like i was just waiting for somebody to hurt me or argue with me or call me names, and i never knew why

until i had the willingness to block them, and now, my only regret is why haven't i done it sooner?

and while yes i technically lost everybody, i am alone with my true self and now i know there's a community that won't hold me back, and that's better than what i had back then.

the old /// is dead, the one that knew deep down their love is conditional, he's gone.

they may hate me, but I'm fine, I'm now more true to myself than before, you're not hurting me and I'm not hurting you in the name of love we knew was bound to burn away as soon as you're done using me as a background to feel better about yourself and move on to a person you connect more

i shouldn't feel guilty for living a life of both expressing my true self and having people love that true self instead of them asking you to be more their taste, to copy them like a doll, and be disingenuous yet loved, rather than authentic yet hated.

and you shouldn't too,

true love shouldn't sacrifice parts of you, true love should always make you grow parts you haven't even explored yet.

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🪼 ➹ And the Arcade shouts out it's newest games : #AcceleratingArcadeDwellers #jiraidon #jirai #jiraiblr #jiraiblogging #jiraiblog #jiraitakeover #landmineblogging #landminedon #landminelifestyle

I'll be honest this website is such a fresh breath of air

i don't know if it's the instance I'm using, or if it's mastodon in general, but i genuinely didn't realize how bad other social media sites that aren't tumblr had it until i came here

everybody is so welcoming and i have yet to see anything divisive or toxic, it feels just like 2010's social media where i didn't have to worry about governments stealing our data, trying to censor me or people cyberbullying me and i can actually stay anonymous without any risk,

due to being thrown in abusive situations and being bullied for expressing anything, my own safety and privacy is so paramount and means too much, not to mention how anti censorship i am and how big i am to supporting marginalized groups when it comes to anything and everything,

tumblr was and still is that place due to private communities, and i moved here due to others at jiraiblr, and to say, i am still so shell shocked to have a place where i dont have to actually worry about any form of hatecrimes, toxicity or greed, especially since I have so much thoughts on everything thaat i had repressed and silenced myself from speaking due to either having my abusers or corrupt systems accessing it or censoring it

I'm so glad that spaces like these exist, and i hope that every single social media follows the same type of formula that mastodon and it's instances do, this, as well as tumblr in some instances feels and is the closest to feeling like having true autonomy, anonymity and privacy, and i will cherish that alot.

#AcceleratingArcadeDwellers #jiraidon #jirai #jiraiblr #jiraiblogging #jiraiblog #jiraitakeover #landmineblogging #landminedon #landminelifestyle #AcceleratingArcadeDwellers #jiraidon #jirai #jiraiblr #jiraiblogging #jiraiblog #jiraitakeover #landmineblogging #landminedon #landminelifestyle

"The Child stood alone on the ledge, still holding the Crystal Heart to their chest. It was hollow, and so were they."

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❃ Celeste / Isagani / Technichroma / Flashes / Morgan

❃ He / It / Any

❃ Minor

❃ Genderfaun + Aroacespec

❃ Diagnosed Autism, Self diagnosed BPD + NPD

❃ Chronic pain, Amnesia, Auditory processing disorder and Sensory processing disorder

❃ Lifestyle Jirai

❃ Plural

❃ Mixed Asian (🇵🇭 🇪🇸 🇨🇳)

❃ Angelkin, Platoniclovekin, Starkin + Songkin (Teminite and Skybreak - Accelerate, Chime and MDK - Arcade Dwellers)

❃ Platonic sharing selfship / Yumeship with Chime and Teminite!! ♡

❃ Taken by my beautiful husband J / A whom i will lovemail 24/7

❃ Birthday : 06 / 18

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♬ Likes : Violin, Making art and (someday) music, Decoden, Kandi, Sea bunnies, Cute and Nostalgic things, Pastel and Neon colors, DIY clothes and Accessories, J-fashion, Harm Reduction, Arcades!!, Racing, Science and Math, Helping people, EDM music (Dubstep and Hardcore), Rhythm Games, Candy, desserts and sweets, Drinks other than water

♬ Fandoms : Rotaeno, Arcaea, Phigros, Muse Dash, Needy Streamer Overload, Teminite, Chime, Skybreak, MDK, Hardcore Tano*c, and more that I'm missing..

♬ BYI : I am very prone to meltdowns, crashouts and splits, i have no dni, don't be an asshole, i talk about EDs, SH, My delusions (potentially hallucinations) + Psychosis, My harmful intrusive thoughts, other forms of addiction, abuse, Suicide + Homicide, and other topics that may trigger you, including my own trauma, don't ask me about my stance on any form of discourse, i cannot argue or debate in good faith, i have severe anger and emotional issues and i also lack / don't have empathy, sympathy, remorse or guilt, sorry if i come out as rude due to my issues, i am ANTI gen ai of any sort, including chatbots, I'm here for you if you need to vent or rant!! <3, i am pretty slow at responding due to not receiving notifications and using the site version, the app doesn't let me post for some reason..

♬ I post about my experiences, likes, fandoms, Rarely my art or crafts, Hopepunk, Youth liberation, Recovery, Shadow work, Madpunk, Selfshipping, Plurality and Jirai content, Read my BYI ^_^

♬ My hashtag : #AcceleratingArcadeDwellers

♬ My emoji combo : 🌻🍀

♬ I'll add more later lmfao i actually don't hate color bass

♬ Send me anons, you wimp (/j /pos) : https://sammorganharveyskye.straw.page/

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"I've wasted all my days in searching for a miracle, Even when I held it in my arms, my heart still felt invisible, But maybe I'll inspire fire, From some lonely soul, To push on through the journey of their own."

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🪼 ➹ And the Arcade welcomes it's newest manager with open arms! : #AcceleratingArcadeDwellers #jiraidon #jirai #jiraiblr #jiraiblogging #jiraiblog #jiraitakeover #landmineblogging #landminedon #landminelifestyle