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@cyanidedansen How are the songs going? #wednesdansen (

@cyanidedansen How are the songs going? #wednesdansen (

it is #wednesdansen, i catch up with flopine today because we're playing together on friday night !! -> https://rivals.space/@cyanidedansen/114573920054600905

i think i'll also tell them how i feel about last wednesday because i shouldn't let this corrode me.

Yesterday #wednesdansen I caught up with Flopine at their La Fabrique à Cookie monthly event.

I have a few thoughts about my departure from online and irl #chiptune spaces.

As soon as I learned about abusive people and communities (sinecraft, keffie, james york, aquellex, saana, to only name a few because dear god the pit is bottomless), it keeps unraveling and you end up witnessing even more abuse, shitty behaviours, support for abusers, participation in online bullying and group rejoicing when the targets give up.
For me it culminated in 2020/2021 when defensemechanism spun from "ally" to an active defender of harassers, and several groups of chiptune people decided to attack me for "virtue signalling", "starting shit", "controlling a woke mob of purer-than-you goons" etc. Even though all I did was stand on the side of people who endured very serious IRL and online abuse from chiptune people, as well as witness racist, sexist, victim-blaming rants, death threats firsthand.

Since Infinite Lives and my online participation in Chipfest Cyberspace, I entirely left online chiptune spaces, because simply knowing how organised misogynists and bad faith actors is dizzying. You visualise the connections between each, you see how it forms a net, so it triggers either deep disappointment or full-blown panic attacks to simply recognise some names or faces.

This affected my use of social media altogether. Simply answering a message, even from a friend, is now a task that requires actual preparation and winding down afterwards. It's scary and exhausting because I miss out on many of their achievements, on their warmth, on invitations to hang out.

I'm trying to find a way to stay up to date and to answer my DMs, phonecalls, texts, letters. Getting diagnosed with PTSD was a big surprise to me, but seeing how much I struggle, I also thought "well I think they're onto something"

All this to say, the guy playing music at La Fabrique à Cookie that evening was Pouale, an ex whom I gave LSDJ ~10 years ago iirc, who got obsessed with defensemechanism, aquellex and other musicians from Sinecraft and similar groups with a pretentious and sapio approach to their music ; and pouale was/is an active participant in their violent rants, as well as making other communities forget about these ppl/these spaces' abuse.

I'll probably edit or delete this later because reminiscing about all this just made my years of therapy a waste of money just now lmao

Yesterday #wednesdansen I caught up with Flopine at their La Fabrique à Cookie monthly event.

I have a few thoughts about my departure from online and irl #chiptune spaces.

As soon as I learned about abusive people and communities (sinecraft, keffie, james york, aquellex, saana, to only name a few because dear god the pit is bottomless), it keeps unraveling and you end up witnessing even more abuse, shitty behaviours, support for abusers, participation in online bullying and group rejoicing when the targets give up.
For me it culminated in 2020/2021 when defensemechanism spun from "ally" to an active defender of harassers, and several groups of chiptune people decided to attack me for "virtue signalling", "starting shit", "controlling a woke mob of purer-than-you goons" etc. Even though all I did was stand on the side of people who endured very serious IRL and online abuse from chiptune people, as well as witness racist, sexist, victim-blaming rants, death threats firsthand.

Since Infinite Lives and my online participation in Chipfest Cyberspace, I entirely left online chiptune spaces, because simply knowing how organised misogynists and bad faith actors is dizzying. You visualise the connections between each, you see how it forms a net, so it triggers either deep disappointment or full-blown panic attacks to simply recognise some names or faces.

This affected my use of social media altogether. Simply answering a message, even from a friend, is now a task that requires actual preparation and winding down afterwards. It's scary and exhausting because I miss out on many of their achievements, on their warmth, on invitations to hang out.

I'm trying to find a way to stay up to date and to answer my DMs, phonecalls, texts, letters. Getting diagnosed with PTSD was a big surprise to me, but seeing how much I struggle, I also thought "well I think they're onto something"

All this to say, the guy playing music at La Fabrique à Cookie that evening was Pouale, an ex whom I gave LSDJ ~10 years ago iirc, who got obsessed with defensemechanism, aquellex and other musicians from Sinecraft and similar groups with a pretentious and sapio approach to their music ; and pouale was/is an active participant in their violent rants, as well as making other communities forget about these ppl/these spaces' abuse.

I'll probably edit or delete this later because reminiscing about all this just made my years of therapy a waste of money just now lmao

for this #wednesdansen i haven't done any music but my house is extremely tidy and i need the strength to keep it this way.
healthwise, i'm getting a little better, thank you for the kind words.

for this #wednesdansen i haven't done any music but my house is extremely tidy and i need the strength to keep it this way.
healthwise, i'm getting a little better, thank you for the kind words.

last #wednesdansen i mostly just tweaked tiny things, life is VERY busy these days and there's a few complications healthwise. i'm in good hands though and taking my time to recover.

last #wednesdansen i mostly just tweaked tiny things, life is VERY busy these days and there's a few complications healthwise. i'm in good hands though and taking my time to recover.

hi everyone, it's #wednesdansen ! thank you for your reminders last week and this morning. last week i kept going, i kept tinkering and tweaking tiny things, i didn't make as much progress as usual but that's okay.

hi everyone, it's #wednesdansen ! thank you for your reminders last week and this morning. last week i kept going, i kept tinkering and tweaking tiny things, i didn't make as much progress as usual but that's okay.

@cyanidedansen it's time for #wednesdansen :blobcatrainbow:

@cyanidedansen it's time for #wednesdansen :blobcatrainbow:

this week's #wednesdansen went great, i keep tinkering on older hits and shape them closer to my current tastes. it's really satisfying

this week's #wednesdansen went great, i keep tinkering on older hits and shape them closer to my current tastes. it's really satisfying

Hi #wednesdansen team, thank you for the pingsssss

I did my backups so i was able to delete / move some tracks from a cart to the other. it's much less stressful than before because the cart with the song i was working on was on "blocks used : BA/BF", and i was scared that my progress would take too much space

Hi #wednesdansen team, thank you for the pingsssss

I did my backups so i was able to delete / move some tracks from a cart to the other. it's much less stressful than before because the cart with the song i was working on was on "blocks used : BA/BF", and i was scared that my progress would take too much space

Hi everyone, hope your week was kind to you. Work sucked but on #wednesdansen I finished that track from last time. It's not 80% done. It's 100% done and the rest will be live tweaks as you know. So thank you for your messages, they do help!!

So it's now a habit again to use the Gameboy on every commute. So now my current cart is full. This evening I'll move some tracks to my other cart and delete everything I'm no longer thinking of playing live. This is gonna feel new and fresh

Hi everyone, hope your week was kind to you. Work sucked but on #wednesdansen I finished that track from last time. It's not 80% done. It's 100% done and the rest will be live tweaks as you know. So thank you for your messages, they do help!!

So it's now a habit again to use the Gameboy on every commute. So now my current cart is full. This evening I'll move some tracks to my other cart and delete everything I'm no longer thinking of playing live. This is gonna feel new and fresh

@cyanidedansen say #Wednesdansen is for #Vendredansen aussi, how are things going after that 80% done ✅ ?

#pareto ♻️💕

good morning thank you for the #wednesdansen heads up! i think i'm almost done with the track from last time, as my friend Paul from Pain Perdu says, if it's 80% done it means it's done. So we're almost there with this one :)

i also decided that from now on, as soon as i sit on the tram or the metro, i'll open lsdj. i will make this a habit again

good morning thank you for the #wednesdansen heads up! i think i'm almost done with the track from last time, as my friend Paul from Pain Perdu says, if it's 80% done it means it's done. So we're almost there with this one :)

i also decided that from now on, as soon as i sit on the tram or the metro, i'll open lsdj. i will make this a habit again

@cyanidedansen On veux des bip boups ! #wednesdansen !

@cyanidedansen Are you working on your music?
#wednesdansen

@cyanidedansen Are you working on your music?
#wednesdansen

@cyanidedansen C'est donc ça le "body doubling" ? (non, mais c'est #wednesdansen)

Team, please @ me every Wednesday, under this post or not, to tell me to work on my #chiptune songs or to ask me if I made any progress lately. I have a fistful of good tunes but all I need is a kick in the butt

#wednesdansen (??) (let's make a good # )

Team, please @ me every Wednesday, under this post or not, to tell me to work on my #chiptune songs or to ask me if I made any progress lately. I have a fistful of good tunes but all I need is a kick in the butt

#wednesdansen (??) (let's make a good # )