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So I'm having this intellectual vision moment right now

It has to do with something I'm going to call right left dysregulation versus left right dysregulation

It happens when you can for example breathe through one nostril but not the other or have an ache on one side or the other and it's generally correlative with the presence of inflammation in an organ or large amounts of matter going through the digestive tract at the same time on one side or the other ..when it's on the right side it's coming out of the small intestine up into the ascending colon through the appendix etc then it makes the jump from the right to the left with the transverse and depending on a host of factors that trip is fast or slow

So if you are holding back your food from the transverse colon or the transverse colon doesn't move quickly or your pancreas is swollen so it doesn't want to pass over the pancreas or the liver is swollen so it doesn't want to go past the liver etc gallbladder all of these things can slow things down and it's not the biggest of deals except it will produce a host of different symptoms

Some people can learn to ignore them most people learn to ignore them probably especially on a limited level when they get severe it's harder but doable as is demonstrated by my life

But I also think the more that they get ignored the more other things pop up and that's why I'm riding right now

Writing

I was having a decent morning the voice is doing mostly okay I'm slightly sluggish digestively which for me I'm think that it is the ileosecal valve not closing and the liver slowing things down more also my pancreas right now I'm feeling a little bit of a twinge now and then

Nothing serious it was my first day on solid food which was steak cubes slow cooked in stuff injera and a couple beans things

So it's not surprising it's a little off-kilter

But I spent a morning breathing into it especially because I had a very disappointing moment of spending money that I didn't have on a late fee that I didn't need to spend and me trying to escape this country I just it's easy for me to spiral I tooted about it earlier

But considering how well I sang yesterday I had to cheer myself up so that I could check and see if I wanted to sing today

So I lay down got stoned and watched some TV

And ray made noises like you wanted to go out even though he had pooped last night

So I took him out it was a little bit vexing and I had executive function issues about doing it because I was debating whether or not to feed him first but I decided empty him out and then feed him and he was nervous because he thought I was going to just leave him inside I had to start taking off my jacket in my shoes to make it clear I was staying before he would come back in because he's been conditioned to having to wait inside while I collect the free $20 from the farmers markets

I woke up this morning not needing to get stoned which is really rare that's the #teff #injera and no #gluten... My sense of smell is getting better, too

(It's so easy to lose prospective as a lifelong #bedrotter but I'm starting to notice smells in my apartment that might not have been unnoticeable to other people before (blush))

So I wasn't stoned didn't necessarily feel the need to was just going to focus on my breath because everything was a little stiff

Then I realized the thing about losing $30 (which would be another meal like this which would put me an even better capacity to control my body and therefore my mood and therefore The voice) tensed up and got mad ...and since my mood is very important to the voice I made the executive decision to spend some time in bed before I did anything else because when I get tense I slow down and become right left dysregulated and was trying to learn that mechanism it's easier when injera moves through gently.

So I watched Watson and it was beautiful this little Valentine love story that was told in december.. whatever

Gave Ray a nice walk he was happy came back in I'm repeating myself kind of

Fed Ray he was even happier and I was watching myself breathe In The mirror when there was a noise in the hall and Ray reacted and barked medium loudly and it was really painful

....this was about an hour ago I had to lie down to make it not hurt this was me feeling good and then all of a sudden I had this reaction because when my body tenses up as it is trying to relax and pass food through it's a jolt to the system that is excruciating once you start to become aware of it or are unable to avoid it

This is my explanation of one reason why people get overly sensitized to noises

Which is why the person above me is so stressful for me

In addition to me hearing the damage she is doing to her voice, all of the stomping and slamming is a jolt to the system every time and you can get locked in there

So me talking this out through this toot is my trying to understand it

But yeah that vision of right left (neuro) dusregulation versus left right dysregulation being more mechanical/medical (sigmoid/venal damage, pancreatitis) just came to me

So I'm having this intellectual vision moment right now

It has to do with something I'm going to call right left dysregulation versus left right dysregulation

It happens when you can for example breathe through one nostril but not the other or have an ache on one side or the other and it's generally correlative with the presence of inflammation in an organ or large amounts of matter going through the digestive tract at the same time on one side or the other ..when it's on the right side it's coming out of the small intestine up into the ascending colon through the appendix etc then it makes the jump from the right to the left with the transverse and depending on a host of factors that trip is fast or slow

So if you are holding back your food from the transverse colon or the transverse colon doesn't move quickly or your pancreas is swollen so it doesn't want to pass over the pancreas or the liver is swollen so it doesn't want to go past the liver etc gallbladder all of these things can slow things down and it's not the biggest of deals except it will produce a host of different symptoms

Some people can learn to ignore them most people learn to ignore them probably especially on a limited level when they get severe it's harder but doable as is demonstrated by my life

But I also think the more that they get ignored the more other things pop up and that's why I'm riding right now

Writing

I was having a decent morning the voice is doing mostly okay I'm slightly sluggish digestively which for me I'm think that it is the ileosecal valve not closing and the liver slowing things down more also my pancreas right now I'm feeling a little bit of a twinge now and then

Nothing serious it was my first day on solid food which was steak cubes slow cooked in stuff injera and a couple beans things

So it's not surprising it's a little off-kilter

But I spent a morning breathing into it especially because I had a very disappointing moment of spending money that I didn't have on a late fee that I didn't need to spend and me trying to escape this country I just it's easy for me to spiral I tooted about it earlier

But considering how well I sang yesterday I had to cheer myself up so that I could check and see if I wanted to sing today

So I lay down got stoned and watched some TV

And ray made noises like you wanted to go out even though he had pooped last night

So I took him out it was a little bit vexing and I had executive function issues about doing it because I was debating whether or not to feed him first but I decided empty him out and then feed him and he was nervous because he thought I was going to just leave him inside I had to start taking off my jacket in my shoes to make it clear I was staying before he would come back in because he's been conditioned to having to wait inside while I collect the free $20 from the farmers markets

I woke up this morning not needing to get stoned which is really rare that's the #teff #injera and no #gluten... My sense of smell is getting better, too

(It's so easy to lose prospective as a lifelong #bedrotter but I'm starting to notice smells in my apartment that might not have been unnoticeable to other people before (blush))

So I wasn't stoned didn't necessarily feel the need to was just going to focus on my breath because everything was a little stiff

Then I realized the thing about losing $30 (which would be another meal like this which would put me an even better capacity to control my body and therefore my mood and therefore The voice) tensed up and got mad ...and since my mood is very important to the voice I made the executive decision to spend some time in bed before I did anything else because when I get tense I slow down and become right left dysregulated and was trying to learn that mechanism it's easier when injera moves through gently.

So I watched Watson and it was beautiful this little Valentine love story that was told in december.. whatever

Gave Ray a nice walk he was happy came back in I'm repeating myself kind of

Fed Ray he was even happier and I was watching myself breathe In The mirror when there was a noise in the hall and Ray reacted and barked medium loudly and it was really painful

....this was about an hour ago I had to lie down to make it not hurt this was me feeling good and then all of a sudden I had this reaction because when my body tenses up as it is trying to relax and pass food through it's a jolt to the system that is excruciating once you start to become aware of it or are unable to avoid it

This is my explanation of one reason why people get overly sensitized to noises

Which is why the person above me is so stressful for me

In addition to me hearing the damage she is doing to her voice, all of the stomping and slamming is a jolt to the system every time and you can get locked in there

So me talking this out through this toot is my trying to understand it

But yeah that vision of right left (neuro) dusregulation versus left right dysregulation being more mechanical/medical (sigmoid/venal damage, pancreatitis) just came to me

So I'm having this intellectual vision moment right now

It has to do with something I'm going to call right left dysregulation versus left right dysregulation

It happens when you can for example breathe through one nostril but not the other or have an ache on one side or the other and it's generally correlative with the presence of inflammation in an organ or large amounts of matter going through the digestive tract at the same time on one side or the other ..when it's on the right side it's coming out of the small intestine up into the ascending colon through the appendix etc then it makes the jump from the right to the left with the transverse and depending on a host of factors that trip is fast or slow

So if you are holding back your food from the transverse colon or the transverse colon doesn't move quickly or your pancreas is swollen so it doesn't want to pass over the pancreas or the liver is swollen so it doesn't want to go past the liver etc gallbladder all of these things can slow things down and it's not the biggest of deals except it will produce a host of different symptoms

Some people can learn to ignore them most people learn to ignore them probably especially on a limited level when they get severe it's harder but doable as is demonstrated by my life

But I also think the more that they get ignored the more other things pop up and that's why I'm riding right now

Writing

I was having a decent morning the voice is doing mostly okay I'm slightly sluggish digestively which for me I'm think that it is the ileosecal valve not closing and the liver slowing things down more also my pancreas right now I'm feeling a little bit of a twinge now and then

Nothing serious it was my first day on solid food which was steak cubes slow cooked in stuff injera and a couple beans things

So it's not surprising it's a little off-kilter

But I spent a morning breathing into it especially because I had a very disappointing moment of spending money that I didn't have on a late fee that I didn't need to spend and me trying to escape this country I just it's easy for me to spiral I tooted about it earlier

But considering how well I sang yesterday I had to cheer myself up so that I could check and see if I wanted to sing today

So I lay down got stoned and watched some TV

And ray made noises like you wanted to go out even though he had pooped last night

So I took him out it was a little bit vexing and I had executive function issues about doing it because I was debating whether or not to feed him first but I decided empty him out and then feed him and he was nervous because he thought I was going to just leave him inside I had to start taking off my jacket in my shoes to make it clear I was staying before he would come back in because he's been conditioned to having to wait inside while I collect the free $20 from the farmers markets

I woke up this morning not needing to get stoned which is really rare that's the #teff #injera and no #gluten... My sense of smell is getting better, too

(It's so easy to lose prospective as a lifelong #bedrotter but I'm starting to notice smells in my apartment that might not have been unnoticeable to other people before (blush))

So I wasn't stoned didn't necessarily feel the need to was just going to focus on my breath because everything was a little stiff

Then I realized the thing about losing $30 (which would be another meal like this which would put me an even better capacity to control my body and therefore my mood and therefore The voice) tensed up and got mad ...and since my mood is very important to the voice I made the executive decision to spend some time in bed before I did anything else because when I get tense I slow down and become right left dysregulated and was trying to learn that mechanism it's easier when injera moves through gently.

So I watched Watson and it was beautiful this little Valentine love story that was told in december.. whatever

Gave Ray a nice walk he was happy came back in I'm repeating myself kind of

Fed Ray he was even happier and I was watching myself breathe In The mirror when there was a noise in the hall and Ray reacted and barked medium loudly and it was really painful

....this was about an hour ago I had to lie down to make it not hurt this was me feeling good and then all of a sudden I had this reaction because when my body tenses up as it is trying to relax and pass food through it's a jolt to the system that is excruciating once you start to become aware of it or are unable to avoid it

This is my explanation of one reason why people get overly sensitized to noises

Which is why the person above me is so stressful for me

In addition to me hearing the damage she is doing to her voice, all of the stomping and slamming is a jolt to the system every time and you can get locked in there

So me talking this out through this toot is my trying to understand it

But yeah that vision of right left (neuro) dusregulation versus left right dysregulation being more mechanical/medical (sigmoid/venal damage, pancreatitis) just came to me