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January 11, 2024 - Day 11 - Check In
Total Check Ins: 11

Water goal: 2L
Intake: 2L

Exercise goal: 5m
Actual: 7m

Exercise: Walking
Location: Outdoors

Distance: 0.57km
Pace: n/a
Steps: n/a

Kcal burned: 61

HR: n/a

Comments:
Today marked my first binge of the year. I ate an entire tub of Ben & Jerry's Phish Food.

I was diagnosed with #BingeEating Disorder a few years ago, and after the Dx, the psychologist just left me with the knowledge that I have it, but no help on how to deal with it.

I'm sitting there as I'm eating it, unsure of why I asked my son to pick it up, but more frustratingly, unable to stop myself from eating it. I'm staring into the tub as I take spoonful after spoonful, and thinking I should leave some, and then... I just kept going.

My tooth broke off during this binge, which didn't help my emotional state.

Curiously, my inability to stop myself found context in an ADHD video that popped up on my Facebook feed as I was going to bed.

Apparently it's a common ADHD thing for high-dopamine response foods (y'know, like a pint of sugar) to get eaten in a single sitting.

It's something I've felt terribly ashamed of for literally decades, but for the first time I feel like I can actually make some sense of it.

I've known for a long time that I can't have sugary foods in the house, because I'll just eat them, but now I can understand the why.

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