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TechnoTenshi :verified_trans: :Fire_Lesbian: @[email protected] · 2025-11-26 · 04:28 UTC

Time to get serious about my voice training.

I really did not have overpowering dysphoria about my male voice before. I tried voice coaching at Seattle Voice Lab and completed about four sessions. I did not see any progress, and after losing my job, I stopped voice training. On top of that, I was very discouraged.

Any time I stumbled upon a voice training video on YouTube, I would save it to a playlist. I never had the motivation to actually watch them or practice. Or rather, I did not want to feel disappointed with myself, remembering my previous experience. I also paid for a couple of voice training apps, and even the full course from Jasmine Vine.

I also began following a lot of transgender content creators, and many of them are trans women who still use their "male" voice and have stated that they are not pursuing voice training at all. I thought that maybe I could take that path too. Voice training is not a requirement for being a trans woman, so I stopped looking for ways to resume/start again from scratch.

Ten days ago, Seattle Voice Lab published a video about one of their former coaches, who was fired after several complaints from students, low performance, and questionable behavior. That was the very same coach who was assigned to me back then, and learning about the types of complaints this person got (which line up with my own experience) made me wonder if voice training itself might not be as bad as the experience I had with that particular coach.

Yesterday’s experience was my first time having really bad dysphoria about my voice. Today I am a lot calmer. I think that as long as I do not hear my own voice through a recording, I will be mostly OK, but now I have renewed motivation to move forward with training.

I have had the pleasure of talking with Jasmine, and she has been really sweet every time, so I am going to give her coaching a serious try. I might even return to Seattle Voice Lab once I can afford it, of course.

Getting SRS within the next year is a possibility, but it is not entirely under my control. Engaging in voice training IS under my control, so I am making the commitment to it, with the goal of having a female-passing voice by this time next year.

My wife really encouraged me today, and she mentioned that sometimes, especially when I say "Thank you," I sound totally cis.

So this fight begins. Wish me luck.

#TransVoice #VoiceTraining #TransWomenAreWomen #TransitionJourney

#transvoice #voicetraining #transwomenarewomen #transitionjourney

TechnoTenshi :verified_trans: :Fire_Lesbian: @[email protected] · 2024-05-25 · 19:20 UTC

Last night, I took my wife on a date, making the most of our child's sleepover. Over burgers, we delved into my recent fascination with Lumity (Luz and Amity from The Owl House). As a romance enthusiast in both cartoons and anime, I've experienced countless love stories, but Lumity resonated with me on a much deeper level.

One of my favorite romance anime series is "The Dangers in My Heart" (Boku no Kokoro no Yabai Yatsu), where a socially awkward teenage boy falls for a model and actress who is also an unapologetic foodie. This anime had me in tears almost every other episode, especially in season 2. Despite this, I didn’t feel the same attachment to the couple as I do with Lumity. Lumity is the first fictional couple I've felt genuinely connected to.

At first, I thought my fascination with Lumity might stem from it being the first same-sex couple I’d seen in a show since starting my transition. However, this theory has two flaws. First, my wife and I are avid fans of Yuri (lesbian manga), and we've watched at least four Yuri anime series since I began my transition. Second, before Lumity captured my heart, I hadn’t watched The Owl House beyond a few episodes my child showed me. It was Lumity that sparked my interest in TOH. My wife often says, "There might not be a criteria or pattern... the mind knows and when it happens, it happens." This rang true for me; my fascination with Lumity arrived unexpectedly and beautifully.

We also talked about the liberating experience of taking testosterone blockers. Before puberty, I mentally identified as a girl but was forced to present as a boy. Male puberty was incredibly challenging. I felt emotional attraction towards girls but was uncomfortable with how boys objectified them. This discomfort followed me into adulthood.

Now, with the help of testosterone blockers, my transition, and therapy, I no longer feel compelled to conform to male norms. Throughout my life, I mimicked the behavior of those around me due to my social awkwardness, even adopting harmful male behaviors—a choice I deeply regret. Thankfully, I've begun to see the women around me, both real and fictional, through a different lens. I admire them for their thoughts, feelings, actions, and achievements. I’ve rejected the involuntary objectification and sexualization, especially in fiction where it adds no value to the story. Although I still have many mental barriers to overcome, I'm relieved that those are finally coming down.

#TransitionJourney #Lumity #TheOwlHouse #PersonalGrowth #LGBTQIA+ #RepresentationMatters

#transitionjourney #lumity #theowlhouse #personalgrowth #lgbtqia #representationmatters

TechnoTenshi :verified_trans: :Fire_Lesbian: @[email protected] · 2024-02-19 · 04:06 UTC

CW: Cw. Dysphoria

After two incredible nights filled with gender affirmation and joy, today felt like an unexpected turn. My brain, perhaps overwhelmed by the recent euphoria, decided it was time to balance the scales, leading to a tough bout of dysphoria. It's been a challenging day, with the shadows feeling a bit too close for comfort. Thankfully, my anxiolytic medication has been a buffer, preventing what felt like an imminent panic attack.

Feeling trapped in this cocoon of mixed emotions, I'm yearning for the moment I can fully emerge, free and unburdened. My partner has been my rock, providing comfort and care through the storm. Despite their support, dysphoria has its own timeline, often stretching on for hours...

It's a stark reminder of the journey's ups and downs, but also of the strength found in vulnerability and the love that surrounds me. Grateful for the care, yet hoping for the day when the good days outnumber the bad. 🦋 #GenderDysphoria #TransitionJourney #SupportSystem #SeekingLight

#genderdysphoria #transitionjourney #supportsystem #seekinglight

TechnoTenshi :verified_trans: :Fire_Lesbian: @[email protected] · 2024-02-18 · 17:25 UTC

Attended a dear friend's birthday celebration last night, presenting as my true self. It was a special evening, not just for the occasion but because it was one of the first times I've been in a social setting like this since my transition. Most guests were aware of my journey, except for one. Despite knowing and trusting her, the anticipation of her reaction had me on edge.