#transaf — Public Fediverse posts

The fever dream of life continues. Birthdays and brotato; a hazy trip to Rochester and the siren song of quiet nights bathing in the glow of an Atari 2600 emulator.

Work is ferocious and I am not and I need to find time - make time - to write. As if time is something that can be pulled up out of the earth and molded like clay; something to the idea of making time that reminds me of the delicate process of balancing fuel for rockets to escape earth's gravity; it is a game in which all returns are diminishing.

Playing these retro games again, I'm reminded how much they were all about timing; knowing when to jump and when to wait and when to look for the pattern unfolding around you, the one that will tell you how to safely navigate the moment without making some twitchy, calamitous mistake. Like life, most of the games are timed - there's pressure to do, to go, to make - but then I think maybe the high score is a red herring and the only thing that matters is whether you're playing a game that feels fun.

Nonsense thoughts for a nonsense day. I was warm last night. I was happy.

#streamofconciousness #transaf #journal

Sunday ootd

Walk, brunch, walk, take wife to station, get freaked out by the raucous drunk people at the station, one of whom was hassling everyone with a dog, come home, have hay fever attack 😭

🐉🫶🫂🏳️‍⚧️☀️

Happy that it’s sunny today
Happy that we had a nice week together

#transover50 #transgirl #transaf #secondhandfashion

(Dress from Marc o Polo donated by Elodie’s wife, Timberland heeled loafers from Momox fashion)

T = 4, E = 87

If you know, you know

#TransIsBeautiful #transaf

Happiest of starts to the new week

#ootd #mondaymorning #ihavenoideawhatimdoing

Just to clarify, I don’t post so many selfies and stuff because I think I’m hot, or because I’m really confident in who I am (although this is getting better), but because I have crippling self esteem issues and need people to say I look nice. I feel like I have a massive hole where the praise growing up should have been, and often this leads to poor attachment issues. It’s on the list of things to try and fix….

#thisiswhattranslookslike #transaf #transjoyisresistance #transliberationnow #transover50

Good morning beautiful friends
I wish you a peaceful start to the new week
I hope the sun is shining and the coffee tastes extra nice, and someone gives you a hug (if not then I can send a box of hugs your way)

It may not be tdov anymore but I’m still trans af, visible, and proud af of my #trans identity
And I’m proud of all my trans and enby siblings for just being.

Take care and stay safe

Image description: a 50 something trans girl with pink hair in a bun dressed in blue and grey looks into the camera

#transjoyisresistance #transjoyisreal #transjoyeveryday #willnotbeerased #transaf #secondhandfashion