Slowly learning to adapt
...even though it's painful and challenging me a lot...
I have shared many blog posts about my emotions, especially during the last 3 months. I guess it's only natural, as I have been dealing with the worst pain and trauma, both mentally as physially. It's really done a number on me, as I've heard people call it, and it set me back quite a bit. I need to learn to deal with these feelings. I need to adapt to the new situation that is my life, for the time being at least. All those years where I was used to certain routines, the loving support of my gall, caring for her and always putting her first. It feels like, in a way, I am really not used to being able to "put me first".
Of course I got some of that back when I got divorced. I got a lot of it back, actually. But still, when I had to learn to live on my own, for the very first time, I was lonely and afraid. And there she was, my soulmate, caring for me and giving me a reason to rebuild my life. And, as I adapted, my world was spinning around Arwen for 24/7. Sure, I managed to do things that I wanted to do. But my routine was mostly built around her wants and needs. She saved me, and now I had to do everything to give her the best life I could offer. She really deserved it...
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