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CW: Medication, mental health, doctors
My doctor’s office left me a voicemail about scheduling an appointment for some medication changes. Considering I recently asked my counselor (who works w/ my doc,) to talk to a psychiatrist for me I can guess what this is about. This is your sign to get help if you need it. We need you here. 🩵🫶
#Ramblings #it’s-okay-not-to-be-okay #mental-health #anxiety-disorder #depression #doctor-visit #you-are-loved #you-are-important -
CW: Medication, mental health, doctors
My doctor’s office left me a voicemail about scheduling an appointment for some medication changes. Considering I recently asked my counselor (who works w/ my doc,) to talk to a psychiatrist for me I can guess what this is about. This is your sign to get help if you need it. We need you here. 🩵🫶
#Ramblings #it’s-okay-not-to-be-okay #mental-health #anxiety-disorder #depression #doctor-visit #you-are-loved #you-are-important -
CW: Medication, mental health, doctors
My doctor’s office left me a voicemail about scheduling an appointment for some medication changes. Considering I recently asked my counselor (who works w/ my doc,) to talk to a psychiatrist for me I can guess what this is about. This is your sign to get help if you need it. We need you here. 🩵🫶
#Ramblings #it’s-okay-not-to-be-okay #mental-health #anxiety-disorder #depression #doctor-visit #you-are-loved #you-are-important -
CW: Suicide, mental illness
“Mother’s Day”
Today my dad will call my mom
And thank her for my existence
I do not thank her for it
But I can’t say that aloud
I am not suicidal!
But I am always terrified or unhappy
Maybe not always
How often do you feel hopeless, like you would be better off dead?
Most days, some days, or not at all?
I roll the question around in my brain
Some days.
I don’t want to die.
Actually I’m terrified of death
I want to live so badly
I want to experience everything
Fear and chronic symptoms
That’s what holds me back
Today my dad will call my mom
To thank her for my existence
Today I will take several pills
They keep me here
But they don’t fix me.
#Ramblings #poem #spoonie #disabled #anxiety-disorder #depression #chronic-pain -
CW: Suicide, mental illness
“Mother’s Day”
Today my dad will call my mom
And thank her for my existence
I do not thank her for it
But I can’t say that aloud
I am not suicidal!
But I am always terrified or unhappy
Maybe not always
How often do you feel hopeless, like you would be better off dead?
Most days, some days, or not at all?
I roll the question around in my brain
Some days.
I don’t want to die.
Actually I’m terrified of death
I want to live so badly
I want to experience everything
Fear and chronic symptoms
That’s what holds me back
Today my dad will call my mom
To thank her for my existence
Today I will take several pills
They keep me here
But they don’t fix me.
#Ramblings #poem #spoonie #disabled #anxiety-disorder #depression #chronic-pain -
CW: Suicide, mental illness
“Mother’s Day”
Today my dad will call my mom
And thank her for my existence
I do not thank her for it
But I can’t say that aloud
I am not suicidal!
But I am always terrified or unhappy
Maybe not always
How often do you feel hopeless, like you would be better off dead?
Most days, some days, or not at all?
I roll the question around in my brain
Some days.
I don’t want to die.
Actually I’m terrified of death
I want to live so badly
I want to experience everything
Fear and chronic symptoms
That’s what holds me back
Today my dad will call my mom
To thank her for my existence
Today I will take several pills
They keep me here
But they don’t fix me.
#Ramblings #poem #spoonie #disabled #anxiety-disorder #depression #chronic-pain -
My mom wanted us to get groceries earlier today for her. I was already worried about it because I wasn’t very awake yet. I began getting more and more anxious while driving because I obviously didn’t want to get into an accident. When we actually got to the store I stayed in the car and tried to not have a panic attack. By the time Wren got back out with the food I was somewhat more awake so driving home was a little easier. My stepdad pulled me aside later and was asking if I’m okay & how I should let them help me. He was saying that the attacks are going to get worse as I get older if I don’t get help for them. I really do want therapy again but I’ve been putting it off for various reasons. I miss my therapist that I had for several years. I hope that she’s doing okay. I was supposed to get an autism assessment done where she works but by the time I was called about an appointment I had just moved to a new state. Part of me doesn’t want the assessment now because people will always treat someone who’s diagnosed with autism poorly. Not to mention that Trump is not helping with the ableism with the dumb things he’s said lately about being on the spectrum.
#Ramblings #Sonder-complains #anxiety-disorder #panic-attacks #autistic #ableism #neurodivergent #no-spoons -
My mom wanted us to get groceries earlier today for her. I was already worried about it because I wasn’t very awake yet. I began getting more and more anxious while driving because I obviously didn’t want to get into an accident. When we actually got to the store I stayed in the car and tried to not have a panic attack. By the time Wren got back out with the food I was somewhat more awake so driving home was a little easier. My stepdad pulled me aside later and was asking if I’m okay & how I should let them help me. He was saying that the attacks are going to get worse as I get older if I don’t get help for them. I really do want therapy again but I’ve been putting it off for various reasons. I miss my therapist that I had for several years. I hope that she’s doing okay. I was supposed to get an autism assessment done where she works but by the time I was called about an appointment I had just moved to a new state. Part of me doesn’t want the assessment now because people will always treat someone who’s diagnosed with autism poorly. Not to mention that Trump is not helping with the ableism with the dumb things he’s said lately about being on the spectrum.
#Ramblings #Sonder-complains #anxiety-disorder #panic-attacks #autistic #ableism #neurodivergent #no-spoons -
My mom wanted us to get groceries earlier today for her. I was already worried about it because I wasn’t very awake yet. I began getting more and more anxious while driving because I obviously didn’t want to get into an accident. When we actually got to the store I stayed in the car and tried to not have a panic attack. By the time Wren got back out with the food I was somewhat more awake so driving home was a little easier. My stepdad pulled me aside later and was asking if I’m okay & how I should let them help me. He was saying that the attacks are going to get worse as I get older if I don’t get help for them. I really do want therapy again but I’ve been putting it off for various reasons. I miss my therapist that I had for several years. I hope that she’s doing okay. I was supposed to get an autism assessment done where she works but by the time I was called about an appointment I had just moved to a new state. Part of me doesn’t want the assessment now because people will always treat someone who’s diagnosed with autism poorly. Not to mention that Trump is not helping with the ableism with the dumb things he’s said lately about being on the spectrum.
#Ramblings #Sonder-complains #anxiety-disorder #panic-attacks #autistic #ableism #neurodivergent #no-spoons -
My mom wanted us to get groceries earlier today for her. I was already worried about it because I wasn’t very awake yet. I began getting more and more anxious while driving because I obviously didn’t want to get into an accident. When we actually got to the store I stayed in the car and tried to not have a panic attack. By the time Wren got back out with the food I was somewhat more awake so driving home was a little easier. My stepdad pulled me aside later and was asking if I’m okay & how I should let them help me. He was saying that the attacks are going to get worse as I get older if I don’t get help for them. I really do want therapy again but I’ve been putting it off for various reasons. I miss my therapist that I had for several years. I hope that she’s doing okay. I was supposed to get an autism assessment done where she works but by the time I was called about an appointment I had just moved to a new state. Part of me doesn’t want the assessment now because people will always treat someone who’s diagnosed with autism poorly. Not to mention that Trump is not helping with the ableism with the dumb things he’s said lately about being on the spectrum.
#Ramblings #Sonder-complains #anxiety-disorder #panic-attacks #autistic #ableism #neurodivergent #no-spoons