#ramblings — Public Fediverse posts

Every time another trans person is murdered I of course think of my girlfriend. The idea of someone hurting her makes me ill. Please look out for your trans loved ones. Be extra vigilant.

Every time another trans person is murdered I of course think of my girlfriend. The idea of someone hurting her makes me ill. Please look out for your trans loved ones. Be extra vigilant.

Every time another trans person is murdered I of course think of my girlfriend. The idea of someone hurting her makes me ill. Please look out for your trans loved ones. Be extra vigilant.

She’s been my best friend growing up and a bully too. She only loves my girlfriend now because she does chores around the house religiously. She used to say cruel things about Wren like I wasn’t listening. Now she’s like “I’m gonna adopt Wren, you can go somewhere else,” all because of what Wren can do for her. Then she said to Wren “I bet that made her feel great,” so she knows that she’s being an asshole. My mom knows that I’m a sensitive person (it sucks & it’s embarrassing,) and she still says mean things to me. I guess her logic is “if I hurt her emotionally then she’ll change & not do this thing I don’t like,” which is pretty fucked up in my opinion.

Beautiful? Adorable? This flesh prison that I’ve come to hate, that’s attractive to you? My body can’t even work right; it sabotages me with pain and horrible feelings in my brain. Crooked spine, struggling organs, I want to get a new one please! I wasn’t built right. The numbers don’t make sense, I can’t focus even on the important things. Trouble understanding social queues, embarrassing myself in public. Is that a joke or are you serious? If you don’t explain things in detail to me I’ll struggle to perform. Why are you mad at me? I’m not intending to be rude, I’m asking you for clarification. Too sensitive; criticism feels like a punch to the gut. What’s the point? I take more pills to stay alive. Watching people my own age thrive while I cower in my room. My body makes me feel like a monster that is trying to replicate being a human. It’s not very good at it.