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“depersonalization blues”

these are the lengths you drove me to 
I don't write verses anymore, I write indictments 
I built a twisted empire out of everything you were
too afraid to touch in all of the places I knew you'd 
never look, and there, in the shadows, I waited
you did exactly what I wanted you to do. 

anger is a tool, I made it into an art form because of you.

I may be half the things you are but I am everywhere 
you're not, and that's something to be proud of when
I could outclass you in my sleep by the time I was 
fourteen. doesn't that eat you alive?
knowing that you created the one person who could 
ever destroy you?

so go on, sleep soundly now, make those jokes 
at my expense, tell them all I died or went insane 
because the joke’s on you -
I may be crazy, but you made me that way

and I'm infinitely happier when you're gone

-Allēna & June, 8/13/2025

#depersonalization #enneagram8 #enneagram8w9 #poetry #Processing #queerpoet

“depersonalization blues”

these are the lengths you drove me to 
I don't write verses anymore, I write indictments 
I built a twisted empire out of everything you were
too afraid to touch in all of the places I knew you'd 
never look, and there, in the shadows, I waited
you did exactly what I wanted you to do. 

anger is a tool, I made it into an art form because of you.

I may be half the things you are but I am everywhere 
you're not, and that's something to be proud of when
I could outclass you in my sleep by the time I was 
fourteen. doesn't that eat you alive?
knowing that you created the one person who could 
ever destroy you?

so go on, sleep soundly now, make those jokes 
at my expense, tell them all I died or went insane 
because the joke’s on you -
I may be crazy, but you made me that way

and I'm infinitely happier when you're gone

-Allēna & June, 8/13/2025

#depersonalization #enneagram8 #enneagram8w9 #poetry #Processing #queerpoet

I call this one “song of experience”.

you claim that i'm better than you, when in reality
i’m nothing but a practiced poor player 
who knows how to call fire and gold from nothing but words
i stand before you and strut and fret my hour upon the stage
in much the same way i did since i was a child -
and when i became a teenager i found the voice of a haunted pipe organ
that only increased in volume and resonance with time and skill
and when i was 24 i unsexed myself and learned to roar
got some damned spots on my hands 
(i roar about them, too)
i learned the difference between hard and soft, between open palms 
and hidden knives
and built a cathedral for my pipe organ voice 
burnt out like a caravan or a candle a time or nineteen
so don’t ever think you’re better than me
learn to screw your courage to the sticking place
dust off the keys, call the fire
and sing
 07/28/2025

-Allēna

#allusions #discipline #lgbtqia #nonbinary #passion #poetry #practice #queer #queerpoet #ritual #shakespeare #thescottishplay #transgender #transmasc #transmascpoet #transmasculine

I call this one “song of experience”.

you claim that i'm better than you, when in reality
i’m nothing but a practiced poor player 
who knows how to call fire and gold from nothing but words
i stand before you and strut and fret my hour upon the stage
in much the same way i did since i was a child -
and when i became a teenager i found the voice of a haunted pipe organ
that only increased in volume and resonance with time and skill
and when i was 24 i unsexed myself and learned to roar
got some damned spots on my hands 
(i roar about them, too)
i learned the difference between hard and soft, between open palms 
and hidden knives
and built a cathedral for my pipe organ voice 
burnt out like a caravan or a candle a time or nineteen
so don’t ever think you’re better than me
learn to screw your courage to the sticking place
dust off the keys, call the fire
and sing
 07/28/2025

-Allēna

#allusions #discipline #lgbtqia #nonbinary #passion #poetry #practice #queer #queerpoet #ritual #shakespeare #thescottishplay #transgender #transmasc #transmascpoet #transmasculine

I felt inspired this morning because I couldn’t sleep way too early, as usual.

Made some art based off of this post: https://opensorceryy.co/inevitability/ #TTRPG #poetry #poetrygame #digitalart #collage #queerpoet #cptsd #NEISvoid # cripplepunk -Allēna

#Collage #cptsd #CripplePunk #digitalart #NEISvoid #poetry #poetrygame #queerpoet #TTRPG

I felt inspired this morning because I couldn’t sleep way too early, as usual.

Made some art based off of this post: https://opensorceryy.co/inevitability/ #TTRPG #poetry #poetrygame #digitalart #collage #queerpoet #cptsd #NEISvoid # cripplepunk -Allēna

#Collage #cptsd #CripplePunk #digitalart #NEISvoid #poetry #poetrygame #queerpoet #TTRPG