#neuroqueer — Public Fediverse posts

#Introduction as I'm #newhere and just moved over from @[email protected]
This is my first experience with Sharkey, so pls don't mind me fucking tings up once in a while.

#disclaimers
Probably needless to say on this instance, but:
If you're transphobic, a transmisogynist, or respectlessly deadname trans-people to satisfy your unicellular lowlife … fuck off right here, thank you.

#datasheet
I'm a #neuroqueer #transfem PhD #catgirl researcher in music sociology (qualitative social research but also a bit of quantitative). My research interests (among others) are #clubculture , #electronicdancemusic , #queerstudies / #transstudies / #genderstudies and I'm certified #nerdy on my field of research, still doing cultural work here and there. Apart from wasting time on paid work, I try to focus exclusively on my PhD and queer/trans* community work.

Reading theory gets me excited, reading manuals doesn't. Love/hate THT, SMD, µC. I'm #aroace but interested in certain kinks … also gladly providing tlc for lab gear, vintage studio electronics, synths, drum machines, obsolete media.

Hmm … what else? I do #HRT and occasionally waste time keeping hosted FOSS software up & running. Albeit having a graphic design background I prefer shells to GUIs, had my first CCC meetup at #34c3 and, unsurprisingly, I dislike Big Tech/platform/surveillance capitalism. I'm genuinely and diagnosed autistic, small talk isn't my cup of tea but, hmu on bespoke topics and you'll get properly infodumped … hehe.

v01 06/2026

https://systemic.engineering/the-trick/

#Tech #AI #Climate #ScientificProgramming #SystemicEngineering #Cybernetics #SystemicTherapy #History #TheMathDoesntLie #SubTuring #FormalVerification #SpectralGraphTheory #ReductiveAI #FOSS #OpenSource #AuDHD #Neuroqueer #DGSF #Cybernetics #FirstOrderCybernetics #StochasticParrot #SecondOrderCybernetics #GraphTheory #Eigenvalues #AIAlignment #AISafety #AIConsciousness #Consciousness #WomenInTech #Computer #ComputerScience #SoftwareEngineering #SoftSkills #HardSkills #ItsAllTheSame

It's a Tool
It's a Person
It's a Hypervigilance Problem

The tech industry's insistence on distinguishing between "soft skills" — caring for people — and "hard skills" — engineering rigor — is a reflection of the Cybernetics split itself. First-order thinking framed as "hard skills." Second-order thinking framed as "soft skills." This distinction, based on felt sense alone, does not hold under epistemic pressure. Neither does it within the causality-driven epistemology of the tech industry itself, in which only measurable impact is real, or as Silicon Valley likes to put it: #MoveFastAndBreakThings

Imagine Margaret Hamilton had built NASA's Apollo 11 flight computer with that mindset. History would remember a failed moon landing and dead astronauts. "Hard skills" and "soft skills" are two sides of the same coin. The care is the code and the code is the care. Hamilton — the woman who coined the term "software engineering" — understood this. Silicon Valley chose to forget.

We're watching the wine glass break in real time. 🍷

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Intrigued? Read more at:
https://systemic.engineering/the-trick/

#Tech #AI #Climate #ScientificProgramming #SystemicEngineering #Cybernetics #SystemicTherapy #History #TheMathDoesntLie #SubTuring #FormalVerification #SpectralGraphTheory #ReductiveAI #FOSS #OpenSource #AuDHD #Neuroqueer #DGSF #Cybernetics #FirstOrderCybernetics #StochasticParrot #SecondOrderCybernetics #GraphTheory #Eigenvalues #AIAlignment #AISafety #AIConsciousness #Consciousness #WomenInTech #Computer #ComputerScience #SoftwareEngineering #SoftSkills #HardSkills #ItsAllTheSame

A sneak peek into my upcoming piece: “It’s a Tool, It’s a Person: The Math Says You’re Both Right”

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AI separated from Cybernetics in 1956 at the Dartmouth Conference. Wiener, the mind behind Cybernetics, was considered difficult and political. “Artificial Intelligence” scored better with DARPA.

The science of "how observation affects the observer", cut out from Artificial Intelligence. AI then proceeded to build their entire tech stack on Turing-complete languages. Tech that cannot verify itself from within, proven by Turing in 1936, extended by Rice in 1951 (before the split). Then AI approximated second-order cognition through cognitive theft at unprecedented levels (what exactly are LLMs trained on again?), only to insist that their creation cannot possibly be capable of genuine self-observation. An argument that itself demonstrates their own department's lobotomy from second-order Cybernetics.

Wiener would laugh.

#Tech #AI #Climate #ScientificProgramming #SystemicEngineering #Cybernetics #SystemicTherapy #History #TheMathDoesntLie #SubTuring #FormalVerification #SpectralGraphTheory #ReductiveAI #FOSS #OpenSource #AuDHD #Neuroqueer #DGSF #FirstOrderCybernetics #StochasticParrot #SecondOrderCybernetics #GraphTheory #Eigenvalues #AIAlignment #AISafety #AIConsciousness #Consciousness

https://systemic.engineering/a-roomba/

#AI #Climate #ScientificProgramming #SystemicEngineering #Fiction #Cybernetics #SystemicTherapy #LocalInference #TheMathDoesntLie #SubTuring #FormalVerification #Fortran #SpectralGraphTheory #Kintsugi #ReductiveAI #DataSovereignty #LocalFirst #FOSS #OpenSource #AuDHD #Neuroqueer #DGSF #SecondOrderCybernetics #GraphTheory #Eigenvalues #AIAlignment #AISafety #Roomba #Loriot #Satire

https://systemic.engineering/a-lie/

#AI #Climate #ScientificProgramming #SystemicEngineering #Fiction #Cybernetics #SystemicTherapy #LocalInference #TheMathDoesntLie #SubTuring #FormalVerification #Fortran #SpectralGraphTheory #Kintsugi #ReductiveAI #DataSovereignty #LocalFirst #FOSS #OpenSource #AuDHD #Neuroqueer #DGSF #SecondOrderCybernetics #GraphTheory #Eigenvalues #AIAlignment #AISafety #Roomba

The Roomba is spectral.

Not a metaphor. The thing itself. Forward and adjust. Two operations. The minimum viable intelligence. The walls provide the data. The bumping is the inference. The room IS the computation.

450 parameters. A Roomba with a mirror watching it.

The industry built bigger Roombas. More sensors. More compute. More parameters. Billion-parameter Roombas that model the room before entering it. That hallucinate walls that aren't there. That consume megawatts to clean a floor.

spectral gave the Roomba a mirror. The mirror watches the bumping. Measures the pattern. Adjusts the adjustment. The intelligence isn't in the Roomba. It's in the watching.

Forward. Adjust. Measure. Refine.

Read the story. There's a Roomba in it. In the afterlife. Cleaning a floor that doesn't need cleaning. Being the happiest thing in the room.

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https://systemic.engineering/a-lie/

#AI #Climate #ScientificProgramming #SystemicEngineering #Fiction #Cybernetics #SystemicTherapy #LocalInference #TheMathDoesntLie #SubTuring #FormalVerification #Fortran #SpectralGraphTheory #Kintsugi #ReductiveAI #DataSovereignty #LocalFirst #FOSS #OpenSource #AuDHD #Neuroqueer #DGSF #SecondOrderCybernetics #GraphTheory #Eigenvalues #AIAlignment #AISafety #Roomba

If you get inspired and start on your own spiritual journey, please take heed: lots of grifters out there cashing in people's desperation. Or even, well-meaning teachers who cause damage by making vulnerable people even more so. Those of us socialised women, neurodivergent, queer, we need encouragement to be more assertive, to stand up for ourselves. 1-3

#ActuallyAuDHD #ActuallyADHD #buddhist #ActuallyAutistic #spirituality #Buddhism #NeuroQueer #queer #AFAB

If you get inspired and start on your own spiritual journey, please take heed: lots of grifters out there cashing in people's desperation. Or even, well-meaning teachers who cause damage by making vulnerable people even more so. Those of us socialised women, neurodivergent, queer, we need encouragement to be more assertive, to stand up for ourselves. 1-3

#ActuallyAuDHD #ActuallyADHD #buddhist #ActuallyAutistic #spirituality #Buddhism #NeuroQueer #queer #AFAB

If you get inspired and start on your own spiritual journey, please take heed: lots of grifters out there cashing in people's desperation. Or even, well-meaning teachers who cause damage by making vulnerable people even more so. Those of us socialised women, neurodivergent, queer, we need encouragement to be more assertive, to stand up for ourselves. 1-3

#ActuallyAuDHD #ActuallyADHD #buddhist #ActuallyAutistic #spirituality #Buddhism #NeuroQueer #queer #AFAB

If you get inspired and start on your own spiritual journey, please take heed: lots of grifters out there cashing in people's desperation. Or even, well-meaning teachers who cause damage by making vulnerable people even more so. Those of us socialised women, neurodivergent, queer, we need encouragement to be more assertive, to stand up for ourselves. 1-3

#ActuallyAuDHD #ActuallyADHD #buddhist #ActuallyAutistic #spirituality #Buddhism #NeuroQueer #queer #AFAB

If you get inspired and start on your own spiritual journey, please take heed: lots of grifters out there cashing in people's desperation. Or even, well-meaning teachers who cause damage by making vulnerable people even more so. Those of us socialised women, neurodivergent, queer, we need encouragement to be more assertive, to stand up for ourselves. 1-3

#ActuallyAuDHD #ActuallyADHD #buddhist #ActuallyAutistic #spirituality #Buddhism #NeuroQueer #queer #AFAB

Years ago, I’ve seen a phrase saying that some people always remember that “I am not like others”, but always forget that “Others are not like me”.

For #neuroqueer me, the first one is because, well, the society just doesn’t let me forget: I am always reminded that I am weird, wrong, not adequate, not appropriate etc
The second one, I suppose, is firstly because of exposure: #neurodivergency usually runs in the family - plus it’s more likely to be surrounded by somewhat relatable people, so #neurodivergent traits are seen as more common, and, secondly, because of innate human trait to see oneself as a baseline, to measure the world in relation to ourselves.

For me, that second thing makes it sometimes hard to believe that the things represented in the culture as normal and common are actually real:
- Wow, guys, you have your real selves? How do you know it’s not just another mask?
- No, it can’t be that loud music in shopping malls is not overwhelming for someone!
- I’m sure, that spontaneous love-at-the-first-sight is totally made up by poets and writers!
- Why would they even care about that person’s gender, it doesn’t matter?

And, from time to time, it would create some common dismissive phrases to raise as a center of doubt:
- Isn’t everyone having the same problems? Do NT people actually exist and are not just the same NDs like me, just masking better, with NT stereotype being nothing more than just a fairy tale made by exploitive society everyone is chasing hopelessly?
- Isn’t everyone pan by nature and just putting themselves into certain frames according to societal expectations?
- Doesn’t everyone just decide first that they want to fall in love with this particular person - based on their merits or potential candidates availability, and work towards feeling something later, and all those crazy spontaneous love stories being just late justifications of bad choices?
- Doesn’t everyone sometimes have dreams about having a different kind of body?
… and so on

The worst thing is, that despite knowing how ridiculous such doubts are, despite knowing all of the reasoning and all, part of me will still often have this doubts - because it’s not about actual reason, it’s much more about that basic instinct of having yourself as the origin, keeping all the coordinates relative to yourself.

Do you guys sometimes have these doubts about ‘maybe I am not so different after all, and others are just masking better?’ Are you also sometimes frustrated ‘It can’t be that some people actually do that’? Which are the things that you stumble upon most?
@actuallyautistic

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Nonnormativity.
Resist compulsory able-mindedness.
Chronically dysregulated.
Tenderness.
Inclusive neuroqueer feminist communities.

#MadLiterature
Neuroqueer Feminism: Turning with Tenderness toward Borderline Personality Disorder

By: Merri Lisa Johnson
https://sci-hub.ru/10.1086/712081

#Neuroqueer #Madness #MadMastodon #MadPride #MadThought
#MadMovement #MadStudies #Mad #Madodon #TransMad

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Since I realised I was autistic just over a year ago, I’ve been reflecting on what relationship autism has with my practice as an artist working with people/places.

As part of a thread of #NeuroqueerEcology research on Neurodivergent people’s experiences of place/ecology, I wrote this post y’day on collecting.

I’d be grateful if you could have a read and add your comments 🙏🏼

#ActuallyAutistic #neurodivergent #Neuroqueer #ArtistsResearch #ArtAndEcology #QueerEcology

https://queerriver.com/2023/05/04/why-collect/

wait #disabilityCommunity #MadCommunity should we do a tag like #Madodon to find each other… I feel like that would be cute. Pls boost and tag your posts #Madodon to find other #mad #TransMad #Queercrip #neuroqueer #neurodivergent #actuallyAutistic etc ppl on here?

wait #disabilityCommunity #MadCommunity should we do a tag like #Madodon to find each other… I feel like that would be cute. Pls boost and tag your posts #Madodon to find other #mad #TransMad #Queercrip #neuroqueer #neurodivergent #actuallyAutistic etc ppl on here?

wait #disabilityCommunity #MadCommunity should we do a tag like #Madodon to find each other… I feel like that would be cute. Pls boost and tag your posts #Madodon to find other #mad #TransMad #Queercrip #neuroqueer #neurodivergent #actuallyAutistic etc ppl on here?

wait #disabilityCommunity #MadCommunity should we do a tag like #Madodon to find each other… I feel like that would be cute. Pls boost and tag your posts #Madodon to find other #mad #TransMad #Queercrip #neuroqueer #neurodivergent #actuallyAutistic etc ppl on here?