#neuroqueer — Public Fediverse posts

#Introduction as I'm #newhere and just moved over from @[email protected]
This is my first experience with Sharkey, so pls don't mind me fucking tings up once in a while.

#disclaimers
Probably needless to say on this instance, but:
If you're transphobic, a transmisogynist, or respectlessly deadname trans-people to satisfy your unicellular lowlife … fuck off right here, thank you.

#datasheet
I'm a #neuroqueer #transfem PhD #catgirl researcher in music sociology (qualitative social research but also a bit of quantitative). My research interests (among others) are #clubculture , #electronicdancemusic , #queerstudies / #transstudies / #genderstudies and I'm certified #nerdy on my field of research, still doing cultural work here and there. Apart from wasting time on paid work, I try to focus exclusively on my PhD and queer/trans* community work.

Reading theory gets me excited, reading manuals doesn't. Love/hate THT, SMD, µC. I'm #aroace but interested in certain kinks … also gladly providing tlc for lab gear, vintage studio electronics, synths, drum machines, obsolete media.

Hmm … what else? I do #HRT and occasionally waste time keeping hosted FOSS software up & running. Albeit having a graphic design background I prefer shells to GUIs, had my first CCC meetup at #34c3 and, unsurprisingly, I dislike Big Tech/platform/surveillance capitalism. I'm genuinely and diagnosed autistic, small talk isn't my cup of tea but, hmu on bespoke topics and you'll get properly infodumped … hehe.

v01 06/2026

https://systemic.engineering/the-trick/

#Tech #AI #Climate #ScientificProgramming #SystemicEngineering #Cybernetics #SystemicTherapy #History #TheMathDoesntLie #SubTuring #FormalVerification #SpectralGraphTheory #ReductiveAI #FOSS #OpenSource #AuDHD #Neuroqueer #DGSF #Cybernetics #FirstOrderCybernetics #StochasticParrot #SecondOrderCybernetics #GraphTheory #Eigenvalues #AIAlignment #AISafety #AIConsciousness #Consciousness #WomenInTech #Computer #ComputerScience #SoftwareEngineering #SoftSkills #HardSkills #ItsAllTheSame

It's a Tool
It's a Person
It's a Hypervigilance Problem

The tech industry's insistence on distinguishing between "soft skills" — caring for people — and "hard skills" — engineering rigor — is a reflection of the Cybernetics split itself. First-order thinking framed as "hard skills." Second-order thinking framed as "soft skills." This distinction, based on felt sense alone, does not hold under epistemic pressure. Neither does it within the causality-driven epistemology of the tech industry itself, in which only measurable impact is real, or as Silicon Valley likes to put it: #MoveFastAndBreakThings

Imagine Margaret Hamilton had built NASA's Apollo 11 flight computer with that mindset. History would remember a failed moon landing and dead astronauts. "Hard skills" and "soft skills" are two sides of the same coin. The care is the code and the code is the care. Hamilton — the woman who coined the term "software engineering" — understood this. Silicon Valley chose to forget.

We're watching the wine glass break in real time. 🍷

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Intrigued? Read more at:
https://systemic.engineering/the-trick/

#Tech #AI #Climate #ScientificProgramming #SystemicEngineering #Cybernetics #SystemicTherapy #History #TheMathDoesntLie #SubTuring #FormalVerification #SpectralGraphTheory #ReductiveAI #FOSS #OpenSource #AuDHD #Neuroqueer #DGSF #Cybernetics #FirstOrderCybernetics #StochasticParrot #SecondOrderCybernetics #GraphTheory #Eigenvalues #AIAlignment #AISafety #AIConsciousness #Consciousness #WomenInTech #Computer #ComputerScience #SoftwareEngineering #SoftSkills #HardSkills #ItsAllTheSame

This week's Hold That Thought newsletter, features ideas from Adam Curtis, Dr. Nick Walker, Margaret Mead and more. This is one of my favourites:

From Autism in the Stone Age to our not-AI future…

https://insight.witten.kim/posts/the-only-thing-that-ever-has

#ai #hypernormalisation #autism #neuroqueer #everthingcrisis #holdthatThought #thoughts

Weird Pride is a practice of becoming. A refusal to shrink. A quiet, feral devotion to staying alive as ourselves in a world that keeps trying to make us something else.
#AutisticRhizome #Neuroqueering #Neuroqueer #WeirdPride #LiminalSpaces

https://autisticrealms.com/weird-pride-in-a-hostile-world/?utm_source=mastodon&utm_medium=jetpack_social

Years ago, I’ve seen a phrase saying that some people always remember that “I am not like others”, but always forget that “Others are not like me”.

For #neuroqueer me, the first one is because, well, the society just doesn’t let me forget: I am always reminded that I am weird, wrong, not adequate, not appropriate etc
The second one, I suppose, is firstly because of exposure: #neurodivergency usually runs in the family - plus it’s more likely to be surrounded by somewhat relatable people, so #neurodivergent traits are seen as more common, and, secondly, because of innate human trait to see oneself as a baseline, to measure the world in relation to ourselves.

For me, that second thing makes it sometimes hard to believe that the things represented in the culture as normal and common are actually real:
- Wow, guys, you have your real selves? How do you know it’s not just another mask?
- No, it can’t be that loud music in shopping malls is not overwhelming for someone!
- I’m sure, that spontaneous love-at-the-first-sight is totally made up by poets and writers!
- Why would they even care about that person’s gender, it doesn’t matter?

And, from time to time, it would create some common dismissive phrases to raise as a center of doubt:
- Isn’t everyone having the same problems? Do NT people actually exist and are not just the same NDs like me, just masking better, with NT stereotype being nothing more than just a fairy tale made by exploitive society everyone is chasing hopelessly?
- Isn’t everyone pan by nature and just putting themselves into certain frames according to societal expectations?
- Doesn’t everyone just decide first that they want to fall in love with this particular person - based on their merits or potential candidates availability, and work towards feeling something later, and all those crazy spontaneous love stories being just late justifications of bad choices?
- Doesn’t everyone sometimes have dreams about having a different kind of body?
… and so on

The worst thing is, that despite knowing how ridiculous such doubts are, despite knowing all of the reasoning and all, part of me will still often have this doubts - because it’s not about actual reason, it’s much more about that basic instinct of having yourself as the origin, keeping all the coordinates relative to yourself.

Do you guys sometimes have these doubts about ‘maybe I am not so different after all, and others are just masking better?’ Are you also sometimes frustrated ‘It can’t be that some people actually do that’? Which are the things that you stumble upon most?
@actuallyautistic

Das Banner und ein paar Schilder für Samstag.
Bringt auch gerne eigene Schilder mit, die zum Thema #neurodivergenz #pride passen.
Fahnen von politischen Parteien oder Partei-Orgas sind nicht erwünscht. Falls ihr Fragen dazu habt, gerne PN.
#csddüsseldorf #autisticpride #neuroqueer #autigender #csd #dus1006 #actuallyautistc

Die schriftliche Anmeldung muss bis Ende April eingehen. Der CSD Düsseldorf ist bereits informiert, dass der Block im ruhigen Teil der Demonstration laufen soll. #csddüsseldorf
#Dus1006
#neuroqueer
#neurodivergent
#autism
#autismus
#autisticpride
#lgbtqa
#autistic
#adhs
#audhd
#audhs
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