#fuckthisnoise — Public Fediverse posts

*sigh* tonight really could be going better for me. Headspace starting to tank, not entirely because of the job info I got today (which really sucks, but tbh, was slightly expected, and only a matter of time).

Suddenly feeling shitty about my appearance and dysphoric over it. Probably not being helped by my lack of estrogen in a year, due to doctors office dicking me around, and then my insurance getting shut off, and now no possible chance of getting back to work, and getting my insurance back.

On top of that, the permanent loss of that insurance, which also would of covered all the transition related care/surgeries I needed as well, which... was more encompassing than most insurance coverage as well. I just... *sigh* I don't know wtf to do at this point.

The weirdest part... The thing that triggered the dysphoria, was Catherine Zeta-Jones' character in Oceans Twelve (Isabel Lahiri), and like, the part that god me at first, was her outfits, but then... her nose. Her fucking nose of all god damn things!

I don't know... I'm just... maybe it's just compounding and making me feel especially worse tonight cause of everything.

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