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The letter
Good morning (or whatever time of the day it is for you) reader. Hope you doing great.
Last night around 9pm I got a digital copy of my letter from the HUS psychiatry. I would not say its neccesarily bad, but it upsetting me. So much time and effort and still no result. I need to meet this doctor or whoever ms maam is in the hyrylä health center who I already seen twice, and now I probably have to go back to her again bc she didnt do any blood tests requests or anything. Im frustrated to the core bc im sure shes freshly out of school and Im her lab rat of studying. So back to circle one again. She will call, the health center send my appointment sms to my old phone number (updated to the new at least 4 times already), months pass by, then the day of appointmenr ms maam call me on the right number asking where the hell I am? So I tell her that I didnt got a single sms then she checks and then finally the sms come to the right place, then i wait… then I go to the appointment stressed out bc I know it will be the same as the previous 2 was… She dont understand me, she force the ssri, she watch me with wide empty eyes, I cry from frustration that my needs and words are being ignored, I leave and wait to get the same letter again… She told me the last time, that she think Im depressed. YES MS MAAM I AM! But not in a clinical way you mean that require all kinds of numbing chemical. Im depressed bc I moved to this country that keep failing me, I try to integrate, I study the language, I try to improve my life but i run into walls about therapy, and relationshow wise too, I run the same fucking circles, I run into people being asshole to me bc Im a foreigner and bc Im not native fluent level in finnish in about 15months of studying, and I cant just run away bc I burnt the bridges behind me and I dont have rich mommy or daddy who wait me in a home. I HAVE NOBODY AND NO HOME TO RETURN TO! Im stuck in this country with a dismissive avoidant man who not touched me in a year now, who drinks daily and triggers my childhood traumas, and the only fucking thing that helped me feel like a person again was my therapist and the therapy I had with her…. its just been on hold for a year now… yes depressed bc my life goes nowhere. There is a difference between finding myself in extreme shit in the past 6 years and not finding the way out+insane amount of trauma waiting to be processed or discussed so I understand why things happened the way they did vs being depressed in a classic way. Whatever…. now its again the patience game. I taking my little 5htp so I sleep better and the theanine that tastes like a bloody roadkill after a week of heatwave rotting…. But at least I feel like a human from those. I still have nobody to talk with or who would emotionally validate me or help me dump my old shit, but I guess thats fine. After all, since I can remember it was always me vs the world. I dealt with everything all alone always so I will deal with it again. If I get money I will try to get appointments time to time with my therapist and manage my shit my own way. Finland kinda failed me again. THAT IS DEPRESSING!
#anxiety #blog #bpd #childhood #demotivation #finland #healing #health #healthanxiety #help #helpme #life #love #medical #mentalHealth #mentalhealth #mielenterveys #misery #psykiatria #psykologia #ptsd #struggles #suomi #terapia #therapy #toxic #trauma #update #writing -
Just swallow it!
Hi reader! Hope you doing well.
Today I had another appointment with this doctor or nurse whoever she is to discuss continuing therapy. Lets say, it aint went well. First of all, the appointment took about 50minutes. It felt like forever. I had this once already but ms maam called me that she have more questions so I needed to go back again. Well I wish I aint woke up for this. She spent the 50 minutes asking me if im sure I dont want to take the ssri…. I told her at least 50 times already that I dont take medication bc my problem can be solved with therapy. In the end she annoyed me long enough with keep pushing the medicine that I told her to give it to me whatever just make the situation move forward even I know that the medication bring out of me the worst. Funny enough she said she dont want to force me when I just agreed like whatever and she said it is not changing anything with therapy. Anyway she made me so frustrated I ended up crying like a bitch. I felt horrible. The other thing she told me at least 50 times is that if I willing to pay monthly 300€for therapy bc kela pays only half. I told her that whatever I will figure out how to pay that while I go to school as I failed that one too thanks to my anxiety and cptsd burnout. It felt like she think im retarded or smt. Rolling the same 2 question like a fucking robot. Also she probably aint speak english well enough bc most of the times she was just stare at me with wide open eyes and bobbing head but it was obvious she have no clue tf I try to say. Anyway she said she discuss with psychiatry if they take me to talk…. “maybe they have time” for me. Well great. Now I understand why every single finnish person I met whos around my age is addicted to weed, alcohol or even heavier drugs. If you cant pay private therapy…. just die whatever. The so called “happiest country of the world”. Anyway, now I waiting again bc its been just almost a year since this whole process started. Im still so damn frustrated. This local health center keep failing me. I seriously hate this place and I have massive stress if I have to go there. In the end I moved forward like absolutely nothing. They pushing and pulling me. Oh lets not mention the missed appointment bc I updated my new phone number in the health center app 3times but they still sent the message to my old phone number. So I have a question for whoever might answer on this. Why do doctors try to force the ssri down on my throat? I mean I am numb enough already and I dont want to take pills just bc why not. Why is this the very first thing they want? It feels like a gun toward my head. I ask for therapy hoping to get guidance and help to figure out and understand my emotions and my traumas and their answer is medication and numbing. Why?
Please let me know in the comments if there is any answer for this question or if you were or are in the same situation. And if you are a person who needs therapy but dont have mommy and daddy who stuff your pockets, PLEASE DONT MOVE TO FINLAND! If you are still here, thanks for reading my post. Take care and I wish you the best!
#blog #bpd #demotivation #diary #finland #healing #health #healthanxiety #help #helpme #life #mentalHealth #mentalhealth #mielenterveys #misery #psykiatria #psykologia #ptsd #saveme #struggles #suomi #terapia #therapy #trauma #update -
Before Grand Theft Autocomplete destroyed most of my industry, I used to say I had something I wished tech company senior management - basically, the C-suite - would understand and take to heart. I haven't got to say it in a while, but feel it needs to be written down somewhere.
So here goes.
If you think you can meaningfully motivate tech workers with company-branded knapsacks and tee-shirts, while senior management pockets bonuses and stock incentives worth 6 or 7 figures, you need to start hiring smarter tech workers.
There is very, very little that is more demotivating than being thrown scraps of useless tat branded with the company logo as a permanent reminder of just how little their contribution is valued.
#software #engineering #SoftwareEngineering #GrandTheftAutocomplete #AI #management #bonuses #bonus #incentive #tat #CEO #CTO #CSuite #motivation #demotivation
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Before Grand Theft Autocomplete destroyed most of my industry, I used to say I had something I wished tech company senior management - basically, the C-suite - would understand and take to heart. I haven't got to say it in a while, but feel it needs to be written down somewhere.
So here goes.
If you think you can meaningfully motivate tech workers with company-branded knapsacks and tee-shirts, while senior management pockets bonuses and stock incentives worth 6 or 7 figures, you need to start hiring smarter tech workers.
There is very, very little that is more demotivating than being thrown scraps of useless tat branded with the company logo as a permanent reminder of just how little their contribution is valued.
#software #engineering #SoftwareEngineering #GrandTheftAutocomplete #AI #management #bonuses #bonus #incentive #tat #CEO #CTO #CSuite #motivation #demotivation
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Before Grand Theft Autocomplete destroyed most of my industry, I used to say I had something I wished tech company senior management - basically, the C-suite - would understand and take to heart. I haven't got to say it in a while, but feel it needs to be written down somewhere.
So here goes.
If you think you can meaningfully motivate tech workers with company-branded knapsacks and tee-shirts, while senior management pockets bonuses and stock incentives worth 6 or 7 figures, you need to start hiring smarter tech workers.
There is very, very little that is more demotivating than being thrown scraps of useless tat branded with the company logo as a permanent reminder of just how little their contribution is valued.
#software #engineering #SoftwareEngineering #GrandTheftAutocomplete #AI #management #bonuses #bonus #incentive #tat #CEO #CTO #CSuite #motivation #demotivation
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Before Grand Theft Autocomplete destroyed most of my industry, I used to say I had something I wished tech company senior management - basically, the C-suite - would understand and take to heart. I haven't got to say it in a while, but feel it needs to be written down somewhere.
So here goes.
If you think you can meaningfully motivate tech workers with company-branded knapsacks and tee-shirts, while senior management pockets bonuses and stock incentives worth 6 or 7 figures, you need to start hiring smarter tech workers.
There is very, very little that is more demotivating than being thrown scraps of useless tat branded with the company logo as a permanent reminder of just how little their contribution is valued.
#software #engineering #SoftwareEngineering #GrandTheftAutocomplete #AI #management #bonuses #bonus #incentive #tat #CEO #CTO #CSuite #motivation #demotivation
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Before Grand Theft Autocomplete destroyed most of my industry, I used to say I had something I wished tech company senior management - basically, the C-suite - would understand and take to heart. I haven't got to say it in a while, but feel it needs to be written down somewhere.
So here goes.
If you think you can meaningfully motivate tech workers with company-branded knapsacks and tee-shirts, while senior management pockets bonuses and stock incentives worth 6 or 7 figures, you need to start hiring smarter tech workers.
There is very, very little that is more demotivating than being thrown scraps of useless tat branded with the company logo as a permanent reminder of just how little their contribution is valued.
#software #engineering #SoftwareEngineering #GrandTheftAutocomplete #AI #management #bonuses #bonus #incentive #tat #CEO #CTO #CSuite #motivation #demotivation
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#Demokratie braucht #Antifaschismus!
#AFDVerbot prüfen - jetzt!Heute mit 5.700 Antifaschist:innen in #Hamburg
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#Demokratie braucht #Antifaschismus!
#AFDVerbot prüfen - jetzt!Heute mit 5.700 Antifaschist:innen in #Hamburg
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#Demokratie braucht #Antifaschismus!
#AFDVerbot prüfen - jetzt!Heute mit 5.700 Antifaschist:innen in #Hamburg
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#Demokratie braucht #Antifaschismus!
#AFDVerbot prüfen - jetzt!Heute mit 5.700 Antifaschist:innen in #Hamburg
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There was a time when it was all the rage to make your own "Demotivation" style posters. This photo I took of a friend's dog practically wrote itself.
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There was a time when it was all the rage to make your own "Demotivation" style posters. This photo I took of a friend's dog practically wrote itself.
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There was a time when it was all the rage to make your own "Demotivation" style posters. This photo I took of a friend's dog practically wrote itself.
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There was a time when it was all the rage to make your own "Demotivation" style posters. This photo I took of a friend's dog practically wrote itself.
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There was a time when it was all the rage to make your own "Demotivation" style posters. This photo I took of a friend's dog practically wrote itself.
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