Jesse'sHeckin'Tech

The state of the world has really done a number on me.

My creative endeavours have been so few and far between, and I've been struggling to just enjoy things. I am constantly in "waiting mode", where I can't just let myself fully engage with anything, because I'm waiting for.. Something. Waiting for what? Who knows. I haven't been able to finish a video in YEARS now.

I do what is strictly necessary to survive, I do my job and do it well, but any personal projects or goals always feel shameful, like a waste of time. I can't seem to enjoy achievements, I can't appreciate praise, I never feel pride..

Is this just an Autism / ADHD thing?
Is this just a natural reaction to this horrific situation we've allowed to spread and fester all around us?

Does anyone else feel like this?