me cosplaying as a neurotypical person =
- spending a TON of energy trying to suppress impulses from my brain.
- feeling extremely frustrated because I cannot concentrate in long enough "bouts of time"
- feeling bad about myself because I am "abnormal"
I don't get any work done because I keep spinning around in circles in my brain.
In stead of work I am only engaging in work-avoidant behaviour: talking, reacting to every sound, scrolling.
This is ALSO making me extremely tired, with extra guilt added on top.
I am happy I found a new way of working for myself that feels more in line with how my brain likes to operate.